#adolescent literature

[darkness-holds-eternal-light]

One thing I cherish and love most about the "Harry Potter" series is that it is genuinely suited for children. I love so, so many things about it but this is one thing that stands out to me especially, and also during our current time in particular.

I'm aware that it gets more exigent with the later books as we grew up with them. But still, it's heartbreakingly pure and simple and childlike how these books are written and I am forever grateful for it. 🥲 It's beautiful and truly magical. 💝

[dostoevskyordoesntshe]

Dostoevsky makes me wish I had faith to lose.

[not-poignant]

Constellations 08 on AO3! (FFS universe, Efnisien + Gwyn)

Title: Constellations (Falling Falling Stars sequel re: Gwyn + Efnisien)

Rating: Mature

Tags: Contemporary, trauma recovery, men in therapy, references to BDSM relationships, past trauma recovery, complex family relationships, hurt/comfort, angst, historical child abuse, historical familial abuse, reconciliation, Gwyn’s a stalker for five seconds

Summary: (Will make little sense if you haven’t read Falling Falling Stars) It’s been around ten years since the events of Falling Falling Stars, and Efnisien and Gwyn are living their respective lives, and haven’t really been in touch since. Over time, Gwyn becomes more curious about his cousin, especially after learning something he hopes isn’t true, and after seeing him by chance in a park, kicks off a series of events that helps create new opportunities for reconciliation, and discovering what it really means to be family. 

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Constellations - 08 - Tenuous Histories on AO3

In which Gwyn, overwhelmed by Efnisien’s revelations, needs comfort from Augus and then reassurance from Chelsea, which gives him some more perspective on the situation.

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EARLY ACCESS: Constellations - 11 - Soft Auroras on Patreon and Ream:

Constellations 11 on Patreon

Constellations 11 on Ream

In this chapter Gwyn reveals he’s afraid Efnisien will cut him out of his life again, and Efnisien reassures him in the only ways he knows how.

– Thanks to all the Patreon and Ream supporters for making this (and my other writing) possible!

[aniaks]

The Adolescent by Fyodor Dostoevsky

[hotsinglemominurarea]

the only thing that's keeping me alive atm is a picture of dostoevsky on my wall

[wotchergiorgia]

fydor dostoevsky, the adolescent

[text ID: never mind a little dirt, if the goal is splendid! afterwards it will all be washed away, smoothed over. and now it’s only―breadth, it’s only―life, it’s only―life’s truth―that’s what they call it now!]

[edwardian-girl-next-door]

"In her teens, she wondered: I am never going to be beautiful or even a genius. What am I supposed to expect then? She felt surrounded by too much space and longed for a wall to have to climb over."

~ Arthur Miller, "Homely Girl, A Life"

[diorswaif]

[gregor-samsung]

" They always told us that one day we would move into a house, a real house that would be ours for always so we wouldn't have to move each year. And our house would have running water and pipes that worked. And inside it would have real stairs, not hallway stairs, but stairs inside like the houses on TV. And we'd have a basement and at least three washrooms so when we took a bath we wouldn't have to tell everybody. Our house would be white with trees around it, a great big yard and grass growing without a fence. This was the house Papa talked about when he held a lottery ticket and this was the house Mama dreamed up in the stories she told us before we went to bed. But the house on Mango Street is not the way they told it at all. It's small and red with tight steps in front and windows so small you'd think they were holding their breath. Bricks are crumbling in places, and the front door is so swollen you have to push hard to get in. There is no front yard, only four little elms the city planted by the curb. Out back is a small garage for the car we don't own yet and a small yard that looks smaller between the two buildings on either side. There are stairs in our house, but they're ordinary hallway stairs, and the house has only one washroom. Everybody has to share a bedroom—Mama and Papa, Carlos and Kiki, me and Nenny. Once when we were living on Loomis, a nun from my school passed by and saw me playing out front. The laundromat downstairs had been boarded up because it had been robbed two days before and the owner had painted on the wood YES WE'RE OPEN so as not to lose business. Where do you live? she asked. There, I said pointing up to the third floor. You live there? There. I had to look to where she pointed—the third floor, the paint peeling, wooden bars Papa had nailed on the windows so we wouldn't fall out. You live there? The way she said it made me feel like nothing. There. I lived there. I nodded. I knew then I had to have a house. A real house. One I could point to. But this isn't it. The house on Mango Street isn't it. For the time being, Mama says. Temporary, says Papa. But I know how those things go. "

Sandra Cisneros, The House on Mango Street; 1st edition: Arte Público Press, Houston (TX), USA, 1984.

[davidpatrickjohn]

"…he's a gloomy and suspicious man, and, although deep down he may be very kind, he tends to see evil in just about everything--in that, however, he's very much like me. He greatly appreciates chivalry and generosity, but I believe that to him it's only a principle, an abstract ideal. I also know that he is capable of feeling remorse: he goes around constantly reproaching himself for something, regretting what he's done…But he never reforms--again, I'm probably just the same in that respect. He's stuffed with thousands of preconceptions and extraordinary notions, but there's not one original idea in his head. He looks for an opportunity to do something noble and heroic, but in the meantime he acts with petty nastiness…"

 Dostoevsky, The Adolescent, 1875, P 294 

[dostoevskyordoesntshe]

I’m into alignment charts now and they are based exclusively on my mood when I made them.

[melarancholic]

new substack, in which i go deep on girlhood and grief and also talk about lady bird like it’s god

read!! 💌

[visionsofopulence]

Excerpt from Either/Or by Elif Batuman

[peblezq]

Little Lavender 2: Electric Boogaloo

Coming soon to an Amazon near you...

[heymariaxo]

Give me back my adolescence.

[wotchergiorgia]

paragraph iv, chapter i, part ii of the adolescent and I said it all.