#v specific post but i'm making it anyway baby!!!

[canongf]

sometimes you love a character so loudly that it becomes how people find you, how people connect with you, how people know you. and then. sometimes you fall in love with a new character. and you think "but the first character is how people know me, i can't change how people know me. i can't love a new character." but i am here to tell you that connection is actually a very resilient thing and the people that care about you will happily learn you over and over and over again if you give them the chance. just do what you wanna do.

[twisted-wonderland-shenanigans]

ABDGAGS HOW DID I ONLY JUST NOTICE THE MINI!YUU + MER LILIA THING I LITERALLY GET NOTIFS AAAA (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

It's so adorable!!! I love how Lilia was all like 'is anyone gonna make the baby human smile' and didn't wait for an answer(⁠♡⁠ω⁠♡⁠ ⁠)⁠ ⁠~⁠♪. I'm wondering what Rook's up to though - is he gonna startle the little one? He do be sneaky (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠)

Your writing always gives me a HUGE serotonin boost lol - what're you working on at the moment (if you're cool with me asking (⁠;⁠ŏ⁠﹏⁠ŏ⁠))

Referring to this post here:

Pfft!! Tumblr is weird when it comes to notifications, and lately, I've been seeing some content creators mention that tags and responses in their posts aren't showing up in their notifications unless they go in and look at the specific posts and see them. :V

Anyway, yesssssss, I had so much fun writing that part and I'm excited to finish it up! I did add a bit more to that part than what's been posted, but you'll see it once I post the finished product~ >vÓ

Rook is always a sneaky one, but while he is curious, he means no harm! In fact, he becomes more like mini!Yuu's land (aerial?) big brother. UvU

I'm so happy knowing that people enjoy my writing so much ;;v;; As for what I'm working on, I'm still chipping away at the pregnant fem!Yuu as well as the mermaid ask and figuring out how to tackle the next installment of the Kaiju!AU, though I'm working on trying not to overwhelm myself and take breaks so I can properly write. I have too many ideas sometimes and can overwhelm myself with trying to go too big with it 🙃 But I'm learning that it's okay for me to write as much or as little as I feel suits the idea(s) I'm given, so thank you all for bearing with me on that!

[mariii1]

🦋What your future partner/sexual encounter will sound like in bed🦋

18+ Photos from Bjork's mv for pagan poetry

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Am I going crazy? Maybe. Is this the first time in a while I've posted TWO pacs in such a short time period? Yes. Will this continue? Maybe if I keep letting the impulsive thoughts win. Tbh I'm thinking of creating like extended posts you can buy or maybe there's like a poll and it's like a paid general reading??? Anyway it won't be over 3 dollars but it depends on how many of y'all participate so we'll see 🤧

1. Struggle bus. This is a cocky man who's not delivering on the cock if they have one frfr 😕 i feel they may be flashy with their self expression and definitely od with letting you know they came buttttt they're lacking. What could possibly make them so bad is not that they can't read your body like lets bffr nobody can read your mind, but they dont even take their partner's suggestions seriously and think they're all that. Lots of grunting and maybe even yelling but you might feel like you're at a zoo instead of in a bedroom 😭😭

2. DONT PLAY WITH IT DONT PLAY WITH IT COME ON BABY DONT PLAY WIT ITTT Its bussingg, its kinda giving unhinged tiktok comments, when they say out of pocket stuff like "bitch boy whimper" or sum 💀💀 yall relax plz. They're voice sounds like gold or the sounds their body makes are v nice. Like i think half of you are going to be surprised by how much you like how they sound bc they could have a unique voice or sum different. But you're going to rlly like it, the other half if you listen to audio porn or erotic asmr, you already know what to expect. 🤭

3. This will most definitely be with a future long term partner. This is giving the silent killer. They don't say a lot and don't need to. This is I'm not bragging because I know, I don't need to convince you, you feel me? Fuck around and you'll find out 😏 This could be a more reserved person in general, and I don't think they dirty talk because they're always so focused. You might not even hear them breathing, buttt you're going to be focused on not losing your mind in a good way. Honest to god they could hear you in bed all day but this is someone who knows if you're faking it or acting like it feels good when it doesn't. It will be embarrassing mostly for you only if you're not upfront about how you want to be touched 🤭 they could come off as intimidating for a few of you but they just are so focused on making you happy and get off from that; nothing you do will make them dry/limp. Unless you fake or just try to do the most when you really don't need to.

4. So you got the most amount of collaborative cards in heree. I welcome all poly AND/OR orgy fanatics in here. You're moans might actually be in sync, it might sound like a choir or gospel at a certain point 💀💀. Maybe you'll even climax together. Idk i got future partner for a lot of you so I feel like this is very healthy, everybody is pleased, no drama sex. This could also be lazy sex as well that turns into something more but it doesn't get too wild. Y'all might even smoke/drink after and get some delivery food👌

5. Like they sound like how you expect? Kinda like they sound like a grown person, like specifically i was getting how you would think a man would sound. So this person might ask you out after or your on a date and then you have sex after. Its not super set in stone yet like this feels like a very fresh relationship,like 2 min fresh. Anyway, I just think you guys are going to be in sync and whatever your first impression about them is, it's correct just know that.

[play-on-skinners-box]

SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER FIVE OF RAINCODE(And a LARGE amount of text)

I wanted to do more Raincode furries cause they're honestly so fun and are really good practice because I'm kinda rusty in general. I only did Yuma and Makoto this time just cause it's a more manageable workload and they are some of the last ones I'm especially passionate about.

OKAY, BUCKLE UP BABY, THESE CHOICES HAVE LAYERS TO THEM. L A Y E R S

OKAY SO, at some point scrolling on tumblr I saw this post by Nadox showcasing a piece of Yuma's concept art, and in the art he was depicted with long hair. They theorized that this was what Number One originally looked like and he sheared his hair into that wimpy fresh almost bowl cut so he could pass as a trainee, AND I L O V E THAT. I herby declare it as correct on the grounds of I said so.

Going along with this idea, Yuma is a young wolf that has a lame haircut so everyone THINKS he's just a dog. I know a wolf in real life would be a lot harder to reasonably pass as a dog, so this requires a bit of anime logic tomfuckery, but I'm fine with that because Raincode already deals in its fair share of logic jank. I am simply being true to game in that regard! The way I drew him already isn't super wolf-like cause I made him all squishy looking like human Yuma, and made the veerrryyyy tips of the ears flop over because the pointy ones just didn't feel quite right. I know real wolf ears are only ever depicted as pointy but it was for the VIBE. Yeaahhh in hindsight I might have taken a few too many liberties. I suppose to make it a little more sensible you could say he's a wolfdog and not full wolf or something. Other than the logic I really like this choice because everyone would naturally assume Yuma's just a pathetic little puppy dog when his real identity is hiding in plain sight!

I went back and forth on alot of the fur aspects. How smooth is too smooth? How much of it should just look like blunt cuts? Should I even give him his human hair? Usually I don't like giving my furries human hair in general because I want them looking a lot more like animals rather than people, but for Yuma his hair is such an important part of his design that I ultimately decided to keep it on both him and Makoto.

MAKOTO IS A WOLF IN SHEEPS CLOTHING AND THAT IS SO FUN, SO SILLY, SO GOOFY, HOOOORAY(Specifically a dall sheep cause they have those big curly horns). In theory, the hardest part of choosing an animal for Yuma is that whatever his animal is needs to tie into Makoto, and also be able to be implemented in a way where their connection isn't obvious. Makoto having a mask helps of course, but if you pick a really distinctive animal for Yuma you'll have to come up with better ways to hide it. Others have gotten a lot more creative with how Makoto hides his species, but I didn't do that and went in the full direction of just giving him a disguise. Its a littlllleeeeee lazy but I'm too smitten with the idea to care. I was a little confused on what to do with the tail. I considered just chopping off the majority of it to make it look like a short little sheep tail and put the justification for it in his suuuuppper tragic past(Though I honestly don't know if homunculi can regenerate like lizards). Luckily, the pose makes it so you can't see it anyway so I don't have to grapple with the responsibly of weather or not I need to brutally amputate one of Makoto's body parts. I consider this a win.

Disregarding his actual animal, I think the sheep is also weirdly fitting because of some of their associations. When I met Makoto I wasn't sure what to make of him besides being cautiously optimistic about him not letting Yuma die(What a fool I was), and sheep/lambs/rams and animals in that ballpark can vary wildly in their depictions from literaly the devil to good little fluffy guys!

For his actual look I wanted the sheep parts to look costumey sort of. I was going for a similar effect as the blood in chapter 0, where it's very noticeable but you write off the weird things about it because it's not immediately relevant. So, the mask has fake horns attached. The hand hooves are just little caps over the paw fingers, and there are two gold and silver caps to mimic his rings and point to their artificiality. The feet are also fake and are suppose to look a little clunky like Makoto's actual shoes. His hair is also much more full looking, a little less limp; because his actual ears need some place to get tucked away. I think the main problem with this design is it'd make for a really awkward reveal, cause when he dramatically gets the mask taken off then he'd just be a canine with hooves.

For both of them I think wolf works very well in terms of their characters and their shared forte. Yuma spends most of the game struggling with needing to rely on others, and Makoto has been carrying the weight of Kanai Wards secret on his shoulders alone for like three years. They also both have the Coalescence forte, which by it's very nature requires the help of other people, and at the end of the day being with others and working together is what brings them farther then they could do alone(even if some of the themes get muddled at the end and arn't really as clear as I'd personally like I find that Kodaka's games can have some not so rock solid theming with shakey conclusions but this is what I chose to take away from it)

These aspects of their characters fit perfectly with the stereotypical idea of a strong and stoic lone wolf in contrast to real wolves being pack animals that work together to survive!

I thought I'd like Yuma's design more by a landside cause I've grown really fond of his human design, but I actually really love this version of Makoto. I guess any designs with horns or hooves just appeals to me in a way that paws don't. Still really happy with these two. They could most certainly be worse! I think they're both cute little guys though and I learned a lot about how to like, render from this so that's a bonus!

[arabellameyer]

AN INTRODUCTION TO ME

Hello everyone! How are you? I'm Arabella, and I love to worldbuild, learn about nature, draw, and a bunch of other stuff. If you have any questions about my worlduilding, let me know! Please keep conversations appropriate (no sexting or asking extremely personal questions). Here there will be reblogs of/art of some stuff you might find disturbing (body horror/gore), but I will label it as such (gore, blood, tw, nsfw, etc). It's part of my worldbuilding as you'll see here over time. But it isn't the only part of my worldbuilding, so don't worry about missing out on much. I do not tolerate any porn so none will be here. I've heard too many stories of people dealing with porn addictions and how debilitating it is, so I'm not even going to chance looking at it, lead alone reblogging it.

Filing system down below v

When I reblog stuff, I'll put it in a file system that is similar to my pinterest pinning system (same titles and such). Here's how it'll go...

(btw if any of these tags are of no interest to you, then feel free to block them)

Art:

Animal reference

Animal pose

Animal behavior

Art reference

Human pose

Guide or Art Guide

Landscape

Procreate

Ibispaint

Aesthetic/pattern:

It just looks pretty - I like it because it looks nice :)

Storytelling or Cinematic - the way it sends a message is interesting, and I'd like to use it as inspiration

Worldbuilding:

(BTW level 1 animals are animals found irl)

Level 2 - Like irl animals that have one little thing changed about them, like their color or number of eyes.

Level 3 - Mix of 2 or more animals that is hard to distinguish what the original animal is (like a cat/snake mix, was it originally a cat or originally a snake).

Level 4 - A change in the original species causes a majority of people to fear it, like deep fear it. Creepy

Level 5 - Like levels 2-4, but with a horror aspect to it (like snakes that look like intestines).

I've made guides for my leveling system and I'll post them soon, so don't worry if you're confused ;)

Dragons

Elementals

Hybrid

Characters:

Scene idea - idea for a plot point or fun story in my world

Characters - catch-all

Johann the discoverer

Damien

Mama nova

Void deer

Memes:

(I'll add more as time goes on)

Memes - general tag

Remember - has some relevance to it, whether or not it's a meme (just sorta a catch-all for anything that I want to remember. You'll see what I mean if you search through there.)

Scenario - meme that describes a scene, and I don't know where else to put it

Food for the funnies - this is where I put the stuff I actually laugh at. Not just a breath out of my nose, but a true laugh.

Derpy - •u•

Fever dream - lol those memes that make no sense or come out of left field

And that's how babies are made - I'm not even going to explain this one lol

Stay flexy - exercise ideas

Cute:

Cute - catch-all for anything adorable :3

Cute animal - specifically cute animals

Cute plant - specifically cute plants

Misc:

Recommend or Recommendation - smth I should check out (to buy or look @ again)

Pins or Enamel pins - enamel pins I like the look of.

Watch later - if I like the look of it but don't have the mental energy to completely peruse it, then I'll put it here.

Ok so that is my filing system lol. I know it's pretty long but I plan on using the references and stuff I find here.

I know I said this before, but I love talking (raging extrovert), so if you wanna chat or dump a writing idea or creature idea on me, then go for it! Heck, my commissions are also open (not getting them done immediately, tho) if you're interested (no guarantee on the quality. Just know I am still learning the fundamentals of art). Anyways, if you're reading this far, then you're one of the real ones (also, what's your favorite color? Mine is blue, but I like them all tbh) 💪. Thanks so much for reading this. I'll have a side blog here shortly where I'll post only my art so that you don't have to go through all my reblogs, lol. Anyways, thanks so much, and have a blessed day <3

P.S. this is my art-only side blog. Here, have a mouse 🫴🐁

[kyouka-supremacy]

can you share some of your favorite sskk* fanfics?

Sure!!! I'll be definitely forgetting some but on the top of my mind these are some of my favorites (in order of publication):

↳ Fine Print by Hinalilly Such a cute and in character pre-relationship Valentine’s Day fic ;;;; I love them.

↳ Seven days of him just make me weak by frankenjoly Just wholesome assorted sskk snippets, I can always feel myself physically melt reading this.

↳ my pretty baby holds me down by ChaSeuBao but specifically Chapter 2: While the Other is "Asleep" Tbh I just feel this could perfectly happen in canon. They're just as immature and impulsive and in love as they act in the manga, and it's perfect. Post-canon fics where Atsushi and Akutagawa have matured and grown into proper men are v v good but fics where they still act childish and dumb because they never had a childhood they could grow out of are v v good too. Get together fic.

↳ the only exception by dextergrif I've reread this so many times avbkavkvcqbwsl opposite to the one above, it's nice to see a more mature version of Atsushi and Akutagawa who've slowly worked out of their traumas to be a better version of themselves!! I adore sskk being friends before getting together because ~they're the only ones who get each other~. Enemies to friends to lovers is good. Get together fic.

↳ someone to share the silence by UnicornFlowers Idk this is just one of the best fics I've ever read and so so beautifully written I'm sobbing. Such a good enstablished-relationship Akutagawa character study and sskk navigating their relationship 🤧🤧 On touch-repulsed Akutagawa and touch-starved Atsushi who's perfectly respectful of his boyfriend's boundaries. AND AKUTAGAWA CRYING that is SO good

↳ makeshift gauge by moderndaycain The post-doa arc sskk reunion we deserve (pre-relationship)

↳ Five Times Atsushi Was Hugged and One Time He Gave a Hug & Five Times Akutagawa Cuddled Atsushi And One Time He Asked For Hugs by why_cant_turtles_fly I feel it's only fair to mention these two fics together? The first one is more of a gen fic but you should read it anyway, it's so good!! Op's characterization is amazing and their fics so heartwarming ngggghhhh see ask under this

↳ How to Tame a Tiger's Hair by Mississippi_moon I think about this fic an unhealthy amount. Getting-together, friends sskk who still kinda act like kids in love. I love Akutagawa in this, I love how he speaks like someone who's worked hard to get rid of a fucked up mindset.

↳ midnight, somewhere by hybridsunshine This is so gooood I love sskk atypical getting-together events because nothing about them is typical and they speak a language that is only theirs

↳ split lips, soft teeth by wildsuns You know when a fic is so overwhelmingly good you feel like you need a month to recover

↳ guardian by fwootbat Just read this yesterday night and it was so cute!!! Also very in-character according to how they act in canon. Get together fic.

Thank you for asking 💕💕 You might also want to check out my previous sskk fics recommendations post and my bsd fics tag

[succubussally]

the difference is the gays never get the kiss and also get told they're disgusting for even seeing it that way

Posting for context as this is what it was in response to.

First off, I'm very aware of homophobia as I have been a victim of it myself. I'm not straight but anon had no way of knowing that. So I forgive you for that, anon. There's no way you could have known. I'm a woman and have dated women as well as a non-binary person.

I've also been on tumblr since 2009,2010 https://succubussally.tumblr.com/archive The archive function is not working correctly currently so I'm not able to scroll all the way back to confirm the year but I'm pretty sure it was at least late 2009.

I totally get that a lot of my older posts are garbage and I have left them up to show that I have changed a lot as a person since then. I did use to be a garbage straight person who didn't bother identifying as bi/queer as I currently do. (I was attracted to women back then but thought that was something all girls do? I was very misled)

Now, onto the whole "gays never get the kiss". Where is this coming from because I even mentioned in my comment there that I am referring to when "Will they or won't they" was used on sitcoms.

You know what aired in the 90s? ELLEN. I was never really into her but obviously she's amazing for having come out on her own show. I also didn't get to watch the show when it aired as I was a Jehovah's Witness as a child in the 90s. (I mostly watch old sitcoms and I managed to miss this one and haven't ever seen it in syndication?)

Apparently there was a lesbian kiss https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrbMSW8cQQ8 but one of the characters was straight because back then, you couldn't be gay and kiss on TV.... UNTIL MISSION HILL BABY.

Wally & Gus are gay and they kiss. This aired in 1999/2000. They are a couple however and don't have a "will they or won't they" relationship. In the show they've been together since the 1950's. And the show won an award for having a positive portrayal of a gay couple.

And now I'm going to talk about the most controversial of all - and happens to be one I know well because I watched the show a lot when I was a teen and I still watch reruns as well as the reboot that killed off the main character which was a GOOD CHOICE.

The episode of Roseanne "Ladies Choice" followed by the episode in a later season "Don't Ask, Don't tell".

People don't ever really seem to bring this up and its totally understandable because somewhere down the line, Roseanne Barr became just a monster of a person. From the thing that got her fired from her own show to that garbage she said more recently that didn't even make sense.

Roseanne has always been controversial but back in the 80s/90s - her image and show had better intentions than obviously now.

The show also featured gay characters and a bisexual character. In "Ladies Choice" Nancy comes out to her friends who are shocked, but they support her anyway.

Then in a later episode in that same season, it's revealed in a poor way that Nancy is also bisexual. Her friends question her attraction to a man to which she responds "I'm a people person, please don't label me" It's also made clear that she has no interest in having a relationship with the guy, but instead only wants to date him so she can get pregnant. After this guy turns out to be a con artist, she goes back to dating women.

Then in "Don't ask, Don't tell" - Nancy is dating a stripper, Sharon. It's not said specifically but its revealed that Nancy and Sharon are in an open relationship. Sharon invites Roseanne and friends to a gay bar where Sharon dances with Roseanne, and then kisses her.

Roseanne is a straight married woman but what makes this episode significant is that Roseanne has a poor reaction to the kiss and tries to blame it on Sharon not being monogamous. This is when Nancy tells Roseanne that Sharon told her about the kiss and its fine, not cheating. This confuses Roseanne which leads her to tell Jackie that she wasn't bothered by the kiss, but that she isn't gay.

Nancy walks in on Roseanne announcing that she isn't gay and has to tell her that, the real reason the kiss freaked her out is because deep down - Roseanne enjoyed it.

Nancy even tells her that sexuality isn't all black and white.

Roseanne continues to deny it until she finally admits to Nancy, that she was wrong - which means Nancy is right and she enjoyed the kiss. Roseanne denies she enjoyed it to her husband thinking he'll be upset only to learn he's a little too interested in his wife kissing some woman at a bar. (typical 90s stuff)

This isn't a "will they or won't they" relationship either although they do build up to the kiss with a lot of suspense. But it's really just "ohh what's gonna happen at the gay bar" - well gay stuff, duh.

This post is way too long for my liking and I'm sure there are many other examples of gays being okay and even kissing on tv at least - I didn't even touch all the gay movies I love from the 90's. These are just the examples that came to mind first on the subject of "gays never get the kiss" and I fully admit, there aren't any examples at least off the top of my head where gay people are in a "will they or won't they" relationship.

and like I mentioned, I tend to watch a lot of old sitcoms cause I love nostalgia and missed out on my childhood sadly because I was a JW.

There are probably more examples that I've heard about but don't know enough about to post about it here because anytime gay people kiss on TV, it's been a big deal.

So maybe "Gays" as anon put it, don't get the kiss in "will they or won't they" situations but they do get to kiss as couples and bisexuals get to kiss too.

And lets not minimize how important it is that bisexual characters get to kiss. I'm sick of bi-erasure and I won't stand for it.

As far as I'm concerned, its canon that Roseanne and Nancy are bisexuals. And sexuality does have a grey area.

[writeyouin]

Okay, so I'm doing the V smut post for the holidays and I have just re-read what I've got so far.

It's not good enough.

It's gender-specific all over the place. Nope. Here we love all genders. Time for a re-write so that there is both an AFAB and AMAB version, neither of which will mention pronouns so as to be gender-neutral.

Honestly, I don't see how published authors make this seem like it's hard.

Happy holidays to everyone. V smut will be out soon.

EDIT: Also, it's only a drabble anyway. Something short and sweet. A baby of a fic really, a ficlet if you will.

[kris-and-cirrus]

Hello!

I’m Kristen Fir, and I’m currently studying to be a Pokemon professor! I’m running this blog because I thought it’d be a good use of my time when I’m not running around like a crazy person trying to look into every nook and cranny of our weird little world. :D

Some facts about me!

~ I’m 25 years old! ~ My pronouns are She / They! ~ Currently I’m studying in Kalos, at the University of Lumiose! Specifically I’m studying History and Culture! Feel free to ask me anything about that. ~ I have five Pokemon! Reggie ( Indeedee, Male ), Sonic ( Manectric, Male ), Shelby ( Vaporeon, Female ), Cami ( Cacnea, Female ), and Allister ( Amaura, Male ) ~ When I’m not being a complete nerd, I enjoy spelunking, biking, videography, and playing with my Pokemon :] I also have my roommate in on this blog! I’ll let him take the reins now.

hiii!!!! ^v^

my name’s cirrus! i’m technically an alien, and i work for the ultra recon squad! you miiiiiight know us as those weird pale guys that were hanging around alola for a little while, and yeah while that’s true, that was only some of us!!!! i’m currently in kalos studying culture, kinda like kris! :0 crazy, right???

anyways!! here’s some cool things about me!!! :D!!

~ i’m 22!! ~ i don’t really care about pronouns but i like he / him the most so try to use those ones please!!! :] ~ i’m part of the cultural and societal research sector of the ultra recon squad!!! ~ i have some pokemon i caught while traveling here!! melody the altaria and her babies, aria and treble ( they’re both swablu!! ), sparks the fletchinder, bass the noibat, and nora the emolga!! ~ i’m really into reading, shopping, and going on boat rides!!!! i also do a lot of biking with kris!! :]

( mun info under the cut!! )

hi!! i'm bonnie and i'm the gal running this blog. here's some quick stuff about me

~ my main is @springbonnie-fanclub!! ~ she / they for me please ~ i'm 18!! that being said do not send nsfw asks in the askbox or else i will skin you <33 ~ i made this blog because pokeblogging seems like fun!! and i love kris and cirrus, so why not make a pokeblog for them?? ~ my favorite pokemon are banette, lilligant, gengar, gardevoir, audino, tsareena, and cresselia!!

tags for this blog are ;

#kris rambles ; posts that are made by kris!! #cirrus talks ; posts that are made by cirrus!! #kc posts ; posts that feature both kris and cirrus!! #kc inbox ; replies to asks!! #kris's gallery ; pictures, art and the like, usually under the pretense of them being from kris's phone #bonnie post ; usually posts from the mun, indicated by //

[love-songs-for-emma]

This isn't an ask as such, it didn't seem appropriate to pull it out of the tags to reblog to empathize over our related losses.

Also, I am so autistic, so I worry about going about things wrong so my apologies upfront if this breaks Tumblr social norms, but also I guess the older sibling in me, just couldn't leave that unacknowledged in my tags.

Hi hello I am the op of the Hannibal's defiance of god post

I'm an older sibling, though it doesn't matter the details of how I lost my baby brother, it should have been preventable, and even had it not been, it makes the universe feel stormily unbalanced in my experience, losing a sibling, just a big hole of overwhelming emotions where there used to be so much life

Anyway I don't want to be soppy in your DM's or whatever, I just wanted to send you a big brother hug I guess, some empathy and support at least. No matter how long it's been, there is always that empty place where your sibling is supposed to be

Then I saw that you're also chronically ill & disabled on my way over here, so apparently we have other things in common that are less heart wrenching so I am also generally saying hello, nice to meet you, in the most awkward way possible. *Waves like a strange nervous little gremlin*

(post being referenced)

hi !! first off,, if you'd rather i didnt answer this publicly *pls* lmk and ill remove the post asap. i'm also a gremlin who's unsure of tumblr social norms from time to time lol

secondly,, thank u So so much for reaching out. this was incredibly sweet of u & made me v emotional to read (/positive). *a big hug from a younger grieving sibling right back at you*

there is so much to say about losing a sibling and i worry if i start, i'll never stop (which is already true seeing as it's been years and i've written countless words about this specific grief). i relate so much to the things you've said here; dead siblings are a phantom limb we'll always be trying to move. i don't think there'll come a day where something big happens and i don't think of calling them.

there's a reddit comment i came across years ago talking about grief that i'll never forget and i think it's always worth sharing, especially to someone like you who i think will appreciate and understand it:

"In the beginning, the waves are 100 feet tall and crash over you without mercy. They come 10 seconds apart and don't even give you time to catch your breath. All you can do is hang on and float. After a while, maybe weeks, maybe months, you'll find the waves are still 100 feet tall, but they come further apart. When they come, they still crash all over you and wipe you out. But in between, you can breathe, you can function. You never know what's going to trigger the grief. It might be a song, a picture, a street intersection, the smell of a cup of coffee. It can be just about anything...and the wave comes crashing. But in between waves, there is life."

and because i can't shut up about grief, here's a spoken word poem that brings me comfort. particularly the ending,

"We are not created or destroyed, // We are constantly transferred, shifted and renewed. // Everything we are is given to us. // Death does not come when a body is too exhausted to live // Death comes, because the brilliance inside us can only be contained for so long. // We do not die. We pass on, pass on the lightning burning through our throats. // When you leave me I will not cry for you // I will run into the strongest wind I can find // And welcome you home."

i don't know what i believe in this world, but i know that our siblings do live on through us, in all the ways they affected us and the stories we tell. and this pain will be with us forever, but there is a life to be lived in between all of that. and sharing them with others is part of it. and it is a gift to have known them and get to share them in moments like this with others.

gah! i know u came here to comfort me (despite me giving u all these comforting words in return too) but u truly *have*; i feel comforted by being given a space to talk about them. i imagine you feel it too: the way it's a little taboo to talk of the dead at all, the avoidance of statements that make people ask questions. i try to still talk freely about the ones i've lost, but people hear "dead" and don't think of a real person who once was Everything to u and So Full Of Life. (similar to what i was saying in the tags of your god post,, mischa is more than just a Dead Girl Trauma Backstory of hannibal's. she's real. she was there. she was *alive*.)

if you've made it through all that,, well congrats! you've got a peek into our new friendship; i am either silent (overwhelmed/Goin Thru It) or saying All Of The Words Ever! regardless, thank u again for reaching out & i'm happy to have met you, even and especially if thru a lil trauma-bonding. hehe♡ be well, luv!

[sherifftillman]

i'm throwing my two cents here about all the shit i'm seeing on my dash, even though i'm not an active part of it, it's still something that i have an opinion on. so i'm gonna say it. bc this is my blog, and that's how this works lol.

i feel v much on the corner of the community. i don't create as much as i used/want to, partially bc i don't get a lot of time, but also because this community gets so draining sometimes. and, as someone who has both been accused of "only" growing as a "bigger" account's nepo baby (someone i befriended in a discord server also happened to like my writing), and as someone who has witnessed this firsthand:

if you are trying to befriend an artist/writer solely because you want them to boost your own numbers, it's very obvious. and it's not effective.

i have a lot of creative mutuals who i consider friends. who i'd throw myself in front of traffic for. have i ever so much as sent them a dm? almost certainly not. do i still light up with pride when i see their work get praised, or when they make personal posts talking about their successes? almost certainly yes. do i think they feel the same about me? i'd sure like to.

i've tried to keep myself active in the community, i've tried joining discord servers and approaching friendly people. but, like the big writing says, a lot of the time it's not subtle at all that people are yes-manning their way into trying to be your friend. i see it most when someone posts a mildly negative opinion on something/someone (in the community or a famous person) and everyone adds to that dogpile. and those yes-people crave that connection with their favourite people so badly that they'll keep bringing that negative thing up just to rebuild it. but nobody wants to keep talking shit at any undetermined time. that's not a healthy foundation for a real bond.

and, while i'm an avid member of the Reblog Content You Enjoy society, y'all notice that last word? not everything that everyone likes is going to be to any one person's specific tastes, and that's okay. even if you become mutuals with someone, that's not a job contract that obligates them to reblog every piece of art you make. i'd rather have a friend who genuinely reacts to one fic/gifset that really resonated with them, than to have one who reblogs everything i do transactionally.

anyway. i love my writer friends and i love my gifmaking friends and i love my artist friends and i love my other tumblr-mutual friends all the same. and, i mean this with all the love in the world, if you feel like you can't call any mutuals your friend, maybe look at your intentions and ask yourself if you'd befriend yourself that way.

[chanyoungies]

i'm gonna b soooo crazy bc i want to know a lot jdksngjhs 1, 2, 18, 23, 30 (sorry <3), and 40 for donghan reestablish urself as a the donghantual 🎤

would u look at that i thought abt this for literal days n my answers havent gotten any better from day 1 <3 anyways it's about time i finally answer this uve waited long enough im sowwy erieri i lov u thank u for asking thank u for waiting

1. who do you most want to take care of?

honestly u know what . im pretty certain im just fundamentally incapable of taking care of people . but that aside . like . like definitely most of husband n bf/gf lines which once again is like . just most ppl in general . but like in a mutual love n care kinda way . BUT like that aside bc that feels like . an obvious answer,, jiheon my daughter? shes my daughter i better take care of her u know...

nd admittedly not answering the question here as these r suppsoed to be bias asks nd they arent my biases but i just want to mention that . as u know i think we as a society should baby youngtae more. he deserves to be cared for in a way more babying way than he currently is and im about to make it MY job. + minhee bc hes my younger brother-shaped bestie like hes my younger brother like hes not but he is but hes not but he is i havent like fully decided whether he is or not but like he is .

2. who do you most want to take care of you?

ok so this is like . like not to b me but like . Like literally anyone fr . like 85% of my bias list like . but the first thoughts whenever i tried to consider this were swoo / sik !! also they'd def do it in a v different way but also lino / chanhee

18. any groups where you have a hard time picking a bias at all?

hmmm i usually spot someone im interested in p quickly when i check out a group even if that person doesn't end up sticking? i maybe tend to like . branch out a lot more as time goes by so it's more of like . it's not that i'm struggling to pick a bias im just like actually slowly falling for everyone . . . but i usually am still mostly attached to like my earlier picks?? ik i switched between biases a lot in got7 & mx.... and i think i perhaps struggle more w ggs? but that's prob bc 1) i watch less content for them since 2) i think i may be trying to get less attached to them bc they like....idk if they actually statistically do but it feels like they tend to disappear and/or disband more often like ..? or maybe its post-pristin trauma

OH TBZ & SF9 (& up10tion to an extent) ... at this point i have literally biased almost all of them at some point ... sf9 feels like i settled more than tbz my tbz ranking will always be a mess idk whats going on w that like ever . ox are interesting because i HAVE a set in stone . set of biases that i feel V strongly about but like i do . like like a lot of the other members too sdbk

23. any particular clips or pics that you find comforting of a bias?

the entirety of hwan's ig live from his birthday/the evening before his birthday..................................................................... the entirety of hyuk's guitar vlive w jeonghoon (200817) (nd all of hyuk's guitar vlives ive seen so far rlly) . idk if i would call jeonghoon's dance class vlives comforting but like maybe i would idk ... the replay one in particular (200923)!! that one vity dorm vlive (wonjin & taeyoung ft allen n mini?) . all of the vlives ive seen have been comforting to me i think at least to a degree ?? 2min dekira all of it for real . oui go up s2 in particular i think.. any clips or pics of dal

bouncy kangsung <3 no no seungmin <3 i get all my life energy from this <3 this itzy clip is rlly rlly comforting <3 190817 hwan the story fancam <3 ox play dumb (my cut specifically) <3

30. are there any songs that make you think of them?

just ask for my wanji playlist directly if u want it so bad </3

as u . probably know i like . am obsessed n thus i could probably find a few songs for any of my biases (nd even not biases.) cover-wise so u know what im gonna put that aside we will not b mentioning any of that. we will put away songs that i associate w them bc they are like Actually connected to them in any way. just so that u dont have to read this for the next 50 hours .

i made a mistake and now i associate hwan w cignature's boyfriend & 1d kiss you (nd a few more but im not about to make a fool of myself nope u domt need to know just how bad it is) . nd there's nothing i can do about that . i just have to live like this now . jeonghoon w hey violet hoodie & waterparks dream boy & svt kidult & chungha cherry kisses . jay w sabrina carpenter's diamonds are forever & hey violet queen of the night & ed sheeran take me back to london . beomgyu w avril lavigne's sk8ter boy & allstar weekend hey princess & the summer set lightning in a bottle . yeonjun w loote are you sure? & sasha alex sloan matter to you & nightly twenty something

n junseo once again Not a bias but . yena's pretty boys & purkiss hate me hurt me love me

40. express how much they mean to you no limit ramble as much as you want (donghan edition i know what u tried to do there and i appreciate it an insane amount but im like idk if i have anything to say actually)

i feel like my favourite clip that i think about every single day of my life says it all actually . i don't like . Actually have a lot to say i just love men who are highkey annoying and they Know it his huge puppy energy (puppy that is huge energy) (also he's not a puppy he's just a big dog who doesn't realize he's not a puppy anymore) is everything to me . i love annoying men . please be mine . he also has this laugh that's like RLLY rlly nice to listen to (n he looks so cute when he laughs) . his blinking . habit?? is also endearing !! also he sang late night call which like deserves to be mentioned on its own. it's actually like kinda funny to me that i AM attached to him as much as i am because like i don't think i even remembered his name when he was in jbj? (didnt pay any attention to him anyway for sure) and i actually- and this is about to be shocking and it will feel like a betrayal etc and i am v ashamed of myself . but i didn't like sunset when it first came out . and it didnt help that i didnt like good night kiss either (this one didnt change much im still not a Huge fan . i do see it differently now after all this time tho like i do like her to an extent . shes his worst tt tho) . but focus changed my life (real) and at some point i just magically became obsessed w sunset n im pretty sure that was a WHILE before we got news of oui debuting a group so i was just sitting in my room being like when is this man coming back im obsessed w him now he cannot just fully disappear (n shes waiting for a solo cb to this day oui ent im on my knees) . he's not my fave performer prob not even in wei but like you can See how much he cares nd that's like so .......... sooooo !!! u know? also once again he just has an aura u know . as a performer . idk eri i cant rant about most ppl i like when im asked to im sorry i know u tried to help me out there but

[sacharowan]

hello hello hello the essay has been submitted so i am back with my official guesses.

obviously i dont know the exact timeline here but

Peach - Sebchal, now i have (two) theories here

- Baby sebchal into peak ferrari sebchal (e.g stresssed sad sebastian and this bright eyed talented young (hot) teammate who clearly has a hero worship crush the size of the sun) but also hes a brat who keeps hitting him on the track and making his shit time at ferrari worse (obviously not charles fault but i imagine thats how seb might have viewed it) - specifically this is inspired by the first bit of peach like the start is the happier baby sebchal and then the descent into the blood lyrics is peak ferrari

OR and originally this was going to be 2022 era charles is (was) in a championship battle but ferrari bottled it and theres seb ,seb who left him, seb who comforted him in front of everyone, seb who hes been horny for (and in love with) forever and this was specifically inspired by you are my sentance ill serve the rest of my life hahaha but is it charles about being into seb (being in love with him more like) or charles about ferrari) (its both!)BUT

SKELETON SKELETON has to be 2022 era sebchal has to be (it could also be ferrari era sebchal angst but we established i was right about TSM so im leaning away from no)(but it would hit for that too

but no skeleton is 2022 sebchal - Charles who is in a championship battle - or was in a championship fight except ferrari fucked it up for him and theres seb who hes been half in love with forever - seb who left him at ferrari - seb whose leaving him again at the end of the season and seb who had multiple world championships before charles will get even one,

skeleton could also be a sewis ferrari/merc championship battle actually (or a chewis ferrari v ferrari one if that every happens in the hawkverse but im personally hoping for them to be happy together before the series gets that far along (fingers crossed)(but tbh id love the ansgt anyway)) but something about skeleton as a sebchal championship battle - because also the element of - charles has everything seb wanted he was the golden boy the il predistinato the one that ferrari didnt throw away and yet here he is comforting him watching as ferrari destroy this boy (his boy if hed get his head out of his ass) just like they did him and everyone that came before him

(i really got into skeleton as sebchal 2022 clearly)

interesting theories :DD

okay so I'm not saying anything about Peach, because that'll be the next one to come out and I'm not giving spoilers. however!! there is some elements of sebchal title rival bitterness AND also chewis ferrari vs ferrari >:))) it's gonna be very interesting to write and I am enjoying it so far

skeleton :))) skeleton >;)) you're right that skeleton is sewis! it's championship battle but kinda post championship battle because I'm scared of writing actual racing basically. it would also be really cool as sebchal tbh, but I wanted the pairings to be evenly weighted so there's three parts planned for each ship

your ideas are giving me ideas though. seb comforting charles even though charles has everything he wants? holy shit that's gonna make for some tasty fucking angst >:D

I've been having a little hard time with attempting to write some of the parts of this series, so your messages have been helping loads. now I'm just excited >:DD

[heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon]

Yeah, so...Steven Universe Culture still attracts the most abrasive shithead tenderqueers from all sides, I see:

And saiscribbles is a goddamn idiot 40 year old turbovirgin and is probably a vaush enjoyer ...

Put her channel on my "do not recommend" like a week ago after this post happened , saw that Lily Orchard made another video about Hazbin, my eyes rolled into the back of my head when I realized I would probably have to keep lurking around Sais channel for a while anyway if I wanted to see sai covering that because "enemy of my enemy" is still my friend" kinda, got curious, opened a private window to see if she had reacted to Orchard's other Hazbin video yet, she did, chose to view that shit in a private window in case The Bad Baby Meteora Redesign V-Tuber decided to say anything especially heinous in her edging contest with Orchard, and I had to turn that shit off within the hour.. Because surprise surprise, saiscribbles is:

Ableist

Biphobic

ANTI KINK AT PRIDE ...

Which yeah, I just found out because she went on like a major kinkphobic tangent about it an hour into her reaction to Lily, which doesn't help since you can tell that Lily is definitely kinkphobic too, which I'm so glad I just have both channels on my "do not recommend" and now I definitely know that I won't be watching Sai again because at that specific point with Lily's covert anti kink at pride shit and queerphobia and Sai's outright anti kink at pride shit and queerphobia it really does feel like you're watching ...

Which really doesn't help when one of the abrasive lesbian muppets fighting with the other abrasive Indiana Grande lesbian muppet is already baby coded ...

2 Abrasive As Shit Abled-Bodied Butch Lesbian Muppets Who Refuse To Work On Themselves 1 Glass of Water... I wonder who will melt like Paper Jam Dipper first ...

I can't believe I had to use an Alex Hirsch gif again ...

Remember kids...

Daron Nefcy Says Kink at Pride:

Alex Hirsch says Cops at Pride:

Steven Universe cried out "Both Sides! UWU" and then Angel Dust sat down beside him during the parade in full Drag and Kinky boots and said: "STOP CRYING STEVEN UNIVERSE!!!! ;)" *STEALS YOUR VOICE IN ITALIAN* and then Star Butterfly asked Angel how to steal other peoples voices for chaos purposes and then they both started a riot...

Can y'all imagine being an adult and watching Hazbin Hotel while being anti kink at pride though? Or anti kink in general?

Because yeah, anti kink discourse of any kind? Also...

And the fact that I can even make jokes like this with the source materiel just proves how Star vs. The Forces of Evil is still THE GOAT, or maybe even the Rainbow Baphomet in the Gimp Mask that bridges between the dimensions that allow Star and Hazbin to fuck so much. No exceptions.

I wasted time watching a Steven Stans ableist, kinkphobic shit stream when I could've been finishing watching Sailor Moon...

And yes: Finally watching an anime in full for the first time ever, that you've been trying to access since your teen years, which just so happens to be one of the biggest inspirations for your all time favorite cartoon that only came out in your early 20s, in your early 30s, is still a better, healthier, use of time than being an abrasive bitch about Steven Universe in your 40s, no matter what side of that stupid discourse you're on...

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

ok so here's why throwing Fae Lore into spn makes a revival/continuation possible

Here's the setup:

-"Blurrywife" is a Faerie, specifically a malevolent/vampiric one, definitely a Succubus type. The mimes are her human thralls, hence why they don't act like normal vampires.

-Baby, yes the car, is ALSO a Faerie, specifically a kind of shapeshifter called a Pooka. John captured her in the early 80s, and, being John Winchester, never told his kids about this.

-Chuck Won. duh???

-Jack is, and was always destined to be, the next Jack O' The Lantern, and after Chuck threw his flaming corpse out Heaven, he's been ruling his own spoopy little candy-coated afterlife. pumpkin boi

Here's the timeline:

-Blurrywife & Mime Crew are kidnapping kids, likely for The Fae's 7-year tithe of souls to Hell (a thing that exists in the lore), when the Winchesters show up. Sam & Dean, as usual, have NO idea how to identify or fight Fae, and get their asses handed to them, with Dean falling to some weird Gaelic cold-iron magic fuckery (points to Blurrywife & crew for figuring out how to fight with iron despite being unable to touch it. 10/10 fuck these guys tho fr)

-Sam, alone and grieving, is an easy target and she picks him off before he even gets to the car, taking (something close to) Eileen's form and trapping him in a dreamscape, similar to how Djinn attack in spn.

-Sam, Dean AND Baby (there's def some Fae Drama going on there, yikes) have been stuck the Fae Realms for THREE YEARS as of Nov 2023.

-Dean and Baby escaped at some point, staying with Jack for a bit before running off to the 1970s like a dumbass and getting EVERYONE, including Jack and Bobby (why is Bobby even here??? HOW DID BOBBY'S GHOST GET STUCK IN THE FAE REALMS WHAT DID HE *DO*) recaptured.

-Sam has had it much worse, being drained to a white-haired husk of his former self and left for dead within a few days/months. DJ is half-faerie, raised in the fae realms, and could be 3 years old or 50, who knows. I don't like thinking abt how he happened.

-Here's the setup for the continuation:

Dean (fairly intact besides the cursed stab wound in his back) escapes with Sam (nearly dead, white-haired, displaying more or less the typical signs of someone who was taken & drained of life by The Fae) and stumbles into Charlie's safehouse. the Fae Arc can continue from this point, w Baby's true nature being revealed, Blurrywife as a major antagonist/BBEG, DJ going from possible threat -> clearly a well-meaning and very brave kid -> newest Winchester family member who Sam fully accepts as his son (plus s4-cas-esque moments as DJ tries to adapt to living on Earth. DJ ilysm but most cars aren't sentient and you can't bring your longbow to community college)

also Cas is still in The Empty, and Jack & Bobby are still captured, so that's some major plot points right there

Destiel is canon.

...anyway, this is all still pretty convoluted, but it allows for:

-15x20 to have been "not real" without being retconned

-DJ to exist without either setting the continuation ~30 yrs in the future (how would that work), or repeating spnwin's time-travel-kid-ex-machina (that's just not good writing I'm sry)

-spn finally doing something w The Fae (& related lore) besides one-off eps

-human!impala as main character

-explanations of weird shit in the finale (rebar, vamp-mimes, etc)

-collective fandom catharsis at Blurrywife's bitch ass

-the full horror potential of a faceless woman in a long dress standing ominously in the corner while time blurs forward around you and you age to death in five minutes

-some VERY fun metacommentary & crossover easter eggs if you use certain bits of Fae lore

-still works w my other big finale theory/revival idea/if-they-dont-do-this-i-will-be-so-pissed, which is the whole Deanmon 2.0 thing. but that's a post unto itself.

(also yes. making Blurrywife a djinn IS simpler and requires 0 new lore and makes perfect sense in canon. however, I hate how djinn are portrayed in spn. it feels vaguely racist and makes me uncomfy to write/read. so um that's why I didn't do that)

[newnitz]

October 7th Evidence

GENERAL CONTENT WARNING FOR V******E & D**TH. DON'T READ THE SPECIFIC CWS IF YOU'RE TRIGGERED BY MENTIONS RELATED TO THESE. CONTENT WARNING FOR ALL ISRAELI AND JEWISH VIEWERS, WE'VE SEEN THESE TOO MANY TIMES ALREADY.

IF YOU'RE TRIGGERED BUT DOUBT ISRAELI CLAIMS, YOU'VE LOST THE RIGHT TO. SORRY NOT SORRY. WE'VE BEEN TRIGGERED HERE FOR A MONTH STRAIGHT, HAVE WAKING NIGHTMARES AND CAN'T FUNCTION, SO IF YOU CAN'T SO MUCH AS CHECK OUR CLAIMS BEFORE DISMISSING THEM, SHUT UP.

SPECIFIC CONTENT WARNING FOR EXTREME SEXUAL ABUSE(SA), DEATH OF CHILDREN, MUTILATION AND MUTILATION OF CHILDREN AND MASS MURDER.

I'm sick of hearing about the "disinformation". I'm sick of people bringing up the decapitated babies over and over as if it's a lie.

So here are links, all of them to NEUTRAL sources, because you'll all call me a propaganda mouthpiece if I link even a single Israeli article, though honestly, you'll probably call me that anyway, because for most of you, the humanity of Israelis and Jews doesn't exist outside of propaganda.

Source(noted: in light of recent discoveries, Reuters might have pro-Palestinian bias, keep it in mind when reading the news).

FORENSIC EVIDENCE FOR THE DECAPITATED AND BURNT ALIVE BABIES, HERE YOU FUCKING GO.

As for 40? The source of the "rumor" stands by her words, and has something to say.

So it's not just Israeli "propaganda" sources that can confirm the babies were decapitated.

The article goes into depth about what sort of evidence for rape and mutilation they found. TheMediaLine source posted above corroborates these claims in grisly detail, so dismissal is no longer an option.

The video I won't screenshot, as I don't want to push Tumblr's TOS too far, but suffice to say it shows clear evidence of a hostage having survived rape.

And if you doubt more claims on sexual torture and infanticide, here's your proof.

If they were aiming to end the "occupation army", why did they ambush a rave?(title below)

Oh! And as for your claim that it was all the IDF making a false flag operation? Boy, do I have news for you!

Not only did they also hurt Muslim Arabs in Israel, many who qualify as Palestinian themselves, but they also committed another war crime.

I'm sure that once this is all over, there will be plenty of evidence catalogued and available to anyone with a strong enough stomach. We've been using the evidence of our murderers - just as we did with the Holocaust. The Nazis wrote down everything and Hamas filmed themselves, both equally proud of their actions. And just like the Holocaust, you cannot bury it for long. Not in the current information age. We won't let you bury it.

So if you walk away from this, if you ignore this post's existence, whether you merely stumbled upon it or got it linked, you are no better than a Holocaust denier. And yes, I am calling you a Nazi, and I am doing so shamelessly. Because you are using their tactics, their dehumanization, their effort to silence Jewish voices lest people realize we're human beings who were subjected to a crime against humanity.

Oh, and one last parting gift:

Think of that when you demand a unilateral ceasefire.