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To practice any art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow. So do it.“ – Kurt Vonnegu

#creative #art #creativity #artwork #digitalart #photoshop #innovation #imagination #bhfyp #create #artistoninsta #monument #natgeo #discovery #wonderwoman #idea #night #milkywaygalaxy #photooftheday #snapseed #edit #shots #teampixel #googlepixel #googleindia #googlepixel2 #phoneart (at Lodi Gardens) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByCVMPMl-KD/?igshid=118omtilc4d71

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Only when one is connected to one's own core is one connected to others, I am beginning to discover. And, for me, the core, the inner spring, can best be refound through solitude. Anne Morrow Lindbergh #naturephotography #greenery #morning #magic #trending #india #madhyapradesh #landscape #mothernature #explore #exploreindia #wanderlust #rain #followforfollowback #natureza #watercolor #water #edit #snapseed #googlepixel2 #googleindia #googlepixel #teampixel #yourshot_india #natgeoyourshot #instagram #agameoftones #soi #woi #mypixeldiary #patterns (at Mandav,M.P.) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzhT8XQlvPA/?igshid=hynjx8j3fc0l

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To practice any art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow. So do it." -- Kurt Vonnegu #creative #art #creativity #artwork #digitalart #photoshop #innovation #imagination #bhfyp #create #artistoninsta #monument #natgeo #discovery #wonderwoman #idea #night #milkywaygalaxy #photooftheday #snapseed #edit #shots #teampixel #googlepixel #googleindia #googlepixel2 #phoneart (at Lodi Gardens) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByCVMPMl-KD/?igshid=118omtilc4d71

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In every change, in every falling leaf there is some pain, some beauty. And that's the way new leaves grow. - Amit Ray #photooftheday #instagood #nofilter #tbt #igers #pic #picoftheday ##green #stem #nature #lifeisgood #lifeisbeautiful #bestoftheday #f4f #likeforlike #delhi #morning #maibhisadakchap #google #googlepixel #teampixel #@photo_pond @_mobile_photography______ @eyewinawards @phodus_com @world_photography_page @piction_photography @ilfordphoto https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxzn_IJlvAi/?igshid=1ke4suq8o191q

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Did you see her ! Did you see her! Yes, you see her. It’s a cleavage. I always wonder why people behave so weird on seeing a clevage? Why it is so provoking? I am 70 kgs, I have a buldgy body and heavy breasts. Does that mean I should stop wearing tops with thin strands and straps? It’s 21st century where people are coming out with their opinions and trying to fight for their individuality. Then, why are we still afraid to wear what we love?

People say we women have got so much freedom, that we have started using it in a wrong way. Is this our freedom that we cannot wear what we like? Why is it an issue? If my body is visible then what’s the big deal. It’s only skin. What’s so provoking about it. Please Keep your thoughts and comments to yourself.

There are many people in society who cant wear dresses they want, because either they feel it’s too revealing or what will society think. I really don’t understand how society can drive our thoughts or will. What kind of freedom is this?

Today I am coming out in open to accept that yes, I am flabby I have tons of weight. But I am not ashamed of it or I am not anymore scared of wearing the clothes I love. So what if the clothes are bit revealing.. yes, like all other girls I have cleavage and I will wear whatever I want

I am #cleavagegirl

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Did you see her ! Did you see her! Yes, you see her. It's a cleavage. I always wonder why people behave so weird on seeing a clevage? Why it is so provoking? I am 70 kgs, I have a buldgy body and heavy breasts. Does that mean I should stop wearing tops with thin strands and straps? It's 21st century where people are coming out with their opinions and trying to fight for their individuality. Then, why are we still afraid to wear what we love?

People say we women have got so much freedom, that we have started using it in a wrong way. Is this our freedom that we cannot wear what we like? Why is it an issue? If my body is visible then what's the big deal. It's only skin. What's so provoking about it. Please Keep your thoughts and comments to yourself.

There are many people in society who cant wear dresses they want, because either they feel it's too revealing or what will society think. I really don't understand how society can drive our thoughts or will. What kind of freedom is this?

Today I am coming out in open to accept that yes, I am flabby I have tons of weight. But I am not ashamed of it or I am not anymore scared of wearing the clothes I love. So what if the clothes are bit revealing.. yes, like all other girls I have cleavage and I will wear whatever I want

I am #cleavagegirl

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Dad I miss you it's been one month that we have lost you. Since 1st Jan I didn't get a single call from you. I am missing those untimely call just to know if I am doing good or not. Baba, I am lost of words now to explain how much I miss you. Please be happy and cheerful as you always were. Have your eye on us and keep blessing us..

Love you.

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Color! What a deep and mysterious language, the language of dreams. Paul Gauguin​​ . . . . . . . . . . . . #jaipur #jaipurdiaries #hawamahal #color #red #yellow #sky #click #travel #love #quotes #instagram #india #beautiful #photography #photooftheday #pictureday #google #pixel #goolgepixel #composition #exposure #contrast #hdr #igers (at Hawa Mahal, Jaipur Rajasthan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bqgu8HMllhK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dsqkr3s1nzfh

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Yes, I tried to kill myself

A semi sharp knife in left hand and my phone in right. A video on phone on how to slit a wrist, which nerve to cut. I put the knife's sharp point on my wrist and closed my eyes, a teardrop roll down. I saw my mother who was sitting silently in front of her lifless daughter's body, I saw my father who was crying who lost his princess. I saw my brother who was shattered because he lost his only sister and lastly, I saw my man sitting lifelessly because I was the only one who was supplying him life. I opened my eyes lose the knife, wipe the tears, called my mom and had a long chat with her.

In Everyone's life there comes a phase when people think they don't have anything. Nothing to gain, nothing to lose. No matter whatever they do everything will go against them. I am going through the same phase. My unemployment is killing me everyday, every moment . I have changed, I used to be a carefree happy child but now I am woman who is afraid of going out of a room. Whenever I got a call for an interview, HR has a some set of questions for me. Among those questions there is one question "are you married ?" As soon as I say Yes, they start making judgements. They believe that "ohk she is married so she cannot give time to the company she won't be able to deliver her responsibility. I ask all these people Why ? Why do you think so, yes I am 24 and married but that doesn't change my dream my hard work. That doesn't change my ambitions to be an independent girl making a mark in world. Indra Nooyi is married and boss she is one of the most influential CEO, Mary Kom is married and we cheer for her when she throws those punches, Indira Gandhi was married and we call her the iron lady of India.

I am in a phase where I do not have a control over my emotions.. sometimes I love to be around people, sometimes I want to be alone. Sometimes I cry like a baby and sometimes I laugh out loud.

But it's ohk to go with your emotions. It's ohk to live alone. My family always supports me, I always have someone to talk to, laugh with and a shoulder to cry. That makes me feel better.

Dealing with anxiety and depression is not easy. Holding a positive thoughts is not easy. But we have to be strong, strong not for others, but for oneself..

Everyday there is thought in my heart I came here for a reason. If I am facing these hard times, I have to be prepared for a sunny morning, because it is just round the corner. The wait is killing me, but it's darkest before the dawn. I cannot give up, I will not give up..

Everyday is a war for me, war between positivity and negativity... Everyday there's a volcano burst. But I have to be on the side of positivity, that irritates me. I am tired of being pulled between negativity and positivity Everytime negativity is about to win, something inside me shouts to push away and tells go for positivity...

Life is not easy as it is shown In movies. Everyday we have to survive. I am still waiting for my morning. Still waiting for one opportunity where I can prove I am second to none. I can work as hard as anyone and give it all.

There are people who won't understand you. There are people who won't get your everyday war and will blame you for failures. It's better to eliminate them ... They will make you feel miserable but you have to make hold yourself. unfriend them, block them do whatever you want to do just keep them away from you .

One day while, I was bathing and thinking do I need a therapist ? (Maybe very soon I will be going to a therapist) before I can get a answer an another question popped up who the person who can help me immediately ? My parents, brother, husband or in laws, who ? No one. Apart from myself... I have to help myself. How will I do that? I don't know but I have to help myself that I know.

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Vernazza - Italy (by Giorgio Rodano) 

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Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness...

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Ups and Downs

It's been 4 years since I first held a camera. In my initial days it was so fun to be around camera and do insane stuffs. As time passed by, I started realising that, what I am doing is not enough. I need more to be a professional. I moved to a city from a town in Hope of exploration. But, it seems like I lost myself in the new city. Where I lost all my fun, my curiosity, my exploring vision and many other things.

I have started living a life same as other people; to show off, to pretend to be what I am not. Everytime, I moved one step closer to the fake world, I left my real fun 3 step behind.

I still remember the happiness , the satisfaction of clicking a picture. But, today I am afraid to click, because I think what if I did not click a good picture ? People will judge me, they will make joke of me. This thought has held me back for many years.

It's time to shut this up. It's time to be blank and be a kid with curiosity again, I will start from the scratch to be a old me, the curios kid who never thought of people, I will get my life back. I am done with my loneliness, I am done with the blaming game.

Today I have no job but that doesn't mean I won't get it. I will but I can't kill the real me, it just need to be awaken the kid within that's it ...

I will again be a happy kid with her camera ...

I will ... I know I will ....

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Me and my pooch

Its been 5 years that we are together and this little puppy has grown up to a handsome boy who is doing his job of giving love, spreading happiness and smile to everyone's face by his non sensical activity.

His name is Reo but for me he is my good boy and I am a proud mumma. Yes I won't disagree that I haven't trained him well but what's the need of training him. He never bites, he barks to unknown people who come at his doorstep which I think is good habit. Yes, he is pampered kid who cannot tolerate that his hoomans love any other dog or kid of his height. But here also i am not completely right whenever a stray dog comes to our door step he tries to do friendship with them and come back inside bark at us to say that please give some food to my stray friend. My pooch is smart and sensitive

Whenever anyone of us come back home after tiring day, we always find Reo at our door step sitting or lying waging his tail and greet us. Looking at that kind of greeting we forget our bad or tiring day ...

Yes my pooch is greedy... He wants every thing what we are eating even the water. Some people may find it wrong or disgusting but for us he is our family he can ask for anything he wants its upto us that whether we give it to him or not ....

He becomes puppy when its comes to going to a vet hahaha!!! I remember when last time my brother took him to the vet Reo denied to get out of the car and started making wierd noises. My brother had to pick him up and take him to the clinic after coming back to the vet. Reo won't talk to my brother until he offered him a treat ( not a biscuit. Treat of taking him to a ride, allow him to keep his head hung out of the window and the air hit him hard)

Yes, I haven't trained him I can say it proudly but he trained us that how to spread love around us.

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A common Girl

Hi Guys, I am neither an Instagram star nor an influencer or a public figure.  I am just a common girl with lots of common dreams in eyes and a wish to earn lots and lots of respect.

I was born in a small city of Varanasi, where everyone knows each other if not by name then atleast by face. I never dreamt of a big future. Future was never a concern to me, what concerned me a lot was my present. I never wanted to lose a moment to enjoy, to live in present. Days passed I grew up, people started asking me what I want to do what is my plan. My siblings had already planning to crack IIT, Bank PO, MBA etc, but when I looked at myself, I had no plans. I just enjoyed making memories. Then someone very special asked me to make this habit of making memories a passion. So, I have started what I love doing….make memories out of pictures as pictures is worth a thousand words. I started trying my hands on photography, eventually i enjoyed it and even thought to make it as my profession.

I wanted to learn more about photography, more about adventures, more about life. So I decided to move to Noida. You know they say that places alter what you or what you think you are. I moved to a city without the knowledge that the city will never accept me or my passion. Its been 2 years since I have been staying in Noida. My first adventure away from home, all on my own. The city shattered me or break me into smallest pieces, or atleast I would say the people around tried their best.

I havn't learned about advance stage of photography but what I learnt there is that it is tough for a common man/woman living in present to find a place in this world. ��The common notion is ‘If you want to be something be famous have 10k followers in Instagram have a perfect look or you should be a talk of the town.

All said and done, I realised that even when many have tried, the passion that burns within you, the one that calls you, the one that makes you happy cannot die. It can only be dormant or as we say in hibernation for some days. But it comes back. The passion to make memories will never die, yes I have been in hibernation, but after all the sun shines at end of a dark night. The feel of camera in my hand still ignites me and helps me forget the world. So, I would love to learn and follow my passion again. The best part is….it will not be alone from now.. I will have a permanent partner, who will help me steer my boat to the shore and We will conquer the world..