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[falindankovsky]

WOE Daniil Dankosvky be upon ye

[nymph-ette111]

AUTHOR'S NOTE; TUMBLR IS BEING MEAN AND WOULDN'T LET ME RESPOND TO THIS ASK BUT katsusuz my love 🫶 a notification from you always makes my day. Writing this made my ever growing obsession with x-virus even worse.

WARNINGS; MENTIONS OF MENTAL DISORDERS/TRAUMA

- I've mentioned it in my last post but I like to think that Cody isn't the greatest with social awareness.

- If you two ever argue it's because he doesn't understand your point of view or any underlying emotions you have in a situation, or at least he doesn't consider it beforehand.

- Despite that, he's a very loving partner... As loving a person with ASPD could get. Sure, he may lack empathy towards others, or not experience emotions at the same wavelength as a neurotypical person but the affection is there, just shown in it's own different way.

- While we're on that topic, Cody's mental disorders are listed as such: complex post-traumatic stress disorder, major depressive episode, generalized anxiety disorder, and obsessive-compulsive disorder.

- He rarely sleeps—night terrors are a common occurrence. Most of your nights—the ones where he's home—are spent sitting on the couch with Cody, even if you're on the verge of falling asleep. He appreciates you sacrificing your beauty sleep because he couldn't get his. He didn't like it at first and has definitely made a fuss about how bad it is for your health but you were stubborn enough for him to stop trying to convince you.

- Protective but not in a controlling, suffocating way. You still very much have your freedom but he won't hesitate to step in if someone is getting too close for comfort, or a person's gaze is lingering inappropriately. Not the type to be aggressive or verbal about it, only if it's absolutely necessary. Prefers standing over your shoulder like a guard dog instead. Or a hand firmly clasped onto your waist.

- He does his own makeup. Could be a cute bonding moment for the two of you—sitting on the edge of the bathroom sink with Cody standing between your legs, his hands gently rubbing circles on your thighs as you focus on perfecting his eyeliner <3

- Or doing his nail polish. He prefers black but isn't opposed to the idea of trying different colors. If you're having fun then so is he.

- I feel like his love language would be acts of service—prefers showing his love for you through making your life easier whether it be doing your chores, or cooking you breakfast... etc. Reserves the words of affirmation for more intimate moments—more so late at night. Physical touch flusters him but he doesn't hate it, just needs some time to get used to it.

- He's very passionate about what he does. If you show any sign of interest in his latest projects he'd happily ramble about viruses and microbes and how they work—the symptoms and results... etc. His virus favorite is the bacteriophage.

- I've briefly mentioned it earlier but Cody doesn't stay much at night which is why he makes the most of his time with you in the morning—he's most active at night, his studies and work are all scheduled late because he prefers going unnoticed. And by work I mean both paying jobs and the whole experimenting stuff.

- He's been through a lot. Has definitely cried in your arms before. Not the most emotional but sometimes he lingers on the bad thoughts longer than he should. I just want to kiss him so bad </3

- He likes keeping his hair long but sometimes it needs a little trim, why go out and pay money for a cut when he has his beautiful partner who's willing to do it for him? Same with bleaching his hair.

- Give him a cup of coffee and some honey cookies and he'll love you forever.

- Cody has a hard time processing his emotions. It somewhat affects the relationship because he is often feeling confused about things. You're the first person he's ever loved, everything is still so foreign for him.

- Not really related to the dating stuff BUT HAVE YOU SEEN THIS MAN'S ARMS???? my Lord I need to be put in a headlock by this man ashksjsjs

[verbosebabbler]

I have listened through season 1 of the Magnus Archives.

If this somehow makes it to the purely Magnus Archives fans, then my discussion may not make full sense.

I'm coming at this podcast through the lens of Zampanio. Zampanio is a thing hard to explain itself, but suffice to say it is a different arg/web series thing and it uses several concepts found in the Magnus Archives, like the different Fears.

There will be spoilers for season 1 and spoilers for this concept Zampanio borrowed, so I may know a bit more than your average first time listener. I read through some of the wiki specifically on this system for the purposes of better understanding Zampanio, but not any of the plot related happenings for the podcast.

So my discussion will be below the cut.

Now, briefly for my Zampanio fellows, sorry I have been away. That I'm still away, really. My Zampanio induced 'hibernation' as I'd been calling it has lasted longer than I expected. I'm not really up to date with the goings-on, though I still get pieces floating by through discord notifications. JR, you asked for use of my pixel art and I never responded. You may.

I am not fully returned to the community. It doesn't feel right if I'm not caught up enough to fulfill my role as Guide. And I am intimidated by the process of trying to catch up with what is an ever expanding series. So my discussions below will be through the lens of things prior to my general departure after Lavinraca.

My discussion continues below.

As I said, I have gone through the first season of the Magnus Archives and I think I understand the Fear Entities system a bit more.

It was neat to see the throughlines of these specific Fears through the different stories of this first season. I could almost tag each story with it's associated Fears (usually multiple as I now see how they oft intertwine). Specifically I am beginning to understand the more nuanced differences between more closely related Fears like Death, Corruption, and Desolation. Season 1 Episode 36 "Taken ill" seems to be trying to make the distinction at least between the fear of death and the fear of the rot.

I did try to keep a close eye on Desolation, a fear I had trouble differentiating between either End or Corruption aside from the association of fire. And that fire association was the only connection I saw between the Desolation and Ria.

I know Ria went on a blaze of arm 1, so that is an obvious comparison. But I couldn't see the nuances of Desolation that led to that conclusion. She always just seemed Eye-coded. The endless pursuit to understand the nature of the world, her wanting to be seen and acknowledged by both Camille and Vic. It all felt it pointed to a desire to know and be known.

I know she made statements of wanting to destroy the world to start anew and those are meant to point to Desolation, but I don't know. It felt a little… tacked on? It never really fit.

I understand the view, the destruction to make room for growth. But I don't really see that in her character. She is a compassionate person, trying to take care of those around her, like Devona when she was stuck in her monstrous form. But the Desolation isn't really integrated with this compassion.

Like, I'd imagine this sort of Desolation would rely more on tough love, of breaking down the bad parts on those they care for to allow them to heal and become better people. But she just seems to focus on just making others better, rather than destroying the parts of them that are hurting them.

I could just be misunderstanding things. I know there is an element of self destruction to her character, maybe an aspect of destroying herself to try to make things better for others. And admittedly it's been a while since I read those related sections.

But I do definitely now better understand the difference between being an Avatar of an Entity and just being haunted by that Entity. I knew that it involved some kind of draw to the Fear, a compulsion to proliferate it. But seeing it through the words of Jane Prentiss in Season 1 Episode 32 "Hive" made it pretty clear.

It's especially useful to compare that episode to something like Season 1 Episode 16 "Arachnophobia". Carlos there was particularly tormented by the fear of spiders, and Jane seemed to be troubled by the wasps in her home as she reached out for help. But she also had a strong compulsion to them, to what they represent, to their actions, to what she 'heard' that others could not hear. Seeing this inner monologue will help me understand the other characters in Zampanio acting as Avatars of their respective entity, like the connection between Camille and End.

Otherwise, I am just generally enjoying my time with the Magnus Archives. I'm going to be continuing on to the next season soon. I was just compelled to write something, probably due to the narrative tone of the podcast getting stuck in my head (though I think it's faded throughout the long period of me writing this).

And, hopefully, I will be able to sit down and reread all the writings in this branch of Zampanio. My memory to particulars has started to fade and my own archival process for Zampanio was actually meant for the purposes of me rereading it. It's just an intimidating amount to read with a difficulty in where to start.

I could just go as a regular explorer would through all the writings in North, East, South, West, NorthNorth, EastEast, and so on. But I wanted to try to find a more coherent reading order to suggest for newcomers before my hibernation. Now I need the order myself, one that I did not make. I'll probably haphazardly tred through my files, maybe trying to write up an order as I bumble my way through. That's why it was been an intimidating task.

But I wanted to make some sort of written thing to check in and say that I am still thinking about Zampanio. Also, sorry for the potentially weird writing voice. After listening to a specific voice for a long time, spoken or written, my inner narration involuntarily mimics it (a Thief of Dreams quality in myself). It's faded in the too long of time of me writing this, and I just noticed this on reread but I don't really feel like rewriting it.

[desceros]

Don't know if you'll remember me, but I haven't really been on Tumblr much (Or really on social media at all, its. So nice). I kinda procrastinated looking through notifications for you and others, but I saw the notification for the Symphony update and just. Had to read it.

It's funny, because I haven't really been looking at anything turtles related. I've been feeling the hyperfixation slowly slip. I'm definitely still into it, don't get me wrong, it's just less of a obsession/compulsion now, which is... kinda nice? I really only look at stuff once or twice a week now, and it's nice. But whenever you drop something, it weighs on my mind (In a good way!!) until I read it. Kinda gave me something to look forward to through starting meds and other stressful stuff, so... thanks for being here. And writing, and sharing it with us, especially when you've got so much going on. Even when it's not explicitly sad, your writing just makes me really emotional. Which only my favorite things do, so I guess that includes you now. And it's because you write so well, and I relate so heavily to a lot of the emotional stuff... genuinely, a lot of the stuff that's come up in Symphony specifically has been stuff I've been working on in therapy. And getting medicated with something that seems to be working so far... it's like. Holy shit, dude. Feelings are... good??

There's so much bs online, it's nice to hang out in your corner of the internet every now and then instead. So thank you for that, too. Sorry for the rambles as always, but I think I'm just a big sap underneath all the hiding I was doing. So... thanks for always reading it anyways. I hope things get less stressful for you, and you have more time to do the stuff that makes you happy. Because I really love to read everything you put out :D

hi hi hello!! yes, i do remember you very well! i've also been very very busy as of late so. handshake emoji on that one.

feelings Are good! i'm so glad you're getting some arms around yours. even if you fall out of the turtles, you're welcome around these parts :D thank you so much as always for your kind words, and i hope things stay bright for you ✨

[alexandraisyes]

give me the details of why blood can be such an issue for your "Highly unconventional" fanfic Sun, because at some point it doesnt seem to be an issue (or at least isnt at the forethought) and other times its like the absolute worse thing, even when not related to something tradgic (R.I.P. the cats. in the name of angst, theyre an easy target)

Sun has Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCPD) which is a cluster C disorder characterized primarily by a need for cleanliness, organization, control, and perfectionism. (It's what gave OCD the rep for being the "cleaning disorder" even though OCPD and OCD are two completely different disorders.) On top of this, he has Fazbear cleaning protocols as the daycare attendant (the two are very much related in his case).

The thought of germs, or anything inherently unhygienic, can send him down a really bad obsessive spiral that would involve scouring whatever was deemed as "contaminated" and making it right again. It also causes him a massive headache because his head is going off with notifications about the mess. As long as there's something else that's more important or distracting he's okay, and it's not going to bug him since he's doing something else and doesn't really have the attention span to notice it. But as soon as he's left with his thoughts it's on the forefront of his attention as a massive, glaring problem.

He's learned how to (mostly) manage it, keeping a tidy and clean environment, etc etc. Catching messes before they can get to a point where it's triggering. Cleaning up spills as they happen.

Also, he just fucking hates blood. It's supposed to stay in the body, not out of it. He's slightly hemophobic (Hemo, not homo), and is just really fucking squicked out by the idea of something bleeding. That's not normal, that's not right (you gotta remember his base programming is a theatre attendant with daycare protocols slapped over it). He doesn't have the proper training to deal with medical emergencies, and that also freaks him out.

Also yes, R.I.P. the cats (into pieces this is my last free fork)

[ajazpujara]

Screen Time in the Digital Age: Navigating the Attention Economy  

The average person now spends nearly seven hours daily staring at screens—a 50% increase from a decade ago. Smartphones, social media, and streaming platforms dominate modern life, reshaping how we work, socialize, and relax. While technology offers undeniable benefits, excessive screen time has been linked to sleep disruption, anxiety, and diminished attention spans. As we navigate this digital landscape, finding balance is crucial for mental and physical well-being.  

The Neuroscience of Screen Addiction  

The allure of screens is deeply rooted in brain chemistry. Social media platforms exploit dopamine-driven feedback loops, where likes, notifications, and infinite scrolling create compulsive usage patterns. Neuroscientists compare this to slot machine mechanics—intermittent rewards keep users engaged. 

The consequences are profound: studies show that heavy screen use fragments attention, reducing productivity by up to 40%. Evening exposure to blue light further disrupts circadian rhythms, suppressing melatonin and impairing sleep quality. These effects are particularly pronounced in children, whose developing brains are more susceptible to digital overstimulation.  

Generational Impacts  

Screen time affects all age groups differently. The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends no screens before 18 months and limited use for young children, yet many toddlers regularly interact with tablets. Among teens, 45% report feeling "addicted" to their devices, with social media fueling anxiety and body image issues. Adults, meanwhile, struggle with work-related screen fatigue—knowledge workers average just three hours of deep focus in an eight-hour workday. The ubiquity of screens has blurred boundaries between work and leisure, making digital detoxes increasingly necessary.  

Practical Solutions for Digital Wellness  

Reclaiming control over screen time requires intentional strategies. The "20-20-20 rule"—looking 20 feet away for 20 seconds every 20 minutes—reduces eye strain. Designating tech-free zones, such as bedrooms, fosters healthier sleep habits. Apps like Forest encourage focus by gamifying phone-free intervals, while scheduled digital detoxes help reset compulsive behaviors. Quality matters as much as quantity: replacing mindless scrolling with video calls or educational content ensures screen time remains meaningful.  

The Future of Intentional Tech Use  

As awareness grows, tech companies are responding with wellbeing features. iOS and Android now include screen time trackers and app limits. Minimalist devices like the Light Phone cater to those seeking digital simplicity. Meanwhile, attention-training apps such as Freedom and Offtime help users cultivate healthier habits. The challenge lies in redesigning technology to serve human needs rather than exploit psychological vulnerabilities.  

Conclusion  

Technology is woven into modern existence, but its use should be deliberate rather than habitual. By setting boundaries and prioritizing real-world connections, we can harness technology’s benefits without sacrificing well-being. As attention becomes our most precious resource, learning to protect it is essential.  

[wingswithin]

How Does Digital Addiction Affect Men's Mental Health?

In the digital age, technology is an integral part of our daily lives. While it offers convenience, connectivity, and opportunities for growth, its excessive use can lead to significant challenges, including digital addiction. Men, in particular, are at high risk due to societal norms that encourage competitiveness and performance, often amplified through digital platforms like gaming, social media, and online gambling.

Digital addiction has profound consequences for men's mental health. From heightened stress and anxiety to impaired relationships and productivity, the overuse of digital devices impacts emotional well-being and cognitive function. Understanding these effects is crucial to promoting healthier digital habits and addressing the underlying causes of dependency.

What is Digital Addiction?

Digital addiction refers to the compulsive use of digital devices such as smartphones, computers, and gaming systems, leading to negative psychological, social, and physical consequences. Key forms of digital addiction include:

Gaming addiction: Excessive engagement in online or video games.

Social media dependency: Constant need to scroll, post, or check notifications.

Online gambling: Addiction to betting platforms, leading to financial and emotional distress.

Work-related overuse: Compulsion to stay connected to work emails or tasks, blurring personal boundaries.

Effects of Digital Addiction on Men's Mental Health

 

Constant notifications and multitasking can lead to cognitive overload.

The pressure to maintain an online persona or achieve in games adds to anxiety.

2. Isolation and Loneliness

Excessive screen time often replaces meaningful social interactions.

Men may isolate themselves while gaming or engaging in online activities, deepening feelings of loneliness.

3. Sleep Disruption

Prolonged exposure to screens, especially before bedtime, disrupts sleep cycles.

Poor sleep exacerbates mental health issues like depression and anxiety.

4. Impact on Self-Esteem

Social media often promotes unrealistic standards of success and appearance, leading to self-doubt and low self-worth.

Men may feel inadequate when comparing their achievements to curated online content.

5. Addiction and Reward Pathways

Dopamine release associated with gaming or online achievements can create dependency.

Over time, this rewires the brain’s reward system, leading to compulsive behavior.

6. Impaired Relationships

Excessive digital use can strain personal and professional relationships.

Men may struggle with communication or neglect responsibilities due to their digital habits.

Strategies to Address Digital Addiction in Men

 

1. Set Boundaries

Limit screen time with apps or timers to create healthier habits.Designate tech-free zones at home to encourage offline engagement.

2. Prioritize Physical Activities

Engage in hobbies or sports that reduce reliance on digital devices.

Physical activity boosts endorphins, countering the emotional toll of addiction.

3. Promote Mindfulness

Practices like meditation or digital detoxes can help men reconnect with the present moment.Mindfulness reduces stress and fosters a balanced relationship with technology.

4. Seek Support

Encourage men to discuss their struggles with friends, family, or professionals.

Therapy or counseling can provide tools to manage digital dependency effectively.

5. Awareness Campaigns

Workplace or community programs can educate men on the signs and risks of digital addiction.

Providing resources for digital wellness encourages proactive changes.

 

Conclusion

While technology has revolutionized modern life, its overuse poses significant risks to mental health, particularly for men. Digital addiction exacerbates stress, isolates individuals, disrupts sleep, and undermines self-esteem, relationships, and productivity. Addressing this issue requires a multifaceted approach, combining personal boundaries, mindfulness, and professional support. By fostering awareness and encouraging healthier habits, we can help men achieve a balanced and fulfilling relationship with technology.

Source: https://www.wingswithin.in/article/how-does-digital-addiction-affect-mens-mental-health

[sattamatka78]

The Evolution of Satta Matka: Embracing Technology through Online Platforms and Apps

Satta Matka, a traditional form of lottery-style gambling that originated in India, has witnessed a significant transformation with the advent of technology. The shift from physical to online platforms and the introduction of mobile applications have not only changed the way the game is played but also influenced the overall experience for enthusiasts. In this blog, we will explore the impact of technology on Satta Matka, examining how online platforms and apps have reshaped the landscape of this age-old game.

Transition to Online Platforms:

The traditional Satta Matka involved the drawing of numbers from a pot, creating an atmosphere of anticipation and excitement among players. However, the emergence of online platforms has brought about a radical shift in the dynamics of the game.

Convenience and Accessibility:

One of the most noticeable impacts of technology is the enhanced accessibility provided by online platforms. Enthusiasts can now participate in Satta Matka from the comfort of their homes, eliminating the need to visit physical locations. This convenience has contributed to the growing popularity of the game, attracting a broader audience.

Global Reach:

Online platforms have transcended geographical boundaries, enabling players from different regions to engage in Satta Matka. The game's global reach has fostered a sense of community among participants, creating a diverse and inclusive environment.

Rise of Mobile Applications:

The proliferation of smartphones has further accelerated the evolution of Satta Matka, with the introduction of dedicated mobile applications. These apps have become a game-changer, offering a more personalized and immersive experience.

User-Friendly Interfaces:

Modern Satta Matka apps feature user-friendly interfaces that cater to both seasoned players and newcomers. The intuitive design simplifies the gaming process, making it accessible to individuals with varying levels of technological expertise.

Real-Time Updates and Notifications:

Mobile applications provide real-time updates on results, ensuring that players stay informed about the outcomes instantly. Notifications alert users about upcoming draws, eliminating the risk of missing out on the excitement. This immediacy adds a new layer of engagement to the Satta Matka experience.

Enhanced Security Measures:

The integration of technology has not only improved accessibility and convenience but has also introduced enhanced security measures to safeguard the interests of players.

Secure Transactions:

Online platforms and mobile apps prioritize secure transactions, incorporating encryption protocols to protect financial information. This has instilled confidence among players, addressing concerns related to the safety of online transactions.

Fair Play Assurance:

Technology has enabled the implementation of algorithms that ensure fair play in Satta Matka. Random number generation algorithms, backed by secure protocols, contribute to a transparent and trustworthy gaming environment.

Evolving Regulatory Landscape:

As Satta Matka transitions to online platforms, there is a growing need for regulatory frameworks to govern the industry. Technology has played a crucial role in facilitating responsible gaming practices and ensuring compliance with legal standards.

Regulatory Compliance:

Online platforms and apps adhere to regulatory guidelines, promoting responsible gaming behavior. This includes age verification processes and mechanisms to prevent compulsive gambling, fostering a more responsible and sustainable gaming ecosystem.

Collaboration with Authorities:

Technology has facilitated collaboration between Satta Matka operators and regulatory authorities. This partnership aims to address concerns related to the ethical and legal aspects of the game, fostering an environment that prioritizes player protection.

Conclusion:

The impact of technology on Satta Matka is undeniable, as online platforms and mobile applications continue to redefine the way enthusiasts engage with this traditional game. From increased accessibility and global reach to enhanced security measures and regulatory compliance, technology has brought about a positive transformation in the Satta Matka landscape. As the industry continues to evolve, embracing innovation and responsible gaming practices will be crucial in shaping its future.

[deer-motif]

I could not possibly be any further in orbit from the fandoms you're involved in... and I still enjoy seeing your posts and tags on other posts. If that anon is so bothered, they can just... leave? Or block you? It's so easy.

Anyway, please give me an essay on any topic you want (if you want to give an essay, that is! Also hi!)

awwww, thank you, lol — i really don't know what that anon was on about. also hi!! always nice to see you in my notifs :D

as for an essay. i will now say why i think leonardo from tmnt 2012 has ocd.

to start off, i really think he struggles with hyper-responsibility. first off, what is hyper-responsibility? people with ocd are particularly prone to hyper-responsibility, which is the idea that you can and must manage things around you to prevent harm — even when those things are totally out of your control. someone might feel responsible for things that they can’t realistically control, including how other people behave and feel, natural disasters, accidents, etc. when something goes wrong, they might blame themself and feel guilty. they may obsess over this guilt and/or the potential dangers that could occur, and/or experience compulsions in order to prevent these potential dangers. i feel like it's definitely possible that leo would experience this and could explain why he's very helicopter-y at times. as someone who also struggles a lot with hyper-responsibility, i feel him. if he exhibited these traits as a child as well, it's fully possible that's why splinter thought he would make a good leader: because leo is always making sure that his brothers were being responsible and safe.

in regards to a specific subset of ocd, i'm not quite sure. however i think that ocd regarding violent obsessions/morbid obsessions. which would be a fair assumption for leo due to the amount of violence and violence-related trauma he and his brothers are exposed to throughout the show. in some situations, this can be correlated with harm ocd. what is harm ocd? harm ocd is a type of ocd that causes a person to have doubts and fears about whether they are in control of themselves and if they could become violent towards themselves or others.

i think leo could easily create obsessions or imaginary situations in his mind where he is sacrificing himself or harming himself in order to save his family, and likely has a lot of intrusive thoughts regarding his injuries post-s2 and his enemies slaughtering his family and potentially himself, or himself going "darkside" due to this loss and becoming monstrous (see: the nightmare jei gave him where all of his family died and jei said that there was a "darkness in [him]" or I suppose the mutant apocalypse where he becomes a warlord). leo is also fighting people almost every day, who are typically adults, and it can get pretty nasty at times. leo has a very strict sense of justice, and there are few situations where i feel like he could actually feel the need to kill someone (note that i said few: he does have the highest kill count out of all of them). i think he could easily have intrusive thoughts regarding killing someone or brutalizing them further than necessary, or potentially killing the wrong person because he messed up or his sense of justice led him down the wrong path. i think this would be something he struggles with a lot and is tied up in his hyper-responsibility. and this also branches onto another subset of ocd, which revolves around religious/moral obsessions (more moral than religious for leo, but i've seen people actually make some interesting stuff regarding 12 leo and his potential relationship with religion). also, i feel like his specific issues could also branch into perfectionism related obsessions.

so pretty much his three main issues would be violent based obsessions, moral based obsessions, and perfectionism based obsessions. he struggles a lot with hyper-responsibility and his compulsions often come out in managing his situation and the other people in the situation to make sure they are safe and no one is harmed.

[gentil-minou]

Hi! Sorry if this isn't ml-related question and I'm really sorry about asking but I just need your advice as someone who's open about mental health? I've recently seen your breakdown on Marinette's character as having ADHD and her reactions makes so much sense now and I relate to her in a way I never thought before. I'm terrified to tell my Mom but I think I'm ADHD. Though I'm kind of unsure because I'm also a bit of an OCD and perfectionist despite being so forgetful. So whenever I get really distracted, I find myself taking notes and forcing myself to focus (although it doesn't work sometimes.) And it's not just ordinary notes? I don't know if I'm making sense but I really loathe myself for being forgetful so I'd write down everything I could catch before my attention goes to something random again. I always end up with very detailed notes although I'm distracted half the time. And I have no idea if it disqualifies me for having ADHD.

Thank you, thank you so much for reading this and it's okay if you don't answer. It's just, I don't know what to do with the knowledge and suspicion. To be honest, everytime I'm faced with the prospect of having yet another mental disorder, it terrifies me 😅

Hey friend!

If it's okay I'm gonna address the last comment you made first. There is a lot of stigma around mental health and this idea that having a mental health disorder is bad thing, and frankly it makes it harder for people to get the treatment they need. Compare it to physical health. If someone you knew was diagnosed with cancer or diabetes or anything else, would you go to them and criticize them? What if they had multiple illnesses, at the same time? You wouldn't think badly about them, you would hope they get the treatment they need to feel better. And so I'd hope you do it too, acknowledge that mental health is just as important as physical health and getting a diagnosis is a GOOD thing because once you know what's wrong then you can take steps to fix it.

Second, mental health disorders are HIGHLY comorbid, meaning if you have one you are likely to have another. Personally, I have had diagnosed anxiety and depression since I was a kid and I'm suspecting I have ADHD (hyperactive type) as well that went unnoticed. ADHD, in particular, is super comorbid with anxiety (OCD is a type of anxiety, categorized with intrusive and compulsive thoughts) and depression. They tend to feed off each other the longer they go untreated.

Now for ADHD specifically, one of the reasons we are finding it is so underdiagnosed is because caregivers only tend to notice it if 1. Kid has behavioral problems or 2. Kid is bad at school. When I talked to my mom about having ADHD and signs I was looking at in myself as a kid, the first thing she said was she never expected it cause I was a good student.

The fact of the matter is that I was a good student cause I made myself overly organized to the extreme, way beyond others. I take color coded notes, have done for years and sometimes i rewrite them later, that's the only way i can focus in class otherwise my mind drifts. I have 3 different calendars I keep extremely organized because I want to make sure I'm super aware of it. i cannot physically and mentally stand the site of an unread email or notification so i keep all of the extremely organized with filters and other tools because otherwise i will lose it. I love learning sooooo much but it's a struggle to slog through reading and studying and so I have to find tricks to keep me focused, like using music without lyrics. even things like movies and binge watching is nearly impossible to me, because i always lose attention halfway through, then i pause and give myself a break or i watch with others who are okay with me talking.

The point is, I thought all of this was normal and not at all indicative of ADHD for over 20 years. Because of my love for learning and school, the adults I knew were unaware of it. But that also meant my hyperactivity and impulsivity was ignored for so long, and worse sometimes it got me in so much trouble or made my peers isolate me. It negatively impacted all areas of my mental health, but not once was it equated with ADHD because, again, I was a good student!!!!

You can! Be a good student! And take amazing notes! And appear organized! But still! Have! ADHD!!!!!!!!

Over time, you just learn how to live your life. Fun fact, my depression and anxiety and potential ADHD has never been "cured", I just learned how to manage it through behavior and cognitive/coping skills. It still hits, but it doesn't take over my life as much as it used to.

In terms of talking to your mom, I understand why you might be afraid but it helps to start a conversation. Maybe start with some of the things you've noticed in yourself, that's what I did. Do your research (and not just the stuff you see on TikTok, a lot of those are just relatable. Reading a lot of books is not a sign of mental health issues lol) and come informed, with answers for the questions you have.

And explain why you want to go to a therapist. Sometimes you might have a genuine challenge you need to solve and need additional support with skills, other times you might just want validation and support. If your mom is worried about medication, know that you don't necessarily need medication for you ADHD! Not all my clients take them, some are able to manage without it and some find it can be really helpful. Medication also doesn't have to be forever, just while helping you build other skills to support you.

And remember, above all else, never feel like you need to feel bad or wrong for having a mental health disorder. We are learning, more and more, that "neurotypical" is not as common as we think (personally, I don't think they exist lol). Being aware of your mind, just like how you go for yearly check-ups on your body, is a GOOD THING because it allows you to live your best life and create one worth living. And at its core, that's what therapy is all about.

[nursing-school-struggle-bus]

Tip #6

I'm going to say this twice. Once for the people actually paying attention and once louder for the people in the back.

GET ORGANIZED!!!!!!!!!

You have to get organized because if you aren't then you won't survive. Period.

You think that I am kidding but I'm really not.  

If I'm being quite honest you cannot survive college being unorganized much less nursing school.

There are too many things that need to be done and too many plans and conflicts. If you think that you are above getting a planner and organizing your life then I am praying for you because the road ahead is not going to be easy.

Now I am compulsive with my schedule and I have several of them because then I feel guilty if I don’t stick to it. Honestly the way that I have it set up, if  follow it,  then there is time for other things in my life.

I guess I'll just walk you everything I have and what helps me, and I'll also suggest things that I know my friends use but I don't.

So first I have this desk calendar. I did it myself because I have this big pad of paper that I don't really use anymore, and desk calendars can be expensive. Now you don't have to get a desk calendar in particular, any calendar works really. I just personally like the desk one because I work mainly at desk and just have to look down to see what is happening in the month. The monthly calendar helps me visualize the tests, quizzes, due dates, and tutorial times that I have happening throughout time without the need to flip through a bunch of stuff

Next I have Momentum. Momentum is a google chrome extension that changes the appearance of Now, I use it for study purposes because the background is nice peaceful with a clock on it. It gives you the weather and a motivational quote. However what I like best about it is that it's a productivity extension. You can set your goal for the day, and in the bottom right corner you can write To Do's. I am a Hoe for a to do list. It makes me feel accomplished and like I have purpose. Additionally, when I start to get sidetracked the fact that every time I open a new tab I'm reminded of all things I have to do.

Next I have my bullet journal. Now I personally use a bullet journal because I spend so much time making look pretty that I have no other choice than to use it as my agenda. If I try using the premade agendas I give up halfway through be cause I feel no obligation to keep using it. In my agenda I write daily things, not always relating to school. It has lists of books to read and buy, to do lists, appointments. It helps to have a small notebook where I have everything written down.

Next we have google calendars, now I don't really use this anymore because of quarantine but my friends abide by it and it can be used in several different ways. Whenever I still had face to face would use it as a schedule maker. What is really cool about google calendar is that you can make recurrent events and get notifications on your phone or laptop. Kinda like a reminder. "Hey you have to be here now." This was especially helpful on the days that I had three classes, tutoring, work, and three hours of commuting. It's easy to forget where you're supposed to be at the right time. This will be handy when I start clinical, if COVID ever allows.The other way that google calendars can be used is the way that I use my desk calendar and you will get notifications when you have due dates, tests, and events.

Now this is all I have in terms of organization of course material and deadlines. If you have any questions or other suggestions because I'm always looking for other innovate myself let me know.

[questionsonislam]

Will you explain the verse: "Say: I have no power over any good or harm to myself except as Allah willeth" (al-Araf, 7/188)? According to that verse, does the human will have no importance?

Man or jinn wills and Allah creates. It means nothing takes place without the will of Allah in the sense of creation. Satan chose to rebel and not to prostrate using his own will, and Allah created his choice.

“Say: I have no power over any good or harm to myself except as God willeth” (al-Araf, 7:188) emphasizes creational willing. According to that verse, does the human will have no importance?

Allah has got two ways of willing.

First: Creational willing.

Second: Juridical willing.

Juridical willing: Allah shows through the prophets He sent what he likes and dislikes. This will of His manifests Allah’s orders and prohibitions. The Quranic verse which is translated as “If ye reject (God), Truly God hath no need of you; but He likes not ingratitude from His servants.” (az-Zumar, 39:7) indicates this “juridical will” of Allah’s.

The feature of this willing is that it is an order which only shows Allah’s contentedness and satisfaction and which does not include enforcement. The Quranic verse “The truth is from your Lord: Let him who will believe, and let him who will, reject (it)” (al-Kahf, 18:29) emphasizes people’s freedom in the presence of this willing. This freedom is also a requirement of the testing which people are put through.

Creational willing: This kind of willing means Allah’s creating, making and inventing. This willing is a reflection of might; it is creative, forcing and it cannot be opposed. It is possible to see the most gnomic statement about this willing in the verse which is translated as “Verily, when He intends a thing, His Command is, "be", and it is!” (Ya Seen, 36:82).

The verse which is translated as “Say: I have no power over any good or harm to myself except as God willeth” (al-Araf, 7:188) emphasizes creational willing.

As explained above, creational willing cannot be opposed or avoided as it is the last decision of Allah. However, it does not mean that it does not leave any options for human beings and forces them into things which they do not want to do with their own free-will because besides this kind of willing, there is also juridical willing. For instance, a murderer wants to kill someone without a fair reason; he puts his will into action and shoots the man to death. It happens in spite of Allah’s juridical willing which does not give consent to and which forbids that act. However, that man will not die and nobody can kill him unless the creational willing, which is the last decision of Allah, allows it.

When one evaluates the truth from this point of view, it will be seen that there is not a statement which restricts people’s freedom, in the Quranic verses regarding Allah’s creational willing. To sum up, human beings do something good or evil using their own free-will, power and self-control. And Allah creates the thing one wants to do if He wills to create it.

2. In the verse above, Hazrat Prophet (pbuh) is ordered to say clearly that he can obtain what is good for him and be protected from what is harmful for him only by the will and wish of Allah; the Messenger of Allah fulfilled that order; thus he informed people, without having any complex, that his means and abilities were limited with what Allah gave him because he was a human being and that he did not have any extraordinary power on his own. Thus, he showed his sincere allegiance to Allah indirectly and displayed an exemplary attitude as to what kind of consciousness of servitude man needs to have in the presence of Allah.

To know when the Doomsday is means to know the ghaib (unseen, unknown). A person who knows the ghaib may have the power to know what will bring good and what will bring bad things for him in the future and may act accordingly. The Messenger of Allah (pbuh) stated that he did not have such a power and that his main function was to convey people information containing good news and warning in such a way to help them.

As it is seen here, our Prophet (pbuh) did not like to be attributed some qualities independent of the bounties and grants of Allah; he always emphasized that his duty was to be a good servant to Allah, to fulfill his duty of prophethood and conveying the message of Allah fully and to try to help people find the guidance. Regarding the issues like life in the hereafter, Hell, Paradise, angels, devil, which are in the scope of the ghaib and which are beyond man’s knowledge, he informed people as much as Allah let him know based on His permission; however, since he was not given any information about when the Doomsday would strike, he was ordered to tell people that he did not have any information about it.

It is not stated in the verse that Hazrat Prophet (pbuh) does not know anything about the future by any means but it is stated that he knows nothing about the future except what Allah informed him. Not everything relating to the future is regarded as the ghaib; man can have some definite information about the future and can know something based on his information about the laws of Allah regarding the universe called the laws of nature, his experience and his mind. What is emphasized in the verse is not that the future is completely dark for human beings but that man cannot have any knowledge about the beings and events and about what is useful and what is harmful unless Allah lets him.

3. In another verse regarding the issue, the following is stated: "But ye will not, except as Allah wills; for Allah is full of Knowledge and Wisdom." (al-Insan, 76/30)

While in the previous verse in the same chapter, it is stated that a person who wills will take the path to his Lord, in the 30th verse, it is stated that Allah will encompass those that He wills with His mercy. That is, sincere believers surrender themselves to the will of Allah with all of their belongings.

We were not created based on our own will; we were not born in the country where we were born based on our own will, either; the family and the environment that we belong to were not chosen based on our own wish and will. They all took place with the manifestation of the divine will. Everything takes place in accordance with the plan He has made in the pre-eternity based on His infinite knowledge and His will.

After coming to the world and reaching the age of “responsibility”, that is, the age of discretion, our wills start to take part in our lives. We are desired to be led by being notified with divine commands. At this point, we need to stop and think. After the notification and being shown the right way, a person is let choose using his own will; on the other hand, God’s will prevails as it is stated in the verse “But ye shall not will except as Allah wills”. We see the conclusion that “man is bound by the divine will within a certain limit”. A person can find the right path if He wills, but if not, he cannot. In this case, what are people held responsible for? If we just look only at the outer appearance of the verse without analyzing the indicated meaning, we might think that the claims of the Qadariyyah and Jabriyyah schools turn out to be correct. However, the matter is of ultimate importance and subtlety. It is hard to come to a conclusion unless its wisdom is comprehended. As it is stated in the 30th verse, Allah tells us about the limit of possibility and will that He has put between Him and His servants; in other words, the border of the right path. Unless a person reaches the level of that border with the help of his mind, intelligence and will, and religious advice and knowledge, Allah will not manifest His supreme will; and for this reason, the door of guidance path will not open for him.

Do we not encounter this limit regarding almost every matter? Without plowing and without any strife, by only sprinkling seeds onto dry soil, how can we expect yield from these seeds? People are obliged to do what they are expected to regarding this matter, and then, the rest depends on the divine will. At that point, we cannot will unless God Almighty wills. Unless He manifests His guidance and help, we cannot enter the right path and cannot benefit from the thing we have started.

We can summarize the issue as follows:

There is no such a decree like compulsion or invalidity of human will. What this is all about is the situation of crossing the limits of possibility and will that we have mentioned above. When that limit is reached, the divine will and guidance of the Almighty God play their roles above all sorts of will; He opens the door of guidance for the ones whom He wills or He does not open it for those whom He does not will. The door of guidance will not open for the ones who have not been able to use the will, and as a result, who will not be able to take themselves to the mentioned border.

The statement “You cannot will unless Allah wills” describes the ability to choose and to wish which Allah has installed in the creation of human; no extra meaning is included because bestowal of this kind of ability on the humankind is emphasized in a number of verses in the Qur’an with definite and clear expressions. Thus, we can count this as a strong principle of Islamic teaching. Moreover, the one who desires this will and ability to be available in man is Allah, the Exalted, Himself. For this reason, the choice of guidance or deviation by a person is within this extent. That is to say, as far as we comprehend, there is no contradiction. The fact that the verse consoles the Prophet (peace be upon him) due to negative reactions he received, that the deniers are described as “evil ones” as if it was their basic quality is a strong clue of their deviation from guidance and deserving Allah’s punishment because of their evil intentions and unjust deeds. And it stands as a message for us to interpret the statement “He takes the ones whom He wills to a right path” as “the ones with well-intentions and who desire to enter the right path.

If Allah had not granted us will in this world as a requirement of the position and the trial of this world and if He would not have let us choose whatever we wanted, then nobody would have had this kind of right to choose. O people! That is, you should know that your ability to choose denial or rebellion depends on God’s permission, too. If He had taken hold of the rope around your necks from the time you were born onwards, like He did with angels, mountains, rocks, sky, the moon, stars, the sun and plants and so on, in other words, if you had been created without your wills, none of you would have had the right to choose whatever you wanted.

Only man is provided with this opportunity. Freedom of rebelling and challenging has only been given to man based on Allah’s law. Therefore, the obedience of man is much more different than other creatures. That is, man’s obedience to Allah is different from the slave’s obedience to his master. Since freedom to rebel has been granted, man’s obedience is a lot more precious. Angels, mountains, skies, stars, the moon, animals and plants are also Allah’s servants but their obedience is their nature.

[houle698]

Is Cryptocurrency the Future of Money?

What will the unavoidable fate of cash resemble? Envision strolling around a bistro and looking toward the genuine menu board at your #1 combo supper. Just, rather than it being evaluated at $8.99, it's demonstrated as.009 BTC.

Could crypto truly be the inescapable fate of cash? The response to that question relies upon the general admission to a few key choices going from convenience to security and rules live cryptocurrency tokens prices .

We ought to examine the various sides of the (modernized) coin and research standard fiat cash with automated money.

The first and most basic part is trust.

It's basic that individuals trust the money they're utilizing. What gives the dollar its worth? Is it gold? No, the dollar hasn't been kept up by gold since the 1970s. By then would might it have the option to be that gives the dollar (or some other fiat cash) respect? Several nations' money is viewed as more predictable than others. Over the long haul, it's family's trust that the careful chamber of that cash stands determinedly behind it and essentially ensures its "respect."

How accomplishes trust work with Bitcoin since it's decentralized criticalness their is unquestionably not a managing body that gives the coins? Bitcoin sits on the blockchain which is commonly an electronic bookkeeping record that permits the entire world to see every single exchange. These exchanges is checked by farm vehicles (individuals working PCs on an appropriated relationship) to ruin compulsion what's more guarantee that there is no twofold spending. As a compromise for their associations of keeping up the respectability of the blockchain, the diggers get a part for each exchange they check. Since there are vast diggers attempting to get cash every one checks every others work for bungles. This check of work measure is the clarification the blockchain has never been hacked. Basically, this trust is the thing that gives Bitcoin respect.

Next we should take a gander at trust's dearest mate, security.

Shouldn't something be said about if my bank is pillaged or there is fake advancement on my Mastercard? My stores with the bank are covered by FDIC affirmation. Odds are my bank will in addition turn any charges on my card that I never made. That doesn't gather that guilty parties won't have the choice to pull off tricks that are in any event perplexing and dull. It's basically the real quietness that comes from understanding that I'll no vulnerability be made entire from any horrible direct against me.

In crypto, there's a great deal of decisions regarding where to store your cash. It's principal to acknowledge whether exchanges are ensured for your security. There are fair trades, for example, Binance and Coinbase that have a shown history of reconsidering wrongs for their customers. Much equal to there are not really real banks any place on the world, the equivalent is generous in crypto.

What occurs on the off chance that I toss a twenty dollar note into a fire? The tantamount is authentic for crypto. On the off chance that I lose my sign in accreditations to a specific modernized wallet or trade then I won't have the choice to push toward those coins. Once more, I can't pressure enough the criticalness of planning business with a decent affiliation.

The going with issue is scaling. Starting at now, this may be the best deterrent that is protecting individuals from planning more exchanges on the blockchain. Regarding the speed of exchanges, fiat cash moves a lot faster than crypto. Visa can oversee around 40,000 exchanges for reliably. Under ordinary conditions, the blockchain can just oversee around 10 reliably. Regardless, another show is being mentioned that will remove this up to 60,000 exchanges for each second. Known as the Lightning Network, it could accomplish creation crypto the fate of cash.

The discussion wouldn't be managed without inspecting comfort. What do individuals typically like about the their conventional banking and spending systems? For the individuals who lean toward money, it's unquestionably simple to use generally speaking. In the event that you're attempting to book a lodging or a rental vehicle, by then you need a Visa. In actuality, I utilize my Mastercard any spot I go in light of the comfort, security and prizes.

Did you know there are relationship out there giving the complete of this in the crypto space also? Monaco is starting at now giving Visa logo-ed cards that typically convert your robotized cash into the near to money for you.

In the event that you've ever had a go at wiring cash to somebody you comprehend that cycle can be dull and exorbitant. Blockchain exchanges consider a client to send crypto to anybody in not more than minutes, paying little notification to where they live. It's in like way broadly more moderate and more secure than sending a bank wire.

There are other current strategies for moving cash that exist in the two universes. Take, for instance, applications, for example, Zelle, Venmo and Messenger Pay. These applications are utilized by an extensive number of twenty to long haul olds ordinary. Did you besides comprehend that they are beginning to blend crypto also?

The Square Cash application at present joins Bitcoin and CEO Jack Dorsey communicated: "Bitcoin, considering, isn't finishing at purchasing and selling. We do recognize that this is a profound progression for our industry, and we need to learn as fast as could reasonably be typical."

He added, "Bitcoin offers an occasion to get more individuals enlistment to the budgetary structure".

While clearly fiat spending truly deals with the interstate a tremendous piece of us move cash, the adolescent crypto structure is rapidly gaining ground. The proof is completely wrapped up. Going before 2017 it was hard to track down standard press consolidation. Starting at now essentially every colossal business media source covers Bitcoin. From Forbes to Fidelity, they're all cliché something with their decisions.

What's my tendency? Maybe the most persuading motivation Bitcoin may succeed is that it's reasonable, careful and awards money related authorization to more individuals the world over. Banks and colossal foundations accept this to be a danger to their very presence. They remain to be on the losing end of the best exchange of abundance the world has ever taken note.

[petulant-poet]

So more on the eldritch au(not nearly done with this), I’m basically at the moment compiling all of the information I’ve come up with for each friend of Saul’s entity, and why they’re problems for them. Warning: a lot of angst coming up.

Jessica

Her entity is the Manifest

this particular god feeds off of strong emotion

Jessica made a deal with this entity as a joke in college but it got out of hand and now she’s here 

she was drunk with a bunch of friends and one of them dared her to try and summon god

of course, she thought it was a joke, and went on the internet to pull up a summoning ritual, clicking on the first link that came up

they followed it, and out came the Manifest(or, at least a form that they could see and not go insane looking at)

it got angry, and threatened to kill one of them unless the summoner(Jess) swore allegiance to them

She did, and to this day she has kept that secret between her and her friends who were there

basically her Avatar powers are manifesting her emotions in a physical form

when she’s happy, she literally lights up, but when she’s sad she literally sucks the light out of the area

but when she’s angry

OH BOY

Jessica manifests herself into a monster that’s a direct representation of herself

that happened

it didn’t go well

(how it happened I’ll leave it up to you)

after she came out of it, she was in the middle of a ruined town square

of course, people had recorded videos of it and it went viral

the video was soon claimed to be a hoax, and the monster was soon cancelled

Jessica, however, was not left unscarred

she still checks her phone for notifications about the monster, compulsively refreshing to check for anything new, and she has small horns on her head that make it hard for her to blend in with crowds

Saul found her on Instagram

he reached out to her about the Friends of Saul, and she was skeptical at first

she eventually came along, with a lot of hesitation

Henry

he is an avatar of the Lost

this god feeds off of a feeling of being lost or loss, whether mentally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually

Henry had a run-in with the lost after he lost his father to suicide in high school

He had been lost after that, and turned to his games to fill the hole his dad had left behind

the loss struck when he was at his weakest, and welcomed him with open arms

the lost has a malleable domain that can change to entice an avatar best

he had always been obsessed with candy crush, and the lost for him took the form of a candy land

he would blip out of existence for a few minutes every day when first learning about it

minutes bled into hours, and soon entire weekends were spent in the lost

Henry loved going there at first, as he could spend hours on end in total isolation and get back as if nothing happened

but after a while he started noticing the aftereffects of being there so often

spending so much time in the lost was making start to lose memory of his reality, and he became nearly incorporeal on some occasions of spending too  much time in it

his friends and family lost memory of him as well slowly but surely

after a while he stopped going when his mom confronted him about being gone from home for three days straight

however, the lost has ways of dragging people back

after getting out of college, he became lost with what path he was going to take

there was uncertainty everywhere, and soon enough he got fired from his first job out of stress

the lost struck in his sleep, and he was whisked off to his childhood candy land once more

he spent days in there, forgetting about his own world and giving in to the thrill of the lost

when he remembered his world again, it was nothing but a faint memory, but he knew he had to get back

by that time he was nearly one with the lost, and it took him nearly an hour to get back

after that event, the lost was out of control

he went back to it at the most random times, having no control over it anymore

he’d disappear in the rain, on the train, in the crowds, anywhere

Saul found him at a job interview and saw him disappear, knowing right away he was an avatar

Henry came back and the first thing Saul mentioned was joining the Friends of Saul

he was ecstatic he wasn’t the only one with these kind of experiences, and joined right away

Paula

Paula’s entity is the Divine

the Divine feeds off of dreams, which is what Paula severely lacks

instead of dreams, she receives premonitions and omens for the future in her dreams

she had been an avatar of the divine for as long as she could remember, as her parents had given her to the divine for a good shot in life

this wasn’t a problem for Paula in childhood

then, she saw all sorts of good futures and little useful visions, like the answers to the test or a world fixed of systematic racism

however, all of that changed when she reached middle school

as stress and tension rose, her visions began to get more vicious and dark

it truly got bad once she reached high school

at this point her visions had become so violent and horrifying, she feared going to sleep and became an insomniac

she soon turned to narcotics and pills to try and get rid of the visions once she reached college

drugs were the only thing that seemed to combat the visions

her parents told her about how she was an avatar and why they did what they did

Paula was furious, and cut them out of her life

over time, she curbed her drug addiction and was able to function in regular society

her visions became less violent as time went on, and she soon put two and two together figuring out her visions were directly related to her stress levels

as time went on, she began seeing her ability as a gift once more and felt she was ready to let her parents back into her life

however, after she got married, her visions began getting worse once more

her husband was often on his phone in bed looking up the worst things in the world

all of the suffering souls that he couldn’t control, and he’d invited them all in their bed

she was afraid of telling him the truth, so she went on to fighting sleep once more with her phone

that’s when Saul reached out

he gave her a chance to deal with her problem, and Paula jumped at the chance to put an end to her lifelong suffering

Karly

Karly is an avatar of the Pleasure

this entity feeds off of, well, pleasure

sexual pleasure more specifically

Karly had summoned the pleasure after a messy breakup

she wanted to be able to hold someone in her arms for once without them leaving for someone more attractive

the pleasure granted her this, and after that her tinder profile went viral

she loved rolling through her infinite scroll, it never grew old

the pleasure granted her the power to know what turns a person on and how they work just by looking at them

of course, this presented a few problems when going out and seeing what got someone going by looking at them

she learned to control this, but it occasionally slipped out every once in a while

it also gave her the power to manifest those turn-ons in physical form

Karly rarely uses this though, but will do some of the humanly possible stuff when she’s feeling she’s clicked with the right guy

however, none of them ever stuck around, they always saw her as nothing but a good one-night stand

she soon came to see them all as the same, wanting nothing but a night of free food, a good time and then walking out on her in the morning

occasionally there’d be times she was out for the night and the pleasure would make it much harder for her, as every drunk guy was trying to get into her pants, whether subtly or forcefully

it became a routine for her and she grew so fucking sick of it

of course, she was warned she couldn’t leave her deal with the pleasure so she just had to live with it

however, everything changed when a man named Saul showed up in her dm’s

he said that he knew what she was , and he had a way of helping her deal with what happened to her

she was told about the Friends of Saul, and how other people who had made deals with gods were there

she went to her first meeting without much expectation, but some kind of hope

Ed

Ed’s deity is the cocoon

the cocoon feeds off of sadness, which Ed was going to provide a lot of

Ed had first summoned the cocoon on complete accident as a toddler, while playing with bugs

Ed had loved bugs as a child, but he had accidentally did something with them that summoned a god

the god didn’t care that Ed was a child, he was marked as an avatar of the cocoon

he was then wrapped up in a cocoon and trapped inside in a comatose state for about six months

his parents had hidden him in their basement, waiting for him to come out

when he came out, he was...different

he was much more reclusive than before, and he had white irises with black scleras 

despite this, his parents attempted to give him a normal childhood

when school began for him, his parents that sense of normalcy would come to an end

the kids at school loved to bully him, and he was the lowest of the low with no friends

he soon discovered one of his abilities when being chased by a group of bullies, that he could turn into a swarm of insects

from there on he became much more interested in bugs, as he now thought he was a superhero

he became known as bugboy at school, and he wore that nickname with pride

however, once reaching middle school, the nickname was truly used as an insult and his superhero idea faded into nothingness

he became isolated from everyone, not even the weird kids let him in

after a year of middle school, he turned to porn to try and fill the gaping hole in his heart

in high school, the cocoon had a field day every day

Ed became known as the emo kid, and fell into depression and turned to cutting himself

he had grown a pair of antennae at the end of his senior year, but they were small enough to be hidden effectively

he went into a job in retail after high school working at a Target in a new city

it was harsh, and he felt that he could be exposed any time 

after an especially angry customer struck a couple of nerves, he went home angry, and found out the next day that he had grown a couple of extra bug appendages and a beetle shell

at this point, it was everything he could do in his power to make sure he didn’t reveal himself

he had ripped the bug parts off painfully, and left ugly scars across his back and sides

he had tried dating, but his dates had never made it past his eyes, not to mention the fact that he once grew a pair of mandibles in the middle of a date

he had a lovely time ripping those out of his jaw that night

Ed had sunk into a pit of self-loathing, with porn being the only thing that made him feel better

he truly became the most miserable man you could imagine

soon, Saul had reached out to him, as he had built a reputation on the dark web as the infamous “bug man”

he gave Ed a chance to be around other people like him, and he jumped on it

he had gone to the first meeting with hope and enthusiasm of meeting people like him

Toby

Toby is an avatar of the Gazing

the gazing feeds off of knowledge, and will do anything to get it

Toby had always been hungry for knowledge, and it had shown in his voracious appetite for reading

he first had an encounter with the gazing while looking for a book that was apparently banned

he was out of college and looking for something to read from the library, but as expected there were no copies there

he had then gone home fairly disappointed, but found that he had already owned the book

he read it, and from there the strange stuff began

he began hearing voices in the back of his head, that when listened to, could lead him straight to the book he was looking for

after a while, he started to hear other voices as well 

Toby figured out after a few tries with this ability that he was hearing the thoughts of other people

he soon found himself able to identify certain facts without really thinking about it

he tried this power out, and it turned out that he could pull out facts in his head that he couldn’t possibly know

soon enough he tried finding out more about the evils of the government

that went very well 

he became consumed with the injustices of the world, and soon isolated himself from his friends and family 

as he used his power more and more, he became more and more paranoid that he was being watched

the gazing soon came to him in a dream though, explaining to him that it chose him because of his pursuit for the truth

in honesty, the gazing had been watching his each and every move since he reached out into him

the gazing also showed Toby the wider array of knowledge it had, and Toby was truly fascinated with what he had found

his will was not truly his own anymore, as the gazing had a bit of control 

he then turned to online chatrooms and got to work trying to enlighten them

he exposed himself to the worst sides of the internet through this, able to see all of the terrible stuff posted onto it

his power was stronger, but more unpredictable, hence the internet sweep

he also realized soon enough that he manifested eyes in different ways when using his powers

after a few months of using his powers, he soon realized some of the eyes were staring to stick around, which he poked out with needles

fighting with people on chatrooms seemed to also get his power worked up, and he’d pull out facts left and right to crush his opponent

but at the end of the day he just felt tired. so fucking tired

it had gotten to a point where he couldn’t trust himself anymore, and loving someone else was out of the question

this didn’t last long though, as Saul had reached out to him and told him there was another way

Toby was skeptical, but he accepted and joined the Friends of Saul

Marvin

Marvin’s deity is the sacrifice

this deity is particularly rough, as it feeds off of trauma

Marvin was an atheist and didn’t believe in any god, making it very vocal when joking with one of his friends

that’s when the sacrifice swooped in

the same story with little god ensued, except the sacrifice seemed more prone to scare the scientists and make them afraid

in turn, they were getting the information they needed for their experiment

Marvin had one day become fed up and said to the sacrifice that there was no evidence that it was any kind of god

the sacrifice got angry, and sent some of itself into Marvin, making him an avatar

nothing changed at first, but after a while he noticed some of his stuff was going missing, car keys, clipboards, etc.

but in return he was coming up with more scientific discoveries

however, this wasn’t the only thing that started happening 

Marvin soon began seeing things that were apparently not there

at first he thought he was hallucinating, but soon enough he ended up being able to touch them as well

he was even able to show his colleagues after touching them as well

he soon found that he was able to peer into different planes of existence

Marvin saw this as amazing at first, but soon enough he found that sometimes when he peered through, things were starting to look right back

it all came clear when he was attacked in his own home by an otherworldly creature that he was making other things aware that he was there and watching

and they didn’t like that very much

soon enough, he felt like he couldn’t keep his secret to himself forever

he reached out to a close friend of his, Saul

they went out for drinks, and soon enough he told Saul the truth about what was happening in his life

Saul told him shortly afterward that he was an avatar, and that he was making a group for people like him

Marvin was fairly skeptical at first, but obliged because Saul was one of his closest friends

Velma

Velma is an avatar of the Imitation

the imitation feeds off of blood

Velma knew nothing about this at first

she was part of an online tarot group that was going to meet up

she had gone to the meetup, but then the true intention of the group was revealed

they were a group comprised of avatars of the Imitation, and they had come for the blood of the non-avatars in the group

this included Velma

she was one of the ones to escape the meetup, but not before needing to take a life in the process

killing one of the avatars turned herself into an avatar of the imitation

Velma didn’t realize what had happened to her at first at all, and had continued with her life

with a little more caution on the internet obviously

however,that had changed when she accidentally got some of her dog’s blood on her hand

a patch of dog fur sprouted up on her hand almost immediately

she had shaved it off immediately, but the fur had grown back just as fast

from there on she had a strong aversion from blood 

ironically, she grew to get a taste for blood when seeing it

she was obsessed with trying to get answers, and went to the darkest sides of the internet for them

that’s where she got herself the answers about avatars and the deities

she joined a chatroom, and learned about other avatars and joined a community they built for themselves

she met a lot of people there, including the girl across the sea, Daphne

the two hit it off immediately

Velma had found a new home with an online chatroom, and spent all of her free time on it

her family soon worried that she was spending too much time there, and not enough time with real people

but Velma argued that in the end, they were real people who had more in common with her than those in her life

Saul reached out to her then, seeing that Velma needed real life avatars to connect to

he invited her to join the friends of Saul, but she was wary of doing so, especially after the Imitation incident

Saul promised Velma that she would only benefit from this, and she went ahead and joined reluctantly

and so that’s everything on the au so far! I will possibly be writing more fleshed out stories on ao3 once I get around to writing again

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Negotiator - What Are Its Perks?

As a conciliator, you have to ensure that your job is actually to promote an achievable problem between two or even more events. In order to assist make the procedure smooth working, you need to also make certain that you may aid other gatherings within a compromise. This post will definitely explain the qualities of a really good negotiator as well as several of the benefits that you can easily get by possessing one.

One of the most significant benefit of being a negotiator is that you get to deliver a mediating service. The usefulness of being a moderator has actually been actually getting even more well-liked due to the fact that lots of people do certainly not possess the adventure of being actually a moderator. A conciliator is usually charged to provide an answer that would attend to a certain complication between both events. Considering that the mediator is meant to embody both events, there are no worry in imparting the notification of both parties. The conciliator can have different skills like speaking, being a forerunner, or presenting empathy for the prey or even the various other event.

An additional benefit of being actually a negotiator is actually that you are actually expected to have expertise in mediation. Many individuals assume that adventure is certainly not essential however it is essential. With the understanding of just how to solve problems, you can easily give advise or even recommendations to each gatherings and permit all of them understand the most suitable technique to come close to a certain concern.

The relevance of being a good mediator relates to the requirement of trust in the moderator. The majority of people usually tend to rely on others without also recognizing that they are trusted. As a result, you need to possess tough communication capabilities. You need to manage to interact in a proper manner, without appearing overbearing or even making it resemble you are asking for. If you possess a tough command of the language, you can easily help convey the ideal notification and also make certain that the two parties know how to move toward the problem in an appropriate way.

The best essential perk of being a conciliator is that you come to function as a third party. This is actually an advantage that you should think about considering that it could possibly aid you eliminate numerous communication problems that you might come across later on. People tend to interact and make the interaction network simply when the individual that the interaction was planned for is actually not present. As an example, if you appear a presentation, you may call a person that can listen to your presentation to ensure that she or he can offer feedback and reviews.

The necessity for count on is also vital since the negotiator is expected to function as the "gatekeeper" of the interaction network. The conciliator is actually the one who needs to determine whether the interaction has worked out or otherwise. If the communication worked out, the negotiator will make a decision whether the events need to have to see each other again or not. If the interaction was actually certainly not working out, the moderator will definitely keep all of them answerable as well as aid them settle the concern.

You will definitely likewise come to participate in the task of the "non-attached individual". Given that the moderator is certainly not directly involved in the dispute, she or he is actually often viewed as an individual that is simply enjoying. Consequently, the negotiator is actually phoned call to function as a neutral event in fixing disputes.

The value of being a conciliator has to do with the premiums of a good conciliator and also the perks that you can exist having one. Right now, you know what a conciliator is actually and how to turn into one.

What's the Role of the Moderator in the Case of Divorce?

A separation is a complicated and taxing problem that requires appropriate and relevant conversation, yet it requires to become taken very seriously through a mediator. Divorce commonly implies a lot of changes happening in the lives of the parents and children. It might likewise imply a separation from the spouse that had been actually along with them for a very long time. All these are actually quite challenging to accept as well as to cope with. On top of that, the children might be in the middle of emotion shed without their moms and dads. This is actually why it is actually required to find the support of a good moderator that will mediate in order to get to a fair and also reliable answer to the complication.

At the moment of separation, numerous married couples attempt to keep their kids after the separation by using residence after separation insurance coverage that is usually discussed by the companions of the marriage or even by using medical service providers to look after the youngsters. Both the home after a divorce as well as the residence after divorce insurance coverage is actually useful if dealt with effectively. But the fault for this is actually that the youngsters could end up residing in poor conditions and also at risk of being actually abused or even ignored. This is actually why it is important to take the little ones and the various other companions seriously and also to care for them. In such scenarios, it is actually much better to go through the property after a divorce as well as the home after divorce insurance policy in order to get what you definitely wish and to stay clear of wasting your money in a needless option. If the youngsters are actually involved in the arrangements in between the parties after that it is recommended to experience the mediation procedure too.

After home after the separation, it is very important to also steer clear of any type of compulsion in the home after breakup particularly the use of management systems like brutality and psychological adjustment. The instance of separation may also lead to clinical depression in the kids if the moms and dads carry out certainly not manage them similarly. This is actually why it is essential to move toward a conciliator in such situations. The moderator is going to offer his advice on how to produce the parents accept to a remedy on the basis of common respect and dignity. This can easily assist both parties in fixing the situation in a good manner in order that they can progress on the manner of common appreciation as well as modesty.

What's the Task of the Moderator in the Case of Separation?

What's the function of moderator in the case of breakup? If your spouse is informing you that the kid is actually living with another moms and dad and this various other parent is properly paid out, and it is possible to obtain the residence after separation? This may be a really psychological minute for you and your ex-spouse. It is constantly most effectively to consult with a conciliator that is actually trained and also an expert. If you perform certainly not understand just how to engage in receiving a conciliator or if you want to learn more concerning just how to achieve this then the following will definitely offer you some excellent assistance on how to deal with this condition.

In a breakup there are actually three principal factors to take a look at, one is actually the kid is actually dealing with one more moms and dad, the second variable is actually the department of the residential property as well as the 3rd is the concept of power circulation. If the child is actually dealing with an additional moms and dad, the mediator will take a seat with the moms and dads to find out a technique to obtain the kid back alongside its biological parents. The youngsters can easily stay in the same home, or they can easily move out as well as cope with their parents. There is actually likewise the trouble of property. Currently the mediation may not allow the events to agree on exactly what building is certainly not theirs. They can set a split of your home and also other possessions.

The concept of power distribution is perhaps the absolute most crucial thing to decide on when your partner is actually mentioning that they don't desire the little one back. If they have the ability to get safekeeping of the little one, they are visiting wind up receiving the exact same quantity of money as well as expenses as you performed. If https://scheidingscenter.nl/mediator-hoorn/ perform certainly not have that perk, then you need to make sure that you receive your reasonable reveal of the money. The main thing that is mosting likely to produce the division of electrical power is who receives little one help payments. You as well as your ex-boyfriend will definitely have to bargain the quantity of money you will definitely pay to be sure that both of you are actually acquiring the exact same volume. But once that has actually been set it is most effectively to care for your ex lover so that they are certainly not tempted to rip off on you. That's the job of mediator when it comes to separation.

What's the Task of Moderator on Children in Breakup?

When our team talk about arbitration on children in breakup, our company can easily never picture that a person needs to find out the role of arbitrator on little ones in divorce. During the course of a divorce, youngsters are actually a really important part of every loved ones, as well as if children are eliminated from their moms and dads, it will definitely be actually a primary reduction for the kids as well as they will certainly likewise be a terrific reduction to the entire household. The mediation in between both edges is actually thought about to be one of the most ideal achievable procedures when it pertains to bringing back the excellent relationships in between the divorcing gatherings. There are actually several causes regarding why you need to discover the task of mediator on youngsters in divorce. These explanations are basically all associated with the health and wellness as well as welfare of the children, and it is a crucial point to consider in a situation when the kids are actually concerned.

Yet another cause is that when the 2 edges have reached out to a concession, as well as when they continue to communicate with each other and meet a mutual understanding, there will be a wonderful end result of the arbitration on kids in divorce. Among the many things that are thought about to become among the essential traits to know through moderators on youngsters in divorce is actually the function of teenage years. It is actually just during teenage years that adolescents start to end up being private and start to encounter different scenarios that may be unsafe to all of them. This is actually additionally the age where the little ones learn just how to handle the different disagreements that are encountered by all of them in a normal method, and also this is likewise the age where they start to establish a school child during breakup. This will certainly be actually an important procedure if both the moms and dads are actually financially tough good enough to support the education and learning of their kids during breakup.

Yet another explanation in order to why one needs to learn the job of negotiator on little ones in divorce is actually that throughout the procedure of arbitration, moms and dads must regularly keep in mind that they need to be entirely separated from their children. It is necessary that while the method of mediation is actually happening, moms and dads ought to certainly not make their youngsters familiar with the factors for separation, or else they could think awkward during the course of the arbitration. They must remember that during the course of arbitration, they ought to only be focusing on the procedure and also the problems included, and also they should steer clear of coming from the courtroom procedures and deal with the youngsters's' concerns in the course of the arbitration process.

What's the Function of Moderator in Adult Program?

In any kind of condition involving breakup, which one will be actually the most handy to the person requiring the details? Which one will assist the individual securing the advise? Most people will opt for the initial inquiry but you may correct. As well as a great inquiry will definitely obtain the person the solution you are trying to find. You can't merely inquire what's the duty of arbitrator in the parental planning?

There is a really important factor that this is the case and our experts will review it along with our function as a mediator if you want to make sure that all gatherings will definitely recognize what each of us can do as well as what the other person needs to have to complete in order to have a well-balanced relationship. Consider it momentarily. Which one do you presume would certainly aid you a lot more? The solution is actually both of them interacting in harmony. Think about it and determine.

There is actually a really crucial element to take into consideration and also is actually that the method of resolving in any situation is actually a two-way method where you as a negotiator need to bring the 2 celebrations together in order that they know the mutual understanding and also one another's requirements. If the two of you do not understand what each other necessities at that point no volume of arbitration may help. Our experts as arbitrators recognize what requires to become done and also our team can aid all of them attain that goal. What's the function of the negotiator in the adult strategy? This is actually one thing that needs to have to be accurately comprehended since it will certainly help you in the process of moderating and help you along the way to success.

What's the Role of Arbitrator in Retirement Pension Account?

What is actually the function of arbitrator in a retirement pension plan? A mediator will definitely be present at every step of your life throughout your life cycle. He is actually the one who will certainly be resting at your side to use you the viewpoints and also suggestions pertaining to how to be happy and also how to achieve results in your organisation or socializing. He is not there to determine you, yet he will certainly be actually providing you tips on just how to be successful and how to handle all things that come up.

When you are ready to go up in your career or even the institution, your negotiator is going to be actually resting with you and also will definitely give you a heads up on the complications that might emerge or your transfer to a greater location within the association or even service. You are certainly not supposed to inquire your moderator a lot of inquiries that might break the ice. He will simply inform you to sit and assume prior to you make a move up the ladder of your career. He will definitely see to it that you do not slide and fall on your method to attaining success. To steer clear of any kind of potential conditions, it is always great to collaborate with a trustworthy moderator who is going to pay attention to you as well as help you through providing you unprejudiced suggestions.

Therefore what's the duty of mediator in a retired life pension plan? Our experts have actually referred to the simple fact that he will certainly help your firm. However what else should you know about your arbitrator?

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I feel like i should have a new year's resolution of some sort but i have no clue how to pick one.

This past secular new year I decided I want to have "good" eyebrows by the end of the year (I have trichotillomania --compulsive hair pulling-- as part of my OCD and my eyebrows are my favourite target so they're usually barely there) and that has not been going well. But I feel like it's unkind to challenge my mental illness like that in a resolution.

There's the classic "work out more" resolution and related "eat better". For a while last year I limited myself to one sweet drink a day (I love sugary drinks so that was quite a challenge, but i gave up on it when it got cold and dark out and one coffee (with sugar and cream, making it a sugary drink) wasn't enough to sustain me for the day. I do want to get into better shape and to stop snacking on unhealthy foods as much, but making that a resolution right before the seasonal depression hits seems like I'm doing myself to failure.

Maybe I'll try to limit my phone usage. I use my phone way too much, I'm glued to it and constantly checking for notifications. When I take a break for shabbat it feels amazing so that could be something beneficial and meaningful.

I'll ponder it tonight and tomorrow and see what I decide!