@ people who write fics with a word count of 500k-1m and more, genuinely and respectfully, how the fuck do you do that.
no, I mean it. How. Do you plan out the entire thing or do you just start writing with a vague idea where it's supposed to go and then wing it? Do you ever come back to edit something? Do you write the ENTIRE thing before uploading it or do you update it whenever you've written something new? Do you ever get bored of your own creation (or is that a me problem)? Don't you ever just... only write ten words and then nothing for a month? Don't you ever just write the plot climax first and then struggle how to get there? Seriously, how.
Sincerely, a writer who has a roughly set goal for about 300k words and is STRUGGLING deciding where to begin. I've written a couple of novels before but they had a fraction of the characters and plot turns that this project has.
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For the first time in my life, goddamn I wish I could get high out of my mind for 4/20 today, because I looked through my university email inbox and did my grant report and got really sad that I don’t get to teach linguistics anymore and I don’t get to do linguistics research as much as I want to (and tbqh right now I DESPERATELY do not want to look at a screen and do the linguist-academia things I need to do, because I’m REALLY behind on one of them and it’s stressing me out too much to even do it)
Three weeks into this job it’s supremely boring, not what I thought it was, really a grind, VERY tech bro lifestyle expectations, and I think it might get better after I get all trained up and settled and into a rhythm again (because hoo boy I think it’s because I came in at the end of a quarter but this has really been “here’s the shallowest puddle—okay welp we need you so HERE’S THE DEEP END WITH A FAST CURRENT” and I am Overwhelmed), but in the meantime I am STILL so sad about not being a linguist, not working with linguistic data, not teaching about linguistics or interacting with students, … and here I am on a Saturday crying about my emails for the fucking stupidest reason I have ever cried over my emails about
But what REALLY sucks is I can’t tell if this is kitten-in-the-laundry-room or if this is how it’s gonna be
Like is this just me being bad at handling change (normal, usual) or is this going to make me miserable
…AND HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL
Anyway I would like to be high so that I can be a little bit fucking chiller and ffs RELAX, BUDDY because actually having a boring, not-rewarding job is not the end of the world; it’s instead very normal and what the vast majority of humans have because we all need to pay the bills, and this one will allow you to live comfortably on top of just barely paying the bills (unlike my previous one). Also, it works better for your health (no big migraines since like the first week in April!), which is incredibly important.
I just!!!!! wish someone would have fucking hired me for the hundreds of professorships I applied for!!!!!
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It’s just these fucking middle aged straight white men who have never had anyone disregard their opinions or question their stupid authority and nothing pisses them off more than someone they view as lesser just. Not cowering under their mighty fucking gaze. Having the audacity to not just grovel at their feet licking their shoes every time they speak. Daring to not believe every word they say as the inherent truth. They throw a fit and the mask comes right off, they yell and scream and hit and throw like a bunch of fucking toddlers because why aren’t you afraid, you’re supposed to be afraid of me :(
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