still financially fucked but a little less brain fried about it, finally getting to go home to see my family today, just reassured by that tbh I miss my grandma so much I just want to watch dumb movies with her and grill and see people I miss and not feel like a burnout for 3 days
The new guy at work fits in so well already, cracking jokes and laughing w/everyone and it’s been 3 days. I am over a month in, still awkward and out of place, uncomfortable with those around me, and the people around me uncomfortable with me. I have tried so hard to no avail. I don’t understand why I am so incredibly weird and make so many people uncomfortable. Like I’m the bad BAD kind of socially awkward and I genuinely don’t know what I’m doing wrong?? I give up. I just wish people would like me for myself. I’m so tired of attempting to constantly change my personality for others. And failing. Always failing
I turn 24 tomorrow so here’s the list I’ve compiled of songs that mention being 23 that make me not hate the idea of being 24:
right where you left me by Taylor Swift “she’s still 23 inside her fantasy” along with “did you hear about the girl who lives in delusion?”
What’s My Age Again? by Blink-182 “nobody likes you when you’re 23”
Late to the Party by Emei “21 without a Grammy or degree// too bad that’s sad maybe at 23” (spoiler alert: not doing so well at 23 either; in fact, I’m doing worse)
23 by Chase Atlantic-this whole song is depressing
I’m convinced there are no happy songs about being 23, so if anyone has any songs about being 24 that are a little more hopeful, I’d love to hear them
“Äiti itki. Isä lähti huoneesta. Vivian istui nurkassa ja kuunteli vaiti. Kissamme Minni hyppäsi vuoteelle ja käpertyi jalkojeni päälle ja kehräsi, sillä kehräämällä parannetaan sairaita.”
— Emmi Itäranta. Kuunpäivän kirjeet
“Mom cried. Dad left the room. Vivian sat in the corner and listened quietly. Our cat Minni jumped on the bed and curled up on my legs and purred, for through purring the sick are healed.”
— Emmi Itäranta. The Moonday Letters. Quote tranlated by me (unofficial)
Man, it's been a while since I've updated my fic and I want to apologize for that. I'm currently working on it again. Life has not been kind to me since the last update but I'm doing better now so writing time.
I'm currently working on a one shot on the side and that might be posted first. But I'll make sure to get Smalltropica chapter 3 done by the end of the month.