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I smile when I think about her.

She was holding me the other night and my heart was racing. I wonder if she could feel it. My stomach was doing back flips; like elegant dives off the high board. I couldn’t fall back to sleep. I stayed awake for I’m not sure how long. I tried many different tactics; counting, slow deep, elongated breaths, relaxing each part of my body. Nothing worked until out of reflex, she squeezed me tighter.

I long to tell her that the thought of never being with her, losing her in any way, not being able to hold her how I want- brings tears to my eyes. Makes me want to crawl deep into a hole and sob.

I think I really do love her.

Something I thought I wasn’t capable of because I had never felt it before.

Now that I know what it’s like I want to bathe in it.

With her.

Only with her.

I want to write sonnets for her. Songs for her. Write endless love letters about each fantasy I’ve had of her. Kiss her so slowly. Spend hours in her bed, wrapped up and caressing each other.

She makes me giggle like I know a special secret. I’m my happiest running through my memories with her.

I feel lost when she subtly tells me she doesn’t need me as much as I need her.

Out right hearing that would be my ending.

I’m afraid she’ll carry on as if nothing happened.

Happy in her own world without me in it.

I want her to have every happiness but I want to be apart of that. I want to be the one to bring that smile to her beautiful, perfect face. She looks as though she was cut from marble. Yet so soft and gentle.

She always has this glow about her.

I know I stare seconds too long for it to come off as platonic.

I can’t help it.

I love her.

She has shown me emotions I’ve never felt before.

I feel fear, a type I didn’t know existed.

Not being enough for her.

Not bringing the same happiness and nervousness, joy and giddiness she brings to me.

I want her.

But it’s more than that.

I really love her.

My first.

She’s my Sophia.

My Hannah.

I love her.

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im no boobologist but ill take a look

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I’m so tired of being/feeling stagnant.

I won’t to go but this won’t let me. I’m loosing this race for life. I don’t know how to catch up. I wish there was some way that I could get to the me I want to be. I crave whoever that is because I know she’d win, but I’m not her at least not yet. So, I’ll try to her of my head above the water out of depth that knicks at my ankles - only goal is to pull me completely down and laugh at what would become of me.

No, I won’t let that happen. I’ll bob my face up taking a breath when needed. I’ll do it. Just for her. Just for them.

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I just found you today and...ah! your poetry! It is beautiful💖

Thank you so much! I’m glad you enjoy it! 💙

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Happy pride month to those who are scared

Happy pride month to those who are proud

Happy pride month to those who are out

Happy pride month to those who are closeted

Happy pride month if you’re trying to figure yourself out

Happy pride month if you’ve known for years

Happy pride month to those who it’s their first

Happy pride month to those who have celebrated for years

Happy pride month to those who are afraid to celebrate

Happy pride month to those who will scream it from the rooftops

Happy pride month to you.

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I look at her with so much love

While bright eyes stare right back

A smile pulls at my face

As I think of calling her my wife one day

-Wife- that term and her combined make me giddy

I feel so high, free and alive around her

Every touch sparks a feeling deep within me

I’ve never been so greedy towards someone’s attention but I don’t feel the slightest bit of remorse

She brings me peace

Finally I have a home within my person

My one true

My love

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Lightning strikes

Animals barreling for shelter

The Earth quakes

All of it falling apart around us

The end of life as we know it

We exchange knowing glances

You grip my hand bruisingly tight

I rest my head on your shoulder

If I were to choose who to watch it all crumble with

The only one on my list would be you

(Listened to ‘Her’ by Dizzy Fae while creating this. That song always gives me end of the world with your lover vibes. djm)

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Your poetry is so sweet! 😭❤️

Thank you! 💞

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She is like staring into the sun,

holding the moon and all the stars at once .

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Your tears like crystals Your eyes, onyx Your hair, a snowy top of a mountain Your heart, a green pasture covered in wild flowers. I fell in deep when I decided to give you a chance and I don’t regret it not for one second.

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“You love me?” I asked “I always will.” She replied

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Do you ever just sit back and imagine living somewhere in Europe in a nice spacious flat with your girlfriend where you can look out over the city from your terrace once you’ve rolled out of your king sized bed and as you share your hot morning drinks together she runs back inside to grab her Polaroid 600 and starts taking pictures of you until you’re both dying of giggles then as they die down you languidly start kissing and eventually end up back where you started that morning. *sigh* because I do.

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Fever Dream I licked our shared sweat and spit off of my Cupid’s bow, savoring the taste of us I let out a warm sigh. I rolled over, looked at your gorgeous sated state and reached over to give you a light soft temple kiss. I saw your eyes crinkle ever so slightly. Even in your sleep you knew it was me and felt safe and relaxed. God help me I love you with every single thing I have and don’t. I brushed my fingers down your uncovered side with a touch like a feather. Your skin is so beautiful, God really took his time with you, sculpted you like the masterpiece you truly are. I watched as goosebumps formed on your body and a smile made its way to my face. I reached down to the end of our bed and pulled the off-white sheet up over you. (I always wait till I get goosebumps of my own from the ac to finally cover up, when I drift off first you always remember never to pull the sheet onto me right away). I roll over to your side and gently wrap my limbs around your covered form and hold you. Feeling warmth radiate off of your body makes me realize it’s all I’ll ever need, all I have ever needed. “Till the morning, my love.” I sleepily mutter against your hair. Falling into a slumber of my own my eyes close what seems like on there own and I dream of only sweet things.

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I’ve seen some amazing sunrises and sunsets but none as truly beautiful as your eyes.

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Peach, a passionate peach, is the color her gorgeous tinted, slightly parted lips are, from the delicate, delectable French kisses we just shared; Raspberry, a warm raspberry, is the color of her juicy cheeks from the butterflies that are currently dancing through her veins from the electrify shot of adrenaline she just received and released; Strawberry, a stimulating strawberry, is the color of her hair, her hair that I am in enamored with. That seems to only appear more and more beautiful every time I look at it and I can never stop myself from running my hands through the sweet minty, blissful smelling silk. I first saw her from behind and the color of her strawberry hair struck me so deeply I at least had to know her name and then, oh, and then she turned around and I caught a slight glimpse of her freckles. Freckles that were placed across her face like stars in a whole new galaxy. Her eyes were a striking gracious green, that somehow mixed perfectly with a fresh sunflower yellow. They looked so ethereal. Boy, she is a true piece of art was what I thought when I saw her and it was like the heavens shown down on her wherever she went. *sigh*, if only I thought to myself. Then, she started to walk over to me, me, I started to get nervous and little did I know everything would change, from that day forward...

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She saved me, she kissed my pain away. Making my scars feel like they were truly beautiful. She held me tight, sang and hummed sweet melodies to me when I had vicious nightmares. She told me she loved me for all I am and didn’t pity me like the others; I said “I love you.” right back.