#Mdd

[coffeformwah]

i can’t put into words how much i hate myself no matter how hard i try

[in-a-continuous-daydream]

I can't fathom the fact that some people watch a movie, show or read a book they like and they just go: "I liked it :)" and that's it....girl how?? Whenever I like a movie, tv show, book or musical I need to inhale that piece of media like it's air, I need to self insert myself in it and create an elaborate plot line for my character in it, then I listen to music that reminds me of the piece of media and think of it 24/7, while obsessively rewatching scenes and analyzing every bit of it till I notice details nobody has seen, finally, I try to convince people to watch it with me so that I can experience it for the first time through them. Then my obsession dies and I feel empty until the next one comes along..... and you're telling me people can enjoy something and just...go to sleep and not think of it again????

[chaaistained]

[pvtashby]

Ok so I didn’t know daydreaming about whump was so common?? Wow. It should work the opposite way but imagining being tortured and acting a little bit of it out helps me sleep?? I pretend I’m a character and rescued after and then fall unconscious in someone’s arms and it works every time. Sometimes it takes me longer so I pretend like I’m in the ICU afterwards, listening half-conscious as people whisper about me in concern

[literarydesire]

“But you dont seem like someone with depression”

Sorry, let me just:

Stańczyk by Jan Matejko, 1862

[belldandies]

[botanical-garden-system]

Your symptoms don’t have to perfectly match the stereotypical view of the disorder.

No, you don’t have to have extremely distinctive alters or switch 24/7 to have DID/OSDD/PDID.

No, you don’t have to feel empty and sad 24/7 to be considered to have depression.

No, you don’t have to be super clean, tidy, and “perfectionistic” to have OCD.

No, you don’t have to be hyperactive externally to match an ADHD diagnosis (there’s inattentive, quiet types too)

Most of all disorders live on a spectrum, and within that spectrum are several smaller spectrums for each symptom. Everyone poses their symptoms differently, and every experience is very unique. The overall “umbrella” of a disorder is just for: 1) insurance diagnostic reasons and 2) to better relate someone’s experience to a broader experience.

The experience and symptoms you have matter a lot more than the label.

[creepy-dolls]

My lil pretty boy got his joints tightened todayyy

[verminedecline]

Im too scared. I can’t financially survive. Im not doing anything to help myself. I’m rotting. I don’t want to get up. I hope one day I won’t be so scared to cvt mys3lf open. I hope butterflies come out. I want it to be pretty.

[tumorwithadot]

NEURODIVERGENT FLAG STAMPS!

IN ORDER

bpd

autism

adhd

plural

psychosis

ptsd

selective mutism

mdd

misophonia

[belldandies]

[valteil]

更改名字

[lovingcorpse]

arohume - where one feels they're aromantic because and/or their aromanticism stems from their general disconnect from humanity and socializing.

made with mdd (major depressive disorder)/personality disorders in mind, but can be used for anything really (social anxiety, nonhumanity)

dont fucking ask me what any colors or names mean i dont fucking know okay

[str0yberries]

Aoi's (possible) MDD diagnosis

MDD, phonetics [em-di-di], refers to Major Depressive Disorder also known as clinical depression. It’s a mental disorder characterized by at least two weeks of pervasive low mood, low self-esteem and loss of interest in things previously enjoyed. So when I saw a few TBHK fans say the MDD diagnosis doesn't apply because the BPD one applies more, I have to take them up on the challenge!! Just to clarify one last time, I agree with the BPD diagnosis, but pushing off the MDD entirely out of the equation is simply reckless. Let's go ahead and refer to Canon media for pre-timeline Aoi (given we know close to nothing to the new timeline Aoi!)

Criterion A needs to meet 3 requirements: 5 or more of the following symptoms, Occur for at least 2 weeks and At least (1) or (2) must be present.

1. Depressed mood indicated either by subjective report (e.g., feels sad, empty or irritable) or observation made by others (e.g., appears tearful)  Aoi's mood is something she masks. As you read the proof I've provided underneath each symptom, you'll see Aoi's "sadness" and feeling easily hurt always ties back. She is a petty character, and petty character will, undeniably, make themselves miserable. This is an exemple of her aggressively lashing out at Akane (by this point, the drug has dissipated, for context to those that might've forgotten.)

2. Markedly diminished interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities most of the day, nearly every day (as indicated either by subjective account or observation made by others) Anhedonia. Aoi is known at the start of the manga as Nene's best friend and her gardening club buddy. While the manga has never explicitly detailed her love for gardening, there is a scene in chapter 59 where Aoi asks Akane to take a walk in the garden with her, which he declines (but that's besides the point) which shook her. This suggests a possible connection to her love to plants and gardens, but it's not a clear indication of a love for gardening itself. Aoi's other interests, such as her love for raspberry pie, giraffes, and quiet winter nights, are more explicitly mentioned, but here, she looks so gloomy to flowers especially considering her interest rapidly grows the second Hakubo destroys it accidentally (please refer to the 9th symptom).

3. Significant weight loss when not dieting or weight gain (e.g., a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month) or a considerable appetite change. N/A, the manga does not focus enough on Aoi to point this out. 4. Insomnia or hypersomnia nearly every day. N/A, the manga does not focus enough on Aoi to point this out. 5. Psychomotor agitation or retardation (observable by others, not merely subjective feelings of restlessness or being slowed down) When Aoi was kidnapped by Shinigami-san (Hakubo), she didn't react quickly or wiggle out as desperately as she wished. Seemingly slowed down. Although it only was showcased once, it is important to mention that Nene and Akane are much more panicked than her. Her mind is obviously telling her to move, get away, get out of this situation, but seemingly her body isn't following. Her instinct to live isn't moving according to her obvious will to get out. Even when Akane grabbed her, she doesn't react, her body slowing her down.

6. Fatigue or loss of energy nearly every day N/A, the manga does not focus enough on Aoi to point this out. 7. Feelings of worthlessness or excessive self-deprecation or inappropriate guilt (which may be delusional) nearly every day  Aoi seems to experience this inappropriate amount of guilt and take things Nene does personally instead of thinking the obvious: Her best friend is a weirdo. This could be excused with the fact she cannot see Supernaturals. Regardless, it led her immediately to presume Nene hated her. She also shows excessive self-deprecation when talking about herself to Akane, claiming if she married him, he'd be disappointed.

8. Diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, (either by subjective account or as observed by others) Aoi isn't a character that showcases her indecisiveness. She can be stubborn like any other human being and she's prideful, but when it comes to Akane, she is known to be indecisive whether to indulge him or let him go (because she doesn't think he truly loves her). That's why I look at this symptom and just want to scream "I SEE IT!! I SEE IT!!" But I can't find any proof besides this panel in chapter 68 when she's making an all-time decision between leaving him behind or staying with him.

9. Recurrent thoughts of death (not just the craving or fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation, or a suicide attempt or specific plan for committing suicide Aoi is an interesting character. Not only is she ACTIVELY interested in the occult and horror stories (when initially she claimed it was only because Nene liked them) but she thinks about death more than the main character who is plagued and doomed by the storyline due to her short lifespan. Here are a few examples of her expression softening, or even how peaceful she looks when death faces her.

Criterion B: The symptoms cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning. Canonly, it causes impairment in the social department of Aoi's life as Akane annotated. She struggles with making viable and long-lasting meaningful relationships due to not putting in energy to reach out first to individual.

Criterion C: Exclusion criteria- Not due to another mental disorder (e.g., bipolar), medical condition or drug. Note that there can be another mental disorder, but then this becomes a depressive episode, and therefore not Major Depressive Disorder. Here it's arguable on whether or not she fulfills this criteria. The version of the manga I have doesn't clearly state she was drugged, plus, quite a bit of her behaviour came out despite the drugging, which is why I decided to still put them down in this diagnosing. On top of it, no canon mental disorder is confirmed for Aoi (even if BPD is very much implied).

Take this with a grain of salt, I do think Aoi has BPD with traits of MDE (Major depressive episode - otherwise known as High functioning long-term depression). This was only a fun revision for my psychology class on why it isn't entirely inconceivable for Aoi to have MDD. Feel free to provide more proof or even just tell me if you think I'm wrong on a symptom. I had a ton of fun making this!

[coffeformwah]

i hate every aspect of my life and i wish i would just die

[creepy-dolls]

I’ve been distracted from by dolls by fandom for like months now but I just finished some custom eyes for this weird yandere freak