#trauma song

[phoenix-positivity]

OnlyOneOf Nine - ‘나의 사춘기에게’ (To My Youth) BOL4 Cover

At one point in the past, I wanted to disappear from this world The entire world was so dark and I’d cry every night Would my heart feel more comfortable if I’d just disappear I’m so afraid of how everyone looks at me It was such a beautifully beautiful time back then, but I was hurt I couldn’t be loved and I hated myself Mom and dad are both just counting on me But that’s not how I really feel I’m being pushed further away What do I do Close your eyes and scream (My voice won’t come out) I don’t want to just stay being hurt like this Close your eyes and scream again It will be alright Everything’s gonna be alright For me who feels intimidated It was such a beautifully beautiful memory, but I was hurt It won’t go away although I’ve been dealing with that pain as much as I’ve been hurt My friends and others are just counting on me But that’s not how I am. I’m being pushed further away But still, I thought maybe that I Could be a bright light in this world So perhaps I’ll shine that light even for a short bit after overcoming all the pains I can’t give up I couldn’t even get a single night of good sleep But seeing how I’m trying to get back on my feet like this I guess it’s because I might Or you might End up looking for me It was such a beautifully beautiful time back then, but I was hurt I couldn’t be loved and I hated myself It was a time that I’d be missing and miss, but I was hurt I had no courage to be just fine Must’ve been so painful Must’ve wanted it so badly

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

Tearjerker - Korn

bonus : we attempted suicide to this song

[suuez]

{TW: Sexual Abuse/Domestic Abuse}

"The memory of the silence of those afternoons

From the shame of the mirror on those bruises

(...)

Sometimes I ask him,

To go away, to go away

(...)

And I was only 17 years old

I lowered my head to everything

That's how things happened

That's how I saw it all happening

Camila, Camila-ah, oh, Camila..."

~ Nenhum de Nós, Camila Camila

[evidently-endless]

i think we should remind musicians they can absolutely make up little stories for their songs btw. it doesn’t have to be about them at all. you can invent a guy and put him in situations to music. time honoured tradition in fact.

[midnightsslut]

actually maybe folklore is an album about looking back on all the things that have made you go from a wild, innocent, open child to a damaged, pained, often duplicitous adult

[weedle-testaburger]

GOOD FOR HER

[stefisdoingthings]

but I've seen the tides are rising, where once there was a shore i can still remember houses stripped to the floor

[smallfire]

"There's no good way to end this, anyone can see; There's just great big you, And little old me."

@forgotten-elegy

[nicoleanell]

Sorry it's really just hitting me that in a show all about unreliable narrators and dubious memories, maybe the single canon event we KNOW we witnessed with 110% accuracy was that wild-ass Louis/Armand argument. Memory is a monster but the Vampire CIA's got that one on mp3 forever I guess.

[69constellationsinatrenchcoat]

Not to make anyone worry, but saying you're a CDD system can make you a target for abusers and bullying.

By stating you're a system

You're disclosing that you went through debilitating trauma at a young age

You're disclosing that you may act like a young child in certain situations, and that child may not know, or understand certain acts

You disassociate to a level where we do not know what was done by/to the collective body

You're telling people that you may have patches of amnesia, disorientation, and where you may split under pressure

Many systems have issues with self harm, suicidal thoughts, substance use disorders and unfortunately, many abusers will take advantage of this

Systems, due to their amnesiac nature, are very easy to gaslight, often by saying that a different part/alter did or didn't do something

But Kyle! What can I do about it?!?

Choose, very carefully, who you tell that you have a system. We try not to tell new people in our life until we're fully trusting that they won't take advantage of the knowledge of the system. Even then, we can count on one hand how many of our in person friends and family are aware of our system.

Avoid linking social media, this includes discord, where you are 'out' about your system to other social media, especially around workplaces. Some workplaces, schools, universities and other places still hold stigma around DID (thank you, Split /s).

Be careful what you tell people about your system: keeping alter counts private, not giving out certain alter's names, using pseudonyms/symbols for alters are some of the ways we've done this. If someone we don't want to know about the system asks about an alter name, the majority of the time, we'll say that they're an OC.

Most people don't know what DID and OSDD are unless they have been in certain circles or happen to have an interest in it, so you are usually safe… but I always air on the side of caution.

Do what you wish with this list, I wanted to put these thoughts out there. Stay safe, feel free to reblog with more ways you keep your system safe.

Drink water, have something to eat, have your meds if you need them, use your mobility aids if you need them, and do something nice for yourself today.

With love,

System Dad (Kyle / 💜)

[phoenix-positivity]

OnlyOneOf Nine ‘Twenty-three’ '스물셋' (IU Cover)

I'm twenty-three I'm a mystery Even for me, it's a (question) I'm twenty-three Let's not get it wrong (because) I'm very sensitive One bunch, twenty-three I seem a bit adult-like Even if I act all grown up, believe it in moderation Obvious twenty-three You've still got a long way to go, hon Even if I act like I haven't fully grown up Just kind of act like you buy it please Well, I definitely like now better No, no, I just want to quit everything Okay fine, I just want to be in love Actually no, I just want to close my eyes Guess which one's right? You can't tell just by looking at my face Showing a different facial expression than how I really feel It's actually very simple (guess which one is right?) Actually, I don't even know the truth From the beginning, there was not even a single line of lie that I've written A fox trying to look like a bear trying to look like a fox Or something completely different Whichever one I am whatever it is, just pick one I'm now used to be seen through jaundiced eyes To me, who thought to be always confined You said, of all the things, that wouldn't be the case I said I shouldn't go through such tough times But there are times like that I will be all right Just quit it, whatever You turned your back on me Where are you? You listen good Wait Over the same thing, I always try not to be disappointed So I think deeper To make it no longer visible My mind falls in deeper Well, I definitely like now better No, no, I just want to quit everything Okay fine, I just want to be in love Actually no, I just want to close my eyes Guess which one's right? You can't tell just by looking at my face Showing a different facial expression than how I really feel It's actually very simple (guess which one is right?) Actually, I don't even know the truth From the beginning, there was not even a single line of lie that I've written A fox trying to look like a bear trying to look like a fox Or something completely different Whichever one I am whatever it is, just pick one I'm now used to be seen through jaundiced eyes I'm twenty-three I'm a mystery Guess which one it is

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

such sad songs - atlas

[stargirldotcom]

- on fathers

ocean vuong/ kyoto-phoebe bridgers/ seventeen going under- sam fender/ kyoto- phoebe bridgers/ seven-taylor swift/ father- the front bottoms/ kyoto- phoebe bridgers/ franz wright/ kyoto- phoebe bridgers/ father- the front bottoms

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I'm sorry I let down my guard.

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[elfiktheelf]

[sophfandoms53]

This screenshot is one of my favorite things from the episode bc every character’s reaction to a literal building caving in on them is so fucking funny.

The two shark/fish demons on the left are just staring wide eyed.

The other shark demon on the right is placing his hat on his chest and just accepting this is his fate now.

Crimson is in utter confusion and disbelief about what the hell just happened.

Meanwhile Striker is clearly having flashbacks to when his statue fell on him.

And finally, my personal favorite, Alessio just casually places his hand in front of Crimson (like a mom does when you go to cross the street before the light changes) as if that’s going to protect his boss in any way from the cave in.