#why am i so angry

[elfpiss-and-the-real]

When the antidepressants start working and you feel your regained excess energy pour right into your untreated toxic thought patterns

[vagrantclown]

I just have the urge to start screaming and Idk why

[bhavcore]

i fucking hate being alone. all they do is leave me alone. why do i love them? why can't I love myself? fucking unresolved pile of bullshit issues lmao.

[oxygencals]

Tw vent & sh

Today has been shitty. I ended up getting really frustrated with my mum during lunch time because I didn’t know what to eat anyway she said she would make me a sandwich (I know I should be making it my self since I’m 21 but she doesn’t trust me at the moment) she starts putting massive globs of butter on it and I lost my shit. I ended up storming upstairs into my room and repeatedly hit my leg on the corner of my bed and it started bruising after a few minutes. I can’t cvt because of what I told her last night but I couldn’t control myself. I hate having negative feelings towards my mum because she does so much for me. Recently I’ve been so angry and irritated and it’s making me a horrible person

[blind-radio-waves]

Fucking.

If you see the fucking ink stain on my coat no the FUCK you don't you see nothing and if you say anything you'll be the next fucking 'eyeless abomination' in this household

[despondent-beauty]

WHEN I DOUBLE TAP A VODEO I WNAT TO HEART THE FUVKING POST NOT ENLARGE THE VIDEO AND NOW I CANT FUCKIFJGN REMOVE THE LINE AT TJE TPP OF THEIS POST AHENA EHERE TO I FIND THE FUCKKNG RED REXT OPTION I RTMTLFKFKFKADLCDLSAHSHSHSHAHAHAHHSSSDVJJJJHFFFDFVHHHFDF THE SPIDERS WRE IN MY BRAIN FUCK YOU

[m3gahet]

I know you’re tired but you can’t be a raging bitch at therapy because of that so get it the fuck together

[ardenraine]

I’m on the field and frustrated again

I’m not the only one

but you only hear me

You ignore the rest of them, don’t you?

You said you care, but you blame me, too

You said I bring everyone down

Why shouldn’t I believe you

It’s true

Who am I, if not the embodiment of negativity?

Who am I to voice the concerns of the unheard?

I am negative and hateful for wanting us to do well

I can’t fix everything you neglect in this hell

I’m falling into the hate again

I’m the person you don’t want around

I’ve become what I promised I would never be

I’m just like he is now

You asked how you can help

I told you I needed details

Everyone is asking me what to do and I can’t tell

You said you can fix it, such an easy task

But nothing has changed when all I’ve done is asked

I’m falling through the aggravation

I’m tripping over untruths

All of this can be avoided if you give me the information

How can you still think I’m not trying?

He’s not a good teacher

Everyone agrees

He doesn’t explain and constantly changes his mind

How can you not see what we see

I’m crying in front of you

It’s out of my control

You probably think I’m a pathetic soul

Don’t tell me you care and respect me as a person

Then say you respecting me is dangerous for you

We had an agreement about that

It was your choice

You don’t care that I’m breaking down

Only that your point is getting across

She only seems to care in the end

I’m at a loss

She usually cares

You’re both laughing and joking while I’m crying and just trying to breathe

You want me to act happy

But I’ll do you one better

You won’t hear a word from me

I’ll do what you asked to a tee

You might confront me after I do this

And say I’m being passive aggressive

But I’ll just tell you I’m doing what you asked

I’m not being negative

I’m silent

No more negativity

Just

nothing

Inspired by “Falling” by Harry styles

[crumbling-mindset]

Did you figure it out yet? That the game is rigged?

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinkin' about Bardaby and his illusion smoke...

[ineffectualbookseller]

The way Azirphale is underestimated and practically infantalized by heaven is so closely tied to his femininity and I think we should talk about it more because I just want to shout about how relatable the way he's treated in his workplace is as a woman working in a traditionally male field

It's in all the little niggling comments from your boss about personal things that hold no bearing on your work

and the assumption that what you're doing must be simple if it was assigned to you

your work is trivialized

and you get these the placating smiles when you're told plans and proposals are rejected and passed over

or when your complaints are dismissed

and you get more of the same from upper management

it all feels so frustrating and draining but you're at work so all you can do is take a breathe put on that mask and move on with your day

It is all so deteimental to your emotional well being and textually, so much of this is tied to Aziraphale's softness, his gayness - his femininity

The thing about working in an environment and gives you this feeling - of being simultaneously destrought watching your belief in yourself get chipped away but also just so irate becuase you know you don't deserve it - is how it builds. It sinks under your skin and feeds into this indignant dejection until you can have a moment of release - but Azirphale doesn't get to bitch about it over drinks with friends, he doesn't get a lunch break where he can go for a walk and listen to an angry scandi death metal playlist, he doesn't even get the chance to cry about it in the bathroom for 5 minutes before confronting it again

(And I talked a little bit about it in the tags of this beautiful photoset but this all comes into play whenever Crowley dismisses his plans or calls him an idiot. These are purely emotional reactions; I really don't think Crowley means much by it - he respects Aziraphale's opinion and genuinely thinks he's brilliant - but Crowley is so quick to use this terminology when Aziraphale is making a decision Crowley thinks is wrong and he doesn't know how much this hurts Aziraphale. Just like Aziraphale doesn't understand the true impact the Fall had on Crowley, Crowley doesn't understand the ways heaven has been tearing away at Aziraphale's self worth)

Aziraphale has been facing this constant drip of denigration since before the beginning of time and has never released the pressure valve. At this point, he's a bomb waiting to go off

[beanghostprincess]

Sanji and Usopp during The Sabaody Incident™ won't leave my mind.

Usopp standing in front of Sanji protectively because he is wounded and he can't fight, so Usopp will do it for him ("I'll do what you can't do").

There is just something about Sanji's expression when he realizes he might actually lose Usopp. This is my interpretation, at least. He is literally frightened.

Usopp helping Sanji stand up to run away. This is crucial for something I want to point out later: Sanji needs help to stand up. (Also, Brook disappears trying to protect them both and saying he will do anything to save them even if it costs him his life. I am feeling sick).

Sanji being self-sacrificing and blaming himself for not being able to protect them/act sooner is not new. But he does manage to gain the strength to fight when Usopp is the only one left with him and the possibility of losing him is even more real now.

The thing that I love the most about this is not Sanji sacrificing himself for Usopp, because he does that. He is like that. But Usopp not running away or moving in the slightest because he refuses to leave Sanji on his own.

Something I'd like to point out too is that Sanji actually touches Kuma before Usopp disappears. He tries to fight and protect him and Kuma could've easily sent Sanji to Momoiro Island right away, and yet Sanji was just sent flying far from the scene and forced to see Usopp disappear in front of him.

And I am not saying that "not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew" but not being able to protect both Brook and Usopp (especially Usopp) is needed for Sanji to realize he has to become stronger and find more reasons to go back with the crew.

Not to mention that we can't deny (right after Water 7/Enies Lobby) that Usopp is one of Sanji's strongest bonds within the crew. This specific scene focusing on them both is more than enough to prove it.

Sanji seeing Usopp disappear in front of his eyes without being able to do anything to save him.

Remember what I said about Sanji needing help to stand up seconds ago? Well. This is him the moment Usopp disappears. What adrenaline and the power of love do to a mf.

They are so "I can lose everything, but not you. Oh God, not you" shaped.

[thranduel]

astarion, the man who was dying and offered eternal life, but had no idea that it meant becoming a slave to a sadistic master.

astarion, the man who had his freedom and bodily autonomy ripped away from him.

astarion, the man who was forced to befriend, seduce and sleep with people to lure them back to his master, resulting in severe sexual trauma and the struggle to form any sort of intimate relationship.

astarion, the man who was horribly punished whenever he refused his master’s orders (one punishment being sealed away in a dusty tomb, starving, for an entire year. he scratched his hands raw trying to carve his way out).

astarion, the man who was forced to eat rats.

astarion, the man who hasn’t even been able to see his own face since he turned.

astarion, the man who had his body mutilated as cazador carved scars onto his back, which he later found out was to bind him to a ritual.

astarion, the man who is so severely traumatised that he admitted he doesn’t know how to say “no” or ask for help (and he feels guilty when he does).

astarion, the man who waited two centuries to be helped and freed from torture, but no one came.

astarion, the man who was always treated like a monster when all he wanted was to be treated like a person.

astarion, the man who came up to you in the middle of the night just to thank you for defending him and allowing him to make his own decisions.

astarion, the man who said that no one ever looked out for him or showed him kindness, and that you’re the only one. “other people don’t have a heart like you. you’re you. no one is like that.”

astarion, the man who broke the cycle of power and terror that started centuries ago thanks to the love, care and compassion that you showed him when no one else did.

astarion, the man who confessed that he loves you and feels safe with you; something he has never felt with anyone before.

[spider-man-2o99]

individual stills of miguel Scampering on all fours and showing off his more distinct individual movement style (that he has because of his spider-man's Similar-but-still-distinctly-Weird-and-unique powers as compared to the more-graceful Others) so that i don't have 2 keep rewinding the clip(s) to see it. im REALLY excited to see him scuttling and skittering all over the place in the film just like he does in the comics-- and, like, seriously, Miguel Specifically being just. made Massive for some reason in his atsv design will never NOT be funny to me hes SO freakin Bouncy why did they Do That.

don't be Weird on my post or i'll kill you for real

[uncanny-tranny]

I jokingly thought before that reading Junie B. Jones as a kid turned me into a feminist, but unironically, it kind of did.

I honestly think it comes down to the fact that Junie B. was not only allowed to be "weird," but her character arc never concluded like other girl characters would. In other media featuring "weird girls," the girl always ended her arc tamed - by force or convince, she would be prettied up, she would smile and be polite, and she would never speak out of turn. She would be perfect then, and would shed her veneer of individuality with the freedom that is conformity. As a kid, I noticed that girls weren't permitted to be "weird" like boys were. So when I read Junie B. Jones, I loved that she was frankly just fucking weird. She said things out of turn, she was rambunctious and imaginative and she was a realistic portrayal of a little girl. I loved reading those books because the narrative taught her lessons without punishing her for being weird, if that makes sense. So often, narratives punished weird girls for the crime of being a socially unacceptable girl, not for any true wrongdoing like lying.

Anyway, I just think it's interesting, because I watched and read a ton of books and shows and movies featuring girls and women, but none of them truly empathized with (or even tried to empathize with) weird girls on their own merits and capabilities and terms, or embraced the idea of a "socially inept/unacceptable" girl without punishing her in some way for her supposed ineptitude.

[lecinea]

Listen, both Yu Ziyuan and Jiang Fengmian were shitty parents that fucked their kids (& wwx) up in various different ways. But I will forever be more sympathetic to a frustrated woman in a patriarchal society stuck in a toxic marriage than to the man who has power and authority to change something but refuses to do it because he doesn't like conflict and pretends like nothing is wrong.