#but have experinced kindness

[squeiky]

The audacity of existence.

How dare you be concieved. To be blessed with the touch of angels, you golden haired goddess. How dare you force your reflection upon mine. The audacity to mirror me.

YOU.

I hate you. You are my purgatory, and hell resides within your dastardly light. You are the anthesis to my existance, my purpose, my life. Tormet me by image alone.

Do you know how much you have pained me? How much the mere sight of you, has distorted me? Ruined me? Hurt me? Questions your existance has plauged in my mind?

Look at you, my loathsome copy. You are nothing like me.

So then why?

Why does the universe kiss you gently upon a flushed cheek then heckle and spit on mine? Why are you the beloved golden duckling whilst i remain the unwanted black swan?

Why is it me who must rid myself of my body, blood, and mind. Discarding me of myself to end you? I have done nothing short of effort. I have given myself all to destroying you, to riding the world of you. Yet they love you. They do not love me.

We resemble eachother more than anyone else ever will. It is cruel a fate, to be devoted entirely to destroying a twisted reflection of myself. Burdened by both our images, drowning me in hatred made for both us. Yet you remain free, whilsy i remain prisioner.

It feels, as i seek to destroy you, i destroy myself. So i do. Over and over again. Yet you remain unscathed, bright and beautiful. Whilst i remain broken, left to rot in the mud. Helpless. Afraid. Alone.

Thinking.

What must i do? Who must i be to be kissed by the same light that dared to birth you?

Must i purge myself of all things to simply taste a fraction of it? How will i outshine you? Must I transform my body till there is nothing of me left, just to feel your light crushed beneath mine? Must i erase myself completly? Must i become you? Must i be you?  Must i place my hands against your neck? My lifeless material crushing your ugly flesh to finally hear the last of your breath. Must i feel everyones glare peirce through my unending spine, wishing nothing but breaking every metal bone instead of me?

Must i take their love and desire and rip it from their broken hearts, forcing them to kneel before me and drag your dead light upon me? Must i become king of all things, living, dead and unalive, before i get a fraction, a mere TASTE of your life?

Is that what the world desires of me?

Is THAT what it takes?

my loathsome copy. Your existance is what destroys me. You are everything without me but i am nothing without you.  Yet i am made to end you. To destroy the only thing, the only purpose i have in life.

You all look down upon me. Even my creator, cant seem to look at me without seeing you. Forever i am compared to you. Forever i think of only you. Forever i am destroyed by you. Forever i am devoted to destroying you. Forever i am afriad. Forever i am chained, cursed to this wretched body, reflecting you.

YOU.

I hate you. I loathe you.

....

What a cruel existance to be born, you and I.

I hope when i choke you death, you'll burn me alive.

[cloneboywonder]

im so CWCcoded

[waluigisgaybf]

I want a romantic relationship so fucking bad

[wizzardhat]

For the emperor, most dialog options you get to tell him to fuck off kick rocks etc. Is like "you're a monster afterall, i never should have trusted an illithid" but honestly by the end of the game i was like "actually i do believe indipendant illithids free of a hivemind have the capacity for emotion including compassion and love, even if its not the same kind i experince, and are therefore worthy of trust and friendship. I just think you specifically are an asshole."

[caruliaa]

girls when the world around them cant decide if it thinks freedom comes from adulthood or childhood but you never had a free childhood and in order to earn your freedom as an adult youre going to have to give up your other freedoms and you are never going to win .

[muzansfangs]

NSFW ALPHABET — Grimmjow

Starring: Grimmjow x f!reader

Format: head canons

Warnings: nsfw, vaginal sex, spanking, degradation kink, handcuffing, dacryphilia, choking, oral sex (f!reader receiving), oral sex (Grimmjow receiving).

Plot: basically, a series of nsfw head canons about Grimmjow, based on the alphabet.

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A = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Grimmjow is definitely not a gentleman. When he is done with you, he simply rolls beside you and lays on his bed with a devious smirk plastered over his face. He is selfish and that should not be a surprise.

However, there are times when he shows you a part of him you did not know he actually had.

Whenever he thinks he has been particularly rough with you, he jumps on his feet and grabs you a glass of fresh water. He kind of enjoys taking care of you from time to time. Therefore, before letting you go to clean yourself, he simply pulls you back onto the bed and allows you to snuggle in his arms. This small moment of affection usually includes forehead kisses and his arm draped over your waist in a protective iron grip. He is not that good with words, he just likes to make you understand that he cares.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Once he has chosen you, he is obsessed with every inch of your body. Yet, if he has to pick his favority body part about you, there is no doubt that it is your hips. Why? He loves digging his nails onto them as he pounds you at a feral pace. Also, he is addicted to them and loves to watch you sway them to tease him.

His favorite body part of himself are definitely his thighs. They are muscular and they grant him the chance to stand still for hours as he takes you up against the wall. Also, he really loves the sound of his thighs slapping against your backside as he takes you from behind.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

The pride and joy he draws from spurting his cum into you is immense. Yet, there is something that really makes him feral. Maybe it’s all because the beast inside of him is an apex predator, who knows, but he loves to spill his cum on your stomach and chest. Why? He thinks of it as a way to mark you permanently.

No man or hollow is allowed to come anywhere near you like that.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He would always deny that, if you ever found out about it, but he has always wondered what it would feel like to involve Ichigo in one of your intercourses. He is not really into threesomes. Grimmjow is extremely territorial. Yet, his thirst for glory and supremacy makes him wonder if he would be able to satisfy you more than Ichigo could during sex.

He will never talk to you about that, of course.

Maybe you could suggest him that? Oh, the effect you would have will be: Grimmjow.exe stopped working.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Of course he is experienced. He has been around for a long time and someone with that appearence, cockiness and smug smirk on his face knew exactly what he wanted. Despite that, he surprisingly had high standards. For real. Therefore, he usually had to turn to masturbation most of the times.

However, he knew very little about some experimental stuff and he did not know anything about toys. Yet, he made you feel things you did not think you would have ever been capable of experincing. And all of that happened without the use of toys. Guys, he is too good for this world.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

This man has two favorite positions. Missionary and doggy. It should not really be a surprise. Let’s take a close look at why he enjoys taking you in these two specific positions, though.

Grimmjow is a dominant man, a partner who loves to prove you that no one could ever make you feel the way he does and he likes to show it through his actions. While he surely enjoys gripping your hips until you will be left with some marks resembling small crescent moons on them, shout-out to his nails, he loves watching the effect he has on you. Therefore, missionary. He needs to look straight into your teary eyes and take pride in the way you leave your mouth hanging open in pleasure, as he takes you on cloud nine. According to him, you make some very lewd faces he could never get tired of.

Now, doggy is a position connected to his primordial desire to submit you. It’s an animalistic feeling, the uncontrollable urge to sheathe himself into you as deep as he can and make you beg for mercy. It is not like you can easily escape his grip like that and he loves it. Also, the spectacular view granted by this position is exactly what he needs to lasts for hours. Your arched back and you ass are better than a fight with Ichigo. And you know how badly he wants to fight that man.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Grimmjow is straight up serious. He takes the matter of pleasuring you as a military task. Yet, he always tries to whisper some dirty pick lines before the act to get you in the mood. Although they are really bad, and you wonder has taught him them, you just laugh it off and appreciate his jokes.

Some teasing comments here and there and even his attempts to tickle your sides to make you laugh make the whole experience balanced. Overall, he is the perfect mix you would always open your heart to.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

The carpet definitely match the drapes. Grimmjow takes pride in his masculinity. While he did not really pay much attention about how well groomed his hair were before he met you, that changed when you two crossed paths and, eventually, explored your intimacy.

He did not really want you to be uncomfortable while you gave him oral and he decided to trim and take care of the matter. While they may have been unkempt at first, now they are definitely shorter and tidy. Whenever you tease him about how lovely it was of him to do you this favor, though, he always grumbles excuses about the fact that it is a simple trend.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Grimmjow is not very romantic, so do not expect him to light up some scented candles and scatters some petals around your bed. When it’s your anniversary, when he feels particularly affectionate towards you, he will surely try to put some more effort throughout the whole act.

How? Long, passionate kisses and his fingers running through your hair to massage your scalp as he lets you ride him sensually. That intimate positions and some sweet nothings whispered in your ear are his love language.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Before meeting you, it was another form or stress relief for him. Nothing he would seek continously, of course, still he needed it. Things changed since you are together. Why would he need to jack off, when he can simply ask you to help him out.

The funny thing is that, if you are not around and he feels certain urges, he just waits patiently for your return or chases you down. Girl, you cannot escape the panther inside him.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Some kinks are part of him exactly like the hole in the middle of his abdomen. Let’s get started. He is not into hurting you, really, but leaving some marks on your skin and making you emit those cite little yelps he adores are not something he is willing to gove up on so easily.

Biting your neck and spanking you are probably at the top, but let’s not forget choking. He would never let it go too far though. Seeing you hurt and knowing it is his fault would probably only make him feel bad for real. And he loathes the negatives feelings.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Anywhere. Jokes aside, his favorite place to have sex with you is in your house. He loves paying you visits in the world of the livings and making memories with you in every corner of your house.

Your bedroom has a special place in his heart.

Maybe, Ichigo’s rooftop too. But that’s only to piss him off.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

You. The sight of his partner walking up to him with a soft smile on her face is enough to get him turned on. He has to admit that when you wear his robes he feels the urge to take you right here and there. He cannot still explain himself why, but he likes you wearing his jackets.

It probably strokes his ego.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Seeing you cry. You can tell he is not into dacryphilia. He loves seeing you desperate for him and exhausted. Overstimulated, at best, but not crying. As soon as a tear escapes your eye, he stops. No matter what you say, no matter if it was a natural reaction. He is not going to touch you again for the rest of the night.

Of course, if you point this out and accuse him of having turned into a sofie, he will yell at you. Typical of Grimmjow.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Grimmjow is more into receiving oral. The reason is simple. He likes to feel praised, honored and pampered. Also, he is kind of selfish and he likes watching you struggle to take it all in your mouth. You look cute like that, according to him.

If he feels the desire to give you oral though you are in for a ride. He only laps at your folds, if you sit on his face. Do him a favor, make him happy, just lower your heat on his mouth and let him enjoy his feast. The bruises on your thighs of his fingerprints are worth it.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Rough and steady, fast and feral. It does not matter which pace he picks. You are always going to end up squirming in his arms. If he has to choose a pace by default, he will go with fast and feral. It is just in his inner nature.

Yet, especially if you have been apart for too long, he will take his time with you. Hard, deep and steady thrust to create a passionate rhythm are what await ahead of you. Long nights in his bed and days spent in trying to walk properly are a sweet torture you can endure.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

He is not against them, but he is one of those guys who do not want to feel the pressure of time on their shoulders. Every single time you end up in bed, he wants you to feel good for real. He believes that quickies may ruin his performance.

Then again, if he is stressed or angered, he would have no problem in cornering you somewhere safe from prying eyes and steam off some stress by thrusting into you at a feral pace. He does not even care if someone walks in on you two.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

This man is down for whatever. He would do whatever it takes to please both you and himself. He is willing to experiment anything you suggest, even if sometimes he is the one who comes up with new ideas. This might have happened after he bumped into porn sites. Take the computer away from him.

Yet, the risks he is willing to take never go too far though. Since he actually can’t get you pregnant, he does not consider finishing into you as a risk. He won’t go too far in risking to hurt you either. The furthest he is willing to go is probably public sex. He is completely unbothered by the idea of getting caught during the act. It’s a risk that turns him on.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

This man can and will last for hours. Most of the time, you end being overstimulated and he draws pleasure from it. While he is a little bit selfish and keeps on chasing his orgasms no matter what, he knows he cannot risk having you faint on him or be too sore.

He stops as soon as you ask him to. He has some sense of decency and respect for you. He loves you, after all.

In terms of rounds, he could literally go for five, or six rounds, but restrains himself and sticks up to a maximum of three. You matter more than his climax to him.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Grimmjow didn’t actually know about toys and their use until you introduced him to them. He was intrigued at first and decided to use even some of them. His favorite ones are clearly restraints and it is not a surprise that he loves to handcuff you and watch you squirm as he tortures you with the use of a vibrator.

However, his pride sometimes suggests him not to involve them too much during your intercourses because he would rather be the one to cause you pleasure directly.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Despite what the majority of you would think, Grimmjow is not much a teaser. Why? He is too hungry to waste some precious time in trying to constantly bring you to the edge and let you down before you can reach your climax.

Unless you have somehow truly got on his nerves or you beg him to actually tease you, he will go straight to the point. He has to admit that your pleas when he hundcuffs you are quite arousing though.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Actually, Grimmjow is not that vocal. Naturally, he is not that silent either. The sounds he emits are guttural, almost animalistic. He loves to grunt and growl next to your ear, whispering some dirty words here and there to point out that you are the reason why he is sounding like a beast. He is so masculine and his raspy voice as he swears before reaching his climax is one of the most arousing sound you have ever heard in your life.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

What makes him go absolutely feral? Well, as mentioned above, he loves to cover you in his cum. Now, if you ask him what paradise feels like for him, that is the scenery he is going to describe to you.

Grimmjow spurting his semen on your face. It is degrading, animalistic, vulgar and dirty. Yet, he does not intend it as such, not even as an act of submission. He finds it adorable the way you look like that, messy and kneeling in front of him as he marks you as his preperty.

Yeah, the infamous Sexta Espada is going to go for another round with you after that.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Probably around 6 inches long and impressively thick. He definitely knows how to make the experience enjoyable for both of you. The tip is a bright shade of pink and his light-blue patch of hair on ‘v’ line makes him absolutely hot as he towers over you before the act.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?).

High, extremely high. If it depended on him, he would probably have you pinned down underneath him every time you make eye-contact. If your gaze lingers on him for too long, approximately, five seconds, you are surely not going to be able to walk properly for a few hours. This man is hungry. Feed him.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards).

He does not really feel the urge to sleep and his stamina are something out of this world. He could literally lasts for hours and still not feel the urge to sleep. However, since you do seem to enjoy cuddling after it and resting together seem something he labels as a ‘couple thing’, he allows himself to take small naps.

If he does, there is no way in the world you are going to leave the bed. If he sleeps, you will sleep with him.

AUTHOR NOTE.

Hi guys! That’s the first nsfw alphabet I have ever written in my life and, as you have requested in my poll, here we are with Grimmjow. Next to come will be Aizen and Urahara! Let me know if you want to be tagged in them, when I will update the works!

Likes, comments and reposts are appreciated!

[problemnyatic]

maybe internet leftism would be more effective if so much of it wasn't framed in this sneering, shame-on-you language that seems mote intent on guilting people for not being leftist enough than actually extending an understanding hand to people who people who, believe it or not, do actually realize that something is deeply wrong with society despite not being Properly Enlightened And Educated on All Of Leftist Theory as to why.

Yeah, we all post the You Are Not Immune To Propaganda jpeg, but do you still have an internal threshold of propaganda exposure by which others stop being human to you? Do you write off anyone who doesn't already understand the things you do as stupid? Do you understand that to create a genuinely far-reaching movement, you need to be willing to reach people that are substantially different than you and meet them on their level?

Yeah you believe everyone deserves human rights, but do you actually respect the differences in life experince you'll face when engaging with people outside your circle of theory-reading leftists?

And just to be excruciatingly clear: none of these are rhetorical questions. None of these are accusations, and if your response to these questions is to get defensive rather than to self-reflect on whether your practices reflect your principles, I urge you to then ask yourself if your desire to create effective change is being impeded by your apparent need to feel like a "good leftist".

I really, really get feeling frustrated with the world, with how fucking many people seem content to just buy propaganda, with how frustrating and exhausting it is to walk people through the baby steps of what feels like having a very basic grasp of reality. Your outrage is justified and your feelings are very real and deserve to be respected. I'm not here to tone police people expressing their very real anger and grief at the horrible ways global imperialism is hurting us all.

My point here is that, when your goal is to actually inspire others to seek further education on leftist matters, to actually increase the total amount of leftism in the world, you need to be asking yourself if the methods you are using are actually effective. It can feel excruciating to be patient when the world is already so on fire, but you can't just shame people into not needing to be met on their level. It demonstrably does not work, and will work against all of us if the impression you're giving others is that leftism is the mean, scary option even to people who genuinely mean well and want to do better.

I see so many posts rightfully trashing on the widespread culture in the US and beyond of teachers and authority figures simply punishishing people who don't know what they're expected to yet, instead of actually teaching them. I see so many posts on here about how it's okay to need to learn life skills you were never taught. Why does this seem to evaporate when it comes to teaching others leftist theory? That's not rhetorical either, please, really, genuinely ask yourself this question, let it sit with you for a long time.

I know how urgent it is to get people to come around. I'm panicking too. I'm angry, and I'm frustrated, and I'm dumbfounded at how long its taking so many folks to get a fucking grip on what's so broken about society. But I understand that the assertion that the answers should be obvious does nothing to change the fact that, to so many people, to enough people, it isn't. That we need to meet them on their level, with kindness, if we're to get them on our side. Leftism starts at home. It starts with your personal relationships, how you treat others when it's inconvenient and difficult.

Leftism starts with kindness.

[lo-toh-takes]

Lily Orchard having no empathy for Luz or Hunter is genuinely concerning

Luz and Hunter have both gone through severly truamatizing experinces, Hunter having his whole world view shatter before him and Luz having to be faced with the realization that she helped a dictator. They are both completely changed by these events happening to them and they follow them for the rest of the series.

And do I even need to mention that they are children? Two kids hurt by this genocidal monster who wants to hurt everyone they love...but Lily doesn't give a shit about that.

Lily consistently shows no real empathy towards Luz or Hunter, which is a bit...concerning. But the reason for why this is is due to the fact that Lily doesn't like it when characters express real emotions, she only wants them to be "fun", and when they aren't "fun" she sees them as bad.

She frequentely victim blames Hunter and tries to insinuate that he should have had realized that Belos was evil sooner, a standard which she applies to characters like Zuko who is fairly similar to Hunter. She would call Luz a "bitch" for lying to Amity even though for the third instance she had a reason to lie; she, ya know helped a genocidal dictator and thought everyone would hate her.

You'd think with how much Lily bitches and moans about how their torturing Luz she'd feel some kind of empathy for her, but she doesn't. Lily doesn't care if these characters went through traumatizing experiences, she only wants them to be fun, and when they start actually expressing emotions she calls them "angsty" or "emo", and writes them off as "bad".

[six-eyed-samurai]

LETTERS TO SANEMI

This can be read as a standalone, but if you'd like you can read my previous thoughts on Genya's literacy.

dear aNiki,

kocho gave me a Notebook today aNd told me to write down any after efects or experiNces after eating a demoN iN here but said I should also keep a jourNal to show you oNe day. she gave one to tokito to for his memory loss I thiNk.

she started teachng me how to write receNtly. she said if I caN’t become a hashira or talk to you by the time i've fiNished learNiNg, i can come up with a good apologi letter for you.

himejima-saN is very proud that I'm learNiNg how to write. he was sad he couldn't teach me Himself but Now I can help Him deliver messages he caN't write or Read.

i caN't do aNy breathiNg techNiques, but himjima-saN’s traiNing is iNteNse eNough that i can slay demons eveN without eating them sometimes. maybe i will be able to become the first hashira without a techNique.

Im Not sure yet Of what to write iN here, so thats all for Now. I hope you like the ohagi I seNt you. kocho said she'd pass it for Me.

***

Dear Aniki,

I'm very embarrassed to say this, but when I showed Kocho my writing it turned out I got a lot of things wrong. She was very nice about it when she saw how red I was but couldn't teach me today so the Butterfly Girls had to do it. I think they were too scared to laugh but it's embarrassing anyway to have them know more about writing than I do.

For one apparently I got all my captal (is that how you spell it?) letters wrong. Small letter n and captal letter N are also very different and it's confusing. And I'm glad Himejima-san won't find out I didn't write his name correctly.

The demon I ate the other day left me with a very weirdly shaped hand that hasn't gone away yet, so I'll stop writing for now since it's tiring to hold a pencil with talons. Kocho offered to cut my nails for me but I said no because she was going to use her katana.

***

Dear Aniki,

It really hurt me to find out you threw away my apology letter. I really want to apologize for that night but you keep pushing me away. Are you disappointed in me for joining the Corps or because I can't use breathing techniques? I promise I'll do better.

At least you didn't reject my ohagi. I found out because Tokito was eating it when I met him today. The Mist Pillar is really weird. I didn't know his amnesia was so bad to this state he wandered into the room I was staying in at the Butterfly Mansion thinking it was his. I found him standing by the window holding my gun without moving for about ten minutes. I thought he was a girl for a second so it kind of stunned me into silence. He didn't even notice I was there until I yelled at him to put it down.

It was really awkward at first because I had to explain to him it wasn't his room and he had to explain to me he wasn't a girl, then there was an awkward pause where we just stared at each other. He called me a rooster too…which is still confusing.

I find it really hard to believe he's fourteen and already a Pillar. Jealous, really, because he gets to see you and I don't. Although he called you a wolf and I'm not sure what that means when I asked him where he got the ohagi from and he said the “old white wolf looking Hashira…I forgot. I think I bought it…wait, but I didn't bring any money.”

Somehow I ended up agreeing to his demand of training with him first thing tomorrow to show him how to use a gun. Thankfully the side effects of the demon I ate is gone now.

Kocho told me he'll probably forget about it though.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today's my birthday. Do you miss me as much I do for you? I wish I can still celebrate it with our siblings and mom, or at least with you.

Kinzaki and the Butterfly Girls made me a cake. Kocho gave me a new yukata after I ripped my old one from my last fight. Her tsugoku gave me a coin for whatever reason. But I got really shy and didn't say much.

Muichiro forgot it was my birthday and thought it was Kocho’s, so he gave me her present. He thought it was funny to pin the butterfly to my hair. The girls started giggling at me so I chased him around the Butterfly Mansion.

Himejima-san gave me a cat. She's very cute. I named her Shizu, after mom. She followed me everywhere and even peed on Muichiro’s foot. He said she was stupid but later on I found him carrying her around.

Her white fur made me think of you. If you ever forgive me one day I'm sure you'll love her too. She likes the smell of ohagi too apparently.

***

Dear Aniki,

Rengoku-san the Flame Pillar and Kanroji the Love Pillar came to visit Himejima-san today. Rengoku-san gave me ohagi, so I thanked him but he said it wasn't from him. I'm praying this means you don't completely hate me.

Muichiro came over to Himejima-san’s estate today too by mistake, but he decided to stay and train with me anyway. He asked to see Shizu and that's when I realized she was missing.

How hard could it be to find a snowy white cat? That's what we thought until we (me mostly, Muichiro kept forgetting where he had looked) hunted everywhere for her. Then Rengoku-san said he saw her run pass him and when we looked she jumped off a tree and took off.

I still can't stop turning red whenever I think about how I slammed into Kanroji chasing Shizu, so I immediately ran off with Muichiro. I hope if I meet her again she'll have forgotten about it.

Dumb cat.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today that Kamado kid - the one who broke my arm back at Final Selection after I grabbed the Ubuyashiki girl; hope she doesn't hold it against me - picked up the stack of letters I accidentally dropped. You know it's the anniversary of everyone's death today, so I was planning on taking the letters I've been writing to them to burn. Usually I would just leave flowers and prayers at the shrine Himejima-san helped me make because we never got to bury them, but since Kocho taught me to write I decided to make a new tradition.

Anyway I knew he didn't mean to read them but I got mad anyway until he told me his family died the same way and he was happy that I was still honoring their memory of whatever. I wish me and you were like him and his sister. I wonder what would've happened if we had stayed together? I never meant to hurt you like that.

I don't remember writing any of this. Did I change my handwriting or something? Who's Aniki?

I've just chased away Muichiro. I can't believe he got our notebooks mixed up and started reading mine. I hope he didn't read anything…too personal. Foggy brained idiot just stared at me and left.

He came back later. He didn't apologize but handed me a watermelon. He's forgiven…I guess? I don't even want to know he got it from, especially when I can hear Kinzaki and that pig head boy shouting.

***

Dear Aniki,

Today's the day before the final battle and I don't have much time to write as much as I want to, so I'll make this entry quick.

Muichiro has become a much nicer person, and I've had a lot of fun with him over time. I'm gonna miss training with him and talking and cloud gazing together afterwards. I hope we both don't die. He called me his best friend the other day and although I got really flustered I don't want it to be the last time.

Kocho and the Butterfly Girls celebrated my “graduation” of learning how to write the other day. Maybe one day you'll be able to come and celebrate some other occasion with us.

I will never be able to repay everything Himejima-san has done for me. I owe him for the slayer I am today. I hope the wooden bracelet I carved will be able to convey it. I can write now but I'm no good with words.

I'm really grateful to Kamado and his sister for reminding me during the battle at the Swordsmith Village why I joined the Corps. I'm going to prove myself to you and apologize for once and for all. I don't know what I'm going to do if you keep pushing me away even after all this. I miss you a lot.

I swear we'll be brothers again after this battle.

[twistedhc]

Fem Heartslabyul NSFW alphabet

Rules and event details

You can request any or all of the fem Heartslabyul characters. But you can only ask for up to five letters. And please check the list below to see what characters and what letters I've already done. But if you do request one that someone else did I'll put a link to the original post as a response to your request.

All posts will be written as gender neutral as possible.

The event will end as soon as all the characters have run out of letters.

Characters

Fem riddle🌹 C D F W

Fem trey♣️ K M O T U

Fem cater♦️H K V X

Fem deuce♠️ F K M X

Fem ace♥️ H K V X

Letters

A-Aftercare(what they're like after sex)

B-Body part(favorite body part on there partner)

C- Cycle(would they have sex on there piereid)

D-Drty secret(a dirty secret they have)

E-Experince(how experienced they are)

F-Favroeit position(what position do they like the most)

G-Grooming(how well groomed are they what do they smell like)

H-Hands(how skilled are they with there hands what do they look and feel like)

I-Intimacy(how romantic are they in bed)

J-Jobs(how good are they at giving a hand job and would they)

K-Kink(one or more kinks thay have)

L-Lingerie(what kind of nightwere do they have)

M-Motivation(what gets them going)

N-No(what will they not do)

O-Oral(do they like receiving or giving)

P-Place(where they like to do it)

Q-Quickie(do they like doing them in what situation)

R-Risk(are they a risk taker or do they play it safe)

S-Stamina(how many rounds can they go)

T-Toys(do they like using them what kind do they like)

U-Unfair(are they a tease or are they nice)

V-Volume(how loud are they what kind of sounds do they make)

W-Wet dream(how often do they have them what are they about)

X-X-ray(what do they look like under there clothes)

Y-Yearning(how high is they're sex drive)

Z-Zzz(how quickly do they doze off)

[uncertain3teeth]

i luv this transition also idkw but i feel like its symbolism of fizzarolli getting manipulated by asmodeus like blue is his main color and i just feel like hes getting taken over by asmodeus idk

edit : why are ppl mad at me bc i was just having a thought like i literally got asked am i good mentally like are yall fr acting like that over a opinion that is different from yours like are YOU good mentally and i was reminded a bit of my toxic relationship i had a while back that was mainly abt sexual things but there was kindness here and there im not saying their relationship is toxic at all i think its cute hell i even ship it but it was just a thought ok why are you getting on my for an opinion i knew some ppl in this fandom were toxic and brain dead but i never had experince with them before so literally chill no need for hate its just a THOUGHT

[mrfleshwizard]

Hello,i see you like deep diving into religious stuff well i have the thing to say....

THE BINDING OF ISAAC (obvious reference) (its a game,i remember watching russian analysis or explaination video about lore)

when I look at the design of characters who are all kinds of deities or important figures from religions in Hotel Hazbin... they look awful,very loreless and most importantly, not close to the original but damn it, there was some way to explain it, some way

in TBOI,the characters there also don't look particularly close to the original (and same in silhouette), but this can be explained by the fact that the main character (ISAAC) has a rather traumatized imagination and terrible life, maybe he sees the figures as himself because he feels sinfull... and here we move on to the topic of the issues with the family in TBOI & HH

Isaac and Charlie they are not similar characters but they have somewhat same shit

they both have divorced parents,who loved their children very much in TBOI This is an important aspect that reveals Isaac as a character and I forgot to say that he is not himself a religious figure, but he strongly refers to this writing,Isaac himself here is a very young kid who was raised in christian family and experinced parents' quarrel and he thinks its his fault

In HH, this is like a very dramatic crap, but it's not even necessary to explain particularly deeply revealing things here, so remember that Lucifer was supposed to be a not particularly supportive father in a dark matter? yes, fuck with that, he's a CUTIE WHO PARADISE LET DOWN THE MIDDLE FINGER ON HIM and of course he went dramatically into the abyss which become hell itself and Lilith left her family incomprehensibly.. in TBOI this is due to the fact that Isaac's father was an alcoholic

welp someone said that Charlie is like a self-insert of the author himself and if you take this fact seriously, lol Isaac is also like a self-insert in fact is that the creator of TBOI, Edmund McMillen growing up in a Christian family and in short, he read the Bible and many related things to this religion and he believed less in God in fact, but that's not the point,TBOI essentially reflects his difficult childhood, his family suffered from drugs and alcohol, he was a fragile child of yours, he drew a lot of monsters and the family not liked that

so what the point of the story? : An experienced indie game developer can do better than some rich animator-artist who was too lazy to watch YouTube videos about Christianity

and i will also say that TBOI is also critique of christianity but not naive like HH do. Its more realistic,you should watch videos about that

-oni anon

I remember this game! I watched gameplay of it when I was very young. I barely remember anything of this game. Thank you for reminding me of it.

I never thought of TBOI as a critique of christinaty, probably becouse I was young when I watched the gameplay.

Well, the fact that indie gamę devolper might do better job at something than Rich person isn't surprising. Viv doesn't really have an passion to things she creates and it's sad.

Thank you oni anon. I hope you will have an beautiful day and an great life.

:)

[fatuismooches]

just thinking abt giving Zandy his good first Christmas after you woke up

like he had never experinced a loving family or any of that kind, and certainly not holidays. Zandik hadn't too, you remember that clearly, you dragged him out to get this and get that, made him watch you bake cookies and such because you didn't want him to somehow mess them up.

so... you tried to do that again but with Zandy instead, ofc you couldn´t tell him about 'Santa Claus' and stuff like that, he'll just tell you many reasons why that would be impossible and so on. but you did make an effort to make him gifts, several for each segment infact. now you might say that would be unreasonable bc they could just go and buy it instead, but you made everything yourself, and they wouldn't even try to complain or get a replacement anyway.

(you also asked threatened the other segments and even prime to get him(Zandy) a present as well, or you might just give them on less than everyone else. they, of course, easily obeyed not wanting the others getting more affection than them.)

-Luv ya

SOBBING MAKING ZANDY'S FIRST CHRISTMAS ONE TO REMEMBER... 😭 Ahh so cute,, you just want to make the precious bb happy!! You know very well how Zandik never had anything nice during his childhood, you know you can't do anything to go back fix that, you can only make him feel loved now... letting him wrap his arms around you securely as he watches your every move very carefully (and has the gall to dictate you on the decisions. "You've used too much of that frosting. I want a different flavor." Also tries to eat them before they're done, the expression on his face when you first physically slapped his hand away was priceless. At least he gets to lick the spoon clean.)

But... maybe Zandy can live out the happy experiences a child should have anyway? (Making Zandy happy and also healing Zandik's inner child at the same time... </3) Of course, he gets the baking experience with you, he gets to decorate the tree with you too, you lifted him up and let him put the star at the top! Maybe if your health is good, he can make snow angels with you and have snowball fights! And the gifts, yes the gifts, you want Zandy to have the experience of excitedly ripping them open and marveling at the gift. Doesn't matter what it is either, Zandy is the type of bb who would appreciate anything. (Maybe you even get Pantalone, Childe, and Bina on the case!! They're fond of the child segment as well :3)

Haha, I imagine Zandy being a bit confused about why the segments are being so nice to him but the feeling is overwhelmed by the joy of all the gifts and attention... maybe this is the Christmas magic you told him about!

The other segments definitely brag about their gifts to each other... they make it a competition even though it's not supposed to be.

[lilacella]

The first chapter of the wolfstar fanfiction, that I started to obsessively write last night. Will put this on ao3 as well once I get my invite code since I appear to have forgotten the login to my old one. So this will have to do for now.

This has 11 chapters and stretches over the time from them falling in love in Hogwarts, over the years trying to navigate their relationshiph right to the end of it. There will be some Angst but overall it is fluffy and there's gonna be a (somewhat) happy ending (depending whether you stop after 9 o go through 11 as well).

Taglist: Canon divergence (no voldy, no war), Fluff, Wolfstar, Background Jily, Angst (it's Wolfstar after all).

Additional tags might apply on each chapter. I will put any warnings at the Title.

Nightsky

Song recommendation:

Chapter 1: The tale of the two idiots

Next

Sirius wasn't entirely sure when it had started.

Maybe that time in 4th, when Remus had fallen asleep over his books in the common room and Sirius had noticed just how sweet he looked, when he was sleeping. Tie askew, strands of brown hair sticking to his forehead, one hand still wrapped around his quill.

Or maybe in 3rd, when Remus made a remarkably funny pun and made Sirius laugh so hard, that he almost choked on his breakfast.

Or maybe even in 1st, when Remus almost fell off his broom during flying class and Sirius grabbed the other boys broom to steady it, receiving a shy smile in return. A smile that would make Sirius heart flutter without any reason or merit.

Whenever it may have started, Sirius certainly could not deny it after 5th, when Remus had forgotten his silencing charm during a very private activity that Sirius now happened to overhear, causing interesting new layers to the whole issue.

Since then his head had been filled with thoughts of Remus. About his smile, his laugh, his voice, his smell, his hands, his...well you can imagine. Suddenly, being close to Remus made him unbearably nervous and queasy. A feeling that he was not quite used to and did not care much for. Sirius had to admit, that maybe he had a problem. A problem that he had vowed to keep to himself.

Of course keeping problems to himself was easy, he had year long experince with biting his tounge at family dinners to avoid being hexed to his chair and silencioed overnight - a punishment that his father had developed a taste for since he started talking back. There was just one tiny, tiny issue with this. The issue had unruly hair, glasses, an unbreakable ego and the uncanny ability to read Sirius thoughts right out of his head.

"So you do fancy him then?" James asked tentatively. Sirius felt the heat creep over his cheeks to his ears.

"I don't know what you're talking about," he snapped and sped up his pace so James had to almost jog to keep up with him.

"Oh come on pads, I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you, okay? I was just wondering, since lately you've been so..."

"So what?" Sirius stopped abruptly and spun around, facing James. He shouldn't be running from an issue, he was a Griffindor after all! James, a bit taken aback by the sudden change of direction almost bumped into him.

"Well, you know," he ruffled his hair. "Just kind of...you always look at him like that."

"Like what?"

"Like I look at Lily Evans I suppose. I mean, of course I don't know what I look like when I look at her, but you look like I imagine I look like. You know? It was really just a thought, don't be mad."

Sirius sighed. As if he could be mad at James. And he was right. He did fancy Remus. Merlin, just thinking it felt terrifying.

"And what if. What if I did?" he asked quietly, not looking at James and staring past him instead.

"I suppose that's alright? I mean there's nothing wrong with him. He's a nice guy."

"So...it wouldn't bother you?"

James laughed. "Why would it bother me? I want you to be happy, mate." He jovially slapped Sirius arm. Then he got serious. "Where you worried about that?"

Sirius clicked his tounge in annoyance.

"Come on pads, there is nothing you could do to...to make me like you less. You're my best friend! I don't care who you shag."

"I'm not shagging anyone! I just...I just got a crush on him, that's all. I'll ignore it until it goes away." James didn't seem very convinced.

"I think you should just talk to him. Maybe he likes you back." Sirius snorted.

"Are you insane? I can't just tell him! It's not that easy. You wouldn't just walk up to your crush and..." He trailed off. His point was moot. James smiled triumphantly.

"See? It is actually not that hard, just ask him out."

"Just ask him out. What would that even look like? 'Hey Moony, wanna go to Hogsmead with me? No, not with the others, like just you and me. On a date.' He would think I am trying to prank him!"

"Hmm, I guess you're not completely wrong about that...but what if...what if you just sit him down and..."

"No. I will not do anything of the sort. I will just wait it out. This can't be going on forever."

"Right."

Sirius sighed. Then suddenly his eyes narrowed.

"You can not tell him. Do you understand? If you tell him I will be so incredibly mad at you. I will..." he thought about an appropriate threat that would ideally not make any of them suffer too much. This was James after all. "I will not listen to any of your Quidditch ramblings ever again!"

**

"So you just don't like anyone? Are none of the girls good enough for you?" Lily asked teasingly playing around with her quill. Remus groaned.

"I came here to study, not to be quizzed about my lovelife."

"Hey! I am just trying to get know my boyfriends friends. Nothing wrong with that." She smiled sweetly.

"You have known me sufficiently since last year, I believe. There is really not that much interesting to learn about me." He  shuffled uncomfortably on his chair. As happy as he was for James to have finally made it with Lily - she was asking to many questions. And there were certain things that he wished to not share with her under any circumstances.

"Sure, and you seem like a decent guy to me. So no reason to spend such a fine day studying all by yourself."

"I am not by myself though, aren't I?" The reply sounded much more snarky than he had intended and he hoped that Lily wouldn't take it personally. She didn't.

"Sure sure but I'm sure there is someone who you'd rather be with right now?"

There was. And she couldn't find out about him.

"What about Henrietta Morrison? She's nice."

"I don't think she's my type. And I don't think I am hers."

"So what's your type then?"

Goddamit, she got him. Be vague, be vague.

"Uhhh I don't know. Dark hair, intelligent. Tall..." What was he doing. Lily looked at him intently.

"You know who that sounds like?"

"No," he replied sternly and tried to hide behind his book. This was a desaster. A slender finger appeared in front of him, gently but firmly lowering the tome to expose his face.

"Remus," she asked gently. "Is it Sirius?"

Remus winced. Why was she so good at this?

"Please don't tell anyone. Especially not James. If James knows, Sirius will find out immediately."

"Not if I ask him not to tell him," Lily said decidedly.

"He doesn't have to, they're like some sort of hive mind. If one of them knows something, the other does to." He sighes.

"So you don't want to tell him?"

"What?! No, of course not! Lily, are you mental? He would never like me. Have you looked at him? He is so...fucking handsome and smart and funny..."

"And mean and arrogant."

"Yes, but I kind of like that too," Remus admitted and buried his blushig face in his hands.

Sirius could not find out. There was just no way he would ever like him back.

[forgedraptor]

Law had always lived a checkered life; when his family passed away and he was forced into the foster system, he had to go back and forth in adoption homes because no family could handle his attitude problems and anger issues, in those times, hed seen a lot of the nitty and gritty, the harsh & dark twisted realities that was abundant in the world, sick of it all Law had run away and lived on the streets where two brothers found him rooting through the trashbins.

For the first time, someone other than his original family looked at him with kindness. for the first time they didn't see a kid with an attitude problem and anger issues, but a child so traumatized that to protect themselves they took to anger and violence.

They took Law in, grabbed him by the scruff of his clothing like a cat and practically dragged him away kicking and screaming back to their home. Looking back at it, was a good thing that the area was near the Donquixote brothers estate, because the noise would have surely gotten the attention of passerbys, instead, Law was ignored by the Donquixote Family members and helpers as he screeched bloody murder

Dumped in a bath, new clothes and a full late dinner later, Law was too tired and too content with a full belly, clean clothes and a warm room to complain and had promptly fallen asleep even though he tried so hard not to.

It was a rough start at first, he hated he brothers and their meddling. he thought they pitied him and did it as a charity to boost their egos. It was only when he ran away and got caught in a gang fight causing Rosinante to get shot protecting him that made him realize that the brothers were real in their kindness. that they had experienced what he did and didint want him to go through that pain. When Doffy rushed to them with Sengoku at his heels, pale, clothes in disarray and carrying a medical bag to check Rosi and Laws injuries, and a scared and terrified look on his face, Law's walls shattered and he cried. cried for his loss of his family, cried for the pain he had to endure in his foster homes and past foster parents, cried for the hunger and violence he experinced living in the street and he cried for the kindness of these two brothers , for not giving up on him like the others did and for loving him, truly caring and loving him as if he was their own. Falling asleep with his hands around a dozing Rosinante and Doflamingo, he had finally opened his heart, even if its just a few people, once again. And the rest they say, is history.

He really should start calling back Cora-san and Doffy, theyve been pestering him to go on another family outing just the three of them, but with the stress of work and the flowers growing out of his lungs- is stopping him from going. maybe he was afraid of their meddling, he knows for a fact that Rosi and Doffy wouldn't let him rot away and die when they can help it, and Law knows hes weak against their concern and care, especially Cora-sans, but hes not ready to let go just yet, he wants to keep feeling these bubbly and fond feelings when he sees Luffy smile, when he hears his laugh. He loves loving Luffy, and he wants to savour loving him as long as he can afford to.

[chandajaan]

Hope this isn’t too cheesy/personal to ask but it do you have any advice for people that want to find a significant other?

I know it's so stupid becuse everyone says it but "being yourself" is great advice, when you put energy into making yourself authentic and kind and devote energy to loving your experinces it turns you into a magnet for love! At least that's what I've noticed, being interesting means being interested in life and in others. I think this also fits the don't chase, attract thing 🤔