#It’s still disheartening to think that if I did I would be scared people would react to it in a similar way

[cheese-water]

I don’t care if it’s has already been debunked. I don’t care if it isn’t a “widely accepted truth.”

Alternatively, if you had to create a theory video about Generation Loss, what would it be about?

Please put in the tags how/why you believe what you believe cause I'm fascinated by the vastly different interpretations people can make from this project! :D

[damagedcoda6669]

Hey Lucifer, i'm sorry I am telling you this since ik you and Al are close, but that's exactly why i'm telling you this...

As you know, Al used to be in birdie drama spaces, and he still is, but just under an alt.

Remember the borderline 12 drama? Al made that happen to see how the public would react since he is planning bigger things. He wants to see how fast your "fans" will turn on you, and he wanted to see how many would defend you. He knew doing the borderline 12 thing would get you in trouble, he even was surprised with how well it went considering YOU posted it when he actually wanted to post it on his account and mention you drew it.

I know this since i'm also in birder drama servers, but I just think Al is taking it too far...

He is truly playing the long game and trying to solidify your trust within him so that those leaks that are happening cannot be traced back to him. Al has truly formed an attachment to you, but not in a good way.

That borderline 12 drama was also to test your loyalty to him and it worked since you believed that he meant no harm when all he truly did mean was to harm you. You may think Al is genuine and would never, but just try to analyze a few of his messages pertaining to birder drama.... that's all i'm going to allude to because I don't want him to know who i am. I don't want him to doxx me.

I will say, Al does share a lot of interests with you and he does find you fun to be around, but that's because he sees you as a toy instead of a person.

Just- please be careful with Al, he is betraying you behind closed doors and PLEASE don't listen to him when he says all the anon's are lying, they are just scared of him finding out because right now he is really favored in birdie drama spaces since he infiltrated you so well.

Ik you might not believe me since i said I was in birdie drama spaces and i will admit, i do talk bad about you.... However, I never leaked anything nor have I been involved in what Al has been doing. I am mainly a lurker and to gain trust in the birder servers I just regurgitate the hate everyone else has for you. I feel really guilty, which is why i'm writing you this.

Other's have spoken out in anon asks on your moraltonz account, and Al was really upset with them and tried doxxing them to get them out of the birdie servers he's in so his plans don't get foiled by them, since he knows you get paranoid easily. Al is really worried about you finding out about him, so I'm hoping you get to this ask.

You may believe it's people trying to ruin you Lucifer, but other asks that pretty much imply it's birdie haters was just a tactic used to try to get the people truly coming forward to be discreditable.

Also, read my username and think back to all the birdie drama and all the people involved. I won't say too much, but I hope you can get what I am alluding to. If not, it's ok.

TLDR;

PLEASE BE CAREFUL WITH AL, LUCIFER. Please.

It's disheartening what Al is doing to you, with all the leaks, with the ploys, with how he talks about you, and just with everything he is doing.

Al has not stopped interacting in birdie drama spaces, he lied to you.

I truly think Synni is your only friend, because even though she used to be in birdie spaces, I don't think she has an alt.

I'm sorry i'm telling you all of this considering how close you and Al are, I really am sorry he is doing this to you. /gen

the lengths u guys go 2 2 try 2 induce my paranoia/delusions n turn me against ppl u dont know is crazy. if this is true, if u actually cared abt me, use ur main. say it 2 my face. give me evidence. ALSO ADMITTING U SHITTALK ME AND ACTIVELY PARTICIPATE IN BIRDIE DRAMA SERVERS IS CRAAAZY. I AM NOT GOING 2 LISTEN 2 A WORD U SAY, U R JUST ADMITTING 2 BEING A BAD PERSON. if u feel sooooo guilty, why r u still there? if al was rlly leaking shit in these spaces, scs and evidence wouldve gotten back 2 me by now. itd have spread online and id be able 2 see artwork n images that i havent sent 2 anyone besides them. also??? stop misgendering them??? weird ass

anyway yeah, good lie, u fabricated an interesting story, but gimme some proof. gimme gimme i want those discord scs that dont exist *rubs my hands 2gether nefariously*

heh u dont know this but.. jotaro is leaking everything

[koolades-world]

Heyy happy 2k followers man! Well deserved 🎉🎉

Can I request Asmodeus with prompt number 7? Thank you and congratulations on 2k once again!

thank you! of course i can!

you guys obviously haven't seen the rest of the requests yet but this event is telling me you guys really love asmo. i did not anticipate him being the most requested, but i don't mind writing more for him outside of this event if that's what the people want :)

enjoy <3

prompt 7 w/ Asmo

"Mc? Where are you? It's almost time to go! You know the party doesn't start until we get there." Asmo yelled out, searching the halls of the HoL looking for you. He'd checked your room and didn't find you, so instead, he decided to check the bathroom. He'd told you you could get ready in his bathroom, but you'd insisted you wanted your outfit to be a surprise.

"Asmo. I'm in here!" He was surprised to hear your voice coming from Mammon's room. That disheartened him a little, but he entered nonetheless. Mammon was actually nowhere to be found, but you were seated at his vanity, all your things scattered around on the table.

"What're you doing in here, you cutie? You look fabulous." He gave you a side hug, scanning your face.

"Thank you! I thought really hard about how to match this necklace." You placed a hand on your neck, showing off the centerpiece of your outfit. "Mammon wanted to go shower, so I just offered we swap places since all I needed was a mirror to do my hair." You resumed what you were doing before he walked in.

Asmo studied your outfit, admiring the color coordination and the way you used what you had available, but he eventually just started admiring you. You were more focused on what you were doing, but he was enthralled with you. The way you squinted a little when you focused and the way you unconsciously furrowed your eyebrows was endearing to him. He enjoyed these moments of peace with you before going out. While he lovingly stared at you, he realized the odd familiarity your outfit brough him.

"Is that my shirt?" He had given you free access to his closet, but this would be the first time you'd actually taken him up on that offer.

"It is! It was the last piece to my perfect outfit. Hope you don't mind." You beamed at him. He couldn't have been more happy.

"Do I! Of course I don't. You look absolutely darling in that shirt. In fact, I'm tempted to let you keep it, because you wear it better," he squealed. He plopped down in your lap and set his head on your shoulder. You looped one arm around him as best as you could to hold him in place. He loved the way you looked when you laughed.

"No, you should keep it so I always have an excuse to slip into your room." You continued fixing your hair as the two of you chatted.

"You're always welcome in my room silly." He wouldn't lie, he wanted you in his room every chance he got so he got all the time he wanted with you for himself.

"That's true. Still, keep the shirt. I think it looks cuter on you. Nobody can wear anything better than you." The way you smiled at him made him feel like he was the only demon in the Devildom.

"You know the way right to my heart! As long as you promise to come borrow it frequently." He conceded to you. He always caved to your demands.

"Cross my heart and hope to die." He knew that that was a human saying. He still didn't full understand it, but he recognized the emotion infused within in it. The way you said the words was more than enough for him to know what you wanted to convey to him.

"Ah, I just adore you. We're late to that party by now, but that's fine. We're fashionably late, and besides, I'd skip any party to spend time with you." He began to play with the baby hairs at the back of your neck, sighing contently. He hoped you understood the meaning behind his words. He was far too scared to say the L word, afraid of scaring you off, but he always tried his best in his actions to help you understand his words unspoken.

As if you heard what he was thinking, you said, "I feel the same. If you wouldn't mind, do you think we could just sit like this for a little bit longer? I love us time." Asmo felt his heart catch in this throat at the mention of the very word he was petrified of using.

"Yes, but not too long. I don't want Mammon to ruin this moment. We can canoodle at the party too, you know." He remembered at some point that they were in Mammon's room, and that he could be back at any moment. He'd for sure break up the fun they were having.

"I have an idea, then. Hang on tight." The last thing he was expecting was for you to get a tighter grip on him and stand up with him in your arms. He playfully shrieked and used that excuse to huddle closer to you. He loved you, in a way he'd never knew he could love before. He just never anticipated it would be a human that made him feel the way he did. It didn't matter to him though. Perhaps someday he could muster up the courage to utter those three simple words to you.

[raymusterio]

Just a little rant.. no spoilers

I always think it's really irritating when people try and say Bakugou is irrelevant to the story, like what? Did we read the same thing? Cause Izuku would not have received ofa if it wasn't for Katsuki being the person attacked by slime. Izuku was literally like "oh gee poor guy, I hope a hero with the right quirk shows up, cause All Mights out thanks to me" until he actually looked up and saw that it was his Kacchan being suffocated and it was *no thoughts. head empty.* he fucking sprinted. That wouldn't have happened the way it did if it had been anybody else. It had to be Katsuki or the story would have been completely different because All Might wouldn't have seen Izuku's (seemingly random) act of heroism despite being quirkless and thus never choosing him to be ninth. Katsuki plays such a huge role in the plot of the story and has since the very first page.

It also boggles my mind how quick people are to label Katsuki an irredeemable abuser, and honestly, people who demonize he like that give me the ick. Like, he's just a kid who's so scared of his own emotions and how his friend makes him feel, that he lashes out in the only response he knows how. He's a kid with anger issues, who makes mistakes just like the rest of us. I'm not excusing what he said, cause it was fucked up, but he recognized that it was fucked up and worked hard to apologize to Izuku and make it up to him. Even if Izuku had already forgiven him.

And I really do think Izuku had already forgiven him, because that's who Izuku is. Izuku never victimized himself. He couldn't. Because he wanted to be a hero, just like All Might. And he can't be a hero if he's a victim. That's a double edged mentality to have and it definitely came into play during the vigilante arc. Izuku is the kind of person who breaks himself to help others, he has little to zero self preservation skills mixed with overwhelming kindness and compassion. When Katsuki told him to take a swan dive, his response was essentially "You're an idiot Kacchan, what would you have done if I was the kind of person to take you seriously? Can't be a hero like that, nope!" He really didn't entertain the idea of himself jumping, and instead focused on berating Katsuki's rude and insulting behavior. He didn't like it and doesn't approve of a future pro acting like that, because he still holds no doubt that Katsuki will become a pro hero. Because "Kacchan's amazing".

Izuku and Katsuki's character arcs are so heavily intertwined that you really can't talk about one without mentioning the other. They know each other's habits, behavior, and mannerisms better than anyone else, yet misunderstanding is such a present theme in their relationship. It's so complex that I don't see it as a stereotypical victim×bully ship, it goes so much deeper than that.

In a story about hope, change, and redemption it's disheartening seeing parts of the fandom completely miss the point.

[anqelsweep]

NEWS  Posted By birdiesday ☑  ·   Friday, July 5, 2024

On the YouTube channel Kim Hansol’s  ‘Dolterview’ a video titled “KOREA’S SWEETHEART: Song Judy Remembers her 11 Years as an Idol” was released on the 5th.

Celebrating the approaching release of her 10th extended play, ‘Fall In Love’, Judy shared her thoughts and experiences.  Judy expressed her excitement about the release, “I’ve never been so excited to release an album.” she said, “I love all my releases but this EP is full of love.” she laughed, “I’m extremely excited for SongBirds to hear it!”

“I never thought I’d make it this far,” the singer admitted, “it feels like a dream. I’m scared I’ll wake up.” she laughed.

Judy remembered her debut, explaining how embarrassed and disheartened she felt, “I remember running off and crying as soon as I was done performing. I held in tears the entire time.” she recalled, “I was embarrassed, I kept yelling at myself ‘Why did you go up there? I should give up’ as I cried." She explained, “Years later I talked about it with Daphne and my sister. I really thought about that day and everything after our conversation. My sister, Eunjoo, yelled at me that I had no reason to be upset. She said ‘It’s them who should be embarrassed for laughing at a frightened girl and for stooping so low as to hurl insults at her’. Those words really made me think, I don’t think I agreed at the time but, now that I’ve matured I definitely do.” she continued. 

Judy would also mention how she felt releasing Ladies Night, “It was like, ‘Oh, if this fails I’d become the laughing stock of the Country once again’,” she recalled, “I didn’t want to release Ladies Night but my contract was already signed.” she added, “Daphne really pushed me to give my all with it and it paid off very well. She promised this release would be a success and all I had to do was trust her. I’m glad I did.” 

Judy talked about her time as a trainee, talking about the strict rules she had to follow, “We weren’t allowed to use our phones during the day, only in our dorms or when we went out - which was rare.” She said, “We had a curfew too.” She added, “After debut, I lost my phone and didn’t get it back until Ladies Night was released. When I was told I wasn’t allowed to have my phone I thought ‘Why? Do you pay for the service? This is unnecessary’”. She’d later add that trainees no longer have such harsh rules, “Trainees don’t have those rules anymore, only curfew is still there.” she explained, “I think the younger generations are more comfortable speaking out against unfair things, my generation of trainees were too scared I think. Many of us felt we had to deal with it because it was a privilege to even be there.”

Judy also talked about joining a group after her audition, only to be removed and put into a dorm alone. She explained she felt happy to have her own room but lonely later on. Judy looked back on how upset she felt when the group was canceled, “It felt like I lost my friends. We were all moved out of that dorm and into different rooms.” she told Hansol, “They ended up debuting together.”

When asked at what point she felt like she was famous, Judy said, “I think when Bitter was released. I had my first fan meet and the amount of people who came blew my mind.”

Hansol asked her “Do you have any dream collaborations?”, Judy responded, “No,” adding, “I don’t care who I collaborate with as long as they have a vision and passion for what they want to do.”

Judy mentioned challenging times during Killing Me Softly and coming back from hiatus when she did, “I think I’m still in the mindset I was when promoting that album, I just think I have a better way of dealing with my emotions and grief now.” she said, “Truthfully, I didn’t want to come back at that time, but I didn’t get to choose.” she adds, “I would cry in my dressing room after each performance, I cried during them at times too. It’s hard to continue living life normally when your partner isn’t with you. I had a hard time working and coming to terms with Kyungmin’s death. It’s hard to realize I have to do this without him.”  Judy concluded by sharing, “A question like ‘Where do you see yourself in the future’ is hard to answer. It’s a deep question that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to confidently answer.”  She said, “I’m scared to continue living. I don’t know how my future will turn out. But, I have no choice but to continue on so I’ll do it sincerely.”

౨ৎ⠀ׄ⠀. WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON THIS?

[meanbossart]

Misc. Ask compilation

These aren't all of the asks I want to reply to, just some that I can answer relatively quickly to clean the ol' inbox out before things get out of hand. Thanks for your patience!

HAHAHA THANK YOU FOR PERUSING AROUND and for enjoying my work! I had a... Weird Gale experience my first playthrough which led to his characterization being what it is in my comics. Here's the beat-by-beat of all the shenanigans: https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/740827466716807168/alright-i-am-like-90-sure-there-is-one-line-in-a

And here's just some of my personal thoughts on him! https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/736193145686114305/can-you-tell-me-more-about-how-you-would-make-gale

I would be lying if I said I'm not conflicted to know my style still bears some remnants of my edgy teen roots (not your fault not noticing it though, you aren't the first and won't be the last) BUT... That comic did mean a lot to me as a youth, so I guess I should be proud 🤷 and honestly it is a little cool that such a thing would survive for so long in what I do, crazy how that works.

LMAO, re: the bottom/top debacle, I was honestly so surprised to see people react to it like it's something novel. If I ever expected to get any push back on the matter, I thought it would be from people assuming DU drow was the top and taking issue with how violent and big he is (and yknow, some people are weirdly protective of Astarion as if he isn't a sneaky murder machine rippling with lean muscle)

Very disheartening to see that mindset still so alive and well among young people, but I guess it just means I gotta draw DU drow throwing more back and Astarion drooling over more ass until the stereotype is forcefully banished out of people's minds!

(more asks below the cut)

"Sleeper agent activation phrase" absolutely took me out, Thank you so much LOL

YEAH I got it pretty late though, Astarion had already told my durge that he was a vampire of his own accord (and the response was, of course, "no duh") I forgot wheter this happened before or after the first romance scene triggered, but I think after.

Since this was after DU drow decided he was gonna fuck him out of pure contrarian spite and was shamelessly laying it extremely thick, He happilly let Astarion drink his blood. Hell, he was probably a little Too Eager - the guy likes pain and he likes letting people he trusts do with his body whatever they will, and while he didn't yet trust Astarion at that point, that event might've very well reminded him of something from his past that planted a seed which would eventually grow into his genuine affection for the guy.

Ah, he definitely got a half-chub as it happened too. I'm sure Astarion noticed it and just walked off rolling his eyes and thinking "eugh of course" lmao.

Hello!!!

Oh man, I grew up fascinated with horror things. I remember from a very young age just looking at the covers and backs of horror movies at the film-rental even though I wasn't allowed to watch them. I was also easily scared but I sought those things out anyway - I think i just enjoyed the visceral reactions it drew out of me and was always curious about most things taboo.

When I got access to the internet that just opened a (very unfortunate) door to all things vile and awful like it did for so many people at that age in time. Though my tastes have changed a lot since then (Less August Underground, more The Devils kind of guy nowadays) my stories and art are just always going to fall into a horror-y category because I just... Don't think there's many better ways to showcase the human experience and emotional range without many of the elements native to the genre, and I'm all about that.

Thank you for your question and your sweet words, have a good week yourself!

I did a little write-up about that over here! https://meanbossart.tumblr.com/post/742508493562593280/i-dont-have-a-particular-question-in-mind-sorry

That's the result of a scene that happens relatively early in the story I'm writing ("A Novel Experience" on Ao3).

{SPOILERS} DU drow accidentally passes out on a blade which puts a relatively deep gash on his hip. Meanwhile, Astarion is weakened and starved after certain events that transpired the prior night. They have a private exchange both in a somewhat hazy-state of mind and Astarion ends up prodding and prying at his wound while feeding, so it's a laceration and bite mark that just scarred over badly.

Elves apparently don't grow body hair so never LOL guess they'll just have to slip&slide up on each other for heat

[thmles]

| Midnight Rain.

- i guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted.

[warnings: mention of injury, angst [but it ends in fluff], kind of sad, mentions of having a family and marriage, not proofread]

[a/n: i'm really sorry if this was bad, i just got back to writing after like a good year or two 😭 miguel o' hara really got me inspired and so i wrote this while listening to midnight rain lawls]

I have always wanted to help the world. I always believed that I’d save everyone because I couldn’t save my sister. When the bridge collapsed and I failed to save her, that very night I vowed to protect my city and the people I loved. Being Spider-Woman isn’t easy and I knew that. I knew the risks I had to take, the sacrifices I had to make. But he didn’t want to risk me.

“¡Dios mío! You could’ve died trying to stop that building from collapsing!” Miguel yelled as we entered his office. My back was turned on him, yet he kept pacing and mumbling how I was ‘reckless’ and an ‘idiot’. I was holding my other hand (the one I had accidentally sprained) thinking of a reply to his words.

“But I didn’t! I stopped the building, I lived, and I saved a bunch of people’s lives!” I replied, turning to face him. He groaned and ran his hand through his hair. Miguel made his way toward me and I stood still. He grabbed my injured wrist.

“And you managed to sprain your wrist, cariño! Did you forget that when you were recklessly swinging and trying to thwip your left hand when you couldn’t?!” Miguel yelled again. He began to ramble on and on. I was tired. For months, he started to grow more and more agitated, hovering over me like I’m some child. I knew the risks and the accidents that were going to happen. This wasn’t the first time I was injured. Why was he acting like this now?

“Look, Miguel, I appreciate you looking out for me, but I know the risks. I am willing to take every single one of them.” I say tirelessly. He stopped rambling and looked me in the eye. “If you’re going to be reckless everytime we go on a mission together, you should just retire,” He softly suggested. Miguel sighed as he cupped my cheek but my eyes grew wide at his suggestion. “I don’t need to lose someone important in my life again. And you, ¡mi vida!, are the reason I continue to live, the reason I have hope in life,” Miguel continued. “Mi amor, I want us to have a family. Wouldn’t it be nice to leave this life behind?”

It wouldn’t. I don’t want a family. I don’t want to retire and settle down, not when I’m at the height my career and my other life as Spider-Woman was just beginning. The mere thought of being tied down scared me. I would want to, but not now. Not in the near future. I removed his hand from my cheek and looked down. “Miguel, I-I can’t.” His eyes were wide at my answer. “What do you mean you can’t?” He asked in disbelief. I walked away from him, towards the large windows of his office at our home. Well, his home now.

“I mean seriously? Y-You want me to retire?” I laughed without any humor and put my hand to my temple. “In the height of my career you want me to have a family and just a few years after being Spider-Woman?” I looked at him over my shoulder. “I worked so hard to prove to Nueva York, to you, and to myself that I was worthy of taking on the mantle of being a Spider-Woman. To prove that I am ready to sacrifice and take risks and you,” I turned to look at him, seeing the disheartened look on his face. “I love you, Miguel. But I can’t do what you want. I know that my time as Spider-Woman isn’t up yet. I want to explore the world and I wouldn’t want to be tied down.” I slowly made my way towards him. I cupped his cheek and made him look at me. I could see the tears forming in his eyes and I could feel myself start to tear up too. “I’m sorry, Miguel. I can’t give you what you want right now. I’m sorry it had to end this way, but maybe you can find someone else that would,” A tear rolled down his face. “Give you what you want.” I finished and wiped his tears away.

“But, mi amor, I-I can’t see anyone else to have a future with. I always knew it would be you,” He said softly. “Miguel, I can’t give it to you. Not right now, not in the near future.” I replied just as softly. “Then I’ll wait, my love. I’ll wait for you.” Miguel reached for my right hand and gave it a gentle kiss.

“But, I don’t want us to end. I love you too much to let you go, and without you by my side will be torture.” He said, looking at me. “Maybe just teach me better, hm? I don’t have to retire yet when I have a hot teacher that will be willing to teach me.” Miguel laughed and put our foreheads together. I looped my arms around his neck as he put his hands on my hips.

“Maybe I should.”

[nalyra-dreaming]

Yeah to add to that anon, I've been coming across some stuff on different platforms as well in the last 24 hours and honestly, I'm very disappointed in some individuals. I can see where show fans were coming from to some extent only accepting what was shown. Some of them got way out of hand, but some of these comments are now coming from people that have been in the fandom. I know Sam was also subjected to this but if I'm being honest, I think it's worse for Jacob because he already had to hear, and still is hearing it, just for being casted. There are the normal comments on YouTube making comments about Claudia/Assad/Jacob's race which I think as a fandom we have come to sadly expect, but I'm very disheartened to see it with some individuals in the fandom who were criticizing the group (and rightfully so) doing it to Sam last year that are now being just as ugly and/or insensitive toward Jacob, Claudia, and/or Assad.

-I've seen someone refer to Louis as Amber Heard and Sam as Johnny Deep.

-Tumblr posts saying Louis has manipulated Lestat the entire time and only did anything wrong (Antoinette, etc) in response to Louis' manipulations.

-There are some comments on a subreddit not under the IWTV subreddit saying that the the showrunners need to realize that Sam is the only reason people are watching the show.

-Another stating they are glad Louis is going to be exposed as a liar so maybe people will lose interest in Loustat and consider replacing him with Nicki.

-Another comment saying Louis/Jacob should be killed off along with Claudia because he is the true abuser and they don't want to see Lestat yearning for him after wronging Lestat.

-Another conversation that started as a discussion with Lestat's bloody frame from the trailer that ended in criticizing Rolin's comments about keeping Jacob around longer than season 2 because they would prefer to see Lestat with other love interests that are worthy of him.

-Another attacking Assad's looks.

-Another suggesting other actors who should have been casted as IWTV characters, rating them lowly, and detailing what is wrong with their looks in a discord. Poor Assad is getting the brunt of that one.

-A tweet from someone outside of the fandom complaining about the iwtv fandom for crossing the line with Eric and saying they should be jailed so I'm assuming it was not a pleasant exchange.

It is ridiculous and I had to get off IWTV related media today because it also crossed my mind that Jacob and Assad could probably see a lot of this. I commented this and was told "well they did it to sam so now it's jacob's turn."

How… nice.

Some points of this I actually saw, so…

Tbh, the cast is aware of the backlash just look at how nervous Sam was at the SDCC panel (and that was before the main shit even started). They know. And I also think it is no coincidence that Jacob withdrew a bit or that Assad was shit scared of taking on Armand.

This story comes with baggage because for some reason people just cannot stay polite. Don’t see the human behind the screen. Separate them from the role. Ugh. It makes me want to scream.

I really wished I‘d been wrong there, honestly 😒

I expect it to get worse before it gets better and I can only recommend that everyone curates their bubble / feed accordingly.

[blue-scorpion-king]

RWBY is not dead, just on uncertain waters at the moment.

I am getting this out there for you all in this fandom who are feeling uncertain and scared for RWBY right now.

And maybe in the near future this fall and winter.

Or maybe even next year, in 2024.

And spoilers for RWBY up ahead.

RWBY is not dead.

Rooster Teeth did not cancel it or else, everyone would have been talking about it and I would , even at an later date from that hypothetical, disheartening announcement.

I ain't all that worried from V10 from getting greenlight at RTX this year, which was last month from this post being made.

Why? Crunchyroll might have made a deal with RT on V10 being greenlit AFTER the RWBY X DC crossover movie's 2nd part get released.

I know that it is speculation right now, but that is a high possibility.

Alongside that Red Vs Blue is still going, Let's Play is still up, and they are still being talked about.

By both fans, non-fans, and haters.

Even with their failings and all that. They still have to make money at the end of the day and go for supply and demand, even with having to make compromises.

But, as it stands right now, as we are in yet another RWBY hiatus, as it is the norm, just a little more uncertain than the other hiatuses-

We don't really know.

But, I don't think we should be really be worried about RWBY being 'dead' just because

Do keep going at it at trying to convince RT to finish RWBY by releasing V10 and onwards, which could be finished in 2 to 3 volumes. 2 to 3 years I think.

And always remember what the message of Ruby Rose to all of the world in V8 did to its people, which got shown at the end of V9.

She brought hope to all of

Even in this uncertain time of fear, despair, anger and bitterness of 'what could have been' for this fandom, especially with the massively uncertain time when Monty Oum died 8 years ago (R.I.P. always), and business happenings that we don't know, that are not being said online, all of that-

Don't give up hope.

Even if in a decade or two, when RWBY continues after an hypothetical hiatus that spanned sooo long.

And perhaps the writing on the wall of RWBY being 'dead' or 'dying' was written by those who have given up and not given hope to those who want to watch RWBY and enjoy it for what it is.

Even when they have left the series.

Even with those who think hope is a dangerous thing and can drive someone insane.

And get an man's project finished for all to experience. I don't know the full vision of Monty Oum and I wouldn't pretend that I do.

But, his story getting out there and being understood and cherished, even with life's ups and downs, even with him being dead, is what I think he would want as he was making it.

And that's all I have to say on this matter.

So, we will continue to wait for the day we all have been waiting for and the revolution that Team RWBY and friends bring to Remnant against the walking *cancer* witch, that is Salem.

When that days does come-

~Hades-Hando~

[old-schoolgenz]

Chapter 6: Dad Vibes

Aphmau hummed idly as she watched Aaron try to bond with Abby. The girl was wary of him and unfortunately he was equally if not more wary of her, so it was slow going. Still, he was smiling gently down at her, his bandanna absent from his face as an attempt to look less intimidating.

"Do you want to see where you'll be sleeping tonight Abby? It's getting a little late." Aaron asked the little girl as she was quietly trying to fight off sleep. It was still a little early for bed. But the girl had gone through a lot in one day.

"Yeah..." She grabbed his hand and looked up at him expectantly, Aphmau could almost see his heart melt from the way his face softened and a breathy laugh escaped his lips.

They made their way up the stairs and into the guest bedroom, which now had dim string lights hung on the ceiling, they almost looked like stars if the lights were out. Abby glanced around, looking at the shelf full of toys, wiggling her toes in the faded red plush carpet, before the bed, and the subsequent terrier plush caught her eye.

"Doggy!" She rushed over to it, her turtle plush still gripped in one hand as she gently handled the grey stuffed toy, Aaron thought he might wince, instead he found his smile reaching his eyes.

Abby glanced over at him, then at the plushie, then back at him, she had a thoughtful look on her face for a moment before she too smiled at him, genuinely this time.

"Is this yours?" She asked, cradling the small plush in her tiny hands like it was delicate thing.

"It was, when I was your age. He was my best freind." Aaron replied, sitting next to the bed beside her. Abby looked back at the plushie before sitting her turtle plushie next to him.

"Sheldon is my best freind too, Dad thinks it's silly." She seemed disheartened at that, and Aaron most certainly felt it.

"Why does your dad think Sheldon is silly?" Aaron asked, and in response Abby sat cross-legged beside him, holding the two plushies in her hands as if comparing them.

"He said I needed to make real freinds, with the kids in school. And that I can't just talk to Sheldon and hit the other kids when they touch him." She looked somewhat ashamed, holding out Aaron's old plush to him and pouting, squishing Sheldon tightly.

"I dont think Sheldon is silly. Sometimes other people are too much to deal with, especially if they touch something you care about without your permission." He replied, turning his old plush in his hand for a moment, it had seemed so much bigger when he was small.

"When I was your age, I didnt like other people either, they were mean, or they would touch what belonged to me without asking." Abby nodded, and looked up at him, scooting a little bit closer to the man.

"How did you make freinds? I can't seem to make any..."

Aaron's heart broke for the girl, he knew how hard it could be to feel that alone, or to be seen as mean and standoffish to other people.

"It took me a long time, Aphmau was my very first friend. But when we met I didn't get along with her either." He reminisced, fighting back a little bit of cringe as he remembered just how much of an ass he used to be.

"You didn't get along with Auntie Aphmau? But she's so nice!" Abby looked shocked, and her high pitched voice somehow seemed to get even higher, Aaron just laughed and nodded.

"Yes, she is, but I didn't know her, and I made it hard for her to be nice to me. But you know what happened?" The little girl shook her head, seemingly now absorbed in the story.

"We became freinds anyway. So even if you struggle to find people who like you, know that it'll happen, you just have to find the right people." And Aphmau was certainly the right person, she'd been there for him even when he'd given her every reason to hate his guts, even before they found out they'd been friends online.

"And if it takes me as long as it took you?" Abby asked as if she was scared, looking down at the floor.

"Then you still have Sheldon, and your dad, Auntie Katelyn and Auntie Aphmau, to keep you company until you find the right people." He handed the little terrier plush back to her, and she took it with both of her hands before hugging it gently.

Abby looked out at the adjar door for a moment, still holding both plushies, then she looked up at Aaron before crawling up onto his lap, making her look and feel much younger than eight.

Aaron stiffened, not expecting her to crawl into his lap like that, but he slowly relaxed, laughing softly and bringing his knees up to also sit cross-legged.

"What's the Doggy's name?" She asked softly, yawning and curling up tighter into Aaron's lap, almost by instinct, he was petting down the little girls hair.

"Barcus, his name is Barcus." He replied, feeling her squeeze both Sheldon and Barcus closer to her, her breaths drew deeper, her grip on both of them slowly loosened.

"I like Barcus..." was the last thing she said before she was off in dreamland, dozing off curled up on his lap.

Aaron felt... everything bubble up into his chest, pride, protectivness, deep affection for the child curled up on him, he felt himself start to tear up at how overwhelmed with it he was. And how sad he felt that Abby was going through what he did.

Aphmau came in a moment later, quietly pushing open the door with tears in her eyes and one of her hands over her mouth.

Ah, she must have been listening.

"Hey..." Aaron whispered at he got closer, still holding Abby, slightly unwilling to let her go.

"Aaron that was the cutest thing I've ever seen." She whispered back, holding back the widest smile ever in the history of smiles.

"I... I know. I don't know what came over me. She just... seemed so upset." Abby shuffled in her sleep, and Aaron instinctually went back to petting her hair, which somehow made Aphmau's eyes have more sparkles in them.

"Dad vibes. You got dad vibes." She replied, pointing at him almost sarcastically.

"Aph what the heck does that even mean? He grumbled confusedly, slowly standing up while holding the eight year old gently, trying not to disturb her.

"I don't know but it's true!" She giggled back, taking the time to tuck the girl in for an early bedtime. Tucking in Sheldon and Barcus next to her, and moving a strand of hair from her face for good measure.

"Then you have mom vibes." He smirked when he saw the blush creep up into her cheeks, and laughed quietly when she playfully batted at him.

"Come on, lets let her sleep, I've gotta get some stuff from my house if I'm gonna be staying here a few days."

[pumpumdemsugah]

How did you stop being shy and how old were you? I think you mentioned being shy in the past. I’m 22 and I recently started a job after graduating uni and I feel like my shyness has gotten worse. It’s something I’ve had to work on for many years so it’s super disheartening lol. I wish I could do so many things, but I’m so scared all the time!!!

Hi!!

I used to be shy. I think it's helpful to see social skills like a muscle. Some people are the social equivalent being naturally fast and strong but everyone can get faster and stronger : ) I feel like around age 17 to 20 I wasn't shy anymore. I was still odd at 17 but I was social , around 20 I was fearless

I started working on it around age 13/14 and didnt have the internet to research anything. I got tired of being marked absent because the teachers couldn't hear my voice lol so my first task to myself was to speak louder for the register. I'd find small things like that, that I did everyday to work on. Sometimes I push my pen or pencil off my table to force myself to feel comfortable getting up out of my seat , standing up and picking up my pen. Genuinely had to teach myself how to stand up normal style lol and it worked That helped me feel less watched because It didn't feel unsafe to do anymore. You can break down whatever you want to improve into the smallest chunks. I would sometimes ask to use the toilet to practice walking up and in front of my class without feeling nervous. If I was feeling like a daredevil I'd stand up, walk up to the teacher desk and ask. Id make sure not to walk too fast before I walk into shit, no slouching and relax my arms at the side of my body. Even now, if I feel nervous I run through this so my body is relaxed so my brain is relaxed.

If I found myself starting to get nervous, I'd find a reason to go to the toilet or walk somewhere so I didn't help like I was stuck in X place. It helps to make places not feel like it's out of bounds. For me, noticing when I'd start to feel nervous and soothing myself then instead of letting that feeling get so giant I feel out of my dept helped. Generally that's a good thing to practice shy or not. At my current job I turned down going to lunch with my coworkers because it was loud as hell and I told them " sorry it's too loud and It's going to make my head feel like mashed potatoes" and they laughed, one agreed " yeah it's very loud" and they left. I said that to them because it was true lol, I didn't sleep and noise would send me over the edge. Being honest about why I don't want to do something in a light way was something I found out early on I'm very comfortable with saying

Ohh this got long lol

If I found myself getting nervous I'd force myself to fix my posture and stretch. My main thing was, learning to feel comfortable existing in my body in a space and the few times I spoke, speaking loud enough. Also I'd observe the things I didn't feel anxious or dumb doing, and volunteer as much as possible doing those things hoping the skills I learned there would leak. I loved PE so I'd let myself go for it with PE and that's helped me feel more settled in my body.

It helps to wear comfortable clothes and practice things you might want to say to someone or questions you think someone will ask you. Sometimes having something to play with to direct my nervous energy helped so rubber bands around my wrist, a tag in my pocket etc

The great thing about work is it's a nice structured environment you go to all the time ( like school) where you can find little challenges to give yourself to do everyday. It gives you a clear benchmark where you can feel proud X is easier for you. Every little victory helps

Learning to not be embarrassed or at least let on I was embarrassed when I made a mistake. Even if I knew I'd think about it for days, Id force myself to give a short simple answer and to remember to breathe slowly. It's worth coming up with a plan for when you feel anxious and what you will do to soothe yourself to build up your tolerance for being uncomfortable and the more you do that then things that were uncomfortable becomes like nothing

I worked on tolerance building, soothing strategies and a couple of responses and questions I could ask. I think I learned to hold a conversation in my late teens lol it didn't occur to me that people are generally sort of curious, even about very boring shit.

Also, figuring out how to let someone leave a conversation or how you can leave a conversation. When I didn't know how to talk to someone and I realised my nervousness was killing the vibe, I worked on some things I could say to let people leave a convo or leaving the convo myself

I sort of figured alot of this out through trail and error. I was running field experiments and I was the experiment lol. Seeing it like that made it mentally easier to deal with. It was easier to accept, that thing I thought would work didn't than telling myself off for being bad at talking to others. It felt removed from a personal judgement of me which helped me feel less embarrassed when I was being weird. Sometimes even if you're struggling with being in a situation, just finding somewhere to sit and exist there without feeling uncomfortable is an important thing to practise while you slowly learn to talk to people. Always give yourself options so you don't feel like a trapped animal in really hard social situations

It's worth paying attention to what people say and what questions very outgoing people ask to understand what makes a nice convo, it's often very similar questions until people find a nice sweet spot and things just flow because they hit a shared interest and even if that doesn't happen, small talk is nice. Learning to love dumb pointless yapping about the weather is a great thing to practice. The elderly love a chat, go to your local library and talk to an old person lol

There are channels on YouTube about learning to talk to people but you will run into manosphere content tho and I think it helps to build up your tolerance for discomfort and embarrassment first. Small discomfort and embarrassment first. No need to overwhelm yourself.

Not all convos will be good. Some will be short and sometimes you don't feel like talking. You don't get graded for saying weird freak shit to people lol and people will still talk to you again if you say something very dumb

[messymindofmine]

I know that I've talked about this before but this really is something that's been bothering me for so long now. Since the beginning of the show almost. I'm really sick of the hate TK has gotten from the start but even more than that, I'm sick of the hurt that this hate has caused people being ignored/invalidated. Since 1x02, there has been a common refrain of "Carlos deserves better than TK" and literally everything TK does (or doesn't do) is used as evidence against him. I'm also really over the people projecting their dissatisfaction over Carlos's arc this season onto TK. Just admit that you don't like the Iris storyline or the kids storyline without projecting onto the characters. Then again, I guess admitting that would mean having to admit that they actually never really even liked Carlos to begin with either and only acted like they did for as long as they could just blame his flaws and mistakes on others rather than acknowledge that he is a complex character in his own right and is allowed to mess up. It's honestly just plain annoying how so many of the people who've spent years ripping TK apart for every little thing suddenly started acting like they were only upset on his behalf this season with the Iris arc or 4x12 only to then revert back to the usual "TK doesn't love Carlos as much as Carlos loves him" refrain after 4x16. If they weren't mocking him for being "overdramatic" for being scared about the possibility of having Huntingtons, they were criticizing his wedding vows for not being good enough. Or they constantly act like any case of compassion towards TK's mistakes or talking about how he deserves love means we're ignoring Carlos. This has been going on since the start.

Now I'm not saying that there weren't people who weren't genuinely upset on TK's behalf this season nor am I saying that the people who were upset in general aren't valid. In my experience the people in the former groups aren't the ones continuously going on about how Carlos has been ruined for a start. What I am saying is that it's actually very easy to tell who was upset on TK's behalf/who had valid reasons for not liking these storylines and who was just upset that Carlos had fallen off the pedestal they'd put him on. Having watched the show since it first started airing, I actually didn't want to engage with the fandom at first because it felt like all I ever saw were people talking about how much TK sucked. And as someone who identifies with him, that really sucked. Obviously I realized that this attitude is not held by the majority but it still doesn't make it any easier to see this attitude floating around constantly. But what makes it even harder is how often I've had people reach out to me because they feel that their hurt over how TK is treated being ignored or even outright mocked. The fact that even Ronen has picked up on this and made comments about how he feels that people need to remember TK's struggles and how it affects his actions speaks volumes. I'm not trying to be negative, I'm just really exhausted and hurt over how much hate I've seen towards TK over the years and how often it feels like that has gotten swept under the rug. There are people in this fandom that actually deal with things like addiction and mental illness and it's been extremely disheartening to me to see how many have had to step back or leave the fandom altogether over the years because they just couldn't deal with seeing a character they see themselves in be torn apart constantly only for people to act like it's not even happening. The truth is that there is a lot of ableism wrapped up in how TK is often talked about in this fandom and honestly that's why I wasn't surprised at how Iris had been treated because if people can act like this towards a main character, what hope could a side character like Iris have? After all, there are people who seriously think that TK should just be able to make his mental health issues go away so that Carlos would never have to worry. And what these people conveniently don't think about is that Carlos loves TK as he is and would never want him to dismiss his struggles.

Again, I know that this isn't the majority and I know that most people do care but I also feel like this is something that doesn't get talked about as much as it should because real people have been and continue to be hurt by it

[bonefall]

something that I feel like is ignored by everyone in the fandom is how lionblaze didn’t even mean to kill russetfur. he was trying to get her of off firestar, who she was killing, and she wouldn’t let go so he pulled harder and she broke. i haven’t read the books in a good few years but I remember that he was horrified. yeah, battling is their whole culture, and cats inevitably die from it, but everyone saw him as a monster for something he didn’t even mean to do. honestly, I feel like he would’ve been justified in scratching flametail up a bit when he walked over the border and started taunting him. medicine cats must also follow the warrior code, which means no trespassing

another thing is that everyone gives him crap for like. imagining himself killing heathertail even though they were definitely intrusive thoughts and he was clearly upset about them. as someone with intrusive thoughts myself it’s pretty disheartening to see people talk about how that makes him an obviously bad person (cat?)

i want people to acknowledge that he’s scared by his own strength, that he’s scared he’ll hurt those he cares about, and that he was very much struggling after accidentally killing russetfur. yes, he’s really not that good of a character, but he still has internal conflicts and a personal story, and after a certain point he just sees himself as a war machine, something to be used for the good of the clan, no matter how he feels about it

ShadowClan's hypocrisy in that battle always frustrated me in general. At various points in TNP, Po3, AND OotS, ShadowClan openly and flagrantly disrespects the code and attacks over this border constantly. Then the minute ThunderClan retaliates at all, suddenly they have to hand-wring about how sad it is that it came down to this

Russetfur can kill whoever she wants but Lionblaze defending his leader? That's just too far I guess. Like what happened to the goddamn Battle Culture? These pansies would never survive a battle for Sunningrocks.

I remember being a kid and wanting this battle for SEVERAL books, and then getting to this battle and... honestly I can't really remember much after it. It probably actually made me ragequit lmao. I definitely did not get to Flametail's death.

Bonefall Lionblaze

Anyway I spoke about the fight from a Bonefall Rewrite lens a couple days ago if you'd like to see that, including how I want Lionblaze to take away how he feels like Bramblestar used him as a war machine, Dovepaw thinks it's ironic he resents the very thing he's doing to her, and also what the political ramifications will be in ThunderClan (mixed but neutral).

In addition this battle is now going to actually be something that Bramblestar could have avoided. Firestar is dead by the end of Po3, so there's no need for false signs anymore. Bramble just throws his weight around; ShadowClan doesn't act like the hypocrites they are in-canon either.

As for Lionblaze, he is getting a full character arc in Po3! The climax of it is during the reworked Tribe Visit, where the Clan cats help to remove Flick's rogues. Lionblaze learns a lesson too well; that the point of strength is to use it to protect others, and the mindset causes him to shove his daughters Ivypool and Dovewing into harm's way.

Though I'm also working out how much of Lionblaze being terrified of his powers is staying, and what it will look like. I think a problem with canon is that so much of it really gets lost... because he DOES become a short-fused, impulsive war machine after OotS.

In-canon he almost mauls Heathertail, DOES maul Crowfeather, kills Russetfur, takes a life from Harestar, and infamously threatens Shadowsight... and only one of these actions was accidental.

In my rewrite I'm actually MASSIVELY mitigating this by removing the mauling and giving that to Hollyleaf... and I'm considering what sort of person he's going to be post-OotS as well, if threatening what is now his GRANDSON (father of dovewing) is actually something Bonefall Lionblaze would do.

But... I do try to hold close to canon. So the question comes down to;

Keep the earlier material where he is grappling with intrusive thoughts, and write a less violent character in future arcs

Eliminate the intrusive thoughts so that his later, current canonical personality isn't bad rep.

I am leaning more heavily towards eliminating the intrusive thoughts, in this situation. I value my portrayals of neurodivergency and I am feeling that the way I plan to write this character (pro-war, assertive, being feared by other Clans) would make for really bad implications if he was also dealing with intrusive thoughts, and not just standard legitimate "oh god i cant control my own strength" thoughts.

I'm still unsure though. Let me know what you think I should do in this situation. I can elaborate if more context is needed.

Canon Lionblaze and bad mental health rep

in-canon, the problem is Lionblaze doesn't just have intrusive thoughts that terrify him and he desperately avoids- he has violent, impulsive actions to match and is a legitimate danger to the people who anger him, before and after losing his powers.

(the 'after' is important because this is not only a result of magic powers)

Squirrel it away under canon's horrible representation of mental illness; the only character that has ever had intrusive thoughts in canon is "holding back impulses" he acts on with increasing frequency. It is a very problematic concept to begin with.

For those who don't know; Intrusive thoughts are unwanted by definition.

An intrusive thought is the worst possible thing your mind can conjure up in that moment and are very upsetting to experience. Whims are not intrusive thoughts. They're common with anxiety, depression, OCD, and PTSD; and it is extremely rare (and a sign of a BIG problem) that they are ever acted on.

To be clear though... Lionblaze has not had an intrusive thought that we know of since OotS. After worrying that he would hurt Cinderheart, but then cat-marrying her... it seems like they've just gone away.

It could be that we aren't in his POV anymore, or, it could be that they've abandoned this aspect of the character. Considering that TBC Lionblaze has ended up changing into a character that is a lot more violent and impulsive, it seems to be the second option.

[mariacallous]

(JTA) — In his first posts about Hamas’ massacre of Israeli civilians, progressive writer Joshua Leifer expressed horror at the accounts of atrocities that were emerging from southern Israel. 

He also lamented the range of progressive organizations and figures who appeared to condone or even celebrate the attack — leaving him with “a deep sense that the left abroad has lost the values it was supposed to stand for.”

“I thought we were leftists because we wanted a world without war, torture, the killing of families & children in their beds,” Leifer posted on X. “Self-professed human rights defenders, even would-be colleagues are celebrating and glorifying unspeakable acts that violate the most basic elements of human life. I feel sick.”

The thread of posts — which Leifer later expanded into an article for the left-wing journal Dissent — struck a chord among other Jews on the left. The progressive Jewish writer Peter Beinart shared Leifer’s thread, saying it “captures my feelings exactly.”

Some progressive figures and organizations, from local Black Lives Matter chapters to the New York City chapter of the Democratic Socialists of America, have appeared to condone or even celebrate the massacre — which killed 1,300 people, largely civilians — as an act of resistance against an illegal occupation. Some Jewish leftists have mourned the slaughter while placing the blame squarely on Israel. 

And others who have also spent their careers opposing Israel’s occupation of Palestinian territory are now decrying their ideological allies’ refusal to condemn the killing of civilians — in some cases their friends or relatives.

“For the people who are most connected to people in Israel, this is a really, really hard and disheartening time,” said Arielle Angel, editor-in-chief of the progressive magazine Jewish Currents. “Because what they see is people totally dismissing the value of the lives of people that they know and that they think should not be considered collateral damage.” 

At the same time, Angel said, Jewish leftists are confronting another tension: They are reckoning with the mass killing of Israeli civilians by Hamas — and also continue to oppose Israel’s occupation and airstrikes on the Gaza Strip, which the terror group governs. 

“I think this is a new moment,” she said. “If you’re talking to American Jewish leftists, there’s a split in terms of where their energy is going right now.”

She added later, “I’m very scared about the future of the left in this moment.” 

Some on the left, including at least one Jewish writer, openly celebrated the attack shortly after it began. 

On Saturday, as Hamas attackers were still in Israel, Rivkah Brown, a journalist for the U.K.’s Novara Media, posted on X that the assault should mark “a day of celebration for supporters of democracy and human rights worldwide, as Gazans break out of their open-air prison.” The New York City Democratic Socialists of America promoted a rally expressing “solidarity with the Palestinian people and their right to resist 75 years of occupation and apartheid.”

And in the immediate wake of the massacre, some left-wing Jewish organizations said blame lay with Israel. IfNotNow, which opposes Israel’s occupation, said of the murdered Israelis that “their blood is on the hands of the Israeli government, the US government which funds and excuses their recklessness, and every international leader who continues to turn a blind eye to decades of Palestinian oppression.” 

Jewish Voice for Peace, an anti-Zionist group, acknowledged the “unprecedented assault” and the hundreds of Israeli casualties in an Oct. 7 statement that did not mention Hamas. 

“Israeli apartheid and occupation — and United States complicity in that oppression — are the source of all this violence,” the statement said. “Inevitably, oppressed people everywhere will seek — and gain — their freedom.”

Other groups such as Jews for Racial and Economic Justice tread a middle ground, saying, “We recognize that attacks on civilians by Hamas are neither justifiable nor unprovoked.”

Several days later, as the scale of the atrocities became clear, some of those activists walked back or qualified their statements. On Tuesday, New York City’s DSA said it mourned “the loss of life in the region” and apologized “for the confusion our post caused and for not making our values explicit.” It deleted its original tweet.

Brown also deleted her tweet and apologized on Wednesday. “I responded too quickly and in a moment of heightened emotion,” she said. “Witnessing Palestinians defy decades of oppression hardened me to the suffering of Israeli civilians, including my friends and family, and I regret that. I’m sorry.”

On the same day, Jewish Voice for Peace released another statement saying that it “mourns deeply for the over 1200 Israelis killed, the families destroyed, including many of our own, and fears for the lives of Israelis taken hostage.”

The group added, “the massacres committed by Hamas against Israeli civilians are horrific war crimes. There is no justification in international law for the indiscriminate killing of civilians or the holding of civilian hostages.”

On Wednesday, JVP spokesperson Sonya Meyerson-Knox said the group felt it was caught in a precarious position — fearing that public expressions of grief for Israeli civilians would fuel a harsher military response against Gaza. 

“We were feeling the incredible pressure of needing to say something that we hope addresses both our fear and our grief and our sorrow and our anger, and that doesn’t allow any of that to be used as fodder for the Israeli government and the United States government warmongering,” Meyerson-Knox said. “Many of us are feeling compelled to process our grief through a hard pivot to a prevention of a scale of death that is utterly inconceivable.”

The Israel Defense Forces has repeatedly said it abides by international law and takes measures to prevent civilian casualties, including by risking its own troops to reduce collateral damage. Human rights organizations and the United Nations have cast doubt on those claims and harshly criticized the conduct of Israel’s military, while other bodies — in addition to the United States and other allies — have defended Israeli actions. 

Angel said other activists on the Jewish left shared concerns similar to the ones expressed by Meyerson-Knox. 

“Even people who are not expressing grief right now are grieving, and it’s a question of whether they think that that grief is the most important thing, and what they think that public expression of grief is going to do,” Angel said. “People are afraid that there’s going to be a Palestinian genocide.”

The high death toll among Israelis on Saturday had forced a reckoning for some on the Jewish left, since in previous conflicts more Palestinians were killed, Angel said, though she added that the balance of casualties was shifting as Israel carried out airstrikes in Gaza.

“We have never seen Israeli casualties, at least in one event, that exceeded Palestinian casualties,” she said, stressing that she still believed the conflict is rooted in Israel’s occupation despite the death toll. “We have become practiced at answering that and at trying to help people see that. We are not practiced at a situation like this.”

[dreamerwriternstargazer]

I’ve been rereading Anne of Green Gables today and laughing over it a little, because Anne is so dramatic and of course I agree with her but also it’s… it’s funny now I’m a little older to read it and see how dramatic she is

And I suddenly just got this flash of a memory

Of when I was 11 and reading the bit where Anne’s a bit older, when she’s 16 and getting ready to go off to college, and feeling sad. Why did I feel sad? Well, because towards the end of the book Anne grows up you know, she gets a bit quieter and solemn and, all the things people become when they grow up. It’s a specific chapter in fact, where Marilla notes how Anne has changed and Anne laughs a little and says that she thinks as much as ever but she doesn’t express it so much because it’s nicer to keep it as thoughts hidden away - especially things people may not understand. That’s not the exact quote but the gist of it

And I remember reading that chapter and feeling sad, because Anne’s not quite the same and I really hoped she would be the same as she grew up, it seemed almost tragic that instead of talking all the time she keeps her thoughts as “dear little treasures locked away”, I wanted her to stay talkative and imaginative and full of big words and bravery as she always had. It comes up a few times towards the end of the book because the first book really does show Anne’s progression from child to the beginnings of adulthood, and while I did agree with Miss Barry later on who notes that Anne changing is like a rainbow, each shade is as pretty as the last, my 11 year old heart really felt sad I couldn’t have child!Anne for longer

I’ve felt that sentiment all these years and now, it’s sort of odd to read the misadventures of child!Anne and to laugh over them the way Older!Anne does and realise, oh. It’s happened to me too. I’m older.

And it’s odd because I barely noticed it happening, I didn’t realise it, or maybe I did and I forgot.

I feel it the way I smile and sigh over how small troubles are when you’re 12 but how big they feel, and the way it’s shown in Anne’s stories.

And in remembering all of this, remembering how my younger self wished for more of young Anne and how softly heartbroken I was over Anne growing up, I sort of wonder if she would be heartbroken over me?

I wonder what child!Star would think of me now. Not even child!Star, before I was Star. I wonder what she’d think of Star, of how I’ve changed. How I too don’t talk so much because people don’t always understand, how I keep my thoughts as treasures hidden away, would she think I was less brave or self assured for doing so? I sometimes wonder that myself on bad days. Days where I feel too worried and torn to know how to express myself, days where I’m scared to talk to anyone and make friends or just… talk in general.

I wonder what she’d think of how I don’t run and pounce onto people with a hug anymore, or how I don’t carry a whole Kate Weatherall bucket kit in my bag with me anymore “just in case adventure strikes”

I wonder what Star from 3 years ago thinks of me too.

And it’s not so simple as just growing up. I mean it never is, is it? Not even in Anne’s case, there’s a reason she becomes a little more reserved, not everyone is a kindred spirit. But somehow that makes it even harder because…. In the end, have I changed myself because of everything that’s happened to me? In the end, have I yielded to all that pressure to conform? I think that’s the bit that pained me then, that pains me now still.

I don’t give in, don’t give up. And I’ve had far harder, serious things to deal with for the past decade or so at least, but despite whatever I have gained I feel a little… disheartened to think that because I spent everything I could on the battlefield, I’ve forgotten bits of myself on no man’s land.

I feel happy I understand Anne a bit more, but I’m also saddened, but also not completely because it’s still different between us. Later, in another Anne book, Anne’s House of Dreams when she’s newly married to Gilbert, she meets a woman called Leslie. Though she wants to make friends with her she feels faraway from her, and someone tells her that’s because Leslie’s life has been so full of tragedy and Anne thankfully though not always having had a perfect life, did have a very full and happy one. I read that when I was 17 and felt a little glimmer of connection to Leslie but not so much because “surely I’ve had a happier life than her”, and as the years go on I feel it more and more, and though I’m grateful for all the good in my life Alhamdulilah I’ve become much more aware of how there’s…. There’s been more tragedy and pain than I could recognise. And part of the pain is this, is realising that as much as I try to pray and hope I am unscathed I am not, that there is something changed even if it’s small.

Even if it’s just hiding my thoughts away.

I might not be… soured or injured or bitter but… I feel disappointed I couldn’t hold on harder to that childish courage we all have in expressing ourselves to the world. And maybe it’s natural, maybe it would have happened anyway, but I feel disappointed all the same, it just so happens the disappointment is compounded with pain knowing that some of the tragedy has some responsibility in it occurring.

Knowing that this is the shellshock after a lifetime of demons and dragons that lurk in the dungeons

So, I don’t know where I’m going with this. Not really, not properly. These are thoughts I used to put in a journal but my journals don’t feel as natural for rambles anymore, my thoughts in them feel more natural in the form of poems and art.

It’s always possible to fix a problem, if you find one. I don’t know if this is a problem, I do know I’ve been fighting to remedy it this past year, to try to reach out to people and be a little more myself again, but I don’t know if I can change to that again. Or maybe I can, but there’ll always be some part of me that’s a bit more hesitant now. I’m describing growing up aren’t I? Losing your naivety, only it doesn’t feel like that because I feel strongly I wasn’t naive, only braver.

Maybe I was just braver because my armour was brand new, maybe I’ve pushed myself a bit too far since.

I don’t know. I don’t really know what this post amounts to, except for musing, and a question into the void, or to my younger self, am I a disappointment?

I… sincerely hope not. I hope that if she were able to see me she would still see herself. Something I struggle with on my worst nights. I hope that even if my younger self feels a bit of heartache at the change, she doesn’t see a stranger, I hope she sees a regeneration instead of a change. I hope she can smile and be glad of who she became even if she misses the people she was, because I’m not sure yet if I can.

I think… I understand the Doctor more than I ever did before this moment.

[sakuraoora]

I'm here for your follower event! My name is Mint nice to meetcha!

Regarding the event here my request.

Character: Kazuha

Song: Carousel (Melanie Martinez)

Lyric: "Why did you steal my cotton candy heart? You threw it in this damn coin slot."

Plot: Reader has an unrequited crush on Kazuha. Everytime they get try to tell him, he responds by saying" You're such a good friend to me." Reader is disheartened by this but doesn't want to give up trying to win Kazuha's heart. So Reader is stuck in a loop trying to win something that will never be theirs. (Also Kazuha is the type to me to not get attached romantically to someone. All people the man had loved has died so I think someone loving him will make him anxious)

Sorry I should have double checked if you can do angst. If you can't and need me to do a happier theme dm me☆

Hage a nice night or day!

WHY DID YOU STEAL MY COTTON CANDY HEART ?

Ships..? Kazuha x Reader

Warnings. Hurt / No comfort, angst, rejection. inazuma archon quest & kazuha backstory spoilers!

A/N. Hi Mint!! I hope this fic I wrote is good enough for your brilliant idea ♥. Also, don’t worry about the angst!! This is practically an angst blog at this point anyways LMFAO

This was originally going to be a modern au but I think this works better :)

"...WHY DID YOU STEAL MY COTTON CANDY HEART?"

"YOU THREW IT IN THE DAMN COIN SLOT."

Why?

Why couldn’t he see how much you loved him?

Every time you tried opening up to him, tried confessing your feelings for him, he… turned you down.

You understood his pain, of course. You were just as good a friend to Tomo as he was. You had felt just as much pain when he died to… well, that part isn’t very important.. But… this was too far, even for Kazuha. Kazuha was destroying himself in his grief for someone that was… gone, no matter how much he mourned. Attempts at comfort were pushed away, Kazuha being scared that he would lose whoever was with him.

Every time you saw him, a sense of dread filled your chest as he stopped being his past self.

It was terrible; and affected anyone and everyone who knew him.

Every time he boarded the Crux again, you saw him. You saw him, looking better, but still with something missing from his past self.

Beidou couldn’t have noticed. She didn’t know him before the incident happened. She noticed your caution and hesitance around him, though, yet… still didn’t question it. She knew you two had things that you had experiences that she couldn’t understand in the past, so she… left the problem to you, but you knew you could always talk to her if necessary.

Day after day after day, Kazuha became better at hiding his pain… until suddenly, one day he met an anomaly.

The Traveler, who could wield whatever element they chose, without a vision… could possibly awaken the dead vision of his lost friend. A spark awakened in Kazuha’s eyes… but was quickly extinguished when he realized they didn’t need to use any vision..

You were with him, Beidou and the Traveler when they made the long journey across the ocean to the land of your birth-- and long lost memories in the land of Eternity, where you would see the omnipresent god who killed your friends- one his life stolen from him, the other one the light in his mind, the glimmer in his eyes.

God, you hated him so much.

So why did you keep returning to him?

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