#I am posting this at 2am btw

[morningstargirl666]

SNEAK PEAK

Sneak Peak for Chapter 16

Hi! I’m so sorry I’ve been gone so long, realised the other day I haven’t posted since APRIL and omg yeah I’m so sorry guys. I was writing for into eternity and au season, then I was sick, then I got an ear infection and then after that I got writers block and wasn’t quite sure what I writing for chapter 16 BUT IT’S OKAY I figured it out, got a skeleton draft done, and now 5k later thought I would share you a sneak peak. I will try to get an update out for next weekend but no promises. Since I’m at 5k it should be soon regardless.

For now, here’s a sneak peak of chapter 16, where a certain someone returns to Mystic Falls and a few misunderstandings take place...

Tyler leant against the wall, waiting, restless in the hallway as Caroline talked to her mum in the next room. He could hear their voices, but mostly tuned it out, instead focusing on a photo frame sat on the hall table by his side, picking it up and examining it, nothing else better to do. It was a picture of a much younger Caroline and her mother, toothy grin wide and bicycle helmet strapped on her head, a small vibrant pink bike with tassels on the handles in front of her. The day she learnt how to ride a bike, most likely.

Tyler smiled down at it fondly, before placing it back down next to the bowl where the Forbes dropped their keys, adjusting its position a little once he remembered Caroline would probably freak if it wasn’t left how he found it, the neat freak she was. He straightened up, pushing off from the wall and looking around, wandering around the length of the hallway while he waited. Maybe it was impatience, maybe it was nerves - Liz had always seemed to like him before but now… Her cold reception at the door earlier had reminded him why he had left. She hadn’t quite forgiven him for biting and nearly killing her daughter, and in all honesty, neither had he. He’d missed Caroline, he had, but after hearing about the sirelines and Damon’s plans, he wondered how long this feeling of contentment would last. It already felt like it was slipping through his fingers.

A second later, Caroline bounded into the hallway, and Tyler turned to face her, returning the blinding smile she sent him on instinct.

“We good?” He asked, slightly nervous, glancing behind her into the other room. Liz was out of sight, probably having retreated to the kitchen.

Caroline grabbed his hand and grinned wider, pulling him towards the stairs. 

“My mom said you could stay as long as you want.” She said to him, clearly thrilled, taking the lead.

Tyler pulled a disbelieving face, following her up the stairs. “Did she say we could share the bed?”

“No…” She drew out, glancing behind her, looking down at him with a sheepish smile. “She said you could sleep on the couch?”

He hummed, lips thinning into a straight line, knowing that had been coming.

“At least until we figure out what Damon and Stefan find out about Klaus.” She continued, pleading with him.

They arrived at the top of the stairs, Caroline turning to face him on the landing. Tyler tried to keep the pessimism out of his voice, but he wasn’t sure if he managed it. “And if Klaus didn’t create their line? And they try to kill him?”

“Tyler,” She began, smiling fondly as she brought a hand to rest at the nape of his neck, “I just got you back.” 

She pulled him in, and suddenly, she was kissing him. After a moment of surprise, Tyler returned the kiss, losing himself in the feel of her. 

“I’m not losing you again.” Caroline declared once she pulled away, still smiling. Tyler couldn’t help but smile back. She took a step back, gesturing to the bathroom and possibly the store cupboard that resided inside. “I’m going to grab some blankets. You can take the extra pillows off my bed and take them downstairs if you want.”

“Okay.” He said softly, a little breathless.

Somehow, Caroline’s smile only got brighter.

“Okay.” She repeated back to him. Then she was spinning around, hair flying with her, striding away to get the blankets. Tyler couldn’t stop the grin that split his face, looking up at the ceiling as he spun around, weak in the knees for a second, still feeling the echo of that kiss. 

There was a bounce to step as he walked towards Caroline’s room, and he pushed her door open with one hand once he reached it, immediately walking over to the bed and leaning over to grab the extra pillows sat atop the sheets. When he pulled them towards him, gathering them in his arms, only then did he finally freeze.

There’d been something off about the house the moment he’d walked through the front door, but he hadn’t been able to place it. Something different in the air that had made his nose twitch. At the time, he hadn’t thought much of it, chalked it up to Caroline or Liz perhaps using a different perfume, or shampoo - perhaps a different laundry detergent. Hell, maybe even different air freshner, or something as simple as someone had been round to the house he didn’t recognise. He still wasn’t really used to being a werewolf, let alone a hybrid, so he didn’t understand what his nose was trying to tell him half the time.

But this? This was clear.

The scent in the air that had faded, barely detectable in the rest of the house, was stronger in Caroline’s room. It was coming from the bed mostly, all over her pillows, thick and heavy, though still a little faded, as if the fabric had been washed. Slowly, as if afraid of what he would find, Tyler brought the pillows closer to his face, burying his nose in the soft fabric and inhaling the scent, breathing in deeply.

Tangy iron, like blood, and also decay - a vampire. Yet it was intertwined with the musk of a wolf, the smell of wet fur. Then there was also paint, the smell of the proper stuff, acrylics, like it was drying, still wet. He could smell parchment, canvas and even earth, an echo of the woods and a deep age. The scent of something old, something dangerous, a scent that made the hairs on Tyler’s neck and arms break out into goosebumps. A scent he recognised.

Tyler recoiled from the pillows, staring down at them in horror, paralysed. Then he seemed to snap out of it, casting aside the pillows quickly only so he could claw at the sheets and duvet, pulling them towards him, frantic and wild. He shoved his nose into their fabric too, eyes widening upon finding the same scent, the same impossibility, because why, why was his scent here, and why was it all over her bed-

Tyler dropped the sheets like it had burned him, backing away, eyes wide in horror and dread. He backed into the bedside table by accident, almost jumping out of his skin when the lamp on it rattled, tipping over. He spun around, grabbing it before it could fall over the side. Heart racing, he righted the lamp, swallowing as he put it back in place.

And that was when he noticed the drawing.

It was sitting there, innocently, on top of a book Caroline must have been reading in bed. He almost hadn’t seen it, mind loud with panic as it was. But the sketched lines of Caroline’s face had caught his eye and suddenly he saw it, eyes fixing on it, unable to look away. Feeling numb, his hand reached for it, picking up the rough sketch paper so carefully anyone would believe he was handling a bomb, primed to explode. Perhaps it was. Caroline’s features had been drawn with such care, the lines of her face depicted with reverence and beauty. And then there was the horse, a horse Tyler had never even seen before - who in Mystic Falls still owned horses? - and below that was writing, a message written in blocky yet refined, pencil smudged letters.

Thank you for your honesty,

Klaus

Tyler stared. Stared until his eyes burned and he was forced to blink, unable to comprehend what he was seeing. Eventually though, it got through. The sketch in his hands suddenly felt heavy, and the feeling building in his throat hurt, the warmth from earlier replaced by freezing cold. He looked over to the bed, where the rumpled sheets and discarded pillows lay, his sire’s scent still fresh in the air. The scent of a hybrid. The scent of Klaus.

Tyler swallowed, the horror and shock in his wide eyes dissipating, replaced by a different emotion altogether. His eyes narrowed, jaw clenching so hard it hurt. His hands clenched into fists, the sketch paper crumpling and cracking in his grip, threatening to tear. 

What the hell had happened while he was gone?

From the scent hanging in the room, he already knew the answer.

[cherubicleric]

scott pilgrim would have the audacity to post this about wallace with "no homo though!" in the tags

[thecatspasta]

Do you think the corporations will realise that we will care about their straight ships if they're not a girl fawning over the first guy she sees and getting married within the year and it being treated like a good thing or is this thought process too advanced for them to handle right now.

[d0d0-b0i]

listen in my mind Ruby had a proximity crush on weiss but never pushed it then met Penny and fell hard and then the fall happened and weiss realized she was in love with Ruby and then Penny came back and Winter was there so they drifted apart and then vol 8 happened and now we're here

i agree to an extent ! personally i have never seen v1-3 as having any form of romantic portrayals between weiss and ruby (therefore i think the only one at the time actually crushing would’ve actually been weiss), and only potentially a “it would be nice” kinda deal for ruby regarding penny considering they didn’t really hang out much due to The HorrorsTM.

and then the fall of beacon happens, and there’s an absence for all three of them. ruby has lost her entire team essentially, witnessed the death of two of her friends because she was just a little bit too late, leading to her hyper focusing on getting to mistral and keeping the rest of jnpr alive, because that is the only thing she knows to do.

weiss, stuck in atlas, forced to reminisce on her teammates, her family, that she doesn’t think she’ll ever see again; under the hand of her abusive father :(. and, unbeknownst to us, penny is right there in atlas as well. unable to communicate to anyone that she’s alive due to the loss of internet or w/e (or maybe pietros still working on rebooting her, shrug. whatever the case, she was right there, which oof lol).

then rwby reunites and yes, yippee!! but still not a lot of time to notice feelings such as romance, due to the new horrors of salems truth and being stranded in the snow. honestly; i do not think there was anything but subconscious feelings, if any at all! build up, yes, but understanding and coming to terms with them? this is ruby “essentially blocked off less important emotions so i don’t break” rose and weiss “every romance i’ve seen in my life has ended in failure” schnee! no way in hell.

then vol 7. oh boy. they finally have some time to think. and now penny is back as well! feelings start blossoming, although i still do not think it’s reached it’s apex. rwby as a show is a slowburn for romance unless someone dies (>_> fairgame n arkos come to mind), so like. i think the sad part of it all is that it still never fully blossomed for any of them until penny dies again. the knowledge that she can’t come back. gone forever(?). rubys reactions in v9 come to mind. that absence sure is making the heart grow fonder lol (and my girl is haunting that subtext so much its not even funny). and weiss is probably so fucking sad that it happened again, right as she was getting to know penny proper, and now she doesn’t even know how to help her bff, her partner. :(

sorry for the ramble. i’m having many Thoughts which is very dangerous for me

[th3swarm]

Okay okay but u have to tell me abt the brainwashing Rollercoaster like u can't just throw out that pair of words n not elaborate

YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT THE SMILER OHHHH MY GODDD !!!!! MY FIRST BIG COASTER ?? THE ONE WHOS BACKSTORY GOT ME INTO ROLLERCOASTERS IN THE FIRST PLACE ?? THE RECORD HOLDER FOR INVERSIONS ???? I KNOW YOURE AMERICAN AND NOT SOMEONE WHO SUPER LIKES THEME PARKS BUT OH MY GOD HANG ON I NEED PICTURES

brainwashing and experimentation/medical stuff under the cut

[all my photography, apart from first and last, first is official i think ? i hope and the last one was taken by my irl friend who isnt on tumblr]

PHOTOS DONT DO IT JUSTICE OK ITS OVER A KILOMETER OF TRACK IN A VERY SMALL SPACE ITS SO MUCH BIGGER THAN IT LOOKS IN PICTURES. PICTURE 3 FOR SCALE ITS HUGE I PROMISE. [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGOZL0cftQ8] VIDEOS ARE BETTER FOR SCALE AND FOR THE SOUNDTRACK (AGAIN. ITS MUCH LOUDER IRL, YOU CANT HEAR ANYTHING ELSE AS YOU WALK INTO THE AREA) . ITS FAR BETTER WITH THE SOUNDTRACK BECAUSE THERES ONLY SO MUCH THEMING YOU CAN CONVEY WITH JUST THE COASTER ITSELF . AND THE SCREEN ITS SUPER COOL, ESPECIALLY IN THE DARK OHH MY GOD I WENT IN THE DARK AND THE PISSING RAIN LAST HALLOWEEN IT WAS AMAZING, THERES ALMOST NO LIGHTS IN X-SECTOR THEY JUST HAVE THE SCREEN ITS ABSOLUTELY BLINDING

CW APPLIES HERE DOWNWARDS

ANYWAY THE BRAINWASHING PART IS THE BACKSTORY. WHICH IM NOT VERY GOOD AT WRITING OUT AT 2AM BECAUSE ITS VERY VAUGE ON PURPOSE TO BE INTRIGUING OR SOMETHING BUT BASICALLY IT BRAINWASHES PEOPLE ! MIND CONTROL UNDER THE GUISE OF MAKING YOU HAPPY! that subgenre of horror !!! theres also a computer controlling the whole thing which is the giant circle screen in the middle of all this !

there was also a scare maze aligning with the lore side of it when in opened in 2013 ! it was themed around being the hospital/facility where they did experiments to figure out how to best (??) do the brainwashing in the first place ! ive never done a scare maze im so glad they stopped doing that one because id probably go in there going "yay! smiler maze!" and then cry or something .

[wrecking]

realizing the same reason i can't get into ...audio... is the same reason i can't fall asleep if i'm trying to willingly walk myself into asleep, i have some mental block that pops me up out of any state i try to let myself fall into. how the hell do i undo that cuz it fucking sucks

[asteriastemple]

i love being cared for and spoiled just as much as the next lesbian, but it's so important to do the same for the other person in the relationship.

helping them out when they've had a bad day, give them a shoulder to cry on or a neck to hide their face in, reassure them that they'll be ok no matter how much the world feels like it's crashing down on just them and them alone. or if they're not that much into physical touch, just lending an ear helps. even if you can't give them great advice, just being there and letting them get their bad day off their chest says a lot, and it means even more. and some people don't like to talk about their bad days. that's ok too. sometimes it's just space that they need but sometimes they just need to be distracted from their bad day. indulge in some of their favorite hobbies with them, watch a comfort show/movie of their's, cook them their favorite meal.

remembering the little things and doing them just because. adding in small details that you've remembered they hold so dear to their heart for whatever reason. it always feels good to know you're actually being listened to.

can we pls normalize femmes paying for stuff? just a little bit???? please queens/kings????? listen guys, i'm not complaining if you want to take care of me financially, i am a broke bitch! but WHEN i do have money, (not very often😞) at least let me buy you some ice cream with it or SOMETHIN'- PLEASE! i know ice cream isn't a super big responsibility but it's always felt weird to me seeing the relationship dynamic where one person supports themselves and their partner financially, and the partner doesn't even reciprocate it occasionally???? THIS IS NOT ME DEMONIZING THIS LIL DYNAMIC OR WTV, i just personally do not vibe with it. but do whatever makes you happy, bbgs. i know there are other ways of taking care of someone other than supporting them financially but i'd love to even be able to do it just once in a while, if not all the time. (all the time is not likely bcs once again i can't save money for shit....)

i know i mentioned this for like five seconds in my first or second lil paragraph but cooking is such a reassuring thing to do. cooking someone their favourite meal or just any meal is a love language that we look past too often and i am sick of it!!!!! (this is coming from someone who tried to make homeade hamburger helper with burrito beef two nights ago btw... don't look at me.) it's such a quiet way of love admittance. but then genuineness is there and it's abundant. mostly if your partner is of culture, i bet that would be an amazing and quite heartwarming surprise for them to see. (meow:3)

i could go on and on and on about reciprocity but it's 2am and i don't feel like writing anymore...

⁻ this post was made by a minor, mdni accs dni!

[cheri-2047]

WEEKLY POLL

Hi guys! Here’s the weekly poll! A new one for u gusy to pick us out btw

Sorry for the short post, idk how to elaborate on words

Tending to Arlecchino’s wounds

TAGS: mentions of blood, gore if you squint, fluff

CHARACTERS: arlecchino, mentions of Freminet

10:31…

11:04…

12:57…

2:00 AM.

You stayed up the entire night, waiting for your lover, Arlecchino to arrive to the hearth.

You had been living in the hearth with arlecchino ever since you two started dating, and you don’t mind. You help the kids, help her and just like being there in general.

Lately, she’s been out on more missions. Which is normal, but the thing is, it’s not hee missions. She orders kids in the hearth to do tasks but lately, she’s been more busy doing it all on her own.

You get worried, seeing how injured the kids look when they return from their mission. Arlecchino by their side, supporting them with blood on her face and trousers.

“Arlecchino!”

You exclaimed, when she came home at 2AM with an injured Freminet in her arms.

“Get him to the infirmary. Now.”

She demanded, giving you a barely conscious Freminet.

You ran to the infirmary, whispering soothing things to the boy.

“Shh shh it’s okay, just a bit longer. No passing out okay?”

You said calmly, as you brought him to a bed in the infirmary.

“Nurse!”

You called out, before seeing a bunch of nurses treat him.

“Wheres… f-father…”

He looked for him, with a look of fear in his eyes. Not fear that he might die, but fear of failing the mission.

“That’s not important!”

You held his hand, before the doctors told you they’ll need to put anesthesia and perform surgery. They couldn’t allow you in the room.

You panicked, but you had to leave.

As you left the room, you saw a trail of blood.

That’s odd

You thought, seeing the blood trail past the infirmary.

You followed the blood trail, only for you to hear a groan.

You then realized.

“Arle-!”

You ran into hee room, not bothering to knock, to see her in the couch, blood all over her stomach, dust on her face and laying down with a med kit next to her.

“…”

She simply stared, trying to sit up but wincing softly.

“Ive been trained for it, I can handle it.”

She says with her normal nonchalant tone, looking at you in surprise when you started getting the things for the wounds.

“….hm”

She observed you closely, watching your hands shake in fear that you might lose your lover.

“…may I?”

You said, tugging her shirt.

She nodded, as you saw the amount of cuts in her stomach. You ran your hands over the open wounds, Arlecchino grunts.

“I can take care of myself, go to bed y/n.”

Arlecchino was strong, she always took care of her own wounds. She didn’t like others seeing her wounds.

The moment you started cleaning her wounds, she didn’t know how to feel. She never had someone worrying over her, or at least she hasn’t for a long time. She just watched you, staying silent and still.

From time to time, you could tell she was in a lot of pain. It wasn’t through her looks or actions, but something you couldn’t name.

During these times, she closes her eyes, just letting you treat her. You panicked at first when you thought she went unconscious, but she taps her fingers on the couch to reassure you in a way.

When you finish, it’s just silent. She doesn’t know how to react, she was raised to be a soldier. She didn’t know how to thank you, so instead she just nodded her head as thanks.

“….I appreciate the gesture.”

She stands up, gives you a kiss on the forehead.

“Let’s get you to bed”

BEFORE YOU GUYS SAY SMTH LIKW “this is so mischaracterized” “omg arle tsundere???” NO. YUCK. EW. JUST READ THE HEADCANONS BELOW

This woman is strong as hell, so she tries to remain strong even when she’s weak

She got the habit of treating herself from the start, even when the previous knave was there

“But she’s a strict and unfeeling-“ SHUT UP. Yes I think she’s strong but I don’t think that means she doesn’t feel pain at all.

Idt SHES the type to be like “ah-!” Or jolt up in pain, instead she just goes “tsk” or has a light gasp.

[rollercoasterwords]

Hey bestie. I finished the hand that feeds yesterday. Safe to say you have successfully emotionally devastated me, uh. Due to this I ended up in Google docs at 2am with a fix-it drabble of your fic (yes, a fic of a fic, I have a life)

1. Can I have your blessing to write this. Mostly for my own mental sanity

2. If it turns into something decent and coherent may I post it to my ao3 (full cred to u, for the og OBVI) (will send u another ask with the link, title and my author name)

P.S Your writing has thoroughly and entirely captivated me. That fic is an absolute work of art and I have been rereading Regulus, Marlene and Dorcas’s deaths just to feel something. The other POV reactions to Dorcas dying btw jesus I’m never recovering from Alice

Will be checking out your other work please please keep writing I am going insane

YAY for emotional devastation <3 love hearing that it inspired u 2 write ur own thing of course that’s alright!! i literally have multiple fics on ao3 that r just rewrites of other people’s stories lmao i think riffing off someone else’s writing is such a fun part of fanfiction & like. essentially the entire basis of fanfiction in the first place lol

[frozen-coffee-chaos]

Since y’all don’t care about a single thing I say unless my nudes are attached AND TUMBLR TOOK DOWN MY POST FOR A FAILURE TO HAVE A LABEL EVEN THO I GAVE IT ONE BTW:

Here’s my current favorite photo while I admit that it’s 2am, I gotta be up in 3 hours, I can’t sleep, I’m in a weird depression place where I kinda wanna do the bl00d play that’ll land me in a hospital BUT also would starv3 myself if another man slid into my DMs and told me how much of a piece of shit I am because I don’t wanna show my face and that I’m f@t anyways and should starv3 myself lol. Those are my fav dms cause it’s like “is gonna trigger a relapse or am I gonna shoot back cause at least I’ll show my body and they’re a dumbass who attacks women on the internet..?” Usually I fight back. To which you can get prison time for telling me this btw, that type of behavior is illegal in my state btw

[crushthecore]

MINOR BTW

Hey so I impulsively decided to make this blog for the purpose of making friends and uhh idk where to start do I just put my interests out there and people pop out of nowhere,^^`π¢√|ππ`°€°€ Anyways soo at the time it's 2am, so bare with me, sorry if some things are grammatically wrong or/and don't make sense, I know all of this has a bunch of errors. Kinda rushed through this all..:D 

Uhh

Here's an interest board🙏 this contains like the music I like, movies, and stuff,,,tbh I have some shit in here that I haven't watched cuz of my lazy ass but I really want to, does it count😞 i am interested in it

If I'm being honest some of these aren't really my current interests, or I'm just rusty in my knowledge abt em, but I haven't been interested in some things for awhile so it would be boring if I had only a few things in there soo (I barely do anything with my life but sleep. I don't even watch shows anymore, ikik boring I'm trying to convince my mom to buy me the CSM manga at the moment though. I'll have something to yap abt, maybe.🙏🙏) 

EDIT: looking back at this I forgot to include some other stuff that I'm also interested in but I forgot abt it at the time of making this... anywho I'll make an updated interest post or something if I'm motivated enough 2 do it

!! Some extra stuff that may be useful to know, to you knowww know what you're getting into. 🤔:3

Ahem ahem, I have social anxiety which means I most likely won't text you first unless I really really force myself too or/and I really like you and think you are very cool. So if u wanna be friends with me, using the anon question option thingy would be a nice first step. :D

I get attached extremely fast uhhh🤔🤔yea, oh and I'm extremely clingy so if someone texting you every 30 minutes (or minute, jkjk) sounds like a no go, than I'm not a good fit to be your friend.^_^  BUT. I also have my times where I feel like talking to no one so uhhhsidnjddj. I have no life so that's what probably contributes to me being attached to someone, maybe, probably...😇 (dumbass)

MY TIME ZONE: PDT (Pacific Daylight Time)

BEWAREE⚠️I sometimes joke around meanly so let me know if that ain't your thing, also I SOMETIMES get a little tooooo sentimental so I should probably stop playing around like that but I'll let you know if you passed a limit. Also I don't think I joke around very mean, but just to be safe. Please don't let this be a turn off. 🙏 Some examples of the jokes I may make are like "kys" and uhm yea. My minds kinda blank right now I'm getting a little tired, but my jokes consist of suicide, bombing places I don't like(school) and some other ones.So idk if it's heavilyyy offensive humor but some people don't take a liking to it so I thgouht it would be imporant to add

I feel like writing down a whole DNI list is gonna be uhh time consuming, will it take a long timr??? Some that I can name on the top of my head rn are proshippers, homophobes, and transphobes. But anyways I'll just block you if you're weird weird (in a bad way) so like age regrresors, (SFW) furries, witches, emos, oher co ol people i hsve forggteten, PLEAESRETEGD let me be ur friend 😞

I'm 14 btw,, the age range I'm aiming to become friends with is 13-16

Idk if I'd be down to be friends with people younger than 13 or older than 16, we'll see. 🤷🤷 But 13-16 people PLEASEEe INTERACT.

I'm not even kidding I'm so desperate for social interaction blehdhdhhd, I hate being an introverted socially anxious loser🤬🤬/hj :3 but please guys🙏🙏 I will worship the ground you walk on I need some friends

ONE. LASTM THING. When I talk to someone new I usually talk, uhh, formally??? Kind of, I get anxious talking to others so I'm so sorry if I seem uptight💔 I swear I'll warm up after some time, the more consistent the interactions, the faster I get used to you and warm up^^

I feel like I'm forgetting to write something else uhh, I'll update if anything important comes to my mind later, maybe (sorry for the messy formatting btw I lost all my progress when I was trying to make it pretty so I just gave up)

Well this is going to be embarrassing if this doesn't have any results errmmfjfjfjjffi I had been contemplating on doing this for awhile, praying to God at least one person reaches out 🙏🙏

 I don't even believe in that mf ☹️ 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLE /ref

[edenssgardensstuff]

is the burnt 2015 fandom still active. i feel like every few months i remember this movie and go insane and i need someone to talk to that is just as obsessed with this movie as i am. burnt is so bad but so good at the same time. i will rate this movie 3/10 but also it changed the trajectory of my life.

like i should not be obsessed with it but i am its actually so bad. it’s gotten to the point where ive been checking the ao3 tag daily in hopes a new fic has been posted or updated. imagine the sheer disappointment i get when it’s just another tony/zemo smut fic. pls tell me there are other adamtony shippers out there. pls im so desperate for content.

i dont post on tumblr often so, to me, this is like a shout into the void. i’m posting this at 2am btw.

[ominousposting]

not posting for a while didn’t help btw i still got rude messages but it made me feel different bc i know its not what i post but rather that people just hate to hate and therefore i will be back later today. its is 2am and i am drunk. thanks thats all

[mydarlingdahlia]

*bangs fist on desk*

APPRECIATION TIME🗣️‼️

💝

Just thought I’d give a little shoutout to some of my mooties/some of my fav people ☺️

@meowzfordayz is literally an angel omg when I sent her an emergency request it went way above my expectations. (The OP writing skills? HELLO???) Also she’s so friendly omg like high key- MARRY ME 😩 /p

@xxsabitoxx is fucking hilarious. Her writing makes me giggle and twirl my hair and (sometimes) throw my phone across the room like I’m reading 2018 omega wattpad smut. Also she’s a bad bitch 😤 (love the thigh tat btw) and I would fight anyone on sight for her

@muzanswaifu literally makes me leap to my phone/laptop when I get a notification. Also watching you and May interact is fucking hilarious. AND YOU PROTECTED ME FROM AN ANON THAT WAS HARASSING ME??? Adopt me please

@bunny-n3zuk0 is one of the sweetest people I’ve met. Makes me physically and mentally smile whenever you interact with me. Like- how do I put it- (MARRY ME JULIET YOULL NEVER HAVE TO BE ALONE🎶)

@tomiokas-lunchbox is literally on my top ten kin list. I’m dead serious. (GIYUU STANS WHERR YALL AT??) also like everyone else needs to convert to Sanegiyuuism or else I’ll sacrifice you to my closet that needs cleaning

@renhoeku is…how do I put it? Amazing? Absolutely lovely? A fellow rengoku stan whom I want to marry who I want to be besties with? We can like simp for Rengoku together and like have tea and just read smut abt him like I’m down if you are

@akaza-dono-the-basketball is one of my lovely moots, who I adore interacting with. I mean just scrolling through your page at least once a day makes the sun shine a tad brighter. I literally have no words to explain my appreciation- so- 💖❣️💞💘💝💗❣️🩷

@pammyjammy117 was probably the reason I got the courage to make my own Demon Slayer OC. (ALL HAIL ENŪMA🛐) I love going on their live streams on TikTok, and I am absolutely in love with your OC. (I’m working on the Enūma and Monsterverse Kyo smut I promise 😔)

@thatonegenshinsimp is one of my lovely Genshin moots. ☺️ Got me going feral over Itto I swear to mf Jehovah himself after reading your writing I wish I could go back to like those old Gacha days and like be in one of those “whatever you say comes to life” vids so I could bring my bbg to life (and proceed to turn into the loud house)

@sweet-honey-fruit is one of my favorite writers for Genshin Impact characters! Omg that m’fing poll…I’m still going feral over it oml. 😭 Cant wait to see the finished product!! I’ll try to be like somewhat patient 🤷‍♀️

@moraxsthrone is literally so fucking talented. The way you write Zhongli makes me quiver in my boots (and makes something else quiver) Got me up at 2am in an iPad kid position with my horrid posture just scrolling through your page

@yeahitzally is also a literal angel. WHY ARE YOU SO NICE TO ME 😩. Lemme just- 🌹🌸💐💐🌺🌷🌻🪷🪻 Flowers for you my darling. :) I’m grateful to have you as a lovely moot. ^^ MWAH 😘

@peachdues is so talented that I almost didn’t believe it at first. Like okay Shakespeare you ate that! 💅 No but being fr your writing is so good like I’m jealous at this point. 🥲 (also a fellow Sanemi simp I SEE YOU 😏) Oh and if I’m bothering you too much just tell me 🫠

@knyesplease is one of my many lovely KNY mutuals. (Also shoutout to them go support their works!!) I love love love interacting with them, and I can’t wait to get to know them more! Also, thanks for being willing to help me out on my big KNY project. :)

Please DM me please and very much thank you if you want to be featured in this appreciation post. :) Always willing to add someone I may have missed. (But, keep in mind, if we’ve only interacted a handful of times like maybe once or twice, I might not add you.) Also this post was inspired by Meowz!

That’s all! Charlotte out.

[eneablack]

i channeled my dr s/o, remus

for those of you who don’t know but read from the tile, remus is my boyfriend in my marauders/hogwarts dr, and before that we’re best friends since childhood, so he’s very dear to me.

i shifted there for some time and got to feel his love, not only as a lover but, as i said, as a friend too.

i don’t have many channeling experiences, i tried doing it via letters with my old dr best friend and he replied the next day, then i also tried with another letter to another dr s/o and asked them to channel me back and help me shift but i had a negative experience because i’m pretty sure i didn’t protect myself at that time (i’m a fool i know).

so, i wanted to try again yesterday but i was afraid because of the bad experience i had with channeling the last time, so the afternoon i cleansed my space and recharged my room wards and amulets, then at night (around 2 am) i did a meditation to clear my mind and then a protection/shielding guided meditation, so i finally felt enough protected, and i was ready.

i did a “method” i saw on tiktok and after some minutes i felt his comforting energy/presence. i made sure it was him and, once i did, i sensed a pressure on my hand as if he was holding it to let me know he was there. while we talked, i think i also smelled his warm scent. we talked for about half a hour but i don’t really remember all the things he said to me because again it was 2am so i just went to sleep afterwards and didn’t write anything down. but he said that he was stressed because of exams even if he usually doesn’t really strive to get perfect grades or generally doesn’t worry about school, he also told me he was suffering because of the cold there. while we talked, i felt very comforted and calm, his energy was really cozy and warm and i missed it so much, it really felt as if he was there with me. then, beside the pressure on my hand, i felt as if he caressed my hair and put it behind my ear (which is weird because some days ago i had an experience similar to this, except maybe i was the one who got channeled, and i felt the same hair pull behind my ear, but it was not remus- i made a post about it btw). after some chat, i asked him if he wants to guide me and help me shift there whenever he’s available or wants to, he accepted so i’m waiting for him to guide me soon, even tho i’m not sure in which way, but we’ll figure it out. oh and i asked him to mentally send me a song to fall asleep with, and suddenly i heard Here comes the sun in my head even tho I don’t usually listen to this song, so he probably really sent that.

i loved this experience, it was really as if he was there with me and we were talking face to face. again, his presence and energy was so comforting and calm, it really put me at ease and made me fall asleep with a light headspace.

i will probably channel him again tonight, but this time i’ll write down all the things he says to me so i won’t forget lol.

i really miss him, i want to go back (crying rn).

[blisk0]

microdosing 75 hard

posting this here (studyblr sideblog) because. well. where else am i going to say it.

i'm slowly working myself up to doing 75 hard - microdosing it, if you will. i think the problem most people have with completing it/being consistent is that they jump STRAIGHT into it instead of easing themselves into the habits they have to keep for 75 days straight. for example, if you consistently go to bed at 2am and wake up at 11, you're not just going to magically develop a good sleep routine on the first day of 75 hard. it doesn't work like that. this is me btw i am the one with the shit sleep routine. i've been going to bed earlier (10pm at the latest), finishing screen time an hour before, not drinking coffee past 4pm, reading for 45-60 minutes, doing a bit of yoga, and taking ashwagandha gummies & that's all helped me build my way into a properly good routine. that way, waking up at 6:30 won't be such a bother/culture shock!! because my body will already be prepared for it!!!

i've also been slowly reducing my calorie intake, which has been going surprisingly well. i'm not overweight, but definitely on the heavier end of healthy, and i want to get fitter because i know it'll help me build up the confidence to try out for one of my university's sport teams next year (this year i did Not have the confidence lmfao) and also it'll help me get healthier!!!!! which is always a good thing!!! again. i think most people underestimate the effects that going from 1500-800 calories overnight will have on you. work yourself up to it! i've been having like 50-100 calories less each day and that's surprisingly been working well! to be fair, it is exam season, and whenever i get stressed (which i am at the moment - i think i'm going to fail two of my classes!) my appetite goes out the window completely hahaha so i figure once it's winter break restricting will be more difficult. on this note - i did NOT realise how good of an appetite suppressant black coffee is. like.......i understand the people who say "omg i forgot to eat all day, i only had an iced coffee!" now. it fills you up!!!! although i don't really get the iced coffee trend. i think any drink apart from water being served cold is sacrilegious

the one thing i did go cold turkey on is social media (apart from tumblr, obviously. i use it for help with economics and to look at pretty pictures ala pinterest so i think it's okay to stay) and omg!!!!!!!!! jesus christ i feel so much better. it's weird though, because now i can really see how addicted i was and just how much mindless scrolling i did. my screen time is down to an hour and a half ish, which is still heaps, but it's mainly tumblr/ao3/etsy LOL.

i'm going to start going for walks twice daily in the morning and afternoon, and build that up to walk/run and then run/run. i think i'm going to start 75 hard around the end of june so i'm done by my birthday - i think that should give me enough time to really establish these habits enough that adding a little earlier wake, a little more restriction, a little more exercise etc consistently for 75 days won't be an issue. i'll definitely document it on here, even though i have no followers (posting to the void, amiright!) and once semester 2 starts i'll probably be posting studyblr stuff (notes essays etc) more often.