#this library is sick for real

[queervegancryptid]

Work Vote, bitch 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

Not pictured: mismatched socks 💜

[icewindandboringhorror]

I was just thinking what a cool job this might be.. what if you were just the person who makes little still images of cute animal figurines doing various activities to post on social media...? like.. show up to work and just spend the whole day like "hmm... this table should be placed to the left a little.. let me set this miniature bagel down in this way... this tiny rabbit should be wearing a scarf", setting the backgrounds, the lighting, etc. ... dream job perhaps lol...

[sysig]

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[grey-eyed-gemini]

The Library Project

I love books, and i love reading. I absolutely have used and abused library cards my whole life, and I have owned lots of books. But something I've noticed recently, is. The books i own? Quite a few i haven't read recently. And we're really getting to capacity for my shelves. So at the start of the year I decided that, throughout the year, im going to read every book on my shelves, and really think about whether I want to keep it, or if I'm ready to let it go.

Why every book? Because, let's be honest, some books are on my shelves as nostalgia. I loved them then, so obviously I'd still love them now, right? But. That's not necessarily true. And my tastes have definitely changed. Plus, growing up poor, theres a definite "but it's *mine*!" Mentality that I'm trying to work on, since I don't want to end up a hoarder. (Having helped deal with FOUR fucking hoarder estates now, im definitely motivated to not end up buried in *stuff*.)

So, basically, everything has to be evaluated, everything has to hit the chopping block, at least a little bit. Therefore, a major rule was i had to finish a shelf before I could go on to the next one- no skipping series just because "Well obviously id keep those". No. Not how this work. And I came up with basic questions to really force myself to make the hard choices, no wishy washy maybes, it either stays, or goes.

Did I finish the book? Obvious, but opens to door to what to do with DNFs. In my case, if I DNFed a book, the entire series is now forfeit.

Did I enjoy the book? Again, obvious, but i have convinced myself to keep books before for various reasons, even if I didn't like it. So this deals with that.

Would I read the book again in a years time? Ah, longevity. As i said before, I'm a big proponent of libraries, so it's not worth it to me to keep a book i read once and enjoyed, but wouldn't pick up again and again. Space is a premium here.

Would I haul it across the world? This is for those really hard books, where for one reason or another I feel guilty getting rid of them. But this question really forces me to step back and consider- are they worth hauling to Germany or Australia or Antarctica? Is the time and effort of packing them worth it? Or could I get them out of a library when I reach the other side? Strange as it may seem, I have gotten to this question multiple times so far.

So, now with the admin for this project out of the way, time to share my first two shelves of progress! Spoiler warning for basically every book I discuss.

What a difference, ey? As I said, I went by shelf, so I'm gonna go over everything in order:

Chanters of Tremaris by Kate Constable: KEEP

Rose shades ON. This is a nostalgia series for me, and while the reread revealed its weaknesses in pacing and writing, i love so much of the world building and the messages and ideas that Constanble was trying to share, and many I feel are still relevant now. Again, I know it has issues, and it is really a 3 star series at max, but if she ever rewrote them and expanded on what she has here? First in line to get them. They are also hard af to find copies of, so getting rid of them would really shoot myself in the foot.

Taste of Lightning by Kate Constable: TOSS

Rose shades OFF this sequel sucks so much ass and I had to slog to finish it. I could literally write a rant post about everything I hated (and I still might) and I still would feel fiery rage in my heart 0/5 should've DNFed

Song of the Lioness by Tamora Pierce: REPLACE

So i love Pierce. I love her so much. And Alannas story is really where Tortall begins. She's not my absolute fav, but gotta respect the starting point. However. I dislike or outright hate so many of the covers for her books it's not even funny. But! Illumicrate did a fabulous set which i pre-ordered and is due sometime in the next three weeks, at which point, alannas story will be back on my shelves.

The Immortals by Tamora Pierce: KEEP

Alanna is where Tortall starts, but Daine is where it really steps away from the rest of the high fantasy pack. Wild magic? Spidrens? Mother fucking STORMWINGS? Iconic, all around. The romance isn't to my taste but most aren't so I dont hold that against them.

Protector of the Small by Tamora Pierce: KEEP

MY GIRL. MY ICON. MY ABSOLUTE BELOVED. KELADRY OF MINDELAN. My first Pierce book was Squire, and gods has nothing else really compared. The world building, the characters, the plot. Chefs kiss 5 stars all around literally perfect my only quible is the deus ex machina in Lady Knight but I can overlook it.

Trickster's Duology by Tamora Pierce: TOSS

Andddd then we come back down with an absolute crash. Alys story has always been bottom of the heap for me, and I thought it was just because I liked the others more. But on reread, it became clear- alys story is, well. Boring. The only stand out moment in the first book is the climax with the prince, and even then, you spotted it coming a mile away. And while book two definitely is better, it comes at the cost of being dependent on book one for all our character intros. I literally had to go back and double check who was who multiple times. The only parts I enjoyed were Alys 'letters from home' visions- which is a problem! The set is also the Pierce books which feel the most classically YA, especially with the romance. Nawat is nice, but it felt like such a kiddie romance after all the other series. So, didn't like it, won't miss it, sorry to all those who I know are die hard fans.

Provost's Dog by Tamora Pierce: KEEP/REPLACE

AND THEN WE ARE SO BACK. Beka is my second favorite after Kel, and I love the very different take on tortall her books have. We see much more of the normal, not noble or noble adjacent people that populate this world, and beka deals with some very serious stuff. It's odd that, after the very YA Trickster books, we get perhaps the most adult story with Provost, but I'm not complaining. I also like how bekas various relationships are handled, and that unlike other Pierce protags, she doesn't end up with the man she meets in book 1. And, of course, there's the cult. And the knowledge that, this is what causes so much damage in the series that followed chronologically. I love books where, you as a reader can see the tragedy coming, even tho the characters can't. Goosebumps, every time.

The Circle of Magic/The Circle Opens by Tamora Pierce: KEEP

While the Emelan books don't hold my heart like Tortall, I still find them to be fun reads. I really enjoy seeing the four grow up and find their footing in a world that really doesn't want to acknowledge children as adults. Which. Feels quite relevant.

Melting Stones by Tamora Pierce: TOSS

While this and the next two are technically a set, I don't consider them as such due to them not being interconnected. Rather, I see them as standalones that expand the world of Emelan. Anyways, I DNFed this one. Originally it was written as an audio exclusive that then was made into a book and. I could tell. It did not flow as I wanted it to. Plus I saw all the twists coming, which made me rather bored. I like Evvy and Rosethorn, but they aren't exactly who I came to see, you know?

Battle Magic by Tamora Pierce: TOSS

Gods this one had such cool concepts. I just wish it wasn't so slow to get rolling. I was over halfway and the war still hadn't started, and I was worried about how an entire war would be crammed into less then half a book. That, and the cat deaths, meant I didn't want to read it again. I know, that's probably silly, because books are supposed to make you feel things, good and bad, but having lost pets, evvys cats being murdered just. Was something I could not handle.

Will of the Empress by Tamora Pierce: REPLACE

Personally, the only true follow up to the Circle and the Circle Opens. Our favorite foursome are back together, but uh oh! They have returned changed! And must now have siblings drama while dealing with a foreign court that wants to swallow them whole! Empress really is the culmination of the Emelan books, and i highly enjoy it, even if the anti-sandry nonsense from tris, daja, and Briar is rough. Like gods damn, children, her having money and not going traveling is no reason to treat her like scum. She murdered people for fucks sake! On a side note, I like how we get hints of what the four will be doing going forward- it's a nice way to tie things up while still leaving the possibilities open.

The Old Kingdom by Garth Nix: KEEP/REPLACE

Sabriel is an icon, Lirael is an icon, Touchstone is an icon- i could go on but i won't. I love the Old Kingdom as a whole- like Tortall, it is so well built and fleshed out as a world, that you could see it and it's problems being real. However, the books not matching. Really grinds my fucking gears. Like, I know the Dillons couldn't do all the covers but come on! At least try to make them match! So I've tossed all the non-Dillon covers, got a hardbound copy of the 25th anniversary edition (which i celebrated arriving th eother day), and am going to work on getting the UK paperbacks of the books so I can have a matching sets. Is it silly? Yes. Do I care that it's silly? No.

The Left-Handed Booksellers of London by Garth Nix: KEEP

One of the series i was able to finally fit onto the shelves! Hurray! They were languishing on the living room table for wayyyy too long. Where the old kingdom is dark and serious, LHBSL is dark and fun. I love our punk protag, I love the romance between her and merlin (shocking, since most YA romance i cannot stand), and most of all, I love how much this series is a love letter to England and it's mythos. Plus her dad's a rock god! (badum tsch)

Percy Jackson and the Olympians/Heroes of Olympus/the Kane Chronicles/Magnus Chase and the Gods of Asgard by Rick Riordan: TOSS

Now. For the rather giant elephant in the room. So, I would consider myself a longtime fan of Riordan. I first read The Lightning Thief for battle of the books in middle school, and had read literally every one of the books on my shelf. However, on reread. It was hard not to notice how PJATO is definitely a middle grade book. And while I enjoyed it, I didn't love it. And then right after was HOO, which i DNFed in the first book because I began to remember how little I liked the later books. And then I read Red Pyramid and when I finished I sat there and was just. Not motivated to pick up book two. Are Riordan books bad? No, definitely not, but i think that at this point I've simply. outgrown them. And while I'd pick up PJATO again, it wouldn't be within the next year. And its cemented itself as a modern classic so thoroughly that I know i could find it in most library systems, including my current one. So. With all that in mind. I've let them go.

And on that note, that finishes shelf 1 and 2! It was a bit more of a rollercoaster ride then I expected, but i don't regret any of my choices. I'm now working on shelves 3 and 4, which are a bit rougher because it's more authors with lots of short series or standalones, so don't know how long it'll take me, but I'm really glad to be making visible progress.

If you read all this inane rambling, thanks for your time, hope you enjoyed, and hopefully no one kills me for smalling a book they loved. We can only hope.

[depresseddepot]

weird thing about me is that I am so serious about new year's resolutions that the last week of december feels like I'm in one of those "preparing for war" montages (but in a good way)

[br1ghtestlight]

had a dream that i was sick and dying of cancer but ngl it was the best sleep that ive had in MONTHS

[mosscrab]

mgsv has so many literary references to books i have essays abt it kind of makes me.

[warriorprincesstramp]

the reading i have rn is actually crazy i know i'm doing the reading degree but still it's like i'll watch two documentaries and then read seventy pages of non-fiction and i've barely scratched the surface. and then i'll realise i've forgotten about reading fucking. dante's inferno for tuesday like should i just run into the road or something

[britneyshakespeare]

Instead of using someone's streaming services after a breakup, using their library credentials

[displayheartcode]

i am crawling out of this girlrotting era and into my girlthriving era

[fail-eacan]

I wanna do something social that makes a real impact on people. This is definitely just because I care about humans and abhor needless suffering and not at all because being in the sun for too long makes me uncomfy.

no one doing any farming on this commune huh

[fishyartist]

Blueprince is ruining my life I wanna work on lmy little game prototype but my mind is enraptured and exhausted from the allure of the humble ‘’puzzle rougelite’’….

[deanpinterester]

rebel is flagsmashing 101 if i've ever seen one "what if the guy who wants to change the oppressive status quo....... actually secretly wanted to be an evil dictator!" we've seen this story a billion times

[webism]

pornstar!shiu who started out as your agent. he’d book your gigs, stand and watch with cigarette in hand as you were fucked on film for a fat check that he’d take a cut of.

pornstar!shiu who would take you out for celebratory drinks after landing larger acts—be it a shoot for a dirty magazine or a collaboration with the current biggest name in adult film. shiu is good at getting you in—and he doesn’t much mind watching your artwork either.

pornstar!shiu who helps you set up a secondary source of income: an onlyfans. he helps you garner an audience, set your prices and start looking for guest stars. he lines a few up, lets you pick from them and even pours them a drink when they come over to film. shiu lets you have privacy with these shoots, but insists on staying in the house just in case anything goes sideways: they never do, though. most of the guys you film with are put off by the look shiu gives them when they first walk in. mean.

pornstar!shiu who slowly starts to get sick of accommodating the men you film with. it's just work, sure, but he doesn't get jealous like this of the girls that his other client Toji works with. he doesn't watch their videos back on repeat to make sure their hands don't wander where they aren't welcome. he doesn't fuck his fist at night thinking about him. it's just a you thing.

pornstar!shiu who gets an email one day from a well known pornstars agent practically begging to hitch up a collab between you and him. satoru gojo is a name shiu has heard plenty times before, be it through the business side of being your agent or through his computer speaker when he's edging himself to mindless porn in the dead of night. he knows he fucks good, seen it first hand.

pornstar!shiu who knows you're excited for this shoot, to finally get to try out the guy known for giving real orgasms in hopes of a more raw shoot. shiu almost feels bad when he tells you, twenty minutes before your shoot, that gojo can't make it. that he's sick with something nasty and you'll have to reschedule if his calendar opens up for you.

pornstar!shiu who listens to you whine about how you promised your online audience something good tonight. nods as you beg for him to find someone else on such short notice. he pretends to scroll through his phone and send a few texts as you stress your pretty mind over leaving your followers hanging. shiu can't help but smile at your desperate pout when he tells you that no one can make it on such short notice... but that he does have another idea, albeit an unconventional one.

pornstar!shiu who, within twenty minutes, has your face pressed into your pillows and his hand forcing your arch so he can fuck you just that little bit deeper. the moans you let out, even though they're muffled by your satin pillow, are nothing short of pornographic. it's fitting, and pulls a smile onto shiu's face because he's hearing better moans from you than he thinks gojo could ever pull. and god you feel better than he'd ever imagined: he wonders how he'll ever lay down for another person again know that he's felt you wrapped around his cock.

pornstar!shiu who insists it's just a favour: just work. he's given you five orgasms and a dirty movie to show for it too. you two fuck for an hour and he showers at your place before helping you edit and post it over dinner. it's casual, nothing awkward, but when the comments start rolling in about this new man that makes you cum like none other has, you swear he blushes.

pornstar!shiu who quickly becomes a regular on your page. goes from being your agent to somewhat of a partner in film. over the course of a few weeks, you have more money than you know what to do with: people keep subscribing to watch you cum on his cock in the mindless way it seems only he can pull from you. your library grows daily, with videos of him fucking you on the kitchen counter, whipped cream eaten straight from your chest, to videos from his perspective as he takes drags of a cigarette while you get your fix from your lips wrapped around his thick cock. he's somewhat of a pornstar himself now.

pornstar!shiu who, for someone who insisted this was just work, gets into the habit of kissing you through your orgasms. or conveniently forgetting to press record so that your marathon sex session on his couch stays for his eyes only. or starts leaving things at your house on the off chance to have someone else over to film with, so they'll see his hair gel or large shoes by the front door and realise you're spoken for, even if he doesn't have the right to speak for you.

pornstar!shiu who's asleep in your bed one night, his cock still nestled deep inside of you after making love to you for the first time. you're littered with lovebites and your mind is hazy with feelings you never thought you'd have for your agent of all people. the night is dark, and as you're cockwarming the man who is much more than just a co-star to you, your phone dings. he stirs, and you check it to find a message from Satoru Gojo, who is asking after you. he says he's upset you didn't get to film together the other week but he hopes you're feeling better. your sickness seemed pretty nasty, from what your agent said when he cancelled on your behalf.

what a shame!

[cathnospam]

Bakugo makes you laugh, A LOT and it drives him insane.

“It was not that damn funny.”

You try to conceal the snickers from your mouth, but fail horribly. All he did was mutter something about Mineta being a punk ass and it had you giggly.

At first he used to take offense by it, maybe you were laughing AT him and not what he says, almost like mocking him, that wasn’t until Deku quickly explained in passing that you laugh very easily.

But you don’t laugh this damn much with anybody else but him. At this point he thought you had a similar quirk to Ms. Joke, and he nicknamed you Giggles.

You both were studying in the library like you both usually do during exam week, and Bakugo noticed you haven’t been Miss. Cackle the past few days. Not even a smile actually and you’d think it would have been some relief for him from hearing your laugh obxonious laugh, but he’s actually more annoyed.

He looks up from his book and glances at you across the table, you’re typing away, with a less that neutral look on your face. Lips somehow forming a pout and eyes looking droopy. He scoffs going back to his work, but it was an itch he needed to scratch with you..?

“Who pissed in your breakfast.”

“What?”

“You been looking like a sad lost puppy all week what the hell is your problem.”

The corner of your lips cracked upwards a bit, almost as if you were fighting to smile, but instead you shrug, “‘Nothing you needa worry about. Why.”

It was almost concerning how calm you sounded. Your voice was more tame that you didn’t even sound recognizable which make Bakugo crease his brows, “You suck at lying. Is it, because of that shitty boyfriend you have pissed you off.”

He was referring to Shindo, he wasn’t your boyfriend, but he was a guy you got close with after meeting him a few years ago, but Bakugo was half right he was part of the problem.

You had a small crush on Shindo , but overheard him tell his classmates how he isn’t into you like that mainly because you’re not his type and how much he can’t stand how loud you talk/laugh sometimes.

It hurt hearing it, when he found out you heard he tried apologizing but you didn’t wanna hear it, so since then you’ve turn self conscious about speaking and laughing too loudly for the past week to avoid anymore issues that you have caused with people.

After slowly explaining to the Blonde he rolled his eyes, “You’re ganna let the walking vibrator dictate your life too? So stupid.”

“You hate my laugh too. What does it matter.”

Bakugo stayed silent for a moment while you went back to work. Thinking how could he word what he wants to say without sounding like an idiot, “I never said that, besides you never stopped even when I did tell you your laugh was annoying. If you want to cackle like a hyena who gives a fuck—“

You break into a snicker but end up covering it with your hand. He cracks a proud smirk, he almost forgot what you looked like with a smile, “I don’t wanna be loud. Just can’t help it.”

“We know.”

You giggle at his deadpanned voice, it really wasn’t your fault, you’re just so easy to please and Bakugo knows that, “Giggly ass, and I seen you almost laugh when Denki tripped at the lecture today.”

“Becauuseee he is always so dramatic when he falls.” You whined into a chuckle, sharing a small one with him.

It was a start of many more shared laughs after studying, Katsuki even tried to be just a LITTLE bit more funnier than usual when walking back to the dorms. When you finally cracked a real loud one out he felt himself grinning at you.

“Katsuki Alexander Bakugo are you smiling?”

“Don’t you EVER say my full name like that again got dammit I will blow you the hell UP!”

You almost fall to your knees of how funny his reaction was to you, it felt so good to smile again. You missed it, and so did everybody else the next day apparently.

Mina and some others thought you were depressed, Deku assumed you were sick, Denki outwardly blamed Bakugo which got him smacked, and IIda actually missed your loud noises as well.

Your classmates enjoyed your presence more than you thought they did.

But Bakugo missed it the most.

Your laughs drives him insane, because he loves to hear them.

[dear---moon]

I write and write and then never publish it. I create what feels just the same as everything before. It is as if I haven't been anything else since 17. I write paragraphs of sentences that read like bad translations, yet I continue, as the art of creation reads like something society needs. That's what I think of art; we all need it, but you're not certified to success. You never are, whether you make art or not. And after contemplating things for a little too long, I get so lost within these thoughts. That's when the frustration hits, as I never feel like accomplishing anything. There's so much love around me, and "I know love is real because I exist and I'm full of it" sounds like I could've made that statement had I only been more talented, yet the loneliness haunts me, and I cannot stress enough how much I wish to lay in the grass again, or just hike for half the day. I've danced in the cold spring rain and I nearly fell asleep in the fields, on hot summer days. I've been through life in so many different ways, and I miss it now that I am older, afraid I'll never get to go back to being this carefree.