#I’ll change for you. because thats how things are always like from the very start

[bruhstation]

you never change, do you

[venoti]

A chance?

Summary: Dating Miles as Miguel’s sibling.

Spider-man across the spider verse

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After watching the movie, I can tell Miguel would be attached to his remaining family.

He wanted the best for you. His best thought was putting you in a seemingly safe area, earth 1610. Later, it was definitely not the best option. “Especially with miles” Thats what he said.

You were younger than Miguel. But roughed it out, talking to him occasionally and living your life. And it was normal.

Till miles, he changed everything. And yada yada, went through hardship and got together from a kiss in his room.

And in the moment it seemed amazing! But what about after..?

—

“So.. is it uh.. official?” He stuttered trying to keep his cool. I noticed his nervous movements, rocking his hand, whistling in the silence. I laughed before turning to him.

“Miles, theres no way I would kiss just anyone.” I muttered getting closer. His cheeks turned hot, feeling touched by those words. “So.. I’ll meet you at the rooftop tomorrow?” I smiled.

God you are hot—

He tilted his head, he felt the world disappear, only seeing you. He did a silent yes hugging me by the waist. Laughing before he went out the room happy. What will he tell his parents..?

—

When you told your brother, it was a easy no.

—

“He’s really nice!”

“That’s really funny!” He said sarcastically with a fake smile. It soon dropped. “Because I don’t believe you” He scoffed crossing his arms. I just rolled my eyes.

“You haven’t even met him..?” I snarked.

“And I don’t have too” He sighed. I waited tapping on my sude. Till getting a very.. capable idea. I took a deep breath, then went into action.

“Pleaseeee” I pleaded getting on my knees.

He choked on his spit. “Why are you doing that? Get up—!”

“Please!!” I grabbed his leg clinging on him.

“Are you serious..!” He struggled getting me off. He couldn’t just kick me, that’s the only weakness he has “Fine! Just get off..”

I shed a fake tear. “Thank you”

—

When miles met your brother, it was tough. He was on edge whenever he saw him, after that one talk. It was worse than anything else.

And had to swear on his life to keep you safe, and probably was not a joke. He still loves you though..?

He takes it slow for the most part, but will automatically want to smother you with love. He definitely loves affection, and texts you every day.

Even with Miguel constantly on eagle watch for him, he acted the same never changing for a person. Unless it was good, but miles never understood why Miguel had a offset grudge.

Aside that He is such a sweetheart, and likes to do things for you. He understands his job as Spider-Man, having to take most of his time into that.

So whenever he has free time he spends it with you. Drawing, ice cream, flying in air as you screamed. You both had fun.

But even with that, expect a lot of flowers and letters. They will be wrote in delicacy and cute doodles on the side.

He always gets soft when you pay attention, he just feels so appreciated. As he should

But obviously all the time spent as Spider-Man and then with you caught up with his parents.

So it was time to introduce you.

At first it was really intense, they glared at you asking constant questions, too fast for you to even answer. But they were worried for miles, that was their kid and they didn’t know if he was safe.

But after dinner, they knew he was gonna be fine. You guys actually started getting closer, and you came over more often for dinner. They started treating you like the family.

And miles only fell for you more. Every time after dinner he gave you a kiss goodbye, always filled with warmth. Even his roommate would make fun of him by how lovey dovey he gets. Especially on his hour rant about you.

—

“Ahh.. wow” Ganke sighed, his eyes were closing, thinking it was finally silent. Till he heard miles words again, ready to just sleep outside.

“And have you seen their smile? It was like heaven to see—!”

“Dude Just go to bed!” Ganke groaned covering his ears with the pillow. It’s 12 at night, and he preferred sleep than some talk about a person he hadn’t even met.

—

Mile’s was protective, he definitely wanted to make sure you weren’t ever hurt. No matter when you tried to help. His first priority was you, so making sure you are safe made him most calm.

A lot of dates. What he loved most was just sitting down in silence staring at the city. He was able to just admire you.

So overall 10/10 he’s definitely worth it. Except for the soon tension with Miguel, that will be a awkward conversation..

Which I might make a part on, thank you for reading!!

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[saytrrose]

Can we see More about your racing AU please?

Looks so amazing and i love It so much

I do suppose I could share the character design line up!

I really just need to finish designing all the go karts, (atleast most are done!) and then I can make proper cards for them and really get into the written details.

To be honest it’s a little hard to just ramble about info and details without specific questions to go off of, so I’ll try my best hhh

for starters, the tent? Not a tent!

It’s actually a stadium, the amazing digital race!

And rooms? Sort of tweaked, they are more like each character owns a personal garage, a large open space where they store their vehicles and then have a loft above that showcases their cozy safe havens. Bed, entertainment, basically a small room in a much larger one.

I haven’t revealed Ragatha, Zooble or Gangles karts yet but I’ll go ahead and just talk about all of them!

Caine:

Caine has a motorcycle, specifically one inspired off of the motorcycle I’m saving up for this summer, a Kawasaki Eliminator. It’s a cruiser, I’m thinking he has a 600cc model but considering Bubble is his right hand man and operates as the races pit crew- he’s definitely tinkered with Caines bike, making adjustments and improving the engine. God only knows what the little psycho did, but it’s a damn good bike that’s not supposed to rev as loud as it does.

Pomni:

Her kart is inspired off a Volkswagen Beetle, seemed very VERY Pomni to me. Her car mimics her outfit design a lot, I might do some color changes to be honest but it will be super minimal, it’ll be final when the cards are done! She definitely stops at the pit the most often despite her placement in a race, are my tires okay?? Do I need my oil?? I know you just filled it but it went down- is anything damaged?? Sweetie you did one lap..

Jax:

Jesus Christ he has a giant supercharger on the hood of his car, and he is absolutely one of those annoying mfs that reva their engine OBNOXIOUSLY loud all the time like he’s super cool. If you’re wondering who most of the skid marks on the track are from, that’s also Jax. Hes the best as drifting, and he loves to show that off. His car isn’t based too much on an actual vehicle?? I stared at Mario karts and pieced it together, but also gave it a very sports car look, the wing on the back fr fr I think Jax would dig that.

Kinger:

OHHSOSK I was so creative with his little wagon,,, it’s castle shaped!! And the best part? Operates like a rocket. In the back past the battlement (the crown looking thing you see atop castle pillars) ARE GIANT exhaust pipes and yes, they do spit fire !! Operates like a rocket. It’s very cool! (Also he has a great muffler because unlike Jax he’s considerate of others hearing 💔) Oh also, he has one of those silly horns, I forgot how to describe it but you can just look at how I drew it on his kart and you’ll know heheh!

Zooble:

Our second motorcyclist, owns a trike! If you don’t know what that is, picture a bike with training wheels but super badass. 3 wheels! It’s inspired off the Harley Davidson freewheeler, I like that design a lot but it’s def not actually a Harley because istg when you buy those bikes your just paying for the fancy name brand- expect it to be in the shop all the time, smh not good- BUT ANYWAY!! The looks are inspired off it though and I can’t wait for this one because it’s just as crazy kooky as Zoobles design is.

Gangle:

Her kart is based on my favorite car, classic style but not too cool because you can bet she has anime stickers on the back and a decal that says “please let me merge before I start crying.” It’s similar to a karmann ghia convertible, 1963. Cherry red (so so pretty) She always has the top down, unless competing because damn you gotta go fast. That car itself is really slow, top speed normally is 68mph, however people have modified them enough to get up to 120mph. Thats still pretty slow compared to others, but her kart only reflects the appearance of the ghia! It’s much faster and I assume Bubble works on all their vehicles if asked to.

Lastly, Ragatha:

Our 3rd motorcyclist. 4 Karts, 3 cyclists. Her bike is a futuristic style, if you want a good idea then look up “icare bike”! Not so much a straight forward posture, she leans over ofc, you’ll likely get the idea when you see her bike. I’ll be honest, I haven’t gotten too into her design yet because I haven’t started drawing but!! Dark blue leds,, everywhere yes yes so cool ❤️

Sorry that’s so much 😭 but yeah! Just need to finish 3 kart designs for you guys and I can make official ref cards 👀

[ev3rgreenxtrees]

Right Here

-M.S

Summary; You break up with your boyfriend, and your best friend Matt is there to comfort you. In hopes you feel the same way, he confesses his feelings towards you, and things don’t go as planned.

Pairing; Matt X Fem!Reader

Warnings: anxiety attack, cussing, heartbreak, unresolved conflict, no fluff. this is pure angst and it is SADDDD.

“Baby, how you doing?

I know you’re not doing the best

but i’m here

i’ll always be here.”

“Fuck!” You sobbed into Matt’s chest. You had been laying with him for hours just sobbing.

“Baby, it’s not your fault. I promise you, beautiful girl, it wasn’t you.” Matt assured you. It wasn’t helping. You know thats all he was trying to do, but it wasn’t working very well.

“But it was my fault, Matt! He cheated! He fucking cheated.” You gritted your teeth. You felt pure anger, only at yourself, and sorrow.

“Y/N, he didn’t fucking deserve you! Key word was ‘he’. He cheated. He ended shit. Not you. Fuck him.” Matt lifted you off his now tear stained shirt. “Look at me, pretty girl. It wasn’t you. I fucking promise.” Matt’s facial expression was softer than usual. He was always calm and sweet around you, but he seemed hurt. “Y/N, I love you. Do you think i’d lie to you?” He questioned, and you thought about it. To be fair, Matt hadn’t lied to you as far as you knew.

“Well.. No.. but.. why would he cheat if I was enough?” You asked.

“That, I can’t tell you. Because honestly, I have no fucking clue. You’re so perfect to me. You know that.” Matt shrugged, standing up from the bed.

“Where are you going?” You called out after him, but he just opened his closet, pulling out one of his hoodies, that you always claimed was your favorite. He slowly walked back over to you with it, handing it to you and gesturing for you to put it on.

“We can just stay here together. Just me and you. You’ll eventually forget about him, he’s not worth your time anyways.” Matt smiled as he sat back down on the bed. “Hold on,” He spoke right before you laid your head back down on him.

He unexpectedly slipped his shirt off over his head, and you gave him a puzzled look. Not because you were upset nor disgusted by it, you thought Matt was very pretty, but he almost never had his shirt off. He never said he was insecure about it or anything, he just didn’t do it often.

“I know you like skin-to-skin contact. My shirt was wet anyways.” Matt places a small kiss on your forehead. A friendly kiss, in which you didn’t mind.

A few movies later, Matt taps you gently on your shoulder.

“Hm?” You hum, continuing to give all of your attention to the T.V.

“Can you look at me, please?” He asks, and you quickly oblige. You sit up, facing him, as he does the same. “Y/N, you know I love you, and nothing will change that, right?” He asks, and you quickly become concerned.

“I.. Yeah? Of course I know that, Matt. I love you too. What’s going on?” You question, and he forces a small smile.

“I… I like you.” He blurts out, his heart practically beating out of his chest. He felt confident that you’d like him back, especially with the way you acted around him.

“Oh.” You state blandly, your eyes widening. Matt’s eyebrows furrow; and he quickly regrets his decision to tell you.

“I.. Fuck, i’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything. We can just forget this happened, right? Yeah.. It’s not that big of a deal! Especially because you didn’t know before I told you.” Matt’s breathing begins to speed up quickly, and your eyes well with tears.

There goes your best fucking friend.

“Y/N..? Please, talk to me.. We get along great! Please.. Fuck, can we start over? I.. Please, please Y/N, i’m sorry..” Matt quickly lets the anxiety take over, as he saw the regret in your own eyes.

“We? Matt, there was never a we.” You shut him down, in the worst way possible.

“No, no, no.. Y/N, please. Fucking please- Y-you can’t leave me like this-“ Matt starts as tears fill his eyes and his breaths quicken. “Fuck, no. Please no..” He begs, his arms reaching out to hold yours.

“All those little nothings, Matt. They meant something..? All those times you remembered something he didn’t? All those times you outdid him?” You questioned, pulling your arms back from him. He shamefully nodded.

“Yes, of course they all meant something, Y/N. And I know it was fucked up of me. I shouldn’t have tried so hard to pull you two apart, I just.. I wanted you so fucking bad, and he didn’t deserve you, Y/N. No one does,” Matt sighs, wiping his eyes quickly.

“No, Matt.. Fuck, please stop crying. I can’t see you cry..” You plead, but he shakes his head.

“I- I cant- Fuck. I’m sorry. I’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’m sorry.” Matt begins to panic, but you were all caught up in your own mind to realize. “I- I, fuck- Y/N, I- I can’t breathe-“ Matt gasps, tears pouring out of his eyes, as he rested his back against the headboard.

“Matt- hold on; stay with me, Matt- Y-you’re doing good.. fuck! What do I do, Matt!” You began panicking as well. Yeah, you’ve delt with your fair share of Matt’s anxiety, so you know how to handle it, but not when you’re the leading cause. “Hold on.. stay right here!” You tell him, before standing up.

“I- no- no, no n-no! P-please! Don’t l-leave me here!” Matt sobs, but you don’t listen. You leave the room, leaving him alone, before running to Nick’s room, since it’s closer than Chris’, praying at least one of the boys were there.

As you burst through the door, both Nick and Chris look up at you, their eyes flooded with concern. They immediately knew something was off.

“M-Matt! It’s Matt!” You cry, and both of the boys get out of Nick’s bed, as quick as you have seen them move in a while. They fly down the hallway to Matt’s room, to be met with the boy curled up on the bed, seemingly trying to even his rapid breathing out.

“H-help-“ He rasps, and Chris immediately rushes onto the bed besides Matt.

“Hey, hey, you’re okay, buddy! I’m here! I got you, okay? Here, listen to my breathing, follow along with it.” Chris pulls Matt into him, and begins breathing out of his mouth, causing his breathing to be louder, making it easier for Matt to hear and match.

“Y/N! What the fuck! Why would you leave him!” Nick whisper yelled at you, trying not to scare Matt.

“I-I don’t know! I’m sorry!” You plead, and Nick scoffs.

“Shhh.. There you are,” Chris smiles, as Matt’s breathing normalizes again. “You okay?” Chris asks, and Matt nods.

“T-thank you..” Matt sighs, getting off of his brother, who then nodded and stood up.

“Of course. Do you wanna talk about anything?” Chris offered, noticing that both of them were crying, and whatever the situation was probably caused Matt to react like this.

“No.. C-can we have some priva-cy though?” Matt hiccuped, and the two nodded, before leaving the room.

“Matt, i’m so fucking sorry, I shouldn’t have left you here like that. I don’t know what the fuck I was-“

“Stop, Y/N. Just stop for once.” Matt demanded, and you did stop. Mid sentence, mouth still open and all. You closed your mouth and nodded, waiting for Matt to begin speaking again. “I’ve waited for you. I’ve waited fucking years, Y/N. Since we were goddamn twelve. I’ve been waiting for eight years. Eight fucking years, and this is what I get? I could get passed with a simple ‘i’m sorry, I don’t feel the same way.’ but there was never an us? Yeah, fuck you for that one, Y/N. You really fucked it up there. All those nights you cried in my arms, and I cancelled plans I had, just to sit here with you in silence, to remind you that you’re loved, down the drain. All those times we laughed so hard we cried for fucking hours together, down the drain. All those times we got so drunk together we threw up the next day, one in the toilet and the other in the garbage can right next to each other. Yeah, those were important to me. I was right here for you always. All those years, just to find out I mean nothing to you. Something you can just toss in the fucking trash after years of growing carefully. Guess you didn’t want to care for it anymore, did you? One fucking slip up, three goddamn words, and you let it all go. Why?” Matt held his composure surprisingly well.

“I.. I don-“

“No, no, no. You don’t get to get off with a fucking ‘I don’t know’ like usual, Y/N. Not this time. Why? Why the fuck did you do it, Y/N?” Matt growled.

“I’m sorry.” You sighed. “I’m so fucking sorry. I know I was a piece of shit friend. You deserve better than that. I wish you the best, Matt. I’ll really fucking miss you. Keep that in mind, please. You have my number if you need it.” You nodded, knowing it was your time to leave.

“I wont be needing it.”

“Just remember that I am still right here

And if you doubt me, that’s just fine

And when it comes clear,

I will be waiting right here.”

@bernardenjoyer @lovely-calypso

[julysn]

random kyle headcanons

(these r my hcs + only one is nsfw)

ship: kyle broflovski x reader

general warnings: hi

other notes: this is such a mess

a/n: this is me using the hours of sp i binged during the summer to good use

FOR SOME FUCKING REASON I THREW IN UNWIND AU. AND GENSHIN AU SOMEONE HELP ME.. Me when i combine all of my fixations.

anyways if ur curious about those.. check their wikis

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚝₊ ⊹˚ high school hcs ✶ 𓏲ּ ꩜ .ᐟ

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he's the kid thats super smart and kinda quiet and no one wants to mess w him except cartman. sosososo helpful and kids are always asking him for help on assignments

✶ ࣪˖࿐ GOOD FIGHTER.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ his idea of rizz is helping his crush with picking up their books and helping them out with homework

✶ ࣪˖࿐ all the teachers adore him so he can get away with skipping class and using his phone whenever he feels like it. it’s actually kinda rare to see him on his phone in class or skipping but it’s mostly bc of the boys 🤷‍♂️

✶ ࣪˖࿐ basketball team captain + he’s one of the best players in the school.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ one time cartman made fun of kyle and said "tolkien shouldve been captain bc hes black and ur just a stupid jew" during basketball practice and kyle "accidentally" shot a ball at his face. he didn’t get in trouble bc the teachers were like “oh cartmans prob lying” LMAOO

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he would buy u girl scout cookies,. he would only buy ur favorites and make stan and kenny sneak them into ur backpack during passing period.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ when he has a crush on u.. you will somehow be brought up in conversations w his friends. whenever he’s changing in the boys locker room he always finds a way to mention you to stan and kenny. meanwhile cartmans like “who cares” but kyle will talk about u a LOt!

✶ ࣪˖࿐ when u got assigned to sit next to him, he’s always helping you out (bf material) (i love him)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ passes notes to u to make sure u understand the subject. they read like “hey, you understand what to do, right?” or “you know what we’re learning about, right?”

✶ ࣪˖࿐ 100% mews during class. thats why hes so quiet. he doesn’t put his hand up for questions bc hes mewing!

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚝₊ ⊹˚ ur husband + baby daddy hcs ✶ 𓏲ּ ꩜ .ᐟ

sorry amab fans.. HERES A UTERUS (and tits) LMAO

✶ ࣪˖࿐ whenever the baby wakes u up in the middle of the night hes like "no. GO BACK TO SLEEp" and goes to comfort the baby for twenty minutes while u drift off

✶ ࣪˖࿐ HES SUCH A GOOD DAD UGH

✶ ࣪˖࿐ sometimes he wants more kids bc of how sweet u are. like he’ll see you playing with the kids and his mind will wander off to how it’d be if you were pregnant again

✶ ࣪˖࿐ you were insecure about your breasts getting bigger and heavier and he reassured u and said he would love u no matter what (even if u were a worm aahhaahhha..)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ “sweetheart do you want me to pick up the kids from school? i’ll buy us food”

✶ ࣪˖࿐ SO DAMN SWEET

✶ ࣪˖࿐ ur kids are now 12 and 13 years old. and one day kyle got kenny to babysit them. lets just say when u came home they were saying not very pg things LMAOO

✶ ࣪˖࿐ whenever he helps the kids with their homework he pulls out his reading glasses and they’re low on his nose and you find it SO cute.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he wakes up before u because his shift starts earlier, and whenever u wake up there’s always a hot shot of espresso waiting for u

✶ ࣪˖࿐ typa dad to be chill and lenient but whenever hes mad at the kids… dear lord !

✶ ࣪˖࿐ whenever ur stressed from the kids or work, he always prepares a relaxing and hot bath for you. and he goes all out. dimmed lights, lit candles, rose petals everywhere, a perfect bubble bath with your favorite scents. you can tell he’s obsessed + in love and hes not afraid to show it

✶ ࣪˖࿐ affectionate and sweet. he will do anything for u. he cooks dinner for u. he makes coffee in the morning for u. he takes the kids out so u can have a break. you’re his one and only

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚝₊ ⊹˚ genshin au hcs ✶ 𓏲ּ ꩜ .ᐟ

✶ ࣪˖࿐ either dendro or geo vision. i dunno

✶ ࣪˖࿐ polearm or sword user 😜

✶ ࣪˖࿐ I FEEL LIKE HE WOULD BE FROM FONTAINE OR SNEZHNAYA IDK THO

✶ ࣪˖࿐ would either hate the fatui or b one of the harbingers

✶ ࣪˖࿐ are we seeing the vision guys

✶ ࣪˖࿐ got put into the slammer/fortress of meropide and didn't know how to use credit coupons so he accidentally gave all of them to someone (and was really mad after he found out what credit coupons were)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ you’re a receptionist at the fortress. and when u first met kyle he tried flirting w u (his rizz was absolutely horrible AT THE Start) and u were like “stop. stop holding up the line mr. broflovski” and he said “of course not, mrs broflovski” and shot u a cheeky wink (hes using his redhead jewish rizz)

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪⚝₊ ⊹˚ unwind au hcs ✶ 𓏲ּ ꩜ .ᐟ

this is a mess. i'm sorry.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he 100% tried to pull the akron awol/connor lassiter shooting a juvey-cop with his own tranq gun move. (it probably worked)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ omg. scenario where you guys find out u both are getting unwound so u both kick awol and go to a safe house and he acts slightly possessive and jealous of u because he doesn’t wanna lose u 💘💘

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he would ABSOLUTELY hate hayden when they first meet. but they would be friends later on. this is canon bc i said so and i am always 100% true (not clickbait)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ you guys def met at the graveyard and he was head over heels for u. like head flew away from yo heels. he saw u in the crowd when the admiral was giving his speech and kyle went BRIGHT RED

✶ ࣪˖࿐ the both of u are at the graveyard. and ur a medic. and kyle purposely gets bruises or tiny, practically painless cuts so he can visit and be like "hi y/n 😓😣 can u take care of me it hurts" BOY ITS JUST A LITTLE CUT! but u care about him so u do it anyway. he’s always blushing a little whenever you take care of him and u always shoot him glares which he finds to be super endearing

✶ ࣪˖࿐ les by childish gambino plays in ur head as the two of u meet in a harvest camp bathroom and he says "i love u." and then kisses u deeply. and then he says "if we get unwound i hope our parts end up on the same body" and u shed a tear

✶ ࣪˖࿐ THIS IS SORTA ANGSTY. OKAY. kyle gets unwound and while the procedure is happening all he can think about is u. like he’s sad he didn’t get to confess to you before they took him away and he wishes he told u how much u mean to him before he was dragged away to a harvest camp

✶ ࣪˖࿐ nsfw: when y’all were at the graveyard, u guys had sex in one of the jets while it was empty. best decision of ur life

✶ ࣪˖࿐ OMG TITHE KYLE. TITHE KYLE. HES A TITHE hear me out guys hear me out,..

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he would be the #1 radio free hayden fan (canon) (real) (i said so) (guys its real)

✶ ࣪˖࿐ him stan and kenny escaped a harvest camp and beat up the guards that chased them and they became literal legends

✶ ࣪˖࿐ harvest camp. and every time he sees u he gives u a kiss on the cheek when the staff aren’t looking.

✶ ࣪˖࿐ he wants to be affectionate w u SO BAD whenever u guys are at a harvest camp he can’t stop sneaking glances at you. and whenever he hears ur name get mentioned he immediately starts eavesdropping

✶ ࣪˖࿐ OMG OLAY I GOT ONE you guys met in sonia’s basement and it got cold at night so he let you sleep in his arms for warmth. and it was so cute. like you sat next to him and it was cold so you guys hugged and fell asleep (the other kids were jealous)

[onboardsorasora]

34 year old Daniel in the 90s is basking in his parents love and teasing Michelle. A part of him doesn’t want to return to 2024 because he hasn’t been able to be home like this since he was 17 and left for Italy

Decided to hop to it lmao. for you bestie!

De-Aged Daniel | De-Aged Daniel Pt2 | De-Aged Daniel Pt3 | De-Aged Daniel Pt 4 | De- Aged Daniel Pt 5 | De-Aged Daniel Part 6 | De-Aged Daniel Part 7 | De-Aged Daniel Part 8 | De-Aged Daniel Part 9 | De-Aged Daniel Part 10 |

Daniel sat in the far corner of the breakfast nook watching with soft eyes as his mother went about preparing lunch. It had come as a shock; one minute he was putting on his race boots to jump into the sim and the next he was standing in the yard. 

His father had come running immediately, having seen it all happen. How his five year old self had been cycling around the yard before he– well no one really knew how it happened, but Daniel was standing there instead. He’d bitten back the joke about thankfully being fully clothed, he didn’t think his parents would have appreciated it.

It had been very emotional. Very surprising. Michelle had run away to her room– fair. Grace had cried immediately, pulling him into a tight hug. Joe had stared at him with something akin to pride. 

Now Daniel sat in the kitchen reeling off random facts about the future. Things he always told himself he’d remember to tell his parents if he ever got sent back to the past.

“Oh, invest in Apple. They probably aren’t on the stock exchange now but when they pop up– trust me.” He sipped his tea as Grace laughed.

“How about you tell us other things than insider trading.” Joe grinned.

“Well, what do you want to know?” Daniel put his mug down with a clank.

“I know there’s a bunch of shite you’re not allowed to tell us. But what’s there to know about grown up Daniel Ricciardo? Your accent is different, did you move away?”

“Actually,” Daniel smiled softly. “Yeah I did. I became a formula one driver. And I needed to move to Italy to do it.”

Daniel felt his chest warm at the shock on his parents’ face, how they looked him over carefully as if taking in this new information and trying to see how such a high paced career would have changed him from their precious baby boy.

“Well I’ll be damned.” Joe muttered, “thats fucking amazing. For which team? Ferrari?”

“Well no, they never officially gave me a contract. But– well my team doesn’t exist yet. But they’re fast, currently the world champions. I won 7 races with them.” Daniel smiled proudly when Grace came over to hug him tightly.

“I’m so proud of you baby waby.” 

Daniel felt his chest clench and tears spring to his eyes. He hadn’t heard that endearment in so long, it brought back memories of wonderful times.

“I love you too mummy wummy.” his voice cracked when he said it and Grace held him tighter. When she finally let go, Daniel got up to clutch Joe tightly. Not one to go without his father’s hugs, he didn’t see why he should start now.

“Gosh, I miss you guys.” Daniel muttered. Grace frowned.

“Do you spend a lot of time away?”

“Too much. You guys come to some races too, but– it's still a lot of travel at the end of the day.” He had to bite his tongue to keep from mentioning Isaac and Isabella.

“Where were you before you Exchanged?” Joe asked after a bit.

“Oh I was at work, so little me is probably with Blake right now. Poor sucker, he has to deal with adult me and little me. I hope I terrorize him a little.” Daniel giggled, thinking about all the chaos his small counterpart could be unleashing right now on his long time friend.

“Don’t be mean, you weren’t that terrorizing.” Grace would never hear a slight against her baby, not even from him himself.

“They say it's not always an even exchange, you seek out what makes you most comfortable. So if not Blake, where would you go?” Joe asked and they watched as Daniel grow soft and bite his lip.

“Max. Probably.” 

“Who’s Max?”

“He’s… everything.”

[sinfulseashell]

How would Yandere Bonten react to a broken reader? Not as in broken where they're compliant and does whatever they want, like broken they're unresponsive, doesn't move, eat or sleep that much. Like a broken husk of human being.

(Also because I'm nice let's imagine that they stayed like that for only a few months and after a bit they started moving and eating again, how would they react to that?)

A/N: You’re very nice anon 😂

Y!Mikey: Dark lifeless eyes glare at the interviewer slowly bringing his body to sit up as he leaned forward onto his knees, “If this is what they want then who am I do change them.” He sighs letting his eyes drop to the floor, “Yet…I couldn’t allow myself to let them be that way…” he whispers though his words were loud enough to cause the room to fall completely silent. Mikey brings his eyes to look around quickly standing up, white locks covering his face as he clears his throat. “I…I need to go..” was the last words he spoke before rushing out of the room.

Bonten: Watches him leave slowly bringing their gaze back to the interviewer.

Y!Koko: “These types of questions make him…slightly…um…uncomfortable.” He speaks lightly before clapping his hands. “Anyways let’s continue.”

Y!Sanzu: “Hmmm, well usually when I feel dead inside…I take my happy pills.” He smiles.

Y!Rin: “Dear god…no! No! Don’t answer this question like that! Not everyone wants to be doped up all the fucking time! Fucking idiot!” The male hisses at the pinkette.

Y!Sanzu: “Geez who the fuck pissed in your coffee? I was just trying to lighten the mood.” The male chuckled before responding again. “Ok honestly…it’s fucked up that they became this way, but…I would take the time to help them…heal? Is that the word? I mean me healing them? I can’t even heal myself from my own trauma.” He cackled. “Anyways that’s the best bullshit I could give.”

Y!Takeomi: “Come on…we’re talking about caring for them and bringing our darlings back up.” With an exasperated sigh Takeomi pulled out his box of cigarettes, bringing one to his lips and lighting the nicotine. While exhaling the smoke he began to speak once more, “The fact that my darling would even be so broken would hurt me…all I can do is give them time and make sure they feel as loved. I will do whatever it takes to treat them with enough care to bring them back to life.”

Y!Koko: “I seriously think this question is a little too…what’s the word…unnecessary? No…I guess what I’m trying to say is that, this question expects us to be soft and most of us…” The male looks over at Sanzu. “Are not capable of such things…but I’ll go ahead and answer it. Let’s see I can always get them the help they need, I mean money is no issue. If that doesn’t help then I’ll make sure I shower them with expensive gifts. That always makes me happy.” He hummed.

Y!Ran: “They simply asked what we would do to help them not smother them with unnecessary things.” Ran scoffed.

Y!Koko: “I swear to go Haitani…”

Y!Rin: “Alright let’s move on before things get out of hand.” The male rolls his eyes in annoyance turning his gaze over to the interviewer, “If my darling ever becomes a husk of a human the only thing I would like to do is be there for them.”

Y!Ran: “Aw, Thats so sweet…I knew I raised you right.” He smiles while wiping a “tear” from his eye.

Y!Rin: “Just shut the fuck up…weirdo.” The younger Haitani spat.

Y!Ran: “You’re absolutely adorable when you’re mad.” He chuckled, “Anyways. It’s hard to say what I would do for them since most of the answers have been taken. It’s not that I wouldn’t do anything in my power to help my darling, but I can only do so much and if they don’t want to help themselves well then I’m limited on my ability. I’m a human sweetheart, not a god.”

Y!Mochi: “I think all of you are forgetting the point here. We are supposed to make this sweet and caring, and honestly none of you are doing a good job at it.” He spoke with a shake of his head.

Y!Sanzu: “Oh yeah? Well Mr. Shan Yu. What would you do since you’re so fucking great.” Sanzu spoke sarcastically.

Y!Mochi: “I told you not to call me that.” He growled.

Y!Sanzu: “It’s not my fault you look like him! I mean you’re damn near bald so after that I will officially have your name changed to Shan Yu.”

Y!Mochi: “Thats it!” Standing up he rushed over to Sanzu quickly giving him a quick jab causing the others to immediately intervene.

Host: “Cut the feed! Cut it!”

**BRIEF INTERMISSION**

The feed cuts back on with just Kakucho showing.

Host: “I’m sorry Mr. Hitto, please forgive us for taking so long. Can you please continue with your final answer.

Y!Kakucho: “Don’t worry about it, I deal with that on a daily basis.” He spoke matter-of-factly. “As for your question…I would make sure to get my darling help…make sure to be there every step of the way including being at their therapy. I would never leave their side, I will make sure my darling bathes, eats and sleeps even if it meant that I would loose sleep, food or anything else as well. When my darling would be hurting, I will hurt with them…I would want to build them again…give them love…” he sighs while bringing his gaze down to his lap seeing the screen shine with a message from his darling, a small smile played across his lips as he stood up. “I have to go.” Without another word the male left.

I’m so sorry this took so long, but I hope all of your enjoy! 🩷

[vveakfish]

do you have any thoughts about the core four whose gender(s) are basically just a trans fruit cocktail that you would like to talk about? because I would love to listen

oh boy DO I !!!

I have So Many thoughts about them Anon, so thank you for giving me an excuse to try and put it into words beyond “Damn, these bitches trans! Good for them.”

Honestly, there are so many different ways to explore these characters genders based on how you choose to interpret their life experiences, and their aesthetic changes, and their relationships with each other. I am of the belief that any of them could be trans in any direction

But, that said, I Do have particular gender headcanons for YJ that i am very fond of, so thats what I’ll be talking about today.

(Small disclaimer. I have not finished all of the comics referenced in this. I am using the information i have to inform these, but you know, i might come back to this post at some point in the future and look at it like “wow, i don’t agree with any of this anymore.” And i think thats okay.

I’m just here to have fun, and i thoroughly enjoy these little guys, and think abt them alot, so enjoy

(also if you dont want to read 4.1k words of blorbo gender analysis, or would like to avoid spoilers for Superboy (1993), Young Justice (1998) & (2019), and Red Robin (2009) in varying degrees of detail, or you just want to see what lables i assigned them, scroll down to the bottom <3))

lets get started.

Bart:

Bart's gender is the most complex, but his thought process about it is also the most simple. I think his view of gender would be very much influenced by the fact that he grew up in VR in the future like…

A body is just an avatar, do what ever the fuck you want with it.

That said, the lil guy has always given me transmasc vibes. These vibes, however, are by no means binary.

He understands that in the 21st century a lot of people do not have his sort of “throw things at the wall and see what sticks” approach to gender, so he’s okay with being put in the box of Boy™. But his gender is a lot more * hand waves vaguely *

Clothes don’t have gender in his eyes, they’re fabric you put on your body. Wear what ever you want forever!

Bart in skirts is something i have seen many people draw/talk about before, and its something i agree with wholeheartedly. He likes hair clips, and like, those loud (actually loud and visually loud) beaded bracelet type things that ravers wear. He like nail polish. He doesn’t grow facial hair, but he wouldn’t care if he did. He’s not on hormones, but he definitely considered it for the bit. “Gotta drink my boy juice” Kind of vibes.

For him gender has Nothing to do with performance, its all about comfort. About wearing what feels right, regardless of whether or not he’s adhering to expectations of masculinity.

Yes, he Will wear that god awful outfit out of the house, haters can die mad

Cassie:

Anon, I need you to understand how much i love early yj98 cass. She is everything to me — her process of coming to terms with herself, and being able to watch her start to feel at home in her own skin. It makes me absolutely feral.

lets see if i can explain why… succinctly

When we first meet her in yj98, her identity as “Wonder Girl” is this sort of amalgamation of What it Means To Be A Hero in her eyes. She has her party city blunt bob wig (Because Diana is who she looks up to), the gloves, leather jacket, goggles combo (that so clearly take inspiration from Kon).

At this point in her life Wonder Girl is not really her. Its very clearly a mask she’s putting on. which is what makes it the perfect avenue for her to explore gender expression without it having to actually be about her gender.

I think the part that specifically makes me feral though is her… we’ll call it admiration of Kon.

The girl is a self proclaimed Superboy stan + theres all the weird not-drama between Cassie and Cissie over wanting attention from Kon. (And i say Not Drama bc its like… Kon flirting with cissie (which like… have you met 90’s Kon?? he flirts with everything that moves) and Cassie being upset that he’s Not flirting with her. and cissie is just along for the ride. She’s not quite as much of a flirt as kon is, but she has her moments)

All of this to say i feel like its impossible to have a conversation about Cassie’s gender without also talking about her experiences with comphet and lesbianism.

At the beginning, Cassie sees Kon — this cocksure, conventionally attractive boy with powers that (at first glance) seem very similar to hers, and felt something about it. And, in the way of teen girls who have been told since grade school that they’re supposed to like boys, Cassie comes to the conclusion that what she feels for Kon must be romantic in nature, right?.

All of this, the jealousy over Kon and Cissie flirting, basing her costume off Superboy’s (intentionally or otherwise), the fact that she wont let her team see her without the wig and goggles at all for so much of yj98. To me it all reads as the tangled mix of undiscovered lesbianism and gender dysphoria that the poor girl simply doesn’t have the words to define yet.

So, then what IS cassie’s deal with gender???

i am so very glad you asked.

She, too, is a transmasc of the nonbinary variety.

I think her relationship to femininity is complex, and ever changing. She doesn’t feel comfortable performing femininity the way the world expects her to, but she is also part Amazon. And i think having a relationship with both Diana and Donna would greatly influence how she felt about femininity as a whole.

The Amazons are strong, their femininity isn’t about beauty, or being soft spoken — it isn’t about Men at all. On Themyscira, to be a Woman is about bravery, honor, skill, and in some ways, divinity. Getting closer with her Amazonian sisters would change her relationship to womanhood immensely.

But it still wouldn’t feel Right. She would be able to see that womanhood can be defined differently, but that wouldn’t change the connotations that womanhood had as she was growing up. She’d never be able to lean into it the way Diana or Donna do — they both grew up only having woman defined as strong and brave and confident. Their experiences are not analogous.

The baggage of growing up a girl under the patriarchy wouldn’t just… vanish because she sees that it Doesn’t have to be that way. In some ways, the knowledge that it didn’t have to be that way could make her dysphoria all that stronger (especially if she hasn’t quite deciphered that dysphoria is what she’s feeling).

but i think there would be a point where two things sharpen into focus for her.

fiirstly she has a big fat crush on cissie king-jones.

and second (which would only come AFTER realizing her feelings for cissie) is that what she feels for Kon is Not the same as what she feels for Ciss.

She didn’t want to be with Kon romantically, she just wanted his gender.

I could see her experimenting with wearing a binder, liking that she can get rid of her boobs if she isn’t feeling them that day.

She already has her short hair, and her leather jacket and jeans, and shes big and buff and strong (because she deserves to be butch!!! okay???).

I still think she would use she/her pronouns, but she wouldn’t be picky ab it (if she gets called sir while at the pizza place, she’s not going to correct them.)

But here’s the kicker — I think leaning hard into her masculinity would be EXACTLY what she needs in order to actually ENJOY expressing femininity again.

When putting on the mask that is ‘womanhood’ becomes something that she can Choose to do, rather than something that is being forced on her, it can be pleasant. Like playing dress up.

She has a new appreciation for it, especially since her friends respect her gender, and she knows at the end of the day, when she takes the makeup, the clothes, and the wig off, underneath it all she’s just her.

(Small addendum re: TT’03 Cassie’s fem phase. I have Many thoughts about this as well, and while they end up in roughly the same place, i exploring her experience with comphet and her decision to dress in a more traditionally feminine in that run is something id like to explore in another post (once i’ve actually read the run too.)

Cissie (bonus):

This one should be shorter than Cassies, mainly because my reasoning for it is much simpler.

YJ'98 (#11)

She lists all these names, all of them feminine except for Fucking Ralph. “One weird phase” she calls it.

To me, Cissie is a transgirl through and through. She has this huge list of femme names she tried on while she tried to find the one that fit best. She mentions ralph in this off handed way, as if its not important, and i think thats just her way of dismissing her deadname as something of little consequence.

(that said, i think there’s lots of fun to be had with transmasc cissie, or tried transing-her-gender and realized it wasn’t for her Cissie. But as a transfemme, tgirl cissie is So important to me <3)

Kon:

other people on here have made posts about Kon’s gender that are much more coherent than this will be, but i’m putting the words down anyway. bear with me.

Kon’s experience with identity (especially in his earlier years) is almost entirely about the external rather than the internal.

Kon has his whole life planned out for him from the moment he opens his eyes. It’s simple really — become Superman.

So you have this freshly hatched teenage boy, saving the world as Superman (not the Only one, but definitely the coolest one (Kon would argue)). All eyes on him, all the time. In some ways, performance is inseparable from who he is. From the very beginning, everything he does is on display.

He starts his life with a Name (Superman), a life path (…again, Superman), and all the confidence of a sixteen year old jock with nothing but wins under his belt. then it all gets taken away.

Turns out Clark ISNT dead, and the world doesn’t need its pint sized superman anymore now that its got the real thing.

enter Superboy

Kon’s entire identity, his whole purpose for being alive, was to step into the shoes of a dead man who is no longer dead. So where does that leave our genetically engineered test tube baby?

lost, and extremely confused.

But he’s good at using his charisma as a shield, and even better at keeping himself busy. His problems aren’t there if he doesn’t have the time to think about them, right?

and i think that’s true about his gender as well.

Similar to Cassie, his discovery and exploration of his gender feels incredibly tied to his sexuality (to me). If you’ve read sb93, you know Kon’s deal with women. He is cute & conventionally attractive & he's like superman with a fashion sense, so of course there are people fawning over him.

And he loves the attention. He likes that people want him, or that they are looking at him. The issue is he doesn’t have the life experience to realize that their reasons for paying attention to him are often very shallow, manipulative, or selfish.

He isn’t treated as a person very often. He’s a brand, a product, a tool, a weapon. He’s arm candy, he’s a photo op, he’s a headline, he’s a paycheck. And it takes him a long time to be able to tell the difference between someone Liking Him & someone Using Him.

For the longest Time, Superboy is all he is. He doesn’t have a name outside of that identity (except for the various pet names the women in his life give him (kid & pup, mainly)).

And even when Clark does give him his real name, Kon-El, its still Attatched to his identity as Superboy.

I dont think that he would really even be able to start dissecting how HE feels about his identity until he’s much older.

Part of this would come from the space to be someone else that gaining a civilian identity would give him. As Superboy, the goal has always been to stand out, to be seen, to shine like the sun.

As Conner Kent, he has to blend in. He doesnt want to draw attention to himself, or the Kents, or Clark. He has to fit in, which was never something he had to do as Kon. And i think it would kind of chafe at him — but he wouldn’t really know why.

I think he’d chalk it up to how different of an experience it is. Not being loud, having to be normal™. And so i think he’d just… continue to play the part. For a while anyway.

And like, part of being Normalest Boy Conner Kent would also involve actively un-queer coding himself for the sake of fitting into the ecosystem of Smallville High. and its like…

Young Justice, as a friend group, is SOOO queerplatonic. The lines between romantic and platonic intimacy are so blurred, and Prior to Kon’s YJ days he he was also like… living with these woman who he had complicated relationships with that also blurred the lines between platonic, romantic, and sexual (…looking at you, Knockout).

So learning where the line is when it comes to how he can acceptably interact with his civilian friends (particularly the boys) would Really open his eyes to just how close he is with Bart and Tim, and how similar his feelings for them are to his feelings for… lets say, Simon Valentine.

But i dont think That is what would actually tip the scale. I think realizing that these feelings for his friends aren’t considered ‘normal’ would make him shove them down deeper. As ‘Conner’ anyway.

from here it could go two ways, right?

Either we get Teen Titans ‘03 t-shirt Kon, who sheds his GNC 90s swag in exchange for adhering closer to traditional (read; boring) masculine gender roles.

or we get a Kon who leans Harder into his punk roots, but its a conscious choice now.

(this isn’t even digging into how he would feel once Jon comes into the picture, because while Kon cares for that boy Deeply, his feelings abt the new kiddo in the family could also be very complicated. But that’s a post for another time.)

Personally i prefer the second one.

Kon has always been a curious kid, i love the way he makes pop culture references, and how he bases his behavior off of 90’s teen tropes that he Most Definitely learned from TV. In his early days this wasn’t done in a research way necessarily, but he Did want to learn what it was like to Be a Teen™, and TV was the easiest way to figure that out.

(and, playing in the space of Kon adaptations, his love of media/pop culture, and just over all thirst for knowledge, are present both in the Reign of the Supermen Movie, and in his iteration during the n52 (which is one of the few things i personally have internalized from reading n52 Superboy/Teen Titans)).

But post gay awakening, i feel liked he’d be interested not just in behaviors, but also the context of them. Digging into punk as a subculture rather than as an aesthetic. Learning about its connections to queerness, and community, and self expression. And i think this would be extremely freeing for him. (especially if this were around the time of Jon becoming Superboy v.3, but again, not the point of this post.)

this all culminates in Kon being like yk? gender just… isnt for me. Like, it takes im a long time to get to this point, but realizing that the path that was set out for him is just one of the potential paths he can take, and while he might not know where this new path will take him, its his, that that matters.

And also like, Because his friends are who they are, he’s seen different versions of queerness, and transness, but i think it would take him a bit to see himself as someone who Isn’t Cis bc like… he doesnt have dysphoria in the traditional sense.

He’s still the beefcake he’s always been, but i think he’d start playing with makeup when he realizes it makes him feel good (he shows up the the cave one day with smudgy eye liner and Cissie is immediately like a) you look so good and b) can i Please do your makeup? (and then she does it, and he looks so pretty, and he gets these weird giddy feelings that he doesn’t realize is gender euphoria until his friends start talking abt gender euphoria)

His uniform starts to get more personalized too, like the designs where he has knee patches, and all his little belts, and stuff. maybe he starts experimenting with showing skin. bc he deserves it

(’its for maximum sun exposure!!!’ is the what he tells clark… he’s not sure if clark bought it or not)

And hey, exploring gender presentation more as Superboy might help him do the same as Conner. Cassie will take him thrifting, he’ll try of a flowy skirt or a sun dress or something and then its Over. Gender euphoria part two, electric boogagloo.

In the end, its about realizing that adhering gender roles (and truthfully, any socially imposed ‘rule’ about self expression) is something he can simply Choose not to do. And i think this freedom would be something that benefits him in his civilian life as well.

His gender is: literally what ever, man.

Tim:

Ok, here’s the thing about Tim and gender, right? I think he’s kind of just comfortable as he is. He’s good at playing the roles he needs to in what ever situation hes thrown into. ‘Robin’ and ‘Tim Drake’ (and even ‘Tim Drake-Wayne’ if you want to split hairs) might be masks he wears, but that doesn’t mean they’re any less him. if that makes sense. like…

Lets look at the differences between Bruce (or Brucie) and Batman for a second. They really are different people. Batman is who bruce is at his core, ‘bruce’ is this sort of liminal space between the cowl and his public persona, and then theres Brucie™, and well, you know how he is. These are personas that Bruce puts on.

With Tim its like he just highlights different aspects of himself when a situation requires it. (oh no, the autistic!Tim head canons are being loud today.) But like, he’s Always been masking. And i think this is something he would look at as like… getting a good grade in adapting. or something. He’s comfortable, all the roles he plays are ones he’s familiar with, and he doesn’t really question who he is outside of who he needs to be.

That is, until Caroline Hill makes an appearance.

I feel that the decision to go undercover as a woman was a wholly practical decision in the moment. It’s what the mission required, and therefore tim stepped up. Its just another mask, right? Surely this wont awaken anything in him…right?

But this is an entirely new mask. And i think it might like… shift the way he looks at/thinks about the other masks he puts on. He was able to step into a role that was very foreign to him, and it Worked. (and he felt pretty, which like… woah, thats a new feeling. and he kinda liked it? file that under ‘thoughts he doesn’t have the bandwidth to process right now.’ Bruce needs him back at the cave! its time to debreif! and he has a biology test tmrw! no time for gender scaries!!!).

I think it would take a while for him to be able to admit it to himself though. Because like… hes Not uncomfortable with his body, but he also keeps thinking about how good he felt dressed up femininely, and how he felt powerful, in a way. That putting on that mask felt just as good as putting on his domino.

Personally, i think itd be funny if instead of coming out right away, Tim doing undercover missions essentially in drag becomes a recurring thing. And i imagine some people give him a hard time. (not in a transphobic way or anything, i just mean like, teasing him fondly or what ever.) (Also, i like to imagine that when cissie Did kons makeup, bart and Tim jumped in there too bc like hey why not, and hoooooo boy, if Tims egg hadn’t cracked before then, it sure would have cracked after.)

The thing about him is, i’m not sure if he’d come to the realization himself. You know, that he would like to present femme sometimes, in a situation that has Nothing to do with a mission.

I could see Tim convincing himself that its a pointless or frivolous desire, which is Why he relegates his time presenting femme to when he can prove that it’s useful.

but i have this image in my mind, right? Of him, taking his makeup and wig off, and hes chatting with whoever is in the room with him (literally anyone else mentioned above… or Dick). And Tim’s just talking about how he wishes he could present this way in situations other than missions.

and the other person in the room is just like… i mean, you literally can.

and hes just like…. shit you’re right. i Can :0

I could probably go further into depth abt this, but i think this just frees him to start playing with gender more as Tim. and start to recognize when he’s feeling more masculine, more feminine, or somewhere in between.

His gender isn’t consistent, its this thing he’s constantly listening to, and trying to understand. but in the mean time, he can paint his face, and wear pretty clothes, or dress like just Some Guy, or be a hedgehog dressed in traffic light colors, or what ever his heart desires.

As far as like… how He describes his gender, i think he’d say something corny like bi^2 (bi of both the sexual and the gendered varieties). Or shrug, handwave, generally give a non-helpful vague description. Or tell who evers asking to buzz off.

(small addendum wrt Kon and Cassie in TT’03. I haven’t read this run yet, so i didn’t really include it in this post. But i Do have thoughts about what might cause the two of them (my gnc besties from my comics books) to lean sooooo hard into traditional gender roles after being So Queercoded in their other appearences. Before i talk abt that though, i want to read the comic. So, that will have to be a post for another time)

ANYWAY, heres that TL;DR i promised.

Bart: NB Transmasc Cassie: NB Lesbian (of the transmasc variety) Kon: Agender Tim: Fluid (bi-gender) + Cissie: Transgirl

Thank you soooooo much for giving me the opporrtunity to ramble abt the silles and how Not Cis i think they are. Love you forever.

[pansyfemme]

Thank you for talking about vaginal atrophy. Its hard to find personal accounts of these things and stuff that isnt way over medicalized.

This sounds pervy, but if your comfortable could you speak more about genitalia changes on T? I heard about bottom growtha nd stuff but these things are hard to reserch. Or links/reading recs for this sort of stuff if you (or your followers) have any

oh yeah i can talk a bit from personal experience but i dont have any readings currently on hand. But yeah, i’ve been on t for five years, starting when i was a young teen. i’ll put my major takeaways under the cut for anyone who would rather not hear any more about my pussy for the evening

So, atrophy hasn’t been a major issue for me because i’m not really interested in vaginal penetration, it’s not really pleasurable for me. Perhaps that’s because of t? But i don’t know. But i’ve definitly had issues with self lubrication, i can be dry as a bone sometimes.

Bottom growth is the obvious one, but people speak less about changes in smell and taste, which is very present. I don’t have much to compare this too but some people say it resembles more of the smell and taste of a penis so 🤷 but its definitly different. urine changes smell as well, its VERY jarring at first and then you’re like. OH thats why mens rooms smell so much worse. Just like other body hair, pubic hair will become thicker and coarser, and spread to your ass as well. Libido is increased, but people don’t always talk about how you may gain a refractory period similar to what a lot of people with penises have. (i’ve heard some people on estrogen have lost theirs, which is super cool.) for me, this is usually resulted in me being wayyy too sensitive to the touch. Orgasms change pretty heavily too. They’re less full body, and much, much more concentrated in the lower body, but extremly intense. It’s also common for trans guys to become more interested in/aroused by anal sex, and this may be because studies prove that we have some prostate tissue but honestly it might just be that a lot of guys dont like vaginal as much after transitioning. The other thing is boners, which are definitly different than being aroused pre-t, because while clits get hard too, tdicks have such a presence that you can definitly feel yourself having a boner. It’s very surreal. In general though, theres many ways to get off as a trans guy, and vaginal stuff might not be a big deal at all for you, or you can work with a doctor to find a way to make it work. 👍 mastrubating is good for you and if you’re on t, you’re prob gonna have to find a way to make it comfortable for yourself because you will feel the urge a lot more often. We live in a world where there exists strokers for tdicks and packers and ways to get off with minimal dysphoria so i overall am very happy with the way t changed my sexual function and it feels much more suited to my body than before.

[cosmo-clown]

You were literally who I was looking for:

Infodump in Dust AND Blueprint

OKAY BUT I WILL WARN YOU MY BLUEPRINT IS THE OPPOSITE OF HOW I TREAT DUST

I try to be very close to canon with dust,,,, i read through the whole blog (post hopefullylyyy coming soon still need to write it but due to reasons i might not get it done for a while college is so hard chat but i will try to get it out as soon as i can!! i have not forgotten!!!!)

DUST IS JUST REALLY SAD. REALLY DEPRESSED LITTLE GUY. he is miserable every day of his silly little life whether he’s having a good time or not he will always find a way to bring himself back into his own misery. he can never be happy with himself and what he’s done and the guilt of his actions will always haunt him and his hallucinations will loom above him reminding him that he’s a terrible person who can never achieve redemption, and even if he could he doesn’t deserve to be happy in the slightest. he treats himself like absolute shit when the player gives up on his timeline and lets himself waste away (and when nightmare picks him up, this doesn’t change, he just becomes nightmare’s little depression purse, like how dream gets energy from people cheering him on nightmare carries this depressed lump of a skeleton as an energy source)

i think thats canon-adjacent enough,, i think dust would fight against these things but i think he loses eventually,, not much you can really do against a god of negativity,,

BLUEPRINT on the other hand is. entirely headcanon. basically every detail has either been maassively editted or changed. i have reference sheets but i’m literally self conscious idk if i should post them yet.,, the arts olddd i probably need to redraw it

i’ll be drawing him over on @ask-fruit-punch when we start up again BUT as a treat here are some silly fun facts!! (more where this comes from i’ve been fixating for about a year now please save me)

-unlike canon, writing is something he actively enjoys and does, and he always has a notebook in his hands

-he is soulless!! he cannot feel emotions naturally and he’s a bit different to how ink is because [redacted]

-he’s twins with palette

-his paint inflicts poison damage!!

-he lives in the omega timeline :]

-more coming soon~~ he’s actually my favorite i have a whole redesign for whiteprint too plus like a bajillion aus of this guy please talk to me about him i’ll never stop (but also dont because i gotta save this for the cool ask blog!!) (but also please plase plase do i’ll scream and cry and throw things around my room /pos)

[cheiyunn]

La fin du rêve [Part 1]

~Faniris practice ~

Felix: Lets cut off practice around here! Later on we can just revise at the rehearsals before the main stage.

Koharu: Okay, everyone, good work! Tomorrow, we meetup at the place right?

Daimon: Yes, while the performance tomorrow is at night, for tonight let's not stay up too late, take a good rest, and keep in good shape. 

Tomoru: Jun, that one was for you, got it?

Jun: Ah.. I get it.. Tonight I won’t game before bed

Daimon: Tomoru, this one also applies to you. I know you’re always very busy but do you think you can take it easier tomorrow afternoon?

Tomoru: Of course..! I handed in a request for half day leave a month ago after all

Koharu: Since we were also cut off from Duck River’s support, the only thing we can do right now is produce a steady flow of lives right now, we need to make progress

Felix: However, since we all have jobs outside of music, its not as if we can frequently hold lives. For everyone who waits for our lives despite that, let us bring a great soiree tomorrow 

Everyone: Yeah

Koharu: On that note, lets start heading back. Ah that reminds me Tomoru, where did you put the watering pail? I was looking for it before coming here but couldn’t seem to find it

Tomoru: Ah, I think after I used it for the plants in the cafe I just left it there.. Would you like me to get it later?

Koharu: Nah, I’ll be using it for personal use so I’ll go myself

Felix: Is it the plant you got from the kids last year? Has it bloomed yet?

Koharu: Well it should have, but nothing yet. Even when it was supposed to bloom a while back

Jun: Its a very beautiful flower right? Hm… I wonder what the reason is..

Koharu: I’m being careful with the sunlight and temperature plus the watering timing should be on track so…

Daimon: With all that effort and love that your showing it, it should bloom soon

Koharu: Ahaha, fingers crossed

~Backstage~

Jun: ah… a- I can’t draw my eyeliner straight..

Tomoru: Lend me it for a bit, I’ll do it…. Um… maybe.. Something like this?

Jun: eh..ah.. ah- wait a moment Tomoru..! Isn’t this a bit too fat?

Daimon: It seems we’ll have to ask Koharu to fix it when he arrives

Tomoru: That's right.. For the time being we should just prepare as much as we’re able to!..!

Felix: Speaking of that, Koharu is awfully late.. Daimon, after that, were you able to contact him?

Daimon: No.. during that call he just said that he’ll find a way to make it to the live in time but..

Jun: …ah.! Is it because today I haven’t been haunted by misfortune.. What should I do… thats right! Tomoru! Take that guitar over there and whack me straight in the head!

Tomoru: First, that's not possible, and second, no, I’m not doing that.

[Ping]

Daimon: Ah, a message from Koharu

Felix: Whats the situation on his end like?

Daimon: One of the kids he’s taking care of caught a fever, and their parent isn’t able to come by soon

Jun: …eh?

Daimon: To make matters worse, Koharu is the only caretaker available at the moment, so his hands are tied. Even if he’s somewhat late, he’ll still come to the livehouse, is what he said

Tomoru: What should we do? We can’t just go on like this, but there also isn't much time until the live is scheduled to start either.. should we change the performance now? 

Jun: Did we have any songs that didn’t require a bass… or should we just adlib something on the spot? …I’m worried about that though

Felix: hm.. But just brainstorming will take up too much time

Daimon: That's right, if we’re looking for a bassist I have someone in mind. They're acquaintance from my roadie days but they know our songs very well. I think that today they said they’d also be here, so while waiting for Koharu, what about having them play instead? 

Jun: but the costume and makeup…

Tomoru: How about having them play from the stage wings? They can look at the score while doing it, and we can explain the situation so when Koharu-san gets here we’ll-

Felix: Hold it.

Daimon: What’s wrong Felix?

Felix: In the chance that Koharu does make it later on, there’s no way we can show our audience and performance without all the official members 

Jun: …so that means..

Felix: Let's cancel the live.

Tomoru: But-

Felix: I’ll take all responsibility. To everyone who’s already gathered for the live today, I’ll apologize later on

Daimon: But if we cancel it now, won’t he feel worse about it

Tomoru: That's right.. It’s not as if Koharu-san is at fault either…

Felix: I’ll have a talk with Koharu later on. Tomoru, I’m going to talk to the owner, so could you accompany me?

Tomoru: Okay.

Felix: Daimon and Jun, remove your makeup. If there are any remaining fans, I want you to act as staff to explain the situation and lead them out

Daimon: Ah, okay. Jun, lets go

Jun: Eh..! Ah.. I got it..

~Bar~

Koharu: I need another refill of this

Owner: Roger that, you need a double?

Koharu: Yeah

Koharu: Hah.. at least nothing bad happened to the kid.. I handed them over to their parent safely so for the time being, one weight on my shoulder is gone.. But saying that, the live.. Got canceled huh. While it couldn’t be helped.. It still stings pretty bad.. They’re all nice so they’ll all probably say ‘don’t mind it’ or something like that..

Koharu: But on second thought its still so frustrating… because of me we had to miss one of our live dates. Even though we don’t have as frequent activities, the live for the people who were always waiting for us was…!

Koharu: Hah 

Koharu: I can’t apologize enough to both the members and the fans. But, how this kind of situation never happened before was most likely constant good luck after all… if something happens to one of the kids, regardless of what I want, I need to prioritize the children first. But its not like the others don’t prioritize the band either.. Even this time they’re all balancing things individually so its overwhelming..

Koharu: Thats why I ran to alcohol… drinking at this time definitely tastes bitter.. If I keep drinking, stuff that I don’t wanna think about will come wafting into my head..

Koharu: That's right… back then when Daimon’s grandpa was hospitalized I was…

Koharu: Shit

Owner: You seem oddly tired today, something happen?

Koharu: My bad, it ain’t much. .. I’ll ask for another of this then

Koharu The reason we appeared in the LRFes was because we were aiming to become pros. Thinking that was our last chance, we took care of alot of things and tried our hand, and even came all the way to Tokyo.

Koharu: If at that time, we had won the fes and went pro.. Something like “I have work right now so I won’t be able to perform” wouldn’t have worked.. did the me at that time really have the guts to go forward with that…? How do those guys feel about this.. Even the ones younger than me Tomoru and Jun will soon become 30… we aren’t students, we’re all full-fledged adults.

Koharu: Is it really okay to not drop these dreams and continue on like this..? 

~Fantome Iris sharehouse~

Tomoru: Ah, it seems Koharu-san is back

Felix: Welcome back, Koharu

Koharu: w-what, you guys. I told you all that I’d be back late so just go to bed earlier right?

Jun: Well, this is around the time I’m always awake so…

Tomoru: Since we’re all taking a rest day tomorrow, don’t worry about it

Daimon: We were all worried about you

Felix: Daimon, could you prepare something nice on the stomach? Something for post-drinking like chazuke?

Koharu: Today’s live being canceled was my fault so you don’t have to worry so much

Daimon: Regardless of that, take a seat. It was a tiring day right? The face you have on right now seems more alcohol induced than normal after all

Koharu: Seen right through huh. 

Koharu: I’m really sorry about the incident today. I caused alot of trouble to both you guys and our fans too.

Jun: K-koharu-san..

Felix: Koharu, raise your head. None of us here are going to pin the blame on you after all

Tomoru: That's right, there is no need for you alone to feel responsible for it

Koharu: … 

Daimon: I’ll go make the chazuke. Is there anything you want?

Felix: Ah, I’ll have one too

Tomoru: Me too. Jun, you’ll eat some as well right?

Jun: y-yup

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Tomoru: Ah that reminds me, I was scrolling through sns a while ago and there were alot of supporting messages sent. Like “I’m sure there was something that occured” or “I want you all to still do your best!”.

Jun: Um.. there were also very few that were mad about it. Alot of people said that Fantome will always pull off a good live next..

Felix: That proves the strong trust and bond between us and our fans of course~

Daimon: That's true. Koharu, when the next chance comes we’ll bounce back

Koharu: ..yeah.. That's right…

Everyone: …

Felix: Lets discuss a bit about the next live. It was good that the owner of this livehouse was kind enough to say that while it won’t to be soon, as soon as a day opens up they’ll make adjustments to their schedule.  

Daimon: The fans are expecting a lot so, we need to show them something good.

Tomoru: On that topic, how about we make some adjustments to our set list? Possibly change the composition a bit to make it better

Jun: I’ll also help think with you… if my presence is needed though…

Felix: Thanks you everyone. I’ll take it that you’ll also start making preparations for the next live as well, Koharu?

Koharu: When the schedule is set, tell me, I’ll do my best to arrange around it

Felix: Are you possibly worried.. That something similar to this may happen again?

Daimon: Lets take this opportunity for not just Koharu but for everyone, to confirm our individual schedules 

Tomoru: Indeed so. Just like in the LRFes where due to company troubles I barely made it to perform after all… In the end it was okay since I made it but still…

Koharu: Hey… do you guys really think that… we can continue activities like this…?

Jun: …eh?

Koharu: We’re all adults here. We need to earn our own money and live, and as long as we’re all working we don’t know when this sort of situation might happen again.

Koharu: Just to put it out but I’m not putting anyone over the other, I’m just saying that at least for my job, I’m dealing with someone’s life…! If something happens, there’s no way I can look back and… if something like this between my job and the band happens again, I’ll…

Daimon: All we can do is do our best so it doesn’t happen, even me, I’ll do whatever is within my ability

Tomoru: I express the same sentiment.

Jun: y-yup

Felix: Koharu, we are comrades that settled on the same dream and moved away from our hometowns. Our dreams will definitely come to fruition, for now we can only continue on the path laid out

Koharu: Those dreams, are something we’ll all eventually wake up from right. Or do you seriously believe that those sorts of ever continuing dreams really exist?

Daimon: Hey, Koharu…

Felix: If that is how you feel, I have nothing to input then. Then, until our individual feelings can come back as once, how about we temporarily put a halt to band activities for the time being?-

Koharu: I didn’t ask for that…!

Felix: For now calm down, and lets individually sort out our thoughts, that’s what’s best now

Jun: …for how long…will that be..?

Felix: Who knows…when we’re all ready to restart activities that time will come naturally no?

Tomoru: Something like a cooling period right..? But in this situation where we all can’t really see the outcome is a bit…

Koharu: Are you really okay with that Feli..

Felix: If even one has an issue with the current band’s movement, then I believe that it is best to not make any at all

Koharu: I.. I’m asking what you want..!

Felix: I… I simply want everyone to continue music happily

Koharu: …Why do you always leave it to the will of others..! Why won’t you get mad and face me head on ?!!

Felix: I see it as there is no use in fighting, that is all.

Koharu: I said it before didn’t I.. that as long as you keep putting up that wall of yours it’ll come to bite you in the ass later on…

Koharu: To you, were we always just insignificant little existences that can be thrown away to you?!

Daimon: Koharu..! That's too much. Both of you, end it here.

Koharu: In the end… this’ll just be a repeat of the previous band isn’t it…

Jun: ah..!

[Koharu leaves]

Felix: … I’m returning to my room.

[Felix leaves]

Tomoru: Even Feli-san… ah.. How did it come to this…

Jun: D-daimon-san… it’ll be okay right..? There won’t be a fight and then break up… right?

Daimon: …ha. It’ll be fine, don’t worry about it too much. I’ll talk to Koharu for a bit..

[Daimon leaves]

Jun: There he goes… hey Tomoru.. Isn’t this…

Tomoru: Yeah… this definitely isn’t good…

Jun: I knew it…! I’ve never felt that bad of an atmosphere ever since I came to this sharehouse..!

Tomoru: Yeah… If they suddenly say that they don’t want to do the band anymore, then we have no input, is the feeling I got…

Jun: But both me and you have made sizable contributions to this band right…?...why are you smiling.. Did I get too full of myself..?!

Tomoru: No, thats not it. Its more that the Jun from the past would have been more like “Someone like me is useless..!”, or something like that right?

Jun: Thats true… but I realized that echoing those words wouldn’t be any good so..

Tomoru: …me too, I definitely want to continue this band..! I’m sure that both Feli-san and Koharu-san, and of course Daimon-san have the same feelings

Jun: um so… while maybe I can’t do much, maybe you could possibly find a solution to this problem

Tomoru: Me?

Jun: Because you had shown Feli-san your feelings when you heard their previous band was disbanding, is the reason that the current Fantome was born right..? Plus, when Feli-san asked you to join, you brought me along and now… I’m here too, so…

Tomoru: …

Jun: …ah! Sorry, someone like me butting in was…!

Tomoru: …no. Jun, thank you

Jun: I’ll also think of things I can do too, while waiting for the band to move along again…

Tomoru: Got it, I’ll do that too

~Koharu’s room~

Daimon: It’s me. I’m entering okay?

[Daimon enters]

Daimon: Koharu, I’ll get straight to the point. The reasoning behind you thinking you can’t continue the band isn’t just that one thing right..

Koharu: Yup. What happened now, if the worst happened to a child I was entrusted with, I didn’t know how I would be able to take responsibility.  

Daimon: …

Koharu: To imagine that my own child I entrusted to someone could be in grave danger when I’m not there… there’s no way their parents or family could handle it

Daimon: With your line of work. Isn’t that something you understood from a while back? Why now all of a sudden? …Is it because you thought of my grandpa?

Koharu: ..!

Daimon: Despite you and gramps being so close, when he fell critically ill, no matter how many time you were contacted, you never showed. In the end he couldn’t see you before passing, and you didn’t even attend his funeral either. But you’ve always hidden the reason why.

Koharu: Right now isn’t… this isn’t the topic at hand

Daimon: I’m prepared to take any explanation given, yet you give me radio silence so it frustrates me, and makes me sad.

Daimon: …hey Koharu. The way you’re acting right now, you’re no different than Felix you know? 

Koharu: …not like I don’t know that.

Koharu: …sorry but could you leave? Right now I don’t think I’m in the mood to talk with anyone

Daimon: …I see.

[Daimon leaves]

Koharu: …hah.. I’m pathetic aren’t I… Little potted plant, last year you were so beautiful but no matter how much water I give you now… it’s useless isn’t it…

Koharu: …if all you have left is to wither out…

~Tomoru’s office~

Tomoru: …even so we’re in a bind… ignoring the thorny atmosphere, we should really sit down and clearly discuss the future activities of the band together soon. As expected, the issue waters down to us being unable to focus on music entirely. Then instead we should switch our band activities to our main jobs and take up part time jobs during our free time… no that won’t work realistically…

Tomoru: Regardless of Jun, everyone enjoys their current jobs right now and none of us wanted to go pro just to quit our jobs either…

Chief: Kurokawa-kun

Tomoru: Going pro huh…

Chief: Kurokawa-kun…! How’s the progress on the project I asked about the other day?

Tomoru: Ah! My apologies! I am currently drafting the report mail at the moment. I will hand it over at once…!

Chief: Apologies okay? Make sure you’re taking sufficient breaks and not too much overtime okay? The labor standards office has been pretty noisy these days. And to add, maybe in around 30 minutes could you clear some time for a meeting?

Tomoru: Understood. Then, I will reserve the conference room.

Tomoru: Um.. so after I send this mail out, I need to reserve a conference room and then start preparing for tomorrow’s meeting, ah before that I need to contact the suppliers and my meal… well the snacks that someone gave out are here so I guess this’ll do.

Tomoru: Come to think of it, I haven’t been listening to music as much anymore.I used to keep up with music news more often, and watch live performances before bed too. Despite saying I like music, I only listen to the bands or artists I like on repeat and don’t try anything new either…

Tomoru: Wake up in the morning, go to work, get beat up by said work, come back home exhausted, practice music for a live, then wake up again and go back to work in a loop. I love music and I don’t want to quit, but if I don’t work, I can’t do the things I love either. For me and the others, are band activities really something we love…? Or is it just something that feels worthless if we quit halfheartedly..? No.. thats not it. But I know damn well that we can’t just continue to do it if we simply love doing it either..

Subordinate: Um, Kurokawa-senpai..!

Tomoru: …ah, sorry! Did you just call for me?

Subordinate: Yes, my apologies. I just needed to ask about something, can I take a bit of your time?

Tomoru: Ah, okay, sure. Apologies but could you wait 5 minutes or so?

Subordinate: Understood! I apologize for disturbing you while you’re so busy. Then, I’ll be waiting at a table in the break room..!

Tomoru: Okay, then I’ll be there in a moment.

Tomoru: I have a mountainload of work to do. I shouldn’t be thinking of my private life during work should I? Today I should maybe find a way to round this all up and take a detour back home.

~Champ de Fleur~

[Cafe door opens]

Daimon: Sorry, we’re not open- …ah, Jun. It's rare to see you come in this early

Jun: …I couldn’t really sleep well it seems. …I’m sorry for coming before opening hours…

Daimon: No, don’t be. Are you hungry? If its a simple dish, I can make you something

Jun: nono…! No need… to be honest, I came to ask you something…

Daimon: What is it?

Jun: I want to do a bit of work so… I think I’ll be coming here more often. I don’t mind just sitting in the corner of the kitchen either so if its okay…

Daimon: I don’t mind but, if its work, don’t you think the sharehouse would be easier to work in

Jun: um…well…

Daimon: …ah. Sorry, because of us it's become uncomfortable hasn't it?

Jun: no thats..! It's not any of your faults it's just… I just have some things to do…and this place is calming

Daimon: Got it, come whenever you please

Jun: Thank you so much, I’m glad that you’re here…

Daimon: Is that so… Jun

Jun: ah..yes?

Daimon: You’re worried that the band might break apart right?

Jun: thats.. well…

Daimon: Did you know the reason why the previous band that Felix and Koharu were in disbanded?

Jun: um.. If I’m correct, the band was slated for a major debut yet all of a sudden during a live, Felix-san said that they were disbanding..?

Daimon: Yeah, without giving any semblance of discussion or reason to the other band members.

Daimon: I’m sure that the reason Felix gave was that the members’ hearts were growing far from the worldbuilding that was created. I… I think that at this moment, we're just unsure of where to go and are temporarily lost. 

Daimon: I’m sure that the feeling of wanting to continue this band is still strong within all 5 of us.

Jun: Daimon-san…

Daimon: The feelings that Felix holds for this band is different from the previous, I’m sure. And Koharu as well. We’re not done yet. Thats why, I feel that we just need a something to instigate our feelings… or so I think

~Cafe~

Tomoru: I thought that by coming to a cafe I could organize my thoughts but my head has just been going around in circles for so long… That reminds me, I got a message from my parents asking how I’m doing, I should respond. 

Tomoru: But… the atmosphere feels awkward when I mention music, while they don’t say it straight to my face, they’re definitely asking how long I’m going to continue being in a band… what to do…

[Phone vibrates]

Tomoru: Huh? I don’t know this number… where is this from?

Tomoru: Yes?

Mashu: Hello. I want to confirm, this is a phone number of a member of Fantome Iris’, yes?

Tomoru: Yes, that is correct.

Mashu: My name is Mashu, from Dreadnought Music. My apologies for the sudden contact however I have a suggestion of action for your band members, and would like to ask for your time and audience.

Tomoru: …eh. Ah, what sort of business do you have with us?

Mashu: I would like to discuss this in detail, in person. Soon, a band from under our label will be performing a live, hence we would like to extend an invitation to you.

Tomoru: That band would be…

Mashu: Gyroaxia. Similar to you, they had also appeared in the LRFes and I believe you had also interacted with them a bit.

Tomoru: You want us to come see Gyroaxia’s live?

[sirwow]

As I’m currently resting my wrist from drawing and I’m still thinking out more detailed story beats for WC I thought I’d just do some random rambling about my Pikmin au that won’t be very organized lol. Also adding a cut here as not to flood anyone’s unfortunate timeline

First off since I imagine I’ll get asked this someone someday, a small list of all the local losers preferences.

Olimar - Straight Cis. Doesn’t really get anything outside his bubble but is supportive regardless.

Louie - AroAce Cis (also has the tism). His only love is food.

Alph - GayDemi Cis. Likes love but not actively looking for it.

Brittany - GayDemi Cis. Her and Alph always laugh about the fact people think they’re dating just because they show physical affection to one another sometimes.

Charlie - Bi Cis. Koppite crew is literally the LGB.

Pom - Straight trans. You are not safe from Pingo propaganda.

Terry - Bi Cis. Probably doesn’t even know what being bi is and just thinks he has to make up his mind.

Penelope - Pan cis. Olimars shock when he found out when they were dating that she found girls cute too.

Zack - Pan trans. Saw he had 13 brothers and said wouldn't it be funny to have another.

Yorke - Straight cis. The most gay looking straight guy.

Nelle - Straight cis. to yorke "i hate you sm. wanna kiss"

Dobbs - Gay cis. Charlie and Dobbs are the local toxic yaoi so sorre

Shepherd - AroBi cis. the only dates that exist are DOG PARK dates.

Collin - BiDemi cis. Currently married to coffee and 4 hours of sleep

Russ - Straight cis. Probably does have a wife but no kids

Yonny - AroAce non-binary (F to NB) masculine presenting. Galaxy record for being the first person to survive giving top surgery to himself.

Dingo - Straight cis. Yonny makes fun of his failure of flirting.

Bernard - AceBi cis. He will never realize hes being flirted with at any point in time.

Now thats done, some more stuff about just some general relationships people have with each other. Olimar and Louie when Louie first joined HF were pretty neutral about each other even after 4 but after 2 and deeply apologizing for leaving him behind scared, Louie and Olimar got much friendlier with each other. They started carpooling and even spending some time outside of work together. While Terry thinks Louie is cool if a bit strange sometimes, Lebe is rather more skeptical and scared of him. Penelope worries he might be a bad influence but can't help but worry about Louie as much as Olimar does when Oli vents to her about Louie.

Alph and Brittany are best friends but their relationship isnt the most balanced at times. Brittany is quite quick to getting emotional and blaming others for things. Alph tries not to hold it against her too much given hes aware of her issues and why she is like that in the first place but it can rub off on his timid nature. Though he admired Charlie all through 3, Brittany's negative comments eventually changed Alph's perception on Charlie to just being someone he works with.

Now some of my own world building brain rot wo! a time system, joy. I was just thinking about how do people keep time between every other planet so i propose: Galactic time. Galactic time is not based off anything but purely numbers. 1 "day" is 20 hours long and there is no PM or AM. Its based of a single founding clock that all the other galactic clocks follow now and is usually exclusively used for interstellar work and jobs or meeting up on different planets. The galactic months are all 25 days long with only 10 of them. a galactic week is 5 days long and though i don't have names at the moment the months and days also have different names as not to get confused with any planet names or calendars they might have.

thank you if you've read my ramblings this far. have louie drinking paint

[oklotea]

Tfw you're a forty year old man who's just trying his best and constantly never rewarded for it

Introducing... WEST

A 47 year old turf battle veteran with a heart of gold who joined the Underground Anarchy scene a few years ago because he needed a faster change of pace.

West is a much more level-headed and responsible figure compared to most UA players, he always keeps his cool against annoying players who purposely try to get on his nerves, and always make sure to let them know he won’t let them step all over him.

He's the kind of guy to stop fights, whether by peaceful or violent means.

Most people only know him inside UA. There's very little known about him on the outside. That makes him a bit intimidating from a regular bystander.

Some people will say he's really skilled! and look up to him.

Other people might say they hate his cool-headedness and that he's just a stick in the mud old man who doesn't know his place.

He's a pretty reliable teammate, frequently filling in the support role who paints turf and splats opponents from perches. But in any situation he's quite adaptable.

Under the cut is more information about West! If you decide to stop reading here that’s cool! Thanks for reading!

I’m quite sure i’ll be making more posts about West because i love him so much and there’s still a lot of things you dont know about him!

He belongs in the Underground Anarchy AU by @d15gu571ng !

cya later!!!!! :D

West was a pretty anxious kid, he started to participate in turf battles when he was 15, a year later than most squid kids because he wasn’t too sure of himself yet.

He fell in love with turf battling. It was a hobby he participated in as a way to escape his problems at home, and slowly but surely strengthen his confidence in himself.

He also got freakishly amazing at it, he was good at a lot of weapons but his main has always been his 96. Gal.

His favorite modes are rainmaker and splat zones.

Things were going great for West. He wanted to do this forever, it's what he loved to do, but good things don't last forever, that proved itself when West started to grow up past high school and people started to expect him to drop his enjoyment for turf war. He wasn’t a kid anymore, and it was time to face the real world like most adults in the city.

He fought back against this idea for a moment but he easily gave up, sadly. Just, the crushing reality was too painstakingly obvious. It was either do what he loved or... Be a disappointment.

AND NO! He couldn’t balance his hobby with his job! NO TURF WARS for ADULTS! What a childish idea!

So for 4 long, long years, he dedicated his life to learning how to become a pilot! It wasn’t as horrible as West expected! West has liked the idea of being a pilot for a while now and now he’s following that dream!

Eventually, turf wars were just a faded memory in the back of West’s mind. There were more important things to worry about, and thats okay!

West worked as a airline pilot for 9 years! During this time he made multiple friends, valuable life experiences, and! his husband (Beck) and wife (Tori) have conceived a daughter for the three of them! (Vida)

After their kid was born, West wanted to be a good dad, but because of his job, he unfortunately became a bit distant from his only daughter. I’ll make another post about West’s family.

After being a pilot for nearly 10 years, West decided to take a break from piloting because he felt extremely burnt out and far from his family. So he went home and now, he’s currently a stay-at-home dad! He’s reconnecting with his daughter (who’s 22 now) to make up for all the lost time between them. While Tori and Beck are the breadwinners for the family.

This was around the time West was finally given the opportunity to fully reminisce of his younger years (yeah he finally realizes how freakin old he is....He tries his best to cope) when he participated in turf wars throughout middle school and high school. And one random day, he invites one of his old aircrew friends, whom he knew once played turf war, to play rainmaker! On that day, West’s love for turf war which he thought had been dead for years, was lit back up.

It wasn’t a while until West realised that ordinary turf war, just couldn’t cut it for him anymore. He was constantly over-powering younger casual players, that he felt a bit bad. He was well-known locally as the weird old guy who is freakishly good at turf war, it’s annoying! Doesn’t he have somewhere else to be?

Yeah he got treated the same way he was treated all the way back then after high school. Bullied by children this time. It might not seem like it but this constant torment really gets to West sometimes. It’s a good thing he has his family to lean on for support.

He couldn’t take this treatment over and over again. If this continued he would jump off a cliff. He had to do something for himself. This was when he asked his daughter for a favor. Vida wasn’t a turf war enthusiast, but! She had a lot of young people friends who would know something about turf war he didn’t. He needed an entirely different turf scene. One where he might be accepted.

To be honest, West was expecting something like- a club of middle-aged turf war enthusiasts or- a splatoon that consists of some guys who wouldn’t judge him for being older. SOMETHING NORMAL.

VIDA’S WEIRD FRIENDS GOT HIM  INTO AN ILLEGAL TURF WAR RING.

He was a bit reluctant at first but decided, hey, he's even more intrigued than scared! He followed them to the area of the UA battle that evening and didn't know what to expect.

It proved that he was SEVERELY UNPREPARED. It was a big shock how elaborately modified most of the players' weapons were. How much more ruthless and unapologetic they were. But that was what West found so appealing. He just had one of the most adrenaline-fueled quick paced turf battles in his life. He wanted more of that.

Around a decade later, West has officially retired from being a pilot and is now a full-time househusband. He spends most of his days spending time with his friends and family, taking care of himself, working on random projects in his garage, just all-around enjoying himself, and battling it out in illegal underground turf war rings!

It was an up-hill battle but he eventually found his footing in this chaotic place. He’s way more confident and free-spirited than he’s ever been in his life, and couldn’t ask for anything different. Of course, there’s always going to be annoying people who won’t leave him alone til’ he leaves, but he can always get along in his life by ignoring them and confiding in his family.

He still has some personal insecurities but for now, he’s pretty content with where his life is.

THANK YOUUU!!!!!!!! HAVE GOOD MORNING/AFTERNOON/EVENING!!!!!!! SILLIES!!!!!

<3

[lyranova]

Hi! How did you come up with the next gen’s names?

Hiya anon 🥰!! Ooo thank you for the fun question, I don’t know if I’ve fully explained how I came up with my Next Gen’s names 🤔.

The simple answer is I googled names that were similar or had a similar meaning to their parents names, and chose them based on that 😆. But I’ll go into further detail below 🥰!

For Alistar I looked up names that meant “Protector” or “Defender” and Alistar came up multiple times in different lists, and I actually really like the name (i blame my sister because she *constantly* played Dragon Age 2 (?) and always went for Alistair so…😅), so I just went with it 😁!

For Ezio I had a harder time because…I couldn’t find what Finral meant, so I went with what Vanessa meant and it means “Butterfly” so I started looking at names that meant “Butterfly” or “Bird” and Ezio happened to pop up 😆. I was a little conflicted at first, since that’s also the name of a character in Assassins Creed, but what made me finally decide on that name was my cat who is also named Ezio. His personality is very similar to OC Ezio’s so…i just went with it!

For Aloys and Maelie I just went with French names since Gauche’s name is also french 😆. I decided on Aloys because that was my best friends cats name, and it was the name of a character in Black Butler (I wanted the name to be redeemed lol 😆😭) and it also means “A famous warrior” so thats what made me decide on that. As for Maelie, i chose it because it sounded a lot like Marie (I felt like Gauche would want to honor his little sister in some way, but knew she would get angry if he named his daughter after her, so this was a way around that 😆) and because it meant “Princess” and to Gauche Maelie is his little princess so that was a no brainer 😆!

For Alice, I named her after Alice in Wonderland, but also because her and Henry’s blue hair reminded me of the color “Alice Blue” so her’s was pretty easy!

For Wendy, Thomas, and Nicholas I wanted to keep the Agrippa tradition of using “older” sounding names or names that were more popular in the Victorian/Early 1900’s 😅. I named Wendy after Wendy Darling from Peter Pan, I named Thomas, Thomas, because…well it just sounded older to me 😆! For Nicholas i named him after Nicholas Flamel!

For Brielle, Mizuki, and Kaiyo I looked up names that meant their “affinities” 😅. So since Brielle is like Asta and doesn’t have any mana, I went with something that meant “Strength” and Brielle popped up and it was just too perfect for an Astelle kid! For Mizuki I went with this spelling “水城” which means “Water Castle”, and I interperted it as a combination of Noelle/Mizuki’s magic and Asta’s strength 😅. For Kaiyo I did the same thing and named her after Water/Ocean, and at the time I was going to also give her the water affinity…but changed it to Mercury magic at the last minute XD!

For Miku, Kito, and Kya I did the same thing that I did with the Astelle Kids…i named them after their affinities 😆! Miku means “Beautiful Sky”, and her affinity is wind and she loves the sky like Yuno so this was quite easy. For Kito, I wanted something that meant “Diamond” since he inherited his mothers affinity, but the closest I could find was “Precious Stone” so that’s what I went with 😅. As for Kya i had a very difficult time finding a name for her since she has both Yuno and Neva’s affinities, but finally I found Kya which means “Sky Diamond” or “Diamond in the Sky” and it just felt right so I chose it 😆!

As for Lovely and Vincent, I wanted them to also have names that were similar to their parents. So I googled names similar to Charmy, and Lovely popped up and it felt too perfect for her 😁! As for Vincent, he was originally named Wolfgang after Mozart, but that didn’t feel right. So I started looking at artist names and found Vincent Van Gogh and to me that felt much better then Wolfgang so 😅!

Hmm…I think that’s most of my Next Gens 🤔, i have a few more but these are the main ones 😅. But yeah I mainly google them just choose the ones i like the most 😆!

Thank you for the fun question anon!!

[theoriginaltortuga]

Thoughts and opinions on Connor and Devon through the it lives series 

warning: long post, very rambly, and spoilers abound

So this might go in headcanon territory but ill try to keep it general for this post

ILITW:

I’ll admit connor was like the fourth LI i romanced after i started playing it lives and even then it was only because i had a specific playthrough i wanted. I don’t know how other people do it, but i changed my MCs personalities and appearances based on what i wanted their ending and final nerve score to be. So Devon Hernandez, my sole survivor, needed to be kind of a prick, or at least have severe foot in mouth syndrome, while maintaining the highest nerve he could and dating Connor was the best for that

But alas I fell hard for this character i previously skipped a lot of dialogue for. Connor is a wannabe bad boy in the best possible way, he’s got the leather jacket, the cool car, and the fighting skills, all while being “forbidden” by being Stacy’s brother. (won’t lie i was expecting a slight conflict from that even if it was just in flavor text, but im not mad that she was cool with it)  

the banter between him and Devon really worked for me, and i loved how even outside of the romance specific scenes there was still acknowledgment of the relationship (whether thats a failing on pb’s part or done because he’s technically on screen less than the others im not sure) 

More on personality, Connor is interested but not pushy, acts like he’s “not too good” while being too good at all times, a caring person and a fun one, an affectionate boyfriend and doesn’t put up with people’s shit. I realized i actually cared about him the second he offered to take Devon to a diner with burgers the size of their face

Main Route (connor and MC live, all their friends are dead) : 

Jumping through time to ilw and him and Devon are horndogs living together in a cabin and scarring their friends with their sex life, which was a direction i wasn’t expecting but one i loved anyway. Again all the small acknowledgements of their relationship killed me and pet names are always a win. Connor evolved from background character and “The Love Interest” to a semi-main badass. 

One thing i loved about it lives within is that all the characters from the previous books felt like themselves in a way that’s hard to explain but basically you just bought that these were the exact same characters and the fact that it was a completely different writer never crossed my mind

There is a kind of maturity in Connor and Devon’s relationship that is nice to see because they have been together 4 years, while still staying true to the versions of them we first met

This route ended with Connor proposing to Devon and getting them their beautiful house with the porch swing and several dog children and I loved the final moments of happiness in their otherwise kind of heartbreaking story

Good Route (connor and MC live, everyone lived):

Basically the same as above, though I will say I love the idea that the whole memorial Stacy knew exactly what was about to go down and I may or may not nudge aside the idea that Devon let their friendships fall to shit and their all like bridesmaids or groomsmen, its not that them falling apart again is unrealistic or bad, it just makes me kind of sad so I ignore it in my own hc

Bad Route (connor and noah live, everyone else died and then so does Connor):

The one i just finished playing and all the interactions between Connor and Redfield!MC were so sweet and i loved them but it always held that kind of bittersweet feeling.

I played with Noah also being into Devon which was also painful, but the line “i suspected for a while now” made me laugh because all i can imagine is an internal montage of Noah being annoyed at Connor and Devon’s affection and constantly looking at Devon with heart eyes and Connor just like “wow i should’ve clocked that like last year” 

i have a lot to say on the Devon being comforted scene that i will save for the hc post but the call back to “too good” was *chefs kiss*

And towards the end realization that Connor was a horror, the accidental hope i gave the crew, and then Connor’s horrific (in the best possible way) death was so wonderfully written. You know when you read something so good that you just have to do a couple laps around the room? That was me. 

Rowan flung Connor into the fucking ceiling and the description of his blood dripping onto them and Devon was just so gnarly. Devon has lost everything, watched most of the people they loved be brutally murdered before their very eyes, and is lashing out while also being sort of aware that its not really Rowans fault which speaks a lot to their character but it hurt so freakin much

and don’t even get me started on the graveyard scene and the parallels with the other Redfield!MC graveyard scene, metal rose and all. I mentioned it before but my Devon in this route is just burnt out on love and friendship and people in a way that i’ll get into more in a hc post but yeah he’s not finding love again and i don’t think he’d ever want to

In conclusion, i love connor and devon together and I thank the og ilitw writers for writing their relationship and the ilw writers for making it even better and tearing my heart apart along with Connor’s and Devon’s in very different ways

[harrisonarchive]

Screenshots rom the e-book edition of Pattie Boyd's Wonderful Tonight: George's letter to Pattie from New York City during the mixing of the Concert for Bangladesh live album. No copyright infringement intended in posting this on this fan site.

This was previously posted some years ago, but I'd removed the post since (copyright!), so this is another try, at the request of an anonymous ask. (An excerpt was posted during 2021's Concert for Bangladesh anniversary special.)

“This is a letter George wrote to me from the Plaza Hotel in New York where he was staying whilst editing the Concert for Bangladesh in 1971. He seems very scattered as his mind races between thoughts, with so much going on and so much to do. […] In the letter he is concerned about the high price of a basin because we weren’t used to spending money. We had no idea about the price of things or even whether we were rich or poor. Money just wasn’t something we ever had to deal with. Everything was always taken care of for us.” - Pattie Boyd, Wonderful Tonight (e-book edition 2011)

The letter (mentioning niece Janet and nephew Paul, father Harold, and others) reads:

“Monday Evening

Dear Pattie, Hello. Hope you are O.K. I tried to call you when I got here but there was no Greg in the Lodge — Can you call me through Apple at ABKCO or the Plaza —> Room 601 (212) PL9.300 to say hello to Hubby! Its a drag not being able to speak to you. You can call ABKCO and tell them a time, and I’ll call the Lodge. The ‘France’ was not as good as QE2 more straights in Tuxedo’s and not as many things to do, so I read a lot in the cabin. Started looking at the film and it should be O.K. for a T.V. show — but a lot of juggling to do — to get what I would like. The Camera men where not too hip on the Rock part — but Ravi’s part seems well covered. Ravi is going to be at the Plaza on Wednesday — so I am going to try to get a Rough cut together by then — so he can tell me where to edit the music — as it should be reduced for T.V., as 15 minutes should be enough for the Film. We have to get the film to about 54 minutes total, for an Hour show. Neil and I are going to work now (tonight) so as to get it started. Bob is coming in the Morning, so we will have to work on his part tomorrow day, and then Ravis again int the Evening, and it will save us time if Ravi has something to see before he leaves town, as his bit is too hard to edit without him (the soundtrack). Saw a great wash basin in a window — full size white with blue flowers but just one Tap in the centre — haven’t been back when its open (the shop) but will get it, if its there, not too much, when I go back. Here are you’re shoes — hope they are O.K. Don’t I write crazy!!! Very fast before Ringo goes to the Airport — What have you been doing? Hope you’re O.K. I miss you — I’m starving — many grilled cheese sandwiches — Love you — Call me or tell me when I can call you at the Lodge. 
Do you need anything from N.Y. cos I will go shopping for a day or 2. Still haven’t been to Lill Nassau’s yet but I passed her window one night and there is some great stuff — Hope I can get the Bed Piece without spending too much bread in there. Saw a good shop with Indian fabric + cushions etc. which is what I want for my room 206. Are there shops in London with that stuff, as the cushions are so big it would be daft trying to carry them home — but I can. What do you think? The Electric Yo-Yo’s are for Paul + Janet (after you finish playing with them.) Eddie Veal was funny in N.Y. with his arm Bands and we took him to the Auto bar. How’s the house? D. Tapp? Any Problems? How’s DAD? — our Lou is coming Tomorrow so thats going to confuse me for a while. Shit! Has Quinnell done the stairs and Rails in 203/4 109 yet? The Bangla Desh Proof of the Box front with guitar, was awful — so I had to jump on that and change it and shout at them and Now it will be O.K. with the original idea of the kid — Its such a pain in the arse all that messing around — just because they didnt like the truth— anyway it will be O.K. in the end except we now have RAGA — B/Desh and Paul all coming in the same month — well I know which will win! (Ha-Ha) Love you — love to Ted - Gred - and Kled George”