#... eh

[blob-of-darkness]

Thank you! I think I might have to look up the actor and that character, so I can better remember them and tell them apart 💀

I can NOT put a face to that name, unfortunately😅

literally any upper middle class tiktok self-identified ‘that girl’ in a pastel workout set with a thirteen step skincare routine and a green juice is a million times closer to being patrick bateman irl than any self-identified sigma film bro

[sashley1912]

OK

Après avoir vu l’épisode 5 de The Amazing Digital Circus et ce moment iconique où Jax se retrouve en mode maid malgré lui, j’ai craqué... j’ai refait un fanart de lui en soubrette 💀✍️

[sewaryka]

seeing it through

[kaurruption]

EWH YOH DISGUST ME I THROW UP

( Stop lying )

Probably

Sometimes I feel bad and I remember how people teamed up against @le-panda-chocovore because he doesn't eat saucisson. Which is still a crime to me and a solid reason to block him.

[qvert]

[bastardlybonkers]

aw give prowl someone who flutters back

END OF PROWL ARC (pt 1 anyways 😏)

we may now resume our previously scheduled starbee

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[estro-gem]

The not-so-much essay about the relationship drama in TADC episode 5

Warning: Spoilers, overthinking, opinions and headcannons about TADC episode 5. This is not a fact-based essay and this is polluted by my biased idiologies. I will not try to predict what will happen, but I will speculate about what had happened.

There are so many things packed in this episode – so many loose ends revealed.

I’ll just treat the episode like a breakdown:

Start: The common area.

This sets the scene very well. Everyone (besides Zooble) is tired. Exhausted. Overwhelmed. Pomni’s flopped on the floor. Jax repeatedly says that he wants to sleep. Ragatha, doesn’t think Kinger’s statement through when offering to help him count eggs (then again, this might also just play into her people-pleaser, agreeable character) and she appeared to have bags under her eyes at one point? Looking downcast the next. Gangle’s mask effortlessly breaks. Zooble is tired in general, ect.

If there is one thing TADC set early on, is that the cast shows their true colours when they are tired and overwhelmed. Think about Gangle’s manic episode (literally) and Kinger feeling helpless when he didn’t know how to help Pomni in “hell.” How Jax acted at the end of the day at episode 4 and actually showed a sliver of his true self to Pomni – that’s important – more on that later.

It's clear that the team is sent into Caine’s shenanigans without time to recoup – which is why I adore the pacing of how Jax and Pomni’s relationship is developed.

Side note: Gangle lighting up at seeing Zooble waiting for them melted my heart!

Anyway, with that out of the way, we now have context.

Jax’s adventures:

I don’t think there is much to say about the first one, other than the fact that he doesn’t take adventures and whatever happens within them seriously – and I don’t think he thinks that what he does has a lasting effect on anyone. Also, I think this kinda set’s Jax and Gangle’s dynamic in stone.

It’s a game to Jax and he’s here to play. That being said, I don’t think he likes to be on the receiving end of what he’s dishing out either because he’s petty like that. Gangle is rolling with the punches, I presume, and that’s part of the reason why I believe that Gangle is one of the few people Jax would consider closest to being a friend – or at least someone that wouldn’t deliberately abandon him. He can be mean all he wants, but she doesn’t pull away, even when she’s at her worst. In fact, she retaliates and she’s still open to doing things with him, like in episode 4 when they were playing softball.

Jax shoots Gangle first (and goes absolutely feral) – and I believe it’s out of spite, not hatred. Jax and Gangle has a cat and mouse thing going. They go at each other any chance they get. Jax picks on Gangle. She talks back. He takes her binoculars without asking. She tells him of all people to go clean the toilet. He brushes her off. She ?tortures him (in private, if I may add) He shoots her. She puts him in a maid outfit. Odd relationship, but I’ll groom myself into believing there is some weird form of affection there, or some level of relation/mutualism.

However, it’s also clear that there is at least an arm’s length between them.

Now that there’s a new person with no attachment or prejudice to anyone, Jax set his eyes on Pomni. I mean, think about it – in episode one, he had Ragatha join him to take Pomni to Kaufmo’s. His opposite.

Then the President Pomni thing, I believe that is one of Jax’s many tests of Pomni’s character. All throughout the season he made little comments and ask for her input/opinion. Poke at her and see how she reacts. He outright says he ‘wanted to see what she’d do.’ And he honours the fact that she is a blank slate to the team – not giving her a script.

In his mind, the others are set in their ways in their opinions about him, but he realized that Pomni doesn’t have her set opinion on anyone just yet. (yes I believe Jax overthinks and over analyze things, ok, bite me. Did you SEE Kinger’s character brief and how it was thought out? Jax did that!) That’s why, of all people, he opens up to her the most.

Pomni remembers things he did to her, but she doesn’t seem to hold resentment. She just goes with it, a little like Gangle – so I think he finds her amusing at least.

Gangle’s adventure (I died at the intro XD):

Again, not much to say, but there’s an honourable mention of, again, Jax reaching out to Pomni. He also seems to be very neutral about Zooble. They’re genuine and tend to brush him off and he reflects that back. He takes another chance to jab at Gangle – someone I theorize him to see as some weird mutual, so he doesn’t thing twice to use Gangle’s demise to get a rise out of Pomni, which only responds dryly about what he did to her in the past. This sets Jax’s perception of Pomni in stone. She doesn’t care what he does if it doesn’t affect her – at least that’s how he sees it. Nothing fake, no showboating, just Pomni being herself – confused and over it. Getting through the next event. Just like him.

He can relate to her… And that carries over to the stargazing adventure.

The Stargazing adventure

I don’t know who’s this is, but it feels serene – everyone is relaxing. Also, Ragatha spawned in the corner, off to the side.

Gangle and Zooble are acting all cute and close and Jax noticed this. His eyes are glued to them before he notice Pomni beside him. (Damnit, this scene makes me want to believe he’s a bit protective of Gangle)

He opens up to Pomni again – it never hurt before, right? He looks worried, talking about how he notices that Gangle is happy to hang out with Zooble and that he wonders if she’s capable of true happiness.

This is huge.

The moment is huge – because with him being vulnerable to Pomni as he’d been inching towards before, Ragatha takes the chance to berate him when he shares his concern about Gangle seeing her relationship with Zooble being a ‘quick fix.’ He defends his badgering by saying that Gangle likes it.

I don’t think Jax meant ‘she is a masochist.’ I believe that Jax thinks that Gangle likes Jax giving her a reason to be sad. And it may be true! Consider that, along with what I mentioned before about them going at each other and her not ever abandoning him. Guys, I think he is protective of Gangle in his own little messed up way.

Ragatha’s presence and comments – sharing things about him that wasn’t hers to share when Pomni finally tried to reach out to Jax, that almost shut him down and he reverted back to acting aloof and like a douche, but Ragatha leaves and he can open up again to Pomni’s gentle prying with no judgement.

Other note, he say’s it feels like Ragatha is trying to take advantage of them. First, I thought that statement was weird. Like, how is that the conclusion?? But think about it, everything he said up until this point indicates that Jax values friendship deeply and anyone trying to fake and ditch when the going gets tough, is robbing him of his trust, time and commitment.

Jax is alone and he lost a friend before, as Ragatha so insensitively put it, running away when she realized that she overstepped, instead of apologizing and acknowledging that she hurt him by bring up the past and his loss.

A huge reason why I think Jax behaves the way he does is because he believes he has no one left to lose. He’s in the most powerful position to be in, but with that, comes loneliness. That’s why he doesn’t want to get any closer to Gangle. That’s why he’s so cautious about opening up to Pomni. He conditioned himself into thinking that he doesn’t need anyone, when, in fact, he yearns for connection – he can’t help it.

Then the magic happens.

He goes back to being aloof – but Pomni doesn’t pry, she plays into it. She listened and didn’t push. She didn’t give him a reason to tell her to back off. So he stays.

Now, he likes her; she’s cool (I think).

Zooble’s adventure:

I have the least to say about this, actually. Everyone got a chance to open up. This segment mostly alludes to Jax and Zooble’s relationship. Jax is an untouchable obstacle to Zooble. Jax enjoys their banter. Zooble seemed to only really show interest in him when they discovered his fear, when he picked on Gangle or when he tried to lure Pomni into a sense of comfort by apologizing. Pomni, going against Zooble’s advice, accepts his apology.

There was, again, some weird tension between Jax and Ragatha.  It definitely runs deeper than whoever is closer to Pomni. It also highlights the disconnect between Ragatha and the rest of the team. It was so sad to see Ragatha open up and all the others did, was stare. No inquiry, no one relating. Just plain staring, then moving on as if nothing happened.

There was a moment with Jax looking sad and another where he drunkenly told Ragatha to be mad – it’s funny. I think he perceives ‘funny’ as ‘interesting’ or ‘intriguing’, but he sucks at expressing himself on a good day, so the gentle nudge he gave when reassuring Ragatha after she apologized for being a jerk to Gangle, may have been him poking at her, still sour that she rudely brought up is lost friend, but maybe, just maybe, it was him just as desperate to connect with ‘the real Ragatha’ as Ragatha was to connect with literally anyone else.

Ragatha’s adventure:

Let’s talk about the elephant in the room: Ragatha’s trauma.

In this episode it’s made very clear that Ragatha had, at least, a very strained relationship with her mother, who seems to have criticized her every move and berate her for not acting “appropriately.” The reason I say so is the way she apologized to Jax. She was PISSED, and going overboard in chewing out Jax for his behaviour, her eye was twitching, she was frazzled, but she was able to pull herself together very well and actually apologize. It even left Jax stunned – or whatever that blank expression was he was sporting. For the first time she was being genuine and yet she swallowed her pride and apologized.

Ragatha’s trauma made her to be one of the most mentally strong characters in the circus, if not the strongest. And it’s a shame it was born from trauma, but I love what a queen she really is. The problem is that she is desperate for connection and the only way she had known to connect is by appeasing other’s expectations, the way she had to appease her mother’s expectations.

While meeting other’s expectations can give you praise from others, it’s seen by others, and yourself, as a box being ticked. There was a need that was met and you were the tool to achieve that.

It does not necessarily make you appreciated, because the burden of offering yourself up to be the reliable one is that people will begin to see it as a given. In the stargazing adventure, Jax said that (I’m paraphrazing) ‘being told you are loved and appreciated every day make it lose it’s value’ – and in this case, Ragatha solidified herself as the nice one, who others expect to be nice and supportive no matter what.

There is no depth. She gave herself a function and others accept that. Since that role is solidified, no one has the desire to pursue anything more from her, like a deeper connection – and that is what she desperately wants. She just doesn’t know how to pursue it herself without doing things that would earn her praise instead of appreciation.

I think that is why, when she sat next to Pomni, disappointed in herself for not batting as well as she personally wanted – according to her own expectation, Pomni was able to see a small true part of Ragatha. The doll is competitive. Pomni then proceeds to reach out to her. It’s beautiful. Then Jax uses Ragatha’s vulnerability to push her too far and with the doll’s inexperience in handling conflict, she goes overboard, fueling Jax’s fire.

Ragatha rained on his parade by pulling herself together again and I desperately want to believe that there was some level of respect in his gaze, but eh, I’m biased. Point is, she shut him up.

There were many scenes in Ragatha’s adventure highlighting Ragatha’s isolation from the group. Jax warmed up to Pomni and Evil Pomni, which may or may not be the worst part of Pomni – or at least, that’s what Ragatha believed the Evil versions to be. The fact that the most disliked person didn’t want anything to do with her or even the worst part of herself? Ouch.

Then comes the part where Pomni offered Ragatha to bat in her place. Pomni did that to be nice and possibly extend an olive branch for their earlier fallout, thinking that would make the doll happy. I theorize that Ragatha agreed, because in her mind Pomni wanted her to make her proud, like she had to make her mother proud. So when all was said and done, when she ‘won’ (did nothing) the other members came to praise her, which was nice, but it wasn’t what she wanted.

She wanted Pomni to notice her, but instead, the jester was chatting with Jax, with no care about what was happening on the field. Pomni reflected what Ragatha had been doing all along – she was being nice. Ticking a box to make others happy. To meet Ragatha’s expectations.

That wasn’t connection, and I believe that realization made her realize just how isolated she really was.

She had no one left to lose, because she didn’t have anyone to begin with – and that’s why she didn’t chase anyone down at the end of the episode.

I don’t know how to end this off, so bye!

No wait! Side note, I believe Caine can't control minds, but he can weaponize their own minds against them.

He can do anything under the guise of it being their own choice. This is why the voting thing was able to make Jax vegan, despite him not wanting to be vegan.

Also, when Zooble opened up about their problems and feelings they had about their body, they told him to 'forget it.' AND HE LITERALLY FORGETS IT.

Kay, bye!

Also, I was asked for this: @zeeboomblebee

I wasn't asked for this but you are getting tagged anyway:

@d-jevil @realifezompire @lizeliz

My TADC episode 5 experience

I'm actively resisting to write a essay about organic friendships vs situational relationships, praise vs appreciation and both the power and dread of knowing that you have nothing to lose - or no one to lose.

[somerandomdudelmao]

Part 6!

Fofinggigigjgj you have no idea how long I’ve been waiting to show you this ehehehe

I think by this point, every artist in the fandom has drawn their own version of Donnie bot at least once haha. Well, I'm finally joining the party.

When I first thought about it a few months ago, I spent a long time thinking about what he would look like. But then I remembered that, hey, Donnie canonically has his dream robot design~

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Annnnd the reference of course

[m0ssyb33tle]

[random-cockroach]

I clearly had a brainrot for Blurr and Swerve for the last 2 days AND NOW IT IS WORSE AHAHAH

[imhaechanshoe]

sweet poison

warnings:toxic relationship,smut,language

The cold rain hammered against the glass of Seongje's apartment windows, a dull background noise to the chaos unfolding between you two.

Again.

"You’re never satisfied, are you?" he hissed, voice low but sharp like a blade. His hand gripped the edge of the kitchen counter so hard his knuckles whitened. "No matter what I do, you always find a reason to fight me."

You stood across from him, soaked from the rain, heart pounding from running back here after another screaming match over texts. Your voice trembled, not from fear — but from rage. "Maybe if you didn’t treat me like something you own, I wouldn’t have to fucking fight you, Seongje!"

That mocking smirk you hated — and loved — tugged at his lips. "Own you?" he repeated, stepping closer. "You are mine. You knew what you signed up for the second you let me fuck you against that club bathroom mirror."

Your breath hitched, a fresh wave of fury and desire tangling deep in your gut. He always did this — twisted everything, blurred the lines until you couldn't tell if you hated him or wanted him more.

"You're toxic," you spat, backing away as he stalked toward you like a predator, slow and deliberate.

"And you," he growled, grabbing your wrist and yanking you against him, "keep coming back for it."

His mouth crashed onto yours, brutal and demanding. You fought him, pushing at his chest, but it only fueled him more. His hands dragged your soaking jacket off, tossing it somewhere behind him without care. His fingers dug into your hips through the wet fabric of your clothes, anchoring you against his hard body.

You hated him. You needed him.

Without breaking the kiss, Seongje shoved you backward until your thighs hit the cold marble island in the kitchen. He ripped your shirt upwards, impatient, yanking it off. Your nipples stiffened immediately in the freezing air.

"Look at you," he breathed, voice dripping with lust and venom as his hungry eyes devoured you. "Always acting like you hate me... but your body fucking loves me."

He pushed you down onto the counter roughly, the marble biting into your back. His mouth trailed fire down your throat, teeth scraping harshly. You gasped, hands fisting in his hair, torn between pulling him closer and pushing him away.

"You think you can leave me?" he rasped against your skin, hips grinding against you so you could feel the heavy bulge pressing into your stomach. "Even if you try, you’ll come crawling back. You always do."

"I hate you," you whispered hoarsely, but your thighs parted instinctively as he jerked your pants and underwear down in one angry motion.

"No, baby," he said darkly, lining himself up without even fully undressing. "You hate how much you love me."

Without warning, he slammed into you, raw and deep. You cried out — half in pain, half in desperate need — as he set a brutal rhythm, snapping his hips against you over and over. The sound of wet skin and harsh breathing filled the room, the rain outside only amplifying the ferocity between you.

Seongje grabbed a fistful of your hair, forcing you to look at him.

"Say you’re mine," he demanded, punctuating each word with a sharp thrust that made your entire body jolt.

You bit your lip, refusing to give him the satisfaction. His eyes narrowed. His hand slid down between your bodies, cruel fingers finding your clit, circling it with wicked precision.

"Say. It."

You whimpered, bucking against him despite yourself, tears pooling in your eyes from the overwhelming pleasure and frustration.

"I'm yours," you gasped finally, and the second the words left your mouth, he slammed even harder into you, a deep groan ripping from his throat.

"That's right," he growled, claiming you like he was trying to brand you from the inside out. "You belong to me. No one else touches you. No one else gets to see you like this."

Your orgasm crashed into you suddenly, shattering you with a violence that left you sobbing his name. Seongje followed, grunting low in his throat as he spilled inside you without a second thought, still grinding his hips against you through the aftershocks.

You clung to him, hating how much you needed the contact, the feeling of being completely possessed.

After a long moment, he pulled out, dragging you off the counter and forcing you to stand on shaky legs. His hands gripped your jaw tightly, forcing your eyes to meet his.

"You’ll never leave me," he said with a terrifying calmness. "You’re fucking addicted."

And deep down — no matter how much you wanted to deny it — you knew he was right.

[choccymilllk]

forgot to post him here. needng a vpn to post on tumblr sucks i am too lazy to do anything i just forget to log on. happy 20M to the best

[mariposita24]

made a silly little TikTok account to make silly little animatics like ✨this✨

I cannot animate, but I tried…

(I have like 50+ audios saved now that have potential)

[that-satireguy]

the idea that 'tma' cis male drag queens experience more misogyny and transphobia than 'tme' trans men (who actually grow up with the systemic disadvantages that being deemed female as you grow up, and are actuallyy yk trans) imo proves a fundamental problem with the tme/tma dichotomy.

In order for this contradiction to exist you either have to say:

-Trans men hold systemic power over certain cis men (straight up untrue)

-Cis male drag queens are not TMA (doesn't work under the established definition of what transmisogyny is, and is contradicted by every major voice in this conversation)

-TMA vs TME doesn't actually work in terms of systemic power dynamics, and only deals with a subset of transphobia, and is not helpful in its current system of use.

[starzknight]

In fact Poseidon is nOt a big fan of sharing...

anyawys little sketch i did for @anniflamma 's manwhore au cause it gave me them brainrots