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October 26, 2017

I scratched someone’s car yesterday. I had 2 nightmares. But, at least I had 1 dream of them leaving me a message telling me that it’s all alright.

The traffic was horrible. I had a quiz at 13:00. Thankfully, I got there on time but I were already so stressed. I forgot to write some important points. I won’t score as high as I wanted to. I’m disappointed. I’m stupid. I repeatedly hit my hand with the knife. I want to let the stress out but it won’t. I hate myself

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October 15, 2017

I'm slacking behind. I'll perhaps give myself a break from writing everyday. The boys sitting in the room are talking about "getting" a girl before December.

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October 10, 2017

I received a message that my class got cancelled right before I were ready to leave. I made a quick egg sandwich. I saw my last year's teacher and we had a quick chat on the stairs. He seemed happy. I attended the sociology class again. I enjoy it. I sent my friend the chicken tikka masala recipe that she asked about yesterday. She made it later for dinner. Our house wifi isn't working. Bad timing.

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October 9, 2017

I brought chicken tikka masala for my friend. She loved it. I'm so glad. She asked for the recipe. I'll send it to her later today or tomorrow. I need to see mother first. Me and my classmates and getting to know each other better. I'm happy. I love mondays and wednesdays because our subjects have to do more with calculating than on the other days.

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October 8, 2017

We sang children songs before our first class. I love spacetoon. It's another thing I feel like nearly everyone at uni can talk about. Economics class was fun. Management, not as fun actually. I heard my brother's old best friend transferred to my uni.

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October 7, 2017

I drove to uni on my own. I showed my lecturer what I wrote for my assignment so far. She approved. I'm happy. On the way back, I nearly hit a car, which made me stressed. Then I passed a red light and drove above speed limit. I were disappointed in myself. I told my mother what happened and thankfully she was just glad I didn't get in a car accident. I worked on my assignment for the rest of the day. I changed the topic twice. I think the topic right now is perfect. Hopefully I won't have to change it again.

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October 6, 2017

My sister came. I missed her.

Lunch was good but it gave me a stomachache.

My niece is hard to deal with.

I think one of my classmates is a millionaire.

I'm waiting for my father to transfer money in my bank account.

My parents went out for dinner.

My sister and I shared stories.

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October 5, 2017

I had my first Arabic class at 11:00. It was boring. It sounds very easy. I were planning not to stress myself about it since all I need is to pass and it won't go in my GPA but the lecturer told me she expects a distinction from me. I'm now stressed. I just wanted to ask her a few questions.

My father was an hour late. He blamed the traffic but I knew he would've been late anyways even without the traffic because when I called him after my class ended he wasn't even on the road yet.

Every time my father's supposed to give me my allowance, he complains. It bothers me. He's always late and he thinks that I'm a waste of his money apparently. Like seriously bitch who told you to bring me into this life??? I always tell him that I'm like an investment. I'm trying my very best to save money as much as possible. He doesn't appreciate it however.

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October 4, 2017

I went to uni early and stayed in the library for sometime. One of my favourite lecturers had a class right next to the library room and I wanted to see him. He left before I got the chance though. I don't want to seem desperate so I'll just wait patiently for another day, which will probably be after a week at least.

Classes were fun. My classmates finally managed to make a class group. I'm happy. I met a guy who's a friend of one of my friends. I don't really want to be friends with him but I don't mind talking to him. He's weird.

Mother was sick when I came back home. She cooked the veg she bought in the morning exactly how I like. I'm thankful.

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October 3,2017

My first class got cancelled. I still went early. I attended a sociology class and I enjoyed it. I haven't been feeling confident in class lately. I'm worried about my grades already. I had a very bad headache at the end of the day. I went to bed early.

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October 2, 2017

My mother, brother, and I went out for breakfast. It was nice watching them talk about different things. I think their relationship is getting better. We also went to buy groceries.

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October 1, 2017

We ordered groceries for the second time. This time, it came in time. Mother was pleased. I finished studying early and spent most of the day downstairs watching cartoons with my mother.

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September 29, 2017

My sister-in-law didn't come today. Everyone left quite early. While I were sitting alone in the living room, someone rang the door bell. When I answered, he said: "would you like to give to the poor". I were a bit confused since this was the first time this had happened. Also, everyone's outside for a religious matter so for someone to beg at such a weird timing is a bit creepy. I replied with ok and called my mother. My mother couldn't be bothered and wanted me stop calling her. I would've gave him like a dollar but I were scared he would shout at me because it's not a big amount. Some beggars do that. The man sat by the door for a good 4 minutes. The door which overlooks the street was open and I were worried he was going to sneak in and hide in the garden or something. He didn't thankfully. I told my mother and father about what happened when they came back home and they weren't pleased. They said he comes every few months and can be annoying.

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September 28, 2017

I studied economics all day. It's probably the most challenging subject I have this semester. I don't hate it though.

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September 27, 2017

My family's still unsure about who should drive me to uni yet. Moreover, my father's A/C isn't working. My friend brought lunch today. It was really good. I took what was left back home. My friend also assured me that we can be together in a group when we get out group assignment. I'm glad I have a 5 day holiday for me to study.

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Septmeber 26, 2017

I made potato and spinach curry to eat at uni today. My friends told me it tastes good but I doubt it since they didn't eat much of it. Maybe they just don't like spinach. To be honest, I don't mind since that means more for me. My friend always try to have small talks every now and then in class and I really hate it. It prevents me from focusing well on class. I also hate sitting in the first row because everyone can see me while I can't. It's too late to change my seat now since everyone picked one already.

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September 25, 2017

We didn't bring lunch with us to uni today. We had to order something to eat. It was a hassle. I like the subjects we're taking. Our teachers seem so nice as well. A girl approached my friends and I and suggest that we do our group assignments together. I had to come up with an excuse quickly before my friend ends up saying anything she's not meant to say. The girl is known to have all her work plagiarized. No one wants to deal with that.