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One day you will realize, it's not fate or luck that got you here but the choices you've made, the habits you've formed, the thoughts you've run in your head.

-sometimes it's easier to blame the gods or destiny

katie

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Are you the author of bygones?

Hi there. Yes, I am.

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One day you will realize, it's not fate or luck that got you here but the choices you've made, the habits you've formed, the thoughts you've run in your head.

-sometimes it's easier to blame the gods or destiny

katie

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Are You a musician?

No but my husband is.

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We need you! Be kind to yourself. You are a contributor to this amazing world. The words in your writings scared me. 🙏🏼 Peace.

I'm just having a tough year. Thank you for the kind words.

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when i grow up

i want to be

an astronaut,

an author,

a magician

as a child, it was

easy to dream

of anything

a doctor,

a scientist,

a teacher

the world is vast

and full

of possibilities

now a grown woman,

my heart just wants

to be happy

but disappointingly,

happiness is elusive and

life is a sadist

that takes pleasure

in my agony

so in a world where

we can be anything

i became a masochist

-katie

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i never held your little hands

though in my dreams, i had

we picked daisies together, we did

and your chuckles still reverberate

over my ears as i try to make sense

of it all

it doesn't make sense, nothing is

making sense

even the hole i try so hard

to fill with thoughts

of you glowing under the sun

seems fleeting

my darling, you were so perfect

but then you fade away

gently, slowly

a dream finally detaching

itself from reality

so i could wake from my sleep

did you think it will be easy?

did you think that it won't hurt?

when i opened my eyes, no words

could console me,

no amount of tears

could wash away my grief

the only thing that holds

my pieces intact is the knowledge

that your pain is over

while mine has just begun

-thoughts before d&c, katie

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happy thoughts, they tell me,

"fill your head with happy thoughts"

oh, how i wish to

but the thing is,

my mind

is already crowded

and my demons

won't let any of these

"happy thoughts"

ruin their own

idea of a "merry-go-round"

-katie

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It's my 5 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

🎇❤️🥰

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i guess it's still in my blood-

the ability to bottle

all my emotions

like they won't

suffocate me

sometimes i wish i can

open up to people

but then,

maybe you can't really teach

an old dog a new trick

afterall

-katie

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you are one of the reasons i believe in the existence of a living God.

-katie

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in another universe

i hope

i am happy enough,

confident enough,

strong enough

to be alone

katie

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i am still known

as the girl who

writes poems

though the truth is

i can barely come up

with a line

that could have

made you

change your mind

-katie

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We both got what we wanted.

Except each other.

-katie

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If we will ever come to a point where goodbye is inevitable, I will not ask you to teach me how to forget. Instead, I will ask you to show me how to remember. We made so many beautiful memories together, it's a shame to erase them all just because we have to part, and can no longer go back to the beginning to fall in love again. No, no matter how much it will hurt, I won't ask you to teach me how to forget. I will walk all the paths we've trodden and remember how your laughter sounded, how your fingers curled around mine, how your hair smelled under the sun, how your lips tasted. I will remember every bit of you, so when I am finally ready to let go, I can let all of you go the way I've let all the kites fly away when I was young and life was innocent and gentle and kind.

-let go,

katie, 17:30

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a woman is criminalized

should she decide to

terminate a pregnancy

while a man can back out anytime

such is the reality

i am forced to live by

and so is jessica

and katrina

and amanda

and gabrielle

and thousands of others

in gritted teeth,

i try to swallow back

the bile rising from my throat

i feel nauseated

just thinking about that

night at the parking lot

where my jeans were torn

ferociously from my body

i tremble from the warm

puff of wind blowing

my nape

my boyfriend just learned

the truth this morning

when i threw up

all over the kitchen floor

he was aghast

i tried to reason out

he didn't use protection

because he expected me

to be the one responsible for it

it's a sad world,

gina could only weep now

a sad world for women

but therese tried to play it cool

though the pregnancy test

that screams positive in her face

shatters her composure

she never wanted this

haunting reality

but her neighbor had forced

himself on her one drunken night

an episode she's trying to drown

in a deadly shot of alcohol

it's a cruel world

but rachel is carrying her seventh child

seventh child!

as though the six she bore

aren't too many

rita had her second child today

via c-section

a procedure she could barely afford

but her labor seemed longer

than the death march

she was not able to bear down

so a cut suddenly became

a logical procedure

it's a cruel world

and dana knew it

the moment she was judged

for not wanting children

thus having her tubes tied

at twenty five

it's a cruel world

for maria

for delia

for claudine

for martha

and thousands

of other women

who have to live with

society's standards

of right and wrong

a woman is criminalized

should she decide to

terminate a pregnancy

while a man can back out anytime

i close my eyes

as i listen to people

with no uterus

decide on my future

-katie

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[stormykatie]

"May the heart, in its exhaustion, remember to rest and indulge into the sweet memories of love songs resounding from its yesteryears.

These are the soft rambles that filled your mind as you lay awake in bed at the early hours of dawn. Those austere longings that snared your heart, relentless as the wind blowing on the trees, swift as the waves kissing the sand, tenacious as the rain chiming in with the beat of the music coming from your stereo, they are here—neatly scribbled and compiled into an anthology. These are your stories. The love notes you hastily jotted down at the last page of your high school textbook, the poems you composed during your weekend getaways, the letters you struggled to ink on stationeries while ardently wishing that one day, the love of your life will find and read them.

They are finally here. The long walks on the beach. The late-night conversations. The sultry kisses at the back seat of your car. The lingering glances. The love songs. The promises. The sweet nothings! They are all here, captured in prose and poetry. So, dear reader, bury your nose on the pages with utmost gusto. Whether you are a sojourner, a bold and willing settler, or a classic runaway in love, you’ve had your own share of sweet nothings, I am sure. Allow yourself to remember. Allow yourself to rediscover your youth, relive the love stories that ended, make peace with the pains they caused. Above all, allow yourself to breathe and celebrate the love stories that won over the years and stayed."

-Sweet Nothings,

Ana Grasya

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