#I feel like theyve thought about it a lot

[deoidesign]

something that makes me sad is when people tell me the healthy communication in my writing is "unrealistic."

like guys this is how me and my partner talk with eachother... I'm writing from personal experience...

[voidedjuice]

Some sidecharacters from Ilta & Cecily's thing

Cecily's adoptive sibling and Ilta's uncle

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!

[the-meme-monarch]

I remember you talking about how you disliked the portrayal of uf sans and paps relationship even without the uh grosser parts, but how would you characterize fell sans and paps dynamic? And the Underfell au as a whole? I personally always saw the fellverse as a place that leaned more towards the kill or be killed mentality not that they all are abusive assholes just that they have less hope

yeah w everyone i like them leaning more towards the kill or be killed mentality/having less hope! w sans and papyrus being siblings and Literally Living Together i think there's like. a lot of trust in that. y'know. i think they're the only people they're comfortable truly being themselves around (until like the end of the theoretical end of an uf game) there's a drawing or two from the original creator of underfell that showed papyrus makes chimichangas and sans sells them (instead of papyrus making spaghetti and sans selling hotdogs individually) which i love that with my entire heart. even w things being Hopeless And Bleak for the underground they're Working Together. it's beautiful to me

also hi i went to look at the ut fan wiki recently and was really <:[ about it. what do you mean the community agrees asgore was the one to poison chara. i thought chara's death was the catalyst for Why Everyone's Like That. what do you mean the community agrees toriel dared sans to kill frisk instead of make him promise to keep them safe. y'all really just made shit edgy for the sake of it. made everyone just evil for fun and they always have been

[sualne]

that guy

[vampiiric]

slightly serious but its been on my mind so. as someone who went through autism-specific abuse from parents as well as the american school system from a young age, i don't like people using experiences of people like me to discourage self diagnosis. like.

i've seen people in the wild saying that if you self diagnose autism, you're making a mockery of people who underwent the abuse, especially in schools. but the thing is, the schools especially knew i was autistic before i did!! they treated me as autistic long before i was diagnosed, and were in fact the ones who pushed for my diagnosis. i did an entire paper on autism specific abuse for school and did a lot of research into the topic, which is how i realized what i went through was autism specific abuse and how it affects me. and yes it exponentially affects those diagnosed from a young age but it was awful before i got diagnosed and it got worse after!! so a professional diagnosis can hurt people!

if you were able to mask well enough to escape it, i am so fucking happy for you. like. this is incredibly traumatizing. and it's really underrepresented. and if you use the trauma and abuse people like me have gone through to tell people they aren't autistic and are hurting us, don't you fucking dare. you need to be blaming the people who abuse us and who make it hard for the people who are self diagnosing to get the proper diagnosis- and make life exponentially harder for those of us who are diagnosed.

by attacking people who are just seeking help and community and understanding, you aren't helping ASA survivors. you're hurting people (who might even have experienced that!! you don't know!!) who are trying to live their life with the most understanding of themselves.

anyways this blog supports self-diagnosed autistics and autistics who didn't learn until later in life and autistics who masked so well nobody realized and autistics who didn't realize that what they went through was autism specific abuse. i love you guys. we're in this together.

[beatledumpster]

2 songs

In which 60s Polnareff tells you all about gold-diggers

[toestalucia]

i know ive talked about this a lot on akira but idk how much ive brought it up here ?! the struggles of talking about all my muses across all my blogs (will not change). but ive been thinking about it again, because akira 1) talks more than gran does 2) is more likely to actually speak up about their/your feelings. not to say gran wont address it, but theyll either be very short about it or show it through actions. motivational speeches is reserved for moments when its expected of them (captain stuff in main story, shieldsworn, etc) <-guy who actually does not like being the center of attention

there are times when they get better at it, depending on situation & ppl involved (vyrn&lyria has special rights, even tho there are times when they dont get to know either (no rain no rainbow....)), as the grandcypher & things theyve been through has them learning to rely on others a lot more. in general theyre rly thankful to have lyria around at most times cuz of how easily she feels for others (as someone who gained the life back in her eyes thanks to katalina!), cuz while theyre very often of the same feelings as her, shes a lot quicker at voicing it.

not very related but, gran, as someone who does know how to fight, is instead a lot quicker at stepping in front of others. ofc akira isnt, theyre Normal (even tho theyre always shown doing exactly that anyway if the situation calls for it/the time they ignore a death threat towards them in order to relay important information), but im mentioning it cuz i think a loooooooot about the times theyve jumped off islands/cliffs just to save ppl (alliah, at least 2 times in grimnirs fate eps alone, bnha..........). also constantly think about the yurius event when yurius goes to sacrifice himself and captain & albert are just wtfffff get OUT of there COME BACK HERE and refusing to leave him. caims 5* uncap........ i truly do think a lot about that moment in paradoxroid where no one goes after owen and akira decides to do it themself likeeee.......and akira who stood in front of owens body to protect him from a unicorn,,,,,,(gesture vaugely) something about the things the varied experience about the things they have in common

[tobe-sogolden]

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[im-smart-i-swear]

If funky guys had become paladins of voltron which one would be in which Lion?

back in the VERY early days of this whole au(like. buddys-name-was-still-ryou early) i wanted to base every clones personality/character on a diffrent lion.... but over time it slowly stopped fitting their personalities and i kinda abandoned the concept lol. though you can still see some remnants of that in . certain design choices...

going back to this concept after uhhh two years?? i think? was definetely interesting! all the characters changed WILDLY since then and i tried to re-assign the lions to fit the changes........ it was surprisingly hard

i couldnt for the life of me decide in a few cases, so instead im just gonna give the most suitable options lol

tashi & soup - im putting these two together beacuse- and i have NO IDEA how that would work- theyre copiloting the black lion! they function the best as a duo and separating them would NOT be a good idea in a situation as stressful and complicated as piloting voltron. they barely manage to keep everyone alive on a good day... also picking only one of the two as The Leader just feels wrong

buddy, ideally, would like to stay as FAR AWAY from voltron as psyhically possible, thank you very much- but nothing in this cruel world is ideal, so they get the red lion:) i actually have this whole story idea where basically stickbug ""goes rouge""(like. some sort of 'sleeper agent mode' left over by haggar gets activated by accident??) and runs away to do some evil shit so buddy goes after him(on a whim)(alone)(without telling the others) and while searching for him they bump into fUCKING VOLTRON- so they form a very uneasy truce until they find stick. and at some point buddy finds out he can pilot the red lion! its awful he hates it:/ he pilots anyway cause his loved one is in danger(this whole thing is way too complicated to talk about here lol)

i had A LOT of problems figuring out the last three..... they changed so much that i just cant rlly fit them into these categories anymore... but i tried!!

ORIGINALLY stickbug was supposed to be based on the green lion but he doesnt fit it as well anymore....... i think taks does pretty well tho! shes very bold and iquisitive and a pain in everyones ass<3 plus loves learning about diffrent planets' unique ecosystems n stuff. stick IS very curious and likes exploring so he still kinda fits? but hes not as forward as taks, so yeahhhh im very torn on this one

i have NO FUCKING CLUE what to do with blue. all three of em could propably fit there ngl....

yellow could either be taka or stickbug- taka is the youngest and the brightest, hes what brought all of them together in the first place(it takes a village to raise a child)....... buuuut hes not really a 'puts the needs of others above his own' kind of person? hes still a kid and NOT ready for that kind of responsibility. soup is an OBVIOUS choice here of course, but im not sure- honestly, the more i think about it, the more stickbug starts to feel like the best option here? ok hear me out: stickbug, for most of his life, had very little power over his life. even while with the funky guys(ESPECIALLY in the beggining, these bozos were dysfuctional as fuck) there were moments when the others would talk over him bc 'hes a kid', and even without that theres still his people pleasing problem wnich meant he often disregarded his own good to make other ppl content. so, taking this scrawny guy desperate for control over his life and putting him in the toughest, stongest, most resilient lion- basically i think he deserves to go a little apeshit. as a treat. let him wreck shit for once

honestly it kinda funny im stting here and calculating all of this like a mad man where IN THE ACTUAL SHOW the paladins switch the lions like pokemon cards

realistically speaking i think they would all trade and switch em a lot and then squabble over who gets to pilot yellow bc they ALL want to wreck shit sometimes:)

[starswallowingsea]

assassin himeru au

[mumpsetc]

how long have you been in the osc, and how has time changed your perception of object shows as a whole?

i've been here 10 years and as i (hopefully) have been getting 'better' at thinking critically about Art in general, folks like you and awseriously have made me appreciate object shows on a deeper level, at least the ones fully intended to be thought of on a deeper level

Ive Been Here Since 2016 So Around 6 or 7 Years. A Lot of My Changes in Perception Did Coincide With Me Just Growing Up and Being Able to Interface With Art Better, This is Why I Try Not to Be Too Annoyed at 14 Year Olds Mischaracterizing Their Faves Because if You Scroll Far Enough Back on My Own Blog You'll See Plenty of That.

My Major Perception Shift Though Kind of Coincided With Me Realizing That Nothing is Just Accidental In a Work and That Characters Don't Behave Independently. Being Able to Fully Perceive The Hand of the Creator Made a Lot of Object Show Analysis More Interesting for Me Because Now Its Not a Case of "This Character is Mean", Its a Case Of "Why Did the Creators Write the Character This Way and Why Does the Narrative Frame It As Such" Which is Useful When Engaging With All Art But Esp Independent Smaller Works Like Object Shows.

This is Just a General Rule for Me But Whenever I Engage With Art I Try to Give It the Respect It Deserves and Think About What I Do and Don't Like In it Because Thats What I Would Want From My Own Viewers

[caffeinatedopossum]

Sometimes I feel like there really is no way to win at hating/loving myself. Like the less I hate myself, the more I start to hate other people and I hate hating other people and it just makes me hate myself again.

Idk its like just being genuinely critical of someone else makes me feel like I'm being spiteful and hateful and need to take a good long look at myself. And I don't *want* my hatred of other people to be justified because if people really are as stupid and inconsiderate as I sometimes suspect they are, that's awful and I really can't do anything about that... but if I'M the one being stupid and inconsiderate, I can always reflect on and change that

Basically I think I'm biased. But so is everyone

[elegyofthemoon]

today on "clover continues to mourn sqenix"

[flovverworks]

actually i find it superfunny when athree fans turns out to be prommy of wizzie fans too

[forehead451]

stream of consciousness type deal.