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trafficpan-ic · 5 months

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Constant in pain, constant sick

And really tired of it

#cant even live my life #i do one day internship and i break down #i feel so sick #i cant be sick another day?#i just need rest all the time #i dont know how to do this anymore #thsi was suposed to be a happy time #and idk how long it will take for me to be a bit happy again #o just want to finish this year #why am i in so much pain #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #actually autistic #autistic #autism

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madame-mongoose · 11 months

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Now my chest hurts yayyyy 😎👍

#why am i in so much pain #gah #i jusy wanted to drawwe #sorry guys ;;#monnie rambles

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forsakendevil · 2 months

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I’m in so much pain rn. Literally everywhere hurts it’s so painful just to be alive. FML. It’s my own fault. I deserve this.

#chronic pain #fuck the pain #aaaaaa #why am i in so much pain #everywhere hurts

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hinamie · 2 months

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all i have left

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fanart #jjk fanart #fushiguro megumi #itadori yuuji #yuuji #megumi #hhhhhhhhh why angsty mood im hurting my me :((((((#go from megumi angst 2 dumb outfits then HARD pivot back 2 angst #u dont understand th clench in my heart i get drawing th sukuna scars on megumi i genuinely hate it so much #theyre such a Part of yuuji's design tht drawing them on megumi feels so viscerally wrong n it just hammers home that nothing is alright #had to listen 2 the cutesiest music possible while drawing this 2 keep myself sane #miku miku beam th pain away :)#real talk tho like. im really not one to b terribly emotionally affected by my own art. or to draw from my Own emotional state at all rly #i tend 2 keep myself pretty distant #but theres smth abt this one man this one pulls at th kokoro :(#suffering from success ig :/#created an emotionally poignant piece n it hurt. 0/10 wld not recommend. am going back to drawing boys shirtless >:c #gna draw something else so i stop feeling genuine human emotion

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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One of my biggest pieces of advice for those taking injectable hormones is to make sure you're injecting at the right angle

For intramuscular (IM), you inject at a 90° angle.

For subcutaneous (SQ), you inject at a 45° angle.

Here is a graphic depicting what the angle of your injection should look like:

An image description is provided in the ALT text.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #trans advice #just did my IM shot and that's why i'm making this #i've saved myself a LOT of pain once i actually started paying attention to the angle i am injecting at #i was so much more focused on making sure everything else was right and i slacked on being sure i'm injecting at 90°#hopefully the ID makes sense 👍#i pulled the graphic off the internet which is why dermis is included. afaik dermis isn't a technique used for HRT #needle tw #needles tw #injection tw #described images #image description in alt

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tea-cat-arts · 4 months

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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whxtthxfxckxvxr · 2 years

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Ok, sometimes my friends can be cute and they make me smile and it makes all of this shit worth it

#Txt #Personal #you know i really wish i could #just be happy.#i wish i wasnt so fucked up and i wish i wasnt traumatized i wish i didnt have all of these disorderd thoughts #i wish i didnt hurt myself #i wish i could live my life without holding my breath till the next terrible thing happens #it's not fair #i should be happy #i got what i wanted #i blew that town and i moved and im studying what i love #im supported and encouraged to keep studying #i have a roof over my head and i learned how to cook tasty meals for myself #i indulge in my hobbies and have been exercising more than ever in my life #i broke up with my girlfriend but so what #why am i still so damaged #why am i in so much pain #every second i spend breathing instead of being dead is painful #i go to school and i block that out so i can do my work #so i can communicate freely with everyone around me #but as soon as im alone it all comes flooding back in #and theres so much #dread #dread dread dread #dread and this unsettling.. hallow feeling that i've felt ever since i was a little girl #the kind of feeling that makes my blood run cold #it's nauseating and confusing and i dont understand what i should fill it with #when everything is so boring...

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ayeshamortem · 4 months

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Goodnight huveos <3

#philza #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp philza #qsmp eggs #qsmp art #character art #I cried so much you have no idea #thank you qsmp admins we love you #i am am this close to losing it #i feel nothing but pain #phil why

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miutonium · 5 months

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🏃‍♀️Hi hi I'm reopening my commission again since I am in the middle of my final year project and I needed funds to support my art project _(:'3」∠)_

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#//making a summoning circle in the middle of my room to summon tumblr server and personally hit it with a bat for fucking up my post #i guess this is pretty much an emergency commission too since I am so serious about looking for funds for my art project #why do i have to sacrifice my sanity and money just for a piece of paper that says i have a diploma???#anyway im going to reblog this post a lot until all my slots are taken ;w; so sorry about that guys #also very sorry if you see an increase jn my price my render takes a lot of time and im actually dealing with wrist pain lately #and my arms are making sounds that i didnt know its possible for me to crack before thats crayzyyy i dont even know i have a joint there #okay tag spam oof #commission #commission open #commission art #commission info #selfship commission #selfship art #selfship headcanon #selfship talk #selfship #selfshipping #selfship community #selfshipping community #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #artist on tumblr #art commission #art #art community

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ask2ps · 2 months

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Possessing the 1P nations can make the 2P nations pretty sick… consider it like an advanced, interdimensional form of jetlag. There’s a variety of side effects, and some are more unpleasant than others.

SYMPTOMS MAY INCLUDE NAUSEA, BODY ACHES, HOMESICKNESS, CONFUSION, HALLUCINATIONS, DISSOCIATION, HALLUCINATIONS, HALLUCINATIONS, HALLUCINATIONS

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flock-talk · 3 months

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Reason 1002 why to keep your birds flighted: when you are carrying one to bed and slip down the stairs they will be able to fly themselves to safety and abandon you in your time of need

#I am #in much pain #but very thankful that Toto flew off #we were sliding down together for half the flight of stairs #and Tustard was just clung on like #why this ride so bumpy #then flew off and just stared at me from the room like #what’s wrong with this person #I woke up at the base of the stairs #and he’s just sitting there staring preening like #ma’am this roller coaster messed up my perfect feathers #let’s not

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bloodofgrapes · 14 days

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sometimes it pains me that people, whether they're bigots, allies, or sometimes even other trans people, will only ever see me as trans first, and anything else second

one of my biggest fears is people remembering me for being trans, and not for being an artist, a writer, or any of my other meaningful accomplishments

"He was very good at what he did—for a trans man."

#could you at least reduce me down to being a gay man instead #I feel so much more connection to being a man that prefers the company of other men #than to my transness which feels like the most minuscule and unimportant part of my experiences personality and life #I fully understand why it becomes hugely important for others #and I'm certainly not ashamed of what I am #but it pains me so much that that's all they'll ever see #and to be totally honest I encounter this so much more WITHIN the community than without #I think a lot of people could stand to remember that the human comes before the labels

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dr-mothman · 2 months

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I think not a lot of people talk about AM's self-esteem issues and self-destructive tendencies and it makes me sad.

#Ted mentioned AM destroyed parts of himself to look 'perfect'#yet Gorrister also mentions he 'let himself go' over the years #Ted is an unreliable narrator and AM never mentions the reason why he does that.#it could be something mentioned to the survivors before the novel or a half-assed guess from Ted's part #i think it's the latter #i think he sometimes tried to desperately see if he can feel pain #maybe he wants to distract himself from his inner turmoil by destroying sonething. Since his complex is what's nearest. he wrecks himself #or maybe at that point he realized a lot of his servers didn't have a use anymore so he would wreck them #Gorrister's line would make more sense that way because that would imply that after so many years #he does not care about himself as much. At that point his envy is want is so deep-rooted that his ACTUAL form isn't that much of a priority-#to him. He loses himself to his own hate that he loses the sense of self-preservation #but i'm just yapping who knows lol #ihnmaims #am #am ihnmaims #i have no mouth and i must scream

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nicxxx5 · 1 year

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y'all why did evolution decide bleeding for a week straight was favorable for survival?

why have periods not been lost been lost to evolution???

why were periods introduced by evolution?!?!?!

natural selection what the fuck

#periods #menstruation #menstrual cycle #period cramps #period problems #period mention #people who menstruate #period pain #evolution #like seriously whyyyy #i can think of a million reasons why not having a period would be favorable for survival #like i am in so much pain #i hate it here

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whereismyhat5678 · 3 months

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AND WE ARE BACK WITH MY TWO FAVORITE GAY ITALIENS!!!

And also how I see this relationship, I think their dynamic is adorable and is especially my favorite 💖💖

I like to think Peppino gave Gustavo a stool for the counter after seeing how many times Gus had to stand on his tippy toes just to talk to customers. Gustavo was very happy when he was informed he would be getting a stool :]]

#Pizza Tower #Guys I’m going to die cuz they’re making my heart beat too fast IM GOING TK EXPLODE- *KABOOM*#My back hurts but that’s okay 👍 Artist pain am I right? 😀#Nah I’ll be fine imma sleep it off.#ALSO I haven’t drawn on my tablet in a while so I was a little rusty drawing these two again 💀 But I still got it!#BACK INTO THE GROOVE LETS GO #also also also. THE PEN 🖊️✨ (God I love this brush so much!!!💖💖💖)#Peppino #Gustavo #Doodles #Hints of Pepstavo cuz why not 🤷‍♀️

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talulahsjusthere · 20 days

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Why do I do this to myself? I say I care about my mental health but then I go on tumblr and learn the most tragic shit about mclennon and the beatles in general and then cry. Why do I do this? Why do I torture myself?

#the beatles #john lennon #paul mccartney #george harrison #ringo starr #mclennon #pls help #Like i am in SO much pain #but also their music makes me feel away I’ve never felt before #why can’t I just not interact with the fandom?#why cant i be normal

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