#Rambles Into The Void

[neurodivergenttales]

Hard to explain when people ask what’s wrong that you just don’t really like existing

[fullmoonfireball]

every1 so mean to me

[cutthroat-crimson]

Just a reminder that if your pfp is a character or some kind of animal, That is now my mental image of you

[elandrawssometimes]

People arguing about if zelink is canon as if albw didn't confirm it in 2013

[emsterrxo]

I can feel it coming, the emptiness taking over, that void demanding it’s due.

[staring-at-a-blank-pagee]

So... I just finished Celeste's chapter 9, and with that, I've seen pretty much everything the game has to offer (I have all strawberries/bsides/csides/moon berry), besides extras like the goldens.

I expected to feel more triumphant, because this is everything I've been working for after nearly 80 hours and over 18k deaths. But all I felt was.. sort of sad. Now I've seen every room. There's nothing new for me to explore.

The music, the art, the backgrounds, the level design, the powerful mental health narrative, everything about this game is incredible in a way I can't even fully explain. It feels magical, honestly. When I started it I just wanted a platformer to waste some time with between releases of other games I was waiting on, but it turned into one of my favorite games ever.

Around the middle of the game, I started looking more at Celeste groups online, and I saw a lot of people saying if they could replay one game with no memory of having played it before, it would be this one. At the time I didn't understand. Screens seemed impossible, levels slightly overwhelming, and I even had to put down my controller and step away a few times. Why would anyone want to do this again with none of their learned skills? But what I missed while preoccupied with the sheer difficulty of some of the levels for a casual player was how amazing it felt to be playing them at all. To be discovering new things and learning from each retry.

Even if I had to struggle through every seemingly impossible screen again, even if I had to relearn every skill and trick I've used, even if I had to live with some of that frustration again - I'd choose to replay Celeste with no memory of the first time in a heartbeat. I love Celeste, and I think I always will.

If you enjoy platformers, pixel art, mental health messages, or difficult yet rewarding games, I HIGHLY recommend you go play Celeste. It'll probably be one of the best $20.00 you've spent on a game (and it's worth way more than 20 honestly).

[oliviartist]

you know how when someone hates on Islam it’s called islamophobia / islamophobic

and when someone hates on Jews it’s call antisemitism / antisemitic

and when someone makes fun of Hindus is Hinduphobia / hinduphobic You know how Christians don’t have a word in English like that for us so I propose

antichristianic

STAY WITH ME PLEASE IM SERIOUS

it can be used in the same context as the ones above yes it only has one word but I think we could still make it work ( if you want to suggest something else I’m not gonna stop you)

[holdinbacksecrets]

it’s sunday night. tonight, tomorrow night, tuesday night. those are the nights i have left until i’m on my own again, in my own space, surrounded by peace.

i hope to write once i’m there because i miss the movement of stories from my mind to the page. i miss the hours spent editing. i miss the tingling anxiety that comes before posting. i miss the craving i feel for love existing in a new place.

i want to write svt pieces. i’m missing soccer player boyfriend jeonghan. i’m thinking about late night conversations in the car and the envelopment of love that finds you there (hansol, seungcheol, mingyu//soonyoung, seokmin, seungkwan//minghao, wonwoo, jun//jihoon, chan, jeonghan, joshua). i’m thinking about the process of becoming something more something new something different as two hearts get to know each other. i want to write svt pieces.

i have so many bf texts drafted on my phone too. then i talk myself out of finishing them.

my goal this year is to take a solo vacation and get tattoos at my destination. i already know where i’ll be heading.

how are you all doing?

[epic-mick]

Just been thinking about this great Duo that never got to live.

The tale of the Turtle and Hare vibe…

If Oswald gets his show back or even a new one, I want his pal to return

Storyboard by

Chris H

[flickafire]

oh how I miss the barnaby that looked like he has wanted to kill himself since he was 12

[kaluwa-del-conte]

*opens procreate*

*stares*

...Will today be the day?..

[fullmoonfireball]

big garlic 👍🧄 like if you agree

[kind-of-a-shitty-wizard]

hiii i got a little insane over haskills characterization in the other elder scrolls games / material. teehee rambling abt these ^ quotes under the cut (long). also im not that serious abt any of this tbh im just glad haskill appeared in any other elder scrolls material at all LOL

OKAY. okay. about these quotes. idk why other TES media does this, but in these quotes from elder scrolls legends + the interview with haskill it seems like the writers are pushing to give the impression that haskill slightly resents or is even indifferent to his position / the isles / sheogorath ?? (unless haskill is being a little bit more flippant or hyperbolic than usual...?) which is characterization that is NOT what i got from playing oblivion at all skdskdjfn

like... when i played oblivion i thought it was very clear that haskill prefers to be in the isles, serving sheogorath, more than anywhere else. (<- i think this is actually the reason he's technically "mad" even tho he seems sane outwardly. if you enjoy being among madmen it probably means you're mad yourself ykwim). i think haskill does like the isles, his ass is just reserved abt it, like he is about everything... yknow just like jeeves, whose character he's been compared to lmao:)

i think unfortunately some writers take his annoyance with the player and his slight second thoughts about sheogorath's plan in oblivion, and mistakenly assume that he's just annoyed at his whole position. haskill does have his moments of exasperation, but the thing is it's usually only exasperation and it never verges into anger or bitterness or resentment like the top quotes seem to indicate. for example, haskill says this abt his idea of you mantling sheo / the clowns debacle:

^ This quote is a good reference point for haskill's view on sheo bc its pretty much the most critical-of-sheogorath quote from oblivion i can recall, and it tells us a lot of things. in this quote he expresses some exasperation about the clown idea (because he's a prissy bitch who doesn't want to get his outfit dirty /affectionate) and shows some apprehension about one of his lord's ideas (because it involves you, and haskill doesnt like you). but these 2 points he has beef with aren't really reflective of sheo himself but of other issues - ie he doesn't directly question sheogorath. and IN THE END Haskill defers to sheo's judgement because haskill trusts him and values sheo's ideas. in all of his oblivion dialogue, this is the most critical toward sheogorath he gets, and he never outright insults or shows resentment toward him or the isles like in the above quotes bc his loyalty to sheogorath eclipses it

on the contrary (and i dont know why the writers for non-oblivion elder scrolls content dont seem to see this??), theres so much evidence that haskill actually does, you know,,, enjoy being in the isles. here are just some snippets i can think of:

"the isles are hardly a place for anyone, really" <- i BEG to differ, Haskill likes it here, he likes listening to prisoners being tortured in xedillian, he likes wearing his ridiculous frilly high collar outfit emblematic of the fashions of the isles, he doesn't care about morality and it suits him just fine that it doesn't matter here!! (the end quote might be him being a little facetious about relmyna but to be honest i wouldn't be surprised if he thought decency and morality WERE provincial notions because he certainly has no problem killing people lmao). and again, to enjoy doing these things / being around madmen probably says something abt haskill being mad himself. lol

not to mention he likes a bit of joking around. which i imagine sheo does a whole lot. when YOU rib him a little he says this:

his derision in the first bit i think indicates, "i cant believe you would joke around at a time like this," and the upturning of the "very good" i think indicates, "it was a good joke / maybe they could mantle sheo after all". he's not all dour - he appreciates a good joke, especially from (someone who's about to become) his Lord!!

and going a little deeper into haskill actually liking the isles... haskill clearly holds what sheogorath and the isles represent (chaos, free will, individuality) very highly. a good example of this is when you ask him about dyus, and he gives this snarky reply:

^ he says this with such VITRIOL its so funny :p and the amount of disdain in this line indicates (to me) a real conviction in his belief in the free will, chaos etc that sheogorath represents.

this is why i dont think this quote makes sense. "i cant remember why i put up with [sheogorath]" <- haskill wouldnt say this bc he understands fully why he puts up w sheogorath, and his own convictions in sheo that lead him to keep doing it, and even if this quote is him being hyperbolic, i dont think he'd joke about his faith in sheogorath like that because, yk, one of his characteristics is that he's extremely loyal, and moreover he never said anything to this effect in oblivion sdkjskdjs

him having a strong belief in what sheogorath / the isles represent is also evidenced by the language haskill uses when talking about sheo. whenever haskill mentions him, there is an element of poetry and respect to his words that shows that haskill thinks about him highly at the very least:

^ haskill constantly stresses sheogorath's intrinsic unknowableness and power and unique wisdom in a way that feels very respectful. saying "to attempt to fathom [sheogorath's will] is a foolish endeavor" shows that he knows there are unexplainable aspects to sheogorath that he takes note of, respects, and knowingly keeps his distance from... he gets sheogorath and reveres him (at least more than most others or the HoK). in these quotes especially, it feels a bit like hes trying to illustrate how impressive sheogorath is to the HoK, hyping up his boyfriend if you would. who said that. and combined with this respect is (i believe!!!!) a deep care. he is invested in the isles and sheo and wants to help them out of more than just duty. he gets fearful and even loses his composure at some points in the story when sheo/the isles are threatened which i think indicates that he deeply cares for them both!!:

i think this is a care that, combined with the respect he has for sheo, makes it really unlikely for him to get more than exasperated with his behavior and verge into resentfulness. i dont think anyone truly understands sheogorath, not even haskill, but haskill respects sheo as a god, and also gets him in a more familiar/personal way i think - like the way that a cat owner loves their cat but gets exasperated with it when it gets its head stuck in a tissue box. he doesn't angry or anything because he understands that it's the cat's nature to get stuck in the tissue box / sheo's nature to be wild and unpredictable and messy. (the difference being that sheogorath is an all-powerful god cat..... do u see my vision???)

anyway this got crazy long JHDSHFSD... to finish i wanted to look at this extra bit of characterization i found that was wild to me:

^ like. i truly dont get where they got THIS characterization LMAO sheo constantly calls haskill faithful and smart and knowledgeable in oblivion, he practically begs you to summon haskill for help, hyping up his boyfriend so to speak, they care for each other your honor so of COURSE sheo trusts haskill to do his job. what are the legends writers doing in there!!

ANYWAY dear god this got long im going to bed <3

[elandrawssometimes]

My GF thought Ganondorf was just some big sexy evil guy and went into the cutscenes not expecting him to actually be scary and that's the funniest shit to me

[itsnotmyfaultsomepeoplecantread]

How to be an omen (Part 1)

Do you ever feel like you want to be representative of the mysterious forces that are signaling the inevitable impending doom?

Well look no further! Here are five basic steps to making yourself into an ethereal being with the capacity to stir deep unrest into the hearts of the wicked.

Step 1: Be anything but the norm.

I cannot emphasize this enough. In order to fully live up to your potential, and truly create fear in the hearts of men, you have to be different. People hate anything that is different (though I can’t fathom why). So in order to successfully be an omen, you really have to make yourself scary.

Wearing black and dying your hair a bright color is sometimes a good place to start. But don’t worry if this is not your aesthetic! Anyone can be an omen. As long as a conservative white man is afraid of you, you are successfully doing your job.

Step 2: Make a list of mysterious sayings

The best human omens are ones that can cause discomfort by having the perfect response to normal conversations. Think long and hard about what makes you an omen. This should help you prepare for your conversations with the afflicted. Your existence itself is sign enough that the end is nigh, but how you represent that is entirely up to you!

Step 3: Frequently look off into the distance

In order to fully accept yourself as an ethereal being, you have to ensure that you do not come off as too engaged. A great way to start is to practice immersing yourself in your innermost thoughts. What truly lies beyond the surface, deep down in the pits of your soul? What kind of horrors within you will make the gods shiver and quake at the sound of your name?

Step 4: Commune with nature

Nature is an important part of being an omen. Crows and cats are known for their innate abilities as creatures of darkness. Immersing yourself in nature is a great way to embrace your new status. If you live in the city, you may still have access to wildlife. Start by feeding the crows. Then become friends with the crows. When you feel comfortable, unleash the storm of crows upon your enemies. Finally, become a crow and complete your transformation into a chaotic force of the universe.

Step 5: Have fun and be yourself!

The most important part of being an omen is to remember that at your core, you are already an omen. No matter what happens, you are a force to be reckoned with. Your existence is already scary enough to cause fear in the hearts of the wicked, and powerful enough to fight the gods. Don’t let the petty evildoers bring you down, because you are our chance at making the world a better place.

[staring-at-a-blank-pagee]

heyy cosmere side of tumblr HAVE YOU SEEN THE STUFF ABOUT 6:31 BECAUSE I AM GOING INSANE. WHAT DOES IT MEAAAAAAAN

and then yesterday Sanderson posted this on Reddit:

And even if you just look in the background of his videos!

Or the fact that in the Senne videos, the first 6 are titled with singular orders of the Knights Radiant (like windrunner), the next three are plural (like elsecallers) and there's one video left (bondsmith?) There's also suspiciously close to 631 videos on his chanel in general. PLUS LITERALLY SO MUCH MORE HELP