#Questioning ASPD

[egosuicide666]

i wish i could be more open about my sadistic traits. i feel so different from other people. i’m not sure if i want to be like everyone else . i like being different but it gets lonely. no matter what i feel incredibly lonely. like i’m an alien in this society. i feel so exhausted talking lately. what’s the point in talking if i’m not entertained? i rlly only talk on here and to my best friend. but that’s really it. i’ve gave up talking. it’s boring. small talk is boring.

[aspd-confessions]

Uh.

Questioning aspd culture is getting over the despair of being what I always saw as the bad person disorder and realizing I’m actually more normal than my entire social circle

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[narcbians]

When your friend who could understand you left so now youre stuck with people who will only demonize your traits ☠️

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd + suspected/questioning aspd is wanting to fucking blow up on ur fp because youve been pissed at them for an entire week now and you cant fucking take it anymore, you want to fucking snap at them, you want to release your anger at them because youve had ENOUGH. PLEASE FUCKK OFFDDD UHHHHDHHDDG I HATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUIHATEYOUUUUUUU ughHHHNNNrrr (and if u actually did blow up on them and then u then realize on what you just did after awhile ud then start splitting on urself and start sobbing because why the fuck did i do that?? why am i like thisbi should just fucking kms ib hate ut hsreeeee ughhh im such a fucking disappointment this is why ppl always abandon me)

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[decrepitasylum]

if I don't refresh myself about something or why I have it often enough I believe I don't have it and everything's a lie and im completely normal and making everything up

[xx-world-class-fuck-up-xx]

I thought I liked animals, but I like them under certain circumstances or if they're being good. Other times, I just want to wring their necks because they make me so mad

[iliveasalambforthelucidlydamned]

Either people with ASPD need to stop being relatable or I need to get checked.

[thearchivum]

I think it's pathetic to be an asshole openly. It's not that hard to be kind, and it's ultimately more beneficial. I literally cannot see any benefit in lashing out at others, so I don't. Even if I want to. 😒

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[redstaticphoto]

im specifically fronting to ask this. are there any resources for someone who might have aspd? our host has been considering it, because over the last couple of years of unpacking trauma responses and how we view the world it seems to keep coming up. but obviously if you fucking look it up all you’re going to get is “are you a sociopath” quizzes which are fucking stupid. we just want to know if we have traits. or even just any resources to help or anything anyone does to cope with this shitty way of existing. because even if we don’t have aspd itself then we can maybe just use coping tools that’ll help us anyway. whatever

if anyone has an answer feel free to reply I guess?

[egosuicide666]

i saw someone talk about how they used to hurt animals and i felt like i should too

when i was younger i used to take out my anger on animals.

hitting them,kicking, throwing .

the one i would do the most is restrict their breathing until it would whine or something like that.

i don’t do this anymore . i get urges tho. but i don’t plan on acting on it.

if you have struggled with this, just know you are not alone.

[phosphenemoth]

Let's all laugh at the fact that I got called a "jezebel", "a demon", and "An AI"... that the crazy bitch said "you're not real" to me... bitch I've been dissociating for years and trying to tell everyone I'm not quite human.

I'd rather think I'm an angel than a demon though, hehe 😎 💅💙✨️🌙🔪💫

My pinned post says it all, "Sweetheart with murderous thoughts." 😘

[narcbians]

I RECENTLY GOT 100 NOTES YEAHHHH THE SUPPLY IS RUNNING THEOUGH MY BONES (thank u guys)

[i-3at-s0ap]

Elon Musk isn't a sociopath Trump isn't a narcissist Jeff Bezos isn't a psycho they are terrible racist bigoted assholes but I'm begging y'all to fucking give a shit about people with personality disorders. PLEASE.

[xx-world-class-fuck-up-xx]

Lately I've just been feeling empty and cold inside

[ichorcast]

in some part of me i wish i could make more mutuals who have ASPD and join communities with people who have it. i want to be able to understand myself more

[thearchivum]

Most days feel like a battle to convince myself that the things I choose to do matter and I can't just wiggle out of consequences forever. Eventually they'll catch up to me. But that prospect feels so distant, I can't bring myself to care.