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[concreteangel92]

Be careful what you wish for

Noah Sebastian x female reader

18+

Warnings: Cum play, mentions of spanking, dom/sub relationship, slight humiliation kink and degradation kink (not too heavy) male masturbation, just Noah being a typical brat tamer

So this is kinda filthy even for me ahaha but it’s not massively detailed as it’s a head canon styled piece but I am working on proper detailed works as we speak so hopefully I will get those out soon.

This actually started as an idea from the other fic I’m writing but it didn’t fit into that scene properly so I decided to make it a separate piece so the thought wasn’t wasted haha and fyi the story I’m currently writing has definitely been inspired by the new tour content, that’s absolutely feeding me right now 🥵

•You’ve been playing up all day and winding Noah up in front of people when he’s been working

•Just genuinely being a brat because you found it funny that day

•That’s fine but Noah would 100% punish you for it when you’re alone

•You’d be face down on the counter, underwear round your ankles while counting each spank he delivers

•But what’s one more dig?

•”That the best punishment you got? I’m getting bored of it now”

•Those spanks would instantly stop

•”Is that so?”

•Oh yeah, he’s pissed now

•You’d feel Noah’s grip on your hip tighten and hear the sounds of his trousers hitting the ground

•”Spread your legs”

•Noah would have a deeper growl in his voice, clearly not impressed with your attitude, but that’s ok, he’s happy to take it up a notch just teach you a lesson

•You’d feel his fingers scissor you open with a dark chuckle “bored are we? Do you want to tell that to your dripping cunt”

•That would most definitely pull a low moan from you, now Noah loves dirty talk, but to be that vulgar is very rare, even for him

•You could feel movement behind you and hear the sounds of him groaning and skin slapping on skin

•”So my punishments aren’t good enough eh?…” You could hear his words get caught in his throat, you knew he was touching himself behind you, his other hand now not leaving your hip

•”Well lucky for you…shit….I’ve got the perfect punishment for your cocky little attitude”

•You’d keep your head on the counter, pussy aching to be touched but you know that’s not going to happen any time soon

•“Did I forget to mention….that the guys will be here…any….any minute for the afternoon?”

•Noah hadn’t mentioned that they were all coming round for a gaming afternoon, you suddenly felt a sense of fear at what he had planned

•Noah’s groans became louder as he sped up his pace, you knew he wasn’t going to last much longer

•”fuck..I’m gonna cum”

•You’d feel him release onto your heated core, Noah would quickly bring your underwear back up and press the material into your folds, making sure not to let any of his juices slip out down your thighs

•You’re eyes would go wide, a choked moan escaping your lips as you now knew what his punishment was, it felt so wrong and dirty but fuck me were you turned on

•You’d hear Noah fix his clothes and then he’d grab you by your throat, bringing your back onto his chest so he could talk into your ear

•”let’s see how cocky you are walking round with my cum in your pants, and don’t think you can run away and hide baby. You’re going to sit with us until I say otherwise, is that clear?”

•”I’m in a dress, what if it…slips out?”

•You’d receive a hard smack to your ass and then Noah turned you around so he could stare down at you

•”You should have thought about that before you decided to be a brat and telling me that my punishments are boring”

•Noah grips your chin and gives you a hard kiss

•”Be careful what you wish for baby”

•That’s the moment you’d both hear keys in the door and the guys walking in with pizza boxes, Noah pulling your dress back into place and stepping away from you

•You’d do your best to walk normally and act all innocent when everyone started chatting, trying to sit without anything ‘leaking’

•Your cheeks would have a permanent blush for the afternoon

•All the while, that cocky smirk never left Noah’s lips as he stalked your every move

[moeblob]

(gives the jock a boy crush)

[puckgoss]

Okay great! Same anon from before. BTW, love your blog! The others seem to have a clear bias but I love how you keep it real over here. Super interesting as well! Now with the real deal...

CELEBS:

Justin Bieber is super nice, he seemed genuinely honored and happy to be there. Him and Mitch Marner are sooo cute, Justin was so supportive of him all the time and cheered backstage so much. He's also cool with Crosby apparently, saw them talking a lot. Met Hailey briefly and not surprised, just classic model behavior, glasses on inside, didn't say hi to anybody just a slight smile. It's fine I guess but compared to Justin who was a ray of sunshine seemed kinda odd. Michael Bublé did not 'accidentally' take a huge dose of weed, he was joking about how high he was and laughing about smoking more afterwards. Will Arnett is like a drunk uncle but not drunk. Both nice. Tate McCrae is soo sweet! I felt her because we were only like 5/6 women backstage and she was the only female captain, also with an ex who is an NHL player so already has that "puck bunny" reputation, so her being there was cool to see. Her BF was also backstage, but I don't think the players knew it was her BF haha, a colleague and I noticed at least 15 of the guys walking up to her and chatting it up. Ones I remember that looked flirty are Sway, the Hughes (they talked throughout the whole weekend and they're all around the same age so may have been friendly but you know how men are), Elias Lindholm, Elias Petterson, & Mat Barzal. She obviously talked to a lot of people but these I remember looking more like them trying to get somewhere with her. Her and her BF are so cute though! He was very touchy with her. Saw her talking to Boone Jenner for a while, but he seemed just friendly. He is also her ex's teammate so wonder what that's about.

PLAYERS:

Auston Matthews is actually really charismatic. At one point the whole dressing room went quiet and we heard him singing "Baby" by Justin Bieber. We all cracked up haha. The Hughes brothers had a fight the first day, don't really know about what but Jack walked in upset and Quinn wouldn't even look at him. Both with their frowning RBF. McDavid had the same attitude as Hailey Bieber LOL. He softened up a bit when talking to other players but otherwise he is super cold always. Pasta and Travis Konecny also seemed to lowkey hate each other. Colleague told me Travis doesn't like Pasta at all but can't 100% confirm that as I didn't hear it directly, just an interesting rivalry. The Canucks players were like a group of mean girls, they literally stuck together the entire weekend, even if they were drafted to separate teams. Vincent Trocheck flirted his ASS off with several women, myself included. Found out later he was married. Swayman is truly a nice person, I think he and Boone Jenner were the only ones who said hi to the whole crew and also goodbye. Also saw him and Georgiev have a bro-hug after they lost the game and he said something to him that made him really laugh, it was very cute. The Hughes also seem to not like Suzuki, avoided him all weekend. Cale Makar is like a doll haha he is so awkward all the time and everytime he speaks his face looks like he immediately regrets it.

That's all at the top of my head, but if there's anything else you want to know LMK!

ahaha ty ty! i def have my biases when it comes to teams but i try pretty hard to keep it neutral and not give my biases away 😭 as for players i don't have any faves or rly think any are angels so i have no preconceptions there

omg there is so much to unpack here idek where to begin

justin bieber - he did seem so happy to be there the whole time lol he loves hockey and the leafs i think that was all 100% genuine! so sweet

hailey bieber - sounds abt right lol

michael bublé - lmaooooo tell me ur from vancouver without telling me ur from vancouver.... iconic he was so funny that whole weekend

tate mcrae - ya i forget her bf's name but i was aware he was there n they do seem v cute together! love all the wifed up guys chatting her up ahaha except barzy n petey they get a pass. another anon on here was telling me all the CBJ guys & wags liked tate a lot so doesn't surprise me that boone & her were friendly

hughes brothers - jack n quinn having a fight is soooo funny omfg i can't. also being bitchy towards suzuki like 😭 funny bc they're so tight w cole caufield (esp jack) n suzuki n cole are teammates and besties

mcdavid - you comparing mcdavid to hailey bieber is fucking sending me dsiofjdskghdfjklgh he is so awkward...

TK - TK having beef w pasta is soooo funny

canucks - canucks players "like a group of mean girls" i'm dying omfg 💀 lindholm was drafted to a separate team ya but he was only traded to the canucks like a few days before that so that was the first time they were really meeting him

trocheck - flirting his ass off with multiple women dsfknadslfkjgfng his kids were literally on the ice watching the skills comp w him that's soooo bad

swayman & jenner - being sweethearts aw that is nice to hear

cale makar - "like a doll" "awkward all the time" "every time he speaks his face looks like he immediately regrets it" perfect no notes!!!

[vickyvicarious]

"if the specimen I enjoyed of their hospitality be of the average kind, their lives must be pretty comfortable." good for the Bilders!

the polite, casually musing, "did I tell you to go to hell?" is so funny

Bilder hating Dracula on sight <3

ahhh it's good to hear Dracula's voice again. I mean I hate him, but, you know.

"I have made pets of several." Dracula making his little jokes again...

"he said, with a suspicious sort of modesty" hahaha, the delivery of this line was so funny

the Bilders laughing and literally going like "hohohohooo" is so funny. they're just 'gotcha!!!!!!' it's great

they are so playful. good for them

I love the long talk about how this wolf isn't clever or dangerous or anything... ending with "well, and I guess he could eat a baby" haha

Correspondent not liking that door being opened

it IS a shame that people are allowed to top their walls with broken bottles, I agree. I love how soft his voice gets on "come along, Berserker."

"the only exclusive information" hahaha yes, kudos to you, Correspondent

I like the doorbell noise quite a lot.

And the saw noise!

I never noticed them going round to the back of the house, but um. Probably a good choice before breaking in!

Ooh, the way Jack's voice falters on "but there was no sound... that we could hear"

I LOVE the music as they open the door and see Mrs. Westenra and Lucy

my immediate reaction was DO NOT BRING BRANDY

I do love that Jack tested it to make sure it wasn't poisoned though

"there was a gentleman who had come with a message from Mr. Holmwood." HERE HE ISSSS

god, that van Helsing doesn't have any hope for Lucy to survive this anymore. his only goal is to save her from vampirism

THE TWANG COMING IN WITH QUINCEY AHAHA

also the way Jack says "Quincey Morris" he is in love

oh god Art's voiiiiice

"Her struggle back into life was something frightful to see and hear." oh god

I love Jack's uncertainty upon reading Lucy's memorandum. The vulnerability in his voice as he asks van Helsing what it means, and if Lucy is mad.

Quincey's voice is so soft and sweet when he asks to have a talk with Jack.

Man, Jack really is running around all over the place isn't he.

"I don't want to shove myself in anywhere where I've no right to be;" this is why Quincey has been gone from the book for so long.

the music while Quincey describes the vampire bat

love the "royal lot of [manhood]" line, but also the whole bit before it, with Jack being so soft and full of sympathy for Quincey, more so than himself

"What took it out?" Quincey asking the real questions

Lucy's sobbing aches to listen to

"Some may not think it so sad for us," oof, she sounds kinda bitter. perhaps insinuations have already been made? not necessarily that they killed him but that this is mighty lucky for them isn't it/that they deliberately got close to him when he was dying in order to inherit

"my belief in him helps him to have a belief in himself." YES. YES.

Mina reaching out to Lucy for comfort and support... unaware that Lucy too is plunged into a nightmare

oh she sounds so agonized when she says the letter was unopened. oh ouch.

[2n2n]

ch 107

HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE....! Ah I can't believe it is ALL Tsukasa x Nene ! I always anticipate that we'll spend time elsewhere on the other guys... ahhh so many pages ♥♥♥ wonderful....!!

something so pleasant about the attentive, patient, listening Tsu... how he goes about his business navigating a boundary....

in Japanese, the word Tsukasa uses for Nene-chan here ["fussy"] is the same Amane uses to describe what Tsukasa will be like if he's interrupted at Katanuki.... ♥ Amane seems to feel very differently about 'fits' than Tsukasa does ... wwwwww.... hm, it's actually bad that Amane feels like... ♥ tantrum ... you're the one I worry about

it's too funny Tsukasa just does what Nene-chan says when she no wanna be upside-down....

I'm so sorry about your future boyfriends Nene-chan. Kidnapper and Abusive Boyfriend. they are both stupid and you hate them, I know I know....

but a pause to say, it's so funny how pairings can be as kids, ahahaha... Hakubo was, so annoyed by Sumire, such a brat child she was, so inconvenient.. apparently young Akane could be possessed to yell I HATE YOU! at Aoi....! Amane got so mad and shoved Tsukasa, and he used to call him dummy when he was frustrated too.... even Kou acts childishly and insults Mitsuba when annoyed (and isn't Mitsu such a brat haha ...) even in My Dear Living Dead and Narisokonai Snow White, we really have some "ugh!!!!" between the pairings, ahaha.

ah its funny to see Tsukasa say urusai wwwwww

GET HIM!!!! Nene-chan ♥ so bold so brave haha, Mitsuba wouldn't DREAM of doing this, haahahaha!!! you know the way people imagine Tsukasa VS Nene-chan, they'd imagine he'd rip her face off like a chimpanzee for this, I'm glad for some people to be proven wrong... lol...

meanwhile... wwwwww.... Tsukasa-chan, you complain about all of this fuss and tantrum and violence and such but... wwww.....

the atmosphere is so different wwwww all Yugi are so frustrating and make you cry, huh, Nene-chan? They wanna do things you don't and you're along for the ride, hehehehe....

Fascinated in the small gap in memory... maybe things that aren't so important to you, are easily forgotten in all that time, in a mundane way. What did mom do...? I don't remember... ah. I really like to see Tsukasa talking to his joudai so much; we don't see it as often as we do with Hanako... they seem to be saying something like, "well, children are different..." and "what did your mom do?" ... I like that they seem to not want fickle Tsukasa to lose interest or gumption hehehehaha they wanna solve this!!! nooo we can't just give up, we gotta-- do the things--- ngnngn!!!

such wonderful and magical things Tsukasa can doooo uwwaaahhh! Sometimes I get why Amane's name has the 'normal' kanji... with Amane he'll take you to a beach to do normal summertime things like whacka watermelon, go to festival stalls supernatural and non... I feel like only Tsukasa would wrangle a giant owl and steer you all around to delight you....

so sweet you're just trying to entertain her... make her happy... a natural talent

such a nice face.... ♥♥♥ Tsutsu please you...

it's like I'm having a beautiful dream... their little faces...

MOUUU IKKAI ahahahhaha, you were too good... ♥ you made her manic .. overstimulated... zoomies... soooo cute haha NENE-CHAAAN!! you're overwhelming no matter what hahahaha....

fickle.... ♥.....

the poor joudai really being put to task wwww it makes me feel like Hanako is much kinder to his, he is not this rude to them!! He is apt to pet them and thank them... I can't wait to learn what the hell these orbs are.... they are too personable lol

and then I start dreaming... madness madness... I can't bare it.... it can't be said enough, how long I've wanted this...! How it's felt so "set-up", with Tsukasa and Nene-chan both loving to sing....! I believed in my heart it was inevitable! Of course, it would be beautiful!

I can't believe Tsukasa can play this kind of coy and baiting little game....! whaaaaat? You're suddenly as adept as a children's show host... and it wasn't even your plan to send her to sleep! So what for? Just to invite her to sing? It's too cute....

ahhh.. I hope for a volume promo we get this in color. It's too sublime.... the steam off the hot gears as the boundary's water runs over them... knowing these gears are a golden color... and can you even imagine, in the anime? Both Tsukasa and Nene-chan's VAs can sing!!!! The sound is plausible....;;; it's too lovely... I can't believe such a beautiful scene can happen so 'soon' in their dynamic. I thought I'd wait so long for this, even though in my heart I knew it would happen at some point. It's amazing ... in some way, TsuNene lacks resistance.... it's their open and free natures ... impulses ... it can just 'happen'....

too serene... I wonder what it's like to not understand Tsukasa's hidden grace, the gentility? This scene is so gracious of him.... invite you to sing with me.... there are expressions only Tsukasa makes, and, suddenly the twins feel worlds apart. They feel impossibly different.... poor Amane, he doesn't often reach serenity...

I wonder what you feel, Nene-chan...? Comfort... warmth? Safety, even for a second? A sense of security... enough to fall asleep. So glad she turns to watch him sing...

Looking at it. Why is it like some sort of date ... TsuNene is impressive. You took a girl on an amusement park ride .... you serenaded her ... Amane, look out....

two things... 1. it's crazy you can just catch Mirai like this when Amane could NOT at ALL, even with how desperately he wanted to prevent her from touching Nene-chan in the Clockkeepers arc. and 2. you suddenly have this violent agility to stop this inhuman speeding mouse, but you simply let Nene-chan evade your sleep fingers just earlier? Tsukasa really is avoiding using violence with Nene-chan....

ah, you remind me of someone!

the Yugi can be so different and then so alike. It's a pain, isn't it? tedious things... the mysteries. And here Mirai is, droning on about justice and crime and rules.... all of the things we don't need. If we want to change the future, we'll have to break all of those. The Yugi look at other mysteries as chores in these circumstances. You'd just like to do as you please without annoying interruptions. Of course, it has to happen... sigh.

Interesting to hear Mirai refer to their 'Court of Law'. I suppose that 'space' we see is some sort of body of their boundary, and some aspect of their themeing. These gavels ... how annoying. This truly is a force opposite to the destructive and villainous Yugi who are trying to bend fate to their desires. Strictures... ! Governing ... bleh.

[maleyanderecafe]

Hopeless Romantic (Visual Novel)

Created by: bonecandy

Genre: Horror/Romance

Hello again! I was looking through the list here for new yandere vns to play and I stumbled upon @xbonecandyx's game, Hopeless Romantic! I think it's very cute for a demo and Sasha is a very cute yandere. This is an r18 game though, so please take note of that before you play this game. Surprisingly, from what I can tell, he's a bit soft/submissive, which is always something I like, haha.

Hopeless Romantic starts out with waking up from a wet dream, and finding a guy named Sasha sneaking around in your room, sniffing your underwear. You have a couple of options in response to what he asks, either responding kindly or angrily. He asks if he can keep the underwear he's sniffing. There are four different endings so far depending on choices.

Choosing yes can allow him to "work" for the underwear, essentially asking him to do oral on you before he leaves with the underwear. Getting mad and telling him to leave lets him go quietly, though not without dropping some drugs and the implication that he did drug you to sleep as well as possibly having some sex during it (explaining the wet dream). We can also call the police which has the hilarious ending of him being caught and sadly looking at us before the police car drives away. The final ending comes when you get very mad at him, and kick him out. He delusional believes that you would have understood, but instead decides to drug you, forcing you to sleep believing that you just need some time before you accept him.

While the game is pretty short, it's pretty interesting to see what exactly Sasha is like and what he does as a yandere. He seems to be the type that's more on the creepy pathetic stalker spectrum (which, you now, I can be down for, ahaha). He's a bit shy and awkward, seemingly too afraid to actually talk to the mc themselves, and thus goes more into other methods to try to get close to them, from drugging and performing sexual activities while the mc is sleeping (I cannot for the life of me remember the word for this) and of course stealing the mc's underwear. He seems pretty worried that the mc won't accept his behavior, very happily admiring the mc from afar. If the mc does reject him though, it takes a turn very quickly, having him almost leave before drugging the mc, turning more delusional than usual, believing that they will accept them if they are given more time. My favorite ending is the one where he gets taken away by the police, just because of how funny that CG is while he longingly looks out the window, hoping that they will realize what will happen. I have a feeling that he will break out, but the joke of simply calling the police and watching them take away the yandere is always incredibly funny to me. Personally I think Sasha is very cute in a stalker way (that's no the best way to describe it but) but that's not a surprise since I generally like the type of yanderes that are shy and have lower self esteem. He might be easier to control because of that, so in the future if the mc is able to manipulative him into doing things for them or anything similar, I think that's always something fun I'd love to see.

Overall, while the demo is pretty short, it does have nice implications of a yandere, one that doesn't seem to fully know exactly what he's doing (I guess he's sort of an armature yandere) which is always fun to see. I'm curious to see how this game will eventually pan out in the future when it is completed.

[chrollo-lucilfers-chains]

Hisoka x gn!lawyer!reader

Little Lawyer

Warnings: none, that I'm aware of

You walk down the hallway to death, mentally preparing yourself for the worst. Well, it's not really the hallway to death... It's just the hallway to the restaurant of the heavens arena with it's little fake trees and weird colors but with who you're thinking of meeting, it might as well be death.

As you round the corner and go inside, your eyes immediately flicker to the mop of red hair peeking out behind a decorative bush. He's sitting with his back to the room as if to demonstrate just how assured he feels in his power. Even in an arena with some of the strongest hunters and fighters in the world Hisoka Morrow is still the apex predator.

He is also in a very bad mood, you assume.

Short and to the point, you remind yourself. Otherwise he probably won't even listen to you...

Walking up to his table you don't slide into the chair across him. If he does attack you there's no way you will even get as far as to the door but the idea of standing at least gives you some false sense of security and confidence.

You clear your throat to get his attention but he doesn't react to it, intensely focused on the set of playing cards in front of him.

"Mr. Morrow, I've heard of your little law dilemma", you are about to add your name and title but he stops in the movement of his hands and closes his eyes, letting out a small moan of annoyance that stops your talking immediately.

Annoyance is worse than just a bad mood... You don't want Hisoka Morrow to be annoyed with you!

"Listen," he starts in his usual, overly sweet but icy voice before you can even begin to hold your little speech.

"I am in a very bad mood right now, so either say something interesting and get to the point or leave, because I may look like the sexy equivalent of a clown, according to my fans, but I sure don't joke around like one. It's a very bad time right now for you to try and see how long lasting my patience is."

Fuck, you think. You were right. Better make this one count then. And you were nothing if not determined!

"I was in the law team for the hunter exams and worked under the head examiner. I listened to the interviews and I know what you want. You want to kill without being held accountable and to fight other strong people. I can offer you both."

Hisoka lifts his eyes to your figure almost catlike. He tilts his head and raises one singular, perfect eyebrow in a gesture for you to continue. Many people talk bad about him but none of them can deny how attractive he is. His hair is still disheveled from the fight he'd had minutes ago and the red strands seductively frame his handsome face. You admire his sharp features and the yellow eyes. When those exact eyes narrow you remember who he is.

God damnit, his jawline is so not the point right now!

"I can get you out of any possible trial before it even begins and I will get you out of your current problem as well."

His eyes tighten, as if calculatedly scanning your every asset. You shift from one leg to another. What if he says no?

"You know, usually people who come to me with a proposal want something in return. I assume you do too?"

"I do."

You close your eyes. You'd practiced what to say in the mirror the whole morning and still it was hard to get out right now. You take a deep breath and steady yourself.

"I want you to kill my boyfriend."

Hisoka holds your gaze for a split second, as he registers what you just said, then he breaks into histerical laughter. You look around confusedly. What is going on?

"Oh god..." he lets out between giggles. "I needed that..."

Other people are starting to look at the two of you with a questionable gaze and you try smiling along with Hisoka, acting as if you'd just told a funny joke and hadn't just proposed homicide to the maniacal clown breaking out in hysterics in front of you.

"Ahaha haha, yeah... Uhm, are you okay?" You ask, mildly concerned about not only him but also the other people in the restaurant now.

He let's out another histerical giggle but finally seems to recover from his tirade. Then he apruptly stands up, takes your wrist and starts heading to the exit, pulling you along with him.

His face is set in an unreadable expression. Oh god, what had you done? Is he going to kill you now??

"Uhh, you- you can just say no, if you're not interested!" You scramble, trying to make him let go but he just keeps trotting forwards, unbothered by your pulling on his hand. And holy cow, he's strong. He could probably be a rock climber with that grip strength...

He doesn't stop outside, instead he starts heading the direction of his room and if you weren't panicking before you definitely are now.

When his door is in sight, you start twisting your hand in order of making him let go.

"Mr. Morrow I don't feel comfortable going into your room! Unhand me right this instant!!" You tell him, trying to sound calm even though you are freaking out inside but ultimately failing to conceal the panic in your voice.

He rolls his eyes without you seeing it and opens the door to his suite. He shoves you inside and shuts the door, effectively pinning you against it.

"Hisoka, my name is Hisoka."

"What?" You let out confusedly.

"If we're going to work together you aren't calking me Mr. Morrow", he says and you blink.

"Oh god, I thought you were going to kill me! Yes, okay. I can call you that"

He nods.

"You also have to help me first, little fruit." Ah, there it is. You were expecting a certain amount of mindgames and flirting from the sociopathic clown but this is definitely a lot more intense than you thought.

"That... I can do..." You give him this one because it may just save your life.

"But you have to help me after that!" Begging won't work on him, you know that much about the magician but you still have to try.

"Why of course, little lawyer~" Hisokas smile is nothing short of frightening, as if it was supposed to be innocent but he didn't feel like it halfway through.

"We're going to get to know each other real well."

Hisokas hand pats your head twice.

What have you gotten yourself into?

[lesbiandanhowell]

Sam (begrudgingly) reacts to: Dan and Phil play Poppy Playtime CHAPTER 2!

I fucking hate horror games and I am have a high anxiety day so this is like awful timing BUT HERE GOES NOTHING.

- Not a fan of the runtime because I don't enjoy horror so the longer the worse for me personally so fuck this actually oops

- Babes I am literally shaking and almost crying 4 minutes in this will not be fun lmao (but also I know my anxiety won't go away without dan and phil content so might as well hope they will be funny and cute enough to make me calm down).

- I hate this I want to cry UPDATE: I literally started crying right after this, about 8 minutes into the game, but it got better afterwards.

- The touch when saying 'we have to be brave' was very personal to me. (Someone give me someone to watch this with and hold me please because I am scared)

- The buttplug jokes being the only thing to make me laugh, thank you Phil. Dan what do you MEAN "tails in" in reference to buttplugs, did you see the unhinged shit we said on tumblr, because oh god please no.

- "What are we going to do now?" "Cry" Phil gets me actually thank you I feel seen.

- The color game is actually calming my anxiety SO much it's hilarious, like it's just logic and following patterns and those things are so calming even when Dan is screaming.

- "For our lesbian audience that has mommy issues this is gonna be a weird episode" YOU DONT SAY DAN YOU DONT SAY

- new lore alert: Phil going to a wrestling party

- Phil lore: he was afraid of the KFC man as a kid

- PINOF MENTION AND CLIP AHAHA, they love doing these references since they uploaded the first react video.

- Dan hiding in his hoodie is adorable, like he just fully went "nope!" and hid haha.

- I think you can see Phil's hand shaking in the whack a mole, like the camera was SO shakey which was either his inability to use a mouse or he was shaking, place your bets.

- Dan playing the mini game after all, Phil is never beating the younger brother stereotype truly.

- When did they film all of these that their heating is still broken?! Makes me think they really did pre-film most of these to have a less stressful time now during december, which good job guys!

- Mommy's voice reminds me of someone else in a tv show but I can't figure out what? Anyone know?

- Their delighted faces at seeing jacksepticeye are adorable, like you could tell they were so happy truly and I love these little easter eggs!

- "Sean you down there?" HOWLING

- They edited so many clips and memes into this (which makes me think they edited it rather than an editor) haha

- Phil just, maybe unconsciously, moving impossibly closer to Dan is a big mood (only I am alone rip).

- Weirdly enough the mini games are the most calming part for me, like there is a clear focus and clear objective of what to do and it's like: here is a problem, solve it and I think that does wonders for me.

- Unsure if I am shaking from anxiety or being cold (also great I have more uni work to do after watching this)

- Yes please sanitize my boobs. What

- I agree Phil, we have gotten a lot of lore (about you)!

- Phil's panicked "geese!" gets me every time because it's so cute.

- "I feel kinda bad" aw ofc you do Phil and ofc you don't Dan, so very in character for both of them honestly.

- "Sometime in 2023, so not much longer" Phil, honey, there are like 20 days left what do you mean?!

This actually wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, after I had my little cry at the beginning. I was actually quite calm by the end and I think my anxiety actually is less, which I didn't think would happen. The magic of Dan and Phil, see you tomorrow!

[ivoncu]

Merry Christmas!! Thank you always for the gift of writings you give us <3 May we get 🎅 with Kuro? Thank you!~

DAY 4 — CHRISTMAS PROMPT 🎅 + kuro kiryu

🎅🏻  ─  be each other’s secret santa

RhyLin had planned on setting up a christmas celebration party; a mix of both to celebrate christmas with one another, not only as idols and producers, but as friends and celebrate the success they've all received this year and hope for the best for the upcoming year.

Most agreed, but you have a suspicion on who and whom will not come to this party, you suppose you'll just have to force them to come anyways.

Once majority agreed on the idea, AKATSUKI were designated to plan the party, and as their producer, you were more than happy to lend a hand.

Soon, all of your hard work pays off once you stood amongst the participants of the party, laughing along to their (un)funny jokes, having fun without any worries of today.

And from the corner of your eyes, you saw Kuro who was leaning against the wall alone with a drink in hand.

"Kuro! What're you doing there all alone? Aren't you hungry or something?" You ask, walking up to him with a smile on your face.

"Ah, producer-san. It's nice to see our efforts paid off, no? Hasumi-danna even decided to come after how many times he had said he won't." Kuro said, chuckling slightly at the big success. "I'd call that a huge success in our part."

"Right, I don't exactly know where he is, but he won't bail on us... Well, I think!" You said, uncertain yet still held high hopes for that guy. "I think he won't leave as long as you-know-who won't."

"Haha, I suppose you're correct. He's quite head over heels for them either way." Kuro said, sighing loudly as a smile plastered onto his face.

He looks around and see just how crowded it is, from idols to producers congratulating one another for their work, people gulping down the food he's prepared for the party as a whole and to you.

"I'm glad yer still by my side 'til this day, producer-san. I hope we'll stay the same next year too." He said, showing a genuine smile on his face.

"Ahaha, you're making me blush~" you replied, waving him off dismissively.

"W-well, anyways, don't you think it's time already?"

"Fer present exchanging?"

"Yep, yep!"

"It's time to exchange Christmas gifts already?!" An energetic voice from afar could be heard. "Yahoo! I've been waiting for this moment! Come on guys, let's go!"

In an instant, everybody had surrounded the christmas tree, in hopes of finding a christmas present with their name attached to it.

One by one, they all receive it, but there's a catch. None would know who they received it from unless the giver reveal their identity to the receiver, and much to your luck you were given the chance to gift Kuro a present!

You aren't sure whether he'll like it, though... That's what quite scares you. Maybe if he likes it, you'll reveal yourself as the one who gave it to him and if he doesn't just die out of embarrassment and not tell him—simple as that, yes!

And after searching for your present, you soon find yours. It was rather not big neither was it small—it was of a normal size for a christmas present. You shake it around, trying to see if it'll make a sound or something.

From the corner of your eye, you saw Kuro. It seems like he has already found his, it'll be quite awkward if he doesn't like it.

You gifted him a plushie—not just some kind of plushie, it's a plushie you really like so you hope he'll like it somehow.

"Ah, you found yours too? That's great." Kuro said, getting up onto his feet, smiling happily at you.

"Would ya like to open yer christmas gift with me? For fun."

"O-oh, uhm, sure!"

And thus you undid the ribbon that keeping the box together. Your heart was going on miles per hour, nervously anticipating his response to your gift.

Alas, you both finally opened up the box, seeing what was contained on the inside to your mysterious santa buddy.

You were shocked, to say the least. Confused—bamboozled, even. You brought your gift out of the box;

It was your favorite plushie.

Upon your reveal, he did the same; it was your favorite plushie.

"Y'know, I thought ya would like it since all ya could talk 'bout these past few days was about how cute it is, my sister even agreed with ya." He said, a smile soon forming up his lips. It could appear that he was blushing too.

"I-I bought it for you since I thought you'd like it since I thought it was cute..." Your words were soon turned into nothing but a mumble as you nervously fiddled with the ribbon.

"Haha, that is very considerate of ya, Producer-san. I do like it, I thank you very much for the gift." He looks down at the plush, his gaze soften as he checks it out.

"Merry Christmas, Producer-san."

[cynicalmusings]

appears from above

yes please tel your cyno thoughts ahaha

warning: super, super self-indulgent ramblings ahead.

okay so i don’t have any specific or particularly, well, particular thoughts: it’s more just general internal screaming at the thought of cyno because oh my god how can such a perfect man exist and aaaaaaahhhahahhhhha

okay so basically he’s just like super, super considerate, okay? like, he comes of as a bit cold and blunt and around people he doesn’t know really stern and intimidating, and so his affection and care for people (but let’s take an x reader scenario for this right now because i am a simp) is really subtle but always there, whether it’s in the canon universe, an au: whatever. he’s just… so selfless in a quiet way and would never admit it and he’s also always looking out for you and stuff and he gets worried about you, you know? again, he’ll never admit to it, but he worries about you a lot. (his love language is probably acts of service and maybe possibly gift giving but don’t quote me on that second one.)

and he expresses his love for you, again, in subtle ways: making sure you’ve eaten enough, drank enough water, had enough rest, taking care of you when you’re sick, remembering and buying (or making) your favourite comfort food when you’re feeling down without being asked. covering the corners of tables and furniture when you’re around them with his hand (credit goes to @cynotical for that one.)

it’s like he’s a mind reader or something and always knows exactly what’s bothering you and how to fix it. you never even need to say a word: he can just tell and in an instant he’s found a way to help you out.

on that note, hiding your feelings from him is a fruitless effort. even if you’re good at putting on a straight face and keeping your emotions under lock and key (*cough cough* ME haha *cough cough*), it doesn’t matter: he sees right through you the moment you’re feeling down. if you’re uncomfortable in any way admitting this outwardly, he doesn’t comment, and just sits beside you in silence, holding your hands in his and rubbing circles into the backs of your hand with his thumbs.

oh— and cyno also allows himself to be soft around you (sometimes), and only you. even though he has a couple of people he’s close to, whom he often frequents with awful jokes, he never fully lets his intimidating exterior down except when he’s alone and around you. you get to see the side of him that wraps his arms around you and holds you close, unwilling to let go until he’s had his fair share of kisses and attention. you see the side of him that worries (but pretends not to) when you get only a small cut on your fingertip when slicing vegetables, and tuts quietly, telling you, ‘show me’, and then raising that finger to his lips and kissing it better (leaving your stomach doing flips and cheeks burning furiously.)

you see the side of him that stares at you with a gentle, lovestruck smile when he thinks you’re not looking; the side of him that presses a kiss to your forehead when he think’s you’ve fallen asleep, mumbling a quiet ‘sweet dreams’ or ‘good night’ or ‘i love you’ against your skin in a voice softer than falling snow.

he’s just… so incredibly gentle and kind and considerate with you in a way that you don’t even notice what he’s doing for you until you take a step back or spend some time without him and then realise how sweet he actually is under all that sternness.

and shit i really want to kiss and cuddle with him right now holy jesus because i feel like i’m getting cyno withdrawal symptoms even though he’s been on my mind 24/7 these past few days and i literally cannot express in words how much i love him right now and how sweet he is and i am (not) on the verge of tears but i’ll say i am anyways for dramatic effect because i just love him so much and it ain’t even funny by this point and aaaaah

[hellolulu]

[Spoilers for Mob Psycho 100 s3e9]

After last week's disappointment (the aliens), I'm glad to say episode 9 brought me unending pleasure! So, here's a list of things this episode did that brought me joy:

We actually got much more of tsubomi's pov in the anime, than we got in the manga. I understand that Manga Tsubomi is strictly through Shigeo's (and now and then Ritsu's) eyes and that is cool in its own way, but whew, it's really nice to see her being a character instead of just the idea of one. (I'm going to write a full post about her - I'll let you know when that's up!).

Serizawa is pretty much the only person who seems to genuinely see Reigen's true self, but rather than going along with his ruses/lies for the sake of "the flow", he just seems to accept that people don't actually have their shit together - that he didn't waste as much time as he'd thought, and by going to school and working with s&s, he's actually able to live a pretty normal life. He's happy with the way things are, not just complacent like he was with Claw. (I will also make a longer post about this - I'll let ya know when!)

Okay, serious points are said, from here on they're a bit dumb ahaha!

Takenaka revealing Tome isn't a girl 😱😱😱 this is a joke but I like thinking Tome is agender like me, so even though his comment was more along the lines of "ugh as if she knows what girls want, she's a weirdo 🙄" it just gave me fuel for my headcanon, sorry! Agender person who uses she/her because tbh we like these ones well enough, and have much more important things to think about (like the occult) 😩😩

RITSU SITTING SO FORMALLY IN FRONT OF SHIGEO I CRIED oh ritsu if you want to be closer with him,,,, you,, you have to act normal around him,,,, lmao. And oh Shigeo feeling more confident because Ritsu is nervous for his sake (aw I love my favourite brothers ever) and the little 🙏🙏 Ritsu does while Shigeo's on the phone, this guy is so funny for no reason

The... The shot of Shigeo playing football with ease :((( parallel to our first meeting :((( the very first episode :((((( he's all grown up :(((( gorgeous :(((((

Ending at the car-crash: AS IT SHOULD BE!!!!! I thought it might end the episode there for shock value and oh it did NOT disappoint!! The way everything just stayed static there for like.. a full minute with the crosswalk tune playing? Masterpiece! Also RIGHT after he used his powers in FULL public???? Of his own choice??? Shigeo really did grow so much!!! Like I said!! S3 is about his finale of self acceptance and it's coming in like a steamtrain!!!! (And also maybe it's unnecessary to mention and I'm sorry, but him saving the cat vs being unable to save the cat during the Mogami arc is a parallel I'm unable to remove from my mind)

Side note, anime-onlies I'm SO sorry for the whiplash you received/will receive at the end of the episode!! I'm sending you the strength to survive until next Wednesday!! I remember the crash happening in the manga and me going feral about it haha! This arc is So Good.

Also I love the body improvement club so much they're so silly I'm so glad Shigeo knows them and has them in his life 😭

[compassionatereminders]

hi kat. i hope this is not a bad time (as good as times can get for you at this exact moment…) so i’m just gonna rant

so i have a best friend of almost 6 years. it’s one of the most fulfilling relationships of my life and we really just. get each other. we (mostly) know each other in and out. and we’ve been life partners for most of the friendship, albeit unknowingly (we talked it out last year and made it official, being queerplatonic partners and stuff) and i was very glad to have someone to spend my life with. we talked about living together and just… being together.

and well, a few months ago she got herself a boyfriend. and those have been some very hard months for me, mostly because of my own fucked up emotions and insecurities that i thought i worked through and Jealousy(tm), partly because my best friend was also fucking up by having Absolute Bitches Brainrot and spending less time with her friends (me included). and we have talked about this! and it was. well. it went good. she said she’d work on it and plan more hang outs and that she didn’t mean to hurt anyone.

and…i thought that was the end of it. i’ve been (once again, mostly) fine. i was confident in our relationship. but a few days ago, i realized how annoying it is to talk to my best friend these days because all she ever talks about is her boyfriend, she constantly brings him up in conversations that don’t even mention him. but i didn’t want to talk about it with her because i didn’t want to make her feel bad, and i already mentioned the fact how she’s always talking about her bf to which she said she doesn’t do it on purpose, so.

so i decided to talk about it with my other friend instead. i went into a chat between me and my best friend to look for funny/absurd/annoying/inappropriate examples of her bringing up her boyfriend, and instead i found a message that made me upset when i first saw it and, apparently, still makes me upset: it was about how her boyfriend told her something like “when we get married yadda yadda” and it made her happy because no one’s ever wanted to marry her spend their life with her like that.

and, uh, you can probably see where i’m getting at with this haha. it made me sad because i wanted to do that, i wanted to spend our lives together. it also made me a little angry that she was this invested in a person she’s known for a maximum of 2 months while, well, i exist. which might be a selfish thought, but it is what it is. anyway—so i mentioned the message to my friend and how it made me react and. well. for context, i’m mostly aro and my best friend is probably on the spectrum too but she does feel attraction more.

so my friend basically told me how We Live In A Society and that aro + allo people don’t usually last long together or end up living with each other, because the allo person eventually ends up finding a romantic partner and living with them. because We Live In An Allo Society. which is true, but… it’s just something i haven’t thought about before. i never realized it would be a problem for us, which was probably a bit stupid and naive of me ahaha. and my friend also told me that my best friend probably wasn’t experiencing the qpr feelings in the same way i was, and honestly? i kind of wish they didn’t tell me any of this. because i think they’re right and it fucking sucks and it makes me extremely sad to realize that maybe i’m not as important as i used to be, or as i thought i was. it’s…not a good thought. and i didn’t take it well—i’m not taking it well, would probably be more correct.

i understand this is something that should probably be talked about. but the day i had The Realization(tm) my best friend messaged me a few hours later, talking about her boyfriend again. some mundane thing that they did together. and she said how happy she is to have him and how lucky she is. and it just made me think—i can’t ruin this. i’m not going to ruin this. i’m not going to make it about me just because i had a warped perception of what my life was going to be and that is somehow another person’s fault. it’s not. it’s no one’s fault, really. i mean, maybe it’s a little my fault for being dumb and wishful, but eh. it is what it is.

so yeah. uh. i guess that’s it. i probably am going to get better eventually. somehow. i’ll deal with it on my own. and who knows? maybe i’ll end up finding someone else. maybe i won’t. maybe i should just let it all go and realize i never had it in the first place. whatever that means—i hope most of this message is comprehensible. it’s almost 1am and i’m tired from a full day of Gaming(tm). i hope you’re holding up well.

Not to grab the mic and steal your moment but as an allo who was just dumped and ghosted by two romantic partners I thought I was going to spend my life with, it is now my friends who are stepping up to the task of helping me through this. And if I can look at this and acknowledge that a romantic relationship isn't inherently better or more worthwhile than platonic relationships, so can other people. Even if your beloved friend can't. It's not a lost cause to find people who value and prioritize friendship and it does not require being aro

[linagram]

Lina... Update me on your thoughts of t2 Akio x Ichiro, Aimi x Akane, and Kei x Daisuke? :D

just this HDJJSJKDKKSKS

but okay okay more thoughts under the cut <3

the mental image of akio and ichiro discussing their crimes is still so funny to me. ichiro tells akio the truth about his crime and akio realizes that ichiro's motive was actually a LOT more sympathetic and he's like ". oh no. oh NO" and ichiro is like "so uh. what about your crime" and akio is like "why should i tell you. get out" (bonus if akio was the one who suggested talking about their crimes)

but also. the implications that both akio and ichiro didn't completely hate their victims and actually liked them in some way. sobs... ("why akio calls chise by his first name" well WHY do you think he calls him that)

t2 akio and t2 ichiro bonding over their pain. sobs again

would love to know how ichiro would've reacted to akio's suicide attempt especially considering that something like that is just.. not what you would expect from someone like akio? bro really got rejected by his crush and went "okay. guess i'll die" /lh i wonder what would ichiro think about riku too?

something about ichiro seeing his victim vs akio seeing his victim is so. like. yes this is more t3 but can we talk about how ichiro sees his victim as someone who cries without his attention and immediately smiles again when ichiro actually does pay attention to him. can we talk about how akio sees chise as someone who would try to get his revenge and kill him (though it wasn't actually a ghost of chise, but rather akio hallucinating and hurting himself in the process) and sees him in his t2 mv as someone who just silently watches his execution. an implication of ichiro possibly being a good older brother. an implication of akio actually feeling guilty and thinking that chise would be mad at him. can we

HHHHHHH I WOULD LOVE TO TALK ABOUT T3 AIMI X AKANE BUT. GOTTA KEEP THINGS SECRET FOR NOW. but it's fascinating to me because it's like.. aimi would stop talking to most prisoners but she would still continue talking to akane. she knows that her brother probably wouldn't like akane that much but he's no longer here, so who cares, right? oh, but akane better still be careful around her. one wrong word and aimi will stare at her and go "ahaha, come on, akane-chan, friends don't talk like that <3"

if aimi ever learned about akane's crime, she would be very understanding and she would actually admire her a lot and say that her father got what he deserved. and then she would go "haha, so our crimes are actually very similar!^^" it's okay, akane, just continue thinking that she's talking about her classmates. her relationship with her brother was so healthy and normal, trust her.

it also breaks me to think about how akane's case is more "obvious", like you can clearly tell what kind of person her father was, it's hard not to sympathize with her and all, meanwhile aimi's case is much harder to understand. she mentioned her brother in her first interrogation and she said that she likes spending time with him. she claims to have a good relationship with her family. it seems like her classmates were her only problem. and then she casually mentions that her brother's dead and implies that she killed him. and then she calls him a freak during her second interrogation and says he wouldn't let her live a normal life. girl do you wanna talk about it

also akane having really bad problems with money and aimi secretly being a rich girl and both of them still being bullied, just for different reasons. i wish i could say "if only they have met each other before milgram" but honestly.. i don't think akane would've liked the person aimi was before milgram. there really was a reason why her classmates hated her so much (to be honest, they were more.. afraid of her, actually).

something about aimi still acting so nice to akane while hiding the truth about her past and her plans for the future is so. HHHHHH. like yes, she will go "akane-chan, do you want to hang out? :D" or "akane-chan, thank you so much for helping me with akio-kun!". yes, she also hates almost all prisoners now. yes, she's planning to do something to them. just don't worry about it, okay, akane?^^

imagine t2 kei and t2 daisuke talking about their crushes before milgram. kei listens to daisuke and then he's like "woah ryuto sounds really cool! now check this out" and shows him a photo of ruka (don't ask why he has one) all beaten up and covered in blood. what would daisuke's reaction be. what would daisuke's reaction to kei and ruka's whole relationship be actually. imagine you're t2 daisuke and you have to listen to kei talking about how his bf likes to think he's a walking corpse.

hold on i have to put the image of daisuke seeing the way kei is treated by shun and eiko and still walking away and kei looking at him and trying to ask him for help or get his attention (but like "oh daisuke hi!! long time no see!! i know we've seen each other like ten minutes ago, but- hey! hey come on buddy, i'm talking to you! hey that's really rude!") but failing into your head real quick

this probably wouldn't be possible but them watching each other's mvs is still such an interesting concept to me. though it's also really funny to me because daisuke would probably be. at least a little bit surprised to see kei like that, meanwhile kei would be like "wow that was cool :0". that's it. that's the only reaction you're getting from him daisuke.

something about the way daisuke and kei think about their jobs is so interesting to me. if i'm not wrong and my memory is not being weird, daisuke was seen kind of as a softie, right? and i wouldn't say that he was like. a huge fan of his job. meanwhile kei was both good as a "normal" photographer and whatever he was doing for his dad's friend and he liked doing both things as well. (fun fact: even kei's boss thought he's weird, since his boss wasn't really that sadistic and mostly did it for the money)

this is mostly about t1 daisuke and t1 kei but i still think it's funny how if daisuke asked if kei wants to smoke with him, kei would say yes instantly but he also would look like he's NOT having a good time throughout the whole thing and would also look like he doesn't even know what he's doing. and he would also go "ahaha oh i'm just. more into vaping haha" while thinking "I HATE BOTH OF THESE THINGS". oh btw kei also has an alcohol-related trauma. never let him interact with noa please

[angeliqcore]

When Blaze left Ginger's house he decided to invite Ginger + family to his house in Sulani. What Ginger was unaware of was that EVERYBODY will be there. Including Coral...

So 2 days later, The Mystical-Dyria household leaves for the sunny beaches of Sulani

G: Oh my gosh, why is everyone here!

G: Why is this kid staring at me?

G: Hey there

G: Obnoxiously curly hair, you're Blaze's aren't you

Ginger attempts to converse with the toddler but the more she talks the more frightened the child becomes

N: Woah there, calm down Wesley

N: Go back inside ok hun

G: Wow Nikita didn't expect to see you

G: Still can't grow hair can you

N: Ginger. I am married to your brother after all so of course you're going to see me

N: And I'll have you know short hair is a fashion choice

G: Not a very good one clearly

N: Ahaha. You're so funny Ginger I almost forgot to laugh

N: That reminds me you're divorced now aren't you. Blaze told me.

N: You just couldn't keep them happy could you

G: Haha laugh it up

G: Marriage is so overrated anyways

G: At the end of the day I'm still rich and you? Well you know you situation better than I do shall we say

Nikita took a moment to take a deep breath, Ginger has always found a way to get under her skin

G: That reminds me, If you need any financial advice I'll just airdrop my number to you, I'll be nice and give you some advice for a small fee okay~

N:...Whatever just go inside

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #8

Today I am at my favorite bubble tea shop, working on the various derpy little things that I like to do.

I haven't been back here consistently in a few weeks, actually; between the hubbub of the holidays and getting briefly sick, I've mostly been home, trying to recoup. But under ordinary circumstances, I'm at a place called Eggcellent, writing, working on a music box, planning an acapella, weaving wire trees with gemstone leaves, or some combination thereof.

I don't work on my things at home mostly because I have five cats who seem to need to be on me or near me all the time, haha! To be sure, ordinarily this isn't a problem, but it's hard to get anything done when Hunter is trying to nap on my keyboard, Hoshi is trying to chew on my wires, Mogwai is trying to nestle himself into my lap (sometimes I think the poor thing is trying to attempt fusion, like the Crystal Gems, haha…), Arremo is playing with my feet, and Momma is demanding snacks! Ahahaha~!!

Make no mistake, there isn't a darned thing about this that I would change. But I do occasionally need to set boundaries, and since cats don't typically respect boundaries (hahaha!), I have to adjust myself to suit their somewhat limited neurobiology. :) Rest assured that I do everything I can to make up for lost time with them when I return home. ;P

One of the nice things about being at Eggcellent is that the people who own and run the shop are genuinely some of the kindest people I've ever met. It's one of the few public spaces where I don't have to mask ("masking" is what it's called when autistic people pretend to be normal in public so that others aren't uncomfortable about the fact that we exist - it's exhausting, and I have a funny feeling that you might know at least a little bit about what this is like to have to do…). I can just be myself, drink yummy bubble tea, put on a playlist, and work on my things in peace. In between my random things, I like to watch various other people come into the shop tired and stressed, and walk out with a smile because the kindly shopkeeps made them something delicious and beautiful. I am blessed to be able to witness the way that the ripples of the kindly shopkeeps' existence make the world around them just a little bit brighter in the subtle way that it does.

Ya know… there's a lot of beauty to be found in the world, tucked away and hidden within various simple things like these, I think. You just gotta know to look for it. You gotta keep your eyes open. You gotta keep awake to it all.

For now, my favorite thing to get from this shop is their iced matcha with rose syrup, tea jelly, and cream cheese foam. I wish I could share it with you; it's very delicious. I'm aware that the scent of roses is one of your favorites; I'd love to see your response to the realization that roses also work well as a flavoring for sweets and teas. I can't help but wonder what it would be like to bear witness as an expression of curiosity and uncertainty on your face blossoms into surprise and joy. What a marvelous and delightful privilege it would be to see such a thing…

Alas, I can't share it with you. But I can enclose a picture of what my time in this space normally looks like. Here:

My space in this place doesn't look like that exactly right now, ahaha… I mean… I do have my laptop out and my roll of music box paper is in my lap. But at the moment, I am writing this letter to you. I had intended to work on a music box for a person in my social circle; I'll maybe explain why later. I am not working on it now because today I received a most unexpectedly wonderful interruption to the general flow of my existence.

Do you remember the letter I wrote in which I wished I could share a cup of my homemade broth with you? Well, some wonderful person on the internet named @bootshivers saw it, and then drew a picture of you drinking a cup full of the broth I made! They drew such a happy, peaceful expression on your face. Even beyond that, the intentions behind the rendered image were some of the most beautiful I have ever seen. And just like that, any water I managed to get from the bubble tea I drank ended up instead pouring out of my eyes as gratitude and joy, ahahaha~! It was a beautiful, wonderful feeling - one that will help sustain the courage that I need to continue to create things for you; I am not going to forget this anytime soon, believe me.

If you needed proof that there are lots of people in my world who care about you, please look no further. I am not the only one here who wishes for peace, safety, and healing upon you. I'll continue to wish for the same things upon you, always, come what may.

I will get working on the music box now. Please remember that you are very loved and that you're not as alone as you think you are. Please also remember to open your eyes and witness the beauty that surrounds you, even if things seem bleak right now. I'll be right here, cheering you on in whatever ways I can.

Please stay safe. Please be mindful of the condition of your mind and body as you do your various things, taking breaks and asking for help as necessary. Don't be afraid. Or, rather… be afraid, and then take the hands that are outstretched to you for courage and support, and do the thing you're scared of anyways.

Til soon.

Your friend, Lumine

[brick-by-dumbass-brick]

Arcane characters based on things I’ve said/ conversations I’ve had/ situations I’ve been in

Sevika: what if we just kill every person in here? Does that mean we can go home early?

Silco: hmm.. let me think about that.

Caitlyn: *staring at a girl’s ass*

Vi: *staring at the same girl’s ass, notices Caitlyn staring*

Vi: haha nice

Powder: ok so if you drive a car with your butt cheeks and get into an accident, when the airbags deploy would that be considered a spanking

Vi: you can spank people with inanimate objects like paddles and such so I’d say yes

Sevika: what the fuck

Jinx: I might get hate for saying this but it needs to be said- when courage the cowardly dog said AABBUUDABUBUBDABABABADU OWWWW OWIW OWW I really felt that, like on a personal level

Jayce: god made you in his image, you can’t change the lord’s work

Vi: well could he have made my image a little more rich? I got bills to pay and mouths to feed

Caitlyn: trauma dump?…… do people with ptsd shit a lot??

Jinx: *cackling maniacally* could you make huevos rancheros with bug eggs

Jinx: h-

Caitlyn: normalize ripping your glove off and smacking a bitch right in the mouth

Vi: my toxic trait is seeing something and automatically thinking I can do it too, like I bet I could tap dance.

Caitlyn: babe-

Vi: *starts shuffling and tapping her feet around* I know I don’t have shoes on but I bet I’m killing it right now

Viktor: if you think for a single. FUCKING. second,,,,,, that might get you somewhere in life

Jinx: it’s always “what’s up” and never “HOWS up” ,,,,,,, THAT PIXAR MOVIE HAS FEELINGS TOO

Jinx: ok so HYPOTHETICALLY SPEAKING if one wanted to snort cocaine out of a Twizzlers and then eat it to get rid of the evidence WOULD THAT or WOULD THAT NOT be smart

Ekko: ok so A LOT to unpack here-

Vi: heterosexuals?? in YOUR PC?????? It’s more likely than you think. Click the link below to find out more about this virus

Jinx: here’s my hot take for the night; pregnant women are a type of ravioli…..chew on that for a bit

Caitlyn: I don’t think I will chew on that at all but thank you

Vi: ummmm if the earth is flat then how’d my big round juicy ass fit on here

Caitlyn: fair point, fair point

Jayce: science question, do people with testicles slap them for self harm?

Vi: why are you asking ME

Jayce: I think I just had an amazing idea

Viktor: what is it this time

Jayce: you know those crinkled looking plastic tubes you get from the dollar store and you swing em around and they make that funny whooshing noise and they scrunch up small for storage

Viktor: yeah

Jayce: what if I was the first person to create a compact dildo that had sound effects built into-

Viktor: I’m gonna stop you right there, and maybe forever

Jayce: ahaha noooo don’t kill yourself *seductively bites lip* we’ve been trying to contact you about your car’s extended warranty

Caitlyn: don’t kill yourself babes!…. Kill someone else

Jinx: you know what I think,,,,,, and I don’t like it someone make it stop

Vi: G-L-A-M-OOoh aRe you holding a gun?

Jinx: if bigfeets exist why don’t we ever see the remains?

Sevika: for the last fucking time they don’t exist

Jinx: because they gotta die at some point, right? they’re definitely decaying around us we just can’t see where

Sevika: oh my god someone please shoot me