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The audacity of existence.
How dare you be concieved. To be blessed with the touch of angels, you golden haired goddess. How dare you force your reflection upon mine. The audacity to mirror me.
YOU.
I hate you. You are my purgatory, and hell resides within your dastardly light. You are the anthesis to my existance, my purpose, my life. Tormet me by image alone.
Do you know how much you have pained me? How much the mere sight of you, has distorted me? Ruined me? Hurt me? Questions your existance has plauged in my mind?
Look at you, my loathsome copy. You are nothing like me.
So then why?
Why does the universe kiss you gently upon a flushed cheek then heckle and spit on mine? Why are you the beloved golden duckling whilst i remain the unwanted black swan?
Why is it me who must rid myself of my body, blood, and mind. Discarding me of myself to end you? I have done nothing short of effort. I have given myself all to destroying you, to riding the world of you. Yet they love you. They do not love me.
We resemble eachother more than anyone else ever will. It is cruel a fate, to be devoted entirely to destroying a twisted reflection of myself. Burdened by both our images, drowning me in hatred made for both us. Yet you remain free, whilsy i remain prisioner.
It feels, as i seek to destroy you, i destroy myself. So i do. Over and over again. Yet you remain unscathed, bright and beautiful. Whilst i remain broken, left to rot in the mud. Helpless. Afraid. Alone.
Thinking.
What must i do? Who must i be to be kissed by the same light that dared to birth you?
Must i purge myself of all things to simply taste a fraction of it? How will i outshine you? Must I transform my body till there is nothing of me left, just to feel your light crushed beneath mine? Must i erase myself completly? Must i become you? Must i be you? Must i place my hands against your neck? My lifeless material crushing your ugly flesh to finally hear the last of your breath. Must i feel everyones glare peirce through my unending spine, wishing nothing but breaking every metal bone instead of me?
Must i take their love and desire and rip it from their broken hearts, forcing them to kneel before me and drag your dead light upon me? Must i become king of all things, living, dead and unalive, before i get a fraction, a mere TASTE of your life?
Is that what the world desires of me?
Is THAT what it takes?
my loathsome copy. Your existance is what destroys me. You are everything without me but i am nothing without you. Yet i am made to end you. To destroy the only thing, the only purpose i have in life.
You all look down upon me. Even my creator, cant seem to look at me without seeing you. Forever i am compared to you. Forever i think of only you. Forever i am destroyed by you. Forever i am devoted to destroying you. Forever i am afriad. Forever i am chained, cursed to this wretched body, reflecting you.
YOU.
I hate you. I loathe you.
....
What a cruel existance to be born, you and I.
I hope when i choke you death, you'll burn me alive.
#metal sonic#camomiletae art#sonic the hedgehog#a mixture of venting#its a vent that works i guess#wrote this in a state of what i can only describe as mania#a mix of my own obession mixed with its#i do not know if i love him or if i want to be him or if i want to kill him.#i do not know what love is#i only know what hatred is#but have experinced kindness#i do not want it but i am told i must have it#i want to die and i want to drag them all down with me#i want to live and i want to kill everyone around me#i relate to this character- metal sonic. or atleast whateber iteration i have concoted from him.#i think i am just as obessed with him as it with sonic.#desire is a fickle thing y'know?#metal sonic is full of desires. i am willing to extract all of it. its the only way i can express myself. through fictiomal characters#its like i am nothing without it. much how it is nothing without sonic#who am i even i dont know anymore#i think im going insane#no no... i have been for a long time. im only just started to realize it now.#dont worry about me. this is a vent. not even a character analysis. take it as you will.
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Bitter medicine by the crane wives is about undiagnosed adhd. By the way
#ugly sobbing ober the song#ugh#the crane wives#maybe not adhd specifically#but my overall mixture of troubles and problems#underacheiving eldest sibling#something about feeling like i have to shield everyone from my problems because its not their responsibility to fix them#and any sypmathy or help or even love they give me is wasted and better used somewhere else#yet at the same time trying so so hard to get all that and earn it and failing so hard without even knowing why#this isnt even a vent really i am just dissecting#this is strictly academic
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I’m just saying I think he has a type (Patreon)
#Doodles#Wander Over Yonder#Commander Peepers#Sylvia#Black Eye#I guess technically sort of lol#The implication of ♪ The lead-up to ♫#I read Peepers as bi with a preference towards men and Sylvia his inverse lol#They work well as mlm/wlw solidarity too! Including understanding each other in That Bi Way y'know?#But I do also think that Sylvia is his type haha ♪ All these things can be true at once! Relationships are complex and ever-changing!#I also think it works best one-sided on Peepers' end - Sylvia is busy! And as just stated relationships are complex#Not just in trying to keep a relationship - they do see each other fairly often! - but also in keeping it private to both of their comforts#Being found out by their counterparts would be interesting hehe ♪ Wander would support them of course#Hater would probably be furious even just at knowing Peepers had a crush on her tbh - feeling lonely but also worried about intel haha#He's smart he's not going to go around leaking information like that! If anything he'd probably just be more ruthless to vent his feelings ♫#''Grop-darn Zbornak with her ability to bench me and stomp me into the dirt >O('' lol#The interpretation of him thinking he's sick over thinking he's romantically entangled is so correct#I also like the thought of Sylvia immediately having a repulsion reaction to finding out that Peepers likes her haha#''He WHAT??'' Wander would probably not help in her coming around just infodumping all his good points that she's not interested in lol#But then seeing him being that perfect little mixture of pathetic and competent that Peepers exemplifies <3 What's not to like about him#They have the right dynamic to get close! They have the potential! Fumbling and awkward the whole way but what other way is there hehe#It'd be so fun to watch ♪ What's there is already so fun to watch!
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#not to vent here again#but diplomka had been killing me lately#like today in lab was brutal#didnt get to eating till like 4pm#left after 7pm#and things got really complicated#there is so mutch more work to do#like week worth of it#and the plan was to finsh with lab work this week and focus on writing#and I just cant be in lab and writing#am just not capable#so yeah kinda feel like crying and giving up#tho I have to say my supervisor had been extremely kind#but also#am gonna see my crush tomorow#and if things work out#there is a change we will take a walk to rozarium together#and i did get to kiss him on the cheek yesterday#and its still giving me endorpphins#and everithing is starting to bloom andight is longer#and I love it#and I am kinda in love#so its this really weird mixture of feelings#I just dont know really#but yeah I guess spring and my crush and kindness of my supervisor are keeping me from mental breakdown#still weird mixing all this ositive and negative feelings
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Venting
Has anyone vented to friends and feel like you're doing it too much sometimes? Like practically making yourself seem like a nutcase? I tend to vent to them a lot because I literally have no one else. I also don't like trauma dumping on them sometimes cause I know it can be triggering towards some. I just want to look at life in a new light and move forward from real life stuff.
Depression can be a really dark place sometimes and those who need to vent will always have a place on here to vent on. Even if no one responds to your vents at least you got it off your chest. Never feel like you are alone in this world because baby you're not. You have several people you can count on. If they get annoyed with you because your mind won't stop and need to vent it out, there's always someone else that's willing to listen. I try to be there for everyone who needs someone to vent to as in the past I was told I was always around drama when it wasn't drama it was my mind filled with lost, confusing, and sadness that wouldn't go away. Sure there may have been drama related depression, but that doesn't mean that it still wasn't affecting me in some way or another. We all go through a lot when you're on IMVU there's no avoiding it. However you can make decisions that will make it better on your mental health, even if that means leaving old friends behind because they couldn't give you the friendship you'd give them in a heart beat. If your friends can't be there for you when you are for them they are not your true friends. You have to have balance and that is not it. Sorry for rambling..
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I'm sick and Im pretty sure that I have something chronic, which the sickness is making way worse.
Today I:
Have been lightheaded for the majority of the time that I'm standing, and also sometimes when sitting.
Have been get presyncope much more often and more intense than usual. I've almost fallen over multiple times.
Brain fog on and off
Sore in EVERY joint. But more intensely and consistently in my back/neck, and my hips.
Stuffy nose. This isn't related to the chronic thing but this lead to my ears popping which was really weird.
Random foot cramp that just happened
Feels like I've done something to my hips. Possibly subluxated? Feels wrong and out of place and kinda hurts. I can fix it though
Headaches
Fatigue
Breathlessness. Going up and down the stairs a little too fast makes it seem like I just ran a race
My lips are as dry as the Sarah fucking desert
Been using a heating pad all day
Had to take two separate, fairly long breaks while walking (slowly) up a normal house-sized flight of stairs from lightheadedness and being out of breath. The second break was just me sitting at the top of the stairs for like two minutes
#so thats fun#theres more but this is mainly about the mystery chronic thing#so all these symptoms i get regularly#just not as often and usually not as instense#and im also really fucking stressed#random shit#very random post#being sick is the worst#i fucking hate it#vent#i guess#mystery illness#chronic illness#chronically ill#ehlers danlos syndrome#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#or#anemia#or a mixture
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thought dump
#venting in tags can be soo therapeutic#just a bunch of feelings may not be totally related to each other#sometimes (a lot of the time) theres just this sinking emptiness in my gut. some mixture of loneliness and and self loathing but it also#feels like nothing#part of me is convinced that im hard to love#and i try to compensate by avoiding conflict at all costs and trying to live up to my high moral standards#and i feel so much shame for feeling anger that i try to avoid it but it always bubbles up and gets worse#i wanna be heard i want the people i care about to understand how i feel!!! but i feel like shit for feeling all this and isolate myself#and i wonder why i turn out so resentful and why im struggling to form new connections!!!#feeling like a double edged sword GOD I HATE TALKING ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS SO MUCH#suspecting (quiet) bpd... but who knows#me when i suffer but i try not to let anyone see even though the Thoughts are swirling in my head constantly and i suffer 10x more#the little things just feel soo big#at least i love hard and try to be kind <3#trying to heal#brought to you by lena luthor s6 talking to alex about not feeling like part of the team and not feeling like enough of a hero#and trying to atone for her past actions and feeling so horrified at the things she did#i felt that
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I'm gonna be honest, I really haven't been doing well recently and I know it's probably been pretty obvious but I just felt like I should say something. I don't think I'll be super active for a few weeks
#taking a little break#vent ish#thats not to say im gonna be completely gone i'll be around liking people's stuff and commenting and replying and stuff#i probably just wont be posting#this isnt really anyone's fault its a mixture of stuff online and offline that have taken up a lot of my energy to deal with#i have trouble pacing myself and i like to smash out things all at once and feeling the consequences after#i just need a little bit of time to unwind yk#im still happy to talk to people!#just not about anything that makes me stressed i'll back out if i feel like i'm being pressured#i think its burnout? i dont know.#just dont expect much from me rn#is this a hiatus?#i think so#its loud in my head
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#gonna fucking die actually#This mixture of being too autistic to live and not truly human is making me wanna bash my head into the wall#or claw my skin off#I feel fucking disgusting and so tired#This isn’t what I am but I can’t be anything else and I wanna fucking cry#vent tw#Im not gonna make it to twenty at this point
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Feeling kinda down
#i have been for a little bit#probably around a week#i decided to make a vent post just to organize my thoughts#it's a mixture of a lot of things#there's been a lot of cancelled plans#i haven't really had time with any of my friends lately#conflicting schedules and whatnot#my job has gotten kinda monotonous#at home my mom has been even more prone to shouting than usual#school has just started which is taking most of my energy and motivation#ive also just been overthinking a lot lately#i haven't been able to shut it down like i usually do#i know it's mostly bullshit#but like it's hard to not feel like shit when your brain is spending a chunk of energy on that bullshit#ive also been pretty consistently tired lately#mainly on the mental front#there's definitely more little things but those are the main things#just been kind of a background thing#the vibes aren't vibin#not the end of the world but it's making things harder than it should be#gobby rants
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My own personal vent, not imvu related...
There are times I wish I could go back in time and just fix little mistakes that could have made my life easier/better. I feel like I'm constantly listening to the same song over and over in my head. We face many challenges, many struggles. Someone once told me it's a life lesson that is being shown to help guide you to where you're suppose to be. We have to grow in order to procede. Those who are friends with me I am sorry I am not perfect, I to struggle daily with battles some I don't even express. Those who know what I go through are those who I trust the most. I will try to be less ventful to those who don't want to hear it anymore. Those who I know that will always be there will be the ones I go to the most. I know some struggle with their own issues and I am sorry for what adventure or troubles you are facing, I'll be there for you when you need me to be.
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Everyday I’m stuck in the constant push and pull of do I actually want to start dating because I genuinely desire a relationship at this point in my life or do I only want to do it because I’m tired of being infantilized and talked down to by certain people and want them to shut the fuck up
#probably a mixture of both tbh#vent (?) kinda#idk I guess I have time to figure how much is me and how much is what surrounds me
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chat is it normal to feel completely desensitized to feeling constantly sick that when you’re actually sick you feel like it’s not enough to warrant it
#due to long covid or possibly weed usage or a mixture honestly still very unsure#i was incredibly nauseous pretty much constantly and would be sick daily for weeks at a time#that lasted like a year i still get flare ups of that if i over exert myself but it’s like basically fine now#but now i have disease that makes me nauseous and throw up and im like. okay 👍#this doesn’t feel like big enough of a problem#like those are my main symptoms but it feels like they’re meaningless bc ive had this just normally before#i haven’t been able to eat or even drink really without feeling or being sick#hoping i wont vomit again tonight almost every time ive eaten since yesterday i have and i had dinner like an hour ago#sorry so fucking tmi i feel really weird talking to anyone about this but i feel like i need to bc ??? fucked up idk#really fucking dehydrated also which is helping me not be sick but i think is giving me more of a headache#i have bad health ocd stuff also so i keep thinking im faking for various reasons anyways#i feel like thinking about this is going to make it reality even though i start thinking about it bc im feeling it#i keep trying to just make myself normal and not experience any of these symptoms bc i feel like i can control it (i cannot)#it’s only with nausea stuff bc it all surrounds emetophobia i know i can’t like stop a sore throat or something but this comes out of me#i could just not#sorry for talking way too in depth about my diseased body and mind#i had a super strong stomach as a kid like went 7 years or something without vomiting and then this shit started idk if the way i do it is#normal??? like this sounds so stupid but i feel like im subconsciously forcing it to happen bc idk how it’s supposed to be and it doesn’t#feel as bad as it should be#i think the fact it’s happening at all is bad but it feels like im being overdramatic#anyways yeah ive been feeling like shit lol i hate this stuff bc while i have the actual physical stuff i also start getting ten billion#mental problems about it as well#emetophobia#vent
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Why do i always get hit on when I'm at my grossest? I swear i get more offers of courtship when i look like a chewed-on log of salami than literally any time i put actual effort into my appearance.
God forbid i wear make up, the glitter with startle the suitors! Quickly! lather yourself in grease and be miserable! It is the only way to find a husband! And don't you dare think about brushing that rat king you call a pony tail either! Lest they call you a witch!
#idk what this is.#vent#vent post#shower thoughts#tbh i just got hit on by this really cute guy while walking my dogs#but rejected him out of a mixture of habit and panick#not because he was cute but because i was DISGUSTING#sweaty and unshowered for four days#thanks depression#but he still called me hella gorgeous#ty mystery man i hope you drive past me again so i can tell you I'm just an absolute goober#you a real one#ink talks#inkblabs
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Hi! I really like your headcanons! I was wondering if I could make a request for sebek, azul, jade, trey, and rook? Or whichever you want! The prompt: they forget they had a date with you and stood you up accidentally
Accidently Standing You Up On A Date
( ✧ ) ────── boyfriend stories . fluff/drama - she/her .
- [𝐜𝐡.] trey . azul . jade . rook. sebek
- [𝐩:𝐬] nothing rlly
Note: Thank you so much for enjoying my hcs!! >︿<
Trey Clover
Trey is usually responsible and dependable, so when he realizes he completely forgot your date, he feels a wave of guilt wash over him. It probably hits him when he's in the middle of baking or helping out with a club activity, and suddenly, it clicks: he was supposed to meet you an hour ago.
Panic isn’t usually Trey’s thing, but right now, he’s scrambling. He quickly wipes his flour-covered hands, grabs his phone, and sees several missed messages from you. His heart sinks. Trey knows he’s messed up big time, and he doesn’t waste another moment.
Rushing over to where he was supposed to meet you, he spots you sitting alone, looking a mix of sad and disappointed. He takes a deep breath to calm his nerves before approaching you.
“Hey...” he calls softly, guilt heavy in his tone. As you look up, he’s already beside you, his usual calm smile tinged with regret. “I’m so sorry, (Y/N). I completely lost track of time. I know that’s no excuse. You must have been waiting for a while.”
Trey would be the type to offer a heartfelt apology without making any excuses. He’d carefully listen to you vent your feelings if you needed to, never once interrupting or brushing it off. When you finish, he gently takes your hand.
“To make it up to you, how about we go out right now? I’ll take you anywhere you want—no distractions, just us. I’ll make it up to you, I promise. And... I’ll bake your favorite treats tonight. Please let me make this right.”
Trey’s sincerity and his gentle, caring nature would shine through. You know he genuinely didn’t mean to hurt you, and seeing him so remorseful makes it hard to stay mad for long.
Azul Ashengrotto
Azul prides himself on his organization and punctuality, so when he realizes he’s missed the date, his reaction is a mixture of disbelief and sheer panic. Maybe he got caught up in an overwhelming amount of work at Mostro Lounge or was drawn into an elaborate scheme. Whatever the reason, once he notices, his stomach twists painfully.
He fumbles for his phone, muttering curses under his breath, and when he sees your unanswered messages, he nearly drops it. Azul’s mind races, already imagining the hurt expression on your face. He feels sick with guilt, but Azul’s pride prevents him from sending a rushed apology text. No—he needs to do this in person.
He fixes his tie and tries to compose himself, but his nerves are shot. When he finally finds you, he hesitates, seeing the disappointment in your eyes. Azul straightens his posture, but there’s a rare, unguarded vulnerability in his gaze.
“Angelfish... I have no excuse. I failed to keep my promise, and I know I’ve hurt you. I cannot begin to express how regretful I am.” He pauses, voice softer. “Please, allow me to make it up to you. I’ll do anything you wish. A special evening at Mostro Lounge? A dinner prepared just for you? I just... I can’t stand knowing I’ve made you feel this way.”
Azul’s usual eloquence is laced with genuine worry. He hates feeling powerless, and the idea of losing your trust makes his chest ache. He’s prepared to offer you anything, but what really matters to him is hearing that you forgive him.
Later, he’d spend days planning something extravagant—a private dinner at the lounge with a dish named after you, symbolizing how important you are to him. He’d also be more careful about balancing his commitments, never wanting to repeat the mistake.
Jade Leech

Jade is usually composed and meticulous, so forgetting a date with you would be unusual for him. It likely happens when he’s out exploring the mountains, captivated by a rare mushroom species, or when he’s helping Azul at the lounge. Time tends to slip away from him when he’s fully absorbed, but the moment he remembers, his eyes widen just a fraction—an uncharacteristic break in his calm demeanor.
Jade takes a moment to assess the situation, letting out a small, almost amused sigh at his own mistake. Despite his outward composure, he feels a twinge of guilt. He quickly makes his way to the agreed-upon meeting spot, already calculating how to smooth things over.
When he finds you, his smile is warm but slightly apologetic. “Ah, there you are, my dear. I must apologize—it seems I lost track of time. I didn’t intend to keep you waiting.” His tone is calm and sincere, but he’s carefully observing your reaction, those heterochromatic eyes studying every flicker of emotion on your face.
If you express your disappointment, Jade’s smile softens. He steps closer, his hand brushing against yours. “It’s quite unlike me to be forgetful. I must have been too engrossed in my tasks... but that’s no excuse. Allow me to make it up to you. Perhaps a private dinner at the lounge? I’ll prepare something special myself.”
Jade is surprisingly gentle when making amends, and though he’s skilled at charming his way out of situations, this time, his apology is genuine. He doesn’t want you to doubt his intentions, and he’ll be extra attentive during your rescheduled date, showing that he values your time.
Rook Hunt
Rook is often poetic and passionate, but his passion can sometimes lead him astray. He probably gets caught up tracking a rare beast or observing the beauty of nature, completely losing track of time. It’s only when he notices the setting sun and the quiet of the forest that it hits him—he was supposed to meet you an hour ago!
Immediately, his heart pounds with both excitement and guilt. How could he, the ever-attentive hunter, forget his most beloved prey—you? Rook rushes back to campus, all the while crafting apologies in his mind. When he finally finds you, his face lights up with relief and regret.
“Mademoiselle! Mon trésor!” he calls out dramatically, dropping to one knee as he takes your hand, his green eyes sincere and almost pleading. “I have committed a most grievous sin! To leave you waiting, unknowing of my whereabouts—it wounds my heart! Forgive me, for I am but a fool who let himself be enchanted by the wild’s siren call!”
He listens attentively as you express your feelings, never once interrupting, and when you finish, he holds your hand to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to your knuckles. “Your forgiveness would be a treasure I would cherish. Allow me to make amends! I shall devote myself entirely to you for the evening—whether a serenade, a meal, or a grand hunt! Whatever your heart desires, I shall deliver!”
Rook’s apologies are grand and sincere, and his poetic nature makes it hard to stay upset. He’s genuinely remorseful and will likely spend the rest of the night showering you with affection and compliments to make you smile again.
Sebek Zigvolt
Sebek prides himself on his loyalty and punctuality, especially when it comes to his duties—or anything related to Malleus. So, when he realizes he missed your date, it’s like his entire world comes crashing down. He was probably caught up training or attending to Malleus, and when he remembers, his reaction is explosive.
“What?! I—IMPOSSIBLE! HOW COULD I—” Sebek’s voice booms as he panics, his brain trying to comprehend his mistake. He’s frustrated with himself and mortified at the thought of letting you down. Immediately, he sprints to the meeting place, not caring about the curious stares from fellow students.
When he finds you, his loud presence precedes him. “HUMAN! I—” He stops abruptly, seeing the hurt on your face, and his usual loud demeanor softens, his ears lowering slightly. “I... I failed to keep my word. There is no excuse for such negligence. You have every right to be upset with me!”
His fists clench at his sides as he struggles to maintain his usual proud posture, but you can tell he’s beating himself up inside. “I... I was training. I thought I’d be back in time, but I was careless. I do not deserve your forgiveness!”
If you tell him how you feel, Sebek’s frustration with himself only grows. “To fail both you and my own standards... I will accept any punishment you deem fit! But... I will not let it happen again! You are important to me, and I should have prioritized our time.”
Sebek would spend the next few days making up for his mistake, offering to accompany you everywhere, carrying your belongings, and trying to be extra attentive. He doesn’t quite know how to express affection as gracefully as others, but his efforts to make it up to you are both endearing and earnest.
#twst x reader#twisted wonderland imagines#twst headcanons#twst imagines#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland headcanons#twisted wonderland scenarios#twst fanfic#twisted wonderland x reader#trey clover x reader#azul ashengrotto x reader#jade leech x reader#rook hunt x reader#sebek zigvolt x reader
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this love shit sucks! 🎤 chan x reader.
(although he does say, "if we’re still single at thirty…" and doesn’t finish the sentence.) ⸻ ikaw mula noon anniversary series 🎵 pare ko, eraserheads
includes: friendship, romance; mentions of alcohol consumption, drinking buddy!chan, idiots in love, feelings realization/denial
Cocktail Recipe: The One You Call After Midnight
Ingredients:
1 overflowing cup of shared McDonald's fries (cold, soggy, mysteriously comforting, eaten out of the same crumpled paper bag like you're two raccoons in love denial)
2 and a half shots of bottom-shelf tequila (regret optional, bonding inevitable, courage-enhancing in small doses)
1 splash of "remember that time?" nostalgia, aged to perfection
3 heaping tablespoons of mutual exasperation with dating apps and the people who say "I love hiking" unironically
5 a.m. pancake runs (substitute with waffles during emotional emergencies, or hash browns when one of you is "definitely not crying")
A generous dash of your laugh when he's tipsy and trying to flirt with the bartender (badly, tragically, like watching a puppy chase a car)
1 cracked phone screen from a drunken fall, both of you insisting "it still works!" as you use it to take blurry selfies
4.5 late-night heart-to-hearts, stirred, not shaken, spilling over with half-truths and quiet hopes
Half a teaspoon of lingering eye contact that lingers too long to be innocent
A pinch of jealousy when he hears about your date with that guy who wears too much cologne and keeps calling you "babe"
One whole hoodie you "forgot" to return, now infused with your perfume and his growing confusion
1 emergency Uber ride where you fell asleep on his shoulder and he didn’t wake you
A fistful of inside jokes nobody else understands
A drizzle of the way he says your name when he's tipsy and a little too honest
Instructions:
In a dimly lit dive bar, begin with two and a half shots of tequila. Let the burn fuel a flurry of increasingly unhinged stories about failed Bumble dates, including the time you matched with someone who brought their mother to the first date. Laugh until your sides ache and your cheeks hurt, and then laugh some more when he accidentally spills salt all over his lap.
Fold in the McDonald's fries, ideally consumed while sitting on a questionable curb somewhere, his jacket over your shoulders, your eyeliner smudged but your sarcasm sharp as ever. Bonus points if someone honks at you and he flips them off in your honor.
Add the pancake run. This is not just food—this is sacred ritual. Let the syrupy comfort of carbs at ungodly hours soften the sarcasm into something suspiciously affectionate. Watch him butter your pancakes without asking. Pretend not to notice.
Slowly mix in mutual venting over dating apps. Grind in just enough existential dread to bond over, but not so much that you both give up and start a cult. (Although he does say, "If we’re still single at thirty..." and doesn’t finish the sentence.)
Pour in the eye contact. Let it simmer. Make it weird. Let it stretch one second longer than friendly. (He'll notice. You both will. You'll pretend not to.)
Sprinkle in the laughter that always bubbles up when one of you tries to flirt with someone else and fails miserably. Stir gently until the moment turns from teasing to strangely quiet. Add a drop of "I didn’t like seeing you with him" and swirl it around, but don’t speak it out loud.
Let sit overnight. Preferably on his couch, under a shared blanket that neither of you acknowledge. Feet brushing. Breaths syncing. You pretending to be asleep when he tucks a pillow under your head, his fingers brushing your hair for just a second too long.
Reheat the whole mixture the next morning over texts that begin with: "U alive?" and evolve into memes, in-jokes, and that picture of you both with fry grease on your cheeks. Serve alongside a hoodie that you definitely stole on purpose and are wearing as you text him back.
Optional garnish: One cracked phone screen, a symbol of the chaos you both embody. Neither of you has it together, but the fractures make it easier to see each other clearly. The love slips in through the cracks, doesn't it?
Finally, pour everything into a tall glass rimmed with realization and just a hint of fear. Drink slowly. Sip cautiously. Let the flavors settle as he watches you, mid-laugh, bathed in streetlight and absurdity, and thinks: God, I am so fucked.
Serving suggestion: Best enjoyed when you least expect it—possibly during a shared hangover on his couch, wrapped in a blanket that smells like comfort, old fries, and something that might just be love in disguise. May pair well with strong coffee, scrambled eggs, and the possibility of something more.
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