#didosdd

[butterednuttered]

where have we been?

hello!! i wanted to post to keep you guys updated on where we’ve been!

nothing crazy, just been kind of off tumblr recently. we haven’t been able to use our laptop because it’s broken, so flags will be out of commission for a little while until i can get our laptop fixed.

that all being said, we have a new discord server for likeminded ADULTS (18+)! if you are any or multiple of the following, please consider joining the link provided below!

- a system or understands what a system is (and is anti-endo)

- alterhuman in some way

- owns an ESSA

- owns a service dog

- LGBTQ+

- generally has “cringe” interests

- is a stoner

server link:

https://discord.gg/5gSR4UuvK8

[necrophillian]

does anybody gaf about yumeship art 💔🥀🥀

dont leave rude comments pls.. im just a silly guy

[treehoused]

i wish someone could tell me what was real and what was illusion, or at least just help me see clearer.

i know my experiences. i don't know what they mean, what categories they fit in, where i might find answers to any of me.

people tend to hear my questions as fakeclaiming myself, but that's really not it. i don't think i'm lying, i do think i might be wrong, and that being wrong might be harmful to myself and others.

i want to know the truth about myself, myselves, and my experiences. i want to know what's real. but all i have is my own views and understandings, and i know them to be highly unreliable.

[starstud-jpeg]

Hey! We're gonna try n start using this account, as our ex is currently stalking our main accounts on different media platforms.

[b-l-o-o-d-y]

so like… nothing?

[defrostedvertebrae]

System portrait, updated!

[only-knives]

sincerely yall we are not well. if anyone reading this has struggled with denial based dissociative crises um. what the fuck do you do in that situation. i know everyone is different but sincerely. this is. this is not sustainable. we are so unstable.

❤️‍🩹 this blog is endo safe. that said this post is about traumagenic dissociative plurality. please don't give advice if that is not your experience. compassion/sympathy is ok regardless, though.

[juiceboxflagarchive]

prosetector/protecutor role ( a mix of protector + prosecutor)

A prosecutor is the same concept as a persecutor, although this system member expresses outwards aggression, towards those not in the system.

Protectors are Alters that protect the body, the system, host, or other specific alters from experiences they hope to shield the others from.

Coined by me!!! If using give credits or link back to this post, if u don't want to likes and reblogs are at least appreciated :)

[hiiragi7]

Is The Innerworld "Real"?

For others, maybe, maybe not.

But for me? Absolutely, it's real.

The innerworld is a part of my day-to-day experience, it's something I interact with, something I can see and feel.

It's a part of my body, my mind, myself. It's a place where my parts can be safe, where my parts can talk and hug and see each other just as we are. It's something that lives and grows with me, something that I care for and work to upkeep.

For me, saying that my innerworld is not real would be just as silly as saying my parts are not real, just because it is an experience originating from within my head. There is another entire world I keep internally, and this is something I treat with a great amount of respect - Anything less would be very unkind and dismissive towards it.

My innerworld has been there throughout my life, and it has helped me greatly. It is a very sacred place for me, and so I want to offer it that same love and protection back. In doing so, I also give myself more kindness as well.

I've always had very strong visualization capabilities. I think it can pretty safely be argued that my innerworld is in some form a visualization, or perhaps a long-lasting daydream - but I reject that it is "just" a visualization or "just" a daydream, and that this categorization thus determines it to be "not real". That is to say, I don't believe that these things are mutually exclusive. It may be a visualization or whatever else you may call it, and at the same time be so vividly real.

How I experience reality isn't often the same as most other people - never really has been. It's just the way my brain is built. I know that's something which makes some people uncomfortable, and at times I feel lost or confused due to it. But... a lot of times, it doesn't particularly affect me, nor do I even think about it much unless someone else brings it up.

I used to have more complicated feelings about it, but honestly, talking to and reading about other psychotic/schizospec folks' experiences with reality as well as meeting many other systems & DID folk who don't neatly align with what reality "should be" really helped with that. I don't feel so much shame or bitterness or anger anymore about me experiencing things a little (or a lot) to the left.

I'm aware there are some things that are real to me which are not real to other people, and that's fine with me. My innerworld is one of those things.

All I really hope for is that others will be respectful towards this part of me that is so deeply personal and subjective. My innerworld is real to me, and it is another world which I engage with. I find it deeply invasive and uncomfortable when other people try to determine that realness or lack of for me - it is my innerworld, my experience, and so I feel very protective over my truth of it.

[is-that-plural]

The warden from minecraft

It has multiple souls in one entity which is offten how plurality used to be seen before mmore reserch was done but still It would be interesting.

!! rating: plural! unless its not?

there is no official lore reason that we can find for the souls being there, however theres also no evidence against viewing it as plurality

albeit magic and weird minecraft logic ensue; but they could be ~3 different consciousnesses in one being that transformed into something worse, so on one hand; not the best plural rep If plural and on the other hand i think its up to viewers interpretation of if the warden is plural

so im gonna say yes when its funny the warden is plural, but thats because im biased and the warden is sick as fuck <3

[always-almost-always]

second year in a row im spending tech week for my school musical dissociated as SHIT. it comes and goes in intensity, so rns not too bad, but DAMN does it love to worsen during important stuff. like when im taking a math test or cueing lights. sobs.

anyways anyone else have speciifc, random activities/times of year that make their dissociation freak out?

[necrophillian]

USE WITH LIKE + REBLOG !

alucard gif rentry thing i dunno shrugs . original gif below

[lgbtransgirl]

Me:

Headmate 1: *Screams*

Me: Wtf are you doing?

Headmates 1, 2 and 3: *Screams in unison*

Me: Ow I'm gonna get a headache what the fu-

Headmates 1-5: *Screams in unison like an angry chorus*

Me: Wwhhhyyyyyy

[remnant-radio]

OUR THOUGHTS ON BEING A SYSTEM

Complicated. I hate the disorder. It affects my life in all sorts of way that range from mildly annoying to life destroying. It is also true that the disorder has kept me alive and semi emotionally stable. It’s still not great. Pro, I don’t usually have to deal with too many bad emotions. Con, I forget almost everything else too, entire relationships, large chunks of my childhood, school assignments that need to be done. Nope all gone. The kicker is our amnesia isn’t all that bad most the time. Pro, alters help me make good life choices, there’s one who can hammer out an A level essay with minimal procrastination. Con, alters help make really bad decisions, I don’t remember most of our suicide attempts because they were done by other people. Pro, I don’t get flashbacks and nightmares like other people with trauma disorders would. Con instead I just get massive waves of fear, helplessness, and anger for what feels like no reason. While other people experience the memories that get taken as soon as the trigger is over.

So ultimately, this disorder sucks but it’s better than being dead or locked in an institution.

-KX

Well, I wouldn’t exist without this disorder. I’m not sure if I fully like existing but having thoughts and being me isn’t terrible. I know I’m basically just a fragment/replacement for someone else, who couldn’t handle certain situations. That isn’t really fun. The out of body experiences definitely suck. They’re kind of uncomfortable. At least I’m not alone most of the time. I always have people to talk to. Granted, I’m not sure how I feel about most of them but it’s better than being lonely. I hope one day we all aren’t needed anymore and we can be the kid we should have been.

-RR

[thebadchoicemachine]

I love never drinking and still getting to experience the lifestyle of a black out drunk complete with hangovers and waking up in strange places wondering why your music app is full of coco melon songs

Except sometimes there will be little notes for me explaining