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the depression after results is so surreal. Like the past three days have only involved sad songs and dissociation while bedrotting. I haven't moved more than an inch. I don't even realise when the day ends.

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My dad doesn't care about the quality of education, but about the fact that I stay home and attend a local college. I'm literally gonna kms.

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people say "it's all in your head" like I don't already know

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why doesn't my brain know the difference between life-threatening situations and an exam????? like?????

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what substance do i have to abuse to lock in

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just ONCE I wanna wake up and go about my day without feeling the debilitating weight of anxiety ripping me apart

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why's everything so damn unfair?

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academic victim instead of academic weapon

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the void is everpresent

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are there any tips for studying when you have adhd and are severely burnt out?

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I'm not doing okay at all.

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What if I'm never better?

What if I fail?

What if I'm still here years later?

Wil I still be worth something?

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I don't know how to make it better anymore.

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It just feels like something is wrong with me and no matter what I do, the void just keeps getting bigger.

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I read the "Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" by Lindsay Gibson and I've never felt more seen.

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I had a huge fight with my mom because she's never listening to wtv i say. and honestly, I do not regret what I said to her. But she started crying and locked her door and I feel terrible.

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I'm (not) okay.

(I skipped one of my final papers because of a severe panic attack. I'll move up a grade anyway after a private exam but I feel like I made an excuse for myself. The looks of my family and peers don't help.)