#this changes everything (i will forget about this in 5 mins)

[sanskari-kanya]

Guess who got 30/30 on her finals’ viva 😭💃

It was the biggest adventure of my goddamn life.

The viva was scheduled at 3 pm today so I was pretty chill. I was like okay I’ll do the hardest ones till late night, grab some good sleep and wake up a little early to revise the rest.

But my university sent a mail at 10:30 pm, saying ✨surprise motherfuckers, the time is changed to 9:30 am, all the best insufferable freshers✨

Post this mail, I had made peace in accepting that I aint gonna get any sleep tonight and I had to revise 4 subjects till 8 am (minus 30 minutes to get my boogie ass ready because I will never enter the uni looking like crap and 30 more minutes to reach the university)

I started studying around 12 am because all we did was cuss the fuck out of the university and exam managers for a bloody 1.5 hours.

Considering my attention span, my study session lasted for approximately 15 minutes before I opened Pinterest and keep scrolling mindlessly until it was suddenly 2 am 🤩. Then I went for a mindless walk around the hostel, disturbed my bf for a good 15 minutes, and realised he wasn’t giving me any attention because he actually studies and uski fati padi thi so I came back in my room and re-started studying. It continued till 5 am (paired with stress eating, gossiping, watching a documentary)

THEN, I ACCIDENTALLY FELL ASLEEP AT 5 AM AND WOKE UP AT 8 AM!?!? I had to leave at 9 am so there was no bloody chance of revising Histology and Radiology that I very confidently left for the morning 🤗 I left the house at 9 and kept a ppt of histological slides open on my phone so I could at least revise SOMETHING.

If this drama was not enough, here is more :

Me and my friend had decided to pair up for the viva but some dude mishandled the list and jumbled the numbers and I had to beg my classmate to go with a random dude so me and bestie could go tgt.

As I was about to enter the viva room, a physical fight broke pit between two students and my examiner walked out to stop the fight and never returned.

I confidently wrong answered a sub question and made the doctor believe that I was right cus I answered everything else too. 10 in Anatomy ✅

Manually picked the harder examiner for Histology because bestie shat in anatomy so I wanted her to score in Histology with the easier examiner. My reactions to the first two questions- ✨ma’am I don’t know✨ and she was glaring me so bad I cannot explain y’all but then by god’s grace, she asked me more questions (redemption arc) that I answered but she gave me 7.5 so I was like okay, I did shit in the beginning so-

Next was physiology and if y’all weren’t aware of my bad reputation with the professor (George), well now you are 🤗 But then I again had a choice to choose my examiner and I chose my favourite teacher from last semester and George was like ✨why are you not sitting with me huh✨ in the most sarcastic tone ever like i would ever voluntarily chose you , kind sir.

End result, I scored full in physiology too which just proves that my physiology wasn’t a problem, George was the problem!

Last was Radiology. I was scared for my life since I slept and didn’t revise radiology AT ALL. But the examiner was impressed by my marks and gave me 2.5 🙂‍↕️

Now if that still wasn’t enough adventure for you, let me introduce you to my bad math skills. 7.5 in Histology + 2.5 in radiology makes 10 which meant I had scored 30/30 but my dumbass forgot math and thought I scored only 27.5 and went out a little sad.

Then a senior dude asked me how was it and I was like ‘Accha tha bas muje ek baat bata histology ke liye maximum kitna hota hai?’ And he was 7.5 and then it hit me ‘Oh bhaiii fir toh muje full mile hai’ 😭😭😭

I’m never forgetting this day. I narrated this entire thing to my mom twice, once to bf, a 30 min voice note to @hum-suffer and now on tumblr.

[moonlightndaydreams]

The Country Club // MDNI

student (adult aged) Minho x older fem reader (age gap not specified). CW under the cut.

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3 // Part 4 // Part 5 // Part 6 // Part7 // Part 8

CW: violence, attempted sexual assault.

Minho sits on his bed staring at the two pairs of panties he had acquired from your body. This is sick. He can't keep these. Why is he such a creep?

You've made it perfectly clear that this was just a bit of fun for you, and that you have lost interest and moved on. He is determined to do the same.

He bundles up your underwear, ready to toss them in the bin, but he just can't bring himself to actually do it. So back into his bedside drawer they go. Fucking sicko.

It turns out that forgetting you is harder than he thought it would be. Of course it is. You’re still around. It feels like you're everywhere. By the pool, at the bistro, around the grounds. He thinks about you constantly.

You're haunting him.

He's thought about flirting with younger girls in front of you. There's one who works at the country club that look alright enough. She'll do. But he can't bring himself to do it. You seem different. Distant. There's a sadness in your expression, and you're dressing differently. He notes your plain jeans and simple shirt you’ve been wearing. He doesn't think flirting with a girl will make you jealous, but might actually hurt you.

He doesn't want to hurt you. He wishes he could hate you, though.

Finally, after a long afternoon, Minho is on a break. He has managed to avoid you thus far this shift. Such a change from when he would actively seek you out to watch you. He stops by the hedge and whips out his phone, checking messages.

"I said, don't fucking touch me!"

"Come on, I know he doesn't give you the attention you deserve. Can't believe he doesn't fuck you...such a waste.."

"Fuck off."

Minho's blood runs cold. He knows that voice. He rounds the corner to see a man pushing you up against the brick wall. You spit in face.

“Fuckin’ bitch.” He slaps you hard across the cheek.

Minho sees red, sprinting over, pulling the man off you and punching him hard in the jaw.

“Fuck off, cunt.” He growls and the man stumbles away as quick as he can.

Minho’s at your side. “Y/n… fuck.. look at me.” He’s beside himself with worry. “I’m here. It’s okay.” He tilts your face to see some scratches and redness from where you had been slapped. He should have fucking killed him.

“I’m fine.” You manage, fighting back tears.

“You’re not.” He snaps. He wants to protect you.

“Please, Min. I’m okay.” You insist.

“You don’t have to pretend with me.” He whispers and rubs your jaw softly with his thumb. “Come on. At least let me clean you up and get you something to drink.”

——

“Do you know that fucker?” Minho asks as he cleans up your scratch, well aware that he never helped clean you up when he’d bitten you or cum all over you. Minho, there’s something wrong with you.

He’s taken you into a small kitchenette in the staff area of the club. There’s no one else around. No seems to use this one since they built an upgraded staff kitchenette elsewhere.

“He’s one of my husband’s friends.” You say quietly, your eyes downcast.

An anger burns in his chest. “Have any of them…hurt you?” He’s afraid of your answer.

You shake your head. “Usually they just make remarks. Most of the time they ignore me completely.” You say quietly.

He releases a breathe he didn’t know he was holding. “Here. Drink.” He hands you a cup of tea and sits back in the chair across from you.

“I take it your husband doesn’t know about his friends?” He raises an eyebrow.

You shrug. “He probably does. But doesn’t give a shit.” You rub your cheek where the man slapped you.

Minho’s lip twitches. “I’m sorry if I ever hurt you…when we were… you know.” He says awkwardly.

You finally look up and meet his gaze. “You’ve never hurt me, Minho. I enjoyed everything you did to me…you made me feel… alive. I just can’t keep doing it.”

He nods silently in acceptance.

“We don’t even know anything about each other, you know that right?. You add.

“What do you want to know?” He leans his elbows on the table.

“What are you studying?” You ask.

“Law.”

“Favourite hobby?”

“Dancing and cooking.”

“How old are you?”

“How old do you think I am?”

You shrug. “Twenty two?”

Minho smirks. “I’m twenty five. Almost twenty six. Not really a boy, huh?”

“How old you think I am, then, smart ass?” You glare at him suspiciously.

He squints his eyes like he’s trying to be careful with his guess. “Forty.” He concludes.

“Forty?” You shriek and Minho laughs. “I’m fucking thirty one. Do I really look forty?”

Minho is almost in tears. “But your husband is so old… and the way you carry yourself seems… mature.”

You look absolutely horrified.

“No, Noona… I mean y/n… you don’t look forty I promise. I just thought must really take care of yourself.”

“Fine. Let’s not talk about this any longer.” You wave your hand in the air.

“You know? We’re not really that far apart in age afterall.” He notes.

“We’re lifetimes apart, Minho.” You say solemnly and sigh. You pull out your phone and check the time.

“I really should go. I’m really not… I was never… trying to lead you on or anything. I’m so sorry.” You stand up, tears welling up in your eyes

Minho stands too. “Just tell me why. Why you suddenly don’t want to be near me? I thought we had a spark? I’ve never felt anything like it.” He admits.

The tears finally spill. “It can’t end well and I just don’t want to hurt you.” You say and walk towards the door.

Minho watches you leave. “But I’m already hurting.” He says to himself.

A/n: I really didn’t intend for things to get heavy and angsty. But here we are. I promise there will be a somewhat happy ending.

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[dazed--xx]

🦋Paper Hearts🦋

Summary: Pictures I'm living through for now, Trying to remember all the good times. Our life was cutting through so loud; Memories are playing in my dull mind. I hate this part, paper hearts And I'll hold a piece of yours; Don't think I would just forget about it……Hoping that you won't forget about it

Member: Seungmin x Reader

T/W: Break Ups, arguments crying, heartbreak, ANGST…, swearing, yelling, sad ending, slight shoving nothing too crazy, some emotional manipulation, problem avoidance, denial, (subtle mention to woojin via blacked out photo he existed people he was in the group once)

Word Count: 2.3K

Remember the way you made me feel, Such young love but Something in me knew that it was real; Frozen in my head….

You stared at the ground, the room felt smaller as Seungmin glared at you. “You think you're so perfect? You're overbearing. You nag me at all hours of the day and I can't stans it anymore” He growls harshly. You felt minuscule under his gaze. “All I was saying was you could prioritize our relationship a little bit more, Min…I can't wait around for you forever…” you state breathlessly. Tears threatened to fall as your eyes remained on your lap. “You're being selfish, Y/N if you can't handle that I'm busy then maybe this relationship is too much for you….” He threatens with a scowl. “You're right” you let out breathlessly as you nod in agreement, throwing him off guard. He hadn't expected you to agree, he stares at you in utter shock and disbelief. He struggles to find something to say, he watches in horror as you lift yourself from your spot on the couch and make your way to the door.

“W-Wait..” his call is cut off by the sound of the door closing behind you. He sighs breathlessly as everything replays in his mind. His heart cracks at the harsh words he had spit at you replaying in his mind. This can't be happening….He couldn't just let this happen.…he rushes out of the door after you. His legs move quickly as he sees the elevator door closing behind you, he slams his finger on the elevator button rapidly. His hand shakes at his side as tears build in his eyes. Once the second elevators door opens he's greeted with a bright eyed Felix and Jeongin with their manager stood behind them.

“Hey, sorry we have a schedule come up. You can't go anywhere…” Felix states patting his shoulder. Seungmins heart fell into his gut. “N-No, I-I'll be fast. I need to go…” He stammered trying to go around them to get on the elevator. Their manager stands in front of of him with his arms crossed “Unless it will be less than 5 minutes, I can't let you go. We have to leave for Japan in 45 minutes…so go pack.” He states firmly. Seungmin tries once again to get into the elevator but relents when he see that their manager will not budge. He stomps to his room and tries to call you. Dammit….he thinks to himself when the call goes unanswered. He texts you hoping you will reply and things would be okay.

As you walked home, you allowed the tears to stream down your cheeks. It's over….you think in disbelief. These past 5 years turned to nothing in a matter of minutes. You felt so stupid for caring. Seungmin had changed, he grew and realized who he truly was and you didn't fit in anymore. While you still saw each other every day, you rarely ever stopped fighting; Either due to your ‘nagging’ or his tirades. You remembered when things were different. When Seungmin seemed to love you unconditionally. You're pulled out of your thoughts by your phone's ringtone. Pulling the device out of your pocket, you're greeted with Seungmins contact with a sigh; you press the decking button.

You unlock your door and trudge your way through your apartment. The darkness oddly comforting as you make your way to your bedroom and lay on your bed. You sob as you release all your pent up anger and hurt. Your body trembles as you drift off to a restless slumber.

Pictures I'm living through for now, trying to remember all the good times…Our life was cutting through so loud; Memories are playing in my dull mind. I hate this part, paper hearts and I'll hold a piece of yours….Don't think I would just forget about it; Hoping that you won't forget about it….

You had realized your relationship with Seungmin had ended long before your argument with him the other day. It was when you both had first begun to hit a snag in your relationship. You both still loved each other but, it was clear you no longer could see eye to eye. Everything you did seemed to annoy Seungmin. And his lack of time and busy schedule began to affect you more and more as Stray Kids’ popularity grew. So, while Seungmin was in Japan; you decided to pack up the memories of your time with Seungmon and return them to his dorm. Trying to make this break up as clean as possible.

So here you sat, on the ground as you stared at the photos that mocked you. Your heart shattered on the floor as the memories sat in front of you, replayed in your mind. Picking one picture up, you give yourself a sad smile as a younger version of you and your ex smiled back at you. His members littering the frame The day you guys had made things official.

Stray kids had just debuted and had a small album release party. You sat sandwiched between the clubs couch cushion and Seungmin. A blush decorated your cheeks as Seungmin placed a soft kiss on your cheek. A shy smile forming on your lips as butterflies fluttered in your stomach. “Smile!” a staff member exclaimed excitedly as Jisung jumped on the back of the couch and Felix laid across you and Seungmin’s laps. Chan sat on the opposite side of Seungmin with his arms pinning Hyunjin to Minho in a big hug. Jeongin sat on the floor with a blacked out faced person beside him. As a flash blinded you for a moment.

You sighed wiping your tears as you place the picture in the box as you lift another one. Your fingers trace over the photo outlining your beaming boyfriend as he, Jeongin and you were celebrating their first win.

“I never thought a simple hunk of metal would cause so much chaos” Jeongin joked as he stared at the trophy. Seungmin sniffled as he snatches the trophy from the maknae. “We practically died for this…” Seungmin states with astonishment. You beamed at the pair proudly. “I can't believe I saw Minho-oppa cry.” you joke, Seungmin chuckles “he cried when Jyp kicked him out of the group.” you rolled your eyes with a giggle “If I recall correctly you broke down in tears and needed a moment when he was eliminated.” you counter “but that was on t.v for me this was in person!” you stare at the trophy. A large M on the small head of the little statue. “I mean you guys deserved this anyway, Miroh is a good song. And Stay have been fighting for this” You state matter of factly. The boys nod proudly. “Ugh I need a picture” Jeongin groans as he pulls his phone out. Seungmin holds the trophy up with a surprised look as you pose with a peace sign and a smile.

Your thoughts are cut off by an influx of calls and messages on your phone. You place the rest of the photos in the box as you go to check your notifications. You see the flurry of missed calls and texts from Seungmin. You wince as you delete them, still not being able to find it in yourself to block him. Though you would never admit it to anyone, you kept up with Seungmin’s activities. You have seen the photos and videos of him from Japan. As proud and happy as you were for Seungmin, it hurt. It hurt to see him completely fine despite your last conversation.

Though he constantly called and texted you, the last time you had checked them; you were utterly disappointed with the contents. They were overly nonchalant, never once addressing your argument nor the subsequent breakup. He acted like nothing ever happened, which infuriated you. He was completely unaffected, riding the wave of stardom. So, you stopped reading them, you refused to listen to his cheerful voicemails and completely went silent as he spent his time in Japan. Finishing packing his things you close the box and place it in your car. Once you reach the dorms you leave the box with one of the managers that stayed behind to keep an eye on the dorm. You felt a heavy sting in your heart as you drive home.

Everything is gray under these skies, wet mascara. Hiding every cloud under a smile; When there's cameras. and I just can't reach out to tell you. That I always wonder what you're up to….

Seungmin’s hands shake as he tries to call you again. These past few weeks have been agony. He was able to fake a smile when with the fans or on stage but, as he sat in his hotel room all he could do was break down in tears and sobs. You hadn't spoken to him in weeks….All he could look forward to was being able to finally see you again. He'd do anything to fix this, he'd never gone this long without one of your calls or texts while he was on a tour. It made him nauseous, he couldn't handle the memory of your last conversation so, he ignored it. He knows your relationship was stronger than being able to be destroyed by a few select words he didn't mean.

Even as time went on and his calls and texts remained unanswered, he felt in his heart that once he was able to see you everything would fall back into place. He just needed to get through this flight and he'd be with you again. He'd hear your beautiful voice and see your bright smile shining at him again and things would be perfect again.

Seungmin felt butterflies in his stomach as he made his way through Incheon International. He felt an excited buzz through his body as he sat in the van making his way to the dorm. Everyone stretches and drops their bags in their rooms as they all rush to get some much-needed rest. Seungmin halts as he notices an unfamiliar box seated on his bed. He stares at it with confusion as he pulls it open. His legs felt numb as he examined the contents. His heart cracking with every gifts and picture he had pulled out of the box, clothes you've accumulated of his over the past 5 years. No…This isn't happening…He thinks to himself as he shakes his head. He calls you in a panic. Your phone goes straight to voicemail, desperation fills him as he quickly rushes out of the dorm.

I live through pictures as if I was right there by your side. But you'll be good without me and if I could just give it some time…..I'll be alright

You were sitting on your couch watching the finale of ‘My Demon’ as you heard rapid knocks at your door. Pausing the show, you stare at your door confused making your way over. Staring through the peephole you see Seungmin standing there. Opening the door slightly with a heavy sight and roll of your eyes; you stare at him through the gap. “Can I help you, sir?” you question sarcastically. “Y/N…” Seungmin breathes out with relief as his eyes scan your face. He tries to shove the door open more, trying to get a better view of you. His heart cracking slightly when it doesn't budge. “Why are you here, Seungmin?” you question, your eyes focused on the ground. “I-I wanted to see you…” He trails “W-Why is there a box of my stuff in my room? Y/N, what's going on? Why won't you let me in?” he asks in denial. His eyebrows scrunched together in confusion as he tries to open the door again.

“Because…” you respond stoically “Seungmin, we aren't together anymore.” you fight back tears as you speak. Seungmin stares at you in disbelief. “N-No…come on. Let's just talk about this….” he pleads. You shake your head in response.

“Y/N, please….” his voice is small and pleading as he shoves on the door as hard as he can, forcing it open. His hands encase your face as he tries to get you to look at him. “Seungmin…” you sigh, your eyes focused on the ground. You hear a cry erupt from his throat, “No! Please…just—just look at me, please” he begs as he places his forehead on yours. “I love you. Please don't break up with me…I'm sorry…”

“Min, don't lie to yourself…”

He stares at you in horror as you continue to refuse to meet his eyes “I'm not…”

“You are…you don't love me. You're just used to me…but you're annoyed with my presence”

“Baby, no…” his voice is just above a whisper “I swear I love you. I love you more than anything. I don't want to lose you” He cries wrapping his arms around your waist as you continue to stare at the ground. “Look at me please!” he urges. Your eyes finally meet his and god, does Seungmin wish they hadn't. Your gaze is filled with heartbreak and disappointment. He took a step back for a moment letting his arms fall to his sides as you stared daggers at him. “Leave Seungmin….now,” you demand. He shakes his head taking hold of your hand. “Please don't make me…I'm sorry for what I said that day. Please, I didn't mean it…i can prioritize our relationship. I'll do whatever you want! Please stay with me…” He pleads with tear filled eyes. His nose a bright red.

You shake your head in response “I can't…”

“Please, I love you…you’re everything to me. D-Don’t do this…”

You close your eyes as you slowly shove Seungmin out of your apartment. Ignoring his pleas as he grips your hand tightly. “Please…baby please” He cries one more time as he's finally outside. You shake your head “I'm sorry, Min. I love you, I do but I need to love myself again…everything was too much and I just can't handle it. Please leave…I won't be changing my mind. It's over Seungmin…” you state sadly as you close the door.

Goodbye love, you flew right by love

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Taglist: @yangbbokari @havenwithleeknow

[ughgoaway]

i guess this would be pre teacher/reader but i saw a tiktok about baby wearing and all i can think about is matty trying it with annie when she was much younger and him just going about his day with annie strapped to his chest asleep especially in the studio with the boys 🥺

anon. this has literally been rotting my brain since you sent it. I can't stop thinking about it.

I'm envisioning new dad matty, his mum has been staying with him for a few weeks and has just left and he is so fucking overwhelmed. it's been 2 hours and he can't get Annie to go to sleep, any time he tries to put her down she just screams bloody murder. and to make matters worse, he absolutely has to be at the studio in an hour to fix this song.

matty is shushing her and bouncing her around when he remembers something carly and Adam got him before Annie arrived, some weird baby wrap thing he never thought he'd use. he quickly scavenges around her room for it (Annie is still in his arms because he values his ear drums) and manages to find it squished behind some piles of clothes he has yet to put away.

at first when he pulls it out of the box, he is fucking baffled. it's just a long strip of stretchy fabric and matty has no idea what to do with it. but the second he puts her down to try and figure it out, the screaming starts again.

so he looks up a YouTube video, props his phone up against the kettle, and tries to follow this lovely woman's tutorial. it looks easy enough, tie a knot here, loop this bit through there, and so on.

it takes him a few goes. The first couple attempts look like matty lost a fight with this fabric, but soon enough... "Aha! fuck you stupid fabric!" he says triumphantly. he had to put Annie down to really figure it out so the last 10 minutes were filled with the desperate cries of his 3 month old but he thinks he's got it.

so he picks her up and slips her in, and there she is, wrapped up against his chest. and finally... silence. no cries. no screaming. just silence.

well annie might not be crying, matty feels pretty fucking close considering how exhausted he is. but any anger or frustration just melts away when he looks down at her, Annie's eyes have finally fluttered closed and she's fast asleep on his chest.

it brings him back to the day she was born, the skin to skin he did with her just minutes after. he'll never forget the instant love and complete devotion he felt in that moment. and having her now, slightly less gross, sitting fast asleep on him brings everything back.

before he starts crying (again) over how beautiful his daughter is and how much he loves her, he gets a disgruntled phone call from George who has been waiting outside for 5 mins to walk with matty to the studio.

now with both hands free matty can grab the baby bag, his phone and his keys and run down to meet George.

when he comes out George is leaning on the wall outside fully engrossed in his phone, that is until he catches a glimpse of matty and immediate begins to crack up.

"Oh, mother dearest, what do we have here?" he teases, walking over to matty whose eyes are sunken and hair is sticking up in every direction. last time George saw him this frazzled was after he first found out he was having Annie and wasn't exactly coping well with the news, how times have changed.

"Oh shut up, will you. she wouldn't stop crying unless I held her, and I quite like having 2 arms, so I grabbed this thing carly gave me and wrapped her up. and look how cute and happy she is, George. "

matty spins around and shows George Annie's sleeping face, and he's never seen his friend just immediately melt before his eyes. George simply gasps and brings his finger up to gently stroke her cheek, Annie grumbles slightly and wiggles but soon settles back into her place in her dad's chest.

"Dude." George says, flicking his eyes from Annie to matty, "she's the cutest baby ever. don't tell Adam and carly I said that, tho"

matty just laughs and nods, both men staring with such love at little Annie Healy.

she sleeps the whole walk there and through Adam and Ross arriving, who both have similar reactions to George. After the initial teasing, both men crumble at the sight of their best friend being a dad.

"god, how did you make something so cute??" Adam jokingly says.

"Can I try this wrap thing too??? you look stupid, but she's so happy I just need to do this, " says Ross, who's rubbing her back softly through the layers of fabric.

matty agrees and says once she's awake, he's free to have a try. She stays asleep for a little bit, but as soon as mattys voice rings out of the speakers, she perks up. Big brown eyes blinking up at matty with a gummy grin to match. Once each man sees that, they all want a turn wearing her.

of course, they somehow turn this into a competition.

Ross claims he's her favourite because Annie simply stares up at him with wide eyes the whole time she's strapped to him, smile not leaving her face. he even plays bass with her still attached to him, a new skill he's very proud of. he keeps his hair safely in his bun, though, not wanting her to get a grip. (Annie does later become obsessed with Ross' hair because who wouldn't?)

George claims he's the favourite because she makes the most gargling noises when he has her. he walks her around the room, talking to her and explaining the studio. "So this is soundproof padding Annie, basically it's so other people don't have to hear when your dad does a shit take" "Oi! don't swear at my child George. and don't slag me off!!"

adam claims he's the favourite because, "I'm just a natural. look how chill she is. " Annie is very chill with him, just kinda enjoying life and vibing. no nonsense, just a happy little girl.

matty knows she's happiest with him though, as soon as she feels the rhythm of his heart and smells her dad, she just falls right asleep. the closer she can get, the better.

so needless to say, the baby wrap is a hit, and Annie becomes the hottest fashion accessory for the men of the 1975. the day she finally grows out of it is a sad, sad day for them all.

(this is what I mean when I'm talking ab the wrap btw <3)

more blurbs for this au here!!

[avianyuh]

I'll Call You; Jaehyun (part 2)

~Jaehyun's POV~

parts: 1 2 3?

It had been over a month since that fight between Y/n and I. In the heat of the moment I was mad, but thinking about it now...it was an overreaction.

I had spent the night, for over three years we had been sneaking around. Around last year is when I started openly showing up at her dorm, getting to know her members, friends. Even knew her manager.

The morning of the fight, I had told her that I had to leave, I had a recording session later that day. It had been around 9 in the morning, I didn't have to be at the studio until 5.

I was packing my stuff, she was still on the bed, laying on her side with her body weight resting on one arm. This was one of my favorite moments with her, just the two of us. I was searching the bedroom floor for my shirt when I heard her start to say something. Like she was inhaling. I looked up at her and turned my head to the side, a silent, 'You wanted to say something?'

That's when she asked if I could stay a little longer.

I'll admit, it was tempting and I couldn't help but allow a small smile to creep up on me. But I'm not exactly sure, but something changed my demeanor in a matter of seconds.

I had to remind myself that a relationship would be too complicated. Too nerve-racking for the both of us. There was a reason why the relationship was kept so vague in the first place. She was making everything more complicated than it had to be, I told myself.

And that's when I snapped.

"I thought what we had going on was enough? Now you want more? I mean...what the fuck Y/n? You spring this on me now. What do you expect me to say?", I said. I knew it sounded harsh, but I was defensive. The fight had happened so fast, I had no filter.

She told me to just forget it, she didn't mean it. But by that point, I knew I had not only sent out a harsh message that I'm not even 100% certain I meant, and now she was hurt. All I knew was that I had to get out of there before I said anything else.

I came up with some bullshit answer, "But now I feel like you want more from me. You know Y/n I just think we need a break for awhile okay, I'm busy with work right now anyways so i'll call you in a few weeks", but before I left she stopped me.

"I'll let you go but can I just say one thing", I looked over at her and waiting for her to continue. "If you would give me a bit more to work with, I wouldn't have asked in the first place, because I would've known you were busy. I had no idea you were preoccupied with work because you never tell me about any of that. Plus I thought the deal was that we only see each other when we're both not busy?"

And yet again, I was angry. To be fair, I DID have work later that day, so yes, I was busy. But I just couldn't believe it, she was making everything so complicated.

The last thing I had said to her was, "Oh, so now you're trying to twist my words. Like I said, I'll call you in a few weeks."

Now a month had passed. I didn't even know what I would say to her.

But because I had time to think, not only did I regret everything, but now I just don't know how to face her. Part of me wants to coincidentally run into her, the other part doesn't.

About two weeks after the fight, I had assumed things were over since she hadn't called me. At the time I was still felt like the anger was simmering. I still didn't know why though. Why was I angry at her asking me to stay with her for a few more hours?

Since I couldn't come up with a solid answer, I just decided to ignore the problem all together. I had been going out with friends and members almost every night, people from the company, one of which was Min-jeong, or Winter.

I could tell she liked me, I didn't really care, I was just looking for the company. I just wanted to get my mind off of things. Plus, I only really ever went out with her in a group.

This leads me to the current situation. Johnny, Doyoung, Jungwoo, and I went out with some other SM staff and artists, her included.

We were all sitting at a restaurant, all quietly talking, when I had turned to Johnny and said something. To this, she grabbed my arm and laughed playfully. Johnny looked at me suspiciously and raised his eyebrow. He had known about my relationship with Y/n and was of the first people I had spoken too after the fight we had. He was the one who told me I freaked out on her because I was the one who was afraid of commitment. I told him he was crazy, that a lack of commitment had nothing to do with the argument, but deep down, I was beginning to think he was right.

When we all got up to leave, I told Winter that I'd see her around which she seemed disappointed to hear. The more time I spent thinking about it, the fight I mean. The dumber I sounded in my head every time I tried to justify my actions. The things I said, the fact that I hadn't even texted her, let alone called to apologize.

So the next morning, the first thing I did was send Y/n a text, simply put: Can we talk?

She didn't respond immediately, so I sat around for a bit, glancing at my phone over and over again. But 10 minutes later I heard my phone go off. I felt my heart rate increase, but as I read her message, I felt it sink.

There's nothing to talk about.

'Nothing to talk about? I don't think so', I thought to myself.

So I texted her back: I just want to see you and apologize. I was a massive dick.

Another 5 minutes went by before she responded: Oh? I see that your new girlfriend has made you a better person, I don't want to talk to you. Leave me ALONE.

To this, I didn't know what to say. What girlfriend? Who told her I had a girlfriend? Did she see me with someone and got the wrong idea?

So texted her back: What are you talking about? I don't have a girlfriend, the only person I'm seeing is you.

All I got in response was: Bullshit.

When I responded back with a, 'I really need to talk to you', the message wouldn't send, signaling that I was blocked.

'Shit', I thought to myself. 'I have to fix this'.

_______________________________________________

{A/N: Hewoooo, so I know I said I'd only be doing two parts, but halfway through writing this, I realized I'd rather make this a 3 or 4 parter. Depends on how I write part 3. Sorry for taking so long to come out with part 2 btw, I've been doing a lot of school work lately and my GPA fell🤧so I'm trying to make it up. If anyone has any tips for that plz let me know lol. Piece of advice; DO NOT TAKE AN INTERCESSION CLASS IF IT'S NOT URGENT LMAO, cuz that's what ruined my grade.

But anyways, I'm having fun with this series, like I said, I think part 3 will be the finale, but I'll see how it goes while writing it. Part 3 could be out the day after this part, or a month later, I'm like CoryXKenshin, you never know when I post lol, the difference is that I write fanfics on Tumblr}

[bitchofdarkness]

Title: 5+1: Unlucky Seo-jin Pairing: Kim Yeong-hu/Kang Seok-chan Rating: Teen and Up-Audiences Word count: 2,7k Summary: Five times Min Seo-jin accidentally saw Kang Seok-chan and Kim Yeong-hu all couple-y and one time he went looking for it.

Excerpt:

1. A successful mission meant a week of freedom. Seo-jin had planned to use it for gaming and partying– meeting up with his friends outside the military and of course to spend time with his family. Unfortunately Dong-jun had managed to piss off his parents enough for them to outright refuse to let him come home and Seo-jin took pity on him out of the goodness of his heart.

This was how they ended up in a bathhouse to relax. He was scrubbing his legs ferociously when he heard something on the other side of the wall parting the washing stations. 

“Babe, I'd appreciate an answer,” the guy said, whose voice he recognized from somewhere. Now, it wasn't unusual to call your close friend babe, but to do it in a bathhouse was next level comfortable. “Come on, Yeong-hu-ya, do you rather want to eat tteokbokki or jjajangmyeon?” The guy said and Seo-jin unmistakably identified him as Seok-chan, who apparently was on a very informal level with Sergeant Kim. 

Without looking, he slapped Dong-jun next to him and then motioned for him to stay silent, when he was about to complain. He pointed at the wall and then his ear to convey he was supposed to listen. 

“Will you be the one who cooks?” The Sergeant asked and even the tone of his voice had changed drastically. Seo-jin's eyes were bugging out and he could see Dong-jun had a similar reaction and even went as far as standing up to look over the wall discreetly. 

He instantly sat back down. Eyes wide as he looked at Seo-jin, “Dude!” he whispered. 

“I know!” Seo-jin whispered back. 

“Do you see a ring on this finger?” Seok-chan replied in such a sassy tone that Seo-jin could only sit and stare to digest this information. “No, I was thinking tteokbokki and grilled meat at this small restaurant we went to last time.” Seok-chan continued, “You can buy me some beef.”  

Seo-jin could hear the sergeant grunt in displeasure and then there was splashing of water and a shocked exclaim from Seok-chan. “Why am I the one buying you beef again?” 

AGAIN? Dong-jun mouthed at Seo-jin. 

“Simple, Yeong-huya, you're the one with the higher salary,” Seok-chan replied matter of fact. Seo-jin was flabbergasted and when he looked over at Dong-jun the guy wasn't doing any better. 

Seo-jin was about to just rinse himself off and go to the tubs to relax and forget he ever heard anything of this, when the sergeant suddenly thought it was a great idea to give him a full tmi. “I'd rather get a massage after this. I don't think the water will do much.”

Seok-chan sighed, “Why didn't you say something earlier? We could've picked a place that got both.” 

“Not that kind of massage.” Yeong-hu told him and Seo-jin could feel his world view collapse. Everything else could've been just shenanigans between friends, but this was pretty fucking gay. 

“Oh.” Seok-chan sounded less shocked and more excited. “Perhaps I should cook after all.”

“Perhaps you should, Seok-chan-ah.”

Yeah, they were in gay love and now Seo-jin and Dong-jun knew without any clue how to react to that newly found info. How weird it was to know your two comrades– one of them your superior– were going to fuck today and probably any other day too. 

He distinctly remembered that it was considered a felony within the military and decided to just forget about it. Seo-jin hoped Dong-jun would do the same. 

Really, he just wanted to not think of those two for as long as he could. 

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[casualpeanutcollection]

Analyzing the fight from Underverse 0.7-2

I was analyzing the whole fight and noticed how fe’s tactic has slight difference from the tactic fe was using in the comic

He’s usually fast to leave, never plays around and can be cruel because of it, in short he tries to end everything fast as possible

But here It looked like he was playing around because he had so much opportunities that he never used, when in the comic fe would never miss the said opportunities

Fe in comic tries to make things go as fast as possible but here it seemed like fe was not bothered by the time he wasted and the way he fights implies how he most likely was just exploring the surface of the whole situation

Fe is unbothered in comic bc before the whole fight thing he always does research in case of unseen situations but here’s the catch, XGaster is now inside the world that cannot be entered easily and well, doing research on XGaster is not something that easy considering old man has magical button that can change your whole being

Fe doesn’t know what he wants to know about him an he admits it inderectly

I was also bothered by the drastic change in the personality fe had in his 5 min screen time. If at first fe was just unstable, inpatient, and overall playful, then by the end we don’t see any of it

I can say fe’s main goal was to gain information and so he was acting provocative to make XGaster act (knowing fe’s tendency to be self-neglectful he might have been trying to make XGaster use overwrite on him)

Let’s not forget how fe can act and pretend to be smn entirely different, as we seen from side comic five nights at fatal’a when he lures sans into trap by acting vulnerable

But as we see from the end being provocative didn’t work and fe (who seemed to be expecting it) hasn’t gained what he needed to know (loser /affectionate)

I do have theory but for now let’s just say fe was in silly goofy mood :]

[fiammee]

Hello, how are you? Hope the playing session in the last week was good!

So, for the question for this weekend since I got to listen to Jon's composition... What are you top 5 of his solo compositions and why?

Heyyyy my dear and welcome❤️ finally finished school, waiting for the final exam :)

Actually I didnt get to play on last sunday bc our teacher got sick like 30 mins before the show😭😭 hopefully hes good now and tomorrow we might play again, crazy story😵‍💫

Lets start (its always so difficult to do a good placing but lets try🥲):

5) Before I Forget

A good mix of pure rock 'n' roll, ballads and english folk/medieval music. Also his arrangement of the Bach Toccata and Fugue "Bach onto this" with Cozy Powell on drums (fantastic work of his) is so nice to listen to.

4) Gemini Suite

The "sequel" of the Concerto, with each movement based on a different member of the deeps. You can clearly see his interest in the zodiac (Gemini being his sign, and every musician that participated had their sign and birthday too!). This work stands out from the previous one obv bc Its orchestral, but also because you can feel that his music is mostly not melodic or follows an harmony, but it's "organized noise", bizarre jingles, sound effects (like percussion parts) and sound walls that are so fascinating and unconventional to me. Also his collaboration on the 3rd movement with Yvonne Elliman (really nice singer, you should check her work!). My favourite movements are Piano, Drums and Organs.

3) Sarabande

Another tribute of his love to Bach and Baroque dances (every piece maintains the name of the specific dance) where he kept the original time signatures but experimented more with the electric-acoustic interaction between instruments. Sarabande (track) is hypnotic and captivating, and Gigue has a beautiful continuous piano part that sets the rythm :)

2) Boom Of The Tingling Strings

One of his later and first orchestral-only works. If I remember correctly he got this title from a poem about a childs experience with being under a grand piano, and the thing that stands out for him is that "unexpectedly violent" sound, recalling his childhood (so cute☺️). He wrote a piano part so complex compared to his skills that got played only by a concert pianist (Nelson Goerner), so I consider this work to be also one of his most challenging, both in technique and expression; very atmospheric piece, with melancholic inspirations from the 900' revolutionary composers (take this personal view with a grain of salt: im no professional in judging correctly this kind of music😭 but the piano solo part in the middle of Allegro Giusto reminds me of the Prokofiev's War Sonatas, more precisely the 6° in A Major: again this was composed during the middle of a the 2° world war and the sovietic dictatorship, and the music perfectly shows the chaos that took place in people's minds: I've got the same "out of place" feeling with Jons music and its mindblowing for me). Altough I wrote an essay here its still too little to describe this incredible piano concerto 😌

1) Concerto For Group And Orchestra

I want to put the Concerto still on no. 1 bc of the huge impact it had both musically and socially aswell. A first approach of combining popular and élite music in 1969, a revolutionary period where the younger generations wanted to change the old post-war sistem that moved everything, so the union of young-old was visionary enough. He made this work with a strict deadline and in basically no time, probably going burnout after burnout: but he still managed to kick asses and showed his early genius to the world, making Ritchie mad enough (I bet to this very day) ❤️❤️❤️

This was a bit long, ooops🤣 but you gave me the right occasion to talk about it in a free manner, so thanksss dear💋 (I know that I have to still make a review abt your fic gal, I wish to find the proper time soon😭)

[highwarlockkareena]

I was tagged by @eohachu and @thitiponqs 🥰🔥 thank you!

1. why did you choose your url?

from my old old fandom shadowhunters & my love of magnus bane - the high warlock of brooklyn. i really should change it but i am incredibly lazy.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

i always said i'd never have one - but then got into kpop and spam so many gifs i made a kpop sideblog @junsfangs to save all of you (i'm sorry that's a lie i still spam here)

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

end of 2015

4. do you have a queue tag?

nope but almost everything is queued

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

i wanted to scream about star wars

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

because there aren't many bi desi women and certainly none as kickass as margo hason my beloved

7. why did you choose your header?

wei wuxian is another beloved bicon blorbo

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

had to wait 10 mins for tumblr top to tell me but it's: this one about foreshadowing in the untamed

9. how many mutuals do you have?

no clue - 20? 30?

10. how many followers do you have?

I had about 12k i think but now I use the xkit hide followers so no idea - probably scared off most of those!

11. how many people do you follow?

not many - 100ish? I love to use tags to find stuff as i hate a fast dash

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

oh yes

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

not as often as i check discord but too much!

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

back in an earlier fandom but now i just block and move on

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts

no.

16. do you like tag games?

ofc! i try to do them asap or i forget tho 😔

17. do you like ask games?

sure!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

all of them!

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

i love all my mutuals (platonically) 🥺

20. tags

@sandushengshou @lan-xichens @gege @beefleef @khaotungsfirst @hoppipolla

[lunarsun12]

Clumsy Mini Minion

Masterlist

The broken Lego saga has strike again, Hongjong was curious about seonghwa new built Lego. Apparently it can make noises and the can see the inside. What Hongjong didn’t realise, he may have pulled too hard on the wings and it snapped off.

The guy tried to fix it but ended up making it worse. He immediately know what he does best and hide the nearest room he can find.

What will Seonghwa reaction will be?

Mingi Created the Chat:

Save Scared Tiny Guy From Angry Bunny

Today 13:00

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: MINGI! I’m not scared, just startled!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Also what did I say stop calling me short!!

Mingi🦄: Then stop hiding in Yunho room!

Yeosang🍗: Appa hiding? What did he do to Eomma?

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: YEOSANG! Stop going on your phone! You supposed to hanging out with me! YOU PROMISED!!

Yeosang🍗: There’s drama! Isn’t that like your middle name?

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: I create drama! Not watch other people drama! That Jongho job!

Yeosang🍗: Give me 10mins and I want to see Appa getting killed!

San🗻: Hmmm why is the family chat name is werid…? Where is Eomma? I should add him

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: NO! DO NOT ADD HIM! I WILL BE SO DEAD DEAD

San🗻: -^- don’t yell at me! I won’t add Eomma in

Yunho🐶: Appa? Tell everybody what you told me about Eomma stuff…

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: I told you there is nothing to worry about…Mingi is overreacting like usual. Now you kids run along now. Nothing to see here!

Jongho🍎: Appa….broke Eomma Star Wars Lego….you know the one he spent a week on….

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Jongho have you been listening outside of Yunho door!

Jongho🍎: No. I was there when you broke it and fled to the nearest room. Happened to be Yunho’s

Yeosang🍗: Get to the point! I have 5 mins left before wooyoung starts to bite me! FYI we in public!!

San🗻: Just say you are sorry! Maybe he can forgive you!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: NO! I just can’t okay!

Jongho🍎: Appa broke Eomma other Lego set…the one with the big tree…2 weeks ago…

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Again? How did you know!!

Jongho🍎: It’s not like…I’m following you whatsoever…

Mingi🦄: Let’s help Appa! He is so scared!

Yeosang🍗: Why? He broke it? He should not hide and face the old man!

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Yeosang your 10mins is up! Put that phone away before I unleash my fangssss

Yeosang🍗: 10mins is up already!? Fine fine, got to go!

There was a scream…

Back At Ateez Chat

Seonghwa🌸: WHO BROKE MY STAR WARS!!

Yunho🐶: I dunno…how about you calm down…maybe that person won’t feel scared

Seonghwa🌸: CALM DOWN! I STAYED ALL NIGHT! You don’t tell me what to do!!

Seonghwa🌸: Where is Hongjong? I need him to help deep clean the fridge

Mingi🦄: He is probably hiding somewhere…

Seonghwa🌸: Wait a second…HONGJONG! You broke it again! I told you many times not to touch it!!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: It wasn’t me! You know it could be Jongho!

Seonghwa🌸: You left your nail polish and plus you nowhere to be seen! Means you have to done it!

There was a tiny scream…

Seonghwa🌸: Hongjong! I can hear your scream! Just own up and help me rebuild it! Last time I have to ask San to help!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: PLEASE DON’T hurt me! Wait you not mad?

Seonghwa🌸: I was mad but then San showed me the gc mingi made. It’s takes all the madness away…seeing you suffer

Seonghwa🌸: Help me fix it!

Mingi and Yunho never seen Hongjong moved so fast from his spot. Immediately exited to the room.

Yunho🐶: I always forget how speedy Appa is!

San🗻: Appa? What do you need to say to me?

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Thank you!

San🗻: And…?

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: AND? What’s the other and!?

San🗻: For leaving me behind all alone the other day!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: I’m sorry yeah yeah. Now if you excuse me…I need to help your Eomma before he changes his mind

10mins later…

Yeosang🍗: Appa? In trouble?

Yunho🐶: It all sorted! San actually helped! Who knows him telling Eomma everything comes in handy

San🗻: Yeosangie! Be proud of me!! You see I can be nice…if I want too…

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: YEOSANG! You taking too long in the bathroom!

Yeosang🍗: Ugh wooyoung…I’m checking if Appa is alive…I will be out!

Yeosang🍗: I can’t wait for tonight to spend time with Yunho! Wooyoung so clingy

Jongho🍎: And you call me the drama addict. Yeosang is more addicted then me

[revnah1406]

You changed your icon! It's cute. Reminding me I need to go get that shark lol 😅

Anyway for the otp asks:

13. What is something they find hot about their S/O?

14. What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or something small?

40. What is a song that reminds you of the OCs' relationship?

48. If they ever had less that 5 mins to tell their S/O something before never seeing them again, what would they say?

Hey E!! 🧡🧡✨ Yes I changed it! I felt like I needed to update it a little bit. I got my shark two days ago hahaha! Hope you can get him a sibling 👁️👄👁️.

Omg those questions are deep... Let's start!! (The answers are quite long sorry)

This gets a little bit NSFW so just in case.

MDNI!!

13. What is something they find hot about their S/O? (This can get a little bit NSFW🌶️)

Alright I'm gonna say a physical feature and then another one more related to their personality.

So one thing Sparrow finds hot from Amara is her...

Sparrow: "boobs"

HANNAH NO. 🫵🏻 As I was saying a hot feature from Amara...

Sparrow: "Ass."

YOU SHUT UP. YOU'RE NOT BETTER THAN ANY MAN. 🫵🏻

Sparrow: "Neither are you."

But this is not about me! Can you let me finish?

Sparrow: "yeah yeah go on."

Thank you. Anyway. It's Amara's body shape in general, nothing specific, just how Amara's body is built. You know Amara's body is not thin, she's more on the chubby side (like that sketch I sent you, still working on it hahaha). Sparrow loves so much how Amara's meat and fat acts when she squeezes with her strong hands. How she can almost mould it like clay. The curves, the softness, everything. She loves to have meat where she can grab, squeeze and bite. It doesn't matter where, thighs, ass, belly, boobs, hips, waist, arms... Sometimes Amara feels a little bit insecure about her body (maybe in a midnight breakdown or in a self-esteem crisis) but fear nothing because Sparrow will gladly remind her why she fucking loves her juicy meat. 🫡💪🏻

Another thing that Sparrow finds really hot from Amara, is her natural seductive personality. How Amara can get anything she wants from anyone by just blinking slowly. The way she looks at her, how she smiles, everything she does.it melts her legs and what is between them. Sometimes Amara's natural charm makes her nervous, she's Sparrow's weak spot.

Now it's Amara's turn. A physical thing that Amara finds really hot from Sparrow is her hands. Big, strong, warm, full of scars and callouses. Sparrow is a climber and a mechanic you can imagine what her hands look like👀. The things those hands can do to her. How small Amara's hands are compared to Sparrow's, especially when they are holding hands. How Sparrow could grab both of Amara's wrist with just one hand, effortlessly. That's the thing hell yeah.

Sparrow's temperament is also a hot thing that Amara loves. It depends, when Sparrow loses her control a little bit and shows that primal instinct. When the veins pop out and the eyes shine like a predator. That's a thing that turns her on. But a thing that finds hot is also quite the opposite. When Sparrow is focused, cold minded and analytical. When she frowns and looks mad, she's just focused. That expression is hot. 🫵🏻🔥.

14. What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or something small?

(this question gives me the opportunity to talk about a big event during their relationship, and this answer is from another ask I had a long time ago and I think it fits here too)

Ok. So Small arguments always happen during relationships. Sparrow and Amara usually argue about small things. Dirty socks on the floor, forgetting to buy something important for the other... After a heated fight and then cooling the ambience with some alone time for each other, they always apologise and talk about it, see how to improve things so it doesn't happen again. They have that philosophy of not going to bed with an unresolved argument.

But there's one subject that always is really delicate between them. And they usually avoid it, but sometimes it's inevitable. And that subject is Sparrow and her job at the military. Amara doesn't like Sparrow's job, she hates soldiers and the military. She always says that they use her as a brainless puppet and she's always risking her life for people who wouldn't lift a finger for her. Taking Hannah away from her and her family for months doing God knows what. Sparrow understands Amara's point, she knows that Amara is worried about her. But sometimes Amara gets under her skin and things can escalate really quickly.

"you are no different from the rest. You are a brainless pawn who just has the enough intelligence to do what you are fucking told, and not capable of taking the right fucking choice!! Don't you see it?! Your mother is worried sick! Your siblings are begging you to retire from the military! I rip off my hair every night being paranoid about what is happening to you out there! Do you know how many weeks do you leave me here alone in this house?! And you just travel around the world, playing the fucking hero, thinking you could change the world, not caring about the people that loves you, not even caring about yourself!"

"Nobody forced you to fucking stay here and play being a mother. You already knew what you were getting into when you decided to start a relationship with me, Amara. I left it very clear that day and you accepted. So don't start with your complaints and baby cries. If you are so tired of this there's the fucking door."

A slap broke the argument and Sparrow's face had a red mark in one of her sides.

"How can you be so ungrateful...?" Amara's voice was so broken it was hard to understand her words.

Amara left, slamming the door that Sparrow just pointed. She stayed with Nathan (Sparrow's big brother) and his family for a few days. She couldn't stand seeing her face again. Hannah knew she fucked up, REALLY fucked up, she wouldn't be surprised if Amara asked for the divorce (they were already married when this happened). She needed time to clear her mind, to calm down and find a way of properly apologising to her. They hadn't seen or spoken to each other for days. When Amara decided to come back home, she didn't know why. To speak to Hannah? To grab some things and leave again? She didn't know. She was aware that during that fight she said things that hurt Sparrow and Sparrow said things that hurt her. The ambience was tense, but calmer than that night. It felt like a hot oven and not like a wild fire. But when Amara got home she found a note on the kitchen table.

"I've been called. It's not a big thing. I'll be away for two days. I understand if you choose to leave, but if you stay I hope we can talk about it like we always do.

I'll always love you, no matter what.

Han."

In the worst moment Captain Hubber called Sparrow for a small mission with the rest of the task force. (This happens after MW3, so Sparrow had already left the 141 and came back to The Swiss Armed Forces with her old team and captain). Sparrow knew this would infuriate Amara. Doing the exact same thing that started the argument, leaving her for a mission somewhere.

After four days Sparrow came back home. She was surprised, the lights were on and she could hear noise in the kitchen. She dropped her bag on the floor of the entrance and walked towards the kitchen. Amara was there, making dinner just for one. She sat down on a chair and waited in silence. Knowing she had no right to start a conversation, the least she could do was enjoy her being around her even though she wasn't welcomed. After a long moment of tense silence, Amara spoke.

"you said two days." Amara said emotionless.

"Yeah, sorry about that."

"like if you care about it..."

Sparrow ignored the mean comment. She knew Amara was angry, and she had every right to be.

"the retirement paperwork was much slower than I thought."

Suddenly Amara's movements stopped.

"what?" And finally, Amara looked at her. Her eyes were full of surprise and confusion.

"The administrative department is a bloody chaos, I had to walk around like a headless chicken but It's done. Hubber helped me with the majority of this" She left the papers on the table.

Amara slowly grabbed them and started reading.

"I'm officially retired."

"why...?" Amara shook her head, she had a hard time processing the information.

"why?" Hannah repeated. "Because all this bullshit has broken your heart enough times and I don't want you to spend one single night alone in our bed being worried sick." She slowly and carefully grabbed Amara's hand rubbing her thumb lovingly on the skin.

"so you're not..."

"no, my love. I'm not going anywhere."

Of course Sparrow had to do more things to earn Amara's forgiveness. A huge amount of back massages, fancy and romantic dates every weekend, and a lot of flowers and sweet words. But eventually they fixed things, apologised to each other and made her relationship stronger than before.

And yeah! That's how Sparrow retired at the age of 32! Around 2026. I have planned to write a fic about this 👁️👁️

40. What is a song that reminds you of the OCs relationship?

There are a lot of songs. I even have a playlist for the wives.

But a song that reminds me of them a lot is "Sweater weather" by The Neighbourhood.

The vibes, the lyrics... It just fits really well.

48. If they had less than 5 minutes to tell their S/O something before never seeing them again, what would they say?

Oh I'm going to start crying. Let me just drop a few tears and then we can continue.

Alright, so Sparrow is not really good with words, especially in moments of rush and a lot of emotions, but wouldn't stay quiet either. Always followed by a desperate kiss.

Sparrow: "Find me in the wind, in the snow, the grass, the sun and the trees. I'll be there for you my love, always there, praying for you and waiting for you. No matter where you are, my heart will always find you."

Amara would be more less poetic maybe. She's more direct with words, I would probably make Sparrow promise her something.

"just promise me you'll be happy. Do it for me, Han. Enjoy what you have and cherish what we had. Keep moving forward, but please don't forget me, cause I won't forget you. I love you too much to do that."

I need a moment ☝🏻 I'm trying to recover from this. Ugh that hit hard.

Anyway! Thank you so much for this ask E! I had so much fun answering all your questions! THE DRAMA HOHOHOHOHO

I hope you're having a wonderful day! LOVE YA! MWAH! 🧡🧡🧡✨

[spookyserenades]

Omg I can’t wait for next week, I have spring break!! I can’t wait to re read the last chapter and then go over everything! Sorry Ik I keep forgetting when I say I’ll finish my reviews for some of the members :,( I hate exams but I’m half way through! Your blog is like my favorite corner on tumblr it’s so warm and cozy 🥹 I come over here when I procrastinate, lol like rn.

Anyways since I got a 5 min break before I have to study again I wanted to ask, how did you get introduced to bts?

YAYYY spring break!! Lots of time to get rest and catch up on reading, shows, and with friends 💕 Also don't apologize, love-- school totally takes priority over Trouvaille fjdksaf 💜

Proud of you for making it half way through your exams, you're killing it! Make sure to stay hydrated and have snacks when you can.

STOPPP 🥺 I'm so glad my blog is a cozy space for you, I feel the same way! I get all of you lovely people to talk to, share the Trouvaille boys, and laugh together 🥺 (don't worry, also, I was a HUGE procrastinator in college)

OOOO BTS stanning origin story let's go! So in high school I got a rec on my Youtube homepage for a music video, it was "Call me Baby" by EXO. I watched it and proceeded to tell everyone I knew about it 💀 Like I was shook,,, they were so hot, the song was a fucking banger, and I was a dancer at the time so I was into that element as well. Not to mention I've always been a boyband kinda gal. SO like flash forward a couple years I met this girl in college and she was talking about Kpop and I was like oh yeah I've heard of EXO.... it exploded from there. I ended up being better friends with that girl's roommate, and we spiraled into a total obsession with EXO, which lead to BTS (first mv I saw was Boy in Luv lol), then Got7, Seventeen, NCT, Monsta X............. Shinee, etc. Basically, if it was a boy group, we were into them! I've been a multi-stan for 7 years now, originally had an EXO/BTS/Got7 blog, until I decided to start focusing strictly on BTS writing two years ago.

My original bias was Jimin, but then it changed to Namjoon (aggressively, especially after listening to his first mixtape) and I was majorly bias wrecked by Hoseok. It's basically turned into Namjoon ult, but I also bias Hoseok, Yoongi, and Seokjin! Ta-da!

Love to you and good luck on your exams babe!

[thesweetreveal]

Ravenhood Series Review

Let's just go right for the GUT. I'm starting out strong with my first official book review and I feel as if it wouldnt be right if I didn't start with The Ravenhood Series by Kate Stewart.

First, I want to say I am not a pro blogger- I'm not great with big words although I am trying to extend my vocabulary. Just bare with me people & don't judge! Be nice! But by all means... share your personal opinions about the book (s) in the comments :)

I am going to review each book - I always try my best not to give any spoilers but I also want to give a review. So, if you like going into a book BLIND...I DO NOT recommend reading my reviews! That was your WARNING!

There are 3 books in this Trilogy, Here we go:....

Book #1: FLOCK

The first brook starts off introducing Cecelia, a 19 year old who has moved to Triple Falls and is staying with her estranged father, working at one of his factories in order to get her inheritance so she can use it to take care of her mother. While she is there she meets Sean (25) who invites her to a party where she meets a group of his friends or (a brotherhood) and his best friend Dominic.

Cecelia as always been sort of a "Goody-goody", always following the rules and Sean helps her come out of her shell a bit, be more open minded and explore her sexuality. She falls in love hard with both Sean and Dominic. Lots of secrets, fast cars, drugs, alcohol, threesomes and MORE!

Book #2: EXODUS

If you buy book #1 make sure you have book #2 at a reachable distance because the cliffhanger will getcha!

Insert Tobias King also known as "The Frenchman". We finally get to meet who has been behind everything, controlling her, Sean & Dominic. I immediatly hated Tobias, he was controlling, rude and cocky. I also hated him for what he did to Cecelia, Sean & Dominic. The ending of the first book is emotionally exhausting and I feel like the entire second book continues that way. We start to find out why things happen the way they did in book 1 and book 2 is only told in Cecelias point of view, so we don't know how Tobias is feeling/thinking. The end of Exodus bring us 6 years into the future. Here Cecelia has appeared to have moved on, is supposed to get married and is no longer in Triple Falls because she was forced to leave. However, she can't get fully get over everything that happened or the people in her life in Triple Falls. This is also when your feelings for Tobias start to change.

Book 2 had me reading a bit slower, I didn't feel the need to rush through it like I did book 1. There was a lot going on in book 1. Instead - I didn't want the second one to end because I had heard so much about this series, how much it just rips your heart right open and how attached you become to all the characters and the story. I SOBBED over Flock and cried again over Exodus.

Book #3: THE FINISH LINE

This is THE book. This is when we get to hear Tobias's side of the story AND Cecelia's. We learn all about how the Ravenhood started, we learn all about Tobias and how he grew up, how he was made into the man he is today. Cecelia no longer lives in Triple Falls and Tobias ends up going after her. Its been years later at this point since she left Triple Falls again because Tobias didnt choose her in Book 2. This book BREAKS you. By book 3 you have fallen in love with Sean, Dominic and Tobias just as much as Cecelia has. So many secrets are revealed in this book. some jawdropping. I'll never forget one seen where my hand literally slappy to my mouth and I just laid there in shock for a solid 5 min before I started reading again. Your heart will never recover from these books. It's been 9 months since I read them and I still till this day can't get over them.

Without a doubt they get a ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ star rating from me. I'd give them 10 if I could.

Fuck it. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ it is.

[alanshee-keeper-of-realms]

Okay so for the last few days I've sat down to write this out, I have this queued to answer the blow out post of Diisdoodles

An ex friend who I thought of like family, a person I actually physically met, a person who now focuses on themselves

I repeat beating the dead horse I listened to them, from that Friday I listened and stayed away ranting in the Server we shared as is my coping mechanism. I rant nonsense because it is my insecurities I know and come to my senses eventually and calm down. I do it rhetorically if I am ranting

1. They weren't 17 when we met June 2021 they'd just turned 18 and was going into senior year of Highschool. I have gotten removed from several servers over former shipper habits, nowadays its rare for me to ship, seeing as everyone treats it like it's reality when it's not.

2. The White Supremists joke, ah that that was because every character they have had white skin, also they really hated acknowledging racism just ask em they removed it because others were uncomfortable with it in their writing,

3.That was without the context I laugh because I come from a toxic environment, my parents expect me to act a certain way and get angry if I try to tell them off, they are getting better however if you get pissed at this then yall are hypocrites, you cannot look at me and say your own families have behaved themselves no matter the race or culture, I'm talking everyone. Humans are Humans and we pick on each other, no matter how much we try to pretend we are innocent, we are not,

4. Oh this one hurt, representation is sick and twisted? Simone was dark already she's an Adult worker I even toned down for their sake. She's supposed to represent that money isn't everything Violet wasn't supposed to be a lawyer in the beginning she was supposed to be a doctor but did you know they have a phobia of hospitals so I purposely changed that for them so I wouldn't be triggering them

They're the ones who came up with the AUs min ideas, hey Dii remember Santa? A monster that feeds on the Fears of others and killed others because they couldn't escape said fears and starved to death

Or how about Echo, who is corrupted by the Wind Element and his own hatred for Zane becoming a Serial Killer? Simone was along for that ride corrupted by him,

And then that wind element moves on into another and turns them into a psychopath? Cause God the amount of tearing apart and gore in those would make Stephen King proud,

5. You see yourself as the Leader in everything. Why don't you step down from your high horse and realize being a Leader means you see everyone as equal

Your sheltered suburban 400k lifestyle is showing, a Leader doesn't step on others to make themselves look better,

A leader doesn't see another trying to create with their stuff and tell them no

I may have been using Nindroid Canon at the time, but I was trying to cater to you. I was trying to suggest things to add a bit to it

Did you forget to tell everybody how you muted those channels because you couldn't handle me having Realm 14?

6. Oh I am still mad about everybody else it's just you I'm vocal about because you traumatized me that much.

Though.she.be.little and General Yasur were apart of the trio,

Though.she.be.little gave bullshit excuses, who takes an RP so seriously like you have to change it thats ridiculous! I actually felt pretty damn guilty for forgetting their Sexuality and would still apologize for that to this day

General Yasur just baffles me. Honestly, I asked if I could vent and they said yes. I need clarification I need bluntness I need someone to rant to to keep that side out of the public. I found out how cold and not understanding they are towards mental issues after I asked for clarification and got blocked.

We were friends for longer than Diisdoodles I remember talking to them in 2018, and now they were so quick to shut me out.

7. You're really looking for an angle here, no I don't I have friends who are proshippers so if you're saying I should judge someone not on their personality and who they are but by their fictional shipping habits

Seriously dipped your toes into the Anti pool have we?

When I made that comment about you I apologized immediately and like I said in a prior post tried to explain my mindset but again you took it to heart

I don't care wtf you are doing I'm neutral and just here to read fanfics and support my fandoms, not get dragged into bs drama that reminds me of the Dems and Repubs fighting

8. No I don't because those people drive me nuts I can get hard headed about certain subjects but I'm no expert and clearly have no power

Came crawling to you? Full of ourselves again are we if I knew this would've happened looking for a friend

I would've never joined your stupid ass server

I remember the exact day I brought up the borg siblings, and you are immediately interested and wanted to hear more and even asked to put Chloe into an idea of an AU you had

And you kept on going. All I know you saw now is a meal ticket, easy street, yank these guys, and take off.

9. Felix is Transgender is it bad I wanted some rep and not have this Nindroid walk around hunky dory after being misgendered? Dysphoria is real and it's horrible.

10. You NEVER included anything at all the reason I mentioned it so much is because you avoid these subjects if your gonna be a show runner get your head out of your ass and be inclusive

None of them ever experienced anything you always had a fairy tale sheltered ending

God reading Harker made me wince because she was like an abused Housewife under Echo

Oh honey it's okay your murdering people but it's okay

Even children's shows push the envelope better!

11. It's because unlike you I didn't have someone to actually teach me this is the part I will admit I fucked up, I do have these and I am a lot more reactive then most

That kinda happens when your 2 years old sitting on the edge of the bed watching your caregivers abuse each other,

My brain learned to feign and shove the emotions away to survive no not an excuse, I know I did damage but I didn't know my emotions and that's why this keeps rearing up,

Didn't you do the same with this post I am writing about, however? You reacted to something that, by the normal sense, isn't a big deal

That picture its posted on Facebook it's on my Tumblr from Way Earlier like, no there is no reason, DMs when I feel angry I'm going to put walls up and show you your wrong, especially when I don't trust you to tell the truth.

You lost my trust the day you created lilac should I show everybody your plagiaristic side because I never got an apology for that

Now if I posted your Address or Name now that would be a big deal, yes my readers I know that very personal information

Diisdoodles in tern knows mine,

Makes me shake my head whenever they go off on a rage this is what the 5th or 6th time you've thrown a Temper Tantrum when people don't act like you want them to. Because to me it was all about you it was all about your Nindroid Canon

it was all about helping you create these worlds do I have no right to feel frustration that I can't create anything I want to do without you throwing a temper tantrum and muting channels that you want nothing to do with because it's not your stuff.

12. Wow with even I literally can remember the line I said that may make you think that I was arguing oh because Even is this way I thought that she would be this way, that's not arguing it's called overexplaining and I do it a lot because narcissistic parent it's how I get myself out of trouble, but it causes more trouble than it is worth especially when you have a person that takes everything to heart like you.

You say I couldn't handle being told no

way to put words in my mouth I don't fucking care honestly even isn't my character never was never will she be nor was Pandora or brat or Charlie

I never copied any of these guys afterwards not like how you did with mine

Quit trying to make yourself look better by telling lies because you removed me from all the servers and hide behind a block. Gee, it sounds to me like you really want this to be one-sided.

As for the final thing I love how you don't mention the fact that I literally asked you guys if you were okay with me talking about that fanfic because I knew it was dark.

I wrote it when I was 14 going through SA myself, yeah that makes it a ton worse but I love even more that you left out that context because we were all on voice chat and I don't recall sending it to you but the link is still up to this day because you know what I never delete things no matter how much a fandom changes shifts or whatever I just give them a warning about the stuff on my page.

It sounds to me like you have issues that you need to sort out because this whole post has just been seemingly about making yourself look better that's all I saw this as

That's all it's ever been about you got into some anti friends who are now side-eying you because of our former friendship and now you want to make yourself look better and God forbid if I post that picture because that shows your lying about your place in our relationship

And honestly that's such cowardice it's not even funny

Next time put some context because you know what I'm not afraid to put some context for people to read you just think about yourself in the long run and not others

You want to talk about white privilege look at yourself in a mirror didn't even have a fast food job they worked for Daddy as a secretary and had their own schedule live in a $500,000 house could go out and buy Legos whenever they wanted they could even within 2 weeks buy a $500 plane ticket to fly from where they live up to the city where the convention was being held for a weekend

Should I tell them about your car and what you wanted to do with it

And how much that actually fucking terrified me that I would hear that you got into an accident knowing that it was on purpose and that possibly the person that I see like a sibling or saw like a sibling was dead.

You're not the only one who is traumatized and you need to acknowledge that.

[ylimemariee]

Gonna start writing about my Health Progress.

Those who don’t know I’ve been at war with a stomach ulcer since April 27th and been diagnosed with arthritis in 2021 due to 3 years of physical and psychological trauma. Your body takes a toll no matter what you do. I was working in a facility around men who believed you had to prove yourself like a man to be respected and taken seriously. So I pushed all my limits and carried things people wouldn’t believe a 5ft short little girl could carry. There is security footage of those 3 years of my life either burned or stored legally where I can’t touch it. So many times I wish I could look back at myself now and get to experience that feeling of literally knowing what I went through was truly real. When dealing with a pathological narcissist, liar who was also bipolar. Who thought it was just ADHD so they take the wrong medication and that made them crazier.

So recovery has been a hell of a challenge and I’m wanting to document my journey cause my heads getting too full of it and my motivation to do something about it goes in like 8 different ways so here’s where I’m at today. A lot of my close friends who met me seeing me work like I did, watched me also torture myself. I also DIDN’T stretch at all. Ever…. Hahaha the first chiropractor I was with didn’t laugh with me when I said I don’t stretch cause he was like WHY IS YOUR X-RAY comparable to a 70 YEAR OLD??! Yeah, doctors don’t like me cause I don’t show up or I’m 35 min late every time cause I’m not used to seeing a doctor let alone….several. At my age it’s a little alarming.

You only got one life at 18 I chose to do the unthinkable and I wanted to experience everything, the world I was hidden from. Just wanting to be myself cause I’ve never fit in and never wanted to that was my thing. I’m a rare breed is what I tell others now. I don’t do labels I don’t need to fit in a inventory. I don’t follow the trends I don’t even like the word “trend” it’s the word that started the “trend” of separating people from another…dividing. I don’t do that, I do together.

So to speed things up to 2023, my body has been one hell of a nightmare to deal with. I have a scary pain tolerance and I’m used to valuing other things over my body so. When I think about I’ve betrayed my body for 5 years. Now, I stretch…cue the church bells…😂 Once I see the results for myself I do it more and I stop hurting so when your pain goes cause you know your doing the right thing so for me it’s easier to just stop and start new habits.

I like change, sometimes it’s hard for me to adapt but once I do I’m more then fine. I love new things. Adventures I wanna live my life the best I know how to and if I wanna do that I’m having to do all this work which includes A CRAP TON OF SUPPLEMENTS. Fruit, vegetables, vitamins, my energy drinks nowadays are Mangos. The vitamin C it provides not only cheers me up but gets me on my feet. I always seem to look fine or like I’m not sick. That part sucks cause people will start to accuse you of faking two very serious illnesses. Lol. How could someone do that, man you’d be surprised. I’ve seen people fake the most craziest stuff. One girl faked a limp walking by the board of directors…😂😂 she held on to the trash can like it was for dear life. They ignored her because people at factory’s sometimes forget one simple fact. THEY. DON’T. CARE.

They ain’t gonna waste any time on you when they’re about to bring in 2.3 million. Employees: ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU ARE REPLACEABLE.

MANAGERS: You and your employees are replaceable, take a deep breathe, they suck, I know but you let them go; you may get better ones in. Wait for the right one and pass your knowledge on so each employee is prepared for what’s about to take up their life. Spread knowledge/wisdom to the RIGHT ONE. Don’t waste it on someone who ain’t gonna take it seriously. Keep them happy but know you can do better. It’s an on going cycle. Value your peace over the burdens employees can throw on you. It gets heavy when you care also. Advice I was given. Job is a job don’t let it bring the survival out in you. If your not being treated right as a manager also, report it. Do something about it, they have rules and regulations that are set for a reason, use them. If it keeps you safe do it.

Now the last month I’ve been pushing myself a little extra to gain muscle. I don’t wanna be weak anymore I want my own strength to make the energy I have that has returned. My intense soreness has almost sent me home from the job I’m at now. I feel like alot of them don’t believe that I’m being legit when I’ve gotten close to collapsing MANY times. Like above, “they don’t care.” It sucks when they get to the point to where they are pushing people who are already down. Rotating people is so important in factory work. On a body stand point it would help less people get arthritis. Very normal for people to get arthritis in factory work. It’s why stretching is important. I stretch twice technically on a work day once at home and twice at work.

I’ll even stretch in the middle. Sitting helps, it’s been a weird routine for me but I’ve been seeing progress. Just today, sept 11th my upper thighs aching from the muscles healing has gone away. So I’m hoping my legs are on their way back being in shape but I have to stay consistent as much as I can. Now having a stomach ulcer all you can drink is water. Pretty much, so I have to go to the bathroom more then others. Cause I wanna make my money and work so I’ll drink water 247 if that means I’ll make it at work. If don’t follow all these insane steps, rubbing oils on is a major factor too. I have expensive oils that people with cancer take for pain. This is the only stuff that takes my pain away when I can’t take any regular pain medication. DDR prime by doTERRA has saved my life at this point.

So let’s hope that my muscles continue to heal up cause I won’t be as slow anymore.

Hope ya like reading. Lol.

Em

[incorrect-in-other-lands-quotes]

New Spin-off Short Story set in “In Other Lands”

1. The News!

I have written a short story set in the world of In Other Lands! Tears Waiting To Be Diamonds introduces us to dwarven Prince Mark, who has the worst day of his life when his father’s subterranean kingdom is usurped and he’s sent up to (shudder) the disgusting surface world, where he hopes for allies and is thoroughly unimpressed to find an arsonist, a murderer, his part-human cousin and the young man referred to by the western fortresses as the Redheaded Trouble…

If you haven’t read In Other Lands, this story works as a standalone about a prince and the terrible people he meets in exile. But if you have, I think you’ll be excited to see 24-year-old Elliot Schafer and friends, all grown up and making a difference in the magical Borderlands (look, the daily diplomatic crises and weathered soldiers begging for mercy and no more lectures is different…)

2. So, Why’d It Take You So Long To Tell Us?

The issue is, I’m a demon for length and everything is my fault. My editor for Tears solicited me for a story, and I thought: yes, it’s time. So I wrote it in summertime. And I handed it in. And then at a convention in September, I was asked a dire question.

EDITOR: Why… is this… three times the length we told you?

SARAH: Oh! You must not know ’bout me…

SARAH: Extremely sorry. Can you still publish it please?

Very kindly, they overlooked my verbal delinquency, and we talked it over and decided the way to handle said delinquency was to publish the story in two parts! This was very pleasing to me, as I love serialized fiction. The greatest compliment ever paid to a writer was a mob running down to the harbour to greet the ship carrying the next instalment of Dickens’s book, all yelling ‘DOES LITTLE NELL DIE?’

3. So, Why This Story?

One of the key things that unlocked In Other Lands as a novel for me was the elves and the different angle they allowed me to talk about feminism. The short story from Luke’s point of view went into the harpies, so I could talk about finding your own body monstrous. Culture clash in fantasy is my jam, and I always knew if I went back to In Other Lands it would be to give the dwarves, and Elliot’s friend Myra of Diamond Clan, their day.

I was really nervous about writing the story, as In Other Lands is so special to me. It’s the book readers talk to me about most, and the last book I finished before I was diagnosed with cancer and my life changed. The experience of writing it felt madcap and joyous, and I always wanted to get back to that, but it was readers who kept the joy alive for me - who loved the book when I didn’t, who kept faith and didn’t forget the story, who reminded me I was a writer. And In Other Lands ends on a precipice - the characters won’t be excused for being kids when they cause trouble anymore. Shit was about to get extremely real. I wanted to give my readers a story that felt both true and joyful. I hope I have!

4. So you have a substack now?

Yes! I’ve been thinking about how much I loved blogging, and talking about stories, but how tough I find it to talk about myself. (I’m fascinating, don’t get me wrong, but there are other stories to talk about too.) So I have an idea for this substack, and I will tell you all about it next week!

Also, I have even bigger news than this, which I can’t tell you yet. I will soon though. (In the true meaning of soon, not like how I kept everyone waiting for In Other Lands news!) Thank you for signing up, you are all jewels and flowers of my heart. Please stay tuned, because I am perishing with anticipation to tell you things.

5. So WHERE AND WHEN?

Tears Waiting To Be Diamonds will be published online in the Sunday Morning Transport. I was very flattered to be asked to write a story for them, as they have published so many of my favourite writers—the latest story I read there was Min Zemerin’s Plan by Katherine Addison, who wrote the amazing book The Goblin Emperor. Part 1 of Tears will be published on January 8 2023 and Part 2 on January 29 2023. So, Part 1 comes less than a month from now! Get ready for trouble.