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[suikamelon6]

Lestat and King Louis XIV

here is a pdf of 260 pages cleaned up Jpegs (by me) of Anne Rice's "Lestat & King Louis XIV"

https://ufile.io/2lltf5g6

(photos taken by @kaelio and @thecactifindahome) Thank you so much guys! SO GRATEFUL.

An OCR text file for kindle is coming (being proof-read)

[r0manc3-dawn]

HC that when words fail, Jason just stares.

idk how this thought came about, but the idea that Jason, being the huge book nerd that he is, is not good with words. He's blunt and to the point. Yeah, he can say things that are sweet, but he's not poetic.

So whenever he's not sure what to say, he just stares. Expression firm, but soft, like he's looking at something delicate. Like if you looked at you wrong it'd be blasphemy. He doesn't have to say 'I love you,' because you can tell by the way he looks at you.

Jason who's so inlove you're the only sight he needs to see.

[suikamelon6]

I wouldn't have anything to do pdf and ocr text with if you guys didn't do the hard yard and take these photos. Absolutely grateful <3 to you @kaelio and @thecactifindahome and others who have done it in the past too.

and lovely @squirrellypoo for editing/proofing the ocr!!!

I just want to thank you and Kaelio for sharing this stuff with fans who would otherwise never have such an opportunity, and for doing so much work to make it comprehensible for us. It's been amazing being able to read some of these notes and drafts and gain a little bit more understanding into Anne's somewhat opaque writing processes. I hope you know how much your generosity and labor is appreciated <3

It's been a lot of fun sharing it! Enormous thanks too to @squirrellypoo and @suikamelon6 for helping to transcribe/compile things, I believe there are others too but I'm blanking on their usernames, agh. There’s so much fascinating, funny, and heartbreaking stuff in there, and seeing everyone's reactions has been a gift. And most thanks of all to @kaelio for putting the trip together!

[luciaintheskyainthi]

hi!! just wanted to say that i absolutely LOVE ECM and was wondering if jason would ever find out about the rest of peter’s traumas…

also, would you mind if anyone ahem maybe me ever made like, a comic version of your fic??

🥰🥰 🥰 Thank-you!!!!

Jason will have to drag some of them out of Peter (but likewise Peter's going to have to do the same to Jason). However, some things will just be a 'they talked about it' mention in the text since i'm always conscious of bloat 🙃 My current draft is sitting at 190K and I'm probably only a third into part 2 😭😭😭

And yes I would LOVE that!!!! I'm so happy with any creations sent my way!!!

[salt-n-salt]

the sudden influx of sdv fics im seeing from moots and just seeing in general is changing something within me .. do i dare attempt to write a shane fic that encapsulates the weariness of both his aging body and plummeting mental health on top of the recurring reminder of the deaths of his two best friends and how the guilt he has no reason to feel cripples him and how horribly ill-equipped he is to care for a child who he can’t look at without being reminded of them. hm.

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

so we've spent the past three months writing MelloNear daily, and we've worked on enough different pieces in that time that i now have some Thoughts as to the narrative purposes they each tend to serve in our own works (this is not. about canon though i suppose it DERIVES from their canon dynamic. this is very much about how we personally play with the blorbos)

by and large Mello serves to drive the plot, regardless of the position he is put in within the universe. we don't even have to actively be trying to do anything with him -- even in our more Near-centric pieces, as long as Mello is present? his emotions, whims, wants are what shapes the trajectory of the story, his emotional beats are the beats that drive the plot forward. he feels, he impulses, he injects stuff into the sequence of events. things happen because Mello wants them to (or pushes Near to make them happen if/when he himself cannot).

meanwhile Near is much less of a driving force for the plot and more of a reflective force for the story. he isn't IRRELEVANT to the plot, he doesn't do NOTHING, but most of what he does from a plot progression standpoint is reactive. like, he acts not because of an inner drive, not based on his own wants or needs, but largely when his circumstances require action of him. (by circumstances i don't just mean Plot Events. sometimes what he reacts to are his own emotions, like in sweet atonement, when they are so overwhelming that he cannot put them aside to strategise effectively anymore -- the keyword here being "effectively", because even then his first response will still often be to try to strategise.) by and large what Near does do is provide space for reflection, for thought, for analysis. things happen to him, or through him, and he thinks about them a bunch, and he'd leave it at that if Mello wasn't pushing him.

so they make for super neat storytelling when you figuratively drop them together in a jar and shake them around, because it's like. Mello pushes Near into action Near wouldn't take on his own; and then Near adds weight to Mello's direction, provides a deeper sense of spacetime, fleshes out the places where Mello takes him that Mello wouldn't necessarily stop at or consider on his own. like at their core, in the way we write their dynamic, Mello Does and Near Is. and mixing them up, you get: all of the essential elements for a compelling story!

and obviously im not like, talking in absolutes, none of this is true 100% of the time or the only possible reading of them, nuance exists etc etc. but that's the general trends we're starting to notice in our own MelloNear writing over the past few months

[tenrousei-kuroi]

"...until you just..." what?

“Sirius!” he jumped up at the sight of his brother. “I—I thought…” he whispered a little breathlessly before trailing off with an embarrassed blush.

“Thought what? That I wouldn’t come get you?”

Regulus nodded guiltily.

Sirius scoffed. “Come now, Reggie, I could never bear to be cruel to you,” he said before opening his arms wide. “Now where is my hug? I’ve not seen you for ages…”

Regulus slid easily into Sirius’s arms. The two of them clicked together like adjoining puzzle pieces.

Sirius inhaled the comforting scent of his brother. Regulus smelled like home to him—the one piece of it he’d always been able to stand. Regulus was the dusty books they’d stolen from Father’s personal library, the small cakes they’d eaten with tea, the sweet wines they’d sneaked from Mother’s cellar…When Regulus was with him all the bad memories disappeared, and Sirius was always left giddy with only the good.

“I’m going to miss you so much,” Regulus muttered into his brother’s shirt. “I’ll be gone the whole break. Alone.”

Sirius petted his hair fondly. “You’ve gone longer than two weeks without me just this last term,” he gently chided. He’d never admit to Regulus that he was just as stressed about being separated.

“Yes but that’s different,” Regulus said, pouting. “At least I know that you’re nearby. I can look across the Great Hall at mealtimes and see that you’re where you always are. I can brush past you in corridors on the way to classes…just to make sure that I can still feel you. And even if I’d never do it because it would make you so cross with me…at least I know that I could theoretically sneak up here to your dorm to see you. I can’t do any of that home at Grimmauld Place.”

Regulus looked down sadly. Sirius tilted his chin up and leaned down to kiss him.

“It’ll be okay,” he whispered.

“When can I leave?” Regulus asked desperately. “When will you take me away like you promised?”

“Soon,” Sirius said. “Soon, Reg, really. It’s just…not now. We need to wait a little bit.”

“But I’ve been waiting!” Regulus insisted. “It’s been two years, Sirius!”

“Shh, I know,” Sirius said, trying to soothe his brother into being a bit quieter. They were quite alone in the alcove but it wouldn’t do to attract the attention of any nearby portraits or ghosts. “But I’m only barely of age, Reg. I still live with the Potters and I just can’t take you home to them.”

“Why not?”

“They wouldn’t understand, Reg. They would be upset by you and me. And there’d be no chance of keeping us a secret. You know that I wouldn’t be able to keep my hands off you if we were under the same roof,” Sirius added in a playful voice before kissing a wet line up Regulus’s neck. Regulus let out a startled noise and shrugged free of Sirius’s grip.

For a minute Regulus was smiling, but then he looked very sad.

“That’s what you always say. That you can’t risk James finding out because then your real family will reject you.” Regulus looked at Sirius with watery eyes and took a shaky breath before continuing. “You’re never going to come back for me, are you? I’ll always be waiting one more year…until you just…”

[luvo27]

hang on wait a minute what do you MEAN i've actually only written one fic where steph kills her dad??????

[kaibacorpintern]

in one more chapter of fic plus 2k or so of whatever i will have published half a million yugioh words............... okay.

[priafey]

for my dear, dear friend Redd (@abstractredd), an artfight attack of one of my favorite scenes from their fic, of Mer and Man, showing Athrar and Hedgrod's reconciliation ;–;

[thief-of-eggs]

Here’s a little unhinged fact about me- I do all of my fanfic writing in the notes app on my phone.

…All in the same page too. I simply scroll to find what I’m currently working on.

[albentelisa]

Hi! Here's an interesting ask. What if Jim was Douxie's younger brother but still falls for Claire?

Oh, I actually have a fic draft with that premise in my notes though I don't know if or when I may post that one. So, I guess, I'll just share some of my notes.

So, in that AU, Douxie and Jim are half-brothers (they have the same mother who is the daughter of the Casperan family head). They are two years apart, with Douxie being the older one. Douxie is supposed to be an heir - he was born from the arranged marriage between his mother and a talented wizard from another powerful magic clan. Casperan family was once powerful but currently is in decline. The arranged marriage was an attempt to revive the former glory.

As for Jim, he is born out of an affair between his mother and a Camelot knight. This birth seemingly ruins everything for Casperan's family. Douxie's dad leaves as he is greatly insulted. The mother dies soon after giving birth to Jim, leaving both boys in the care of their aunt and grandfather.

Jim is greatly despised in the family. They refuse to give him a magical name, giving him a regular one James. While no one attempts to get rid of him actively, the family keeps sending him into dangerous places to gather ingredients for potions hoping that Jim won't return. Jim befriends Blinky during one of those outings.

Jim seemingly possesses no magic (yet another reason why his family cannot stand him), but Douxie doesn't fare that much better. He was supposed to be a rare prodigy and the hope of the Casperan family, yet he is nowhere close to the expectations. Besides, he likes music and wandering way more than studying under his grandfather's tutelage.

Technically, Douxie and Jim trust only each other in their family, feeling no familial attachment to anyone else (well, Douxie also has his familiar Archie, but that's it).

Jim's magic manifests out of nowhere when he is 9. Unfortunately for him, his magic is shadowmancy (it's blue and black in color, BTW!) and the Casperan family tolerates that one even less than Merlin.

They decide to kill Jim, but Douxie and Archie save him and the three of them run away and settle in Camelot (because of Arthur's purges, the Casperan family has no connections there).

After some time Douxie discovers some unexplained oddity about his brother - Jim has stopped aging both physically and mentally (think of a Peter Pan-like situation). It's the result of Jim's trauma.

Even though they are only two years apart as time passes and Douxie keeps growing, it starts to look like their age difference is bigger.

Jim has a horrible opinion about all wizards except Douxie (he believes his brother is a rare exception and everyone else is a horrible person). He likes knights instead - well, the concept of a knight, who is a noble protector and a true hero, and their aesthetics.

Douxie meets Merlin when he is 16, and around the same time, Jim meets Morgana (his magic goes out of control and she senses him). Morgana is extremely happy to meet another shadowmancer and proposes Jim to become her apprentice. It's the first time someone treats Jim's magic as a good thing (even Douxie, while not calling shadow magic evil, avoids discussing it).

So, Douxie and Jim end as apprentices of Merlin and Morgana respectfully. Merlin is furious about Morgana's decision, he believes she isn't ready to teach anyone and most likely will only set Jim on the wrong path. Morgana simply doesn't care about her master's opinion.

Morgana's support makes Jim start growing again and he also starts to understand that there are more good people among wizards than he thought before. Jim's shadow magic is slightly different than Morgana's - he exceeds in conjuring different stuff from shadows and because of his admiration of knights he can easily summon and maintain an armor and sword made of shadows. Merlin is both horrified and enraged when he discovers it and claims that something like that is too dangerous. Morgana simply believes that Merlin is jealous as doing something like that without external conduits is a rare skill.

When Morgana changes sides, it's another low blow for Jim (as Morgana was a true mother figure for him). Not to mention that Merlin is pretty much deadset on sealing Jim as well before he grows up to become as dangerous as his master. Only Douxie's pleas make him change the plan, but Jim is put under non-stop surveillance from the Camelot knights with some wizards always ready to seal him if something goes wrong.

All of that is obviously no good for Jim's mental health and his time stops once again. Douxie tries his best to heal his brother's psyche but Jim seemingly needs something he can't give him. There are centuries of roaming with no change.

James Lake is Douxie and Jim's latest caretaker from Camelot knights (they keep existing as an organization) and he is a bit more flexible than his predecessors (well, and actually not that devoted to the case). That's why Douxie manages to talk him into trying to play the true family (as he hopes that if Jim has some normal life it may help him).

Douxie and Jim both take the de-aging potion and pose as James's small sons. Eventually, James meets Barbara and they marry. It is serious for Barbara (and she also gets attached to boys fast), but for James, it's just a passing infatuation. He falls in love with someone else and abandons Barbara. Douxie and Jim insist on staying though and James sees it as an opportunity to get rid of an annoying responsibility. Douxie is supposed to report to headquarters about the development, but he ends up faking reports to get some freedom.

Douxie's plan actually succeeds. Jim has Barbara and Toby now, and Jim finally actually gets into living through the teen years.

In this AU, Jim isn't the Trollhunter. Barbara takes over this role and Jim is forced to actively use his shadowmancy to protect her (as she is another mother figure for him and he'll do anything to protect her).

As for Claire in this AU, Morgana plans to use her as a vessel, so Jim is eventually forced into picking between his beloved master and the girl he loves. Obviously, he picks Claire. This entire situation helps him to get a full grip of his magic at last.

Some other stuff this AU features:

part-Akiridon Toby (both Toby and Jim discover each other's secret simultaneously - and it's awkward),

changeling Steve (and he's also Draal's younger brother),

space mercenary Darci (which leads to some problems when she starts dating Toby),

Mary's family are devoted servants of the Arcane Order and she initially is a spy,

Eli is extra sensitive and being surrounded by so many people who feels 'odd' to him drives him crazy

[blitheringbongus]

So apparently all my notes on my notes app have completely evaporated because for some reason my phone was connected with my little sisters phone and when she downloaded the notes app it was obviously blank which in turn blanked out all of my own notes ;-;

[izel-reblogs]

My thought process reading your blog intro:

“Oh, you speak polish?? that’s so cool… WAIT YOU LIKE MANDELA CATALOGUE FUCK YEA—“

HELL YEAH BROTHER 🦅🦅🦅💯💯💯💥💥‼️‼️‼️

[orlaite]

And you best believe btw that I'm including every bit of homosexual implications I can find textual evidence for and using it in my thesis to support my arguments about autobiographical conventions and the paratextual context of Seven Pillars that should inform a historical analysis of the book. I'm not fucking around with that "person could read this text and walk away with the impression that it was about a heterosexual man" type of Academia

[hjemne]

For someone who hates writing and has no time for it, I sure do write a lot