so when straight people ask me why I say I’m “queer” or “gay” instead of sharing my actual identity as a panromantic demisexual non-binary sapphic queer I just tell them “ok look, when you’re talking to someone who isn’t local and they ask you where you’re from and you either say the name of the largest city nearby or ‘town name, suburb of large nearby city’ so they can get some geographical context of where you’re located right, bc they’re probably not going to know the name of the little town you actually live in.”
but if you’re talking to a local you can say the name of your actual town bc they have a greater chance of knowing where/what that is.
ok well when I’m talking to a straight person I start with queer bc chances are they aren’t as familiar with the context of all the little towns in that big queer city and need gps (gay positioning system) to find me.
if I’m talking to another queer person and I say I live in a suburb of gay city in a town called panromantic on the demisexual side of the tracks which is in the county of queer and I live off the intersection of non-binary and sapphic, they’d probably be able to find me with little to no problems, make sense?
I really wanna be apart of online non-binary spaces but so many of them are so…idk childish? There’s a lot of infantilizing language even amongst other nbs and it makes me feel outta place. Also very white
The idea of the Lamb being a talented little artist makes me want to throw up and cry MY SON YOU COULDVE JUST WANDERED THE LANDS DRAWING THE HIDDEN BEAUTY OF THIS TORTURED TERRITORY INSTEAD OF BEING DESTROYED BY THE TENDRILS OF GODHOOD
Thinking about “trans women/fems never pass while trans men/mascs pass fine, they just get carded all the time” sentiments and just. It’s so weird to acknowledge that we frequently look way younger than we are but act like that doesn’t have anything to do with how hard it is for us to pass. Lou Sullivan’s chapter about passing is called “How to Look 30 When You’re 30.” I’ve noticed myself getting misgendered more instead of less now that I dress in professional men’s clothes instead of more androgynous casual clothes — I’m more believable as a very butch woman than a guy who in work clothes who looks 14. Yeah I’ve gotten perceived as a slightly fem teenage boy. But I also get perceived as a very gnc woman. It just depends on context; if any of it indicates I’m an adult it’s really, really hard for me to pass as a 5’0 trans guy with an androgynous voice and asian/baby face.
Not every pregnant person is a mother, a mama, or mom-to-be. Not every person who can get pregnant is a woman, just as not every woman can get pregnant. Yes, motherhood is important and sacred, and also motherhood is not the only path to parenthood or nurturing. I am so weary from seeing so much worship of ‘motherhood’ and the exclusion of all other genders and family types.
and…
Not every non-binary or transmasc person hates their body. I was every bit as trans while growing a baby and enjoying every moment as I was when I religiously injected my T every week. Gender is a funny thing and the best part is that we get to make what we want of it. Every person’s experience gets to be unique and valid and there is no way to define it for someone else.
If I had a nickel for every time in 2023 that a popular non-human character from a beloved piece of British media was explicitly stated to be non-binary while being played by David Tennant, I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot. But it’s weird that it happened twice.
I’ve got ashrym in the brain lately, so not to get a bit personal here but it struck me a little while ago that one of the reasons I’m so fond of this ship is that as a gay he/they non-binary person (i just call myself a dude/guy/man because im lazy and not about to explain my whole gender experience lmao) having Ashton paired with a gay man just makes me feel so…. validated? seen? Idk it just feels good
I’ve gone thru so much self loathing and self doubt about not feeling like I’m allowed to claim the term “gay” to myself, seeing cis gay (transphobic) dudes online saying that I cant be gay because i’m not a “””man”””, it feels good to finally put my feet down and say YES i am gay and no one but myself can tell me who I am and who I can love!