#tw: self-doubt

[the-lion-guard-88]

Sorry y’all. I’ve been mentally telling myself to do more stereotypical dad Mr. WPNZ stuff, but the moment I start it, my brain just turns off and says “don’t do it”. On top of that I’ve been feeling like shit lately for a number of reasons. I’ve been getting ideas, but have been unable to execute them. Idk why

[lucianscorner]

Thanks for much for the Ccino doodles!

Decided to make him angsty for this one .

[angelcake707]

Day 11 - Angst

They're both suffering some issues. Pomni's hugging her Gummigoo plushie, 'cause she can't handle trying not to abstract. As for Caine, he's doubting himself, thinking nobody likes his adventures, causing the area to glitch out.

Showtime Week belongs to @waffle-gal

[pots-culture-is]

Undiagnosed pots culture is laying down and having a resting heart beat of 63 and then standing up to have it go up to 125 and still think to myself “but what if im fine and im just making it all up in my head?” Even tho there’s also joint pain and dizziness and headaches every single day and brain fog and blood pooling and more

But what if nothing’s actually wrong and im just making it up in my head and convincing myself something’s wrong even though i don’t want something to be wrong and i know that the physical symptoms are all real

To fake something you have to consciously fake it, (although I'm aware it sounds insane, I didn't believe that either for a long time, but I promise it's true).

If you have symptoms, you're very likely not making it up in your head anon, sure something being wrong isn't great, but I can promise you that worrying if you're faking or not isn't worth your time. (or energy). (that shit is more valuable than gold dude /gender neutral).

I got told (by many people including a doctor) that I must be faking and I believed it, all it did was worsen my PoTS (health was already deteriorating and it was a spiral I couldn't escape), once I pushed past that and got a diagnosis and medication holy shit is life easier.

I'm not the best with words of support, I'm aware, but I try haha. If you take anything away from this, be it that not everyone will present the same, just because one thing is less bad that someone else, doesn't mean you're faking, or anything like that. It can't hurt to let someone know that there may be something wrong either. ❤️(/platonic)

[novasintheroom]

Oh don't mind me, just trying to get hyped for the Prince!Vash arranged marriage au I have cooking in my head :) Moodboard it is!

[utanaza-ao3]

Title: oh, i was sleeping in the garden when i saw you first Rating: Teen and Up Fandom: Genshin Impact Relationships: Zhongli/Venti Content Warning: Minor Character Death, Self-Doubt Word Count: 3,982 Summary: But oh, he couldn’t hide; but oh, he couldn’t hide – not from him, not so close, not so near, not so tender; not when they were mere inches apart, breathing the same cold, sordid air, not when he could feel Morax’s heartbeat within his own chest; and gently, rough and calloused and battle-scarred fingers snake their way into his hood, holding his chin gingerly as Morax turns his face toward him.

“… In all the time that I have known you, I have never seen your face,” he mutters softly. “… Why must you cover yourself so?”

He gulps.

“I am nothing but an ugly thing,” Venti whispers, afraid. “… I am nothing but pathetic and lonesome and cursed; the son of Medusa, I’ve been told. I – I do not wish to bring shame onto you. Please – please forgive me.”

“Utter nonsense,” Morax tells him.

“.. You are the most beautiful thing I have ever known.” ~~ Remember when this did numbers? Because I sure do. Read it here!

[eyesofcuriosity]

/Maybe it's the season because you know cold and whatnot gloomier thoughts seep into my mind.

Just feel like....waste of space, or a parasite living off someone who is much more hardworking than myself. I'm ashamed and disappointed in myself.

I am trying to change that, it's really slow and I'm worried once I reach the point of change and growth....Will I be able to do that?

Or will I just, cover in fear and take a step back and go back to the unhealthy lifestyle.

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

Infinity: LuLu, you think I’m smart, right?

Lunar: You’re the smartest.

Infinity: So I’m not dumb?

Lunar: Not at all.

Infinity: And I’m not ugly?

Lunar, now holding a knife: I’ll kill whoever told you that.

[self-dx-culture-is]

self dx culture is oh god what if im wrong. what if im being dramatic. what if nothing is wrong with me. what if im being a hypochondriac again. what if im wrong oh god what if im wrong.

felt

[magicdonuts-supreme]

Hello, this is my first time ever requesting something on here, so I will keep it simple. Could you do something where the reader’s f/o comforts them and reassures them that they’re not a burden and they aren’t too much(personality wise) after people have made them feel that way their entire life? You don’t have to if this is too much :)

Thank you!! p.s. I absolutely love your work, it’s so comforting <333

aww, thank you, anon! /gen and thank you for reading my work. also this is my first request, so at least we’re in this together :P sorry if this took too long, btw

You didn’t understand. Couldn’t fathom it.

Your F/O… well, they’re them. They’re awe-inspiring, the one who hung the moon and stars in the sky yet could make any light seem dull when compared to them. Even if not many see it, just seeing them makes your world sing with Shakespearean rhymes.

Then… there’s you.

The off-key note. Your thoughts summed you up as the screeching in the background that would wake your F/O from their love-filled dreams, not be the star of them. And they’d notice that soon enough, right? That’s what your thoughts told you: Wait and see how the apple of their eye rots. The other shoe will drop. And…

It never did.

Not because your F/O is blind to your flaws, but because they accept them. 999 days of misery are worth it to see your smile on the 1,000th day. Even so, they don’t love you for your smile. Not for your looks, nor for a specific aspect of your personality.

After all, if your F/O wanted a “perfect��� partner who didn’t do anything but wear a sewed-on smile, they would’ve married the shadow tied to their feet. Your F/O loves you for who you are. From your skin to the marrow of your bones. From your despair to your bursts of hyperactivity.

No one curses the Sun when it’s shrouded by clouds, and it only shines brighter when a new day dawns. So what reason do they have to stop loving you the moment you frown?

What reason do they have to stop loving you the moment you need it most?

[undeadunalive]

Btw I'm aware that I don't chat to people as much as I used to. Over the last year my anxiety took a drastic turn where I pretty much regressed back into really struggling to go outside the flat or being okay with being seen. I'm still extremely paranoid about how I look, hence why I don't post photos of my full face anymore, and while I'm more able to talk to people in person and actually look at them when interacting, I do still stutter and panic a lot. Even last week I went down to check the mail, my neighbour looked over at me, I froze, panicked and legit just ran back upstairs. 😂 When it comes to online, I get the exact same thing but you can't see that the reason I'm not replying is because I've panicked and ran away so it just comes across as me just not wanting to interact. I really want to work on this this year and feel more able to chat to people without being so afraid, but please be patient with me. I promise you that it's nothing against you, I do want to chat it's just something I've been struggling with.

[li-nox]

I hate the feeling that on certain days I question whether my profession truly is one, because it's skimming “only” the surface of numerous other professions (psychology, educational science, etc.). I know this comes off as pretentious, but at times, it just gets to me...

[ofsupernovcs]

Chess and Consciousness: A one shot between father and daughter

Prompt: Nova and her father are playing chess, after hours of quiet Nova and Terehito talk

"Why seven children?"

The question hung heavily in the air. There was an unreadable look from her father.

"A shaman." He answered with no emotion

"So why fear me."

The father crossed his arms.

"Because your mother lied to me."

"Lied about what?" Nova asked her voice equally void of emotion.

"Nagisa, people lie to get what they want. Power. money. That's why Mr. Mushimoto handpicked those suitors."

"That's insightful but what did mother lie about?"

There was a silence before her father stood and loomed over her.

"The same things you lie about."

Nova barely flinched, even as her heart started beating.

"For someone so smart your efforts to hide who you are sloppy." Terehito remarked.

"Like father, like daughter." Nova remarked back. "Is that why you sent me away when you could?"

"Yes."

"Did you expect I'd never learn."

Terehito glared at his daughter.

"Rei was the last one, that was the deal I made with them. You were born but that meant nothing." There was a sneer. "You are messing with things you don't understand Nagisa."

Nova's expression remained stoic but she clenched her fist under the table.

"I can keep learning. I can be the shr-"

"Don't talk out of turn."

Nova shrunk in her seat. There was another sneer from her father.

"You can keep playing your little game of doctor however long you please. But you will never your grandmother. The balance can't be restored it is futile to even try Nagisa."

Her father slid the tissue box across the table.

"Don't leave my house crying.It's shameful"

[morgansmornings]

so you wanted a long anon, i dunno how long i can make this, but i'm willing to give it a go. first off i just want to say that you're fantastic as a writer. you churn out paragraphs of excellent material that never fails to get the eyes engaged. the genre doesn't even really matter. it could be coffee shop meet cute or it could be badass action sequence and the love you put into it still resonates the same way. you didn't just make a character from scratch, you love the character you made, and every au that comes with her. every time i see one of your posts i learn a little more about jay, and it doesn't even matter whether it's ic or ooc. that's a dedication that few people around here can really match.

and second, i want to say you're an extraordinary person. you're so sweet and welcoming and open. everyone i know on tumblr should aspire to your example. do you know that your quality has potential to make you intimidating? but i don't mean that in any kind of bad or scary way. really i think it's something you should hold on to, because it means you attract the best writers to want to write with you, and you inspire people to step up their game, not just for writing but to really think about the characters they write.

i understand if all this makes you want to crawl under a snow bank and make everyone not perceive you for a day or two but i hope this helps you know the effect you have. seeing you active here is a highlight of any day. you've got skills with the written word, and you're lovely in how approachable you as a person are. it's not scary to write with you. you just make someone who does it want to do it better.

keep doing exactly what it is you do and exactly the way you do it.

This Meme: Accepting @ Anonymous ~~~*~~~

I have no words, yet have too many to make use of. But I will try my best to answer.

First; Thank you. The kindness in that message has me next to dumbfounded. It brings me such joy that you can see and feel the amount of time that I have given over to Jayden, despite my habit of disappearing for months at a time due to life. I do love her as much as I aspire to be like her. To be brave, and confident  while being caring and supportive. Without coming off as arrogant and ass-hat like. It is a struggle because I am nothing like Jayden in Real Life. There are times that Turtle Mun has found me on the verge of a conniption fit because I have no clue what the right answer to give a reply is. This does touch my heart that you can appreciate the effort that I try to give to all that I write with. 

Two: I do my best to treat everyone the way I want to be treated. It seems so easy to say, but there is a hazard of putting an honest self out on the internet. It saddens me to think that life has been so cruel to people that most would call bullshit on being honest. Why contribute to the negativity, when it takes less effort to make someone smile? Most do not consider how powerful a simple “Hey, I hope you have a better day than the one you had yesterday.” can be. 

Being kind can be a huge effort and seems like an impossibility at times, but there are certain things that I believe in. 

One of them is this; Be Kind to Strangers. You don’t know their story, their history, and you might be the one act of kindness that they receive all day. That might be the one thing that keeps them tethered to life for another day.” Another is that what you send out into the world comes back to you threefold. It is simple, but something that I try my hardest to keep in mind as I live life. 

Two, Part Two; I never even thought about that, to be honest. It is not my intention to be intimidating at all. I have always tried to be considered at least a decent Writing Partner. Giving the same effort that my counterpart has given me. To give them not only internal monologue, thoughts, and feelings, but things that their Muse can then turn and act upon. I don’t think that highly of my own writing. I make mistakes, typos, there are grammatical errors left and right. And most of the time I never see them until it is too late. But I do try my hardest to give quality replies to every Mun that has given me a chance to write with them. So again my gratitude and thanks for your kindness to say these things. 

Third; You are correct. I do want to hide away and pretend that I am just another log buried under the snow. But it has lifted a portion of the weight from my worries that most don’t think I am worth writing with. That I fall way behind the mark of being able to give the same if not more to my Writing Partners. That I am actually worth writing with. 

In conclusion: I will keep this tucked away for the rainy days when I feel defeated in my efforts. This ask is one of the kindest and thorough that I have ever gotten. I will take this to heart and continue to do my best for the future.

[rookofthekingom]

if I’m ever feeling down I just think about that one time (today) when someone I know (me) had a nervous break-down and realized (managed to convince myself) that they actually didnt know how to do anything (play the violin) and had only tricked the world into thinking that they did for their entire life (the past 7 years) and somehow managed to do this while simultaneously doing something (playing the violin) and therefore completely undermining the argument by proving their own competency