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A small grieving part led me to my mom's pinterest account. It's still there. There are dozens and dozens of boards, thousands of pins. I'm going to tear myself to pieces looking at it.

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what's the mood

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I thought I might share one of my new tattoos. A couple years ago, a dear friend and I coined the term “fish bag moment”

A fish bag moment might be sitting all alone in an empty new apartment after coming out and upending your life, or starting a new job in a brand new line of work because it’s closer to your dreams

It’s what happens when you take a leap of faith or make a hard decision for yourself, when the future is so hard to visualize and everything feels scary. You’re just a fish in a bag and you can’t see where you’re going

But you’re on your way to a bigger aquarium

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Uh oh it's 2 AM and I'm feeling a little

Manic

I think it's time to cut and dye my hairrr

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Man, the flesh sucks. I'm gonna abandon it for the machine.

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kinda fucked how a full-blown mental breakdown/ugly sobbing crying episode is supposed be like, all good for your soul and whatever but it always comes with insane headache/congestion shit. like yeah i scream-exorcised a rotting part of myself but at what cost.

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Unsure why but I've been falling apart for the last few days. I don't know when it started but I've been having breakdowns more and more and it's gotten to the point where it's happening multiple times a day and I don't have anyone to turn to. I'm lashing out because I'm hurting and I want to hurt other people too because no one wants to help me. I don't know when the last time I ate or drank anything was. My chest and head hurt from crying so much. I just want to feel normal again. I want people to care about me.

I know this is irrational but the rational mind doesn't stop eating and have multiple meltdowns in a day, so... Rationality be damned, I guess.

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contrary to popular belief not everyone has an innate sense of internal gender or care to have one or seek a name for it, some people go their whole lives without questioning their occupation in one of two gender roles, but for some people, if pressed, they don’t feel that internal sense of ‘i am a woman’ or ‘i am a man’, and in that case i feel the switch over to transgender vs cisgender relies on active identification of a gender other than the one they were assigned. if someone’s like ‘idk dude I just work here’ then that’s valid

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i’m going to burst into tears. such a hauntingly stupid and wonderful phrase to immortalize somewhere. LOOK AT PIttbert!

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"average man thinks about the roman empire once a day" factoid actualy just statistical error. average man thinks about the roman empire 0 times per day. ides georg, who lives on tumblr & posts over 1,000,000 posts about julius caesar on the ides of march, is an outlier adn should not have been counted

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let's hear it for the nonbinary folks who:

don't present androgynously

use "binary" pronouns in any capacity

identify partially with a binary gender

have a "gendered" name

don't experience body dysmorphia

don't experience gender dysphoria

DO experience gender dysphoria/body dysmorphia but aren't sure what gender or body would suit them

just experience body/gender apathy instead

can't be open about their gender identity yet

you're all absolutely valid.

don't ever feel like you're "not nonbinary enough" because you absolutely are! 💖

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Okay I admit I'm actually multiple canines pretending to be a human

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Top: Surgeried :3

I know I'm kinda just yelling into the void here but I'm having top surgery today :) I'm excited but also extremely anxious about the whole thing

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I know I'm kinda just yelling into the void here but I'm having top surgery today :) I'm excited but also extremely anxious about the whole thing

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It is in fact, not wrking itself out :)

I am SO TIRED of having to maintain a body that I Did. Not. Ask. For.

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Heyy

Hi! I think I answered these backwards