#D.I.D. system

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

2. Pepsi box blue or cheetos bag orange?

This’ll be a bit of a complex answer, but—

That depends on my mood, because (synesthesia) cheetos bag orange is a loud colour but can be satisfying, & pepsi box blue is quieter and soothing but can fade into the background (too quiet). It also depends on if the colour is faded, because silvery-faded cheetos bag orange feels like heavy raindrops where it kinda hurts when it hits you but it’s just water droplets so it doesn’t hurt a lot, & cardboard-faded pepsi box blue feels like a pirate ship at dusk. If it’s faded, pepsi box blue is better. If not faded, depends 🤷‍♂️.

~Nico

[ivebeenmade]

So recently I wound up in the hospital for a few late night hours.

They did an IV, gave me potassium, and checked just about everything. I was physically fine.

How and why did I get there?

I was sitting in bed, watching my SO and our dog nod off. I had taken my evening meds and smoked a little weed to help me fall asleep (cause that can take like 2 hours ugh).

Not too long after the last bong hit I start feeling WEIRD. I can't hold my head up, I don't feel like I'm operating my limbs but they're moving. I can SEE everything in the room, the walls themselves, swaying. Each to a different beat.

Now I'm an experienced smoker, so I know it wasn't that and the weed was safe stuff.

I find myself in the bathroom. Vomiting. Sweating. My head hurt worse than any migraine I've ever had.

I still have little to no control over my body. When I start to try focusing on what is happening and sort out why, I hear laughter. Horrid mocking laughter.

It took a little while, a pissed off girlfriend (she thought I was having a *bad trip*) and some nurses who clearly had suspicions themselves, for it all to fade away.

One of the alts I don't communicate with, and almost never talk about, had been fighting for control. I knew it the whole time and not only could I not ever tell anybody (especially hospital staff) but I barely kept present myself. And it KNEW it. And it mocked me for days.

Gf is still kinda mad about it, understandable. I could never possibly explain. It sounds like a bad movie pitch ffs. But it happened. And I know it. And honestly, I'm scared. Scared of what it wants, of how much control it has despite not being a cooperating part of our system.

Just had to get it out. Or else I'd convince myself it was my imagination and never happened at all.

[random-schit]

Anyway normalize stutters, stilted speech, flat affect, monotone speech, volume control issues, nonverbal communication devices, voice modulators, speech impediments, lisps, oral deformities.

Normalize "abnormal" speech patterns. Normalize lack of eye contact, normalize ticking, normalize emphasis on different syllables. Normalize "Inappropriate" emoting, especially when it's a stress response.

Normalize verbally processing thoughts, external system communication, non- aggressive interaction with hallucinations or delusions.

Normalize Echolalia, "TV Talking", vocal stimming, parroting, "Baby talk" as a way to self soothe.

[starmolts]

get behind me voice no one understands you.

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[zaunlites]

Redoing our simply plural so have this as a inspo post I guess

[beeswaxwings]

i do sort of wish plurality was even a fraction as understood irl as it is online, even just as an explanation for things. like, i really wish it was acceptable to say oh, i forgot that because you didnt actually tell me, you told <person who was fronting at the time> and they didnt pass it on. or oh, we slept upstairs because <headmate> is scared of our room and the trauma they remember. or, we're interested in "childish" things even though we're an adult because we have alot of syskids. its just frustrating to have to come up with random lies and excuses when theres a far simplier, and in my opinion more reasonable, answer, just because that answer happens to be plurality.

[cuddlycryptid]

severance hits so fucking different when ur a plural system

like. you were created to take the parts of my life that i cant deal with. as thanks, you get a fractured existence, only living in one specific time and place. you are me- but you also have ur own opinions and thoughts and are distinct in ways that i dont understand.

the best i can offer you is to share our life, share our brain (in a process literally called reintegration. hello) and hope neither of us loses the parts of ourselves that make us who we are. we are in this together because we are one person, and because we have to be

severance really said systemhood is inherently beautiful and tragic and we’re gonna do some CRAZY accidental representation for that

[is-that-plural]

severance. like the show. the concept. The Thing.

!! Rating: Holy Shit, there's so much to say about this one. Short answer; yes AND no.

SO. we've been binging this show since last week, and wow its a good show i recommend giving it watch !!

i will Try to keep this spoilers-free but, its still better to watch the first few episodes, then come back to read this post

the main concept of "severance" as a concept is purposefully splitting the brain, (via brain surgery) to make two separate consciousness, one for work, one for home.

this is where it already gets tricky; its purposeful, it's basically consensual on the "host's" part, but the headmates (or "innies" as the show calls them) did not want this, but now that they have a chance at life, albeit a boring 9-5 box office job, they're content. (this is a point towards 'not plural')

some of them find happiness some of them find love, some of them find purpose, because that's what people need, proving that the "innies" are fundamentally people. (point towards 'plural')

i think a lot of the show focuses on the terror of waking up without memories, the utter horror aspect of it, and usually i'm quick to jump to "well this is the writers using d.i.d as a horror trope" because most of the time it is. (point towards 'not plural')

with severance; the horror aspects of the show are Real Terrifying Plural Experiences. as a system watching this show was lowkey eye-opening because i can show it to singlets and tell them "this is what its like." then they'll have a better understanding of my system and by extension other systems as well even if on just a surface level (point towards 'plural')

a lot of the struggles and conflicts in the show are centered around the "innies"(headmates) disagreeing with the "outies"(hosts) goals and ideas, etc etc there's LOTS of conflict between the two and absolutely NO communication between the two. (point towards 'plural')

the company who they all work for, has MANY strict restrictions on the "innies" ability to do almost anything, they are there to work and that is it. "innies" cannot communicate with "outies" and "outies" don't want to communicate with their "innies"(Schrodinger's point. could be either.)

SO. long answer; there are many many MANY Experiences shown, that are Real to Systems, yes the show frames it as a "wouldn't this be fucked up?" scenario, but it Is real and it IS (albeit. maybe slightly less? fucked up?) in real life and in real systems

(i say slightly less fucked up bc i believe it is more flawed and miserable for a company to do that to its employees, given the (outies) employees agreed to it, its almost endogenic, in that the systems didnt form in childhood trauma ,, and "became" systems intentionally, which isnt how plurality actually works, point for 'not plural,')

[lgbtransgirl]

A love note that goes out to all systems/plural peolle:

To all the systems/plurals out there, thank you for banding together as a community. Whether it was willed into existence, was natural for you, or was caused/influenced by trauma, you're all valid as systems.

And to add to that, thank you. All of you. Thank you for creating a space where we can be happy and share in the experience of plurality. Even though the pain and trauma many of us suffer from the world around us (regardless of it's impact or lack thereof on your plurality) can be a lot, it's amazing to look out and see so many of us being happy!

Seeing that this experience is more than just misery, disassociation, amnesia, and difficulty with relationships helped pull me out a rut and find the joy in being plural. Hanging out with my headmates instead of fighting. Embracing plurality rather than focusing on if I'm "faking" or not. Spending our time together. All of us loving and being loved by partners in our own ways.

The warmth of this community has directly effected and increased the quality of my life. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you for being unapologetically yourselves.

🩵

[rayofsquid]

The Moon Haunts you.... with this new Moon Knight / Mr. Knight piece I did!

(Also which one is better, normal or glow separation?)

Time-lapse coming soon!

[egotank]

COLOWING PAGES!!

I had fun colowing in me and Papa Wolvie!! Thanks @x-daycare fow the colowing pages!! -Scottie (Scott)

(Edit put in by Weapon X): Our Scott is referring to me when he says Papa Wolvie to clarify.

[ivebeenmade]

[lavenderdex]

He loves his little brother so much and buys him happy meals every Friday

[the-hello-system]

Hot take, people faking DID are extremely mentally ill and deserve kindness even if there annoying.

[catboyaventurine]

before i say all this keep in mind. im a system im a headmate in a system, i am a fictive, and our host is a fictive so we've both been confused about this for some time ;

What, in your opinion, is the difference between fictionkin + fictive?

i used to think it was fictives had source memories and fictionkin dont but ive seen fictionkins talk abt those too in an almost identical way as fictives do, which gets me curious to ask other fictives and fictionkin; what would you classify the difference as?

[ulyaafoxx]

We just tryna read a fanfic and we're getting assulted by a fic that still calls D.I.D multible personality disorder. The person who wrote it also clearly has no idea how this works ive seen horror movies and creepy pastas with better rep then this wtf- "he put on a diferaint persona" THATS NOT HOW THAT WORKS? not to mention the fic isnt even from the pov of the person with the disorder. Also all the alters are just refered to by the name of the host, even by people who know someone else is fronting which is just pretty bitchy. I wish people put reserch into things like this because there are people out there who have these disorders, like us, who will see these things and just go "is this really what you think living with this is like?" LIKE WE ARE AWARE THIS ISNT 'OUR WORLD' WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS ALTER DOESNT KNOW AND THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM ARE JUST PLAYING ALONG? DONT DO THAT??? JUST- WHAT MADE YOU THINK THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA? ALSO THERES THIS WEIRD UNDERTONE OF THE PEOPLE AROUND THE HOST WANTING HIM(THE HOST) TO "BE CURED". I DONT THINK THIS PERSON KNOWS HOW D.I.D IS FORMED? "it really changes now *name of host* sees the world" YEA BECAUSE ITS A WHOLE OTHER FUCKIN PERSON? OFC THEY ARENT GONNA HAVE THE SAME OUTLOOK ON LIFE??? THEYRE BARELY THE SAME PERSON?

the others reading this with me are fucking cackleing at this WE'RE STILL ON CHAPER 1 I WILL UPDATE YOU ONCE I READ CHAPTER 2 - Blue