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onyx-got-clowned · 3 months

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neurotypicals are weird, like wdym i can’t sit on the floor??? Because it’s ’disrespectful’ or ‘distracting’ ??? How??? Literally so confused wtf. It’s the church floor, i am sitting next to the chair with my attention on you, it’s NOT that deep 😭 Mormons are literally sooooo annoying oh my godddd

#“You need to sit in a chair we are starting the lesson”#Bro. How does that change anything #I can literally ignore you if i wanted to #Sitting on a chair is no different than sitting on the floor #Yall just soft #and force stupid ass social standards on me #Onyx rants⭐️#Autistic #actually autistic #actually autism #Autism #neurodivergent #audhd #Exmo #exmormon #ex religious

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eclaire-went-bam · 1 month

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ppl, especially low/no-empathy ppl, who talk to ableist anti-pd cluster b abuse believers with the upmost patience & understanding are so crazy (/pos) for that because what

how do y'all sit there and level w/ them just. so much.

i know it's kind of necessary bcs even if they don't listen to us anyways, they're only gonna think we're 10× worse if we don't walk them through the spiel w/ hands held (which we're not even owed to do anyways) but like i can hardly see myself doing it

so like

respect

#y'all should be honoured y'all got My respect specifically .... /silly #cluster b #tw ableism #npd #bpd #aspd #hpd #narcissistic personality disorder #borderline personality disorder #antisocial personality disorder #histrionic personality disorder #low empathy #no empathy #narc abuse #obligatory Is Not Real #maybe i could do it ?? i tried to level before when explaining it to ppl on a different app but even then i was still kinda pointed #but it'd be exhausting.#i'm gonna be honest i think most of these sorta posts or replies are mostly for Our community anyways since #i don't think i've Ever seen anyone change their stance on this no matter how it's conveyed #so i'm sure people go into these discussions knowing that too #i mean if anyone does have any examples feel free to tell. Curious #but yea i guess a lotta ableists have those same self-insulated type of beliefs as your average conspiracy #“anyone who tells you otherwise is wrong for x y & z reasons. if they say literally anything contrary to this they're trying to team up &#manipulate you. these people whom you have never interacted with in your life prior to this. they're in kahoots w ur abuser to validate the #abuse. just trust me on this bro“ type stuff #“don't trust pw/pds bcs they're pw/pds” circular reasoning #didn't mean to basically type something that could be a whole new post in the tags but like whatevs

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cinnamon-grump · 9 months

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Im tired of being a human can I pls just be aa a swamp monster already

#or like.. anything but this idk #i hurt all over and I’m borked in the brain #shut up ashwyn #bro why does eberyone hate me #how do i change

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ironmanstan · 9 months

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I am coming to the realization i have been slowly killing myself with work i think oops

#m thinking now and im like #i havent read ... anything consistently .. or watched anything .. or had time to like do anything #in genuinely so long #and i was like kinda becoming ok w it #my brain issues .. nothing matters i dont need anything all i need is me i dont need to have anyone or anything with me <- bad. stop it #part of this was the i need my dad to be proud of me braincell but well i win award i have 4.0 gpa and he still yell at me #deciding now to stop caring so much (i still do but ill ignore it) i need 2 be alive again i dont care #im so mad i dont even know .. im so viscerally angry like actually i dont even know what to do with that lmfao #my brother does shit all and u give him sm slack have NEVER treated him as bad as youve treated me #and nothing i do NOTHING is good enough or changes how u look at me #like idk he called me and i cried so much i got so fucking upset i fhkdhdkf ok. ok.#he will b like omg im so proud of u i love u so much ive always believed in u and i just think back to when #he yelled at me once like fiiive years ago and i was like u just make me feel so worthless all the time #and he was like yeah bc you are worthless #and im like hmmm idk bestie i dont think youve ever changed from looking at me like that and it is insanely obvious lmao #i dont even know bro im crazy. m insane got given an inch and tried to take a mile like omg i can actually be recognized as worth something #nevermind ill stop killing myself for that pipe dream now lol #m not even upset im just mad lmao i dont wanna hate my dad and i dont but every day i feel more and more like i should #vent

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purgetrooperfox · 2 months

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nothing more simultaneously satisfying + humbling + tedious + painstaking + euphoric than making and formatting oc refsheets

#every time i start i realize that i don't know anything KSNDKDNDKD #actually got one coming along for nocte rn but i have to Actually Decide his canon to finish it #does he die in the stormtrooper corps? does he get out somehow? does he survive until the early rebellion days? I Don't Know #kind of like the idea of him getting free and having to figure out how to survive #i'm too attached to him i want to give him plot armor #also. i'm looking at the wiki page for clone stormtroopers and i must ask what in the hell is going on. tbb is changing things and i #am confused #this is so. augh #i know how bastra dies at least! sorry bro! but god there's so much extra detail in the middle #sigh #leo.txt #leocs #i'll post these when i finish them though. oc masterpost someday #shoutout to kiwi for inspiring me to do actual formatting

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infizero · 7 months

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grian: "i'm not gifting you the heart, i'm giving it to someone SPECIAL."

(silence)

scar: (hangs his head) "wow..."

grian: "aw ok i'm sorry- no no i'm not even gonna fall for this, i got guilted into helping you out last time, and you got a ton of stuff! i'm not being fooled"

#jaw kind of dropped when grian said that bro. UNCALLED FOR #anyways theres something so interesting to me about. grian being mean to scar and then as soon as scar acts hurt #grian's instinct IS to apologize. but then he changes his mind and is like no no im not gonna be guilted im not gonna be fooled #<- WHICH TO BE FAIR. this is scar we're talking about here. but also #its very interesting to me. with my little ''grian does care about scar he just has Emotional Issues from 3rd life that never really #went away'' mindset. this feels like progress. from just being mean to scar and not caring about it #its a little thing but the fact that he goes to apologize at first. makes me think things are looking up #i feel like they're already on much better terms this season which um. considering how last season ended is a little surprising #but not really considering. scar never seems to blame grian or get mad at him for anything he does #and idk if grian feels bad about his ''betrayal'' at all so to both of them its like not an issue and therefore doesnt affect #their current interactions #NOW. this could age very poorly. im still not over the bait-and-switch that was last season w barely any interactions and then That #they could act all niceys to each other this season and then later down the line when everythings crazy something terrible could happen #and i'll go insane over it. but for right now im uncharacteristically an optimist when it comes to these two. maybe they can finally just #be niceys to each other the whole time. i doubt it but maybe!#serena.txt #serena.live #slsmp spoilers

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moderngirlmp3 · 1 year

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as a society i think we need to talk less about eddie munson

#listen. LISTEN. i get it he’s cool and nonconformist and edgy and. dead and queercoded i GET IT #but like jesus christ yall the amounts of character butchery that the entire fandom has been subjected to #also hi sorry can we maybe possibly also address how the entire fandom insists on queerifying all the male characters. when we have.#a canonical wlw character. like ?? i just. im used to it from every other fandom but like #i simply do not have the patience for it in this one. can we please not ignore robin #also why does the obsession with eddie always come at the expense of the other more fleshed out characters.#like just say you want a self insert and go but don’t pretend that all of your headcanons or whatever actually happened #ESPECIALLY when it comes to ships. ahem steddie shippers. completely changing both of their characters and dynamics w other characters #i get wanting to change aspects of canon. trust me. i have a five page google doc of complaints. but like can we not act like he’s #canonically anything other than another minor character that the duffer bros sacrificed bc they didn’t wanna kill a main #and like. i don’t know. something about how the relationship everyone wants to focus on. is between steve and eddie ??#who barely interact and tbh don’t have much stake in each others lives.#as opposed to like. dustin and eddie ??? like im sorry but. why is steve always so destroyed in fics where eddie dies #and dustin is just like. crying or whatever.#steve barely fucking knew the guy let’s be real.#i dont know. im angry and tired of shitty characterization and wlw being ignored for less relevant white men #roxisms #st #stranger things

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firep0wder · 1 year

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I don't want to go to work tomorrow I want to get high and have gay sex and play guitar with my friends forever and ever and eat good food. Alas weed costs money so I need the job

#fp.txt #yeah yeah never trust how you feel abt life after sunset but every day it's the same feeling of oh I'm never gonna be a real human person #who functions right the way everyone else does. I'm never gonna learn how to form new relationships I have no faith in my ability to do #anything out of my routine anymore but my routine just makes me feel worse every day Where is all this coming from what the hell. huh what.#apparently I have memories of reflecting on these same feelings for several days if not weeks now. but I don't know when that happened this #is the first I'm hearing of it. I can't refute it tho it does feel like I'm never ever gonna change or better myself and I'm just getting #worse and everyone who loves me is gonna cut their losses eventually. Jesus Christ I'm already 20 what in the hell happened the past 3 years #I don't remember any of it. I just want to go to bed bro where is all this shit coming from

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#i truely have so much anger built up inside me about my job. ive done a very good job of making it unbearable #and after taking a 10 day vacation. plus 2 days of not working bc im sick. i really dont wanna go back #i was planning to take 3 days to not do fucking anything but my boss just emailed me with some time sensitive #logistical things. so like i guess i gotta fucking do that tomorrow. i started reading the email and it made my head hurt #and she started it off like. hopw ur feeling better and i dont wanna cause stress but...#like bro. listen. if u tell me these things u put them in my head and i csnt stop thinking abt them until theyre done. and its not her #fault bc im the one that put myself in a place where im barely keeping it together. its just frustrating #bc it feels like hope u feel better but also kill urseld 💖 but again thats just how it feels bc im so. idk how to describe it im like in a #state of post burnout. im sitting in the ash. alone in a desolate landscape and its like jesus how tf do i fix this?#and i cant even run out my anger rn bc im sick. and i mean i have the energy to run i dont feel lethargic but like i doubt that would aid #recovery lol. ugh. 2 months. thats all. then i move away. assuming i find a place to live lol. bc i currently haven't yet #but whatever. assuming i get better quickly and dont get worse and dont get covid on top of this cold bc my dad got covid #it will have been a bit of a blessing i came back sick bc i have a clear justification for not working and for telling people to fuck off #when they ask for things from me. like today a lab mate asked if i could sample Monday. which it technically #a holiday but i probably would have said yes if i wasnt sick. and i would have had to teach undergrads some bullshit friday if i wasnt sick #instead i just did nothing all day bc i almost moved bsck my flight and didnt leave home until the weekend anyway #i guess its good i didnt bc then i would have been stuck in ohio bc my dad found out he had covid yesterday #idk its all just frustrating bc im halfway in a transition and im not doing very well but i cant do anything to fix things until i leave #the southwest. like i dont even kno if i have health insurance rn. my benifits change request was processed but like does thst mean it was #approproved? fucking idk. so everytime i do anything i imagine a worstcase scenario where i end up hospitalized and damned to an empty #bank account or eternal medical debt. tho my mum said they passed a law where they arnt allowed to do thst to u anymore 🤷‍♂️#whatever. im annoyed. i dont wanna work 😫#unrelated

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pr · 2 years

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everytime i talk to my younger brother, i feel like he gives me the same attitude he has about having to talk to our mom. and it makes me So Unbelievably Self Conscious about everything i do/say to him, like "oh i dont want to push too hard to get you to hang out with me" bc i only have the chance to see you for a handful of weeks a year since your college is across the country but bc our mom does the same kind of pressure/guilt for us to spend time with her i dont want you to feel i am repeating the same patterns, or "oh i'd love to connect with you on a more emotionally personal level" but if i 'pressure' you 'too much' to open up you'll think i'm behaving like our mother does when she does not accept our boundaries.

i just wish i could have that familial connection siblings have, but i feel like he only sees me of an extension of our mother despite my notorious and well known distaste for he for the entire time he has been alive lol bc i'm an emotional person who wants to care about him, and i absolutely do not want to be her, and i just...

idk, does anyone out there get what i'm saying? anyone else come from a broken family that fucked up your relationships with your siblings?

#its so fucking depressing. i feel like im walking on eggshells every time i talk to him #and when i do bring up that feeling hes just like 'ok' bc hes so emotionally stunted #or if i dont bring it up i just internalize it and feel like shit and i...#i wish i knew how to repair our relationship without him feeling obligated to talk to me #in the same way we both have always felt obligated to talk to our family bc we were told Family Is All That Matters or wtf ever #i wish there was 'couples' therapy but for siblings #and i wish even if that DID exist it was actually possibly bc he goes to yale and i am in texas and that is just not fucking practical #even if it was a webcam meeting. and i feel like if i asked for that emotional labor from him he is just so ABSURDLY #non-confrontational that he would agree to do it even if he didnt want to and just...#idk. none of this makes sense. he is my baby fucking brother. sorry for sounding demeaning but. he us #*is. i adore him so fucking much. he makes me so proud. but everytime i speak to him (which is limited at best)#i feel like he puts up the same wall with me he does with my mother/stepfather. and there isnt anything i can do to change thay #bc me showing him love or looking for his affection just seems to make him feel the same way our damn mother does #when she pressures us into doing 'fun activities' or whatever #i just....i love him so much. he makes me so fucking proud. he #*he's my baby bro. he's achieved so much. but everything i say to him feels like he thinks i am being just as #hollow and disingenuine as our mother...#sigh. this is so niche pol. sorry bye #op #tw sad #SHOULD I ADD THAT ALFJALAJA

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polaraffect · 2 months

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venting in the tags yippeee

#damien.txt #gender talk time 🤪✌️#....................................................................................#screaming crying throwing up rolling around on the ground <- said completely deadpan #uhm. as always. thinking abt gender. and questioning. my whole life. bc. i cant stop doing that #soooooo like. my big thing. abt gender. is as much as im like. he/they-ing it here and irl. its kind of... complicated?#as ive gone on ive realized more and more that i dont. really. feeling Anything towards those pronouns #neither do i she/her. or they/them.#and just generally the whole Concepts of male/female? so like. im always like hmm. whats happening here #and other completely incoherent statements djbdhdbf sorrry anyways #i keep having these moments where im like. hmm. maybe. im leaning too hard into the masc. maybe i am not. he at all.#but ive like. really full committed to the bit yknow? like esp irl. all the ppl ive introduced myself to in the last 2 years have known me #as 'he'. and as someone who wears mostly masc clothing and generally attempts to present masc #and like. i bought a skirt a while ago and i was trying it on today and i was like oh. wait.#and before u @ me i KNOW!! clothing does not equal gender!! but there was just something abt it #and recently (the past like. year lmao) ive really been contemplating like. what i actually want out of transitioning or whatever #bc like. increasingly its become more obvious how... fucking difficult that is.#and the more i think abt it the more im like. bro its not even worth it for me? tbh? also like. sometimes i look in the mirror and am like #hmm. this does not feel better than it did when i hadnt transitioned at all. yknow?#like the last 10+ years ive been existing in this state w my body where im basically just. tolerating it. ignoring it. even.#and that hasn't... changed. after t. and ik thats not like the fix-all but its got me wondering if some of it/a lot of it #is just body dysmorphia? rather than dysphoria? bc like. god knows i have that too.#and just. idk. i feel Really Really anti-gender most of the time. would in fact. not like to be conceived of at all.#but on some level im trying to think abt it practically bc if that ^ is my thoughts on gender fr. i have to decide whats worth it #and like. i miss cool clothes. god men's clothing is so fucking boring. holy fuck.#and AGAIN i KNOW gender doesnt equal clothes but also like. i am Aware to the wider world it still works like that #and truly if i rocked up to work/class in a skirt everyone would be like What The Fuck #and i kind of want to!! but im also scared of that reaction lol #AHHHH why must gender be so complicated. i want to lay on the floor #lol there was literally more but i ran out of tags LMAOO sorry everyone. gender complicated. peace ✌️

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spiritofjustice · 2 months

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every time i see John Garrideb i feel so bad for the fella. they rly portray his wife physically abusing him as funny and lighthearted. frankly i don't think a woman hitting, throwing things (including a KNIFE), and pouring scalding tea on her husband who has done nothing wrong is very funny personally!

#psy's no punctuation posts #aa tag #also even if he DID do anything wrong he still wouldn't deserve it. i'm just saying he did fucking NOTHING wrong #him and Joan are close to being an endearing old married couple but bro. come on.#it's fucking CREEPY i'm sorry it's creepy #i just don't find it funny #i find it interesting how their dynamic actually plays out- that John loves her a lot and that never changes despite what she does #because i think it's one of those instances where it's like 'when it's good it's really good' and he knows she loves him despite everything #obviously because the narrative itself is an apologist for the harm Joan does but i still find that concept very interesting to explore #and tbh. makes sense for the time. i think there's something interesting there it's just not touched upon because the abuse is a Joke #but like. in those days. shit i know John wouldn't divorce her. they'd stick to gether the way a lot of older married couples do #even if it's not okay yknow. my parents. not to bring them up again RKFK but they're also like that #-looks at my parents- KRKF #i think of them bcs my mom has thrown a knife at my dad at least once before. this probably dates back 30 years now #they're still together and things are a lot better but in an ideal world they would've divorced before either my sister or i were born lol #but thats the way of a lot of married couples. so i think the Garridebs are quite interesting

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barredandromeda · 2 months

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we locked in fr he just dont know it yet