#<💙> anon i hope you are doing well and i am so glad to see you in my inbox!

[babextoken]

I saw your requests were open! I was wondering if you could maybe write a reader x roommate!Vessel, where reader is just exhausted & coming home from a late night work shift. And reader is just tired and overwhelmed and is just so glad to be home.

Take it anywhere you'd like. It just sounds really nice to come back to your quietly calm roommate (who you may absolutely adore, but oh no no, you certainly can't tell him that.)

Only if you want or have time or are interested! 😌💙🙏

Eeeeeeee nom nom nom sensitive roommate!vessel I luv u. Here you go darling anon, I hope you enjoy this little drabble!

Roommate!Vessel x gn!reader

Fluff with optional nsfw ending under the cut

Home. Finally. Even if you were just sitting in your darkened car in the driveway, you already felt a little better. You just needed a sec to decompress before being around anyone again. Not that Vessel ever made you talk about your day or act a certain way. He toes the line between aloof-house cat-roommate and emotional-support-roommate really well.

You think back to the first time you came home to him after a closing shift. He sat in the living room, lights off, watching tv, wrapped in a blanket. You knew then you chose the right housemate. He patted the cushion next to him, even offered to change the channel. When you sighed heavily, he just asked, “rough day?” You nodded, and he patted your hand. That was all you needed.

And then there was that other time he stayed up until 2 AM listening to you and comforting you after a disagreement with a coworker that was so bad you were actually questioning if this was the right field for you. That was the first time he saw you cry. Not like when you cry during a movie. Like bawling. You swear after he finally let you go from the bear hug that he might have had a little tear in his eye, too.

Oh…and that time you came home grumpy around Valentine’s Day and you were surprised to see him home. His date cancelled, so you two stayed up and watched shitty rom coms and eating Chinese food.

Sometimes you wondered idly what he did after you parted ways on nights like that. His bedroom was just down the hall but he still felt far away. How did he perceive you? Surely he’s just being nice. Just polite. With his sweet grin. Soft hands. God damn it. You’ve been lying to yourself long enough. You’re in love with him. But if you tell him you’ll lose your roommate and a good friend (or at least got like to think so). You sigh heavily as you leave your car and go inside. He’s in the kitchen having a snack when his face lights up upon seeing you.

“Hey. Alright?”

You shrug. “Exhausted in every sense.”

He beckons you over and gives you a little hug before reaching his fingers behind your neck. He gently takes your lanyard off you and sets it on the kitchen island. “You don’t need that anymore. Home now…and for the long weekend no less. That’s good, yeah? Are you hungry?”

You don’t respond. You’re just looking at him softly. Blankly but softly. God he’s just right there. “Can I have another hug?”

It’s his turn not to answer. He pulls you close and rubs your back with his knuckles. You can finally breathe. As the hug ends, you absentmindedly place a kiss on his neck. You were so wrapped up in how good he felt and your feelings that you just…

“Do that again,” he whispers. You can’t believe it. He wants you to keep going. Your kisses trail up to his cheek and that’s when he moves his lips to finally meet yours. That first kiss. Your tummy is full of butterflies…and fireworks. You cannot believe your luck that you read the signs right. He holds your face like you’re his. And perhaps you are now. You hope so. His lips could cure anything, you think. Maybe this wasn’t such a bad night after all.

You thought blurting out “I’m literally in love with you” right after that kiss might have ruined things. But seeing as you’re in his bed…giving him consent to touch you under clothes…and hearing him make the same confession as he places an easily hidden love bite on your collarbone…you think maybe closing shifts won’t be that bad anymore.

[matan4il]

I don’t have anyone I know in Israel, but I'm glad you're safe. And I hope Israel will soon be free from these barbaric attacks. ❤️

Nonnie, thank you so much for this message! It's so lovely and unbelievably kind. I hope all of my fellow Jewish Tumblr users, Israeli Tumblr users and Jewish allies see this, and are comforted by the care you're showing. I hope you're doing well, too! xoxox

A few more kind anon asks I got, that I wanna highlight and thank, you all are stars, and I wanna hug you all! xoxox

Hi! I hope you're having a good day! 💕. Please do something kind for yourself this weekend.

Thank you! I am trying to do something kind for myself and my loved ones all the time, I hope you're doing the same! Much love to you, lovely Nonnie! xoxox

‏צום קל !!

Thank you, Nonnie! I hope you had an easy and meaningful fast as well, if you were fasting! xoxox

Send to 10 other bloggers you think are wonderful. Keep this going to make someone smile! Add a heart so we know how long the chain's been going! 💙💜🩷🤎🧡💛🖤🤍🩵💕💚 <3

@raiphend Thank you for continuing to be a spectacular human being! I hope you're doing great, hon! xoxox (sorry that my added heart is lame)

✨✨✨here to sprinkle some JEWISH JOY into your inbox✨✨✨

Thank you so much, Nonnie! :D You did it, and I am sending you so much JEWISH JOY and JEWISH LOVE right back! xoxox

[moonlightsapphic]

Hey, just wanted to give you a nice message after all of that anon nonsense. I'm glad that you have someone you love and care about, and I hope everything works out on that front and that you're able to build a safe life together. I'm a brown bi woman as well and I love seeing all your posts about your experiences since I can relate to parts of it and feel really connected to a lot of the points you share. I'm glad I found your blog, and I'm glad that you make the posts that you do! Some people really see a bi person on the internet and offload all of their assumptions and grievances about bi people in general onto them without even knowing their personal circumstances. It's like some people can't fathom that bi people might actually have problems and can be affected by intersectional issues. Don't mind them, they don't know you and it seems like they have no interest doing so. Hope you have a good day!

Hey thank you so much <3 and it means a lot that you connect with my little posts! I opened this blog back in 2020 when I had zero outlet to vent or process my emotions and I’m glad it’s finding its way to the right people. I am not at all bothered by silly people on Tumblr because I know that if they can afford to be mean to other queer people rather than clutching all allies to their hearts (like I do), they’re probably doing much better in their lives and I guess I can appreciate that. 🤪 For all the privileges I don’t have, there are many I do—such as so much love in my life, even when it’s imperfect (like that from my family)! All the work I do is to make sure the love sustainably lasts for as long as possible.

I also have many western foreign friends that are far more “privileged” (privilege is not linear of course, it’s intersectional) than me but I still want to hear about their queer struggles, comfort them and be good allies to them. I would never make sweeping generalisations about any identity (despite folks of nearly every identity having been rude, presumptuous or self-centered at some point), but you are 100% correct, bisexual women are the ones other queer people think it’s ok to do that with, and that’s what’s been PISSING me off about the recent situation. If I patiently rose above all my personal grief/envy/insecurities in a healthy way despite my hardship for the sake of community, they should learn to stop projecting too, especially if they’re in some nice developed country with resources. Anyone who has the audacity to be playing oppression Olympics like it’s a little game to them, is probably not that oppressed. Empathy is radical!

Hope you stay well and take care of yourself! Happy Pride! 🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜

[nightdreamdraws]

Hihihihi!!

I've commented on a few of your videos, both normal and httyd, but because of my fear of being perceived, I've usually kept them pretty mild.

So I thought I would come on here and politely scream at you about how much I love your art,

EBWKHEEKKWKEBEK everytime you update/post whatever I immediately feel better no matter what because your art is always so pretty and fills me with such joy! Your current httyd×hc series is SOO much fun, and something I've always kinda thought about, but never thought I would see, let alone done so beautifully! Your ability to composs a scene with so much emotion, and story in just a single DRAWING. Is. Completely. INSANE. And that's not even mentioning your ANIMATICS. Because, HOLYSHIT. Your "The Moon Will Sing" PMV is a NATIONAL TREASURE. That is. Just. Omg. AURGH it's so good I can't even TALK ABOUT IT because just THINKING about it makes me go INSANE!!! INSANEEE!! RAHHHH!

Anyway, just thought that since I can say basically whatever I want anonymously without the fear of people actually seeing me, why not come and give one of my favorite artists some WELL DESERVED praise. Your cherrifire art? Beautiful. The designs. Ommf, delicious. Your hermitcraft/life series art? Can't even explain how good it is. Ddvau fanart? Love it so much. Your httyd crossover art? EEEEEEEEEEEEHEHEHE IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY. I LOVE IT ALL SO MUCH. EVERYTHING. AMAZING. BEAUTIFUL. ARGGGGGHHHHH.

...welp, I got a little carried away lol. I hope you don't mind this long "ask" (and that it's actually coherent)! Hope you get lots of nice sleep tonight, and remember to eat and drink as well! (Also.. maybe. Maybee? Could we perhaps get a hint as to who the next hermit will be? Mayhaps? No pressure ofc) <3

AWW THANK YOU SO MUCH ANON!! This probably takes the cake for one of the sweetest messages i've ever received omg thank you so much 😭💙 I am so so happy that you're enjoying my content! I am having such a blast coming up with ideas and drawing silly block people and dragons for you guys 🥹 everyone's support has been so overwhelmingly positive and i'm so thankful for you guys even giving me the opportunity to share my art with a large audience. you guys are awesome <3 i'm also so so glad you love my art style! i've had so many comments and compliments about it, and it has given me the confidence and motivation to keep doing what i'm doing, as i have been pretty insecure about my art style in the past which prevented me from posting my art for years haha. thank you guys for helping me to feel comfortable with my abilities and give me the motivation to keep improving from here! I'm so excited to make more! anyway i should probably stop yapping, cause i may or may not have an angry goat and his dragon to draw 👀 but thank you again anon for the very very sweet message and support 🫶 i wish all the same to you :)

[answersfromzestual]

Anon who sent me the ask about their parents "demonizing" your transition.

Parents have your life planned out for you before you are born (it's not fair, but it's how they are). So when you want to transition genders, all their "plans", "hopes", "dreams", etc. are "destroyed" (ex. they thought you'd grow up, get married, have babies, etc.). This is all a shock and something they will just have to get used to if they want to be in your life. I imagine you still live with them, so tread lightly. I tried to explain to my parents they are losing a very unhappy daughter and gaining a happy son. It wasn't easy. It still isn't. My chest has been done for over 15 years and my father won't look at me with my shirt off. My mother is the worst for misgendering me to this day, doesn't talk when I speak about having children one day. It used to make me mad, I'd start by correcting her, now I just tune it out, grit my teeth and I have been out for about three decades. Parents have a hard time coping, they are far from perfect so they can mess up. They see you transitioning as an absolute loss, and that's not your fault. It will take time, and you never know how long it will actually take for them to embrace it.

I do have an article on here for parents and phalloplasty, from a legitimate resource. If they would be interested/ willing to read it.

Don't you dare let them blame you for "destroying" their marriage, if they say that they are using this as an excuse because they have a probably unhappy marriage. This started long before you even told them, so don't blame yourself. That is not a very nice thing to say as a parent. Well none of it really is, but... They are using you as a lightning rod and I'm sorry for that.

For the time being I'm glad you found some solace in my blog. Feel free to vent to me anytime.

I am really sorry. There is nothing wrong with you, you are not the reason they are miserable, okay? You are perfect just as you are and are worth so much love. You deserved to be loved inside and out.

Please do not put yourself in harm's way, or get yourself thrown out on the street.

Do you have anyone you can talk to about this, an adult, therapist, school counselor, a relative, even an older sibling? Anyone that can maybe have your back if anything happens. Maybe create a plan if something happens.

I imagine you are such an amazing individual, I can tell you are fighting a fight and you're not taking your goal out of your sight. You are brave and stronger than you think. You should be very proud.

My blog is here whenever you need to get some support, or vent.

I'm sending you love, and good vibes. I'm always here if you need me.

-Zestual

P.s I hope you know they are wrong about the procedures and everything else. It is safe and common.

If they have questions, you can send them to me and I can try to answer anything you cannot.

I'm proud of you

Stay Golden ✌🏽💙❤️

Article source:

https://www.phallo.net/

[simplee-giggles]

Hey! We’ve never spoken, but I just wanted to let you know that I’m proud of you. I know it may mean nothing from an internet stranger, but I just wanted to say it.

I’ve dealt with depression for the better part of the last 10 years and have experienced the same dark thoughts. It’s definitely something that I’m still growing through and learning to love myself.

I’m happy that you are getting yourself into better environments to help yourself heal. The people you surround yourself with is absolutely important. As well as not hating your job, which can be a difficult tie to break.

But I just wanted to reach out and say I’m glad you’re still around and that you matter!

Keep kickin ass and I know the days will continue to get brighter! 💛

Omg i did not see this i am so sorry!!

Thank you so much anon, this is so beautiful to read. I'm sorry to hear you also experience the awful times too but I really hope you're doing okay! 💙💙💙

[formula-ghost]

hi op just wanna drop by and say that you are an amazing writer! I just want to ask though, what was your thought process when it comes to writing reader's character in Wildflower this chapter, it's just that I find it fascinating how her decisions, though aren't the best, are well thought out and just makes sense of her character and the situation she has.

The last part really got me, I thought she was gonna leave from all that but her being with Oscar in the end feels a bit more of a clarity despite the consequences that will soon happen from the leaked photos to her and Oscar having unprotected sex (I hope that plan B works tbh lol pregnancy just scares me alot imo). That's all, keep doing what you're doing, your works really keep my days going 💗

First of all thank you so much anon! All these asks keep me going so I’m glad we’re in this together 💙

As for my characterization, my main thing is that I always want my characters to be multi-faceted. So whatever the most logical choice is, they’ll never make it because that’s too easy. Or if they do make it, it’ll still be conflicted and maybe not as logical as they thought.

So for example, the main character wanting to leave Monaco; if she stays, she has to deal with the pressure of Oscar being there constantly which gives rise to more conflict, which perpetuates the story. Or if she goes, she has to deal with the loneliness and maybe having to see Oscar move on without her. Though, logically, it’d make sense for her to leave, each option had opportunities for friction that is the core of any story. When deciding which way I wanted the story to go, I chose the first option because I wanted to focus more on the slow burn and sexual tension of being in close proximity to someone you can’t touch. But with the second option, I could focus on feelings of jealousy and maybe the reader rethinking her identity since so much of it was built around Oscar?

Either way, all stories are driven by conflict so you have identify potential conflicts and let them arise (whether internally in the character or externally in the larger plot) by sometimes allowing your characters to make dumb decisions!

To really get into the emotions, sometimes I draw on personal experience or my personal feelings, but mainly I just try to imagine myself as the main character and what conflicted feelings I’d be having, and focus on that core conflict rather than the details of it plot-wise, which come later. So with the same example, obviously I’ve never had to choose whether to live in Monaco with my best friend who I am in love with or move to France and start my life over alone and redefine my whole self. But, I have been in a situation where I have to face leaving something I love for something better/more stable or sacrificing my future for the thing I love, and I can draw upon that core feeling to portray that emotion in the reader despite the outward circumstances being wildly different. Being able to identify what your characters are really feeling/wanting deep down (without focusing on the context of the plot) is key for this.

Also, I daydream a lot, so sometimes I’m just up in my head and I’m like “wow wouldn’t it be wild if (insert crazy plot point here) happened” and then I usually end up writing it because it’s fanfic and it’s meant to be melodramatic and fun!

Sorry if this is a lot, but I just love talking about my writing process (and I’m actually in the process of trying to get a job teaching writing rn so this is right up my alley). I hope this makes sense and if not just feel free to ignore my crazy yapping!

[taikk0]

I am genuinely at the verge of tears.. TAIKKO OMG HIII!!!

Okay so.. I've been one of your biggest fans since I was 13, and I am currently 17 years old right now. I remember watching every single animation and artwork you posted on insta/YouTube and holy shit I loved them so much!! I remember being so disappointed when your channels just disappeared.. but the fact that I found you again makes me so happy! I can't believe this is real omg 😭💞💞💞

I remember applying to art school but not being able to decide whether I should choose the multimedia field (which includes animation) or the graphic design field.. I chose animation because I saw your carrd saying you wanna be an animator. I thought "Well, animation seems more interesting than Graphic design and I love animation.. alright let's pick Multimedia! It includes graphic design anyway!"

I got taken btw! I currently learn animation, along with many other things like video game design! I literally can't wait to make amazing animations like you!! ❤️

I'm literally so proud of your art improvement too! Your art has improved so much. As your biggest fan, I am literally so proud!! Nothing makes me happier than seeing your art! 💕

Would you like to get to know each other better?It's absolutely fine if not! But just so you know, regardless of whether we'll be friends or not, I will always support you and your art! It's literally so amazing! And once again, I am so proud of how you improved! Keep up the amazing work! You are an absolutely talented artist! ♥️

OH......MY..GODD....................... I'm actually tearing up oh my goodness this is???? so sweet??????? i didn't know i could inspire anyone for that long and to have THAT much of an impact...

Thank you so much anon, I'm so happy for you, and how you're currently choosing to pursue your art career even further. I honestly don't know what to say, other than I'm proud of you for keeping up that dream same as I did. The fact that my work was able to help you through this journey means a lot to me, it's why I wanted to make art in the first place. I always wanted to inspire others, help them get to where they want to be, it's why I always wanted to be an art teacher, or even just posting animation tutorials online. I'm glad I was able to help you in such a way, even inadvertently. Thank you for regarding me as an inspiration, even when I thought I wasn't all that great at the time as I was dealing with my own self doubt. But now I'm aware that all that second guessing was pretty pointless, because at the same time that I was having those bad thoughts about my work, I still inspired people like you. It's really telling how you really are your worst critic, and I just want to say, artist to artist, don't do the same thing I did.

Don't vanish off the face of the earth because you thought your work wasn't good enough for the world to see. Don't always believe the negative things you see in your art, it's A-Okay to be critical of course, but only constructively. Have faith in yourself, and always be in-tune with your passions. Art school will TEST YOU and all your creative mojo, and that's why you should never learn to abandon your spark, ever.

Always remember why you do art. To create something you love and enjoying doing it, and to inspire others. Don't let anyone take that away from you, not even your own doubts.

Again, I can't stress enough how thankful I am for this <3 THIS is what makes me remember why I do art. I'm happy that I became someone you looked up to, and I'm happy my path has helped you steer into the right direction. I'm so grateful to have people who love my work, and I surely hope one day you will inspire others the same way too .

Thank you 💙💙💙

🫂

[lynne-monstr]

hello, it's the anon who's stopping by! how have you been? it's been a bit longer than usual since I last reached out, I hope you're doing well! and congrats on your new running milestone, those arches looked so cool!!

here it's getting darker and colder, which means my mental health is also getting worse. I'm trying my best to get ready to tough it out, let's see how it goes.

you might remember last time I mentioned I had a choice ahead of me, of whether to give up on what I'd been chasing, and let myself have closure and hopefully start to heal, or keep going even though it makes the day to day harder, and hope it eventually works out. I went with option 2 in the end, although I think it won't be long until I can't do it anymore and will have to stop. thing is, I feel like if I let this one thing go, I won't have anything left, and that really scares me. so I end up clinging to it even though it hurts. 😔

oh, I did want to tell you, I've slowly started to make salads, and it's going pretty well, all things considered! your tips really helped, so thank you again for that! I'm making myself a salad for work tomorrow and I'm actually kinda looking forward to it, which for me is unprecedented lol

I'm going to close this by wishing you a lovely week!! it's always a delight seeing you on my dash 💞

hi anon! I'm so glad to hear from you, i was wondering how things were with you.

things are good over here. work is busy, but not the kind of too-busy that means constant stress. the running has definitely kept me in good spirits and I am hoping to get one more arches run before the weather gets too cold. (I mean, i guess I could run in the frigid cold but I'm a wimp.)

the sun is setting earlier and earlier here too, and I agree that it's so much harder with less daylight. the clock goes back on Sunday and I am dreading it so much. every winter I tell myself I'm not going to let the early darkness send me into sad hibernation but every year it's a struggle.

Sending lots of good thoughts your way 💙 I hope that even if the thing you're trying for doesn't work out, that looking back, you can find some peace or satisfaction at having tried. whichever way it works out, I'm very much rooting for you!!

and yay I'm glad the salad tips are helping! I'm also making an effort to keep green stuff in the house, since I always feel better physically with vegetables in my diet. being a person is such hard work!

I hoow you have a great week! (closer to weekend now I guess. sometimes it takes me a few days to post these)

[loen-kennededy]

Loen. It's cocktail anon (🥃🩷). hi hey hello. I missed you. Wanted to say, I had the opportunity to have a cocktail today and I had a mocktail instead. Not sure if you're still on your drinking break but it made me think of you.

BUT. I came home and was gifted some Rakomelo (a Cretan spirit) and well...this shit is really nice, I'd recommend a try if you get the chance & like honey 🍯 (perfect opportunity for a "No thanks, I'm sweet enough" joke btw, I'll give you that for free).

Anyway just checking in with you. I'm glad to see you're still here, with your blog 🩷

I haven’t been drinking, I mostly am afraid of the idea that if I have one I might end up having ten more after, but I think if I’m under some kind of supervision I can try something again. I love honey, so I might look out for that.

Missed you too, I’m happy you’re still around! I hope you’re doing well. And thank you.💙

[gojoest]

I'm still so tired, jet lag is a real thing 😭

Went to japan last week, this was actually my 2nd time. The first time was when I was still in uni, about 19/20 years old? Which was a while ago 😅

If anyone is planning to go japan, do NOT go during september or the summer if you cant handle humid heat. It got as high as 36°C and it was unbearable! The sun is so hot and air was so thick 😭 Nearly died, I've never used my asthma pump so much before lol

Anyways, enough about that! I was lucky enough to visit 3 cities! Tokyo, Osaka and Kyoto ✨

In Tokyo, visited the Meiji Shrine, went up Tokyo Tower, went to a jjk0 themed cafe, tbh this was kind of a let down. It was just a cafe with like the official cafe photos plastered on the walls and themed food. I was expecting it to be more like those kpop group cafes with standees and like a table of official merch to take photos with. I did buy a satoru acrylic stand and a keychain gacha. When I opened the gacha pack, it was CHIBI SATORU 😭💙💙💙💙 I was so happy! Made the whole trip worth it ✨ Also went Shibuya Crossing! Last time I went, it was already busy back then but omg, this time, its waaaaaaay more busier! Like the streets were full, there were no gaps in between people. You just had to keep moving to your destination (No wonder kenjaku chose this place 😭)

In Osaka, went Dotonbori, Denden town, and Sumiyoshi Shrine. Idk if you know about this very popular store called Don Quiote, but Bruno Mars is promoting it, and he has an ad/song that plays on tvs throughout the store. It was so random to see him but then again, he does have that Las Vegas debt to pay off 🤭🤭

Kyoto 💖 This place has my heart 🥰 Its so beautiful and relaxing. So easy to travel, everyone there is so lovely, the food is delicious, the landmarks are breath-taking. If I ever go back, I would stay there longer. I visited the famous Fushimi Inari Shrine, Tenryuuji Temple and Kiyomizu-dera - which the tokyo jujutsu tech college is (supposedly) based on!

I had such a great time! Spent so much on food and souvenirs, I am now broke, but worth it 🤣

I hope you've been doing well Ai, I saw some posts about someone/some people bothering you. Don't let them get to you, you're such a lovely person, I can't even imagine why they would send hate to you. Always put yourself first, and if that means taking breaks from tumblr or turning off anon, then do what you need to. Be selfish, and take care of yourself before anyone else.

If you ever decide to permanently turn off anon, I will literally make an account for satorus soft cock anon to keep interacting with you 🤣

Love you loads girl 😘💙💙💙💙

- satorus soft cock anon

i hope you were able to rest beloved, i can only imagine the toll it’s taken on your body :( but on the bright side, you’ve made so many precious memories!!!

i will note this down! i love summer and i usually don’t have issues dealing with heat but humid heat is an entirely different story 😭 glad you’re safe and sound though, please take care of yourself 🥺🤍

i want to visit japan so bad, the two cities i’d die to see are tokyo and kyoto and reading about your experience there makes me all the more excited >~< (side note, you’re a lucky one for getting chibi satoru waaaaaaah, it must be fate actually and not luck, i swear!! he was meant to be in your possession heheh)

i am sitting here, reading and vigorously taking notes of what to see and where to go AHAHAH i am so happy for you, glad you had such a lovely time there and thank you for dropping by to share your experience and impressions 🤍

i have been well! i appreciate your kind words so much, you and other lovely ppl like you make being here worth it all the more! love you and sending the biggest ever hug your way 🤍

[arsenalgbt]

I am feeling annoyed with and judgemental of everything I have written for the two fics I am currently working on so I wrote a pregant Ben drabble and thought I would share it with you (as promised)

"Who is it?" Kieran grumbled, curling more into Leo's side now that he was sitting up. Kieran's hair tickled the bare skin of Leo's baby bump and Leo smiled fondly as he knotted his fingers in his husband's hair. Kieran clearly wished he'd not been woken up by Leo's phone ringing and his husband shifting in the bed but he was still kind enough to show concern. Many men wouldn't have been as kind.

"It's Ben" Leo told him, his phone pressed up against his ear and Ben listened to Leo telling Kieran to go back to sleep before Leo greeted him properly, feeling guilty for calling him just after midnight "You alright Ben?"

"Whoever named morning sickness was a misleading asshole" Ben told Leo, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He was kneeling in front of his toilet bowl, his body wrecked from throwing up, and wished someone would scoop him in their arms and carry him to bed. He needed comfort and talking to Leo over the phone was the closest he could get "What do you do when you have it? How do I make this stop?"

"Peppermint tea will help" Leo told Ben softly, feeling a pang of pity for his friend. Leo had suffered morning sickness with his last two pregnancies but for now, his third baby didn't seem to be causing him much trouble yet. He thinks Ben, who was two and a half months further along, would find it much easier if Leo was throwing his guts up as well. Leo almost felt guilty for the fact he wasn't.

"Does he need me to bring him some?" Kieran mumbled into Leo's side and Ben's frown deepened when Leo repeated the question to him. He wanted to say yes, wanted to steal Kieran out of his bed and disrupt Leo's comfort and just inconvenience the two of them for awhile so that he could feel less alone for the hour or so Kieran would spend with him. Kieran would probably brew the tea for him, serve it and ask him if he needed anything else the way Ben was craving someone to. He couldn't say yes though. Kieran had a pregnant Leo and two kids to take care of, Declan had a husband and Kalvin...well Kalvin wasn't around anymore.

"No, I don't need anything" Ben replied, glad it was the truth, he had peppermint teabags in his kitchen. He may want someone to care for him, to care about him, but he didn't need someone. He had himself and he had his baby and really that was all that mattered wasn't it? He could do this on his own, he was going to be the perfect mum. That was the vow he had made himself.

"If you ever need anything, you know where we are" Leo said softly, suspecting that Ben had not needed to call to ask for a sickness remedy but instead had just needed to not feel so alone. He wondered for a moment, why he had not called Declan before he remembered that their friend was currently in America with his husband. It still had not sunk in that Declan was married, his match chosen for him like Leo's was supposed to be. His grip in Kieran's hair tighten, as though he was trying to make sure he was real, and it caused the half-asleep man to hiss in pain Leo apologised quickly, he didn't ever want to hurt Kieran "I think i might also make myself some tea, want to swtich to videocall and keep me company?"

Ben's lips curved upwards in a smile and he was glad that Leo could not yet see him on his screen. He didn't want Leo, or Kieran, knowing that the offer of company was what he was hoping for. He had himself and his baby and his friends and that was truly all that mattered to him.

-💙🤍 KT anon

THE FUCKKKKKKKK THE FASJFHJASKDJFALF

It still had not sunk in that Declan was married, his match chosen for him like Leo's was supposed to be. His grip in Kieran's hair tighten, as though he was trying to make sure he was real, and it caused the half-asleep man to hiss in pain Leo apologised quickly, he didn't ever want to hurt Kieran

AJKSJDFAJKSFKJAKLSDFKALDFLKA ASJDFSJKFAJFJAK LEOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAMAAAAAAA AJSDJFSJFAJDSFJKAAJKSFJKDSFKJA DON'T WORRY MAMA YOU'RE HAPPILY MARRIED WITH 2.5 KIDS WITH THE HUSBAND OF UR OWN CHOOSING 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

holy shit. that paragraph...

also wow this friendship. u go on ahead and make them the sweetest like this (to compensate my lukewarm version lmaooooo) SO SO SOFT WTFFFFFFFFF. kieran as the husband of the century, Leo being so tender with his all alone, prideful ben who's deeply vulnerable but is too bitchy to admit anything holy shit!!!!!! the ending had me on the floor they're switching to FaceTime iktr!!!!

ben vowing to be the perfect mum only to be hit by a serious case of postpartum blues GODDAMN

thank you for the drabble! loved it! what's Declan and his new husband doing in amurrica tho!

EDIT OH MAN, it's easy to feel super judgmental of ur own writing. true story. adapt a fuck it we ball im writing for free mindset. it works for me lol. or write random scenes first. write like this _______ and fill in the blanks later lmaoooooo. re-read ur fave fics ngl that helps yo!!!!

[honey-minded-hivemind]

Beast Anon here! 8D Oh-ho! Wings of Fire is ICONIC! So glad to hear its merch has taken off at last! ;D

In answer to your questions, hmm...golly-gee, when it comes to your AUs there's a lot to choose from xP Although, if I had to pick on the spot...I can't help but notice your Dark AU has been getting a lot of attention lately, and I have been warming to it for the interesting twists and turns it has been taking :) I think X-Men 97 has really been going great, I'm loving it! Something I really like that I noticed recently was just how efficiently each episode manages its 20-30-minute runtime, it's another sign the show-creators put a ton of effort into the whole thing ^^ Now, my favorite platonic yandere of the week...is gonna be Beast. Always. I don't have that nifty little nickname you gave me for nothing :> Right, I'm going to be completely honest with you...I have no idea who/what Marvelade is, but, sure, if you're interested in how they'd handle the very introspective and fascinating 'What If' series, I'm all for it ^^ I've been doing very well, thank you for asking! :D And how about yourself? How've you been in the span it took me to respond? Anything new going on? ^^ In terms of topics I'd like to talk about, hmm...what do YOU think of the X-Men 97 show? =p

I am alright 😊 I planted a rose bush (I hope I did it right), and I've made a new AU...😅 That's a specialty of mine, isn't it? I have been catching up on some much-needed sleep, though, so it's good. As a kid, sleep wasn't as exciting; when you get a bit older, it is very much a necessity. I sometimes wondered as a kid, if adults at work and jobs had a mandatory nap time, if that would help with their stress? I was a weird kid, to be fair, but i think younger-me made a point to older-me.

I think X-Men 97 is doing pretty swell! It's using their time very well, as you said! Thirty minute episodes, yes! And there are a few curse/cuss words/adult words... So that's fun, in a way. The characters... I think they're sticking to their core personalities, which is good. They're acting the way they did in the Animated Series, and the show fits that theme, just a few years from then. I like Morph. I like Roberto. Older Magneto is looking well for an older guy, and now im sure he and Xavier at least had a QPR (queer platonic relationship) in that universe. Wolverine is grouchy and working on being a dad, so that's great. Jubilee is awesome, that never changes. The Jean Grey/Madeline Pryor thing was handled better than the comics did! (Yes, I actually know about that, yay!; I know a bit from the comics, just not, well, a lot😅). And I like that they can part on nice terms; let these people be friendly and have friends, darn it! Beast is still the same sweet, Shakespeare-loving furry scientist we all love (he was humming/singing classical music, that's a plus, and I didn't know I wanted that until it happened!) Storm lost her powers... I think she might get them back? But I'm not 100% certain. Maybe... 75% certain? Scott needs a vacation, a therapist, and possibly a few cups of relaxing/night-time tea, if not the whole package (he needs sleep and therapy, and I hope he gets it, poor guy needs a break-) So... Yeah, I think they're doing right by the series, they're using their time wisely, they kept the characters on point/in-character, and I can't wait to see more!!!😊💛💙

(I hope you are okay, Beast Anon! Thank you for checking up on me, and I wish you the best this week! Have a treat:🫐🥧🍓🥞🧃)

[everybodyshusband]

Ok so I'm not really back to normal but I'm gonna ignore my tummy for a couple minutes in favour of talking to you because I've been dying to send another ask after your wonderful responses!!!

I'll send it in sort of bullet points bc idek if anything I'm saying is even coherent and this might be easier for you to understand? (Or it might not, I'm sorry) In my brain everything makes sense but then sometimes when I say it out loud or write it it's like "what the hell is she saying rn?" So here I go:

- that bit you wrote about swiss and Copia with the soap and swiss stops swearing even when not regressed... oh, it has my heart... Poor baby, I hope Copia makes it up to him with lots of cuddles! I can imagine them laying in bed, Swiss with his head on Copia's chest, as Copia kisses his forehead/hair/nose/whatever he can reach, and promises it's never going to happen again over and over until swiss believes him and eventually falls asleep... (He even drools a little in his sleep, but don't tell him shhhh)

- I understood what you meant about the part I thought I didn't understand in the rain fic! Ugh every time I read that fic I just wanna give him the biggest hug my poor baby... Their dynamic in that fic is so "it's rotten work" 'not to me, not if it's you' I'm screaming and sobbing about it 😭🥹😍

- I will literally always enable you to ramble about any of your fics! Anything! I'm interested!!! I promise!!!! Anything you want to bring up??? Guess what!? I'm all ears!!! Always!!

-not gonna lie I felt pretty shitty all day bc of my tummy (and still do) but your super sweet responses and thinking about sending you an ask kept me a bit motivated (and distracted from the fact that tomorrow is Monday and I gotta work 😭) so thank you!

- I wanted to ask if there's a specific fic that's close to your heart or one that you like a bit more or one you wish got more attention? Because I'll get my greedy lil paws all over it in like 2 seconds flat and start discussing it... I think I've read everything you've posted but I wanna hear your thoughts on your own stuff too!! 💓💓💕💗💗💖💖💗

You're probably sleeping rn and you'll probably see this tomorrow so I hope you slept well and the day ahead is good to you! 🩷

ooh, my darling anon, i've been hoarding this and all your other asks for much, much too long, i am so, so sorry !!! please know i love and appreciate each and every one of your kind words, even if it takes me a very long time to respond 💙

under the cut because of length, haha :'D

i hope that by now your tummy has settled down a bit, i'm sorry this bout of stomach issues seemed to hit you so hard :0 (oh, and don't worry ! your asks always make perfect sense, my friend !!)

don't worry, after the incident, copia makes sure to give soooo much extra love and care to swiss. that ghoul is not escaping those cuddles from copia without plentiful doses of extra love and chaste forehead, cheek and nose kisses, haha !! copia is so very willing to reassure swiss that he's safe and that it won't happen again, you're right (and you're also very right in that swiss drools right onto copia's papal vestments, but not to worry, the stain comes out ...eventually)

ah !! i'm glad it's making more sense now :D i have a chronic case of the "does not write the things in his head into the actual fic" haha !! i agree that rainy deserves all the hugs in the world, it's a very icky headspace for the poor little guy to be in and he deserves so many hugs for doing his best to navigate it. whether or not he accepts the hugs though is another story entirely...

again, i hope your tummy is feeling better by now. or maybe it's been long enough that you've cycled around into another rough patch ? ooh, i hope not. but either way, i'm sending you so many good tummy vibes, hehe <3 (and maybe you'll take solace in the fact that as i'm answering this, tomorrow is a wednesday rather than a monday ?)

ooooh, that's difficult, haha !! the rain fic you mentioned before is the one that's closest to my heart at the moment, i think. but i'm also quite attached to my most recent ficlet with regressed aeon and zephyr because oh my goodness, i love their dynamic and i want to explore it as much as i can, hello ?!? and then on the complete other side of the spectrum i'm very proud of this t4t raindrop filth, haha !! i think because they're all my newest works i haven't had the time to build up an "ew, what was i thinking !??!" response to them, so i'm still feeling very good about these three. and by the looks of it, other people seem to like them as well, which is a nice bonus :)

thank you very much again for your lovely asks, anon 💙 they make me smile and brighten my day every single time i look at them !! i hope life has been treating you well, my dear, and i hope that you have a wonderful day/night depending on where you are in the world 💙

[teeposting]

I also am specifically a yoai selfship [ I use he/him pro nouns to be exact ]with Gary but I’m very shy about it and don’t know what direction art wise to take the AU when I draw I just lose motivation don’t have any ideas. But I’ve gotten inspired by you to post Gary content ! -and thought you should know! heh He deserves all the love and I wish we had more episodes with Gary When they go to synthos after accidentally killing Gary oop-THATS LITERALLY MY FAV EPISODE AHH

I love that we get to see Gary’s home planet I just wish we delved more into Gary’s background and I’m glad we got that episode at least. And I’m glad that he was involved with skips past so we got to see him there as well. I just love Gary I’m very shy so I may not come off anon BUT maybe some day I’ll come off anon.

But just thought to let u know that u aren’t alone Gary ship wise/related There’s not many of us but That just leaves room for more fanart and more ideas 💙 💫

sdfgvhwa i still get surprised ppl like my creations let alone get inspired by me... that's awesome !!! :D gary nation stays strong we're the only ones who get him /silly

god yeah gary's synthesizer is one of my favorites too ^^ synthos and the synths as a concept are so cool.. there's def more stuff they could explore i hope they come back to it (still manifesting gary crumbs in lost tapes 🙏🙏🙏) i miss him and skips so bad...

i completely get it though when i initially made tee i had no intentions of her leaving the friend group i made her in let alone posting her online. ended up making this blog on a whim (even then it sat for a while b4 i started actually using it) but it's been fun! i still get anxious abt posting all the time but the community has been nothing but kind to me so far and it has helped 💖 it makes me nostalgic for when i used to post on dA as a kid lol

but there's no need to rush it. whatever you decide to do anon i'm happy to know i could help somehow 💞

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Hello hello Ari! ^^

I’m not sure if you remember me, it’s been so long since I’ve sent in anything, but I just wanted to say that I hope you’re doing well!🥺 I won’t lie,,,, I am a little hesitant,,,a little embarrassed to send in an ask after so long😭

Life’s been busy and the JJK brainrot has ebbed and flowed so I haven’t been up to date with the community in quite awhile, but I always go ‘woah!!!!! Ari alert!!!!! Ari news!!!!’ whenever I see one of your notifications pop up or a post of yours appears on my dash!🥺 Plus! After learning that Hidden Inventory/Premature Death is getting a theatrical release I have been frothing at the mouth, (a friend and I may attempt to dress up a little bit and go as Gojo and Sugu😳) and the rot has slowly started to return!!

So with the returning interest I just figured that? It was time to seize the moment and send in a lil ask! Nerves and ‘what ifs’ tossed to the wind!🥺

So in all seriousness I really hope that you’re doing well and that life has been kind!🥺 I want you to know that Suguru, Kenjaku, Kafka and all of your other sweeties love you so so much, dw I know because they told me😌

As always there’s never any rush or pressure to read or respond, thank you so much for your time, and have an amazing day/night!💙

- 🍓 anon!

STRAWBERRYNON 🍓 HELLO 🥹🥹🥹 …. would you believe me if i said i saw the veryyyy top of this ask in my notifs and instantly knew it was you ???? i was thinking about u when going through my askbox a couple days back so it feels a little like fate ….. I MISSED YOUUU ANGEL i hope you’ve been doing well, and please don’t feel nervous!!!!!!!!! i’m happy to speak to you again <3 anytime ! so don’t worry …….. i’m so glad to know the movie’s brought u back into the jjk nest lolol (AND THE STSG COSPLAYS THAT’S SO CUTE … 🥺🥺 i hope you’ll have lots of fun!!!!!!)

i’ve been well hehe, not much to report 🙂‍↕️…. i just recently downloaded mystic messenger again and it’s been sooooo fun revisiting it TvT zen is plaguing my thoughts a little bit… other than that i’ve just been daydreaming abt sugu LOLOL so everything is just like it’s always been <3 i’m really happy that you’ve still been lurking around here now and then btw!! 🥹 i’m a little offended that u thought i’d have forgotten you though …. but i’ll let it slide just this once :3c it’s so nice to talk to u again!!!!!!!!!!!