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slytherinn-xo · 11 months ago

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I KISSED A GIRL ....... and i liked it Episode 2

This Pride party last night had me feeling so happy, just like a genuine feeling of joy was bursting through my body!

Like I have never been so happy being around so many queer people, and I have never been so over joyed and open and welcome by people I have just met. Could anything ruin this for me?

Honestly I'd say no, nothing could ruin this for me.

So waking up the next morning with my head resting on Georgia's arm, after falling asleep facing each other felt right. Like we didn't even mean to cuddle tonight, but it just happened, like it was meant to be.

"Morning." Demi was the first to speak up this morning as I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes.

"Morning world!" Fiorenza spoke up as she was in her single bed, one of the only single beds in the masseria.

"Morning George." I told the girl I was in a couple with as she rested her head against mine, her bed head was a fun sight in the morning.

"Morning Lena." Georgia spoke up as she kissed the top of my head with a smile, holding my hand against my thigh.

Before we got all comfy again, only after all of the girls had left the bedroom, well bar Lisha and Abbie. I was the little spoon in our cuddle, as I held her left hand in mine, holding it close to my chest as I was practically nodding off again.

"Are you, like, open to exploring other people?" Lisha asked us as Georgia's hand ran up and down my thigh as we both just looked at the Welsh girl.

"What do you mean?" I asked Lisha with a sly giggle.

"Like are you two closed off to each other already?" Abbie this time asked us, as Lisha just looked at us with her cap on.

"Why are you asking these questions?!" I asked as I was profusely blushing under their questioning, burying my face into the pillows beneath my head.

"I want to know!" Abbie just told us as we, well I had to try and think of what to say.

"At the minute, I'm only really personally arsed about Elena. But that's just me." Georgia gave her answer as I just relaxed. not exactly answering the question.

"Oh what a way to put it George." I told her as I didn't even turn to look at her but I still felt her hand under the covers on my thighs.

"That's just me." I giggled as I tried to speak in a Yorkshire accent, but hilariously failed.

I was sunbathing as I had spent most of my morning doing with Lisha and Meg, when I heard a whistle get blown in my ear.

"Dios mío!" I shouted as I practically jumped from where I was on the sun loungers, looking and seeing Georgia stood there with a shit eating grin plastered on her face.

So we were all forced into some water sports in the pool, not that, ya dirty bastards.

But I refused to stay in there too long as I wanted to let my hair down, so I was first out of the pool, and first back to tanning, with Georgia lying on top of me.

"Buongiorno!" I heard a voice shout as I turned and saw Dannii Minogue walking back into the masseria with this gorgeous dress on.

"Hola!" I said with a wave as me and Georgia sat up to see what Dannii had to say.

"You're looking gorgeous!" Dannii told us all with a smile. "How was the party last night?"

"Fabulous!" I said with a smile.

"So a bit of fire?" Dannii asked us in reference to Meg's amazing performance.

"It's all right, I'll teach ya." Meg told her with a smile as we all laughed.

"I wish I could do that, I wish I could." Dannii just told us with a smiles. "Girls tomorrow night, you will all attend your first kiss off."

"Ohhhhhhh....." I just heard from Amy as she was in a dangerous spot, after I heard there had been a snog between Fiorenza and Meg last night during the pride party.

"The Kiss Off is your chance to commit to your partner with a kiss or to turn the other way in your search for love." Dannii explained to us as we all nodded.

"Do you want to kiss the girl that you're with, or are you saving your kiss for someone else?" Dannii asked all of us, and honestly and truthfully I could say I was not kissing anyone else in this place.

"Anyone left unkissed tomorrow night will be leaving the masseria." Dannii added in as this was just a whole nother set of nerves for some girls.

"OKAY! Hang on!" Dannii added as she went to turn around and walk away. "One more thing."

"Just to make things a little bit more interesting....." My eyes started to widen with a nervous laugh escaping, as Dannii looked at all of us.

"Girls you've got company." Dannii told us as we all got ready, as a new girls was entering the masseria.

I sat with the girls as we saw a figure looming towards us, as she was exceptionally tall walking into the masseria.

I just screamed into my hands for a split second, as I looked at the girl in more detail.

It was Eva.

My fucking ex girlfriend!

And I just looked at her in the eyes as she spoke up. "Hiya girls." Getting cheers from some of the girls.

"Keep it going, come on." I heard Eva call out to all of us. I was just silent as I looked Eva up and down, biting my lip.

I would be lying if there weren't still feelings there for her, but I'm happy with Georgia.

Georgia who I've only known a day, but I have well over two years of history with Eva.

But as she got next to Dannii, the lady spoke up. "Girls, this is Eva. Eva welcome to the masseria."

"Eva how are you feeling?" Dannii asked the Irish lass as I kept my eyes on her.

"I feel good. Everyone looks well, yeah." Eva spoke up, and I was already back down for the accent, she knew that was my favourite thing about her.

"Is it nice seeing an old flame again?" Dannii asked the girl, as my heart dropped into my stomach, she knew, and everyone would know now.

"Yeah, you're looking good El." Eva spoke up, and my heart was in my stomach. I could feel my anxiety creeping down my throat as I felt all of the girls eyes on me.

And even if they weren't judging me, it felt like they were.

"So are you." I told her with a small smile, trying not to let this affect me, but I was loosing. I had to be.

The looks I could feel myself getting as I felt the hand around my waist from Georgia's arm loosen as it dropped.

I just kept my eyes on Eva as I was truly so confused as to how I felt right here right now.

"Well I'll leave you girls to it, and have a nice catch up you two." Dannii spoke up, looking directly at me, and if I wasn't so shocked and stressed right now I'd have passed out from Dannii Minogue looking at me.

"Ciao." Dannii told us as she waved to all of us before leaving us in the Masseria with Eva.

"Eva." I told the blonde girl with a small look, standing in front of her as the last girl to welcome her.

"El." Eva just told me with a smile, as she pulled me into a hug, our bodies fitting together all over again just right, like they were meant to fit together.

I just felt her kiss the top of my head as she exited the hug, like she used to, it was a norm and having it back immediately.

Well I was ready to die, ready to pass out, like fuck my life!

But we made our way to the masseria, towards the couched area, so we could all get to know Eva. Well so everyone else could get to know Eva.

"You're about to get grilled." Georgia told the girl as she walked in behind me, still having not touched me since Eva walked in.

"Yeah! I'm sitting right next to you, so I can hear everything." Amy told her with a smile, as I literally sat at the end of the sofa not know how to feel.

"Okay, who's your top three?" Fiorenza asked of Eva as she sat on the other side of me, holding my hand, keeping me stead in the wate I was drowning in.

"Okay straight off the bat, you......." Eva pointed to a girl.

"Meg." Meg told her as I didn't even look at the girl, just picked around my nails.

"You." Eva told us next as she pointed to someone new.

"Amy." Amy told us all, well Eva as she grinned, or was grinning, I could hear it in her vice.

"And El." Eva told us all as I just felt my breath hitch in my throat. And I truly was drowning now, unlike any other time before.

"Oooooh, spicy!" Lisha told us all with a smile.

Naee was the first to speak up. "Yeah, strong, strong top three." Naee added to the conversation.

"Shall I come and show you around?" Amy asked of Eva, as she was quick up off the sofa.

Everything was just so much, like seriously, why did this have to happen to me. My ex just had to walk into the villa.

But after Amy went off to give Eva a tour, I could feel the eyes of some of the girls on me. And I just stood up, fixing my bikini, before I walked away from the girls.

My fingers quickly messing with the rings that littered my hands, as they shook quickly in my grasps.

"I'll go check on her." Fiorenza told the girls with a nod, before walking off after me, as I walked up to the roof top terrace, sort of running up the stairs. Taking two at a time.

"I'll come too." Meg spoke up as she left the girls behind. The new couple both followed after me, as I was so fucking confused, I just needed my people in here right now.

"What the fuck?" I told the two girls as I was so close to ripping my hair out right here right now.

"Baby!" Meg told me as she came and hugged me close to her.

"My fucking ex girlfriend?" I asked the two girls as Fiorenza joined in on the hug, resting her head on my shoulder. "I'm so confused."

"How long was you with her for?" Fiorenza asked me as I tried to keep calm in the moment.

"Like a year, a year and a half." I told the girls as I shook my head.

"When was the last time you saw her?" Meg asked me as she held my hand tightly.

"When we broke up a year ago, she ended things and left." I told her as I shook my head.

"Bro I think my hearts gonna leap out of my chest." I told the girls as I held my hand up, trying to calm my heart, as it wasn't helping me right now.

"Mate I don't know what the fucks about to happen." I told the girls as I leaned my head against theirs, this was all too confusing.

"How are you feeling though now?" Fiorenza dug in knowing me already after one day.

"This is weird as." I told her trying to laugh it off but it wasn't going to work. "You know what."

"I just felt the judgement coming from people, you know, like I could feel their eyes digging into the back of me, and I get rattled, and the second Eva said hi to me, George's......." I told the girls slowly.

"George's hand just left me, like she didn't even wanna touch me, what am I over thinking this, like did it mean nothing, did it mean something." I asked myself and the girls.

"But I need to chat to Eva, but where do I even begin with a chat like this, how do I talk to her about everything." I told the two girls who were my rocks.

"Yeah , it's all just coming back and It's like twatting me in the face now." I told the girls trying not to cry, but failing. "Yeah, fucking, I just, yeah, it's all just coming back to me now. That's the part that's emotional right now."

"Yeah, just seeing her brings back so many memories we made together, like I will never forget that year and a half of my life." I told them while I shook my head.

"She was the first, it was the first time I had ever let anyone in other than Jana and Bruna. After everything with my family happened, and I stuck to myself, she opened me up, made me feel so many things." I told the girls as I was opening and cracking in front of them.

Neither of the girls questioning my words about my family, neither of them asking prying questions while I was this vulnerable.

"I let my walls down for her, cared about her so much. And yeah, to see her again it's just like........" I told them all as I took deep breaths in. "It's fucked with my head so much."

"I'm gonna forever have a bond with Eva, she showed me so much love while we were together, and I'll probably always love her deep down in my heart, but it's a question of whether I still love her or not." I told the girls.

"Is there any form of feelings there for her, from you?" Meg asked me the all important question.

"I don't know." I just muttered shaking my head. There could be some feelings but is that just because she's right here in front of me and not in fucking IRELAND!

"Is there any form of feelings there for her, from you?" Meg asked me the all important question.

"I don't know." I just muttered shaking my head. There could be some feelings but is that just because she's right here in front of me and not in fucking IRELAND!

I just sat there, cuddled into Fiorenza's chest as I listened to her heartbeat under her tit.

I had to listen to the words I'd usually give to patients in a panic attack, as I listened to her heartbeat under my ear, with her breathing helping me focus slowly.

And I had to listen to her breathing as I slowly focussed in on it and I now followed it, trying to calm myself fully.

But I heard some steps come up the stairs towards us, and I kept my head in Fiorenza's chest as Meg and her looked to the girl who had come to join us.

"El........." I heard her speak up to me for the first time. But I couldn't look up. I couldn't have her see me like this.

I couldn't let Eva know this is the effect she has on me right now.

"Eva......." Fiorenza slowly told the Irish girl in front of us right now.

"Can I talk to her?" Eva begged of the two girls sat by me, both of them hugging me, protecting me as best they could right now.

"No." Meg told her in an instant, knowing it's what I'd want.

"I want to hear that from her. I need to hear it from her, that she doesn't want to talk to me right now." Eva told the girls looking at them with that look in her eyes that I remember when she needed a proper serious conversation.

"El......" Eva asked of me as I could feel her eyes change on my back as I pulled myself away from Fiorenza's chest.

"No now, please." I told her not looking her in the eyes. "Give me time, please, later we can talk." I told her as I wiped my eyes.

"Okay, you come find me when you're ready." Eva told me as I watched her walk backwards away from me, before turning and going down the stairs towards the masseria, and the girls downstairs.

Probably to Amy, who I could tell was so excited by just the idea of Eva.

"I feel so stupid, what a fucking cry baby?!" I told myself after a few seconds, like seriously, who cries over their ex randomly appearing.

"Babes, you can get upset over this, like it's something massive happening in here." Meg told me with a smile as she brushed a braid out of my face.

It took a while but we finally made our way off of the oof terrace, and down to the other girls.

None of them spoke of what was happening, and I just led there with Lisha, as we cuddled, surrounded by the other girls.

"All right Priya!" Meg shouted as we watched the gal run and jump into the pool. "Go on girlllllll."

"The only thing I wear in a day is track suits." Lisha told all of us as she leaned to sit in front of me on the sun loungers.

"Is it actually?" I asked Lisha as I didn't even own one pair of trackies.

"Like in the day........ If I'm going out on a night out, I'll wear a pair of jeans or whatever, or trousers." Lisha started to tell us all as I was pulling faces behind her back.

"But I have to wear boys jeans which is a lot baggier." Lisha added as I nodded, a baggy set of jeans are just the best.

"How do you guys feel about the word...... 'lesbian'?" Georgia asked us all, and these were the first fucking words I had heard from her all afternoon.

"I don't mind it, really and truly. I use it." Priya told us all as I just shrugged.

I don't exclusively use it, but that's just me, and my mindset after the attack it's safer for me.

"Do you?" Georgia asked Priya, like she has something against the word.

"I don't know why people shy away from that word." Priya asked of us, but it's so hard for so many of us.

"I just say I'm gay. Like I don't like using the word 'lesbian'." Naee told us as we nodded, I just say I'm gay to people all the time.

"Yeah, I've never used the term queer either." Meg added in as I nodded in agreement with he.

"I just say like, 'Oh I'm into girls'." Abbie told us as she joined us on the sun lounger, sitting between me and Lisha, resting her head on my stomach.

"Yeah." Georgia nodded.

"Or I'll say I'm queer." Abbie added in.

"yeah." Georgia told her back. "Thinking back to like school, like there was a boy that was interested and you weren't about it, it was, 'oh, are you a fucking lesbian?'."

"It's like, 'No I just don't fucking like you. You're a cock.'." Georgia told us as we all nodded at her.

I think for me it was so different as I grew up surrounded by Queer people in Spain, even when I was young, as I spent so much time around queer female athletes, and I'm still best friends with them now.

"Do you guys know why the letter L is the first letter in the LGBTQ+?" Georgia asked us as I shook my head.

"I remember......." I heard Priya start to say.

"No..... I don't." I heard another voice join in the conversation.

"For a reason........" Meg added into it all, as the voices collated together.

"You know, back with the HIV and the AIDs epidemic, obviously that was, it was, like, gay men, so nobody really wanted to help them." Georgia started and I could already see where this was going.

"It was lesbians that wee helping them and like, nursing them......" Georgia started to tell us.

"Go on gal." Naee slapped my thigh, knowing I was the only one of us in healthcare currently, not knowing my struggles.

I just pursed my lips together, today was not my day, was I gonna have to go through my trauma right here, right now, with these girls.

"Stop that's giving me goose bumps." Abbie said as everyone was awwwing over it.

"I'm going to cry." Georgia told us as her eyes were going a bit red.

"Is it actually?" Abbie asked.

Meg was the one to get up and cuddle Georgia, I wasn't going to be the first to initiate contact right now after everything, I get I'm being a bit petty and she needs someone, but where was she when I needed her.

I felt a hand touch mine as I got lost in the crowd of voices, fingers interlacing with mine, as I felt myself get lost in my thoughts. Not hearing a word anyone was saying.

"Can we have our chat?" I looked to the side and saw Eva mouth at me.

I just nodded and got up, letting her follow me towards the bedroom, as I led on a random bed that I'm sure was actually Fiorenza's.

I felt a hand touch mine as I got lost in the crowd of voices, fingers interlacing with mine, as I felt myself get lost in my thoughts. Not hearing a word anyone was saying.

"Can we have our chat?" I looked to the side and saw Eva mouth at me.

I just nodded and got up, letting her follow me towards the bedroom, as I led on a random bed that I'm sure was actually Fiorenza's.

It felt like we were sat there for an eternity but we weren't, we were only silent in the bedroom for a few seconds, not even a minute.

"Hi." Eva just said to me, really you pull me and that's all you have to say. 'hi'.

"Come on, you pulled me, say what you wanna say to me." I looked at the blonde haired Irish lass through my sun glasses as I wanted her to actually talk to me. "I need to hear what you have to say."

"I wasn't expecting you here." Eva just told me as she looked at me. "But I'm not upset by any means that you're here."

"You weren't expecting me, I wasn't expecting you, you think I wanted you here." I asked her as I shook my head.

"I just don't know how to feel." Eva told me. "You given me a headfuck and I've only been in here for half an hour."

"It's hard for me having you here, it is." I told Eva as I leaned my head on my arm.

"Cos when we spilt up, you made it so clear to me how you didn't want a relationship, how that was the last thing on you mind." I added in as I looked at her, moving my sunglasses up. "You're not looking for a relationship, but you know that that's what I want."

"I want that connection with someone." I told her as I just was so confused by her. "And you being here, it has messed up my head with Georgia, and her head with mine."

"The girl I'm in a couple with doesn't want to be near me right now, cos she's found out my ex is in the masseria with us. She hasn't looked at me. Touched me since you said hi to me." I told Eva as I shook my head at her.

"I don't see how that part is my fault, truly, like, she didn't and doesn't have to pull away from you because I'm in here. I'm not gonna stop you exploring it with anyone." Eva told me as I nodded my head, I was taking that side out on Eva when it wasn't her fault.

"But I never said I wasn't looking for anything serious, I'd been your girlfriend for two years. I wouldn't have stayed with you for that long if I wasn't looking for anything serious." Eva told me as she looked like she was going to grab my hand but was refusing that twitch in her body.

"You said you wanted to be single, that you didn't want a relationship." I told her as I had to recount what she told me the day she broke up with me.

"Obviously you didn't want one with me, and that's fine." I told her as I looked her in the eye. "But I can't have you making comments fucking me up with Georgia, I don't need that right now, it's not gonna help us."

"But that's what I'm thinking of right now, like, I wanted to come in here with a fresh start, but now I don't get that." I told Eva with a nod.

"Like, an ex is an ex for a reason and I shouldn't go back there, but I have so many memories with Eva that's it is hard to forget them." I told myself as I was in the confessional room of the house, with my red puffy eyes.

"Like, at one point you were my best friend and partner, like, there is something still there deep down, and like, I don't know how I feel." Eva told me as she was starting to get tear in her eyes from all of this.

"I'm just pissed off because, I don't wanna feel like that." I told Eva as I pushed my sunglasses back up my nose, to hide my red eyes from how close I was to crying right now.

"Don't cry, please, you'll break my heart if you start crying." Eva told me as she pulled me in for a hug, as she placed her head on top of mine.

"I've really missed you, you've always been my favourite person." Eva confided in me, but this just confused me.

"Stop." I told her as I shook my head, I didn't need her compliments right now.

"Just take a compliment for once." Eva told me, as she shook her head annoyed at my attitude right now.

"What else do you want me to say?" Eva told me as she finally looked me dead in the eyes, both of our sunglasses led on the bed next to us.

"Nothing, I'd take that front you." I just told Eva as I shook my head.

"From me?" She asked me with a laugh. "I don't hand them out do it?"

"I mean, sometimes, but when do I hunt for compliments." I asked her as I messed with my hair, shaking my head.

Eva then suddenly spoke up, as she just told me. "You like her? Georgia I mean."

"Yeah, I really do like her. I've only known her for a day or two." I told Eva as I nodded, I didn't truly didn't want to admit my feelings in case she walked all over me. But Georgia was different, and I wanted her. "You just seem to know how to push my buttons."

"I bet I still can." Eva told me as she set her water bottle down and moved closer to me. I shook my head. "You don't? I think I can wind you up easily still. Should we put it to the test."

"Unless you want me to bite you and scream, I'd pass on that love." I told Eva as I shook my head.

"How are you feeling though after that chat?" Eva asked me as she loked over at me. "Don't feel like you have to lie, I know how hard being a paramedic is for you."

"It's just, like, the girls were just saying how amazing it is having lesbians' in healthcare, but I've just seen me being gay in that workforce as a detriment." I told Eva with a nod. "I can't show who I am on shift, I have to hide myself away."

"Otherwise I just end up with another scar on my neck, or another injury, or I end up in hospital or therapy again. And I can't do that." I told her as I shook my head. "It was scary enough the first time having my neck sewn up, I can't imagine worse things happening now."

"Can I?" Eva asked me as she moved my necklace away from my neck, it was a few gold necklaces that were layered to try and distract from the ugly scar left at my neck.

"Yeah." I told her taking a deep breath and gulp as I felt her reach out for my neck.

"You're still so gorgeous in my eyes, that'll never change." Eva told me as she looked at the scar that covered the front of my neck, which was barely visible as it was covered with makeup.

"Yes it will, what happened when I get hurt more, what happens when I get brutalised on shift again?" I asked her. "Or when my trauma catches up to me about my family."

"I can't do it alone." I told Eva as I leaned on her for support.

"I'll be right here, as a friend or as a partner to keep you safe." Eva told me as she kissed the top of my head as she just held me close.

The rest of the afternoon passed pretty smoothly as we all started to get changed for a chilled out night in the masseria, but I still wanted to feel my best, so it was time for me to still be a bit dolled up.

"Cheers to the newcomer!" Amy raised her glass in the air as I stood between Fiorenza and Naee as we all raised our glasses.

"Cheers!" We all told each other as we raised our glasses with a smile.

"Are we gonna play like, never have I ever?" Eva asked us all as we took our seats around the couched area, as I sat with my legs over Fiorenza's as we relaxed.

"Wait so are we taking a sip?" Meg asked as we clarified the rules, but Eva was just staring off into space, as she spotted something.

"Sorry is that a new girl?" Abbie asked us all as I turned my head to find what she was looking for, and I wanted to scream as I saw THE MOST attractive woman walk into the masseria.

"What the fuck?" I asked her as I looked her up and down a smile on my face, I hoped she would be a new girl for us.

"Ohhhhhhhh!" Meg was basically screaming as we saw the woman walk up to us.

"Hi. How ae you doing?" I hear her speak as I was already swooning over her.

"Favoloso." I told them all with a smile, speaking in Italian for a second.

"You know Italian? Impressive." The woman told me with a smirk as I was so close to blushing, thank fuck it doesn't show how hard I'm blushing at her words.

"yeah, actually I'm not joining the party with you." The woman told us as I was so tempted to start pouting and I did start pouting, she was so pretty and I would have loved a party with her.

"I'm Sara and I'm the house keeper of this bella masseria." Sara told us, and damn that's such a pretty name, but I can't fucking fall for the bloody house keeper, surely that's against the rules of this thing.

"And I have to give this to Eva." Sara kept saying as we finally noticed the note she was holding in her hand, whcih I was already looking at, spying the chunky rings she had covering her hands.

"Eva you have a message from Dannii." Sara told her, passing over the letter to the Irish lass. "So enjoy your night."

"Ciao Bellissima." Sara told us, with a small smile, and a wink towards us. Or was I just being delusional, again.

"Alla prossima." I told her with a smile and a wave.

"Alla prossima." Sara told me with a nod and a wink directed at me as I pretended to faint onto Naee with a smile.

"Can she come back?" Meg asked us as we both watched her walk away.

"I know, don't leave us." I told her as she left us in the masseria.

"Come back!" Me and Meg just shouted out to her before laying back giggling like little school girls.

"Come on read it out to the class!" Priya asked of us as we all waited for the note from Dannii.

"So 'Eva as you haven't kissed a girl yet, I'd like you to choose one girl to go on a date with." Eva read out. "Please let the lucky girl know now, because your date is ready. Love and Kisses, Dannii."

"Oooooh" We all said as we waited for Eva to make her choice, and I can't lie, I didn't want to be chosen, I needed to talk with Georgia before I even thought about chatting to Eva again tonight.

"Okay, go on, big reveal. Who are you choosing?" Demi asked of Eva as we all looked to her to give an answer.

"Amy, do you want to go on a date?" Eva turned to look at the ginger lass with a smile.

"I'd love to." Amy told her with a massive grin on her lips.

"Go get yours girl!" Georgia shouted across the hut, as we cheered them out of the area so they could go off on their date.

"Never have I ever, slept with one of my friends exes." Abbie asked us all as we were chilling just playing 'Never have I ever' now.

I haven't and none of us drank to that.

"This is quite good though, I feel like that's quite a lesbian thing to do." Georgia told us all as we nodded, I'm proud I haven't especially with how many of my friends are gay too. "Well done girls."

"We're breaking stereotypes and we're breaking down barriers." Georgia told us all as we just burst out laughing.

"I wonder how their date's going." Demi told all of us as some of the girls agreed.

"I wonder what they're doing on their date." Abbie told us as we all nodded. "What do you think it is?"

"Necking." Demi just outright told us making us all burst out laughing.

As we all dispersed away from the couched area, I stood in front of Georgia before she could make a move.

"Could we go for a chat?" I asked her as I was getting fidgety, not really wanting this chat as I was so scared as to how it could and could end for us.

"Yeah, come on." Georgia said as she held her hand out for me, before walking me towards the roof top as she held my hand to sort of pick where we would have this chat.

"How are you feeling?" Georgia asked me as we both sat down on the couched upstairs.

"I don't know, I'm just, I'm just so confused with everything. This just isn't what I thought was gonna happen today." I told her as I shook my head.

"Honestly there is no one else in this Masseria that I have any sort of initial attraction to, and would have that attraction to." Georgia told me as I nodded.

"I don't want to force any connections in this place, but I know I have that with you." Georgia told me as she looked me in my eyes.

"But I have to say, what you did today. If you're going to do that again, I will not stay here, I will walk away from you." I told Georgia, messing with my hair.

"It really hurt me today, I have been through a lot of emotions tonight, but you pulling away from me at the first sight of my ex in here, hurt more." I told her as I shook my head.

"Why, why did you pull away from me?" I asked her. "I know I've only known you for a day, but I wanted you here with me."

"I don't know, I just start of panicked." Georgia told me. "You have history with Eva, and just her words, they rattled me, why wouldn't they, she's gorgeous, you're gorgeous, like you could easily get back with her."

"Yes, I was with her for a long time. Yes, I will probably always love, she taught me how to love." I told Georgia as I opened this side of my heart up. "But I'm with you, that's not gonna change unless you tell me it has, or I tell you it has."

"I'm not doing this no communication bullshite, I need you to tell me when something's wrong Georgia, or we're not gonna make it far together." I told Georgia as I looked her dead in the eyes.

"Okay?" I asked her.

"Okay." Georgia told me nodding.

"Good, cos I'm not going through the no touching again." I told Georgia, saddling up next to her, as she wrapped her arms around my waist.

"Why are you getting awkward when I stare at you?" Georgia asked me as I leaned away from her, twatting my head on the concrete wall behind me in the process.

"Awwwwwww." Georgia told me as she put her hand on the back of my head, rubbing the spot I had just twatted on the side.

"You're not sitting like that." I told Georgia looking at her sitting stance right now.

"Why?" Georgia asked me with a small smile on her lips.

"Because I can't handle that." I told her with a smile, biting my lip.

"But you know I like your eyes." Geogia told me as she was holding my close to her, looking into my eyes.

"Oh my God." I told myself as I rolled my eyes hard into the back of my head.

"Stop rolling your eyes." Georgia told me shaking her head at me.

"I can't, I can't stop my eyes doing that." I told her with a smile, sitting up to turn and face her. "I don't even know I'm doing that."

"So what? Stop complimenting your eyes?" Georgia asked me as I wanted to roll my eyes again, but I refrained from that.

"No, keep going, but I can't stop...." I told her with a smile.

"But just know that you're always going to be....? Okay." Georgia told me as she smile at me trying not to laugh. "I now know that you secretly like it."

"I'm just gonna keep going until you stop rolling your eyes at me." Georgia told me as she held my hand tightly.

"I don't know what would come in that could make me swerve from you." Georgia told me with a nod, as I was messing with her hands.

"Well, tomorrows a new day, I'll keep the eye rolls down, and you missy, don't fucking ignore me for half of the day!" I told her as I lightly tugged on one of her fingers with a smile.

"I won't." Georgia told me with a smile.

"Now can I have a kiss?" Georgia asked me with a smile.

"You can kiss me." I told her with a giddy grin as she pulled me in close. Laying her lips upon me once again, her hands around my waist as mine rested on her shoulders.

Getting ready for bed with all the girls, I just wanted to get in my bed and just relax. So I just chilled with Meg, while we got everything ready for bed.

And I drifted off to bed so easily tonight.

But waking up, was a different story as I wanted to stay asleep.

"Morning." I heard Priya speak up first this morning.

"Is she awake?" I heard someone ask Georgia as she was running a hand through my hair. And I just kept her close, as I was led on top of her unknowingly.

"Yeah, she keeps wriggling!" Georgia told the group as she chuckled, and I could feel it, and I now realised what exactly my pillow was moving about a bit, it was fucking Georgia. I was still sleeping on Georgia's chest.

"I mean you're a lovely pillow!" I looked up and told Georgia with a small smile on my face. And I just rolled off of her chest with a smile, before I looked at everyone.

"HIYA!" I shouted at everyone before stretching.

"You ready for tonight?" Abbie asked me as I started to get ready for the day, as it was the day of the first kiss off, and one of us would be going home, or potentially three of us would be.

"You dirty dog, what's happening?" I heard Georgia say as she left me on the vanity with Abbie as she was plucking my eyes brows.

"Nothing!" Naee told us all as she was doing something with her teeth.

"I want to know the drama." Abbie told her from next to me as I nodded, well as best I could with Abbie holding my head still.

"There's no drama." Naee told us as I called bullshit, she's got two gals after her.

I was at around the pool, leaning on one of the pillars as my feet were dipping into the pool. With Amy next to me, finally letting me have a chat with her like I've been meaning to.

"Oh wow, you're literally full blown staring." I told Amy with a smile, as I watched her watch Eva working out in the mini gym with chicken arms Fiorenza.

"Is that, is that a sign of love or.....?" I asked Amy with a smile as she scoffed laughing at me.

"I did just want to talk to you cos I don't want you to think I'm gonna tread on your toes, cos I'm not but....." I started to tell Amy.

Before she cut me off saying. "She is your ex." Amy told me as I nodded.

"Yeah." I told her. "And like it doesn't mean I wanna go there again, but I'm always gonna be in love with that woman. But I can't be with her now."

"Yeah, or course, been there done that." Amy told me with a smile.

"But I wanna like, explain anything to you if you're gonna be with he, cos I don't want you thinking me chatting with Eva or anything else is meaning I don't want you two to be together, but Eva gets me. I already know her. I have and will always love her and have a place in my heart for her, even if we're not together." I told Amy with a nod.

"Yeah, of course, and I don't want you to think I'm just ignoring how you feel cos Eva's here." Amy told me with a smile.

But like I was sort of hoping you two would be more like....." I told Amy pushing my hands together with a nod.

"I know." Amy told me with a small smile, under her cap.

"Do you have any worries, like, who is your worry about this?" I asked Amy with a smile.

"Erm, her and Meg, you and her, just cos you two are exes, you don't know what she's thinking on that side of it." Amy told me with a nod as I nodded back at her.

"Her and Meg really get along. I don't want to.... I'm, like, trying not to think about it too much cos then I will get in my own head and then panic a bit." Amy told us with a nod.

"Yeah." I told her with a nod back, running my hand through my hair.

And as the day progressed the more we all started to get ready for the kiss off, and prepare ourselves for the impending time we would have together before at least one of us was sent packing.

So I started getting ready for tonight with Fiorenza and Amy, as Amy helped me style my hair out a bit, as I was struggling with a way to put it up.

But we just left it down and plain for the night, as I wanted my dress to be more of the focus.

It was time for our heads to be finally screwed on right as it was time for the first kiss off. And at least one of us would be heading home for the night. It was time to decide where all of us stood in our couples.

I walked in with Georgia holding her hand as we all stood in a line by the pool we all first met in, and had our first kissed by. So who knows what would happen.

"Oh my God, look at her!" Amy shouted up as we all turned our head seeing Dannii walk into the Masseria, in a gorgeous pink dress with glitter accents. And we all cheered seeing her.

"Girls welcome to your first Kiss Off." Dannii told us all with a smile as it was the time we had all been waiting for.

"Tonight you will reveal if you want to stay with your current girl, or if your saving your kiss for someone else." Dannii told us as we all just stood there, hanging onto her every word.

"The big question is, does the girl you want to kiss want to kiss you back?" Dannii asked us, and I just had to hope so. I had one shot at this, and I didn't want to lose her already because hse had doubts.

"Anyone left unkissed will be leaving the masseria." Dannii announced as we all nodded looking at her. "You'll notice Eva isn't here. She'll be joining us later."

"First up Abbie and Lisha please step forward." Dannii asked the two gals to the left of us as they walked forward.

"Girls I'll ask you to stand back to back and take a moment." Dannii asked of the two girls as they turned, now standing back to back with each other. As Dannii tood there, all of us watching them.

"If you want to stay with your girl, turn and kiss her. But if your saving your kiss for someone else, don't turn." Dannii told us all, well really just Lisha and Abbie but we were all just watching them now.

All of us watched them as it took a minute before Dannii spoke up again. "Reveal your decision, now."

And we watched on before both Lisha and Abbie turned and looked at each other, before kissing each other for a moment as we all cheered for the two girls, well more like screaming them on.

Dannii squealed for the couple as she looked overjoyed. "Mama's so happy!" Dannii told us as she was ecstatic. Normally I found that an ick but Dannii was a queen and this wasn't icky at least.

"What's the thing that's drawn you to each other?" Dannii asked the couple.

"Her eyes." Lisha told us all as we could just see Dannii's happy reaction.

"The way you're really cheeky." Abbie added in with a smile on her face, which I could tell was there without even seeing her face. And we all laughed as Lisha turned to face us like she was a frat boy. "Yeah, personality. Obviously looks as well, you're beautiful!" Abbie quickly fixed as we all laughed.

"Abbie and Lisha head over to these seats here." Dannii told the girls as we cheered them on, as there were now four couples left, and Eva.

"Elena and Georgia you're up." Dannii told us as we walked forward, my hand clinging to Eva's as we went towards Dannii.

"Please stand back to back." Dannii asked us both as we followed her direction and I faced the girls taking a few deep breaths.

I just locked eyes with Fiorenza for a split second and she nodded to me with a smile.

"Reveal your decision now....." Dannii told us.

And I just kept taking a breath before I turned around, spotting Georgia facing me, before she pulled me in for a kiss with a wide smile on her face. As we heard the girls behind us cheering for us very loudly.

"Yeah, the lipstick. Okay!" Dannii told us as I tried to wipe away some of the lipstick from around Georgia's lips but I couldn't get to much of it.

"I know, I know." I told her with a smile.

"I feel like you guys haven't taken your hands off each other." Dannii tried to tell us. "Well apart from when Eva came in butttttt......"

"All right girls you know where to go, to the love seats." Dannii told us as the girls cheered us over to the benches.

"Fiorenza and Demi you're up." Dannii told the two girls as they came over to stand opposite her.

"Right girls you know the drill." Dannii just told them as they instantly stood back to back, and we all knew where this would be going, as they both didn't want to be in a couple with each other.

"If you're saving your kiss for someone else, don't turn. Reveal your decision now." Dannii told the two girls who we all already knew what was going to happen.

And we all watched as they both stayed standing back to back with each other.

"Okay, girls, turn around, face me." Dannii asked of the girls as they were not gonna be kissing each other tonight.

"What is it that hasn't worked?" Dannii asked the two of them.

"Um, I feel like we talked it over and we just weren't feeling each other like that, right?" Demi tried to explain it without dropping in Fiorenza kissing Meg on the bloody rooftop on the first night.

"I don't think there was, like, that spark." Fiorenza tried to explain to us all. "But...."

You're great." Demi said and I just tried not to laugh.

"We're besties." Fiorenza told us all with a smile, and that broke me into some giggles.

"Okay, Fiorenza, which girl are you saving your kiss for?" Dannii asked the girl with a smile, as we all knew who she was gonna say.

"Meg." Fiorenza told us all very calmly.

"Okay we will find out later on if Meg wants to kiss you back." Dannii told us all as we waited to see what Meg wanted, Eva or Fiorenza. "Otherwise you will be leaving the Masseria."

"Demi, which girl are you saving your kiss for?" Dannii now turned to Demi to ask her the all important question.

"I'm saving my kiss for Naee." Demi told us as this was a trickier one as we had no clue who Naee wanted if it was Demi or Priya.

"All right we will find out soon if Naee wants to kiss you back." Dannii told us all as we waited to see who Naee truly wanted; to stick with Priya or to be with Demi. "Otherwise you will be leaving the Masseria."

"Please step back into line." Dannii asked of the two girls as they turned back.

"Amy and meg, please come and join me." Danii asked of the two girls, we yet again knew would want to swap who they're in a couple with, the two girls instantly going back to back with each other.

"Okay girls, reveal you decision now." Dannii asked of the two girls as we watched on from the benches.

And we all sat there as they stayed back to back with each other.

"Okay girls turn and face me." Dannii asked of the girls as they faced her finally to talk about this. "What was it?"

"I don't know, I think it was just like an initial spark, maybe it wasn't there." Amy spoke up as she looked at Meg.

"yeah. I mean she's stunning isn't she?" Meg asked as she hugged Amy.

"But, like, literally bestie vibes." Amy told us all as we watched on. "Bestie vibes."

"This means you're both saving your kisses for another girl." Dannii told the girls with a smile.

"Amy, which girl are you saving your kiss for?" Dannii now turned to face Amy to ask her the all important question.

"I'm saving my kiss for Eva." Amy told us all as this could be a couple where they both fight it out for Eva.

"Okay, well, Eva's not here, so we will find out later if she feels the same." Dannii told us all as we waited to see who Eva would pick. "if not, you will be leaving the Masseria. Amy please step back to the line."

"Meg we know where Fiorenza stands." Dannii started towards the blonde haired lass. "But where do you? Reveal the name of the girl you are saving your kiss for........ Now."

"Fiorenza." Meg told us all as I was ready to cheer so loudly right now.

"Ahhhhhhh!" Dannii was all of us, and how we wanted to be as she reacted to Meg's instantaneous reaction. "Fiorenza, take it away and seal it with a kiss."

We all cheered as Fiorenza walked forward, kissing Meg very passionately as we all cheered.

"Awwwwww! I'm so happy for you!" Dannii told us all as we were all buzzing.

"Okay, girls, take a seat!" Dannii asked the other couple as they sat next to me and I just squeezed Fiorenza and Meg, two of my best friends in here.

"Priya and Naee, please step forward." Dannii asked of the couple, making them come stand opposite her.

"Naee you know that Demi has saved her kiss for you." Dannii told the couple, who would basically decide who would be leaving Priya or Demi.

"But it's time for you to both make your decision." Dannii told us all as we waited on with baited breaths for who Naee would turn for. "Please stand back to back."

The couple stood back to back as we just watched on waiting for the moment to happen.

"Okay girls, reveal you decision now." Dannii asked of the two girls as we watched on from the benches.

And we watched as the two girls turned around to..................

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