#tw mental breakdown mention

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Solar: Am I allowed to cry yet?

Moon: What in the flavor-packed fuck do you mean, sir?

Solar: Can I cry? Am I allowed?

Moon: Well why the fuck wouldn’t you be allowed?

Solar: My Moon said crying isn’t allowed but…

Moon: If you don’t have a full fucking breakdown right now, I’m gonna be even more concerned about you than I was before. Have a breakdown, bitch. Scream, cry, break things, try to kill someone for all I care just get out the trauma.

[ask-the-celestial-family]

So, Monty, update on the og og dimension. Og Monty and Foxy made up, og Monty even apologized. Also apparently if they hadn’t made up there was distinctly possibly of og Monty making their own Star and going insane and evil, witnessed in another dimension og Sun and Foxy visited to prove that og Monty, while a horrible person, isn’t evil.

Og Monty’s clone is loose in the world. And I think og Monty glued the poor thing’s mouth shut, with whatever they used to glue that shogun to the clone’s hand.

Og Moon’s Killcode is currently running around in a miniature Moon body. He refused to have any backups.

Og Computer are abusing og Moon now, but because his memory was wiped og Moon doesn’t understand that what Computer is doing is very not okay.

And og Eclipse is gaining awareness of things beyond mortal comprehension and will probably be having a severe existential crisis and possibly a mental breakdown any day now.

I’m very glad that Monty and Foxy made up, but that Monty infuriates me with the abuse of his clone. I’d never do that to a clone of mine. My clone ain’t treated nothing like that and they never will be. I’d also love to go knock some sense into their Computer. Halo and Horizon shouldn’t be abusing their Moon like that. It isn’t his fault he doesn’t know nothing, it was his predecessor’s fault. Poor Eclipse and his impending mental breakdown too. -Monty💚

[starry-skies-116]

"Oh shit" moment

No, but I don’t think I’ve realized, in the Alive!AU, just how serious and harrowingly shocking Evan making an attempt on his own life was for the Afton Family, and how much it made them realize that he was suffering so MUCH. All I went was ‘haha angst funee’.

Like, Evan isn’t completely innocent- far from that, he’s HEAVILY morally grey/ambigious and has done a couple questionable deeds across all my AUs, but just look at how much he’s sacrificed, and how much had been so unfairly taken from him. This bitch has trauma with a capital T-R-A-U-M-A.

Evan’s home life was essentially spiraling downwards since he was two- his parents were arguing already an awful lot, and he had undiagnosed autism, so he had only his plushies, his interests and his relationship with Michael, which was initially healthy, full of love and respect and affection and blossoming and thriving. Yeah, that gets ripped away from him by the time he’s five. Cue depression and anxiety symptoms making themselves visible and mild nightmares/hallucinatory symptoms showing up for the first time, and cue Mike and his friends bullying him, plus the bullying from peers his age AND older than him.

Then Elizabeth is born. His sweet, beautiful baby sister. Evan had already known that no matter how much he loved, respected and looked up to Michael, his older brother had ‘forsaken’ him and would never love him the way he used to, nor protect or take care of him. 

It made sense- Evan was undesirable, after all, from his own point of view. Unlovable- without worth or value, devoid of purpose, of any meaning, honor or dignity at all. Whilst the rest of his family shined like the purest of gold and gemstones, his heart was mired in the everwinter of permafrost that blackened and rusted away at it in turn.

Yet wrong he was, for the boy had erred in judgement- his heart was that of shattered, pure gold, kind yet cracking beneath the burden of the weight it bore. He gave all he could muster to Elizabeth as her mind gradually unveiled itself to full consciousness and enlightenment with every passing year- encouraged her, took care of her, consoled her, listened to her, protected her, imparted smidgens of sagacity unto her whilst her gaze glimmered with curiosity. He appreciated her- a babbling creature of never-ending questions, demands and desires, listening to his own intelligence and letting him love her the way he wished he could be loved again.

And while she did defend him and ramble to him every now and then, she gradually became obsessed with Circus Baby- and consequently, with their father, doing everything she could to make a man who never knew or fully cared for his own blood and flesh proud.

Everyone had abandoned him unwittingly, unaware of what they had unintentionally done- Evan felt alone. Was alone. And the nightmares and hallucinations began to worsen as a consequence of his depression eating away at him more- the monsters he had been fighting all his life. And it’s not just these horrific conjurations he dreams of- he dreams of a warmer, brighter future, filled with love and joy so imperfectly beautiful- of promises forsaken and betrayed, of past vows unfulfilled and left to rot, of the rage and sorrow and pain festering like an open wound on his heart within

No one was there to help him because no one knew. Every day, the screaming coming from the fights was louder. Every day, the panic attacks, existential crisises and mental breakdowns were becoming worse. The only time he isn’t feeling numb is when he feels pain, and thoughts of disappearing from the world or hurting himself occur to his mind almost every day.  He becomes more detached, numb and full of despair, hope being leeched from his body with every pointless hour that ticked by

Evan doesn’t feel safe in his own body, nor his own mind.

And then comes his birthday gone wrong, where he was humiliated once more by Michael and his friends, and then the summer after he graduates from fifth grade, he just can’t do it anymore.

And then comes the shock- the afterthought, the ‘oh crud’ moment.

Where the rest of the Afton family realizes that things are bad, and because of their unintentional negligence and being caught up in their own life, they almost lost their own family.

[helpless-sunflower]

Having an AM breakdown as an alter is adjusting to the system after being dormant and doesn’t want to be here

[sanriosratz]

i just got this quote from a generator and i find it funny so i’m sharing it

Kurai: I need to dye my hair.

Daraku: ...

Kurai: Or get another tattoo.

Daraku: ...

Kurai: Or a new piercing.

Daraku: Why?

Kurai: To, you know, appease the mental breakdown gods.

i love this!

he absolutely has tons of piercings and tattoos! he actually got his mullet as a dare but liked it and decided to keep it

[lazykebabvagina]

Haven't updated in a while but I've been clean from self harm for over a month. I'm pretty proud of myself tbh

[its-just-mads]

[tub3rculosis]

blah blah blah merry almost christmas

[happyk44]

Annabeth breaking up with Percy after HoO because the Misery thing freaked her out and after the war she finally had the time to look back on it and process how scared she was and her panic is just "get away get away" and she just needs a break to get past it and Sally having Estelle and clearly she loves Percy still but she also has Paul and a new kid now and she seemed painfully resigned to Percy being cast into another war and so he's just clawing at Grover, begging loudly and near violently for him not to leave him like everyone else, on the verge of suicide, and Grover promising he won't but Percy doesn't believe him even as he calms down because people leave, they leave, they leave, they leave, he's broken and horrible and disgusting and they leave and Grover has Juniper and Lord of the Wild duties and he'll leave just like everyone else and what's the point of life anymore if everyone he loves is just going to leave?

[wannabecatwriter]

It was nice to take a bath and not feel like she might pass out for once - for the past few days, Val's been feeling majorly under the weather. She was better now and pondering things.

To think that she was a married woman now and a mother - even a short while ago, she would have said it'll never happen for her. But life had a funny way with things.

Growing up with parents who never seemed to parent her much, she learned to take care of herself and not wait for them. It was necessary.

It also led to her going through life on autopilot, sometimes, taking care of everything and everyone around her, fixing problems wherever she perceived them and being a lifesaver for friends who needed one.

But what did she need? She wasn't even sure. Yes, she dated once or twice in college. But those relationships felt almost automatic, which, looking back now, she knew wasn't healthy.

If not for the mental breakdown she had that forced her to quit working at Joja, and not for her parents' behavior that followed, maybe she would still be in that cycle.

Her grandpa leaving her that farm proved to be something that really saved her life. She made great connections in Pelican Town. And found the love of her life.

Sometimes, she was still amazed that Elliott fell for her. Old Val would've friend-zoned him automatically, assuming he was out of her league. But somehow, she was so comfortable around him that they became a family.

Life sure was strange sometimes.

[anti-endo-haven]

sorry vent incoming. tw sexualization general mental breakdown bullshit

i cant handle embarrassment literally at fucking all. i can normally speak japanese but when i front i cant because body doesnt and has never learend. google translate makes me look like a racist stupid fuck all ignorant piece of shit by translating into mandarin even when i specifically ask for japanese - because i know its disjointed i know it sounds stiff i know it sounds robotic i just need to feel SOME kind of familiarity but no. no i get to look like a fucking moron.

i'm so tired too of people um actuallying me as well like i get it i get it i get it I FUCKING GET IT I GET IT I NEED TO SOURCE SEPARATE I NEED TO BE AWARE OF THE FACT I'M A FICTIVE I NEED TO BE ACUTELY AWARE OF THE BODY'S LIMITATIONS AND I SHOULDN'T TRY TO EXPAND INTO WHAT I CAN USUALLY DO LIKE SPEAK DIDFERENT LANGUAGES. AND I SHOULDN'T COMPLAIN ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS TO SOURCE ME BECAUSE THAT'S NOT ME I'M SO SO SO SO SICK OF HEARING IT CAN'T I JUST GET ONE MINUTE OF FUCKING PEACE

once i vented to tales of sysblr about how MUCH how COPIOUS how OFTEN AND VAST AND NAUSEATINGLY COMMON SEEING MYSELF MY FACE SOMEONE THAT LOOKS EERILY SIMILAR TO ME BEING SEXUALIZED AND FETISHIZED TO HELL AND BACK, AND SOMEONE IN THE REPLIES HAD THE GALL TO TELL ME IT WAS MY FAULT FOR NOT BEING READY TO SEPARATE. MY HOSTS FAULT FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO PREVENT SEEING IT EVEN THOUGH IT IS LITERALLY GODDAMN INESCAPABLE

I AM SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING A FICTIVE I WANT TO DISSOLVE.

-🌴🦔💍 idc if someone claims this it's a one time thing

You don’t have to source separate if you’re not ready to. There’s some things that look similar to us at times and we get through it and something happens and we just can’t, or we know what it’s like to go through that and we can’t continue watching it but we must because we want to finish it.

There’s no harm in learning a language either. As long as you can learn everything else, I don’t see any harm in it.

It’s not your fault for not being able to source separate, some alters can’t (majority of us can’t). You really can’t escape seeing some things either so the person that said that is wrong.

You don’t deserve to be sexualized and treated that way, and it isn’t your fault that people don’t understand boundaries.

I’m sorry that I can’t help much, but we’re here for you.

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Sun: Your mental breakdown is imminent.

Eclipse: I solve it with Pop Tarts and Cheez-Its.

Sun: …

Sun: That doesn’t even make any sense.

Eclipse: It’s a mental breakdown, does it have to make sense?

[ask-the-celestial-family]

I'm not sure who might still be awake but, would you guys believe me if I told you Eclipse actually regrets his decision and is having a mental breakdown right now. Doesn't change the fact he did it of course, but he's remorseful

He should be. He about killed Lunar! -Moon💙

Cips is sad? -Lunar🤍

I wouldn't actually. He seems too unstable to have a breakdown, more like a mood swing. -Monty💚

[inka-boi]

Im in fucking shambles I saw some people say that lust s/a’d his brother n I’m fucking terrified. I don’t know if they were talking abt canon/fanon lust tho..

(Mention of gr00m3r/p3d0

I don’t.. want my comfort character to be a fuckin pedo or groomer. I’m

.. I really don’t want my comfort character to be a mf pedo/groomer…. I’m in shambles rn

[helpless-sunflower]

It’s a mental breakdown

[battle-subway-ghost]

im not feeling okay but iwas breaking down and i saw texts from fluffye telling me not to take LSD and it completely snapped meout of it for abit because what the fuck. what the fuck

thgought id say that