#It’s not like your favorite prince will die bc of this right? ;-;

[yuquinzel]

because you guys chose reo fluff <;3

“i can't find my perfume.” you say, something in your voice laced with an accusatory tone as the way you'd address a criminal.

if reo had nothing to do with it, nothing at all— he'd have looked at you up and down, gasped dramatically and made a face that says i do not appreciate your tone— if, he had nothing to do with it, that is.

instead he offers you a glance across the corner of his eye, a princely smile gracing his lips, “you can't?” and then tries really hard not to gulp when you only shake your head.

“well,” he says— calmly, sweetly, and painfully charming, “i don't even know which one you're talking about, sweetheart.”

the endearment melts like sugar paper in his mouth, smoothly rolling off his tongue like honey and glossing over his lips with all the love he holds for you wrapped up in the syllables. he really hopes it actually sounds as endearing as he hears it.

you narrow your eyes, “you know, my favorite one. you wouldn't, reo, have any idea what happened to it, right?”

you put a certain emphasis on his name, giving the syllabus a long drag, kissing your teeth and mirroring his smile in mock. reo laughs in response; sweet but short-lived, eyes resting anywhere but you.

then you call out his name, one, twice. sighing a third time, reo can't find it in him to avoid your gaze forever.

when he looks at you again— you're still pretty, smiling. this is where he knows he's already lost.

“okay, so i just wanted to use some—” he begins, “i mean, not for me. but you know i have that fucking business trip, and I'll be away for two weeks,”

you tilt your head, prompting him to continue, “and i already miss you even though you're here so if I'm away for two weeks i think I'm gonna, like, actually die.”

reo pauses when a snicker escapes your lips, and as he watches you quickly bring your fingers to cover your mouth, an amused little smile plays at his lips. “i'm sorry, go on.” you try, you really try, to keep your expressions null and precise to urge him to continue.

“you're laughing at me,” reo says, although there's no defense in his voice. nothing but an amused chuckle of sorts, “well, that's rude.”

you try and fail— the sound of your laugh sputtering through the air like soft and scattered breaths, “i'm sorry, but i really want you to continue. what did you do with my perfume?”

reo knows he's lost a second time today when he feels the ground shift beneath his feet— because it's not really intentional that he takes a long stride towards you, snaking his arms around your waist and leaning in till your noses touch.

“i just wanted to spray it on my hoodies,” you feel his breath, warm and yours to hold onto, “you know, so it'll feel like you're hugging me when i wear them.”

“you're insane.” you grin.

“maybe. but it has worked in the past—” you feel his chuckle reverberate through his chest and up your hands as you lightly push against his chest, laughing as you realise he's done this in the past too.

“— i just miss you, like crazy.” then he rests his head on your shoulders, sighing into the crook of your neck.

“i miss you too,” you whisper, “like crazy. and that's why we call everyday, reo, three times a day.” when you take your fingers through his hair, reo feels lightheaded.

“how about 4 times a day?” he asks, and even though he's being playful— the idea isn't half bad.

you smile, “only if you stop stealing my perfumes.”

“make it five times a day then.” he mumbles.

“okay, five, but tell me what happened to that per—”

reo kisses you before you can finish, “i'll get you a thousand more. just kiss me right now.”

© yuquinzel2023 [ plagiarism is a violation of moral rights ! ]

tagging @venusbby and @inariezaki bc you wanted me to :P

[felipe-v-fanblog]

My Questions:

If you had the chance to meet your favorite historical figure, what is the first thing you would ask them?

What is a trait you share with your favorite historical figure?

Who is Isabel de Farneso? because Idk much about her except the fact that she is ambitious.

im always happy to talk to you :3 makes me happy.

long ass post as usual (this is to be expected when handling with me):

1.IIII i guess people would expect me to say that felipe v is my favourite historical figure, but I dont like him in a historical way, he is just my blorbo. My favourite one is Louis XVIII as he was a really good king, I would say the best France ever had (I would say the only good one they ever had), and I dont have any questions about him because I went down the french rabbit hole. But I have been hyperfixating on Robespierre lately and there is not much known about him in his intimate life and thats something I would really want to know because I am a communist.

2.III with Louis XVIII hehe we are both INTPs 5w6 and gay and pretentious whores. tbh he was a meanie and that was very real from him. he was a very pathetic whore ngl i love him but he would be today a sassy whore. its so funny to talk about him like this when everybody knows him as the soon-to-die king of the bourbonic restoration but eh he has a very wild story behind. he is my favourite part of the marie antoinette story along with his wife. wild stuff. anyway i share more traits with christian vii of denmark. i love him he is my son

3.Ah finally infodumping. I always expect people who like Spain to know her I am sorry if I talked about her as if everybody knows her iii when I think of Spain I think about my best friend who is from there and about the habsburgs and the catholic kings and Isabel de Farnesio (also known as Elizabeth Farnese or Elisabetta Farnese) . Of course she was the second wife of Philip V of Spain and the last princess of Parma and Piacenza from the Farnese family which you may know them as they come from Carlos I and V of Spain and the Holy Roman Empire (the habsburg guy) . I always expect people who likes habsburgs to like all habsburgs at least the classic ones so ! i will guess you already know him and are aware of his life. She is also related to one of the popes from that time, I cant remember which one, and very important italian nobles which I cannot remember right now. From her childhood she was a very kind and smart woman and all her family loved her. Very important character here is cardinal Alberoni which back at the time wasnt a cardinal but worked for the duke of Parma which was the uncle or the father of Isabel (I cannot tell which one was duke at the time Alberoni was there but it was probably her father) . When the spanish war of succession begins Louis-Joseph de Vendôme is sent to work for Spain and his troops are set in Italy to stop the imperial troops from the territories that back at the time were spanish. So the duke of Parma goes to nicely ask him if he could take his troops out of his territory . as to which vendôme shows him his ass ? which is a power-move for me . so he sent alberoni to talk to vendôme because he got upset because vendôme was like XD lmao anyway alberoni and vendôme began a sexual affair from there which ended in louis-joseph taking him to spain and from there alberoni settling on Philip Vs court . when Marie Louise Gabrielle of Savoy dies (first wife of Philip V) he asks for a new wife and, the princess of Ursins, wanting to keep her power over Philip V, which she usually had over his wife as they were friends, eh Alberoni suggests to marry Philip V to Isabel. This is a nasty plot from Alberoni bc he already told Isabel that Philip V would easily let her manipulate him (he is malewife) . so eh the princess of Ursins thought that Isabel would be nice to her as Isabel would never be able to marry a king without her as she was a very not-rich princess. And so it happened and Isabel made Philip V push the princess of Ursins out of the carriage (literally, in the middle of nowhere) . Isabel de Farnesio is known for taking back the italian territories that Spain lost during the war of succession (may not be all of them, but they gained a lot, and she also made a lot of her children reign there) . She was practically the king of Spain during her time there until Ferdinand VIs reign. She loved her children a lot and her favourite was Filippo di Parma and Carlos III. She was hated by the spaniards and her step-sons as she also hated them. She liked to go hunting and knitting. She is also the one who gave the next bourbon-anjous the weird face (check out the names Ferdinando I de las dos Sicilias or Carlos III de España o Carlos IV de españa o infante Don Luis de Borbón-Vallabriga) . Is this everything about her ? I am having doubts but I read a big ass book about her this year so IIII could probably remember something about her later . may send you an ask about mariana de austria or felipe iv later ! with your permission and reassurance. maybe even talk about don juan josé. i would talk about don juan josé all my life.

[mercymermaid]

well here's my full season 5 (nezha edition) rant bc what did i just watch

obvious spoilers 💀

what the fuck was that

blah blah animation, blah blah main character sacrifice, wowee

first off, the mechs?? yeah, i know it's just product placement, and i've never actually liked the concept. in a world of mythology and magic, something to technological belongs in a sci-fi movie, not among gods. and in season 5 especially, they feel *so* out of place. the only people who end up actually using their mech are nezha (twice) and mei (once.) i can't be mad at mei, since yeah it's just one time to have an epic moment and goes away after that, but it's nezha that i'm mad about. that standoff at the festival? okay, product placement, epic moment, never brought up again. but then during the battle thing against the chaos guy??? he's the *only one* using a mech and it ticks me off. i wanna see the third lotus prince not the third lotuce mech!! i wanna see him being all badass with his staff and firewheels (like sealing off the jade emperor's power in s4)

i'm gonna be so honest, i only watched the season (and show) for nezha, as i tend to do to medias when i have a top unbeatable absolute favorite. and the show did not deliver.

tldr; nezha had so much potential and all of it went right down the drain

speaking of the power

so you're telling me that mr. "my job is super duper important and more important than my life" would take lightly to his dad going "lmao no" and just taking his seal and reinforcing it with his little magic house?

OH. THE LI JING SITUATION.

"i've always been proud of you" NO YOU HAVE NOT??? YOU HATED NEZHA SO MUCH YOU BURNT DOWN HIS TEMPLE AND LITERALLY YOU GUYS HAVE A BURNING HATRED TOWARDS EACH OTHER?????

i wanted a fucking fight scene SO BAD. SO FUCKING BAD. but noooOOOOOO you're DEFENDING YOUR BITCH DAD??? okay, i get it, power imbalance or something! give nezha a *reason* to be so buddy buddy with his dad, because he sure as hell wouldn't do it without one!!

that ties in to the whole pagoda thing, how fucking hurtful must it be for your dad, who you are far from on good terms with, to pop in, take the power you've put on your shoulders, deem you not good enough ("you got demoted!"), and push you around?? very! very very!

you do not understand what i would've done, what war crimes i would've committed in order for nezha to get some focus on HIM. specifically angst. with the shit that he went through in s3, being nerfed and having his long-term position as guardian of the map pulled out from right under him by his little friendly rival, and then *s4*, getting his ass absolutely kicked by the shit that went down with azure, being the most injured and put under the giant strain of containing the jade emperor's power, you're not gonna elaborate and give him some depth besides "big brother energy but distant and super 'regal'"?? (btw if you've ever EVER written nezha angst (or even some nezha-centric stuff in general) on ao3 i've probably read it and oh my god i love you so much for gifting it to the world, and if you read this far recs are always appreciated 😭)

actually on that note, mk is the one constantly making trauma jokes, and while i get that he's the main character, everyone's gone through shit. s5 at least kind of works with that, with mei's samadhi fire thing and wukong/macaque's death memory thing, along with pigsy's insecurity moment and sandy's little "i'm very very angry but i control myself" spiel, but like come on ☹️ (not a ruse to get nezha some angsty focus wdym)

ALSO mk breaking the seal? yk how in s4 we had that little thing where their eyes flashed and they felt the jade emperor die? i was lowkey expecting a little similar shot of nezha feeling his seal on the power break but no we needed the emotional moment 😒

i was so excited in the festival scene for nezha to go "yeah, okay, i see you", fight against his father, and join the MCG, but nooooOoo he gets sent to the celestial realm to not be seen until the end of the world

OH SPEAKING OF not nezha but red son??? what happened to the poor guy i feel so bad for red son enjoyers because he had ONE EPISODE of screen time. that's worse than us nezha fans. that little bit about the dog videos meaning help us could've so been used later, he literally joked about how this time he was invited and just. didn't show up?? there could've been such a sick moment of mei sending the dog video, and red son seeing it and coming in and being all badass with them but no he was just literally not featured again except for the 'world is ending/being saved' flash shots. (unrelated but please i want canon big brother nezha lil bro red son content those guys are Iconic)

ANYWAY it's coming to an end now, and boy oh boy

basically i have futile, naive hopes for s6 - please, PLEASE give nezha focus that lasts longer than 1-2 scenes. it literally does not have to be angsty, nor big brother energy, not even a badass moment!! just make it mechless and put the camera on *him*, and i will die a happy woman. (another badass moment, in which he wins for once, would make me cry for joy. a big brother, to literally anybody, specifically red son or mk, would make shake and snarl like a feral animal. an angsty moment would make me force the world to be puppies and rainbows. a nezha episode would make me implode and take the world with it.)

bring back li jing and do it *right*. make nezha bring up their horrible past, and at that point, i'd even settle for a corny talk-it-out session with wise words and an issue that gets resolved way too quickly, though an epic fight scene would be preferable. angst not optional, because you can't tell me that interaction would end without tears and breakdowns on nezha's end. (at this point, i'll write it myself)

LET NEZHA WIN. i do not care what he fights, who he fights, when he fights, why he fights, how he fights, let him actually cop a win for once. this fearsome general who was entrusted with guarding the samadhi map, is a protector deity, and managed to singlehandedly contain the jade emperor's power has never won a single fight within his show screen time?? bull fucking shit i tell you. stop treating this guy who carried the end of s4 like some shit side character who never gets his way, and start treating the guy right.

can you tell i'm mad about this

also ACTUAL s5 thing, not gonna lie, mk's decision is stupid. nüwa is trying to protect her creations like a good mighty goddess, and you go "erm actually me some random guy who you created to save the world and was about to do so is gonna undo all of your work and decide to make my own path and simultaneously create a massive crisis where i not only flip normal on its ass and give everyone magic but also potentially unleash the same cosmis horror you're protecting us from"

i'm kinda curious about this new magic tho... (pls have a negative effect or some sort of effect) (pls let nezha win)

yeah okay i think that's it if you've stuck around to the end here's a selection of desserts because you need it after the crash of the season ending 🍮🍭🍬🍫🥧🧁🍰🍪🎂🍩🍨🍧🍦🥠🍡🥮🍥

[mothsgotghosts]

Soapghost Tangled Au

LOOK. I'm certain I'm not the first person to think about this but I Don't Care. This blog is basically just me saying shit about cod to the void anyway and talking like a bunch of people will see it lmao. THIS IS GONNA BE LONG AS FUCK BTW.

Also this shit is gonna feature some good old fashioned nikprice and alerudy and my several headcanons, a few of which I will share for context: First of all, almost everyone is trans in my mind, I won't lie to you. But mostly that's not relevant to the plot besides Soap and Nik are both trans men. Also Ghost is transfem and that's not super relevant but I will be using mostly she/her for her (I hc her using she/her and he/him pronouns) so be prepared. OKAY GOOD This is just gonna be me rambling my ideas in a bulleted list hopefully in the order of the plot.

The story sticks fairly close to the actual movie plot, once upon a time there was a magic flower yadda yadda. Anyway Old Man Shepherd wants to be eternally young yeah

Meanwhile the kings (Price and Nik) are like "let's have another kid", I say another bc Gaz is here also he's adopted <3, and seahorse dad Nik is real, okay great (DO NOT TURN THIS INTO OMEGAVERSE SHIT. HE'S TRANS. A TRANS PARENT.)

Anyway uh oh Nik gets sick (haha rhyme) and Price is like "go get that flower so my husband doesn't DIE thanks), Shepherd is pissed, steals their baby with magic hair

That baby with magic hair is Soap! Who is raised by Shepherd, everyone's favorite (least favorite) manipulative piece of shit!

Some background info on Soap's childhood, it wasn't great being locked in a tower and also. Soap is trans in this (as I've said), he's just gnc, but the long hair. Eehh. Not something he super loves but Shepherd won't let him cut it, obviously. The mohawk was a compromise (yes I know the hair lore but I want him to have a mohawk so shh)

Anyway Soap's 20-something birthday rolls around and he tries to ask Shepherd to go see the glowing lights, Shepherd says no, they argue, Soap asks for paint instead, Shepherd leaves to go get it

Meanwhile Ghost and Graves are robbing the fucking castle and steal the lost prince's crown, Ghost leaves Graves to get caught by the royal guard and then gets chased by a horse named Riley for a while before ditching him and climbing into an abandoned tower, and gets hit with a frying pan

Again, the story continues fairly the same. John makes a deal with this stranger in a skull mask to take him to see the floating lights, the lanterns apparently, and he'll give her her satchel back, Ghost begrudgingly agrees.

Ghost then takes Soap to get some food to convince him to go home and call off the deal, and she takes him to Los Vaqueros Saloon, run by two outlaw husbands and frequented by loads of criminals and bounty hunters

In case it wasn't obvious, Alejandro and Rudy own the saloon. Its patrons are made up of various different operators + Valeria (who IS an operator now but still).

Poor Soap is terrified bc Shepherd told him all people, esp ones like these, are bad news and then a bunch of guys lunge on Ghost to get her bounty and send someone out to go find some guards. Soap stops them, I've Got A Dream happens. Alejandro wants to be a pianist, good for him :)

Meanwhile Shepherd returns, sees Soap is gone, and rolls up right as Soap is saying how glad he is he left and gets pissed

Then the royal guard show up and Rudy and Alejandro help them escape and then call Ghost's dream stupid.

"Go follow your dream, hermano." "I will." "He was talking to him, your dream is stupid."

They get cornered by Graves, the royal guard, and Riley, escape and then get trapped in a cave and nearly drown. Ghost cuts her hand trying to pry away some rocks but it's too dark underwater for her to see. They both think they're gonna die so Ghost tells Soap her real name.

"my real name is Simon Riley. Somebody might as well know." "I have magic hair that glows when I sing." "....what?" "OH MY GOD- I HAVE MAGIC HAIR THAT GLOWS WHEN I SING!!!"

John's good old magic hair saves the day, they escape, they find a clearing to camp out in for the night and Soap uses his hair to heal the cut on Simon's hand, Simon freaks out a little bit it's fine, she's fine

John then asks why Simon changed her name to Ghost, Simon says it's a boring story but John listens anyway. She talks about her father and her brother taunting her with ghosts and skeletons, and when they died it stuck with her. She decided to become a ghost.

Simon asks about John's hair, he tells her that his "father" keeps him in that tower to protect him from people who want to steal his hair, shows her the tiny little brown strand that never grew back and says people want to use him for his hair's healing abilities, it's how he got the big scar on his chin.

Simon leaves to get firewood, and Shepherd emerges from the fucking shadows like a creature and tells Soap to come home with him, to which Soap says no because he Likes Simon, and she's gonna take him to see the lanterns, and she's nice!! Shepherd gets mad, tosses him the satchel and says to give it to Simon and see what she does, that he'll be sorry when she runs away with it, and then leaves

Simon comes back and Soap lies and says everything is fine. Shepherd runs into Graves who wants to kill Simon and makes a deal with him

Then morning rolls around and Simon is awoken by RILEY THE FUCKING HORSE, Soap convinces Riley to be nice and let Simon go for one day because "it's my birthday :)" and she's supposed to take him to see the lanterns

They make their way into town and Simon immediately is like "okay yeah your hair is too long" because people keep stepping on it and gets some kids to braid it. John looks very handsome, Simon is very queer, they run off and have a good time enjoying the town square and all the festivities

At some point Soap notices a mural of the royal family, with a certain golden haired baby that looks very familiar, but quickly brushes it off to dance with the townsfolk and Simon

Then it's time to see the lights! Yay! Simon gets a boat for him and John, tosses Riley a bag of apples that he Definitely Paid For, Okay...Or Mostly Paid For.

I See the Light happens, John gives Simon the satchel and Simon pushes it aside in favor of taking off her mask, just for John.

"but I'm not scared anymore, ye know?" "I think I'm starting to."

AND THEN HE TAKES THE MASK OFF AND. sometimes, I am a genius. Anyway, they get back to shore and Simon sees Graves and is like "I promise I'll be right back" and goes off to just give him the satchel, he doesn't want it anymore he just wants to be done with all this criminal shit, mainly for Johnny.

Graves instead is like "what if I took that magic hair guy instead" and knocks his ass out and ties her to a boat then goes to snatch Soap. Shepherd shows up AGAIN and knocks Graves out like "oh look son I saved you!" And Soap sees the boat with Simon on it, thinks she left him, and goes back with Shepherd

Simon wakes up TIED TO A BOAT WITH THE FUCKING CROWN HE STOLE AND GETS ARRESTED

Graves also gets arrested and Simon freaks out on him when passing him being led to his cell, Graves says that some weird guy showed up and took Soap back home and Simon is locked in her cell

Meanwhile back at the tower, Soap is laying in his bed all sad bc his gf left him, when he realizes the sun crest on the little flag Simon got him at the festival matches suns he's been subconsciously painting for YEARS, that when he tried on that crown Simon stole it fit, that that baby on that mural WAS HIM, that BRO HE IS THE LOST PRINCE.

Then he yells at Shepherd for stealing him away and Shepherd is like "okay fuck you" and plans to lock him up forever

Meanwhile, Simon gets broken out of prison by two cowboys and their gaggle of thieves and bounty hunters and a horse named Riley. Riley takes him to the tower where he climbs up and gets stabbed by Shepherd after seeing Soap LITERALLY CHAINED TO A WALL.

John begs Shepherd to let him heal her, that he'll go with him quietly and never complain if he does and Shepherd agrees and chains Simon up too so he can't follow them. Soap goes to heal her and Simon slices off a bunch of his hair. Shepherd rapidly ages and falls out of the window and dies, L moment. Simon dies too tho, sad.

For real though, "You were my new dream" "And you were mine" fucks me up every time. Anyway, Simon dies, Soap's magic tears of love or something brings her back to life.

"Did I ever mention...I like brunettes" "PFF- YER AN ARSEHOLE!" "Sorry Johnny, there can only be one blonde person in this relationship!"

Anyway happily ever after and all that, Soap gets to reunite w his long lost fathers and brother.

Look idk how they recognize him okay. Father's intuition? Blue eyes? The big fat scar on his chin that wasn't ACTUALLY from someone stealing Soap (he was a stupid baby)? Idk could be any or all of those.

THE END!!!!!! Thank you to those who sat here and read ALL of this <3 big preesh! Okay idk how to end this so bye

[mermaidsirennikita]

Hello! Happy Valentines day! I love your blog, and I’m wondering if you have recs for books with really solid friendships for the heroines? I’m rereading the wallflowers rn (my first historical series i ever read!) and I’m just delighted by how much the four of them like each other, and also how they get to do kinda silly stupid stuff together bc friends DO encourage each other to be deranged sometimes lmao

Yes! (And thank you.)

Offbeat rec, but I really love the way Lucia and Regin love each other in IAD--specifically Pleasure of a Dark Prince (Lucia's book) but in general. They're *technically* sisters, as all valkyries are, but they're really best friends and so ride or die for each other. When Lucia is like "I need to go on the run so my werewolf fated mate can't find me" Regin is all "I'm ON IT" and goes with her and helps her like, push Garreth down a ravine and attempt to crush him with cars. It's great.

The Mating Habits of Scoundrels by Vivienne Lorret has great, funny friendships. The girls are really supportive of each other, but they're also like... encouraging one another's worst fears. I think Wallflowers fans would really like this series--my favorites are The Wrong Marquess, How to Steal a Scoundrel's Heart, and Never Seduce a Duke.

Oooh The Fifth Avenue Rebels by Joanna Shupe has fabulous friendships. This is definitely a "friends encourage friends to go goblin mode" series, especially on Nellie's part. Nellie is like, always steering Maddy to cheat on her fiancee with Archer (to be fair, Nellie had.... a conflict of interest there, but she was Right) and taking Katherine to French balls to go hook up with masked men and stuff. And in her book especially, I think you really see how much she adores her friends, and how much she feels that "everyone is getting married and growing up and moving on without me" thing, which leads to a lovely friendship moment between all four.

Hell's Belles by Sarah MacLean OBVIOUSLY has an amazing girl gang that encourages women's wrongs.

Grace Callaway's Lady Charlotte's Society of Angels series by Grace Callaway has a group of crazy young vigilante girls, led by a much calmer, but secretly insane, Lady Charlotte. I just love how these girls will be like "LET'S KICK FLIP VILLAINS AND KISS BOYS".

Jennifer Ashley's first four Mackenzie books especially have really lovely, supportive friendships between the Mackenzie brides. Beth and Isabella are probably the closest, but they're all really tight and understanding of one another.

Adriana Herrera's Las Leonas series is only two books in thus far, but I've been LOVING the female friendships in that series. The women really GET each other, and I super enjoy the fact that there is like... an acknowledged bonding that goes beyond them being women in the 19th century, and goes into them being woc in a predominantly white European society especially.

And for books that have great friendships between men and women, I looove Frannie's relationships with the Scoundrels of St. James, especially Jack. Like, all these guys are a little in love with her (Jack least for sure because he actually gets that their love is platonic lol), but it's pretty quickly clear that it's like, this trauma bond situation where they actually just really GET each other and where they're coming from. So it's not like, objectifying in any way and she's more like the heart of the group, while also being great at forging things and such as that lmao.

[loudwolftraveler]

In another life. & History repeats itself.. 

(Merge post + The explanation)

A/N: Beware of Cursing and might also be Grammatical errors, and Yandere behavior, Inspiration of manhwas ahead.

Everyone this is the fully post of two separate posts, I add a explanation so it will help you understand the story better bc it doesn't really make sense, also i may or may not be posting anymore, after all i just posted those two as a entertainment but never thought would go viral but thanks to you all but sadly i will not post anything bc i will have my focus on the novel books i published there on wattpad and sooner have my original book too, that's all i have to say once again and thank you for understanding.

In another life.

Imagine your reincarnated husband! 

Your reincarnated husband! Once died protecting you and the empire of sudden attacks was announced on your marriage day. 

Your reincarnated husband! Died in your hands, blood is everywhere, especially around you. In devastated you kill yourself by slicing your neck, as you can't live without the person who loved you the most...

Silence filled the room, and then the next was nothing... Nothing but the silence of your sudden death with your only person you cherish the most. Two of you lay in the ground, pools of blood are everywhere around you two. A tragic life of both two lovely people who found themselves by fate itself. 

The new emperor and empress had sudden news of dying because of a sudden attack that had happened.

... 

..... 

...... 

That was the tale of your childhood. The story tale you held dearly in your heart when you were a little child. 

It was a pity, that the tale kinda reminds you of the empress who was once a duchess. 

It was about a story between a duchess and a crown prince. 

It was said that the duchess was mistreated as an outcast and a replacement real daughter of Duke, a 'lady duchess' as what people called the daughter of the Duke. The whole family neglected the duchess because she was just nothing but a replacement of the lady duchess who once went missing and never came back. The Duke tried to find his daughter, the one he cherished before she was gone. But suddenly stumble across the girl who look-alike her daughter, but the girl has dark red hair, her daughter has red hair and almost like peach-pink hair. The girl almost looked like the lady duchess herself, except for the hair color and the eyes. In exchanging words towards her, he adopted her not only for her to feel loved but for the replacement of his once cherished lovely daughter. 

The brothers of the lovely lady duchess, were frustrated with the news of the fake lady duchess who was their "new sister". 

Both of the father and her "brothers" never cared for her, never did, even if she acted a brat or spoiled one. They never once showed affection or worried towards her as they neglect her once she's in their presence. 

The servants don't really care about her either. They make her starve, left out, and never serves her like a right duchess. 

That was until she sneaked out of the duke household and somehow met her destiny.. 

The crown prince of the empire. 

Some people just describe what the crown prince is, some will say, he isn't the favorite one as the people, especially noble ones, saw that the prince was also an outcast, but people assumed that the Emperor loved his half-sister and didn't have any time for the crown prince. 

The crown prince's half-sister or his step-sister, the one destined to die at age 18 was once the Emperor's plan but it seems it backfired when he saw what she really is, just like her mother, his once a lover. The Emperor's true lover (the Emperor is too dumb and blind as fuck that he didn't even know that his lover who is concubine, just used him for the power and frame.). 

The one that the emperor loved so much that he kept the kid around, pretty much of the dissatisfied and disagreement of the crown prince's statement. 

The Emperor was known to be a cold and tyrant ruler. 

A brutal one when it comes to his enemies. 

'The crown prince is nothing but the heir of the throne', the Emperor said to his personal knight. 

'Nothing but an heir' is what the crown prince thought. He knows, he knows yet can't accept it. He can't win his father's love and affection when it comes to his half-sister. So he stayed quiet and waited for the time to strike down and kill its enemy. 

The Emperor loved the half-sister, but when it comes to him, HIS supposed to be a biological child. 

The Emperor chose to neglect him and didn't really care about him after the assassination happened that resulted in the Emperor neglecting him. For all the Emperor's care, the heir can die, and the Emperor wouldn't help him or care for him. 

After all, there's still one child to own the throne after all. 

The crown prince is tired. 

Tired of all of this. 

If he can just confess everything to him then it would not be this mess.. 

Especially what happened in the past. 

If the Emperor is not that stupid to fall in love with a plastic face of a lotus bitch then this should not be happening at all. 

As the crown prince stands at the balcony, staring at the sky, moonlight shines brightly across his face. As he collected his memories then, he jumped off the balcony from the Palace he currently stayed with about 3 floors, he thankfully landed safely on the plant bushes. 

The crown prince ran away, ended up lost somewhere, then he sat on the ground and silent crying filled the place as he felt worthless all of the time. But then he heard the noises towards him and when he looked up, he met the "fake duchess" which people talked about. 

The fake lady looked at the child (the crown prince is older than the fake duchess btw) and asked. "Um.. Are you okay, why are you crying?" 

Then the crown prince quickly wiped his tears and answered, "Y-yeah.. I'm okay..." and then, "by the chance, are you perhaps the new daughter of the duke?" the crown prince asked, the duchess froze in place and then answered in a low voice, "I.. I wouldn't call myself like that..." the duchess said. 

The crown prince quickly understood and questioned a different one, like why are you here, and are you somehow lost too? And a bunch of talks right here and then. They started to get comfortable with each other and learn things from each other too, if they have enough time to meet each other that is. They would go to the same place where they first met. 

But of course, we can't hide things so easily right? 

When the crown prince reached the age of 18, his half-sister 14, there was an accident. Well the crown prince wouldn't call it a "accident".

Day by day the crown prince filled with envy and jealousy and frustration with his half-sister's actions and his father's words. That's when his sister hits her first celebration, the day where people will know about her and might be the day he will be replaced. So he instead had a plan to end his so-called family and end his suffering. 

For many years of being miserable and being a mistake and just being neglected by your only biological parent who just chose some insect that isn't even fully blood related. 

He chose to kill his father, his half-sister and everyone who served his father and sister. 

Even for all the servants who choose to work here, it will be their last day. 

They will be killed by his hands and his only hands. 

Their end will be in his hands. And no one else. 

When the news came of the Emperor's and the second Princess deaths and a massacre happened in the Palace! 

The only survivor was the heir of the throne! 

He explained in pain and traumatic expression as he tried to explain to the people of the empire that there were some bunch of the people who happened to be assassins and tried to assassinate his family, himself and the people who worked there, and not leave any witnesses.

In desperation, people believe his innocent act. 

How funny.. 

Really people are easy to be fooled with. When the people of the empire believed his words, he smirked a little, happy about what had happened. 

This is only the beginning of the terror of the people of the so-called empire.

Especially for the people who hurt his darling duchess.. 

History repeats itself.. 

Pt. 2 of In another life + Your reincarnated husband! Headcanon (at the start)

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That was the story from your childhood, you remembered the name... 

It was "The fake duchess met the crown prince!" 

At first, you thought back then it was a story but it wasn't, the story was called a "novel" you just found out back then, not too long ago. 

It was published as a novel book that people read either on the Internet if they don't have the money to buy or the novel book itself.

You once thought that the duchess's past was like you, mistreated by others and neglected by your parents. 

But that's okay, since you are already out of that hell hole anyway. That's what it matters.. 

Anyways, back to the topic, author. 

... 

Actually the one you talked about was, about the past only, so it means there are still events that are present in time when the duchess and crown prince were teenagers. 

Most of the novel was about the duchess' view and then meeting the crown prince and then the next one, will be on the crown prince view. Mostly their childhood memories are shown there, through teenagers and adults where they become official rulers. 

(not long enough because the sudden attacks strike in the empire, and it brings tragedy on the day where they're official news of being new rulers.)

The ending of the novel is mostly the end of the fate of two people. 

The duchess and the crown prince.

But why does it feel like deja vu? 

Like when the fake lady duchess met the crown prince was like... 

It felt like you're the one who feels the feelings of the duchess... 

But that doesn't matter anymore, probably another feeling of being single or you just felt nostalgic right now. 

'Feels like a past life feeling?' 

But, that matter should be dealt with later on. 

Now, where were you?

Oh right, you just finished the work, great job!

Although it's a waste of time to do all these things..

You, as a reader, lived in an apartment. 

You have to move out because your parents said 'you know it's time to move out? You have to learn to be independent, we can't always take care of someone like you.' they said. 

Then you take that in your hands, by being an employee, to support your well-being and bills of the apartment you stayed with. 

"*Sigh* it's late at night.. I think I have to do this tomorrow morning..." you sighed, feeling tired of the work you have done.

You clean up your table and then, when outside the company you worked with.

When you were walking through the crowded street, blending yourself in there, you suddenly thought of the sequel that the same novel author wrote of "The fake duchess met the crown prince." the sequel called, "We meet by the fate itself once again" where both of the duchess and the crown prince meet, but in the modern world though it's only a short sequel continues the novel story of "The fake duchess met the crown prince".

Where of course both of them knew each other's identity as the duchess and crown prince in their past life.

Because of a simple memory that brought them together once again, but this time is surely a happy ending.

When you were walking down the street, you suddenly bump into someone. 

"Ack—!" you hissed at the pain of being bumped into someone, but little did you know, you were about to fall but someone suddenly caught you by holding your waist to support you so that you don't fall down to the ground. 

When you open your eyes, your eyes straight look at the person who bumped you and saved you at the same time. 

When you look at the person, he looks at you too. But sudden electricity rings from both of your minds. 

Then you realize you're still being held. 

You blush from the embarrassment and stupidity of not realizing it soon enough. 

"Uh.. I'm sorry..." You said, taking small steps and making a space between you two. You look at the guy, the guy looks.. Puzzled? It felt like his thinking before he suddenly realized what's going on. 

"Oh.. No, no, it's fine, after all it's probably an accident" he said, giving you an assured smile, you look and then look away because of embarrassment and feeling of awkwardness between you two. 

And then he said this,

"If you don't mind me asking.. Have we met before? You looked so familiar yet so unfamiliar..."

You heard him, but then your mind suddenly brings the Flashback when you two felt an electricity together when you and him looked into each other's eyes. 

The Flashback was nothing but a glimpse of a man holding a woman in his arms.. 

The appearance of the man was similar to the guy you accidentally met by bumping. 

Even the smile is the same! 

Because the man in the Flashback has the same smile!

You didn't reply, the guy looked worried but didn't say anything, he was about to go but you held his arm preventing him from going. 

"I do have a memory of a man that looks like you, well glimpse of it.." you said, his wide eyes stare at you. 

"You are... No, It can't be... There's no way.." the guy mumbled, the feeling is so familiar to him, it feels like the girl he met was the woman in his dreams and might as well include nightmares. 

You don't even process the words you say, it's just like you were being controlled to say that. 

"But I am not sure if we have met before." you said after, the guy calmed down, he looked at you, "It's fine, you don't have to... I'm sure in the near future or maybe now, you will be able to regain the memories like i did years ago.." he said to you, smiling gently, holding your hand, it's as if he knew you.. 

But you are sure that he knows about you. 

Well your 'old' you of course, it's funny to know that you were reincarnated after your sudden death. 

Without knowing he is also here.. 

And without knowing you are also a character that doesn't even exist. 

Well, apparently he is also the same thing as you.

You smile as if all the memories that are from your old life are regained within you, you smile at him knowing that you two will be at peace now. 

"Where the hell have you been in the past years..?" you asked, hugging him, your once-a-husband that died in your arms, came back alive this time. 

"haha, I'm sorry if I'm late, my darling wife.." he said accepting your hugs, he knows your suffering, after all you two seek comfort together. 

"Humph whatever, what's the matter is that you're here once again"

"I'm also happy for you to remember me and our past life though you regained it faster than me.." He pouted looking at you. "But, I'm sure you, no—we will have happiness this time." 

He said as he looked at you with a long-lost same loving eyes again, you smile,

"Yes, we will."

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Now, the two lovers at last can rest assured. 

After all, fate is the one who brought the two destined lovers. 

The old true lovers who died because of its tragedy are now living their best lives in the world. 

But, history may repeat itself once again. 

EXPLANATION PART!

(Pt.1) In another life & History repeats itself, explanation about the past and how the story goes through.

The main male Protagonists : The HUSBAND

*The heir & the crown prince.

*Inheriting the throne after he was massacred and lying to the public saying, 'there's a assassination happening inside the Palace'.

*Born with royal blood and is a biological child and has a step-sister.

*The Emperor, his father, has a one-sided love for his mother, the previous Empress; she died while protecting him, their son from the assassination. And then the Emperor falls in love with the viscountess lady  from the viscount family (before the assassination). So the viscountess lady becomes a concubine and soon enough has a child, who is his step-sister. The viscountess desperately wants a child so she could be the empress (bc she also wants to take down the previous Empress, who is still alive at that time. By making the Emperor divorce the Empress and her being the new empress. But that didn't work at all, as the biological child heard her plans and poisoned her after her pregnancy happened, and after the assassination.)

*The assassination happened when the viscountess lady can't take her anger off and send someone (plus the back ups cuz the Empress is not someone to underestimate with, as what people thought of her).

*And then, the sudden suicide death of the concubine which is the viscountess lady, was reached to the public, was killed by the poison after the assassination and the pregnancy happened. (it wasn't a suicide death) 

(so what happened was:

-> The Emperor's one-sided love towards the Empress and falling in love with the viscountess lady. 

-> The viscountess lady becomes the concubine and she clearly does not want that position but alas, it's the first step of her wanting to be an empress. 

-> Has the time being passed by, the viscountess lady seduces the Emperor into making out and making him favor her more than his actual wife. 

->The Empress was left out to take care of the child along with her loyal servants and soon, the first child born with royal blood was born at the age of five. 

-> And then the assassination happens, as u can see above, the viscountess lady has enough and finally sends some assassins to kill her but she saw, through her living in the Palace, it wasn't easy to kill the Empress. 

-> Few months after the assassination was ended and also the Empress's death. The biological child was seen walking through the hall, about to go to the room where the emperor stayed. He suddenly heard the viscountess lady, the Emperor's concubine, saying about the incident happened few months ago, and said it was her plan to become the Emperor's new wife and empress; her saying that her child should be the crown princess not him, as his looks reminded her of his mother. The viscountess lady was currently pregnant at that time, so he waited for the child to be born and after the pregnancy, a few weeks passed by, the death of the viscountess lady was spread around the empire. 

-> Few days before the viscountess lady will give birth to the half-blood royal child which is his step-sister. The child of the Emperor and the pervious Empress plans to poison the viscountess lady's drinks and foods; order the servants to put poison on each foods or drinks she will get her hands on after she will gave birth to a so-called royal child and threatening them that if they told the viscountess lady or the Emperor that it was him who did it, not only he will fired them but also kill them along with their families, he isn't a heir or a Crown Prince for nothing. (this is the one of reason why people called him a brutal and cruel Prince for not being a favored one, they say, (ง'̀-'́)ง) 

-> The servants of the pervious Empress couldn't do anything but to go along with the plan of the crown prince, 9 months had been passed after pregnancy happened, and this was the time where the Prince made his move, that is by ordering the servants to put a poison on everything that will slowly kill the concubine.

(who actually should become a empress the day after the Empress died but the Emperor was upset by what happen so the plan of the concubine was on hold; the time where the neglected and got blamed is also happened, in short the Emperor's hatred towards his own son and blamed & neglecting to his own son started at this time also I feel like this bitch is regret something..ಠ_ಠ)

-> And another death happened, words was spreading around the empire, some people said, the concubine dies because of someone poisoning her but no body was suspected at that time, then some of them said she dies giving birth, even tho she already done with the pregnancy but the Emperor didn't reveal it as much as the concubine disliked and denied the idea. 

-> Though nobody knows who's real or not. The Emperor doesn't suspect any other than the poison. Though he doesn't know who really did it.. 

-> Now, the present is slowly approaching, the royal half-blood child who's related to the Emperor and his biological child, was now at age of 6 and is lost somewhere near the Emperor's palace and she wasn't aware of it, she was just looking around, trying to go back to the Palace where her mother once lived and died. 

And the rest is history itself, (jk) the rest of it is shown in the novel itself. The thing is that in the novel, they only mentioned the mothers of the two siblings and mostly the one who cares abt them is the Emperor, (but since he's a bastard one, a blind fucking stupid, delusional one) he isn't really a good father. 

And it isn't really explained, it's complicated like the writer here for example. This shit work draft should be, at least be done if they're just a motivated person but guess what? In real life stuff has been a shitty work only wasted time for them. 

(literally here just want this to be done honestly (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ))  

Also the side note/additional information: The Emperor & the Empress only has a political marriage, they aren't really loved each other since the empress is only used to pregnant a heir 

(in short, the Emperor forced his way to the Empress without her consent). 

And her family was a kingdom, 'was' the family of her, send her to the empire cuz in her kingdom, if a woman, a female child who got birth in a kingdom-bloodline is considered bad luck to the kingdom. So men there are considered as someone who will bring the kingdom a better one, in other words, they're considered as a superior especially if they have a family, a man, the father should be the one to follow and obey. While the female ones are y'know being treated as a slave or someone who is used to impregnate a male child, not female.

So her family sends her to the empire and marry the current emperor, which is the Emperor (honestly it's the bastard  for me). The Emperor on the other hand is a handsome but bastard shit (but no one knows, bc he's a two face one, and the heir got his two-face phase shit. TAT..). 

He isn't really in love with the Empress, but fell hard on the fucking lotus bitch (╬≖_≖) and yeah, i hope you knew how the story goes now cuz really this is the only thing this writer can give you. 

Manhwa inspiration: 

 Who made me a princess

And a little inspired by 'The remarried empress'? 

(really it's just that the viscountess lady has the same personality as rashta so not sure yet. Let's just say, its the personality not the social life bc the viscountess lady is from countess family so please don't attack me---) 

Author's notes: Parentheses are the writer's way of communicating in a safe way, i think?

viscountess lady = The concubine 

Empress = The once a princess 

Emperor = The cruel & tyrant ruler with the attitude of an asshole. 

Biological child = The crown prince & The heir of the throne 

Step-sister of the biological child = second in line of the throne, and the viscountess lady's child (& the Emperor)

(Pt. 2) In another life & History repeat itself, explanation about the past and how the story goes through.

The Female Protagonist: The WIFE

*Known as the 'fake duchess' or 'fake lady duchess'

*Got adopted by the Duke to replace his once a lovely daughter.

*Ever since child, her mother died when giving birth to her. Leaving her with herself to take care of.

*Once she got adopted by the duke, she thought she would have a feeling of being loved. But that hope was crushed when she knew that she can't replace their heart that is full of void, losing their beloved real daughter. Because she's just an 'illegitimate child'. And a replacement of the position of a once 'Duchess'

*She first got hatred by her brothers, and her 'father' neglected her, won't even glance at her and help her when she's in desperate danger of society.

*Because of her 'brat-acts' or in other words, spoiled brat-acts, her reputation was ruined. Just because she spilled tea and hit a teen noble lady in a tea party and since then her reputation kept ruined by the time wherever she went, people kept looking at her disgust and hatred looks and always spreading a fake rumor of her.

(FUN FACT: THE WIFE'S BACK STORY IS ALREADY ON STORY OF 'IN ANOTHER LIFE' PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING IS THE WIFE'S STORY OR THE 'EMPRESS')

*She used to admire her step-brothers.. But now she hates them. She hated them because when she needed them, they didn't help her. Instead they both glared at her in a cold way.

*Hell, even the servants there. Even if they know they shouldn't disrespect the one they served but yet they go against it.. She hated it.. She hates it, the fact that she has the power yet she doesn't have the authority to at least be herself. She wanted to shout out, but she knew nobody would hear her shouts. 

*Days, weeks, and months went by.. Her realization came to her, she now realizes that nobody really is willing to give her the love that she once wished to have.

*By then, she knew she was nothing but a fool to everyone's view..  

*Until she met the crown prince. The situation when she met the crown prince was okay, but not really what she expected, guess the rumors about him were wrong. She and the crown prince always hang out at the same place they first met, and would also talk through writing letters. 

*Soon enough of time, the duchess grows with determination, clearing and gaining her reputation again, the problems that involve her, and she, working properly like a duchess she is. Through her hard work, it paid off, having trusted workers, along with a good reputation that speaks nothing but the truth.

(I truly don't want to detail everything but let's say, your family felt the guilt since the wife isn't what she was before especially (her) father of the Duke. Her and her step-brothers somehow get along but in reality, she was just faking the -'get along'- since she needs the support through her family members first. The Duke's family never know that their daughter or sister has already met the crown prince and even build a strong relationship (its friendship, everyone TAT) but the first brother is suspicious towards it but denies the feeling. AND after the massacre that happened in the Palace, did the wife know? Well... Of course she knows, as I said in Pt. 2 the two of them seek comfort and information from each other. BUT she didn't knew about killing spare that the crown prince made (which is killing everyone who despite and loves the duchess))

(NOW LET'S TALK ABT THE MAIN TOPIC OF THE 'IN ANOTHER LIFE & HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF'. THE STORY IS ABOUT THE HISTORY OF THE TWO NOBLES. THE ONCE A CROWN PRINCE AND A ONCE A DUCHESS. IN PART 1, IT TALKS ABOUT THE PAST OF THE TWO NOBLES AND IN THE START IS WHERE THE END OF THE 'STORY' OF THE TWO NOBLES. IN READER-INSERT, IT'S MOSTLY YOUR POV TALKING ABOUT THE 'STORY' ITSELF. AND MOVING FORWARD TO THE PART 2 IS WHERE YOU FOUND A MEMORIES SOON TO KNOW ABOUT THE 'PAST LIFE' MOSTLY KNOWING WHAT YOU ARE IS.

BUT ONE THING IS DIFFERENT, WHAT IS IT? ITS BOTH OF TRANSMIGRATION AND REINCARNATION. BUT IN TRANSMIGRATION IT'S QUITE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT I WAS PLANNING FOR THE STORY PLOT SINCE I PREFER NOT TO GO IN DETAILS TOO MUCH BUT IT'S ALSO MY FAULT NOT TOO T-T 

ANYWAY, HERE'S THE EXPLANATION ABOUT THE WIFE AND THE READER ITSELF, 

-> BOTH THE WIFE AND THE READER HAS THE SAME SOUL, SO BOTH OF THEM CAN CHANGE EACH OTHER'S BODIES. 

-> SO LIKE, IF THE WIFE LOST CONSCIOUS, SO DOES THE READER, THEN THE WIFE & READER SWITCH SOUL, LIKE THE READER'S SOUL WILL GO TO THE BODY OF THE WIFE AND WHEN THE WIFE'S BODY GAINED THE CONSCIOUSNESS, THE READER IS MOSTLY THE ONE WHO WILL CONTROL THE WIFE'S BODY. IT'S THE SAME WAY AS THE WIFE'S SITUATION TOO. AND BY REMEMBERING THINGS LIKE HOW THEY LIVED IN THEIR OWN, THEY WILL SLOWLY GAIN THE MEMORIES BY EITHER SLEEPING OR A SUDDEN HEADACHE. 

NOW I KNOW YOU WILL BE HAVING A BUNCH OF QUESTIONS BUT! IN THE FIRST PART OF THE STORY, IT EXPLAINS THAT THE WIFE'S BODY DIES BC OF SUICIDE (NOT ACTUALLY BUT SHE KILLED HERSELF SO YEAH) SO IS THE READER STILL CONTINUES TO GO INSIDE THE WIFE'S BODY? THE ANSWER IS BASICALLY A NO. WHY? BC THE WIFE'S BODY IS DEAD. MEANS IT WILL NOT CONTINUE TO BE LIVED ESPECIALLY SINCE THE TWO SOULS ARE SOMEHOW CONNECTED, THERE'S A POSSIBILITY THAT THERE WILL BE ONE SOUL GONE AND ONE SOUL ALIVE. 

SO THE DUCHESS'S OR WIFE'S SOUL TRANSFERRED TO THE READER'S BODY AND THE READER ITSELF STAYED IN THEIR OWN BODY LIKE THE BOTH SOUL IS SHARING THE SAME BODY SINCE ITS ONLY THE RESOURCE THEY BOTH HAVE. MOSTLY THE READER'S SOUL IS INSIDE BUT THE DUCHESS'S IS THE ONE TO CONTROL THE BODY, WITH THE HELP OF THEIR MEMORIES, THE DUCHESS WAS ABLE TO REMEMBER HER 'DEAR HUSBAND'. 

SO.. IN THE PART 2 BTW, THE READER'S SOUL IS STILL ASLEEP AND THE HUSBAND ALSO GAINED THEIR MEMORIES BC OF THE DREAMS AS WELL AS THE NIGHTMARES.

ACTUALLY THE STORY SHOULD BE TALK ABT THE 'REINCARNATED HUSBAND' SINCE I THOUGHT IT WILL BE A GREAT HEADCANON AND IS ACTUAL TITLE BEFORE IT GOT REMOVED BUT SINCE IT BECAME A STORY OPPOSITE TO WHAT I WAS PLANNED BUT HEY I THINK IT TURNED OUT OKAY? BUT PLEASE I KNOW SOME OF YOU HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY ABOUT THE 'TRANSMIGRATION IS THE SAME AS THE REINCARNATION' I KNOW THAT, I JUST MAKE IT LIKE THAT KIND OF IDEA SINCE I VERY LIKED IT. AS MUCH AS I RESPECT AND DON'T MIND WHAT YOU GUYS COMMENT ON PLEASE REMEMBER THIS IS JUST A WORK OF FANFICTION WHICH IS CREATED BY ME. THOUGH I DON'T KNOW IF THIS ACTUALLY EXPLAINS THE SHIT STORY HONESTLY TAT) 

MANHWA INSPIRATION: 

DEATH IS THE ONLY ENDING FOR THE VILLAINESS/ VILLAINS ARE DESTINED TO DIE. 

THE REASON WHY RAELIANA ENDED UP AT THE DUKE'S MANSION. 

Duke = The Head of the household 

The Two step-brothers = One is the Heir and one is a General Captain.

The Fake lady duchess = A Once empress, ruler and the Fake duchess, illegitimate child.

The lovely daughter of the Duke = The child of the Duke who went missing for no reason.

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A/N: Everyone! As i told you before this is a merged post as i promised. And bc of my decision visit my wattpad pf bc i would not be active here anymore, but i still be having it in my phone but if my phone can't handle anymore then i be removing it, thank you and here it is:

[tavina-writes]

I'm still thinking about that post where @lgbtlunaverse talks about symbolism and then I was like "yeah I'm pretentious as fuck when it comes to all of my fic related things which is silly bc it's just fanfic" (the post is here btw it's a great post.)

And I think that like, actually, it's nice to be a little pretentious about things. It's nice to give meaning to symbolism and pick and choose what stuff goes where and what you pair with this other thing and why you chose this time of day and not another time of day and actually! talk about it! Bc I love talking about it I think it's super fun! I love getting meta about my own writing and I'd love to hear about it from other people, so beloved mutuals (and anyone else who writes and wants to play) tell me below about your favorite symbolism/motifs/reasons why you did that in x scene in your fic.

I'll start! This is from Chapter Six of the Lan Xichen/Original Female Character arranged marriage fic, where we get Some More Family History re: Ningning.

"The Zhushan Li," Yongyong says, coming to a stop in front of the closed doors of the Li Family Ancestral Hall, "was founded by Prince Heyi of the middle Tang, after he revoked his status as a prince of the court and retreated here to Zhushan to be a cultivator instead." The wind rustles through the screen curtain of jade green bamboo leaves, the sound so familiar to Lan Xichen that it registered almost as comforting. "His two older sisters are the statues here on each side of the entrance. This one," Yongyong turns to the one on the right side, "is his eldest sister, Princess Le'an Appeasing the Gods. And this one," Yongyong gestures briefly at the one on the left, "Is his second sister, Princess Yu'an Allying With Tibet." Princess Le'an's face is upturned, the sword at her jade white throat already drawing blood. Princess Yu'an's face is down turned, the tears on her jade white cheeks visible even through the red mist of her wedding veil. Lan Xichen has not read about this tragedy, did not know its form and contours, but— One sister dead to appease the gods. One sister married to a distant land.

I love parallels and the 'one looking up/one looking down' both colorless except for the red and the fact that they effectively died thing just GETS ME. But it's also the "you never escape the patriarchy no matter what kind of woman you are" type story. You can never escape it! Not if you're bold and rebellious, not if you're gentle and demure and these two women ARE really the two sides of the same coin on "well in this system, you die."

I could go on but like PLEASE tell me about YOUR meta thoughts about your fic I want to see it lets talk about it!!!

[faifromthewild]

"There is hope as long as you live."

My notes on themes of depression and found family in New Life Begins

Spoilers for New Life Begins ep. 24-25

CW: childbirth, depression, postpartum, attempted suicide.

Just finished episode 25 of New Life Begins, and I was NOT prepared for the absolute chaos of found family breaking all of the rules to save their depressed friend from dying.

The raw emotion. The sheer absurdity of Yin Qi threating to hurt himself if they don't let him take the physician to see his friend. The way you can tell Li Wei dove into the water to save her friend bc she's soaking wet. Zhao Fang Ru telling the maid not to cry just minutes before having her own breakdown. Because crying would be admitting defeat, and she isn't about to let Hao Jia die, and yet... she can't stop her own tears. And of course, Yin Zheng showing up just in time. Holding a sword to his brother's throat so the others can run in and help Hao Jia.

It's all so melodramatic and bordering on ridiculous, but I LOVE it. Despite the DRAMA, it's so real and relatable and moving. Let me explain...

As someone who is mentally ill, I was so impressed with how they depicted Hao Jia's depression. The self-loathing. The feelings of incompetence. The belief that you deserve your fate bc of the mistakes you made. I have never given birth or suffered from postpartum depression, but so much of what Hao Jia feels mirrors my own experience with depression.

Which is why I was so moved by her friends and their absolute REFUSAL to stand by and do nothing while she suffered. While she was dying.

Li Wei running from the carriage when she realizes what Hao Jia might do...

Shang Guan Jing saying "From this day forth, we're her family who will back her up." (Ep. 24) And taking up her spear when she hears that Hao Jia's dying, claiming she'll take the physician there by force if she has to.

The 5th and 6th prince feeling powerless but doing everything they possibly can, from angering their father and going against their brother, the Crown Prince. Threatening violence even. All to help save Hao Jia. (I know people will argue that it's bc they want to help their wives, but I think it goes beyond that. Bc they seem seriously concerned about Hao Jia too. They're worried about her).

Zhao Fang Ru gripping Hao Jia's hand as she lays on the bed, cold and getting colder, pleading "Do you hear me? Open your eyes and talk to me. Hao Jia!" Using every tactic at her disposal, even threatening Hao Jia that if she dies, she'll take it out on her child. (I don't think she would actually hurt Hao Jia's child. I DO think Zhao Fang Ru is desperate enough to say anything if she thinks it will wake Hao Jia, and keep her from letting go).

I have a confession to make. While I have always hated the role of "damsel in distress," there's a part of me that has always wanted to be rescued.

When I played by myself as a child, I would imagine scenarios where I was in danger and someone would save me. Interestingly, whenever I played with my friends, I hated when it was my turn to be rescued in our games. But when I was alone, when I couldn't pretend to be the strong hero...

Maybe that's why I always appreciate stories like this. Where someone who is alone and scared has a support system that will do anything to take care of them. Will fight and scream and rage if it means saving them. It doesn't fix everything, and it doesn't always cure them, but it's beautiful. It fills me with wonder. I think that's why found family is a favorite trope of mine. People finding each other and caring for each other. Fighting the odds together.

At the end of episode 25, Hao Jia is surrounded by her friends. She says, "I heard about all the things you did for me. I've failed you."

To which Li Wei replies, "As long as you live, we will do anything. You were unhappy because you were ill. Take good care of yourself and recover. Your life comes before anything else, understood?"

Yuan Ying adds, "If you ever need help, you must let us know."

"Right," says Shang Guan Jing. "We are all here for you. Don't shoulder everything on your own."

They all look up to see that it's dawn. The sun rises, and sunlight filters in through the window and touches each of their faces.

And I'm crying. Because for so long, I felt like Hao Jia. I felt alone, and I felt like I deserved to be alone. But like her, I also have friends who care for me and don't want me to suffer in silence.

The internet says this show is a historical romantic COMEDY btw. And yeah, most of the show has been fairly light-hearted. There's romance, family, politics, and food. LOTS of delicious food.

Don't get me wrong. It still has funny moments (I wasn't kidding when I said parts of this show are absurd), but I'm pleasantly surprised to discover the show also wants to tackle serious issues.

Whatever else this show may be, for me, it's about these friends and how they've become a family. It's beautiful, and I'm in love.

To everyone out there struggling with depression, I leave you with this line from Li Wei, "There is hope as long as you live."

[awstenknight]

oh my god girl you've read 100 books this year?? 100??? I'm speechless but also give us your top 10 please and thank you

top 10 hmmmmmm let me look through!!

in no order:

real friends - middle grade graphic novel about friends, family, school

all the things we never said - ya about three suicidal teenage girls who are matched as partners on a suicide pact website

fourth wing - emerging adult dragon book that reads like a fanfic. i am not a dragon book girl at ALL but i loved this one. hunger games/divergent vibes. a page-turner for me!!

the prince and the dressmaker - graphic novel. so sweet.

before we were blue - ya with alternating perspectives from roommates in inpatient ED treatment. kinda weak (not bad) ending, but the story as a whole was so good i didnt mind.

numb to this: memoir of a mass shooting - graphic novel memoir written by a college student who was on campus during a shooting. it's largely focused on the aftermath (spanning a few years of her life) and the shooting's affect on her friendships, family, and mental health

re-read of im glad my mom died - jennette mccurdy (sam from icarly)'s autobiography focused heavily on her eating disorder and her relationship with her abusive mom. also dealing with fame, what it's like behind the scenes, and growing into being an adult when you have no idea what that means.

hidden pictures - CONTROVERSIAL so i cant super super recommend it, but despite the controversy it was maybe my favorite book this year!! adult fiction about a 20-something recovering addict who takes a nanny job with a nice suburban family. the kid starts drawing freaky, unsettling pictures. the family gets a little stranger as time goes on, and clues start cropping up all over. some people think its dumb af, and some people love it. i happened to be in the love camp haha.

under the whipsering door wasnt a favorite necessarily but i really enjoyed it. the premise is that when people die, they go somewhere where a ferryman can take them to the afterlife. this book's ferryman works in a tea shop. spirits stay there until they're ready to pass through the whispering door - and nobody knows what's behind the door. the story is about a mean lawyer who dies and wakes up at the tea shop and refuses to go through the door. it had me choking up at one part, and im not a crier!! potentially very moving if youre in the right headspace. found family, huge growth from the main character. great read.

breathe and count back from ten - ya about a high school girl with hip dysplasia and overprotective parents. all she wants in the world is to be a professional mermaid and perform at her town's tourist attraction called mermaid cove. i wish the love story hadnt been part of this bc i was just interested in how her medical stuff affects her, hearing about her body image, seeing her interact with her family, watching her attempt to overcome obstacles, etc.

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hi im ur biggesgt fan anwyayi saw that you werre doing headcanons. cani get cinderella and karoug angst headcnaons thank you hhngnnf

thank you for ur stroke I will honor your final wish.

I have a LOT of Kaoru angst headcanons bc I'm a sucker for angst and projection sorry i am cringe but i am free.

So. I will try not to be VERY in depth about them all but I have a big hc that Kaoru has untreated/undiagnosed severe depression that plays into his self-worth issues. He's not actively suicidal but he is passively. like. if i die then that's ok. lol. and maybe he thinks about it sometimes but he'd never do anything if only bc he doesn't want to hurt hikaru. I do have a whole thread I update every now and then talking abt this concept. but the main parts really are. he's super depressed and has no clue how to express this bc he's stuck between being horrible at communicating + not wanting to worry anybody/being a burden so he ends up expressing them thru very cryptic metaphors and then nobody knows what he's saying. hence the carriage thing. (this is me coping with bad writing/hj).

When he's in his depression swings he tends to be very anti social. He doesn't want to eat doesn't want to talk. call him 12 cuz he dozen do anything. he just reads all day bc it's the quickest and easiest way to block out the world. however not moving and not eating makes his depression WORSE and this can really concern hikaru who quickly notices this behavior. thankfully he ends up forcing kaoru to take care of himself which pisses kaoru off for a few minutes until he starts feeling better.

During these episodes also he has a tendency to try and isolate himself from everyone, again bc of the whole self-worth issues. It gets so bad during these moments he thinks he genuinely either is making everyone's lives actively worse or he simply doesn't deserve people so he just tries to cut them off. luckily this never works especially with people like Tamaki or Hikaru because 1. Hikaru would NEVER give up on him ever and 2. Tamaki is the most persistent stubborn man in the world he would never leave Kaoru.

He gets nightmares a lot esp during these depression episodes and he tends not to tell Hikaru about them bc they're always really morbid either about everyone leaving him/him offing himself and he doesn't want Hikaru to worry. Hikaru can always tell something is wrong tho and stick closer to him that day.

Also, when he's upset, Hikaru does everything in the world to try and cheer him up. Try to make him laugh usually. Since Kaoru doesn't like talking about his issues, Hikaru tries his best to make him forget about them. Obviously he'll offer to watch Cinderella with him which if Kaoru refuses then he knows he's REALLY not doing well and then he panics and calls Haruhi for help.

Actually nice segue into the next thing. I assume you mean cinderella HCs relating to Kaoru and not. the actual cinderella property. Which i do sadly have a few headcanons for (i Stockholm syndrome'd myself into liking it) but I'm doing the former since that's what I think you meant.

Kaoru's favorite Cinderella movie is the original disney version, English. He enjoys the Japanese one too but he prefers the original. He says on a objective level the 3rd movie is the best, but the first is his personal favorite. He likes the critically panned 2nd movie and acknowledges it's not that great, but it's still fun and has nice stories and messages.

He has watched nearly all the live action adaptations of the Cinderella fairytale and thinks they're all enjoyable in some way, even if that way is being laughably bad. His favorite character in Cinderella besides Cinderella herself is Gus. he had a crush on the Prince when he was a little kid and a similar but lesser crush on Cinderella herself (bi rights). He can recite all the songs from memory and knows soooo many dumb fun facts. He loves the Cinderella GBA game and has beaten it many times. Him and Hikaru have long arguments over that game because Kaoru thinks it's good and Hikaru thinks it sucks for different reasons (this headcanon is born from the fact I myself have very conflicting opinions on that game that were SO opposite from each other the only way I could adequately express them to my friend was to stage it as an argument between Hikaru and Kaoru I'm not even joking I wish I was.)

The reason he loves Cinderella so much is kinda interesting. When he was a little boy and just learning how to read, a fairytale book in their huge at-home library caught his eye. One of the fairytales in it was Cinderella. He remembered really loving the illustrations, but the issue is, the book was all in English. He was just starting to learn Japanese, let alone English. Determined though, he found an English to Japanese dictionary and translated the whole thing. It took him all day to read that small fairytale and while Hikaru wasn't really paying attention they were inseparable so he just stuck by as Kaoru tried to read this. I guess the amount of effort and pretty illustrations made an impact on his little autistic brain and so he became enamored with the fairy tale. He watched the movie in Japanese and then later in English to help him learn English. The Cinderella movies in English actually really helped him learn the language faster funnily.

Hikaru, while supportive in his cinderella special interest, pokes fun at him for it a lot and soooometimes can get really sick of hearing about it all. the. time. He loves his brother to death but man. just. sometimes he wishes there was a mute button. He lets him ramble usually tho and he finds it silly if not a little endearing most of the time. one time Kaoru found out Renge was a big fairy tale fan and she also liked Cinderella (a normal amount, not like he does) but still they struck up a veeeery long and complex conversation about it that Hikaru was lost in during the first 10 seconds and so he sat with Mori that whole time bc Mori is silent and he just...needed the silence right then and there...

during their birthday one year Hikaru (as a joke) got some Cinderella decorations which embarrassed Kaoru but made him incredibly happy. During the small party Kyoya noted that they had a "Lucifer" plush on the shelf (the cat from cinderella) which prompted Kaoru to go on a 20 minute ramble about how it's actually a rare 1999 run of the plush that he acquired at an auction and he told the whole history of its production line. Kyoya had. a lot to write in his book that day.

ALSO whenever hikaru pisses haruhi off. she goes and buys a discount bluray of a cinderella movies and gives it to kaoru as a gift. bc she KNOWS he will excitedly run home and go "look what haruhi bought for me let's watch it right now!!" and hikaru will have to sit through cinderella once again. and everytime. hikaru knows haruhi is doing this to piss him off. so he makes it a point to act cheerful about it and make kaoru think he's enjoying himself because He Will Not Let Haurhi Win.

ok. ive gone on long enough. my last addition will be said by my kaoru both here:

[jgvfhl]

The Dragon Prince s4e1 snuck onto YouTube???? Yesterday???? And THEY THOUGHT I WOULDN'T NOTICE????

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WELL THEY WERE RIGHT. WHAT THE FUCK. *vibrates with joy* spoilers below the cut altho it's nothing the sneak peeks didn't already hint at....

Soren my dearest, I would die for you. I would actually die for you.

Soren: *speaks*

Corvus: good gods of xadia grant me fucking patience....

Soren: *STARTS FLOSSING*

Corvus: *facepalms so hard he may have a concussion*

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Damn. Claudia has um..... wow that new trauma looks great on you hon... um... yikes. Nothing like some sparkly new horrors and agonies to start a conversation with your emotionally distant, manipulative, newly resurrected father....

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JANAI AND AMAYAAAAAA JANAYAAAAAAAA 😭🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 FUCKING GAY AS SHIT HOLY FUCK YEEEAAAH

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TEMPORARY aliveness. My favorite kind!!! Especially for Viren :)

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Soren and Corvus are really stalling Callum by getting him to infodump on the mirror so he wouldn't crash his own surprise party 😂

AND IT WORKED!!!! Bless them.

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Literally hoping Viren just has a conniption and dies bc of Terry dating Claudia tho. That will be hilarious. I just want him to die racist about.

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ABC's of Sex with Jake Lockley

pairing: Jake Lockley x gn!reader (mentions of Marc and Steven x reader)

warnings: SMUT. Handcuffs, bondage, papí kink, sex toys, dom! Jake, sub!bratty! reader, mentions of trauma and Marc's mom and the abuse she dealt, marking, choking, sadism, masochism, spitting cum into one's mouth bc Jakey is a nasty boy, hair pulling, edging, overstimulation, and overall Jake being a kinky motherfucker.

summary: a headcanon style fic of the different aspects of sex with Jake Lockley

a/n: again, I don't have DID myself, but I have done research into the topic and have tried to keep it accurate to real life as well as the show. That being said, I can still get things wrong, so please call me out if there's any harmful stereotypes or misinformation in my writing. I also apologize for my Spanish, I am not a native speaker and while I am in the process of learning it, I'm still a beginner in the language, so if there's anything wrong, tell me so I can correct it.

dividers by @firefly-graphics

Spanish translations: (in order of appearance) ▪︎Tan bueno/beuna para mi, cariño. Te amo mucho= So good for me, dear. I love you so much.

▪︎Mi amor= my love

▪︎ Buenos días= good morning

▪︎Mi príncipe/princesa= My prince/princess

▪︎Mierda= shit

▪︎Verde= green

A=Aftercare

(what he's like after the deed)

Early into your relationship with Jake, for his aftercare, he would hand the body over to Steven, letting him take care of you. You were hurt, but you knew enough about Jake to let it go. You knew that he was protective of the boys. What you didn't know is how protective he was of you and how he was afraid you'd leave him because he wasn't good enough. Eventually, you got him to open up, since then he is so gentle with you during aftercare. He's his you as if you were the most delicate flower, whispering praises in Spanish. "Tan bueno/beuna para mi, cariño. Te amo mucho." You pepper kisses across his face and a blissed out smile forms across it.

B=Body part

(favorite of his and favorite of yours)

Jake is very confident in himself, at least looks wise. He knows how attractive he is and uses it to his advantage. His favorite is probably his shoulders and back. He loves how you hold on to them for dear life and he fucks you into the mattress. He loves when you scratch your nails down his back, leaving marks that he smirks at in the mirror for days.

He loves every single inch of your body, and if you would let him, he'd mark every single inch of it. But his favorite is probably your neck. He loves squeezing it when your right on the edge to completely throw you off of it. He loves how good his hands look around it. He also loves marking it, along with you collar bones and shoulders. He loves that really sensitive spot that makes you bend to his will. Anytime you were a necklace, he's complementing it before adding something along the lines of "my hands would look better, mi amor."

C=Cum

(where, how much, what he's like, etc)

Jake, like Steven also blows huge loads. He loves cumming on your face, loves how you'll take a finger, swipe some up and swallow it. "My greedy whore just can't get enough, huh?" Some of it will drip down your chest, and Jake, being the nasty, perverted fucker that he is will lick it off of you before kissing you deep, the salty flavor filling both of your mouths.

D=Dirty secret

(what was he hiding from you until you found out yourself?)

Jake hid absolutely nothing from you sexually. If he wanted something, he told you. He was not ashamed about anything he was into; however, what you weren't let in on until later into the relationship was his soft side. The side that Jake almost never showed to anyone besides little kids and cats. Jake loves cats and he would die for them, so when you got him a cat after finding out, that was when he started showing his soft side with you. He would wake you up with breakfast in bed, humming a little tune. "Buenos días, mi príncipe/princesa, did you sleep alright?" He would feed his cat, as well as Steven's fish for him, making sure the fish tank was properly closed as he didn't want to deal with having to get a Gus III. You always made sure to appreciate his domestic side and not take it for granted, as you knew how vulnerable he felt doing it.

E=Experience

(how much/ little does he have?)

Jake doesn't have a high body count, as he's the one out the least, but he knows exactly what he's doing. He is the master of control and knows exactly how to bring you to release. He even knows all of your most sensitive spots from watching Marc and Steven have their way with you.

F=Favorite position

(self explanatory)

Jake is the kind to put you in as many positions as possible, finding what feels best. He loves having you tied up, spread eagle, or ass up with your face down and arms behind your back, he also loves putting your knees on his shoulders and fucking you like there's no tomorrow. Jake is the one to try all the funky position you see in those sex positivity websites.

G=Goofy

(is he more goofy or serious in bed?)

Jake is the most serious out of the three, in fact you don't think you've ever seen him laugh in bed. He will crack a smile, but it's typically one of those dirty smirks that makes you weak in the knees.

H=Hair

(does the carpet match the drapes?)

Jake is typically the one that shaves, which annoys Marc and Steven who have to deal with the regrowth. Jake just likes the way it looks more with it shaved, but he finally came to the agr with Marc and Steven to just keep it trimmed and he would be allowed to shave it for special events. And boy did he take advantage of what "special events" meant. You had a long week at work? That calls for a special event weekend. Had it been a year since the first time you held his hand? Special event. Marc and Steven would be annoyed anytime Jake even mentioned a special event.

I=Intamacy

(what is his version of intamacy?)

Jake used to be almost completely shut out from you. He didn't trust you at first, worried that you were going to hurt the boys, he was their protector after all. He was physical manifestation of all the abuse Marc suffered through as a kid. He only became more resentful after seeing how Steven was often treated by Donna. He even got mad at Marc a couple times for being so mean to Steven. But he was the protector of them both and he would do anything for them. So after seeing how much you cared for them, he started longing for that from you too. He wanted to wake up holding you in the mornings. He wanted to feel your hand glide across his stubble before pulling him in for a kiss. He wanted your hugs, the ones that made the boys' problems melt away. You would let him have all of that and more if be would only let you. The two of you started off small, giving him quick pecks on the cheeks before you left for work, or a "be safe," before he left for his cabbie work. It eventually blossomed into a very intimate relationship with Jake. At first, he hated how soft and gooey he felt around you, but now, he wouldn't trade it for the world.

J=Jack off

(how, when, where, why does he jack off, if he does?)

Jake almost never jacks off now that he has you. Unless it's you giving him a hand job, he has no care to jack himself off. But if the two of you are apart for extended periods of time, he'll send you videos of him touching himself just because he knows how much you love it.

K=Kinks

(what's he into?)

Jake is a kinky bastard. He loves hearing you call him Papí. In fact, he won't let you cum until you're screaming it. He has definitely gotten you in trouble with the noise complaints. He's into bondage and he loves edging you. But as soon as you're crying, begging to cum he will make you cum until you physically can't anymore. He loves marking you, showing everyone that your his. Be loves choking you and pulling your hair, and he also loves having his hair pulled. He's a sadist and a masochist. He loves giving you the pain that you so desperately crave, but he also loves when you dig your nails into him or pull his hair while he's between your legs. He's also into spitting in your mouth or spitting on your privates and using it as lube while he opens you up. While all three are pretty kinky, he's proud to claim the title of the kinkiest.

L=Location

(where's his favorite place to do it?)

Jake agrees with Steven on the plain old bed, but Jake makes it anything but plain. He loved that he can put you in almost any position he wants on the bed. He also likes fucking you against the wall, or holstering you up on the kitchen counter and fucking you on it, to which Steven was a bit upset about as food goes there until he tried it for himself. He was no longer mad at Jake after that.

M=Motivation

(what gets him going?)

Jake can turn almost anything dirty. Shower? He's coming with. Cooking? No need because his favorite meal is you. Getting dressed? Nope, the clothes will just come off anyway. You can't do anything without it at least being turned into a dirty joke. All you have to do to get him going is just exist and he's all up on you.

N=No

(what are his limits?)

Jake doesn't have a lot, he'll just agree with Marc on this one about the nasty bathroom stuff. The shat or vomit or whatever is just several steps past his limits.

O=Oral

(is he a giver? a taker?)

While Jake almost always makes sure both happen everytime you have sex, he prefers you sucking his dick. He loves edging himself with your mouth. He'll grip your hair a guide you until he's right there before stopping you. He whispers curses in Spanish as he catches his breath and comes back down only to start the process over until your jaw is sore and voice is gone.

P=Pace

(how fast, slow, rough, or gentle is he?)

Jake takes things hard and fast. Even if he stats out slow, it ends with him taking what he needs and fucking you into next Sunday. Sometimes, he'll end it slow as well, after he cums, he'll just grind into you as a way to ground himself and you, and more often than not he's able to squeeze one more orgasm out of you.

Q=Quickie

(how's he feel about them?)

Jake, like Steven, is not a big fan of quickies as he prefers to take his sweet time building you up, edging you, and finally letting you get that sweet release. Only rarely do you have quickies with Jake. And everytime you do "have a quickie," you'll have to pry him off you because he's gonna want to go for another round.

R=Risk

(is he willing to get a little risky during the frisky?)

Jake is the risk taker. He's always researching what new things can be tried out in the bedroom. He goes through article after article to find new positions, new toys, new places or ways to have sex. He loves taking a risk or two if it means you find something you like.

S=Stanima

(How long can he go for?)

Jake is the kind of stanima, edging you for what feels like hours, only to then overstimulate you until you are a babbling mess with tears streaking your face. The only coherent words are Jake, Papí, and please. He loves edging himself as well. He'll eat you out and grind himself into the bed until he's right there then stop. He can make sex last as long as you can handle it.

T=Toys

(does he own any for himself? for you?)

Jake loves toys and uses any extra tips he gets from cabbie driving to spend on you. And another of that spending goes to buying whatever new sex toy he found. And almost always, it heightens both of your experience. Vibrators, cock rings, vibrating cock rings, gags, handcuffs, blindfolds, paddles, dildos. He even got a clone-a-willy and gifted it to you. (Which was also a "special event" that he just had to shave for.)

U=Unfair

(is he a tease?)

Jake is a tease. He'll get dressed in front of you, and watch your pupils dilate and notice how your legs squirm. "Like what you see príncipe/princesa?" He'll give you head before you leave for work, but not let you cum. So all day you're just thinking about him, about his touch. He doesn't even have to be present to tease you. He'll send you pictures of himself in the shower, videos and audios of him moaning and jacking off. He makes sure to not let himself cum either though, saving it all for you. Once home, he'll only give you the lightest kisses, the softest touches, even though he knows you need so much more. He has you begging before he's even really touched you.

V=Volume

(how loud or quiet is he during the hanky panky?)

He used to be much quieter, but now he let's out all his groans, grunts, and dirty, degrading praises. "Such a good slut for me, yeah? Stuffed full of my cock and still begging for more." You squeeze him tight at his words. "Mierda, you squeeze me so tight, almost can't move, feel that good, huh?" All you can do in nod as you whimper at his harsh pace. He's been the cause of a couple of noise complaint to your flat.

W=Wild card

(Random headcanon about him. Go!)

You hadn't meant to smart off to Jake, you really hadn't. You were just snappy and honestly in a mood to mess with him. Maybe you had meant to smart off to him. "I'm home, mi amor," Jake had said, closing the door behind him. He went to sit on the couch with you, snuggling up next to you. You let him, but when he asked you to hand him the remote, you questioned him. "So I can turn on the TV, amor. Unless you wanted to watch something?" You just looked at him. "I still don't see why I should. Why don't you get it yourself?" Jake frowned, unsure of where the attitude had come from. "What’s wrong cariño? Talk to me, I'm here." He kissed your cheek. You turned and looked him dead in the eyes with a smirk on your face. "Make me." Jake was taken aback for a moment. "Oh, so you want to play, hmm? You wanna act like a brat when I just wanna give you my love?" He picked you up, bringing you to the bed. "You'll see what happens to brats, stay still. If you move, you're gonna make it worse on yourself." He bent down to grab the box of toys from under the bed. Now it was getting interesting. You decided to keep the act going just a bit longer. "Or what? What are you going to do about it?," You said moving from the position he put you in. He shot up. "What did you say to me?" The look on his face had you squirming and you could feel yourself leaking in your underwear. "You wanna know what I'm going to do about it?" You shrugged. "Here’s exactly what I'm going to do," He said grabbing the handcuffs from the box. "First, I'm going to cuff you, you're not going to touch me until I say, you understand?" You nodded, knowing that you were now in a deep enough hole that you dug for yourself. He picked up the gag and examined it. "If I hear one more bratty word from you tonight, you're getting this," He said, putting it on the night stand for a possible later use. He grabbed the blindfold from the box as well as a vibrator. That was the last thing you saw before he put the blindfold on you. "Here’s what you're going to do: you're gonna lay down, legs spread and hands above your head. No touching me or I get the ropes, understand?" You nodded again, not trusting your words to not be bratty. "Let me hear you," Fuck. "Yes, Papí, I understand." You heard the vibrator turn on. "Good boy/girl/baby." He brought it to your clothes nipples, the vibrations were low, but with the blindfold your other senses were heightened. You let out a small whimper, trying your best to stay still, not wanting to fall into the temptation of touching him. He dragged it over your stomach before lifting your shirt up. He kissed your tummy, leaving soft marks that would fade shortly. "What’s your color, cariño/cariña?" You wanted to badly to buck your hips into him as he got closer to them with the toy. "Green- verde," You responded. He hummed an affirmative before unbuttoning your pants. "Look at these undies, such a pretty baby. You were planning this, weren't you? If you want to be punished, you can always ask," He said, kissing where your stomach and crotch meet. He pulled them off, leaving your bottom half bare. "Oh, look at that baby, so ready for me and I've just started." He dragged the vibrator to your thigh, causing you to shudder. "Please, Papí, I'm sorry-" You whined. "Oh no, you don't get out of this that easy, mi amor. You wanted this after all, didn't you?" It was true, he had you all figured out. He finally brought it to where you needed it most and upped the setting. You arched your back into it, moaning at the pleasure. He let you grind into it until you were right there. Right on the edge of a cliff you wanted so badly to throw yourself off of. He snatched it away, not allowing you release just yet. "Uh-uh, precioso/preciosa, you have to be good to cum. Maybe if you can show me how sorry you really are, I'll let you."

(definitely didn't go a little overboard with this one)

X=X-ray

(what's going on down there?)

They all share the same, beautiful thick cock with the almost purplish head. Most likely cut due to Marc's Jewish roots.

Y=Yearning

(how horny is he?)

Jake is the horniest of the three. He will fuck you until he can't move anymore, but the minute you suggest a shower he's up and ready for round two. Then possibly a round three when you're out of the shower. And maybe a little bit of oral for a light round four. He loves fucking you, he loves making love to you. He is just so attracted to you and in love with you. He wants you as much as you'll let him have you.

Z=Zzz

(how fast does he fall asleep after the deed?)

He's not really the one to ever fall asleep with the body, usually Steven is the one that will front as you go to sleep, sometimes Marc, but rarely Jake. Though on the nights that he does take the body to sleep, it's almost never right after fucking you. He loves taking care of you and letting you take care of him after sex. You'll hold his face and rub your thumb along his cheek. "You're so pretty." You say, giving a gentle kiss to his nose. "Pretty, huh?" You nodded, "So pretty. Gorgeous lashes, gorgeous nose, gorgeous cheekbones. Definitely pretty." He let out a small chuckle, "I'll take it," He said before kissing you deeply with passion. Once the both of you were taken care of, he would lay down and hold you tight to his chest, a protective gesture you always loved. You wrapped your arms around him as well, giving him the protection that he always gave, but never received. Yep, he definitely had a soft side for you.

[alreadyblondenow]

The morning and evening star | Johnny Suh

Johnny Suh x female!Reader  

▸ too much fluff, too much smut, angst, prince of Egypt AU, slave reader ▸ Part of NCT Historical AU Collaboration hosted by @puppywritings ▸ In ancient Egypt, the Pharaoh is referred as “Morning and Evening Star”

Summary: Fighting the battles for his kingdom and for his ill father, Johnny, a prince of Egypt was given a beautiful gift the night before a great war starts. The given gift, which is you, gave the prince a very hard time but soon your heart softened the moment you allow yourself to get to know him. As you both fall in love sooner than expected, you thought that Johnny will give you your freedom but he can’t because that means letting you go. Johnny treated you as a gold and you became his most precious jewel. He kept you inside the palace, gave you a place to paint on and kept you in his life for as long as he can. But not long enough. 

Word count: 8,441k Warnings: Smut, Smut, Smut, its a Johnny fic what do you expect?, mentions of slavery (if that bothers you, please click away), mentions of blood, mentions of death, mentions of sadness, self doubt, possessiveness, unprotected sex, oral sex (female),  rough sex, slight exhibitionism, fingering, mentions of bruises, spitting. Mentions of other idols, and Johnny’s parents. Pregnancy, (if that bothers you please click away), mature themes, murder, family betrayal, mentions of gods bc hello its Egypt A/N: Pure fiction. Inspired by my favorite movies that I grew up watching with my family during family movie nights.. haha. (Troy, prince of Egypt, Exodus: Gods and kings, Tangled, and Gods of Egypt) 

Taglist:  @doyounglover  @puppywritings  @commentgirl @mischiefmakerliesmith5  @wonderfulkoreanpop  @ethaeriyeol @suhpersonic @sunshinedhyuck @sighreal @jb-hope94​ 

To William, thank you so much for this wonderful collab! I’m lucky enough to join last minute and I hope this fic gives justice to your wonderful collab. Thank you so much! 

On a beautiful quiet night in Egypt, under the dark sky that's full of stars, a young prince is out on the terrace to look at his kingdom and admire it even with the slightest light. The moon shines beautifully and so he expects that that is a good sign that the night will be even more beautiful.

A royal banquet is waiting for his presence. Another gathering where the richest families in Egypt wish the young prince to bring peace, victory, and finally put an end to this war against the enemies.

“I can already feel the weight of my father’s crown mother, what should I do?” Johnny asks his mother as they accompany each other to the royal banquet.

“You do the right and wises thing, my son. Be a better pharaoh than your father,” his mother advises. Caressing his son’s face before they enter the room and telling him to have long patience with the ignorant people who are going to have a word with him tonight.

When everyone welcomed both the prince and the royal wife, they all cheered happily, shouting and howling for the prince while the blaring sounds of percussion and tambourine started playing. Men and women were always mesmerized by Johnny’s perfect built, architects and sculptors are dying to make him their inspiration and make him a big statue. Even the beauty of every gold he’s wearing in his body right now has no match for his natural handsomeness and godlike features.

“My son, who has fought many battles for me over my reign since I was declared ill, will be the one who will lead you to peace and victory,” he pats Johnny’s shoulder before he continues and looked to his assistants. “So before a great war starts tomorrow, I present to you this gift,” he nods and signals his assistant to bring it in.

And when people started to make way for the gift, loud grunts, and nonstop whining were heard across the room… while the people just watched the guards drag her in to be presented to the prince. “Amusement my prince,” one of the assistants says and pushed her further in front of the prince.

Johnny then lowered himself to check the gift that's been presented to him. Left and right he turned the girl’s face to admire it, and when he finally smirked because he liked the gift, the girl spits on his face. Loud whispers of shocked people surrounded the room, telling the girl that she has no respect for the prince of Egypt. Of course, Johnny can’t let his people see that it’s alright for a slave to disrespect him, and so he did something… something he’s not going to be proud of but will surely wow the people watching.

He grabbed a glass of wine, drank a mouthful and spit it on the girl’s face in front of everyone, and poured the remaining wine from his cup on her clothes. “Be careful slave” the prince says, pointing a finger that has a big golden ring around it to remind her who she’s talking to. “Dry her off and lock her in my room. Go,” he commands and the guards responded immediately.

The royal banquet carries on without even bothering further about the slave. Everyone drank delicious sweet wine, chattered nonstop about their richest and the things they desire in life and bid the prince of Egypt good night before they all went home.

But even though the night carried on as it should be, his mind can’t stop reminding him about the awful thing he did earlier. And so after the royal banquet, he asked for a tray of fruits and brought it to his room… for you.

Behind the thin curtains of his bed, he sees your silhouette and shook his head as a sign of disappointment to himself before he apologizes to you. He joined you in bed, sat so far away but still, he saw that no one tended to you, that no one helped you or even gave you dry clothes. “Why must you disrespect me like that?” Johnny left the question as he disappears for a minute and returned with a damped cloth and his sleeping robe. He hands it to you because he wouldn’t dare touch you without your permission, but instead of accepting the kindness that the prince is giving to you, you rolled your eyes at him, sat up and kept your distance.

“I’m sorry” he whispers but you heard it. “I may be a fool or I act tough in everyone’s eyes, especially my father’s but my mother did not raise me like that,” he added and reached for the damped clothed and came near you. Johnny wiped your face carefully like he is not the future pharaoh of Egypt and humbling himself for you.

After cleaning your skin, you shamelessly removed your clothes in front of him and looked straight into his eyes to search for lust and to finally finish this long night. And just like those men and women, architects and sculptors who lusted over his body, Johnny… lusted for you.

If you strip away every gold in Johnny’s body tonight, you will see goosebumps around his skin. He very much wants to have you tonight and pleasure himself but he still feels very guilty about what he did earlier. Almost as if he felt that he’s not worthy of you.

“If I give you pleasure tonight and have me as much as you want and as many as you like, will you free me?” you ask crawling near him wearing nothing but a cheap necklace. The prince then caressed your face, traced the curves of your body while looking directly into your eyes, showing you that he wanted to accept your offer so bad but not tonight.

“Tempting. But tonight, you rest” he says softly, trying so hard not to kiss you down the mattress and hurt you so good for the whole night. But even though he would rather do filthy things to you, he reached for his robe and made you wear it to bed. “May I be forgiven before I sleep tonight?” he says, smiling weakly and pushing you slowly to the mattress. He sat next to you while waiting for your answer.

“Only if you forgive me from what I did”

He chuckled and got up from the bed to leave you finally so you could get your rest. “Then it's settled. Let’s start again tomorrow when I come home… if… I’ll still be alive” he says, and left a sweet smile.

They say that men who will go to war the next day never get a peaceful sleep not unless they exhaust themselves from pleasure and eventually sleep like a baby. And that’s when you realized that the prince of Egypt sacrificed his sleep for you. Now you feel even more guilty because you took away his very chance to sleep peacefully for the last time… if he dies in battle tomorrow.  

But for Johnny, knowing that he put a decent woman in bed and earned her forgiveness is better than pleasure or getting to enjoy lust before a battle. You were sleeping like a baby, he thought. The whole night he sat on the chair beside his bed, guarding you, and admiring you. Until the sun finally showed up and it's time for him to go.

The battle was bloody as expect but Johnny did not expect that their army will fall on the first day of the war. His soldiers needed to take him back to the palace and protect him from there, even though he wanted to fight until his dying breath. Not run like a coward and let his men die.

The soldiers brought him back safely, but Johnny was not pleased. He arrived at the palace furious and more than angry to his general that he yelled at the nurse who is supposed to treat his wounds and his maids to clean all the blood and dirt on his face and body. Johnny is hurt, physically but his pride is crushed, and that hurts even more than his wounds.

He was repeating the battle plan and their strategy in his mind over and over again to look for holes, to look for people to blame but he just can’t. Until eventually he fell asleep even though he’s in so much pain.

“You” the head of the nurses points at you, “you treat his wounds. Or else his majesty will die because of infection and it will be on your account “ she gave you the things you needed to treat a wound properly, complete expensive materials and ointments to heal the bruises faster but the problem is you don’t how to use them. You’re not stupid and you know a thing or two, but the person whom you’re about to treat is not just anybody, and that makes you nervous alone.

Quietly, you entered his room. It was cold and only a few candles are lit and you see his majesty curled up in a ball. Vulnerable, in pain, and suffering emotionally.

Before you even touch him, this scenario reminded you about his kindness the other night. How he touched you so delicately and how he wiped the traces of expensive wine on your skin so gently. Now it's your turn. You started by stripping off his armor, the golds, and silvers that protect him until he’s exposed with nothing but the minimal cloth that covers his manhood.

Carefully, you wipe away the dirt on his face until his handsomeness is visible again, closely you make sure you did not miss a spot and clean him well. Touching his big arms almost felt like you’re committing a great sin, his chest looked so strong even though it’s covered with bruises now which you’re going to take care of in a few minutes.

Then he wakes up and he sees you treating his wounds.  

Glad to see that it’s you who’s taking care of him because for some reason you make him soft. He let out a sharp sigh and in an instant, you were shaking for you thought he will shout at you. But no. “I think I may have a broken bone, can you help me get up?” he weakly asks you.

“O-of course,” you slightly panicked but you did your best to support him with all your strength.

“Give me some water,” he says and you followed, helping him drink so he wouldn’t move too much. "You know you’re not a maid here. You’re a gift. A gift to me” he says sternly like he wanted you to take his pride. “Thank you. For taking care of me in my vulnerable state, sleep beside me I’m in pain”

And without hesitation, you did. This time, it's you who’s guarding him to his sleep. Although it hurts you to watch him suffer like this, you didn’t have a choice but to further take care of him.

On the next day, the nurses treated him the right way and adjusted his broken bones which made him feel better in an instant. You thought you will be released by then because you’re completely useless to his majesty, but you realized that he’s only keeping you for his pleasure and nothing has happened between you two yet.

So in the meantime, you decided to make yourself useful and learn the basics of treating a wound and make sure you know exactly what you’re doing whenever his majesty feels any discomfort.

He healed for days. Did not speak for days. And still, he hasn’t touched you. Oh you wish he would already so you can guarantee your freedom. Your family should be worried by now and probably thinks that you’re already dead. You can’t help but think about your family, your ill father and your younger brothers who need you, in which you can only sigh as you think about it while you take a breather at the palace terrace.  

“I bring good news,” a voice disturbed you and your thoughts, “we are winning the war,” he said weakly.

“Ah. But you don’t sound so pleased? May I ask why?” you turned around to face the prince and slowly came closer to him.

“Because I am here resting and healing while my men fight in the war when I should be leading them” the disappointment in his voice is obvious. He pulled you closer to seek comfort, holding you by the waist and keeping himself calm by smelling your unique scent.

“Lead them once more when you’re healed. For now, rest so you can go in battle with them again. You’re next to your father, and if you die on that battlefield then who will lead us?” bravely you soothed his strong back, feeling him shiver once your fingertips made contact with his skin and your warm palm gives him great calm.

“You remind me of one specific person,” he says, and you wonder if it's one of his lovers, “you remind me of my mother. Who is a great queen of Egypt” and right then and there you feel guilty for judging a loving son who respects his mother so much. Hearing those words from him made you happy and proud of yourself because now you feel useful.

He pulls away from his soft embrace and looked deeply into your eyes, asking for permission to do something to you but he’s not saying anything. It’s his eyes who are doing the talking. “You may,” you said and let out a nervous giggle before the prince finally planted a kiss on your lips.

A kiss that’s wet and quick but made your whole body warm and you wish he would kiss you a little longer but who are you to request?

“I’ll take you somewhere private,” he said when he stopped the kiss and smirked.

And so in the middle of the night, you followed the prince to that private place he told you. Hand in hand you walk in the dark, exchanging whispers when you ask him something and he answers you.

“Close your eyes” he whispers and you followed immediately. Feeling him walk away for a few seconds and then he’s right behind you, feeling him motion you towards somewhere. And when you opened your eyes, what you just saw took your breath away.

A sky full of stars shining brightly and beautifully. You can’t take your eyes off of the sky because you’ve never seen anything like this and even though your neck already feels tired from looking up, you look a little bit longer and savor this very moment. “So this is where the prince of Egypt go whenever he’s tired? I assume?” you asked, smiling like a fool because you’re still mesmerized.

“Yes. This is where I think, hum a few songs, and be myself. No judging eyes, no wars- it’s quiet right? The only part of the palace where it’s really quiet. When I become pharaoh my room will be placed here and I will curse who dares to ruin my peace” he giggles to himself and points at the nearly done construction. The future bedroom of the new pharaoh, big, lavish, and peaceful. It suits him.

“I’m so tired of worrying and thinking about the future” he admitted weakly, closing his eyes and resting his head on yours. Embracing you from behind and caging you with his strong arms. Of course, this bold move made you nervous, the prince of Egypt is keeping you in his arms right now, who wouldn’t?

“Then you must rest,” you said and he only hummed and let out soft sighs.

“Can I have not only your lips but your whole being too?” he asked with the utmost care, careful not to offend you or make you feel like a whore. Then suddenly you feel his lips on your skin, cold lips that felt heavenly, soft lips that you imagine to be on yours. but he’s placing sweet kisses on your neck that made you gasp sharply, close your eyes and accept what he’s doing.

With heavy breaths and soft moans, you try so hard to let out a few words “Do you even need to ask? You’re the morning and evening star you should do as you please,” you croak.  

And because you have given him your consent, his kisses became intense that you’re sure you felt his teeth brush on your skin. And because of the pretty sounds that he’s making it is very much obvious that he is enjoying himself especially now that his big hands are roaming free around your body. Kneading your breast and telling you that they’re soft while his mouth is near your ear and he nibbles your earlobe as he pleases.

He twirls you and made you face him before he devours your lips once again, kissing you with want and with a mixture of lust while motioning you towards the huge bed. He sat on the edge of the bed, making you stand still in front of him, “Virgin?” he asked shamelessly, you shook your head 'no' shyly. “Shame” he added before he stands up and removes his robe, exposing himself to you. Now you understand why everyone in Egypt lusts for him.

Gently he runs his hands on your shoulder, untying the knot that secures your dress and letting it fall down at your feet. “Beautiful,” he says.

The night wasn’t exactly hot but the prince made you sweat in bed the whole night. He was careful but all the things that he did to you were rough, he was very stressed and tired indeed. The way he kisses you, the way he bites your neck and mark you his, the way he holds you in place while he thrusts so roughly. All you can do is whine deliciously, groan and let out sharp gasps and heavy breaths.

Again, he was rough but you loved everything that he’s doing.

“Last one and I promise to give you rest,” he said with ragged breaths. Lips on the side of your face while his big hands knead your breast from behind and preventing you to fall on the mattress. You arch your back as much you can so you can manage to take the overstimulation and sensitivity but the prince is fucking you good that your knees are about to give up.

When he is so close to his sweet release, he pushed your body on the mattress and slapped your left ass cheek one too many times before he pulls out and pumps his cock away from your hole.

Weak. Tired and aching. You curl your body and hug yourself as you wait for the prince to cover you with his warmth again. But not long after he came down from his sweet release, he is holding you by the ankle and the next thing you know he is hooking his arms around your legs, spreading your folds and running his fingers on your wet slit while watching you lose your mind and beg for him. His tongue was heavenly and he was licking you slow like he’s waiting for you to calm down and accept the pleasure that he’s doing. Up and down, he licked you slow and listened to you wherever you want him on a certain spot. And when you had your sweet release and let out a high pitched moan, you did not beg for him to stop and you chose to overstimulate yourself.

“You sleep in my arms tonight,” he says, kissing you sweetly before he lies beside you and spread one arm to keep you close.

Although you're both exhausted and tired from pleasuring each other, that is not the reason why you and the prince stayed up until the sun is rising. The whole time, he was playing with your fingers, caressing your body and feeling his fingertips glide on your skin while he listens to you. Listening and not just hearing you talk. He was keeping the conversation with you, throwing you a lot of questions, hard and easy ones. It was his first time knowing someone he fucked.

“Tell me more” he says, leaving a kiss on your shoulder as you enjoy your comfort while you lie on your side and admire his godlike features. He was asking for more stories about your childhood because he didn’t have one. He was giving you kisses in exchange for your stories that make him feel alive and present in this world.

“Are you not tired?” you asked him with a smile.

“Talk until I fall asleep” he drags you near him so he can cage you with his strong arms and keep you close until he wakes up. He closes his eyes and waited for you to talk again, drawing small circles on your back so you know that he’s still awake.

“Paint, I love to paint,” you said, and told him stories about how the colors make you feel alive and whenever you paint, you feel free. You were talking and talking and talking until you got too carried away and did not notice that he had finally fallen asleep and you decided you should too.

In his arms, you slept well and dreamt about home. You see how your family welcomed you home and their faces were clear as day, almost as if you’re not dreaming. Ever since the prince showed you kindness, you’ve been sleeping better and for that you are thankful. But for now, your beautiful sleep needed to be disturbed for a very sweet kiss woke you up.

“You smile in your sleep,” the prince says, greeting you good morning and seeing his naked body first thing in the morning. You sat up from the mattress and covered yourself with the Egyptian cotton blanket, squinting your eyes to protect it from the bright sun. “Good morning my gift,” he greets you again, caressing your thigh under the blanket. Oh its too early to commit sin but the way he makes you feel good with his finger is inviting. “Spread your legs,” he says, and so you did.

Up and down he moves his two fingers in your very wet slit, you almost feel sorry for ruining these expensive sheets with your juices, but what can you do? The prince wants you soaked. “You were so amazing last night that I dreamt about you,” he came closer to you and removed his fingers to join you under the blanket and position himself in between your legs.

“You had me under the stars last night, are you going to have me under the sun too?” You asked with a playful tone, giggling under the covers with him and enjoying the closeness of your body. He is a big man, but his warm body feels good on top of you. Skin to skin, chest to chest, while his manhood is inside you. “You’re rather gentle now,” you added, letting out a soft moan and smiling weakly at him.

“It’s too early to be rough” he smiles and grabs your waist, thrusting deeper while he kisses your neck and marks you wherever he wants especially on your chest area, or swipe his tongue on you and devour your sweet lips.

“Thank you, I still ache from last night” you inform him, returning his sweet kisses with a smile and soft giggle that is soon replaced with a delicious moan.

“Apologies then, what do you feel now?” deeper and slower he goes. Making you feel every bit of him by stretching you so good while he holds your hand and kisses them while he thrusts. “Not going to l-last longer” he says and gave you a few sharp thrusts, making your breast bounce then did not hesitate to pull out and pumped his manhood away from you, ruining the expensive sheets with his thick cum.

He feels so warm and weak, groaning while you watch him pump his cock in front of you. What a sight. The prince looked so hot. All naked and glistening as the morning light shines upon him. “Do you know it's a crime to stare at me like that?” He asks with a smile. It was a joke but you can’t help but think that you’re lucky enough to see him like this, to look at him with lustful eyes to hold him whenever it pleases you.

“W-were not yet done?” you ask when you saw him spreading your legs again, oh his stamina is unbelievable. He didn’t answer your question but instead, he kisses your lower abdomen and kissed your body and breasts until he reaches your lips. And there’s that feeling again that the world is stopping whenever his lips touch yours, you like what’s happening and you don’t care if you’re not home anymore. Or maybe that’s the lust talking.

“Where did you learn how to kiss like that” it was not a question, he just simply wanted to let you know that your kisses do something to him. And while kissing you, the prince felt something he has never felt before. He was quite sure that it’s called admiration and want. He is slowly becoming possessive with every swipe of his tongue on your lips, he is slowly falling into your charms with every touch of your hands on his chest and the way your hands roam around like he is yours.

“I know I promised your freedom but can you stay a little longer?” he kisses your hands and kept them close to his heart. A gesture that is saying he is requesting, asking politely, and leaving you the decision because he respects you.

“I’ll stay” you answered without hesitation because it is what your heart wants. He has been nice to you, although he needed to put an act first but his true colors were inviting. “With two conditions,” you added, stopping him from attacking you with kisses.

“No lies and don’t die whenever you go to war,” you said sternly to which he’s very happy to hear.

After that beautiful morning, you and the prince spend your entire day naked in his comfortable bed, enjoying the lovely weather of Egypt and its calm breeze. Talking and exchanging stories, knowing each other deeper and accepting each other through honesty.  

Then night after night the prince have you on every corner of his room or wherever he pleases. Making beautiful and lustful memories all around the palace. And whenever you’re both clothed and decent, he walks with you and shows everyone that you now have a special place in his life, something you’re never going to get used to but slowly it sinks in. You started dressing up in expensive clothes because he says so, giving you expensive jewelry all around your wrists and your neck. But most importantly, he is giving you more reasons to stay with him.

One fine day while you were waiting for Johnny with a book in your hand, he arrived very excited and was in a rush to bring you somewhere. Perhaps another secret place where he can fuck you? Or a surprise picnic? You really have no clue. But when you finally arrived at the place where he is very much excited to show you, every wild guess disappeared for you know exactly what the place is for.

Different colors of vibrant pigments, all came in different sizes. Paintbrushes from small to big ones made with soft hairs. And the canvas… is the place itself. “Johnny, this place is huge. I feel so small,” you said, feeling dizzy with how high the walls are but you are very much excited to paint on those.

“Paint all you want from now on, I know how you miss your home. I hope this will suffice” he gently pats your head, cup your face, and kissed you. “I have to go somewhere… dangerous again” he informs you, hoping to get a positive reaction from you.

Well, you can’t stop him and you know that all too well. You were quiet and if you’re being honest you don’t know what to say, but you do know that you want him to go home in one piece. “Remember your promise,” is all you can say to him.

“I won’t die” he giggles and intertwines your fingers with his.

When the prince left the next morning, you can’t help but worry for him and be scared that something bad might happen. But whenever you remember his bright smile when he promised you he won’t die, your heart warms instantly and you can finally get on with your day.

Using the gifts that the prince left you, you painted for hours and hours, from sun up until sundown. Sleeping on the floor next to the paints rather than the huge and comfortable bed because you can’t handle the cold there. And whenever you’re taking a rest from painting, you still spend your time alone rather than make friends and talk to the maids.

It was lonely when Johnny is not around. You don’t know when will he arrive, and worrying will do no good so you waited patiently instead. Day after day you did the same things. Paint, eat alone, be alone, paint some more and sleep on the cold floor.

Until finally, a pair of arms surprised you, encircled perfectly on your waist and you can finally feel that familiar warmth again. You put down the paintbrush and tried turning around to welcome him home with kisses but he stopped you. “I look filthy” he said, but you did not care and still turned around.

To your surprise, you almost did not recognize him. His face is full of dirt and blood, small and big bruises on his face but thankfully no broken bones this time. He was quiet. No sweet kisses for you and obviously he’s tired. “We both look dirty” he giggles and reached for your hand to wipe off the paint from it, “what you did here is beautiful” he said and pulls you to a hug which you returned without having second thoughts.

He recognizes your paintings. He is sure that it's from your home, memories from home to keep you happy perhaps. Johnny searched for anything or something that says you missed him too while he’s away, perhaps a sunflower? But he found none. Little did he know, that you missed him terribly too that you chose to sleep on the floor.

After your quick reunion, you washed his face, treated his wounds and decided to take a warm bath together. The silence was deafening and so you talked and talked until he finally says something.  

“Do I make you happy?” he asks sincerely while scrubbing your back and pouring warm water on your skin. Bathing with him brings you a different kind of calm. You nod your head ‘yes’ to answer his question, caressing his thighs underwater. Then you feel him kiss your neck softly and encircle his arms on your waist underwater.

“I’m setting you free” he says.

And those words made your heart ache in an instant that you turned and faced him with worried eyes. You should be happy by now because finally you can be free and see your family, but why are you sad? He just came back and now you’re going to be separated again?

“But” he added which made you nervous even more.

“It pains me to let you go. That’s why I promise to take care of you and love you day and night… if you choose to stay” you always see him as an honest and sincere man but now his sincerity is different. It has a mixture of hurt and hopelessness like he already knew you’re going to leave him that’s why he made such an offer and confessed in the middle of a huge bathroom and while taking a bath.

“A few months ago, I told you I’ll stay and that’s not because I’m doing you a favor but because I really wanted to stay with you. I’m still choosing to stay-“

He cut you off with sweet kisses until water splashed on you and him, there are tears in his eyes but it wasn’t visible because of the water. Happy tears that only you can give him.

And that is how your story with Johnny started. It started with doing what your heart wants with all honesty, choosing to love each other and stay together. After that very momentous bath, he became Johnny to you and not the prince of Egypt, but the man you chose to love from now on.

YEARS LATER    

Life with Johnny was never easy but it was full of love and he had kept his promise. Everyday, day and night he loved you more and more each day. And eventually, fucking was replaced by passionate love making which something you both love doing.

“So good” he groans and lets out soft moans while you bounce your body on top of him, driving him crazy and make him beg for more. You intertwined your fingers with his, sucking his fingers while your roll your hips deliciously. He can be rough with you in order to drive him mad, but you, you need only lustful eyes, your womanhood, and your tongue.

“Ooooh-“ he groaned a little louder than before and shoots his thick cum inside you while you drill your hips make sure you won’t miss a drop. “I hope you get pregnant this time” he said with ragged breaths, encircling his arms around you and placed sweet kisses on your face and on your lips.

You’ve been trying to have a child now but the gods are not in favor of it, so you and Johnny decided to try until you succeed. Usually, one round is not enough for the both of you but when you both realized that it’s going to be like this forever, there is no need to exhaust yourselves anymore because you can simply make love again tomorrow.  

“If you don’t mind me asking, how many babies are we going to have in the future?” your question made him laugh. The sound of his giggles vibrates on your body because you’re too close with each other and you can’t help but laugh with him too.

“A lot,” he simply answers your question and kisses you before he covers your body with a thicker blanket.

Life with Johnny is sweet, not because you’re now comfortable and he showers you with gold. But because he showers you with the love you deserve and he now takes care of your family too and even provided your father’s medicine. Even though you haven’t seen them in years, now they know that you’re in good hands for you write to them and let them know that you’re well. But for Johnny’s safety, you didn’t dare tell them that you are in a relationship with him.

It may be sweet and comfortable for you, but it is not always like this. Of course, there are hard times that you have to face with Johnny. Like when his advisors see you as his whore and not someone whom he truly loves, when his father did not accept you and almost took away Johnny’s right to the throne, and when you planned on running away so the people around him can stop doubting him as the future ruler. All these problems but Johnny chose you. Always.

“I love you”

He whispers and caressed your face while watching you sleep. Having one last look before he starts his day without you and faces yet another stressful day.  

Now that his coronation is getting near, many people have been seeking his attention and had been trying to rebel against him. He may be a great fighter, and he honors the throne, but the people around him do not see him as someone who can rule and solve the nation’s problems.

Heartbroken. That’s what he feels when he thinks about being king in the next few weeks.

“My uncle and cousins are active lately, seeking the people of Egypt’s hearts, courting them, and feeding them lies. My own family... is planning to overthrow me” he informs you. Frustrated and stressed beyond you could have ever imagined. It pains you to see him like this.

“I am no advisor. But be strong my love and still do your best to rule, prove them wrong” you encourage him, trying your best to give him strength. But all he gave you is a sly smile and a kiss on the forehead, leaving you to go and study more about the things he should know for his kingdom until eventually, you find him asleep on his desk. Shivering from a cold night and all you can do is put a blanket around him.

After a few weeks, Johnny is crowned king of Egypt. A celebration that’s very beautiful but you’re not allowed to stand near him because you’re a slave and people will recognize you. But you know all too well that Johnny imagines you being on his side.

They say that the crown is naturally heavy but if it weighs too much that even your heart can’t carry it, then you are not fit to rule. And that is exactly what Johnny feels right now, but trying is the most important thing for him. Running away from his duty is not him. He will continue to try and be a better pharaoh than his father.

“Where have you been?” you giggle and soothe his strong arms that are encircled around your waist. Accepting the kisses he’s giving to you for it has been far too long since the last time you’ve been together alone. He had been working hard for his nation, he looked tired than ever.

“It’s beautiful. You’re beautiful” he says while looking at the sunflowers you painted on the walls. A thousand sunflowers for the gods, in exchange for Johnny’s safety… or a child, if they permit. “I visited our room last night, but you weren’t there. I knew you were here but I needed to go already. I’ve missed you so much” he turned your body so he could see you finally, cleaning your hands full of paint with his own clothes. A gesture that simply tells you that whenever he’s with you he’s just a simple man who loves you so much and not the king of Egypt.

“I’ve been sleeping on the floor. I’m in a rush to finish this so I can finally offer something to the gods and they can grant me my wish” you rake his long hair away from his face.

“Now, now, that’s not how a future queen of Egypt should behave, my love” he smirked and you rolled your eyes, picking up the used paintbrushes and cleaning them.

Then you realized he said something.

“Say that again, my love” you request as you watch him come closer to you with a smile. “Was that a question? You never addressed me as someone-“

“Will you marry me? Be the queen of Egypt and become my wife? Be my best advisor, help me to be a better man?” he finally said it. Straight forward and will all honesty, as always.

“Y-yes. Of course, I would like to be your wife. But your people won’t allow it,” you answered excitedly. Eyes with tears that continuously flow. He cupped your face and thanked you for saying yes, not caring about your concern for he doesn’t care what others will say.

The celebration of being engaged is continued in your shared room with wine, fruits, hope, and dreams. It was a night a fun night with your future husband where you enjoy the company of each other after such a long time. Johnny made sure that you made the right decision and promised you a better life.

“What more could be better? We have everything already Johnny” you put a grape in his mouth before you lie beside him.

“What was your prayers to the gods again?” he asks, out of nowhere. To be honest you did not expect he would be interested. “Maybe I can give it to you instead?” he added and it instantly made your heart full.

“My first prayer is, for your safety wherever you go. Nothing scares me the most than knowing that wherever you go, your life is always in danger my love” he tightens his embrace, silently thanking the gods for bringing you into his life.

“And the second?”

You breathe deeply first before you answer him, “A baby… but your safety comes first” you said sternly, pointing at his chest and drilling your pointer finger on his skin so he knows how scared you are. He caught your hand and kiss it one too many times.

“I love you, I promise to be careful so we can make babies during our marriage,” he promised sincerely.

On the next day, Johnny’s first agenda was to tell everyone about the good news. At least its a good news for him, but not for everyone. His father, advisors and other members of the elite society were disappointed upon hearing that he wants to marry a slave.

When Johnny became king, all of Egypt starved. That’s why everyone thinks that being married to a slave and throwing a big wedding is not appropriate.

“Do you think I’m a pushover? I am the morning and evening star, your king, and I kept this nation together and kept it safe with all my power. You owe me your lives. And I am not seeking your approval, I am simply telling you that I am to be married to the woman I love. Besides, I don’t want to see your faces on my wedding day and ruined it for me”

Silence ate the room and only the sound of afternoon winds surrounds the room. “Dismissed” he commands and they immediately left, leaving Johnny alone with his thoughts.

The wedding was simple and private because it is what you wanted and thankfully Johnny is not a fan of grand celebrations too. You both thought that the gods will spare your wedding day and give you a peaceful day just this once. But no, because a murder took place in the palace and it happened while you and Johnny are enjoying your wedding night.

He is deep inside you, thrusting roughly but with care at the same time. Hands on your waist to keep you in position as he fucks you from behind and leave kisses on your shoulders.

You were moaning so good, while you grip the sheets and part your lips, telling your husband how you feel and beg for more.

Until his advisors entered the room uninvited and have no care for privacy. Johnny quickly covered your body and hid you behind him. “YOU HAVE NO RESPECT!” He shouted so loud that you were sure everyone in the palace heard him.

But still, his advisors did not move an inch and waited for him to stop shouting.

“Our king... y-your parents have been murdered”

And that is when everything turned black in Johnny’s eyes. He put on his robe, ran towards his parent's room and saw the gruesome murder.

He didn’t understand why but he was heartbroken and very much angry that he punished all the guards on duty that night and everyone staying at the palace except you.

Well, you wouldn’t think that you’re not being punished. You’ve been feeling sick for days already and you have been having morning sickness more often. Then you realized you haven’t bled yet and immediately called a nurse, a good friend whom you can trust to confirm if you are with child.

You are.

And that is your punishment. Knowing that your prayer has been answered but Johnny is grieving and is away from you. Not seeing your husband and knowing that he’s out there punishing people, punishing innocent people makes your heart break. Apparently, asking for a peaceful life is too much.

Finally, Johnny found out who plotted his parent’s murder. And it is no other than his cousins who wanted him to give up the throne. And because of that, his anger grew much worse. Now he does not only punish people but also put them to death for Johnny believes that he is being betrayed by the people around him.

It has become the darkest time in Egypt.

“The is the only place that I can show my weak and grieving side. I’m so tired, my love. This is not me but all of Egypt is mad and wants to kill me. What can I do?” You hush him and gave him a tight embrace which he accepted and returned. “Do you want to kill me too?” He asks you and you can’t believe you’re hearing this from him.

“Never. I did not paint a thousand sunflowers for the gods so that I can wish you to be gone” you sat on his lap and reached for his hand, putting it above your belly. Hoping that he understands what you’re saying.

He did. But he wasn’t happy.

And all you can do is understand him because he is going through so much right now.

“The gods must hate me so much to give us a child during these dark times” he said bitterly.

You didn’t have a choice but to get up from his lap and place a kiss on his temple. You may miss him. So much. But it is useless to have a conversation with someone who’s full of hatred towards the world.

“I’m sorry, my love. I’m blinded with anger” he tried reaching for your hand but you refuse and lie on your side of the bed. Closing your eyes and remembering the happy memories you had with him over the years.

“Do you know what’s on my mind?” you did not answer him, “I would like to give up the throne and live a simple and fruitful life with you but I can’t. Kings don’t run away from battles” he says. Keeping you close and leaving kisses on your clothed stomach. Chanting apologies and saying how much he loves you before you both sleep.

Day after day, Johnny became even more scared for you and especially for your child. Now that you have a chance to be a family, Johnny is even more obsessed with fixing everything using his own ways but everything is not going according to plan. The assassins weren’t satisfied yet and they have been killing innocent people that Johnny trusts. And his cousins won’t admit the crime that they have been doing for Johnny lacks proof. It frustrates him greatly.

Now that you’re with child he stays with you from sun up, to sundown. He doesn’t care if people are uncomfortable with seeing the king with a slave, all that matters now is your safety. He is scared to the bone that he carries his sword around him and does not go to sleep so he could guard you in your sleep.

“I used to do this during your first nights here. I guard you in your sleep and watch you smile as you dream. But that’s maybe because back then we have peace. I’m sorry I can’t give you a peaceful life”

As Johnny continues to think of many ways on how to protect you, he kept you hidden in your museum and watched you paint. It calms him. And as he looks around the place, he looked long and hard at your artwork and remember the days when you used to miss home. Then he realized that it is the only way to keep you safe. The only problem is you will not agree on it.

“You do know that when I leave and they found out that you’re all alone now, they will not stop until they kill you then take your throne” you said sternly. Hearing his plan about sending you home makes you angry and misses him already.

“As long as I fight until the end. The only way to stop them and keep you safe is to give them the satisfaction of killing me. No one knew about our child, please listen to me my love. This is the only way that I can give our child a peaceful life” he begs.

You don’t want to admit that he is right and you don’t have any other choice now. But leaving him pains you greatly, that even just thinking about it scares you.

Eventually, you and Johnny plotted your escape and made you go home safe. With the help of your family and a few soldiers, they managed to get you out of the palace without anyone noticing it. But you can’t let go of Johnny’s hand. You kissed and kissed until there's no more time left to be together. You said your goodbyes and final promises to each other and accept your fate.

“I’ll find you in our second life, whatever happens. Live my love, live happily” he says and removed your tight grip before he disappears with his soldiers. And that is your last memory of the man you loved.

It was the darkest moment for the both of you.  

Johnny knew that being away from you will not be easy and it will make him weak in an instant. In fact, it made him crazy. Everyday, he goes to your museum and seeks comfort with your paintings. Constantly thinks about you and pray that you are well and healthy.  

“Finally, you’re safe” he murmured.

After a few days, the news that the king is dead has spread all across Egypt and everyone celebrated. Everyone except you and the few people who knew the truth about the assassination in the palace. Hearing them celebrate sickens you for they don’t know how Johnny struggled to keep his nation alive and safe and that he is not the enemy, the true enemy is the one sitting on the throne now.

Hearing that he was assassinated in your museum broke your heart for you knew that he longed for you until his dying breath.

After all, the thousand sunflowers you painted for the gods did not go to waste. But it was your second wish that they granted and not the first.

[swinterr]

fic rec vi ♡

hi!

this is a another new set of fic rec and i’ll probably do a compilation of genre (?) just like the first ones.

made some changes like tidying up a bit and adding summary, for those that doesn’t have any summary i’ll try my best to add my own summary (it will probably be shit tho, i ain’t making a smut summary guys, i’m not confident in my describing a fic ability but i’ll try my best. if its in italic it means i made the summary hehez )  if the summary is shit, i made it okay.

read and support the fic and authors here: the fic rec ♡

a for angst

f for fluff

s for smut

// for series or list

nct 

jeno

no title by @tyongf-nct | s

- smut blurb.

body guards and boyfriend by @pastelsicheng | f

-  sometimes the only way you can really get some alone time with your boyfriend is by making his job hard.

lipstick smears by @kopikokun | f

-  jeno never thought trying to get his makeup artist’s attention would be this hard.

jaehyun

[10:30] by @moonttaeil | 

- a lockdown moment.

[2:40] by @nct-jungjaehyun | f a

- cute quality fluff time with bf!jae with a dash of angst.

[11:41] by @jeongvision | f 

- family time with apples.

just like magic by @starryhyuck | f s

-  jung jaehyun’s body count is almost as high as yours. however, after yuta spreads a nasty rumor, you learn that jaehyun’s always imagined those girls to be you instead.

love to hate me by @moonctzeny | s a 

-  you and jaehyun meet as sm trainees, developing a friendship until he debuts and you decided to leave the company and pursue a solo career. when you reunite again in a music show and he acts like he barely knows you, you stubbornly begin a series of hate-brimmed sex rendez-vous. your touch-and-go relationship continues on, until a song collaboration will force you both to deal with all your repressed feelings for each other.

moving on by @ddeonghwaa | f a

- reader has been chasing jae for some time but when she moved on jae suddenly enter the picture.

sun&moon by @ppangjae | f a

-  asking jeong jaehyun to accompany you to your family’s 1-week christmas vacation as your boyfriend has its consequences. one can surely get through 1 week of pretending to be in love with an enemy, right?

snack run with a snack by @kopikokun | f 

-  on your usual movie night with the members, they assign you sudden snack collecting duty. you’re a little peeved, but at least jaehyun offers to tag along. Unfortunately for you, things really aren’t going in your favour tonight.

lover boy by @neoct-zen | f s

- bunch fics of lover boy jae and reader.

jungwoo

one more time, please by @haequarius | f s

-  you don’t know what you and Jungwoo are, but you are certainly weak for him.

jealous by @whiplashsan | s 

-  jungwoo is all smiles and sunshine until he gets jealous, and he just so happens to get jealous over the smallest things when it comes to you.

doyoung

sugar, spice and everything not nice by @alreadyblondenow | s

-  doyoung getting your ring size wrong, unprotected sex, kitchen sex, slight fingering, wedding tragedies.

no title by @ncteaxhoe | s

- dom!doyoung, rough? i need holy water.

the little one by @ethaeriyeol | f 

-  a gift of life; female reader x husband!Doyoung; fluff, light angst, married au

lucas

exquisite taste by @weishenkonbini | s f

- smut but with a fluffy ending.

for you always by @labyrinthsofyou | f

-  in which you surprise yukhei when he forgets about your date.

6:19 by @cozykpopblurbs | f

- a cute fluff ft kun and winwin.

10:18 pm by @nctsoftarchives | f

- reader supports lucas at his superm debut stage. 

16:47 by @sichengssmile | f s 

- a fluffy smut. lucas a big boi.

missed you by @tokyobts | a f

-  after you and yukhei broke up, yukhei still has feelings for you. he reaches out to you at school and tries to get you back. at first you avoid him but later his actions manage to make your heart flutter. you’ve come to a sudden conclusion that you maybe still want him in your life.

johnny

34 + 35 by @domjaehyun | s 

- you and your husband johnny decide to take your marriage to the next step.

i couldn’t wait a little longer by @alreadyblondenow | s f a

-  you two were never together longer than two days, but the feelings, oh the feelings that you have for each other is clear as the day. it was a never-ending try of making the relationship official. johnny tried, you tried but it never happens.

what happens in korea, not stays in korea by @alreadyblondenow | f s 

-  a week vacation in korea for your sister’s wedding became even more exciting when a famous dj had a crush on you. johnny was sure that it’s love at first sight. not putting both of your careers on the line, you two had no regrets when the time comes and you finally leave.

laundry day by @immabiteyou | s

- a domestic fluffy smut.

make a wish by @sluttyten | s f a

-  you’re jungwoo’s sister, and he’s made it clear he wants you and Johnny to have nothing to do with each other. so you and johnny start fake dating to piss him off.

want it all by @sluttyten | f s 

-  you are entirely innocent to the point of being naive. johnny is not innocent, but he loves that you are because it means he can teach you everything you don’t know.

sungchan

wish i was her by @softsungchan | f a 

-  you wished you were her, laying in Sungchan’s arms and feeling his warm breath on your neck, giggling about sweet nothings whispered into the starry night. You wished for it to be you, the girl he liked.

2:21 am by @the32ndbeat | f 

- sungchan being whipped, thru a text message.

haechan

14:52 by @ukiyoexo | f

- a cute haechan and reader ft the reader’s baby sister moment.

prince’s order by @nsheetee | f

-  prince haechan nurses you after you faint, and orders you to stay with him until you feel better.

sweet treat by @markresonates | s

-  haechan takes you for ice cream but all you can think about is sex with him.  when you act like a brat, eventually you end up in the bathroom. with no panties. 

clingy by @love-mi | f 

-  I’m not clingy! I just love your company and constantly want to be around you and have your full attention at all times

mark

hyuck is always right by @luvrenjun00 | f 

- ceo!mark x reader ft baby donghyuck. a tooth-rotting fluff.

taeyong

snow storm by @whereisten | f s 

- a fluffy smut whilst a snow storm.

1:59 by @smoll-tangerine | f

- reader and taeyong ft my favorite game (where i always die first) among us!

bts

taehyung

is this allowed 1 2 by @seokiie  | f s

- how were you supposed to know bts would be filming at your coffee shop today? how were you supposed to know a certain curly-haired boy would take a liking  to you?

cabin pressure | f by @jiminrings | f 

-  pilot!y/n who accidentally became famous bc of a viral post about her, best friend!jimin!, taehyung having a shy lil crush on you aND ot7 being meanies for a tad bit :((

art major!tae and biochem major!yn | f by @jiminrings | f

-  tae’s cold and probably needs a friend more than he needs a model, y/n feels this nEED to take care of him, a term of enderment then a dash of emotional constipation and a sprinkle of jealousy :D

gank mid lane by @kimtaehyunq | f s 

- gank / verb: (in a video game) use underhand means to defeat or kill (a less experienced opponent)

birthday surprise by @ephemeralkookie |

-  like every year, you prepare a little surprise for your boyfriend’s birthday, one that you’ve been preparing for days. and after a very tiring day, taehyung only wants to spend the night in your loving arms.

jungkook

cookies & cream | s by @1kook | f s 

-  jungkook will watch a thousand cheesy christmas movies if it meant making you happy. (and maybe having his dick sucked.)

unholy night | s by @ephemeralkookie | f s

-  after a christmas day passed with the Jeon’s family, Jungkook decides to transform the holy night into an unholy one.

‘a short’ abstinence | s a by @seokiie | s a

-  maybe blue-balling you boyfriend (who has an insanely high sexual drive) wasn’t the best.

in which she’s done with him by @minstrivia | a

-  jungkook angst/fluff where he always pushes oc away (who confesses her feelings but was cruelly rejected) and insults her but she always comes back to take care of him when he’s drunk or picks him up from his one night stands and she finally decides to leave him alone.

bad influence by @noteguk | s 

-  in which you know jungkook is a bad influence on you, but you can’t avoid falling for him every time.

jock!jk and shy art major!yn by @jiminrings | f

-  established relationship ft. jock!jk and shy art major!y/n, y/n gets an unexpected pep talk and jungkook doubts himself, and either so much tears or so much dUST according to kook

special affair by @1oserjk | f

-  sugar daddy au except it’s just jk spoiling u thru animal crossing

fairy of shampoo by @ironicarmy | f s

-  sundays are for relaxation, house cleaning, and happiness.

abstract ft bob ross by @mimithings97 | f

-  paintbrush in one hand, joint in the other and you sitting on his dick is what jeongguk wants. and what jeongguk wants, jeongguk gets.

badboy!jungkook by @jungshookz | f 

- badboy!jungkook falls for good girl reader ft the boys and the reader’s apple. 

growing by @lesgetittkookie | f

- dad!jungkook teacher his daughter how to walk. super super cute family/domestic fluff.

quiet, baby by @bratkook | s 

- i don’t how to write a summary on smuts so imma just put this. reader and jungkook doing something in the subway.

still want that by @whatifyoulivelikethat | s

-  fucking min yoongi ex-girlfriend? a terrible idea. being hopelessly in love with her at the same time? an even worse idea. knowing he was being used and still doing it anyway? ah, Jeon Jungkook, what are you doing? part 2 of savage love.

desiderium by @jeonggukingdom | f s 

-  “we’ve been at it like rabbits, how are you still so horny?”. a newlyweds!au smut.

chapstick by @softyoongiionly | f s

- based on the time Jungkook said he needed someone to scold him so he’d remember to put lip balm on. or jungkook’s had a really long day and the only that can make it better, is seeing you. 

lover boy by @jingukk | f 

-  jungkook likes you. a lot.

unexpected confession by @sunkissedjk | f

-  you gathered up the courage to confess your feelings, but it seems everyone in school knows about it before you could even find him.

string attached by @ephemeralkookie | s

-  jungkook is what we can call your sexfriend. No strings attached, just you and him having fun and releasing the huge pressure and stress of being idols. But after spending an entire day together, you realize that maybe he’s not just your sexfriend.

no title by @himbojk | f s 

- dilf jk.

astro

eunwoo

ceo!eunwoo by @m0onbean

no title by @yutopiada | f

- a cute idol!reader and eunwoo moment at a music show.

disney by @bangchan-sonyeondan | f

- a cute date with eunwoo at disney. reader likes vintage things hence using a disposable camera.

baby, it’s cold outside by @fresh-outta-jams | f 

- a cute cold christmas fluff with eunwoo ft. the boys. reader went to the boys’ place for a sweater and cocoa gift exchange.

got7

yugyeom

cruel brothers by @imsarabum | f

-  jackson and jaebum have always acted as if they were your big, overprotective brothers. so when they both walk in on you and yugyeom in a very intimate position, things get a little tense!

txt

soobin

a special night by @gyuluster | f

-  an intimate insight on the first night of choi soobin’s wedding, consisting of kitchen floors, witches and an eternity of love.

boughs & branches by @jeogiyall | f 

-  decorating the tree with boyfriend! choi soobin from txt! fluffity fluff fluff with a lot of cute fluff thrown in and a dash of christmastime fluff. 

sleepy binnie by @immabiteyou | s

-  “i’ll let you do anything if you just touch me now. “ a sleepy soobin smut.

cake by @immabiteyou | s

- reading waiting for mc soobin with the guys. a cute fluffy smut moment.

kpop oc/s

seri by @ggukkiedae

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[thinger-strang]

tag 10 people you want to get to know better!

tagged by @biillyhargroves love you!!!!!

relationship status: its kinda complicated to explain outloud but to me and my person it makes sense and im happy and thats all the really matters :)

favorite color: i really like deep rich greens and reds (like emeralds and burgundys)

favorite food: pasta, my mom actually makes this amazing mac and cheese that i would die for

song stuck in your head: suspicious minds (flim edit) from elvis or the run (urban legends) from the nope soundtrack :)))

time: 7:31pm (im on my lunch break rn)

dream trip: idk if u actually have like a specific destination? ive always wanted to go on a roadtrip with my friends and visit as many tourist traps in the us as possible

last book you read: im currently in the middle of jurassic park by michael crichton but last book i read in full was probably the prince and the dressmaker by jen wang

last book you enjoyed reading: i think aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe, i need to read it again

last book you hated reading: the catcher in the rye, i hate that book with a burning passion i hated that thing

favorite thing to cook/bake: fudge! im a simple being, i see a fudge recipe i try it out! i just made a bunch with my mom and its got a toffee/caramel texture so we split it up and wrapped it wax paper and keep it in a jar in our fridge, and we were joking while making it about selling it when she opens her dream store (hopefully she does!)

favourite craft to do in your free time: i really love origami and sewing, i dont do them often bc i just dont have a lot of free time but sometimes when i watch a movie ill work on one of my sewing projects (i hand sew things together, i just made a fridge jacket and i think next on my list is to embroider a cowboy shirt ����)

most niche dislike: summer outfits, i love layers and sweaters and turtlenecks and having to sacrifice that for 🤢 a shirt and shorts with NOTHING ELSE???? no thank you, i have to wear layers

opinion on circus(es): i think the concept is super cool, i dig the idea but ive never been to one and i know that they have a reputation of mistreating the people and animals involved so id have to do some research before ever attending one

do you have a sense of direction: if im in the car or present when traveling, kinda, i can take a good enough guess, but if you ask me how to get from point a to point b before you leave, i can give you a hodge podge of left and right turns?

tagging @yikesharringrove @lazybakerart @c0bblenygma @peanut-booi @kingsandsaints @cupidsintern and anyone else who wants to do it :)

[teruthecreator]

okay. thoughts on the grad finale

gonna slap it under a readmore bc i’m Sure i’m gonna ramble. 

uh spoiler warning for the finale of taz graduation, as well as spoilers for the season in general.

also, these are my own thoughts of how the season went, what the themes were, etc! if you don’t agree with me, that’s fine! but i don’t wanna have a convo w you in the replies about it i’ll be honest. if you want to share your opinion so badly, make your own post, alright? that good? we cool?

aight. so. finale thoughts.

to make it short: i think the finale was a satisfying end of a very good arc. 

to expand upon that, let me share what i think the themes of graduation were and why the finale satisfies those themes. 

i made a post about this a while back (here it is if you want) but my honest belief was that the theme of graduation was self-reliance: the concept that you don’t allow yourself to be governed by forces that go against your own beliefs. this concept was coined by essayist ralph waldo emerson to talk about how the american people shouldn’t allow the government to create laws that go against the will of the people. now, understandably, this feels very anti-capitalist which is what i think a lot of fans believed was reflected through the season. 

but, in reality, self-reliance has more to do with being active in your government and making sure you’re being represented the way you want to be by your representatives. that’s sort of the vibe emerson was going for in his essay, and i think. in a sense? that translates to graduation. but i took self-reliance in the more metaphorical about breaking away from those things that are controlling you. which, in graduation, was A Lot Of Things. 

the way i saw it, there were two major groups that inflicted order upon the world and the thundermen--conveniently separated as order and chaos (not the deities though, just the concepts). 

the order half of control existed mostly through the school and the HOG. the HOG created the economic reliance on the heroes and villains system, which removed all literal meaning from those terms and turned them into bureaucratic titles. society existed under these very strict checks and balances; heroes and villains supplied money to the kingdom in terms of entertainment, which then boosted that kingdom’s creditability and allowed them to contribute more to nua’s economy, which then led heroes and villains to have a higher demand, thus perpetuating the cycle. it’s important to note that this term does not represent the sort of morality we expect for heroes and villains--hell, even the term “evil” turned into an arbitrary term used to show those heroes and villains who failed the system. this is the more prominent representation of control that the thundermen break away from in achieving their own self-reliance. they don’t see the value in a system that holds no real moral code (fitzroy Especially, but i’ll get into that in a bit), and can’t help the public when there’s actually a serious situation. as we saw with althea in the beginning, the HOG had no way to help the thundermen when they were dealing with the whole Demon Prince situation (as he had already placed some of his own people in there, proving these kind of systems are easily corruptible). so this wasn’t a system meant to Actually create heroes and villains--it was just a way of boosting the economy. 

the chaos half of control existed primarily through grey and Chaos. grey represented how chaos could be controlled, through various means. he planted that tree for the centaurs to fight over because he knew it would constantly create conflict, which he enjoyed. he kept the school under a watchful eye to prevent anyone from stepping out of line with his grand ideas, and used several manipulation tactics to try and get his way (most notably, his own admittance of grooming fitzroy into joining his side, which didn’t work). grey was the perfect example of how chaos does not automatically mean a lack of control. he was very controlling in how he did things because he had an endgoal: find hieronymous and have a war. but he didn’t even realize he was contributing to a greater idea, that being Chaos’s insistence on causing general disarray. as we realize now, Chaos’s plan was both for them and Order, but i’m leaving Order out for a second because they only really rear their head in towards the end. for the most part, audiences were led to assume that Chaos was the Big Bad(TM); they were the one pulling the strings, allowing things to happen to cause general chaos and disarray. them supplying random mortals with their endless power was a way to plant chaos into the world of nua; but it was a chaos they controlled. fitzroy resisting them was not simply a refusal to bend to Chaos, but it was resisting the control put on him through his magic. 

these systems were constricting the thundermen on both sides. when they thought they’d find help in one side, they were disappointed to find that there was nothing anyone could do. the only people who could fix their problems were...them. so they forged a new path, set new ideas, and became self-reliant. that’s what i think is the most important aspect of graduation; not the anti-capitalist implications of turning over the economic and political systems in place, but the idea that if nothing that is supposed to help you is actually helping that you can just...do your own thing! 

and i think that’s what the finale really shows, at the end of the day. that these forms of control were not doing anything helpful, and were in fact ruining the fabric of space-time! that’s where i think Order comes in because Order is really...the ultimate culmination of control. they are aware that Everything being done will benefit their cause. the HOG? well, they make sure everybody’s so incompetent that they can do their work. grey? well, he’ll contribute to the plan without even realizing it. they even manipulated Chaos and enacted their own form of control over Chaos to make sure that they had no reason to believe that this plan couldn’t go wrong. but Order knew. Order always knew there was a chance for error, and that chance was very great. but they didn’t care! so long as they had control of things, they could try a hundred times to get it right. they had no care for mortals, unlike Chaos. 

the thundermen showing Chaos the truth is the final jenga piece that collapses this tower of control. which is why the finale is so great. 

travis does a phenomenal job of incorporating chaos (general chaos) into the battle mechanics. it may be stupid and slightly arbitrary, but having them change forms randomly and having to adapt to those new circumstances really does exemplify the season!!! the thundermen were constantly forced into new situations (being sidekicks/henches, fitzroy becoming a villain, being let in on the heiro dog situation, the unbroken chain trial, joining forces w grey, etc.), and in all of them they simply found a way to adapt and keep working their way. which made the finale generally interesting and also thematically interesting! 

i think my favorite part of the entire fight scene is right at the end, when argo chucks the shark’s tooth necklace at Order. and time stops. and they’re given a choice. 

the fact that they leave it to a coin toss?? oh my god...how fucking FITTING!! like, that’s disorderly. that’s going your own way. it’s new, it’s terrifying, it has DIRE UNKNOWNS ON EITHER SIDE, but it’s what they do! and...it ends up working out! i think it would’ve worked out either way, but the fact that they left it up to chance really shows how they aren’t allowing anything to control their actions. 

AND THEN WE GET TO THE EPILOGUE. MY GOD I LOVE THE EPILOGUE I’M GONNA GO OFF SO MUCH. 

first off, i loved hearing how Nua adapts to losing this very significant form of government/economic contributor and turns to more people-based work. citizens uniting together, fixing things, making amends, THAT’S SELF-RELIANCE BABEY!!! THAT’S THE WHOLE EMERSON SHIT! HAVING A SYSTEM OF GOVERNMENT THAT ACTUALLY HAS THE INTERESTS OF THE PEOPLE AT LARGE!!! YEAHHHHHHHHH THAT’S THE WHOLE SELF-RELIANCE THING!

now, i’ll break it down by characters: 

fitzroy

GOD. LOVE IT. FIRST OFF, absolutely ADORED how his character arc involved him stripping himself of these self-assigned titles because he actually has an identity that is all his own and he doesn’t NEED arbitrary titles to prove his worth because HE HAS IT IN HIMSELF. not to self-plug or anything, but that’s ssoss!fitzroy’s WHOLE SHIT. I’VE ALREADY BEEN ON THIS TRAIN, BITCH, AND TO KNOW I GOT IT SO RIGHT...GOD. FEELS GOOD. 

but also, i just really enjoy how his ending went in general. the fact that he doesn’t really know what he wants to do, so he just...does stuff he likes to do? that’s so good! because, if you remember, fitzroy had a Very set schedule of life events when the campaign started. he was going to get his wiggenstaffs degree, go back knight school, get his knight school degree, and then go to goodcastle. but all of that was based on a very limited understanding of himself. 

fitzroy’s character arc has primarily focused finding himself, specifically in terms of identity. for someone who was bullied for his past, the present formation of himself was Extremely important to fitzroy. he thought that shutting out his past and taking on this grandiose title of knighthood would make him something more than himself. he would no longer be fitzroy; the poor, country kid trying to make it in a big world. he’d be Sir Fitzroy Maplecourt; respected, honored, revered, with a title to prove it. 

he explains to fauxronymous (pre-reveal grey) that the reason he wanted to be a knight was because he wanted to assist in doing good. morally good. fitzroy has Always had a very clear sense of his morality; this comes through when he refuses Chaos on the basis of many people having to die if he agreed. but being a knight also had the added of bonus of a very respectable title that no one would want to look beyond, which fitzroy felt he needed because...i don’t think he Saw anything beyond that. in himself. he wasn’t himself for a very long time, and i don’t know if he ever thought he would be again. he’d wear this new identity, start a new life, and be happier....he hoped. 

then, things changed! and he started to realize that arbitrary titles don’t do shit because plenty of people with Big Important Titles ended up being Awful People! so he started to value himself For Himself; his wit, his humor, his strength, his magical prowess. and, i think, he started to wonder what knighthood was Really about. was it about upholding a moral good? or was it just another bureaucracy filled with people who won’t do shit when things get bad. 

i think this is why him becoming a lawyer is fitting. especially because of the reasoning he gives sylvia nite. now for A LOT OF PEOPLE, i’m sure they hear lawyer and assume some corporate hotshot who doesn’t give a shit about people. but fitzroy is Not applying to be a corporate laywer. he SPECIFICALLY telsl sylvia that he wants to help people who cannot help themselves, and he wants to do good in that way. THAT kind of lawyer is more of the pro-bono, district lawyer. the ones that don’t make crazy amounts of cash, but help those who cannot afford lawyers and represent them when the government is fucking them over. those lawyers don’t rely on title, they rely on principle. 

that’s the perfect representation of fitzroy’s growth. holding his identity within himself, while still trying to do good by those who need it. 

firbolg (aka gary) 

i think the firbolg’s ending is so unique but so...right for him. his character arc has really been focused around finding his family. he had one, in the beginning, in his clan. but that didn’t end up, y’know...working out that much. so he had to go out into the world alone--something that firbolg’s are rarely--and try and navigate these foreign spaces all by himself. 

we see very early on how he latches onto the idea of groups. he likes being considered a part of the thundermen; he very much hoists himself upon the CFO title and wears it proudly. i think, where fitzroy needed to find identity within himself, the firbolg needed to find it within other people. which is completely okay! he’s still an individual, but you can tell he finds comfort in numbers because that’s what he is used to. 

him going back to his clan was, i believe, his finally severance with his identity as “firbolg”. he would never be welcomed back to his clan, and one of the few people in his life who supported him was now dead. but his father was proud of him; his father was happy he seemed to find his own clan, even if it wasn’t with other firbolgs. from that moment on, i think the firbolg begins to try finding himself within the thundermen. within his friends.

so his epilogue is neat! it definitely captures the loneliness he feels on his own, and how he feels lost with himself without others. i think it might seem silly to some that he would become a gary, but i think it’s fitting. the garys were always present in his time at school, and they were always helpful. they didn’t mind how long it took him to talk because the gary’s are stone gargoyles--what the fuck do they care about time? it was a group that the firbolg saw as familiar to him--always willing to help, slow, stony, and attuned to a larger group. 

and i think the way gary takes this idea of unity and family and puts it into financial assistance just...it just ties everything together! we saw how attached he got to the concept of finances, thanks to his very confusing accounting class. so he had all of this new knowledge--this knowledge that represented a separation from firbolgs--and this new clan. and he used it to help other clans and families!! i think the fact that the Garys financial advice works specifically with groups is what makes this so fitting. because gary wants families to feel stable within themselves; he understands how finances can create struggle and divides, and he wants to provide relief. 

giving financial advice to communities so they rely on themselves and not the government (aka inviting them to be controlled once more) is a VERY self-reliant concept. not that i think gary’s goal is to have no social networks to exist, but he wants to give communities the ability to rely on one another and foster that feeling of togetherness. so groups aren’t fighting over things, but are trusting and loving and relying. 

just like gary’s always wanted. and just like what he has with the thundermen.

argo 

argo’s ending is probably the funniest, but also the sweetest. i think that argo’s character arc revolved around finding his place. we see how argo’s early personality and motivations revolved around his past. he very much had a revenge story since the start; he wanted to enact revenge on the commodore for murdering his mother, no matter what it took. which made him very limited!! in terms of the self. he saw himself less for what he was now, and what he was then. and what he couldn’t do then. 

we see how much he finds comfort in being a part of the thundermen, but also how he feels...out of place. i think this is because a part of him is still attached to his past and doesn’t think he can do anything beyond his set plan. the unbroken chain certainly contributes to this, by not only separating him from the trio but also reinforcing his connection to his past through his mother’s involvement in the unbroken chain. 

the commodore also being a part of the unbroken chain is, i think, what causes the shift from past to present within argo. his life’s goal is standing right in front of him--attached to the group his mother once was a part of--with his friends at his side. letting the thundermen in on his history is the start of bridging these two halves of argo. and the fact that the thundermen are so willing to helps makes argo feel more a part of the team and more a part of this reality. 

when he kills the commodore, it isn’t intense. it isn’t overly dramatic (minus the fight prior, which was BADASS), it isn’t crazily staged. it is argo, staring down the commodore who lies prone on the ground. 

he kills himself unceremoniously and completes his life-long mission. 

what becomes of him in the epilogue is the culimination of both past and present. he takes what he knows and loves (the sea, the mariah, sailing) and blends it with what he’s come to love now (his friends, this adventure, and making people happy). there are SO many instances where argo uses performance to his advantage. this man is piloted by clint mcelroy, of COURSE he’s going to have a flair for the dramatic. 

so for him to open up a themed cruiseline, based on the stories of him and his friends? SO FITTING. and it isn’t forcing himself to leave his past behind or to completely ignore his present circumstances. because he’s found a place in the now, in the merging of these two sides. and by merging them, he paints a bright future for himself. a future that is partially known, partially not. partially old, partially new.

but it’s all his. 

after that, i think their final scene is just...sweet. a nice, jovial, joking send-off to a nice season. it proves these people have grown and will continue to grow, even when we no longer see their story. it does exactly what graduation does--shows you a struggle, a triumph, and a glimpse into the future. 

i’ll miss it so much, but there’s nothing more i could’ve asked of this ending. it was exactly what it needed to be; nothing more, nothing less.