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nightynite · 6 months

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i'm nobody's you

i love this fucking song man. idk i've been on a Sir Chloe kick recently and... well... i just had to get a little bit of p1p2 art in there. i like all the dudes kissing a little bit... but i am quite fond of this pairing...

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shepscapades · 2 months

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Why does Ren have 4 ears? Are they all real or is one set fake?

Hehe I’ve gotten this question a lot actually! They’re all real— I like to think hybridization isn’t always a clean balance of traits, so Ren just unfortunately ended up with two sets of ears— his Dog ears being much more receptive to sound, naturally— and sometimes when the extra intake of sound is too overwhelming, I imagine he wears earplugs in his human ears to help adjust :> it’s a bit weird, but idk! i like to make designs funky and nonconventional! I liked the idea that Ren had hearing struggles due to wonky hybridization and just kept the concept :>

#dbhc #dbhc ask #ask #anon #dbhc ren #renthedog #dbhc doc #since I talk about him in the tags FGBJCGHN #it’s another one of those situations where I drew it that way when I was younger because I didn’t really understand why ppl were drawing #hybrids with flat spaces where human ears should go and have dog ears on the top of the head— I couldn’t figure out anatomically #it makes more sense to me now since animals are literally like that but it’s just something I kept doing and came up with a better #reason for it later once I had a better understanding of stuff #I don’t necessarily think two sets of ears is logically more sound than reworking the anatomy of a human head to have ears on top but!#it’s really not that deep LMAO #I like the idea of hybridizations being wonky because weird stuff physically happens to people all the time #hybrid or not #and then we gotta deal with the physical consequences of stuff we were born with… yknow #ANYWAY WHAT A WEIRD RAMBLE #tldr funky hybrid who now has hearing problems/gets overwhelmed easily by sound. ren the dog I love you #and if you were to look into my soul you would find that I also think dbhc doc helped him craft earbuds using android tech to work perfectly #to tune out the sounds he needs #:3 because they are friends and I think doc should use his expertise to help make life easier for ren #I’M STILL RAMBLING!!!#good grief

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redbean-nom · 5 months

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fascinated by the implied fennec-ventress-phee friend group in tbb. even more interesting (funny) when you add boba in there during the tbobf era.

#star wars #tbb #the bad batch #tbobf #tbb phee #fennec shand #boba fett #asajj ventress #bossk #black krrsantan #i think fennec is literally the only one of bobas friends shorter than him lol #phee is normal about it #ventress on the other hand #she is like 6 ft tall she is using everyone as an armrest #okay but. now that boba is at actual war with the pikes #ventress is probably the best possible ally for the situation #like one. LIGHTSABERS AND THE FORCE #two. shes already on the pikes bad side; she has no rep to lose with the pikes if she does help boba #three. nobody in bobas entire retinue knows how to command anything larger than a small strike team #between boba fennec and krrsantan they're a full team of lone wolf solo hunters #they can barely coordinate a four person team let alone an army big enough to fight the pikes #in that last battle in bobf iirc boba straight up disappeared and returend with a rancor kaijuing everything with 0 warning to his friends #and they just kind of lost track of the shiny vespa gang #anything larger than krayts claw and boba just. loses everybody #he's busy fighting not looking for people!#on the other hand theres ventress who has several years of commanding literal millions of droids in massive-scale battles #boba: listen ill forget about quarzite if you help. please. i have an army and no clue what to do with it #boba: my friends dont know either i already asked #phee is their resident smuggler (very very useful when dealing with pike spice trade) and probably knows all the tattooine pike routes #boba please. you need some diversity on your team. you can't fight a war with eight solo assassins smushed together.

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ichthyorelationships · 2 years

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only just processed that luca added the flames to the colander helmet...implicitly b/c of alberto’s “also i added flames” dream vespa design alteration...

#like evidence afterwards that someone was paying real attention even when at the time the other party felt ignored / tuned out....So sweet.#which also my audhd life experiences like. if i learn anyone ever absorbed anything i said it's like oh whoa living large lmao #anyways the point is it only occurred to me the other day lol. like i'd noticed the flames but just didn't piece anything else together #i Love how many like. threads & details you Can piece together like that but are just kind of quietly in the bg otherwise #and fun how everything luca needs for the race is definitely like Somewhere Underwater...colander fell in the sea...bike by the sunken boat #god knows what color situation i fumbled my way into here. so the classic spin of just like Also there's more stripped down versions #who knows if i'll like do more of a full color approach version. they can't stop you. nor stop you from just posting lineart #or stop me from going off the walls w/their tail lengths lol #luca #luberto #lucalberto #😚😚😚#fish freckles you are everything to me...#eta not me forgetting to save the [solid bg color]less pngs as transparent....i was up all night #didn't help w/the color selecting that i'm bad at anytime lol #ok hopefully now they're actually transparent #smhhh now i've realized i forgot a little line to indicate webbing betwixt alberto's fingers there #not as big a deal as how i ALMOST forgot to include any of their arm/leg fins. i'll fix it if i do the [full coloring] deal lol. imagine it #yet another eta: occurs to me i could've made alberto purpler & the bg blue. well;

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rxttenfish · 7 months

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you know, i think the thing about miranda that most make or breaks if any given writing for her is any good, is that you just can't tell if she's doing something on purpose or not.

she switches hard from cute, innocent, head full of fluff and so oblivious and kinda stupid that she matches scott, to having such expertise and cruelty in manipulation and being able to not only get her way but to get it with such violence that it takes everyone else aback — and there is NO way for any other character in the situation to tell if both really are true and equal aspects of her personality and who she is, or if she really is planning this all along and all the innocence was just a farce.

both are given equal weight by miranda, both seem equally likely, and both are roles that miranda inhabits so wholly that there's not really any flaws anyone can find in either one of them. you expect one, the other one catches you off guard. for someone who makes such a show of wearing her heart on her sleeve, it is incredibly hard to actually tell what's going through miranda's brain at any given moment.

#all the care guide says is 'biomass'#monster prom #miranda vanderbilt #yes i still have thoughts about miranda as i always do #ofc my answer to this in my writing is ''its both at the same time''#''both manipulation and her being genuine''#because i really like that as who miranda is (and most of my writing deals with who IS miranda really)#but also. i think it really does need to be an open question in text #you need to be able to argue both at a single moment using everything that miranda has done up to that moment #and still feel like you arent getting it Right #which is also exactly the thing i love about writing miranda #open questions and ambiguity are FUN #(this is also where the miravi comes in because that too. is answering the question. of who really is miranda.)#(specifically focusing on who miranda is beneath the crown and the title)#(and who she actually wants to be)#(both with aaravi being able to be the hero and save miranda from her situation and even from herself)#(but also with them both thinking to the future and having no fucking idea what they want or what will happen)#(but deciding to tentatively trust each other to work towards a shared and better future)#(this is also why both miri having an eating disorder and aaravi directly trying to help that)#(and aaravi having an interest in food and cooking is so Important)#(you have to deal with the question and all the problems it raises if you want the solution to grow and become something beautiful)

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lecliss · 5 months

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The choice from Sunday is kinda weird cuz the options are build a cage in the house for the bird or build a nest where it fell and one leads to the bird growing up but dying once its set free and the other one probably leads to it dying much sooner. They both feel like the same option and even tho obviously the most kind, caring, morally right thing to do is keep it inside so at least it lives longer even if it's in a cage. But like to me both options suck and are basically nothing cuz I'm sorry if I look like a bad person for this, but I'm not sorry, but I'm not fuckin touching a wild animal. Even if I knew it was there even if I bothered to check out the sound to find a bird, which I wouldn't, I'm not touching it. I'm not even getting close enough to find out it's too young to fly yet. Whatever happens to it happens man and I'll never know what happens to it cuz I'm not even gonna look at it. Like, where's the 'you seem like an asshole but really it's quite a normal choice' in this whole trial thing??? That's usually an option you can pick. Sunday!!! Sunday, listen!!! There are more than two choices!!! You don't have to always do something!!!! You can just walk away!!! You don't have to try to do something for everyone all the time!!! Think about yourself sometimes!!! It's not selfish I promise!!! SUNDAY!!! OH MY GOD HIS WINGS ARE COVERING HIS EARS HE CANT HEAR US!!!!

#i genuinely dont wanna pick anything #like okay. i know they dont have animal control or a shelter in this setting. but irl genuinely just call some people and see if theyll take #it if you wanna do something about it.#you are not getting my ass to touch a wild animal of any kind. i dont care what the situation is #i was asked once if i could help take care of some baby mice a friend accidentally ruined the nest of and a shelter wouldnt take them #and i was like. im sorry but no cuz i know for a fact im not equipped to handle something like that and i dont wanna touch wild mice and #i KNOW at least some of them will die and i wanna now have to deal with dead mice. and you know what happened?#the friend couldnt keep up with how often they needed to be fed and they died. and now you have dead mice.#something could have happened where they survived outside like the mom came back and fixed it maybe or at least one fended for itself #like its a shame the nest accidentally got ruined but it was an accident and things like that happen all the time #yes its an accident you caused but in the case of something like that i really dont think its suddenly your responsibility now #and i know itll make you feel better to try to make up for it but now you have dead mice #and i know for some people at least trying to help makes them feel better but now we're at the point where i just dont understand #i just cant comprehend the feeling or the idea or the thought.#so its like. i get sunday feels like he HAS to do something for everyone all the time but its genuinely turning him into a monster and he #cant see that. like trying all the time despite getting nothing done will tear you apart. let yourself rest #do the small things you can do around you. dont put the weight of everything on you all the time otherwise you wont get anything done #and youll start thinking not doing anything isnt even an option anymore #i promise its okay. take a break.#im not even referring to sunday anymore. you 🫵 its okay. take a break. make yourself feel better #then come back to things with a clearer calmer mind and do the small things you know you can do #dont force yourself to do everything because you feel like you have to. itll be okay. i promise #hsr 2.2 spoilers #hsr spoilers #oh right this is a spoiler post ifnfjfnfk #long post

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the-l00ker · 3 months

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After seeing alot of things on twitter about Lovejoy coming back, blah blah blah etc... Etc...

What's come to my attention is that what Wilbur soot has done (NOT JUST TO SHELBY BUT OTHER ALSO) has messed up the sense of what consent actually is.

It's sounds simple. Saying yes or no. But things and topics like this aren't linear.

You should not, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, let a celebrity lead your way of life and/or manipulate what you believe to be right and wrong.

You do not have to "pick sides" you do not have to defend a (probably) millionaire because they've fucked up, and you certainly should not change your outlook on life because of what a celebrity has done or said and because you still want to be fans of them.

First things first

Consent can be both given, and taken WHENEVER.

Not no "but they said yes before" or anything like that. You can say no afterwards. No discussions. It shouldn't be an argument or a heated debate for you to say no.

If you don't like a certain type of food, are you gonna force yourself or get your partner to force you to eat it? No.

If you don't like something, should you force yourself to like it just because you said yes 20 minutes ago? No.

You can say no. Whenever.

I don't care, if you're male, female, non-binary or anywhere else on the gender spectrum, YOU CAN SAY NO.

Second.

You can communicate that you didn't like something, even after it happen.

No questions asked.

If you didn't like it, and you came to that realisation after, it shouldn't take a fucking rocket scientist to be like "Hey my S.O, I didn't like this. Can you not do it again?"

Communication in a relationship is important. Extremely important. And it shouldn't be taken lightly.

If you don't like a restaurant after eating there, then you shouldn't have to go back, right? You can say no to going again.

This may seem small and probably meaningless, but imagine taking this scenario and applying it to something you love, something you do, something that you want to do.

Is it fair that you should tolerate something you dislike because of another person needs/wants? Absolutely not.

It doesn't matter if they say please with 50,000 cherries ontop, with a "but my friend said" or a "but X let me do it all the time".

No, believe it or not, means fucking no.

Third.

If someone repeats a behavioural pattern over the course of multiple months/years inwhich that you've know them, and it hurts you or you dislike like it, and they KEEP DOING IT even after you asked them not too, then they're not worth it.

You do not have to tolerate someone else's pity-party, designed to guilt you into staying because of "reasons"

"they're getting better"

"they're getting help and all the things they need"

"they didn't mean it"

"I'm used to it"

"they didn't mean to hurt me"

"I promise they're getting support"

Yeah and how about you?

Your own mental health, emotional health and physical health should not come at the expense of others.

It may seem selfish to some, I do agree, but do not set yourself back for others to move forwards.

Sometimes it's better to be alone.

Partners should love and support each other and if they do shit like this then that isn't support. That's a 80-20 % relationship and it's not right.

I can really only comment on the Wilbur Soot drama because I'm a fan of mcyt people. But what he's done, justified or not, has genuinely messed with 16yr-20yr+ old sense of reality and what they believe consent is.

It's shocking. Please. Please. Please. Do not let a celebrity drama change anything in your life that you hold dear to you or that benefits you.

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mantisgodsdomain · 3 months

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We ought to write more Pokemon fic some time. We want to recreate the Pokemon Manners/Human Manners cheat sheet that we made a few years ago we think that this site would like the Sliding Scale Of Politeness When Greeting A New Pokemon You've Never Met Before.

#we speak #writing #we grew up with pmd games and we feel like the way that pmd pokemon's dialogue tends to be excessively... direct?#should be a feature and not a bug when any pokemon that you meet might be totally unfamiliar with your species and biology #it's probably very polite to start up front with some basic facts about yourself so they know how to act going forward #the very upfront feel to dialogue also very much helps with keeping the dialogue feel more... pokemon #people mock the series for weird npc dialogue a lot but we think that taking these things literally makes for more fun society building #it doesn't all have to fit with socially acceptable for our world we think. polite in our world isn't even consistent by household.#sometimes a polite interaction sounds like “hello! i'm poochyena! i like to chase people and bite!”#name and immediately socially useful information. now you know about the chasing people and biting so you don't assume it's rude #of course poochyena bites and chases people. it likes to do that. you can say you don't like that and it might stop doing that to You #but it will not stop biting and chasing people because that's what it likes to do and it will probably only befriend people okay with that #it makes a very specific dialogue feel that's very fun to do. we like how the pokemon world tends to treat any sort of like #disability or “weird” things as something that you just say out the gate and everyones like “oh okay”#and then treat that as Part Of Interactions going forwards. there are a surprising amount of parts of the pokemon manga #that are dedicated to working around a character's disability after one or all of their means of dealing with it get taken out #admittedly we aren't that caught up on newer content but we find the way that it tends to be just Accepted as very refreshing #making the dialogue this direct does also tend to make it read as more “childish” in english and particular because a lot of Maturity's jus #learning how to dance around what you're saying or phrase it in different ways to get your idea across differently #whereas here everything is just as direct as possible. “i don't like charmander”. “i like roasting berries”. “i want to dig things up”.#all pokemon dialogue tends to go towards being exceedingly simple and it makes for some very distinct writing #especially when you have to tackle complex situations with characters who probably dont employ that sort of vocabulary #though we personally enjoy doing this sort of stuff your mileage may vary ofc #we are biased towards this sort of thins because we find it MUCH more fun to build up what we're talking about from blocks #than to like. try and use more indirect wording that may lose things in translation #unfortunately this is not fun in irl conversation. everyone has to be on the same page and you need to use the same playbook to communicate #we REALLY wish people said what they meant though. we're really tired of being asked shit like “is this accessible”#when what they mean is “can you climb these stairs” a question which depends on the day our energy level and how things have been going #there are a lot of things we could say that would make us feel like some sort of anti sjw type guy and a lot of em boil down to just #"for the love of god dont dance around a Sensitive Topic just get to the point and ask us about it this just makes things harder for everyo

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tswwwit · 1 year

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That art does remind me, does Bill know about the lamby lamby dance? Who told him and what's the reaction from both him and Dipper? Is there, perhaps, some Lamb for the Slaughter imagery introduced into certain activities?

He does, and nobody told him - he went through people's brains about it! Plenty of people have seen the performance, even if Dipper tries not to think about it.

Dipper, however, doesn't learn that Bill learned, until Bill makes a very pointed comment at exactly the right time, leaving Dipper stunned. And cringing. And maybe horrified as well, for the hat trick!

As for Dipper being a Sacrificial Lamb - it seems like a Bill thing to suggest! So long as he gets to play the Big Bad Wolf.

#answers #Bill puts on the wolf ears and everything #Dipper protested this idea a great deal but Bill's unfortunately very convincing #If Bill wasn't also doing a Dumb Role Dipper would have vetoed the suggestion but this way it's. Mutually silly. In a good way.#Plus the outfit is significantly different for Dipper; that adds some difference #In that it's considerably skimpier #95% chance there's a break in the action for them to make puns at each other. Or they pause at a particularly stupid line to laugh #Everything simultaneously very stupid and kind of funny and - once Bill pins him down and bares his teeth - okay. Yeah. Dipper gets it now #Very much a bared throat and clothes shredding situation with a Big Scary Monster #Dipper also points out that Bill didn't need to wear a. Uh. Tail on himself but Bill says it helps him get into character #Yes that's implying what you think it's implying

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medicinemane · 2 months

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I don't know... horrible things happen all around the world and it's not a competition

Atrocities are committed against multiple groups in multiple parts of the world at the exact same moment, and none of them erase each other. They all matter, all the people in this world who are being brutalized matter. There shouldn't be any line you draw where one group doesn't actually matter as much as another

You're welcome to prioritize your energy towards helping one group or another, but what's not ok is invalidating or dismissing people who are actively being harmed

Same goes for trying to figure out which social group has things worst (and lets be honest, always using a US lens)

Like... maybe the important thing is to prop each other up and help everyone get on their own feet rather than trying to... pick fights about if physical disabilities or mental illness are less respected (I'm trying to pick a more absurd example but sadly I've seen exactly that argument happen before). Maybe it doesn't really matter and what matters is helping who we can when we can

I'm tired of it, I'm just fucking tired of it. Support people, champion them when the world is just brutalizing them, but you don't need to throw a single other person under the bus to do that

Which seems to be an absolutely impossible lesson for people to learn

#I won't say anything else on this; but I will say that to me one of the groups that it feels like is most forgotten is Syrians #including by me if I'm honest #I don't know what's currently happening in Syria... but... my understanding is it still hasn't really gotten better #assad is still brutalizing people last I had heard #so rather than saying anything else I'd prefer to simply focus on some people it feels like were forgotten back during Obama #and... and have remained forgotten #and I'm sorry I can't do more to help with the suffering in the world #but... you notice what I'm not having to do here?#I'm not having to throw a single other person under the bus #I'm able to just focus on how much I wish for Syrians to be ok (which is a hollow gesture on my part in many ways I think)#and I can keep all the focus on Syrians rather than throwing anyone else under the bus or doing any whataboutism #and that's literally all I'm asking of you fucking people #don't downplay human misery to try and make your thing seem more important #they're both fucking important... they're all important #there's so much suffering I can't even keep up with it #there's so much of it that I can only name without knowing the details; Congo; I believe Sudan is still suffering; Haiti #I don't know how things are in Ethiopia right now... I can't keep track #and none of these situations and the horrible things they're dealing with; things I haven't even been able to follow #none of it detracts from and of the issues I am following more closely #I don't need to compare them and say 'well it's not as bad'; because... bad is bad and any is too much #and nothing I say here will do a damn thing; no one'll hear and even if they did they'd ignore it or get pissed #that's what my evidence shows me about how people behave #but suffering isn't a competition; the correct amount is zero #and... perhaps I'd have more tolerance if I hadn't watched how you behave with stuff #...the worst part is the person I adore who... man... I wish I could just get them to really think through their words #they mean well; they're coming from a place of love; but I just haven't been able to paint the picture for them of the harm #and I'm flawed; I don't have all the answers; I could be wrong here #but... can you at least see why I feel that maybe we shouldn't pit misery against each other #that the people suffering have more in common with each other than opposed and... maybe westerners aren't fucking helping #eh... too fucking drained thinking about this; end of tags

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themanwhowouldbefruit · 6 months

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my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up”#“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “#“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol”#he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!!#anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy???#this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment.#anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.”#bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you.#like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously.#but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess.#its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬

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daydadahlias · 10 months

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#im not going to answer the last few asks ive gotten bc. this blog just isnt the place for this kind of conversation but #i will just say explicitly. dont u dare say i dont think it's a big deal.#the reason im upset about this is *because* i know how fucking big a deal this is. i mean fuck ?#it's mass fucking genocide.#and i dont want people misplacing their anger at a stupid fucking band that doesn't know shit about it.#and i dont want them to potentially fuck this up and spread misinformation. so focus your energy where it counts.#and that's all i'll say on the matter. considering this is just a small 5sos blog #and you dont know what im doing in my personal life to talk about this issue outside of '5sos world'#and you dont know what 5sos are doing either outside of public press land #and i would like to think - like the ukraine situation - that they are doing their part to donate and help with their money and privilege.#but you know that if they spoke about this on fucking TWITTER of all places ?? like that's the top place to get important news???#that people would just focus their energy on complaining that they took too long. instead of actually helping anything or anyone.#people just want to misdirect their energy and their anger. and of course you're angry. of course we're all fucking angry and horrified #and devastated. but let's put it where it counts. to the people who need help. not stupid celebrities. just. yeah. ok #end of conversation

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insanechayne · 6 days

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#I hate who I am when I start missing human contact and feeling lonely #I start missing someone who was awful to me simply because they were reliable in talking to me every day and at least sort of my friend #I start craving the connections that you see in media even though I know those types aren’t real #it seems like everyone else has more people and better people and closer people in their lives than me #it seems like everyone has best friends and partners that are closer to them and better for them #and idk it just feels like things are missing from my life #I have a partner but I can’t always talk to them when I need to because they can’t always handle a conversation #I have a best friend but he barely ever answers my calls and things feel distant between us lately #I have other friends but they’re not the kinds that I feel I could turn to for help when I’m lonely like this #I have my parents but neither of them are very good at comfort in these situations #and I just want to cry because I feel so completely by myself and I don’t know what to do anymore #I just want someone to talk to and who will listen to me when I need help and advice and be there for me #I’m starting to really miss the wrong people again even though I know I’m better without them in my life #but at least I could send them anything and get a response fairly soon when I needed to #at least for a while they were very close to me and i think that’s what I really miss most of all #just the closeness of another person since I don’t always feel that with other relationships these days #it’s times like these I wish I’d just killed myself at 16 so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with this over and over forever #it’s times like these I wanna fade away #if I’m going to be alone anyway then why bother keeping others around at all? why not just break off and go be a hermit somewhere else?#but I can’t do that because I have too many responsibilities that I need to take care of #idk maybe I should just kill myself and get it over with #pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to make it this long in the first place #I mean I’m being facetious cause I’m not overly suicidal and I’m not actually going to do anything #just kinda wish I could in a weird sort of way #like missing the feeling of a blade slicing my skin since I stopped cutting a long time ago #just want more out of my relationships and from myself and from my life and idk how to get any of that #personal

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wolves-in-the-world · 2 years

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having thoughts about my friend julio in the miracle job, who we know best as the guy with the gun in his waistband. <3

like, okay, the "even gangsters recognise the sanctity of catholic priests" thing is…… problematic. just nodding towards that because I think it needs to be nodded towards.

but I love how little ego julio brings to the scene once the secret (that one of his people took a side job without telling him, a job he emphatically disapproves of) is out there. hardison shoves the guilty party to reveal his injury and eliot glances to julio to see if he means trouble, but julio's attention is just entirely fixed on the guy. he politely asks for the gun back and uses it to get the answers that hardison and eliot need.

it's transactional, practical. respectful of eliot as someone who's shown he's not to be messed with, who's on julio's turf, but who's behaving with respect and restraint himself - eliot's there for entirely reasonable answers on one specific issue, uses violence only in reaction to and in proportion with the threats against him, and frankly de-escalates the situation pretty damn well by grabbing the gun in julio's jeans and knocking out the next guy who threatens him. (seriously, for violence-type criminals, it was practically diplomatic.)

and it's clear that julio's underling Broke The Rules. like, I'd have preferred we had this encounter with a different underlying message than "priests are inherently good and respecting them is the obvious choice," because oof. (this show is kinda about acknowledging when people in power all too often abuse that power, after all. that and seeking justice.)

but it's an interesting little unquestioned-by-the-narrative-or-the-characters nod to honour among thieves.

and this fairly formal, mutually respectful, almost ritualised encounter ends with "gentlemen, I'll leave you to your internal affairs" which:

very cool, nice job eliot

possibly discreetly requests that julio not start in on any punitive actions until eliot and hardison are away, so they're not privy to that specific crime (the last we see of julio he's crouching and pointing the gun at the guy very close, and eliot gets them out of there pretty quickly, so there could be some implications there, and it's a very understated moral messiness if so)

gets eliot a little nod from julio like "thanks for bringing this to my attention, I appreciate your civility here, not ceding my authority though" (and eliot doesn't ask him to.)

it's a great little interaction. it's a (sigh, mostly) great little scene.

#the miracle job #leverage #I'm from an xtian background but not a catholic one so I'm guessing & hoping that this acknowledgement of the messiness is enough #my friend julio #he gets a tag now because I like him #so help me I kind of want to make him a character in fics now but I don't know how to include him without leaning into cop show type shit #I suppose they could just run into him on a job again? end up in the area in need of a place to hide from the cops?#find him tied to a chair like ''dude you need a better job'' ''tell me about it‚ last year a guy threatened me with muffins'' etc etc #never getting over that. martin's an absolute freak <3 #anyway this is probably going to be it but. I do like him.#takes a heck of a guy to react to that jeans situation with grace and composure #and he does manage that eventually.#and I feel like eliot walked a very subtle line here with making sure he was respected #but also not stepping on julio's toes? not putting him on the defensive?#he was In Julio's Territory and he was fully acknowledging that #eliot being so competent in frigging gang diplomacy is weird as hell to see so early #like I know in theory he's had dealings with those sorts of criminals before but we never really see it #and that's just fascinating #orig

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geryone · 2 years

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Cannot stress this enough but sending an anonymous message to someone you don’t know on the internet and saying that you’ve tried to kill yourself/are going to kill yourself is not something you should be doing

#I genuinely want you to get help Anon and I hope that you are able to get though the difficult situation you are dealing with #but you do not know me and I can’t help you get through it outside of expressing my support for you #you need to talk to a therapist not a stranger on the internet

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danielnelsen · 2 months

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well this is what ive been doing for the past 2 weeks

#sorry for using chrome. drive sucks on firefox. i use firefox for everything else. literally it's open right next to this for other shit #so what im doing is making a list of every creature you ever encounter in dai (that part is complete. it took a week)#and making note of its important stats and now its chance of each elemental immunity with the walk softly trial on #because i am genuinely planning that solo nightmare all trials run and the most important thing is making sure i can actually hit everythin #you will notice that NOTHING is EVER immune to spirit damage. that is due to a bug that i personally discovered in the trial implementation #the only creatures that can gain immunity to spirit through the trial are cretahl and hurlock alphas (only the ones in the descent)#and the only creatures naturally immune to spirit are in dlc (mostly trespasser but some in the other dlc too)#so basically what this means is that you NEED spirit runes lmao. or i guess runes to damage specific types of enemy #the least likely immunity of the three core elements is electric which is good because chain lightning is VERY powerful for solo runs #you've just gotta be mindful of hitting yourself because friendly fire WILL be on for this run fml #oh so those percentages arent technically correct. they're inflated for most creatures #for normal-ranked creatures (rank 0) there's a 20% chance they'll be promoted to elite (rank 1) and then all elites--#(whether promoted to elite or already elite) have that chance of immunity. so you can divide them by 5 for normal-ranked creatures #except for the 100% ones. those are from preexisting immunities #yes im putting way too much thought into all of this. i went into the all trials and the solo nightmare runs without doing too much work #it's just that on nightmare you get FULL immunities and with no companions you've gotta make sure you can deal with that #because you might end up in a situation where you just cant damage something AT ALL #(a good reason to diversify your abilities. also you CAN damage them it's just capped at 1 damage per hit)#and no abilities that decrease resistances help because an immunity is +1000% resistance and nothing comes close to getting that under 100 #im having fun at least. i wouldnt keep doing this if it was too boring #some of it has been tedious (especially going through some of the areas with dozens of the same enemy) but ultimately feels worth it #the spreadsheet has 5678 lines ftr. fortunately around 2.5k are npcs so i dont have to do anything more with them #anyway. i usually post about what da-related thing im up to every now and then and it's been ages so i thought id give an update lmao #personal #da #dai #undescribed #there are also a lot of interesting things like. you'll see that poison spiders CANT be immune to nature damage #and that's because it wont apply an immunity if the creature is already immune to that element OR its associated effect #so poison spiders arent immune to nature damage but they ARE immune to poison so they wont gain nature immunity from the trial

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