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Triiicccck or treaaaatt >:3

IT'S OFFICIALLY HALLOWEEN NOW!!

MANY TREATS FOR YOU!!

Candy + a plushie :3

[heeheesang]

NEVER MEANT TO BE .

⤷ who knew getting out of an isolation room after three years would be so ... exciting ?

terminal condition! leehan & terminal condition! yn

18.3k words , angst

" remember yn , your condition isn't getting any better at all ... so you need to get more rest okay ? " the nurse reminded me as i swallowed my prescribed pills and nodded .

" there's nothing they can do about me , nurse jia . let's face it , i'll be gone in one to three months . " i sighed at the end of my sentence as she placed a hand on my shoulder , " yn don't be like that ... you'll never know when they'd come up with a cure ! " i shrugged as she patted my back , leaving my space as she continued her duties .

three years . i've been here for three years — everyone expected me to be gone earlier when i had arrived , they're surprised to see me make it to this day honestly . i was shocked too , but i expected myself to be going soon .

before i knew it , i was snapped out of my thoughts . i opened my curtain to see a group of doctors and nurses around the newly admitted male patient . the doctors were checking on his condition while the nurses were checking his vital signs — blood pressure , temperature , oxygen saturation , pulse and his respiration .

i swung my legs off my bed as i watched the male answer confidently , unconsiously smiling to myself at how pretty he looked and how his voice didn't match his face at all — a deep yet soothing tone . he looked like he was around my age — if not a little older .

" you can stop staring now ... " he said as i snapped out of my thoughts , awkwardly smiling as i let out a chuckle . the ends of his lips curled up a little as he adjusted himself on his bed , turning to face me as he smiled , " what's your name , pretty ? "

" i'm yn , jang yn . what about you ? and why did you get admitted to this ... specialised ward ? " i answered as i shot a question back at him . " my name is kim donghyun , you can call me leehan . i got admitted well because ... i have organ failure . my heart isn't working well ... you ? "

" advanced cancer . i've been here for three years but i just moved out from the isolation wards . " he hummed in response , " so is there no cure for yours ? " he asked as i pressed my lips into a thin line , shaking my head with a short chuckle . " i know your's does . you need a transplant don't you ? "

he lets out a quick laugh , " yeah ... but it'll be hard to find a donor . who would risk their lives to save another ? what more if it's a complete stranger ? " he replies , a cold tension fills the air as he clears his throat .

" so , did you manage to major in any subject ? or course ? " he asked as i hummed , " i did . i majored as a nurse but ... i failed because well ! i'm in a hospital for goodness sake . " i replied as a chuckle escaped his lips , " with me here , you can do whatever you need to prove yourself worthy of a nurse . "

" i can tell we'll have a fun time here together . " i said as he immediately agreed , getting cozy in bed as we exchanged numbers and social medias . before we knew it , the sun was down and the moon had rised .

ever since he arrived , it felt as if i was experiencing a whole new world — he was my age , we had similiar interests like sea fishes . he loved corydoras' and i loved sharks . we could barely sleep until three am because we were sending tiktoks and reels to one another — giggling away as the others hushed us .

well kim donghyun , thank you for being my first ever friend i've made in three years .

" wake up sleepy head ! " i yelled as i shook donghyun awake , his eyes adjusting to the light as he smiled widely at me . " good morning to you too , yn ... it's too early ... " he replied groggily as he sat up , checking the time on his phone — seven o' five am .

" there's a breakfast special today , c'mon ! i want to get it , it's my favourite ! " i whined as i grabbed on his arm , he chuckled before getting one last stretch — washing his face by sink as we went down to the cafeteria together . " hot dogs and pancake ... that's the special ? "

donghyun asked between yawns as i nodded happily , taking at least three stacks of pancakes , one side of cheese omelette and two pieces of hot dogs . i watched as donghyun filled his plate , " aren't you hungry ? "

he shook his head , " i'm sleepy . " i rolled my eyes playfully at his comment , dragging him to the table as we started digging into our food . he wasn't that interested in the food and he kept dozing off but somehow his eyes were still wide open — as if he was watching me eat .

after breakfast we had to rush back up for the usual doctors rounds , for them to check on our condition . the doctors were slightly late but i don't blame them , we all have our late days sometimes ! as the doctor walked in , we all smiled and greeted them before they went to each patient one by one .

i was the last one — " good morning , miss yn . how are you feeling today ? " doctor hanbin asked as i shrugged , " normal , had the breakfast special though so i'm kinda happy . " he smiled at me before looking back onto his notes — the smile disappearing as his eyes softened .

he takes a big sigh before closing the curtain on donghyun's side , donghyun's face changing from happy to pure confusion . hanbin showed me a weak smile before sitting on the chair opposite my bed , " yn ... "

i recognised that tone . a small smile was plastered onto my face as i let out a small sigh , " i know ... i don't have much time do i ? " he lets out a exhale , nodding before running his hand through his hair .

" a month ... do you want me to put you through chemo ? radiation therapy ? " doctor hanbin asked as he took his glasses off . i smiled widely , " no doctor , i'll be fine . let me go , peacefully and naturally . " he looks down onto his files , " how can you be so happy about this , yn ... you're the best patient i've ever had for three years . "

" woah let's keep that phrase for when i actually go . i'll be fine doctor hanbin , i promise . " i interlocked our pinkies as he lets out a breathy chuckle , nodding before patting my head and leaving the room .

before i could even break down , my curtains were opened by donghyun . his face screamed joy — he was clearly excited with the way his eyes had sparkles in them and his smile was reaching from ear to ear . " they found me a donor ! "

he yelled out loudly before grabbing me by my arms and jumping together as we spun in circles . a smile lit up on my face when i saw how happy he was — i couldn't ruin the moment for him .

" what did doctor hanbin tell you ? he seemed so upset . " donghyun asked as we sat down on his bed , my legs hanging off the edge of the bed as he smiled at the patients walking past us .

" they um ... they found a cure ! hanbin was just sad because i was leaving ... " i lied . his smile appeared on his face once again , " maybe we're fated ... we met here and we're leaving together . " he teased as i slapped his arm playfully , " don't be silly donghyun ... "

twenty five more days — twenty five more days til i'm gone . i had no one to call , no one to visit me . i was just ... alone . my parents were gone from my sight the moment they realised i had an illness — so were my siblings .

i sobbed quietly in bed , it was almost three am and everyone was asleep , i didn't want to wake anyone up . why me ? why did i have to go through all of these ? alone ? it just didn't make sense to me — i was a healthy girl and now ... it's all gone just that like that .

will i ever experience true happiness ? will i ever be able to escape from the confinements of the hospital ? i wiped my tears with my blanket as my phone rang — you awake ? a text from donghyun .

i sat up and calmed myself down — i'm awake , why ? i replied . a few seconds go by before my curtain was opened , " hey ... " donghyun said as he fixes his hair , running his hand through his long blonde hair .

" wanna go for a quick vending drink run ? " he asked and i immediately nodded , reaching out for his hand as we sneakily went out of the room . we were taking the lightest steps ever as we tiptoed to the vending machine .

i was picking out my drink when donghyun suddenly grabbed me by my waist and pulled me to the side , hiding behind a wall as he smiled cheekily at me . the bright lights from a flashlight illuminating the room as he held my hand in his — for a moment i blushed . this was the first time i ever held hands with someone in three years . what more by a handsome guy ?

soon enough the light went off , donghyun peeked out from the corner of the wall — turning back at me with the prettiest smile and nodding slowly , i went back to the vending machine and quickly got our drinks . we sat down at the longue for a while and just drank our sodas .

it felt like eternity since i've had this feeling — the adrenaline rush of being caught , the feeling of hanging out with someone that isn't a nurse or doctor and the feeling of comfort with donghyun .

fifteen days left — what's life without fun ? donghyun said before he led me to the hospital's rooftop at six in the morning . now we were sitting on the rooftop with cookies his mom had passed him when she came earlier .

" it's been a while since i saw the sun rise ... " i mumbled as i watched the stars in the sky glisten . my arms holding my weight as i leaned back , feeling donghyun's hand overlap mine as he mirrored my actions .

" looks like we'll be watching it together , hm ? yn , what's your favourite food ? " donghyun asks out of the blue as i turned to face him . " i love ... dwaeji gukbap . i was from busan so — i grew to like it . why ? "

" you're from busan , too ?? " donghyun gasped as i giggled , nodding as he blinks profusely at me with a wide smile on his face . " why donghyun ? " i asked once more as he changed to his more relaxed demeanour , " my mom wanted to bring some for you . she thinks we're dating . "

i laughed loudly at his remark , " you're funny donghyun ... but it's fine — i don't wanna make your mother do extra work ... " he shrugged , " she'll still insist on making it . "

and he wasn't wrong . the next day , donghyun's mom came along and placed the food on my table . my eyes widened before thanking her , bowing as i greeted her . " donghyun has told me a lot about you , yn ... i'm so glad you're both leaving together ! maybe you can go on dates ~~ "

" mom ! " donghyun protested as he stuffed his face into the pillow . i chuckled and thanked his mother once more before digging in , i miss my mom's cooking ...

seven days left on this planet ... i feel , weak . i feel like vomitting every three hours ... i feel nauseous and it feels like i could do nothing . the doctors came around again for a visit , this time donghyun yelled out loudly .

" what do you mean the donor is no longer a donor ? so i won't be getting a new heart ?! " he yelled in frustration . i opened my curtains to see him completely in tears , his ears were red as his tears seeped through his blanket .

the doctors left him on his own to rest and have time for himself — they did promise that they'd find a new donor asap . soon the doctors came to me , " where's doctor hanbin ? "

" he's not feeling too well today , yn ... i'm his attending for today . " doctor myung said as he sat down in front of me . great ... doctor hanbin isn't here and the next doctor visit was in eight days , i'd be gone by then ...

" how're you feeling ? " doctor myung asked as he started typing on his computer . " weak ... i didn't finish a single plate for the last few days , i had no appetite . " i replied as he pressed his lips into a thin line .

" do you want to call anyone here , yn ? we expect the days to be much shorter ... i know you're supposed to have at least a week left but ... judging on your condition , it may be even worse than we expected . " doctor myung sighed . it felt like a knife was twisted in my stomach , " how ... how long ? "

" it's very unlikely , yn ... it could be any time below a week . " he answered and i nodded hesitantly , looking into the bright light to stop my tears from flowing down my cheeks . " that's fine ... thank you doctor myung . "

he gave me a reassuring smile before standing up to leave — but that's when i had a brilliant idea . " doctor myung ! " i yelled after him , running after him as i almost tripped . " could you please ... take my heart ? for donghyun . "

" that would be risky — " " please , doctor myung . it'll be my last wish ... he needs it . " i begged as he nodded , " we'll do our best , yn . "

" promise me you'll still be here ? " donghyun said as he sat on the operating table . i gave him a weak smile , nodding as he interlocked our hands . " i promise , i'll be with you . " were the last words i ever said to him as he was euthanized on his bed with anaesthesia filling his veins .

" let's go , yn . let's get you prepared . " doctor myung said as i laid down on the operating table , the nurses pushing me away as my hand was released from donghyun's grip . it had been exactly a month and a half since i met donghyun — he was the sweetest ever and even brought me everywhere in the middle of the night just to have fun and relax .

i'll miss you and i'll love you forever kim donghyun . thank you for showing me what love is — and how it felt to have a moment with someone .

entering the operating theatre , i saw how doctor hanbin's face was so tensed even with the mask covering half his face . i let out a stiffled chuckle as he stood next to me , " i'll miss having you around here , yn . "

" you've been the best doctor for me . thank you hanbin , and thank you nurses and doctor myung . please , don't forget to pass my gift on to donghyun after he wakes up ? " i said as he nodded , " you're an angel , yn . and i believe that you'll paint our skies beautifully . "

" don't forget me ... " were the last words that ever came out of my mouth as hanbin placed a mask over my mouth . a mask filled with gas that would make me pass out and literally pass on .

kim donghyun , please never forget me .

the moment donghyun woke up , he sat up and his eyes were moving everywhere as his mom calmed him down . he was searching for one person , she mattered more to him more than anything else now .

" donghyun , you need to rest sweetie . " his mom reminded him as he sighed , laying back down as he took his phone out . a text from you ? why would you text him ? did you leave him before he could even come back ?

YN — hey donghyun ... by the time you read this , it means your surgery was successful ! how was it ? do you feel weird ? haha i'm just joking ~ i knew the surgery would go well , you had doctors myung and hanbin , of course it'd go smoothly ~~

YN — by the time you also read this ... i'm no longer here . no i didn't leave the hospital .. i mean i'm no longer in this world . i should've told you before but you just seemed so happy to be getting a donor and i couldn't ruin that for you :)

YN — i only had a month left to live . i was feeling weaker by the day ... worser by the week . thank you kim donghyun , for showing me what the outside world was like , for having fun with me and bringing me out in the middle of the night .

YN — i'm already crying while writing this message for you haha ... donghyun , please take care of my heart ? i'm sorry i can't be there with you now but just know that i'm with you everywhere you go now . you have my heart donghyun (literally). i love you , please never forget me ? 🤍

needless to say , donghyun broke down like glass shattered into millions of pieces . he cried and yelled for your name , waiting for you to say ' joking ' in that cute tone of yours . he was waiting for you to appear and hug him , welcoming him back into the world .

his mother , the nurses nearby and doctors rushed to him — trying to calm him down as he just continued crying . his heart — your heart — hurt with every sob . he was hurting himself because of what he lost .

if only he knew , he would've brought you out of the hospital . he wouldn't have agreed to the heart transplant if it meant that he would lose you . " yn !!! " he would continuously yell as you stood beside him , you were there — but just not physically .

you couldn't cry — he couldn't cry . this was supposed to be a happy moment , it meant that he would live for a long time with a new heart . you patted his hair , crying as you squatted on the floor next to him . please never forget me kim donghyun .

the moment donghyun was discharged from the hospital , he brought his mother to visit your grave . the white and pink flowers he had brought for you along with a plush bear that were couples .

he squatted next to your grave , " you look as beautiful as ever , yn ... you've endured so much suffering , it's only right for you to rest now . i know i'm a month late but ... hey i was held up in the hospital . " he joked .

" i miss you , yn . your laugh , your smile , your voice . i saw the note you left me , and the hoodie . it smells just like you , beautiful . i'll keep the note forever , they'd have to surgically remove it from me ... " he joked once more as he wiped the tears that trickled down his cheeks .

" i love you , yn . i'll always remember you . paint the skies for me ? " as if on cue , the flower that donghyun had placed on your grave had turned to face him . there was no wind present yet it still turned to him . " rest well , yn . we'll meet again , one day . "

it's been 14610 days since you left — yet donghyun couldn't let go of that . donghyun was now 65 and laying down on his death bed with his family members around him — his siblings and his grandchildren . he never got married to anyone , he knew that you and him were meant to be .

he saw how you had painted to skies so beautifully ... the clouds sometimes representing fishes and sharks , in which he would take pictures of it and send them to your number .

he couldn't wait to see you again — he missed you dearly . your laughter , your smile , your voice , the way you would hide your mouth when you laugh too hard , he missed everything about you . he waited and waited ... and now the time has finally came .

everyone around him was crying , blaming the doctors for their lack of knowlegde on how to treat patients whatsoever . donghyun on the other side ? he prayed that you would be in front of him the moment he opened his eyes again .

i'll see you soon , we were always meant to be .

⨾ 𝑝. 𝑡𝑙 — @hooneverse @sol3chu @yourssincerely-mimi @reikaxslvr @petralovesbonedo @enhabooks @mwahvvis @jaerisdiction @rairaiblog @jeonginontopforever @cheruphic @amarecerasus

[norrisleclercf1]

Day 11 of 25 Days of Christmas: Reindeer run (marathon)

Pairing: Sebastian Vettel x Reader

Rating: PG

Warnings: None just fluff

Words: 624

A/N: Sorry for posting these late, Finals are kicking my ass

Hearing the alarm made you want to commit murder in the worst possible way. It was 4:30 am on a Friday morning, with fresh snow on the ground and the temperature so ungodly cold that not even Jack Frost could handle it. And here you are, having to get up to run a stupid marathon you didn't even want to do with your husband.

"Love, you have to get up," Sebastian whispers softly, gently shaking you, as you groan loudly and curse him for retiring. Now all he wanted to do was do crazy stupid shit and also be excellent at it. First, the bike race that you watched, and now he's got you running a marathon in freezing-ass Switzerland. "I'm not getting up," You reply, burying yourself under pillows and blankets. However, you can still hear that exasperated sigh he does. "You made a commitment," He says gently, highlighting the commitment and support in your relationship, which has you sitting up quickly in bed.

"No, no," you repeat, pointing at him through the darkness. You," you poke his chest, "made me do this commitment. You didn't even ask me if I wanted to do this. You signed us up." Sebastian stares at you and smiles softly, kissing your forehead. Come on, I'll even make your favorite coffee." He smiles gently and leaves the bed, going to the closet to get dressed for the occasion.

Cursing, you climb out of bed, the warmth being sucked from you like death as you shiver and make way as Sebastian slips out while you put on every layer imaginable. Stomping into the kitchen, your to-go mug is placed in your hands with a kiss on the cheek. "It'll be fun, I promise," Seb says, but you just glare at him, which makes him smile even brighter and lead you out to the warming car.

"I can't believe I married someone who wants to do marathons during the winter," Sebastian says nothing as you make the drive. You slowly feel sleepy again, but it quickly fades when you hear thumping Christmas music and people around you. "How the hell?" you ask, realizing you're out of the car and standing in line to get your numbers. "How the hell did we get out here?" You ask, and Sebastian looks at you like you're the crazy one, adding a touch of humor to the situation.

"We walked," He says calmly, and steps up and says both your names as the man gets a look of recognition but says nothing. He just shakes his hand and hands him the numbers and pins to keep them to your clothes. Walking off to join the other large group, you sigh, letting Sebastian pin your number and chuckle softly, "You're number 571," He mumbles, and you look down. "We'll have to send a picture to Kimi when we're done with this form of torture," Sebastian looks up at you and smiles.

"I know you might hate this right now, but I'm really thankful you're doing this with me; even if you complain the whole way, it still means a lot to me," Sebastian says, smiling as he leans in and kisses you gently. You stare at him, suddenly feeling bad that you complained the entire time. Moving, you hug him tightly, feeling the warmth of your relationship, knowing part of him misses racing, that this is the part you are seeing right now.

"Oh," Sebastian says softly and melts into your hold. "I love you, Sebby," you gently kiss him. Sebastian smiles and squeezes you, "Come on, we've got a run to complete." He smiles and places reindeer antlers on your head with little bells, happily putting on his smile. "God, you're a dork,"

[expecto-kedavra]

Hey buddyyyy I was wondering if you could write about Slytherin male MC discovering their healing powers and healing Ominis of his blindness and Anne of her curse. I’ve read fics of those individually but never together

Keep up the good work 👍🏼

Hey! I love this idea. Fun fact, the first ask I ever sent on Tumblr was to the ever talented @hogwartslegacyreactions and it was how the HL characters would react to Ominis being cured of his blindness. Be sure to check her out! Scarlet is a lovely writer and I adore her blog. I owe much of my inspiration to her This was originally a bit long all together, so I'm going to split it into multiple parts. ONWARD!

Pt. 2

Pt. 3

Pt. 4

The Healer, pt 1

Ominis was definitely frustrated. He was having a lovely night's sleep when the Margaret the Diricawl landed on his chest. I was going to send a Niffler, but I didn't trust any of them to deliver a message swiftly and efficiently. Especially Ricky. I rescued him from a particularly grouchy vendor in Irondale, said he "pilfered the town and should be sent away to Azkaban." The last thing I needed was detention for the little stinker stealing Professor Ronan's hat, or Weasley's glasses. So I sent Margaret with a note tied to her- "Come to the Room please. I have something to show you." She was the sweetest of my Diricawls, one who wouldn't peck my dear friend's eyes out. They were very important to my plan. Anyways, the grumpy Gaunt stumbled into the Room of Requirement, muttering and cursing. "What? This could not possibly be more important than my rest." I laughed. I wasn't sure if it was really early or really late. I had been working for hours. "Oh trust me my friend. It is." I stared at the small vial that was the reason behind all this. A clear liquid glowed inside, occasionally flashing a brilliant blue. "Go sit on the couch." I ordered, and Ominis agreed. I had definitely piqued his interest.

"You told me that your childhood healers tried Phoenix tears and it didn't work." My heart was in my throat. This had to work. For him, for Anne..for everyone. "Right." He replied. "They thought that if that couldn't give me sight, nothing could." He was very stoic, I knew he had long accepted his condition and made it work. "Well. They didn't try everything. Mainly because this didn't exist until now." I brandished the small vial. He blinked slowly. "Wow. How incredible. I am in awe." He said flatly. Oops. "Oh right. Sorry. I call it Miracle Tears." I was tired. Naming stuff is hard, why do you think two of my pets are named Margaret and Ricky? Being creative was hard enough while not sleep deprived, Miracle Tears was going to have to cut it. "And who's tears might they be?" Ominis laughed. It was good to hear his tone shift from sleepy grouch to his usual sarcastic drawl. "Mine. Helios shared some. So did Diana." I replied. Ominis had met my phoenix, and my herd of Unicorns, so he recognized the names. "What? They cried for you?" He sounded shocked. "Yes, they are my bestest friends and they were much nicer when I woke them up." I shot back. "I thought of every healing substance I could think of. Phoenix tears, of course. Then Unicorn blood, but I knew that was out of the question. I consulted with Poppy, and we theorized that the tears could be used to a similar effect. We tested our theory, and we were correct." I didn't mention that our method involved jumping off of the balcony in the Room. "However, it wasn't as powerful, only healing partially." I said sheepishly. "Wait. Was that why Poppy was in the Hospital Wing for three days?!" Ominis more so sounded disappointed in me rather than upset. "You're getting off topic." I was glad he couldn't see my face reddening. "The last healing power I could think of was my own. Isidora went insane by removing pain and absorbing it. I did not want to risk that, so I thought up another way to bottle this power." He was quiet, I could tell he was thinking. "Listen. MC. I know you want to help me and Anne. But we've both made peace with our lives. As hard as it may be to hear, I don't need this." He was right. I knew he didn't. "I know. Sebastian does." I said softly. He was silent. Since the end of last year, Sebastian had fallen into a funk. His punishment of losing his twin sister was wearing too hard on him. He rarely spoke, and ate even less. I worried for him, and I knew Ominis did as well. "If it doesn't work, you can say you told me so and I will forget about it. But he's our friend, and he's slipping. We are losing him." That was enough for Ominis. "Alright. For Sebastian." I handed him the vial and he drank.

Ominis fell to the floor, writhing in pain and clutching his face. Shit. I didn't know what to do, or what to say. "My eyes! They burn!" He screamed. I ran into my potion room, frantically looking for something...anything. Dittany maybe, I can brew a Wiggenweld...I tried to focus, but my friends pained screams were throwing me off. As soon as I was about to scream for Deek, he stopped. He picked himself up off the floor, blinking. "I...can see." Ominis looked up at me. His normally pale eyes had turned into a deeper shade of blue. It worked. "Sorry my ragged mug is the first thing you saw." I laughed. He tackled me with a hug. "This is the world...the real world!" It was quite adorable seeing him staring at everything, his smile lit up the room. "We need to find Sebastian."

[cinhomi]

aww don't worry about it! I just finished high school as well (this is my first semester of uni) and lemme tell you: I hate uni. whatever teenage fantasy they told me is entirely WRONG because uni sucks BALLS. and not the fun i-would-suck-3racha's-balls either. uni is a menace and I'd like to flush it down the toilet. (maybe it's particularly my uni idk but conclusion is it SUCKS it's even worse than high school) but also that explains why you have to take physics haha

honestly though, no pressure about revealing any personal information! I totally understand and it's perfectly fine to not reveal anything~

please send help. I think I got a skzoo addiction because I keep getting skzoos. it started off like that one meme "I'd only get bbokari" and then it escalated into "what if it gets lonely I have to get it a friend" and now I have 5 fan made skzoos and 3 bbokaris. I also have two fanmade puppyms pre-ordered. I can afford it because I have allowance money that i never spent BUT I FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE IT FEELS SO EXCESSIVE but also looking forward to picking up little skzoos makes me so happy ;-;

anyways I have to get through this math video and a bit of accounting but I am so sleepy. welp. exams are next week and I have not studied since midterms (a month ago) because of my shitty ass uni :) where's genius seungmin when you need him :(

- titracha nonnie :3 (currently dying because finals r hurtling towards me) (hope you're doing better than your poor mathematically tortured nonnie!)

physics still doesn't make sense... not everyone does it, it depends from the school's address (???) and I find it pointless for an artistic school!!!!!!! its stupid!!!!!!!!!

THIS BEING SAID I heard some people I know actually like uni and uni's environment. but they are a bit egocentric and rude so maybe it makes sense LMAO. after replying to your last ask I actually realized few things and I came to the conclusion that what I wanted to do doesn't fully convince me.

academy of fine arts was my dream (and I'd have direct access without any exam) but the courses and professors are nothing like I imagined and I repeat, I'm glad I had more time to think about it because maybe history of art is a valid alternative. I'm afraid a few of my professors will yell at me for thisー I know I'm good, I have plenty of potential, but I'm tired of making art that others want me to do, that others impose to me, that others like etc etc etc. I'd prefer to study something and then do things by myself... sorry for the little rumble haha I have no one beside my parents I can talk about these things with :")

you make me want to buy skzoos as well... I want them so BAD esp the pilot for 5☆ fanmeet ones, so cuuuute and littleeeee and hqjsjxhwb INNEED THEM I NEED TGWM VAAUDBWAAAAH but I don't know where can I order them from and idk if I'll ever be allowed to buy them since I don't have *my* money and no one will ever gift 'em to me 😔 they're so damn expensive 😔

I hope you can study well and without stressing too much. please take care of yourself and make sure to sleep enough, okay?

[imthebadguyyy]

A/N - based off of this sinful photograph

Suggested listening - Wildside by Normani and Kiss It Better by Rihanna

Wildside

Pairing - Lewis Hamilton x Reader (fem!littlemix!reader)

Fandom - F1

Summary - You've been on tour for a while, and you miss your loverboy. But when he surprises you on tour, its bound to get spicy.

Warnings - smut (not well written)

The snap of hips. The soft groans and moans. The sound of pants. The sound of Rihanna's 'Kiss It Better' blaring through the walls. The bed knocking against the wall as Lewis's hands squeezed your hips, the intensity of the thrust pushing the bed against the wall. The high pitched moan that left your mouth as you reached your high, eyes closing as stars exploded behind your eyelids, as your boyfriend came right after you, your walls clenching as he came. Even after reaching your high, you didn't want to open your eyes, far too consumed in the earth shattering pleasure that was coursing through your veins, until a soft hand reached to pull your chin up, soft brown eyes looking into your own, clouded with lust and euphoria.

Pulling your mouth into his in a heated kiss, Lewis moved his hand to rest on your bare stomach, squeezing your tummy softly as he deepened the kiss. Pulling away he let his head droop onto your bare chest. "That was.." he began, far too blissed out to think of an adjective. "Godly" you said, chest rising and falling rapidly, trying to come to terms with the intensity of your orgasm. Laughing he leaned back up to kiss your nose, before standing up and walking to the bathroom. You heard the tap running, and the sound of the dustbin opening and closing. You closed your eyes again, the aftershocks still coursing through your body.

Opening them again slowly, you saw Lewis walk towards you, towel in hand, and a lazy smile on his face. He gently cleaned your thighs, finishing with kisses on both of them. He reached up and wiped your torso, which was gleaming with a thin layer of sweat, before running the towel over your nose, cheeks, eyes and mouth. He dropped the towel in the clothes hamper near the bathroom door, pulling on his boxer shorts and and pulling out one of his t shirts from the cupboard. "What about the clothes on the floor" you piped up, finally beginning to wake up from your post pleasure state. "When did it get so messy?" He said, spotting 5 different clothing items in 5 different corners of the room. "When you decided to run your hand up my dress in a restraunt" you replied, throwing him a fake glare.

"You liked it" was his cocky reply, smirk spreading over his face as you flushed and ran a hand through your hair. "I did not" you lied, watching as he raised his eyebrows. "Oh really ? Thats not what you were saying 5 minutes ago- oh wait, you weren't saying anything at all. You were too busy moaning my name to say anything else-" "OKAY fine I loved it. Now shut up and bring your fine ass back for cuddles"

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That was a month ago. Now you've been away for nearly one and half months, away with the girls on the LM5 tour. You loved touring, it was the best part of being a singer, getting to see the music you girls made together come to life on a stage in front of thousands and thousands of screaming fans. It was a thrill like no other. The only problem was that you were away from home. Distance was never an issue for the two of you, after all, he was a Formula 1 driver. It was very rare that he was home, except during the breaks and the gaps till race weekend, but ever since you two had started dating, he tried to be with you whenever you could. Sometimes, your shows would be in places where the races were too, and then he'd definitely turn up. But it was a difficult thing to do all the time, and some nights on tour were spent pulling all nighters as you talked to each other on the phone, till one of you eventually fell asleep.

But you knew when you started dating him, this wouldn't exactly be a regular relationship. The two of you were doing your dream jobs, and they were both extraordinary. And you were willing to put in the work you had to put in to make the relationship work, and you did. Yet here you were in Madrid, feeling heartbroken and desperately wanting your boyfriend by your side. It had been a rough couple of weeks, you were jet lagged and tired, and although this was the second leg of the tour, and you had had a break, it was tiring. It was hard going to bed every night alone, when all you wanted was to cuddle your boyfriend.

Little did you know, Lewis was feeling the same. In fact he had missed you so much, he had told Angela and his publicist to cancel all events for a week, while he flew out to Madrid to see you. He had missed you, he had missed you more than he could put into words. But he also wanted to surprise you. Pulling out his phone, he scrolled down to Leigh Anne's contact, and sent her a text.

Lewis, Leigh Anne

Hey. Is Y/N asleep ?

Hey! No, she's in an outfit fitting.

Okay that's good. I need your help with something.

Sure how can I help ?

I want to surprise her by coming to see you guys in Madrid.

Oh thats wonderful ! She's been a little down in the dumps. I think she misses you.

I miss her too.

Let me know when, and I'll send a car to pick you up.

I'll be there on Saturday. Landing at 3:15 and I should be at the hotel by 4:30. Then I can get ready and surprise her at the show.

Okay done. I'll send the car around 5:30,so you can rest for a bit. You should be here by 6. The show's at 6:15.

Thank you! Can't wait : )

I'm so happy youre coming to see her ! I'll let the girls know.

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As soon as he had finished texting, Lewis decided to start packing, the prospect of seeing you again sending a buzz of happiness running along his veins. God, he had missed you a lot. He turned to Roscoe, the dog sitting by his feet, looking up at his dad with his head cocked to one side. "I'm going to go see Mumma, Roscoe" he explained, smiling as the doggo barked in response. He wouldn't be able to take him to Madrid, he'd have to leave him with a dog sitter, but he couldn't feel too bad about it, since he had had Roscoe with him even when you were gone. And besides, Roscoe enjoyed the dog creche. He couldn't wait for Saturday.

Later in the evening, he sat down with a glass of wine, while the ringtone of your FaceTime rang through the empty house. After a few more seconds of ringing, the call was picked up, your tired face coming into view. "Hi darling" he said, noticing the tiredness in your eyes, and how much you were struggling to keep them open. "Hi bubs. Did you finish eating?" You asked, rubbing your eyes. "No, I've ordered soup" (did anyone get the reference ;) "Oh okay" was the reply. "What about you? What time is it?" "Its 9:20 AM" you replied, gently rubbing your eyes again, forcing yourself to stay awake.

"9:20? Thats pretty late baby. Why are you still sleepy?" "We were recording till 4 AM, so Im functioning on like 5 hours sleep right now" "Oh damn. Go back to sleep then baby" "Can't, rehearsal" was you reply, making him furrow his eyebrows. "Okay I guess. But don't tire yourself out" "I won't" "I love you" he said, smiling at you. "I love you"

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The Madrid show was always a fun one. The fans were loud and you loved it. They were one of the best crowds you girls ever played for, and the show had its own adrenaline and excitement. But it was difficult to give a 100% when you were tired, but you really tried, you did. During Power, you hit highnotes you didnt think you could, during Woman Like Me you danced like there was no tomorrow. During Wasabi, you brought your sass level up to a 1000. It was during Bounce Back that you caught sight of a very familiar face in the audience. Unable to actually grasp if you had actually seen Lewis, you turned to Jade, who was on your side, and looked back at the crowd and back to her, asking for confirmation.

The smirk she gave you was answer enough. After that, focusing on giving an excellent performance increased tenfold. Every swirl of your hips, every flip of your hair, every wink you threw at the audience, it was all five times sexier. In the crowd, your boyfriend was well aware of what you were doing, and it was fair to say that you were succeeding at it. He could feel an uncomfortable sensation around his pants region, as his cock twitched uncomfortably in his pants. He couldn't wait till the show was over, and you two could have a show of your own.

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"That was amazing darling!" Lewis said, spotting the 5 of you in your dressing room. "Oh look its Mr. Loverboy!" Perrie said, cackling as you rolled your eyes at her, before running up to your lover and jumping into his arms. "Hiya Bub! I missed you!" "I missed you too love. That's why I surprised you. I couldn't stand another day without you at home" he said, wrapping his arms around your waist to keep you stable as you jumped into his arms. A chorus of "awws" echoed throughout the room, as the girls watched your cute little interaction. What wasn't cute however was the comment Lewis made in your ear, hiding his face in your ear so that the girls couldn't see. "I can't wait to get back to the hotel. I saw the performance you were putting on for me baby. You have no idea how hard I got, how uncomfortable I was standing in front of so many people when all I really wanted to do was fuck you"

You could feel your mouth become dry, and your heartbeat quicken, and you could feel the area between your thighs become wet. You tightened your grip around him, letting your crotch rub against his very softly. "I think it's time to go" you mumbled against his ear. "Okay girls, as lovely as it was to see you, I think it's time we go back to the hotel. I'm pretty worn out from travelling as well" "Yeah I'm pretty tired too" you replied, faking a large yawn. "Alright then, we'll see you guys tomorrow!" Leigh Anne said, leaning forward to give you a hug. After you finished hugging all the girls, the two of you made your way to the car, eagerly waiting to get back home.

The car ride home was tense. The tension was apparent in the air, reverberating through the air, choking you in a way you revelled in. The air was thick with tension, and it was suffocating you in the best way possible. It was almost too much to take. When the hotel came into sight, you practically leapt out of the car, and rushed to the door, an equally ruffled Lewis beside you. But he was not going to give in to you so easily. He enjoyed seeing you flustered. And he was not a person that gave someone what they wanted when they asked for it,no. He was going to have you desperate for it. Smirking to himself, he made his way to the reception, grabbing you by the waist as he went.

Throwing him a confused look you followed, slightly frustrated. "Hello sir, how can I help you?" the man at the reception asked, eyes going slightly wide as he recognized the two of you. "Hi! I just wanted to ask, till what time is your pool and spa open?" He asked, sliding his hand down to the back of your dress. "The pool closes at 10 pm sir, and the spa at 9 pm. We open the pool at 7 am and the spa at 11pm"he replied, struggling to maintain his professionalism as he spoke to one of the best drivers in Formula 1. "Alright thank you. And what time does breakfast start?" Lewis asked, hand pressing down on your ass, ever so discreetly. "Breakfast is from 6-10 am sir" "Thank you so much"

Next to him, you were fuming. Of course he was going to ask questions to which he already knew the answers to. A painful throb between your legs made you let out a small whimper, and the man at the reception looked at you with concern in his eyes. "Ma'am are you alright?" He asked, eyeing your stiff posture and tense state. "Yes, just tired, thank you" you replied, a little stiffly, but it was hard to concentrate when Lewis's promise of fucking you senseless kept replaying in your mind. "Alright then, good night" Lewis said, biting back a smirk at your flustered state. He knew getting you all riled up would lead to some seriously earth shattering sex, and he couldn't wait. But first, he definitely wanted to tease you, to push you over the edge, just a little more.

Your room was on the 16th floor, and as the two of you made your way into the elevator, he eyed you up and down, eyes lingering on the curve of your breasts. The minute the door shut, he pushed you against the wall, capturing your lips in a steamy kiss you'd be remembering the next day. His hands moved to your ass, squeezing hard, eliciting a moan from your lips. The moment your lips parted, he was pushing his tongue into yours, his other hand coming up to pull on your hair roughly, relishing in the gasp that left your lips. As suddenly as he started, he stopped, pulling back and standing almost nonchalantly against the wall.

Trying to wrap your head around what happened, you gripped the wall with your hand, feeling your legs grow weak to a point where you felt like you couldn't stand on your own. You could feel your wetness dripping, threatening to run down your thighs, as the throbbing became even more painfully exciting. You looked down at the floor, eyes closing as your frustration grew more and more by the second. Finally, with a little 'ding', the elevator stopped at the 16th floor. The moment the door opened you stepped out on wobbly legs, trying your best to walk properly. But of course, that wasn't going to happen. As you turned one long corridor, Lewis suddenly grabbed your waist, pushing you against the wall again, to reach down and suck on your neck. You let out a gasp, and tried to run your crotch against his, but the retaliated with a slap to your ass, smirking when a high pitched moan left your lips. Lifting you up against the wall, he mumbled against your ear "the key card" your clouded mind was unable to process the words, too consumed by slight relief you were getting. "Get the key card baby" he repeated. This time you noted it, reaching down to his pants pocket to pull out the key card. You couldn't resist running your hand over his cock, feeling how rock hard he was. The thought of him fucking you senseless returned, and you let out a groan.

Grabbing the card from your hand, he opened the door, propping you up against the door in your bedroom. His eyes were filled with a raw, animal desire, as he dropped the card on the floor and reached up to unzip your dress. He ripped the zipper down, your dress falling to the floor in a crumpled heap. He locked his eyes on your heaving chest, hand reaching up to grab your chin, pulling you in for a searing kiss. His hand slid up your torso, reaching behind to unhook the red lacy bra you were wearing, letting it drop to the floor as he took in the glorious sight in front of him. You waited, wanting him to just touch you, but he just stared, eyes looking into yours, clearly saying "beg for it"

You couldn't help the soft "please" that left your lips, too desperate for some sort of touch. "Please what?' Lewis said, tightening his grip on your waist. "Please" was all you could say again, nearly whimpering again at the rough look in his eyes. "Use your words baby. Now, please what?" "Please just touch me!" You finally gasped out, moaning loudly when he licked a stripe down your chest before taking your right tit into his mouth. His hand fondled the left one, running his thumb over your erect nipple, the rough pad of his thumb sending shockwaves of pleasure through your body. His mouth sucked on the skin of your tit, before moving down to bite down on your nipple. You gasped again, pain and pleasure coursing through your body as his tongue ran over your nipple over and over till it nearly felt raw. He switched his actions, moving his mouth to your left tit instead, letting his hand harshly fondle the other. He continued the same process of biting, licking and sucking, till he was satisfied with himself. "I fucking love this baby. Seeing you all wet and needy for me. So what do you want? My mouth? My fingers? My cock? Or does my baby want them all ?" He asked, watching as your pupils dilated and you let out a strangled moan.

You let your crotch rub against his thigh, gasping when the friction went straight to your core. "Look at you darling. I asked you what you what you wanted, and you picked my thighs? Well, I want to see you dripping. I want to see you cum on my fingers, my mouth, my thighs and especially on my cock. I'm going to make you cum over and over and over again till you can't even stand on your own fucking legs. I want your thighs to be shaking around my head. I want to see you moan and groan and scream my name so loud, by tomorrow everyone in this hotel will know my name, because you'll spend all night screaming it" you moaned again, his words going straight to your core."Please Lewis, God, just make me cum please!" The desperation of your cry was enough for him to carry you to the bed, dropping your body onto the soft mattress.

He pulled of shirt, unbuttoning every button so you could see him do it. He could see your eyes grow dark, as his compass tattoo came into sight. You had told him it was one of your favourites, and he had used it against you ever since you had told him that. Smirking at you, he climbed onto the bed, lying down between your legs. You pushed yourself up against the headboard, spreading your legs wide for him. His eyes grew dark, as your core came into his view, shimmering with your juices. A near animalistic growl left his mouth, the sound hitting your core. He moved so that he was situated right in front of your core. He let his eyes take in the sight of you in front of him, snapping back to reality when you let out a groan of frustration. Throwing you a devilishly reassuring smile, he inched neared and nearer, till his nose was nearly touching your clit. Then he just lay there. Not moving. You could feel your heartbeat hammering against your chest, chest heaving up and down, an alarming intense feeling growing in your tummy. Finally, when it became too much you let out a small scream of frustration "Oh for fucks sake Lewis please just fuck me!" Your outburst brought a smile to his face. "Oh I will. Just not yet" and with that, he ran a finger along your slit, before finally slipping it into you. You let out a moan, finally getting the friction you had been desperate for. His fingers circled your clit, thumb gently pressing down, before he removed it,only to slam it back down on your sensitive clit, earning a scream of pleasure from you.

He slipped a second finger into you, scissoring around your clit, as your desperate cries of "oh, oh baby! Fuck, fuck lewis-" were lost in the heat of the moment. He leaned his head down to your core, letting his tongue run along your slit too, before licking around it, collecting your wetness on his tongue, before letting it harshly circle your clit. You bucked up into his mouth, feeling his tongue wrap around your clit. He sucked the nub harshly, his fingers still moving in and out of you. "Oh God, Oh GOD, Lew-I- oh! Oh God!" Your broken moans were music to his ears as he sucked your clit into his mouth. You could feel a strange intensity growing in your stomach, feeling a lot stronger than your usual orgasm. The band in your tummy was threatening to snap, but you needed that something more to help it snap. That something more came when Lewis sucked your clit into his mouth, letting it rest in between his teeth, before flicking it with his tongue.

With a cry of "Oh fucking hell, Lew-" you camr gushing into his mouth, your juices coating his fingers and gushing onto his tongue, as he let you ride out your orgasm on his deadly skilled tongue. Well, he had got his wish. Your thighs were shaking around his head, as your body tried to come to terms with the intensity of the pleasure coursing through your body. Looking down, you saw him with his painfully hard cock, grinding down on the sheet, as he let out a moan at the relief the bedsheets gave him. Raising an eyebrow, you patted your thigh, signaling him to come over to you. "You loved on me so well bubs. But I can see how hard you are. Do you want to use me to get off?" You asked, watching the effect you had on him. All he could do was nod, as you sat up on your knees. "Stand up" you ordered, getting up from the bed as well.

You walked over to the wall, letting your body rest against it. Somewhat confused, Lewis followed you, standing in the space between your legs. "I tried to get off using your thighs didn't I? I think you'll enjoy it as much as I did. So use me. Use my thigh. Get off" looking at you in pure shock, your boyfriend moved forward, groaning when you pushed your leg against his throbbing cock. He relished in the friction, slowly beginning to move against your leg, moaning when he began to rub against your leg. He began to hump your leg faster, as the pleasure began to build up in his body, before you reached your hand down to cup his length in your hands, moaning when you realized your fingers didn't quite meet. You ran your fingers along his length. You pumped him, letting your thumb circle his sensitive tip, eliciting a soft whine from him. You circled faster, moving down to your knees, and letting your tongue run up his shaft very softly. Above you, Lewis slammed his hands against the wall, groaning when you took him into your mouth.

But a part of him still wanted to cum inside when he was fucking you (in a condom, because wrap it before you tap it) so he pulled you back up, smirking when you whined. "I know baby, but I just really wanna fuck you now. Back on the bed please, unless you want me to take you here against this wall" practically running, you clambered onto the bed. You watched as Lewis pulled out a condom, ripping the packet open before climbing back on top of you. He let his hand rest on your hip, eyes temporarily losing some of the animalistic need that had been present in them. Leaning down, he connected your lips together in a kiss, a searing, intense kiss that took your breath away. "Ready love?" He asked, looking into your eyes, looking to see if there was even a slight hint that you didn't want this. But you did.

With a sudden jolt, he thrust himself into you, groaning when your warm walls clamped down on him. His hips thrust into you, starting off slow, letting you adjust to his massive length. "My sweet baby,taking me so well. Does it feel good?" You couldn't even respond, mouth agape, as his the pace of his thrusts increased. "Answer me" he said, suddenly stopping. Almost crying out at the loss of pleasure, you looked at him with desperation. "Yes yes, fuck it feels so good, please don't stop!" "Thats all you had to say baby" he said, before pushing in again, slowly. Then, he pulled back out. Looking at him in confusion, you gasped when he slammed back into you, a high pitched moan of "Lewis!" leaving your lips. He moved so that he had a better hold of your hips, rocking the both of you back and forth, the intensity of his thrusts was so much that the bed knocked back against the wall. What he wasn't expecting was for you to take his left thumb up to your mouth, running your tongue over it before sucking on it.

Moaning, he started thrusting into you even harder, shifting so that he was directly hitting your g spot. "Oh, God ! Oh fuck, Baby that feels so good please keep going keep-oh!" The cry that left your lips was so loud, you were sure Perrie in the room next to yours had heard you. "Fuck baby, you take me so well" Lewis said, as he nearly hammered your g spot. He was so, so damn close to cumming, and when you leant up and bit a sensitive spot on his neck, he came, gushing into the guard between you two, but he wanted you to cum to, so he reached down to pinch and rub your clit, still riding out his orgasm in you, moaning when you came with a scream. He winced when your core spasmed on his sensitive cock, and he pulled out slowly, before collapsing next to you. Panting, you curled up to him, letting your hand rest on his compass tattoo. "Okay that was Godlike" you said, earning a tired laugh from your lover.

"Yeah it really was. I missed you" he said, allowing you to nuzzle into his neck, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. "I missed you too" you replied, kissing the tattoo. "I love you too" As you lay there together, still revelling in the moment, your phone buzzed. Reaching over to check it, you saw your groupchat with the girls flooding with messages.

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Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Y/N, I'm filing a noise complaint. 🍆

Jade ✨ - Pez 😂 let them be. It's been a while for her.

Leigh 🦋- She really got some tonight huh? 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️- LOL she did !! And it was obviously some goooood 'some' *wink wink*

Jade ✨- I could hear em too, and Im on the other end of the hall.

Leigh 🦋 - I know I did too! Must be some damn good sex. 😏

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Go Y/N !!

Jade ✨ - Can't wait till she reads this.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Are they still going?!

Leigh 🦋 - No 😂 she's reading the messages. Y/N!! Yoohoo!

You - yes I'm here 🖕🏽

Jade ✨ - Did you have fun babe 😏

You - ..... yes

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - babe you can't really say no because we heard you

You- Im not saying I didn't have fun. But you guys need to calm down.

Leigh 🦋 - But its funnn

You - okay byeeee ❤

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - Going for a round 2 😏?

You - okay I said bye.

Leigh 🦋 - she is !!

Jade ✨ - Go babe !

You - I need to leave this group.

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - No we love you !! ❤

Leigh 🦋 - Yeah don't leave us ❤

Jade ✨- Don't leave meee ! ❤

You - Haha I'd never leave you girls ❤ now bye.

Jade ✨ - bye babe !

Perrie 🧚🏻‍♀️ - bye you sexy minx 😏

Leigh - bye hun 💙

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Smiling to yourself, you put your phone away, to see Lewis looking at you with a raised eyebrow. "Who was it?" "Just the girls" you said, cuddling back up to him. "What did they say?" Giggling, you looked up to him and kissed his neck. "They said they're going to file a noise complaint. And they asked me if we were going for a round two" "Were we really that loud?" He asked, looking at you in surprise. "Yeah, even Leigh heard us and she's at the end of the hall!" "Damn" Lewis said laughing. "Well," he said, looking at you again, with a cheeky look in his eye, "they were right about one thing" "And what is that?" You asked, smiling at him mischievously. "We are going for a round two"

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Small Claims

/ Lorcan finally tells Elide that he thinks she’s his mate. Claiming follows. Fluff & Smut.

Fandom: Throne of Glass

Characters: LORD LORCAN LOCHAN / Elide Lochan

Rating: Explicit bay-beeeeeee

TW: a lil bit of blood

Lorcan Salvaterre didn't think he had any "firsts" left. Most of them had come to pass centuries ago. First fistfight when he could still count his age on his fingers. First real battle a few years later. First kill in his late teens. Those he remembered clearly. First kiss, first time getting drunk, first fuck—blurry meaningless memories he did not care to untangle.

Listen, my power went out when I sat down to finish this last week, so I decided that it’s cursed and that it needs to get out of my WIPs. So if it’s bad, please send your complaints to Hydro. Thanks.  

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Lorcan Salvaterre didn't think he had any "firsts" left. Most of them had come to pass centuries ago. First fistfight when he could still count his age on his fingers. First real battle a few years later. First kill in his late teens. Those he remembered clearly. First kiss, first time getting drunk, first fuck—blurry meaningless memories he did not care to untangle.

In the last few months, he was surprised to experience new "firsts" with this force of nature he now shared his life with. Elide was the first person he cared about, the first person he loved. His first time having sex and feeling something more than pure lust.

And now, Elide Lochan was the first partner he ever had the urge to claim. Lorcan had bitten plenty of females before, but never broke skin. It was a part of his fae heritage that had never surfaced until he started traveling with her. He felt it first when they traveled with the circus and men kept hovering around her tent, trying to gage if they could bed the innocent fortune teller. He pushed the urge down, down into himself, refusing to acknowledge any feeling for her. He kept the urge at bay for long, even making fun of Whitethorn when he noticed the mark he had left on his Queen. But when Elide gave him everything, the need to claim her had flooded Lorcan's senses. It was not the time, though. Not when she was so insecure.

Since then, Elide has grown confident with her sexuality, initiating things even more often than he does. Still, Lorcan has not claimed her. He could not figure out how to ask her. 

His primal instincts are always stronger on mornings like this. When he wakes up and she sleeps peacefully next to him, hair swept away, exposing her throat to him.

"Lorcan?" she asks softly, tentatively, pulling him out of his thoughts.

Elide's voice is not as sleepy as he thought it would be. It sounds as if she has been awake for a while. She shifts to face him, hands coming up to rest on his chest.

"Can humans have a mate?"

Lorcan trails one of his hands up Elide's arm and inclines his head, a silent cue for her to continue.

"I dreamt of Aelin and her mate and I… I was wondering why you didn't have one." Her tone is so sad, Lorcan feels his heart twist. "If it is because you're demi-fae."

He lifts a hand to cup her cheek, his thumb stroking over her cheekbone.

"Not everyone has a mate, Elide. They're rare," she lets a little oh and he continues, "I used to think I couldn't have one. Not because of my human blood, but because of… Who I am. What I did."

"Used to?"

For so long, Lorcan had convinced himself that he didn't even have a heart left. That his power, like it does to his enemies, had rotted his insides to the point of rendering him heartless. Living only to inflict pain and slaughter. Then, he met Elide and his rotten heart had made itself known. Twisting and pulling, accelerating and stopping, until he had to admit to himself that he cared for her. At first, it was an inconvenience, a distraction from his mission and the Queen he thought he loved. When he betrayed Elide and sold Aelin to said-Queen, Lorcan could hardly live with himself knowing she hated him, that he had ruined what they had. Whatever that was.

And now?

"I don't… think that anymore."

"So why then?"

"Why what?"

"Why don't you have a mate?"

Lorcan removes his hands from her and rolls over on his back. He stares at the ceiling, trying to figure out what to say, how to say it. Words have never been his forte. Elide is so good with words, but it seems the talent is not contagious. She inches closer to rest against his side, head on his shoulder. Can she hear his heart thundering in his chest? Can she read the fear on his face? 

He inhales deeply, then exhales slowly.

"I think you're my mate."

There it is, the secret he has been holding for months now. He feels her still against his side and all his repressed worries to come flooding in. 

She doesn't want to be your mate. 

Who would even want that? 

You don't deserve her. 

You don't deserve anything. 

You've killed so much. 

You've brought on so much suffering. 

It would be unfair for you to have a mate. 

All she does, however, is ask, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't… I don't know how any of this is supposed to feel.” He rubs at his face with one broad hand. “I've never loved before, I don't know the difference."

Elide's fingers start tracing the outline of his pecs, toying with the dark hair there. 

"Neither do I. We're learning together."

Lorcan lets out a breath of relief. She isn't mad at him. She doesn't laugh at him. 

"It doesn't have to… change anything," he says tentatively, "I don't want to force this on you."

Elide shifts and leans on her elbow, staring at him with those devastating dark eyes.

"Lorcan, you never forced me into anything. I'm… honored."

He scoffs. As if. He already struggles everyday to remind himself that she does, in fact, love him. Thinking she would see being his mate as an honor was far beyond what he could imagine. She flicks his nose. He is not worthy of her and they both know it, the whole court—

"I'm serious," Elide chastises, "I wouldn't want anybody else."

Elide leans towards her husband and presses her lips to his. 

"Who wouldn't want Lorcan Salvaterre, second in command to Queen Maeve as a mate?" she teases, her hand trailing lower on his chest, "A strong fae male to scare my enemies."

"You're the only female fearless enough to want me," he replies, as serious as ever.

Lorcan shivers as her fingers slipped past the waistband of his underwear.

"Why would I be afraid," she croons, palming his semi-hard cock firmly, "when I have you wrapped around my finger?"

Lorcan snaps and rolls to be on top of her. This kind of talk always got to him. Of course, his wife's body is beautiful and perfect, but it's that cunning mind and sharp tongue that really made him lose his mind.

He nips at Elide’s lower lip and her lips part for him, allowing him a taste. She always tastes so sweet—strawberries and cinnamon, more addictive than any sugary treat. 

Lorcan groans as he witnesses her wide eyes, darkened by lust and need. He lowers his mouth to her neck, kissing and sucking the soft flesh. Her pulse rushes under her skin and his canines are aching to pierce and claim and—

He moves down to her chest before the feral thing inside him can fully surface. He focuses this energy on her breasts, knowing she likes him leaving marks for nobody but them to see. He palms one of her heavy breasts with one hand while the other seeks out her sex. Before he reaches his destination, however, she grabs his wrist and pulls him up to look at her.

"You're holding back," she simply says, "why?"

He must look absolutely savage right now—wild eyes, panting heavily, shaking slightly with restraint—for her to even bring it up.

"I want to claim you," he replies roughly.

Elide lets go of his wrist and for a second, Lorcan fears he drove her away. She understood that he doesn't deserve her and she doesn't want a life shackled to him and—

Her hand moves up to his nape and she lightly tugs on his hair.

"I want everything you can give me." 

Her other hand reaches between them and grasps him again, angling his length to line up with her.

Lorcan's breath hitches, "are you—"

"Yes. I want everyone to know you're mine."

Everyone knows, of course. He does not preside over meetings with her, but everybody notices the armored warrior standing in the doorway, a constant threat of violence etched on his face. The Lady's brute, he had heard some whisper. They're right. Her uncle had called him a brute as well. No amount of gentle kisses and magical braces would erase the centuries of pain he has caused.

Sensing her lover's hesitation, Elide bends forward to whisper in his pointed ear, "claim me."

Lorcan unleashes himself with a feral groan, any semblance of control he once had shattering to give way to the beastial fae half of him. He drives his cock into her heat in a powerful stroke, eliciting a surprised gasp and a giggle from Elide. 

With all his previous partners, Lorcan kept the kissing to the absolute minimum. But Elide's moans were a siren song to his ears, and he wanted nothing more than to drink them all up until he drowned. He claims her lips in a hungry kiss, so raw and unchained that their teeth clinked together.

Even with his lips on hers, his cock in her and a hand grasping her breast, he still needs more, more to touch, more to taste. By the way her hands roam his chest and claw at his back, his wife feels the same.

While he ruts into her, Lorcan reaches between them to toy with her clit, wanting—needing to feel her shatter on his cock.

She's mine, she's mine, she's mine. The words echo in his head with each slap of his hips against hers.

I have a mate.

Clap.

A mate.

Clap.

A mate.

As if she could read his mind, Elide echoes his thoughts in-between two short breaths, "my mate."

A shock passes through their bodies, heightening every sensation. The bond snapping into place, he supposes. It's overwhelming, better than any story Lorcan has ever heard. He feels her emotions, her love for him, as strongly as if they were his. He knows now more than ever that he wants to spend his whole life with Elide Lochan. That, no matter how short their time together would be, he could never live without her.

Lorcan hooks one of Elide's legs around his elbow while his other hand quickens its ministrations on her clitoris. The next thrust is deeper, angled just right, and Elide comes with a scream that will surely wake up the maids. He coaxes her through the waves of her orgasm, his eyes never leaving her flushed face. Beautiful.

As he feels his own release approaching, Lorcan leans towards her and drags his teeth down Elide's neck, inhaling her scent deeply. Just before erupting, he bites down, canines piercing the soft skin effortlessly. 

My mate, my mate.

Lorcan spills in her. Once. Twice. By the end of his climax, he is shaking all over. He finally pulls away from her neck, licking his lips, then running his tongue over the mark. He stares at it for a moment, admiring as droplets of blood start beading out again. Will she want to keep the scar, like Aelin did? The memory of it will live in his mind forever either way, just like their scent will always be intertwined now. The possessiveness is not a part of himself he is used to, and he feels quite ashamed of the primal nature of it all, but faeries are territorial creatures. 

Elide trails a finger up his throat and he leans into her touch.

"Am I supposed to… do it too?"

"Only if you want to," he says, brushing a strand away from her sweaty forehead.

She hums softly, considering. "Your throat does look bare without a scar."

"Do I not have enough scar for you, Milady?"

She laughs and Lorcan wonders if he will ever get used to the sound and how it makes his heart skip a beat. 

"I like your scars."

Elide pushes on his chest and Lorcan pulls himself out and twists to lay on his side next to her. She turns to face him and starts tracing a scar that spans the length of his biceps.

"Do you want one?"

"More than anything."

[stardustincarnate]

TOGETHER FOREVER // Asra x Reader

ASRA + A NON-BINARY MC

WORD COUNT: 2541

GENRE: Fluff

Water.

Flowing water, molded into ballerinas, swaying to the slow, dreamy rhythm of a harp, by a skilled magician, surrounded me as I stood in the middle of a vast, colorful oasis. It took me a while before I realized that I was in Asra's gate. How did I end up being there?

The plants sprung to life, engulfing me, filling my vision with a dancing of warm colors that reminded me of him as I closed my eyes. I could feel the phantom of warmth embrace me, and when I opened my eyes, I was greeted with those deep and sincere purple eyes of his.

The world seemed to have slowed down, every action taking some time as if it was to savor the moment. I found myself loosely wrapping my arms around his neck as he caressed my other cheek, and I leaned to the feeling.

I could see Asra's magnificent aura combining with mine, making a beacon of blinding light that went up to the sky.

His tender touch never fails to send me flying over to the moon, both our magic combined as if speaking to one another, my heart reacting to his own.

He pressed his forehead against mine, a blush creeping up his face.

"I love you."

-

With that, I had unfortunately awoken. I yawned, rubbing the sleep from my eyes, soon realizing that Asra was not beside me anymore. The smell of my favorite soup wafted out from the kitchen to the bedroom, causing me to blearily walk towards it. The sleepiness soon ebbed my system once the smell got stronger. Asra wasn't aware that I already woke up, so I sneakily went on to hug him from behind, earning an adorable gasp from him and making me chuckle.

"[MC]? You're awake. Did you have a good sleep?"

I nuzzled his fluffy hair. "Mhm I suppose. I had a really good dream."

"Oh? Why don't you tell me about it."

"We were in your gate. But it didn't look like before.. it was more magical that time. Well, just us doing some romantic things.. Involving magic too!"

Asra let out a chuckle, "Why don't we make it real then?" He turned around, giving me that playful look of his. I grinned. "Ooh, I love the sound of that."

Soon, I found myself being fed by him as we ate our breakfast. Faust kept on squeezing us alternatively. She seemed excited about something.

"[MC], what do you say we go out for a trip today?" Asra asked, wiping off some remaining soup droplets on my chin which I hadn't noticed.

"Where will we go?"

"I thought about bringing you to the magical realms, but then I thought of something better." He casted a wistful look on me. "Let's forget about the realms for the mean time. Let's just explore the city. What do you think?"

"You know I'm up for it! But you'll have to let me take a bath first!" I chuckled.

"Take your time. I won't mind." He playfully winked at me as I headed towards the bathroom.

Some time later, we arrived at the city market. Vesuvians were partially rowdy and quiet. Though some even came stumbling near the two of us, but it was alright. Asra held my hand tightly as I saw him grinning at something— or someone. The market seemed a bit more playful today. Maybe that's why he decided to take me here? The fun in the atmosphere was tangible, especially when I heard the strumming of guitars— and the next moment, all I knew was that Asra and I were dancing in the middle of the street, accompanied by some other couples until the beat had stopped.

It was fun while it lasted. It's as if my body had a mind of its own when I let myself dance to the rhythm. I didn't care about anything else other than the joyous music. I knew what felt right, and it felt right to let myself sway to the rhythm with Asra. Abstract magic bubbled around the two of us. How I love feeling that way.

However, right after the dancing session, the world suddenly dissipated into nothingmess. I was left all alone in a dark, fathomless land where no one seemed to hear me. No Asra... no Faust. I tried to connect to them using my magic, but something was intercepting it. No no, I didn't feel something ominous despite the situation. So what, exactly, was stopping me? I called out to my magic once more, and there I felt a recognizable aura somewhere. Asra's. He was nearby, I could tell, but it's as if he was hiding behind a veil which I didn't know where to find. I was in distress, but then something dawned me.

Asra must've been playing tricks with me. I should've known from the beginning. Ugh, I am so going to get that rascal! I let my magic surround me, and then I was back at the market— but I was alone. If he was pulling a prank on me, I'd give him credits for the effort of making  the crowd disappear too. I clicked my tongue but later on grinned. What kind of prank was it? I got a little excited to know what to see at the end of the tunnel.

"Asraaaaaa!"

I called out for the nth time. I was aimlessly walking that I didn't realize I already bumped to a hulking figure. The smell of Myrrh...

"Muriel! Have you seen my sneaky magician?" 

He looked away as soon as I met his eyes. He didn't reply. He just walked away. I followed him with my eyes but then he stopped his tracks, reluctantly beckoning me to join him. And I did. And I couldn't believe what my eyes were seeing. Asra really did execute a massive prank for me because the whole Vesuvia seemed empty of people. I was beginning to get confused when I still didn't see anyone, but when we turned to a corner, leading to which I presume is the docks, an enthralling scenery surprised me.

My fellow Vesuvians were scattered on the side. The middle was empty and I supposed I would be walking there, and I was right. I let out a confused noise when they suddenly started singing all together. Their voices were harmonious that it somehow made my heart feel lighter than it already was. I could spot a few familiar faces.

Selasi, our favorite baker, then came up to me, handing me something. I was surprised that it wasn't bread but a bouquet of my favorite flowers. I thanked him, but before I could ask furthermore, he hastily ran back to the crowd.

"Muriel, what's going on?"

What did I expect? He didn't even turn around. I guessed I wouldn't be having any answers until I see the mastermind behind all of this.

I spotted Aisha and Salim in the crowd. They gave me a meaningful smile, a sly look on their faces. I smiled back and proceeded to walk down the center even if I had no idea what was happening. Their attentions were all on me. It made me feel overwhelmed, as if I was the star of Vesuvia. And jeez, was the Countess and all the other courtiers somewhere in the crowd?

Speaking of, I soon found Nadia standing in a corner. Her elegant figure stood out the most. I was taken aback when she walked to me, and I received a bouquet of flowers once again. She gave me a playful look and then weaved herself through the crowd. I soon spotted Portia, and she did the same thing to me, winking afterwards. 

And by the time I had reached Julian standing in the middle of the docks, my arms were already full of bouquets, but he gave a blind eye to that and proceeded to put another bouquet on top of the rest that I could barely see what's in front of me. And as I expected, the strain in my arms made the bouquets fall to the ground. I regretfully looked at them. But just as I was about to pick them up, Julian intercepted, swaying his long, lanky arms that almost hit my face.

"Whoops! No no no no. We can't have our main star doing the work here, can we?"

He flashed a shameless grin and started picking up the bouquets. I didn't argue and instead chuckled. Then as I lifted my gaze, I finally saw Asra, standing at the edge and giving me a look as if to tell "I'm expecting you."

He smiled at me as I ran into him, completely forgetting the fact that he's at the edge. One slight move and he would fall into the water. But something unusual happened. 'Asra' bursted into fizzy bubbles and tiny butterflies that soon engulfed me, making me giggle. And once they gave way, I was greeted by a bunch of tiny ballerinas which emerged from the water. They were careful not to get too close and drench my clothes. My smile grew even wider as I recalled my dream. There were also dancing ballerinas surrounding me, but bigger. Asra must had taken note of that to pull the trick off.

I pivoted, seeing 'Asra' give me another bouquet of flowers. But they were much larger than the ones my friends had given to me. The other half was drenched though since it was given to me by the water in which Asra shaped himself to.

"[MC]." I heard a boisterous call, making me turn around for the nth time, and that time I finally saw the real Asra. Solid and radiating an immense aura of magic. Joyous but somehow perplexed. I threw myself at him, and we bursted into giggles.

"My, my.. You really know how to pull a trick off your sleeves. Is this really the real you, or are you just another one of his illusions?"

"I'm the real one you know," His airy voice tickled my ears. There was a playful tone in his voice. "Want me to prove it?"

"N-Not in front of everyone!" I flushed but eventually cleared my throat. "Uhm, mind explaining yourself? Please tell me what's gotten into your mind to do this."

He only gave me a smug look, but later on evaded my gaze as a blush crept on his face. The crowd had already stopped singing. They were silent and watching us as if expecting something huge to happen. I looked at my friends, who were only giving me playful looks. I frowned, but then it hit me. 

Or I might just be assuming things. It was just a massive prank, right? Asra didn't do it because of...

"[MC]."

"Yeees?"

"I.. You know how much I care for you.. Right?"

I heard someone in the crowd squeal.

"Yes. You told me about it when.. when we were at the fountain... during the most recent masquerade." I blushed as I reminisced the scene. It made my heart flutter when he told me that he loves me. It filled me with joy. We've been through a lot...

"We've been through a lot of adventures ever since we defeated the Devil. And I treasure the memories that we keep on making... I find it better to go on adventures with you by my side rather than going alone," He looked at me and smiled. It was my turn to look away due to our faces' proximity. "You showed me a different perspective of the world, [MC], and I can't imagine living a life without you anymore. I feel like as long as we're together, we'll be able to overcome anything." 

My heart erratically beated as he said those words. A mixture of Aww's and other complements came from the crowd, but Asra didn't seem to mind. He was staring at me. And only at me.

"I love you, [MC]. And I'll keep on loving you.." He widened the distance between us a little, kneeling down and as if searching for something in his pocket. I didn't know how red my face was at the time. I felt like exploding.

He really was doing it.

He was proposing to me.

Asra stopped his search and shyly looked around, but he was somehow distressed. 

"Now where did I put it...." He looked down, facepalming. "Faust, where are you? I told you not to play with it."

At the mention of her name, Faust slithered towards him, something shiny in her mouth. Asra chuckled and scolded her as she took refuge in his sleeve. Then, he averted his gaze back to me, his eyes gleaming with hope and love.

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you, [MC]. And I hope you do too... Will you marry me?"

He showed me the ring that flashed the colors of the rainbow before my very eyes. Milliseconds after he said that the crowd started cheering and squealing, and I didn't even utter my answer yet, and I couldn't due to all the noise. Portia took care of it though.

"HEY! Did we actually hear what [MC] said? QUIET!" And the noise dissipated. 

The more I looked at Asra, the more I realized how nervous he actually was. Even with a brave facade, I could still see through him. We were blushing so bad as he waited for my answer. But I felt like I couldn't speak at the time. I was overwhelmed with euphoria that I couldn't bring myself to utter a single word or even move. It took me a few seconds to calm myself, responding to his question with a smile.

"D-Do you even have to ask?"

"Is that a yes?"

"Of course it is! Yes! I'll marry you!"

Asra stood up with a wide, genuine smile as he put the ring on my finger. It was filled with an intricate design, the pattern carved meticulously. I was so amazed at how detailed it was. I looked at it with awe. I couldn't believe what was hapenning. I might've swooned.

"Good. I was beginning to think you wouldn't.."

"Why wouldn't I?"

"I don't know." Asra laughed, pulling me into a kiss. His magic surged into me and when he pulled away, he immediately took me in his embrace. The crowd started cheering once again that I could barely hear myself over it.

"Did you make the ring?"

"Yes. Did you like it?"

"Like it? I love it!" I flushed against his chest.

"The ring only?"

"Psh, of course you too! I love you, Asra!"

He chuckled and intertwined our fingers. I blushed even more. If I could explode, I already would've.

"I love you too. I loved you ever since."

"Asra! Stop making me blush.."

"But I was just stating facts! Right Faust?"

"Right!"

He really couldn't fail to make me blush, to create butterflies and grow flowers inside me, and to make my heart feel light and filled with pure bliss.

We were engaged, and I couldn't wait to see what the future stores for us.

The future that includes him and I, completely contented with each other's presence.

[vensweety]

Letting Go (Levi Ackerman series) Part 4

A/n: This took way too long to write than it should have but hey at least it's here. I have quite some ideas for other anime characters but yeah...I don't know when I'll work on it. Have fun reading!

Summary: V is Erwin’s sister and has a past with Levi which Erwin doesn���t know of. What will happen when Erwin proposes an arranged marriage between V and Levi? Read to find out….

Warnings: angst, anime and/or manga spoilers, Erwin’s sister! oc, arranged marriage, and enemies to lovers.

Word count: 2.6k

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3

I woke up and rubbed the sleepiness off my eyes as I looked around my room. Sunlight filtered into the room through the cracks between the curtains. I live with Erwin in a small cottage on the east side of Wall Rose near Stohess district. It's been two years since Erwin rescued me from my house. Having said that, it still seems weird since a house is presumably the place where one can feel safest but here I am breaking all laws of nature.

Instead of sending me off to some kind of orphanage, he asked me if I would like to live with him. When I said yes, he even went through the trouble of legally adopting me into his family. Now I'm Verity Smith, or V as I prefer to be called. In general, he's a fantastic brother, pampering me all the time, buying me anything I want, and just taking good care of me.

It took me a little while to get used to seeing someone actually caring about me and showing me any emotion other than hatred and anger. Moreover, I was worried that my mother would somehow find us and hurt him because I’ve seen her do that many times before to anyone that tries to help us or even speaks badly about her.

It was my dream to follow in his footsteps, be strong, courageous, independent, wise and kind. When I told him that I wanted to join the Survey Corps, he immediately refused saying that he didn’t want his sister to get hurt, but I was stubborn, so I insisted. He eventually agreed to two conditions; one, I would be trained by him and two, I would leave the wall on an expedition only if I happened to be among the top 10 cadets of the batch.

Soon after, I began training with Erwin. He was hard on me at first, but I suppose I had no choice if I was going out the wall to find certain truths and defend humanity. Because I was a fast learner, after about a year of training with him, I was able to join the Training Corps.

My first interaction with Levi came through Erwin, who introduced us on my first day at the Training Corps. I once heard about Erwin rescuing him from the underground world, and now he has decided to join the Corps after some convincing by Erwin himself.

I was quite an introvert...as my life revolved around Erwin and I never really met anyone other than Erwin’s acquaintance John who worked with him. He was a very nice guy. He was about Erwin's age, and whenever I was done with Erwin's harsh training, he would always fetch me water and make sure I got back home safely without passing out. I also consider him to be my brother.

Levi struck me as a man who was hiding something behind his cold and intimidating facade and I wanted to know him on a deeper level.

“Levi! This is my sister Verity and she will be training in the same batch as you so hope you both get along”, said Erwin introducing me to him as he nods and leaves and then my brother turns to me and says, “This is Levi….he’s someone I really trust. So stick with him throughout your time here if you don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone else...ok?”

“Um...sure”, I replied hesitantly as Levi stared daggers into my soul while talking to two of his friends. I observed him talking to a girl whose hair was reddish strawberry-coloured and a sandy-blonde guy. I noticed he looked really calm and even laughed when he was with them, so I assumed he must have known them from earlier and be friends with them.

“Well anyway...good luck and work hard on your training if you want to join me outside. Got it?...You do remember your promise... right?” asked Erwin.

I rolled my eyes as I replied, “Yes… I know. I’ve to come out among the top ten or I won't be joining the Survey Corps.”

As he patted my head, he chuckled and we parted ways.

I then looked around feeling nervous due to my social anxiety. I didn’t know anyone there except Levi, so I decided to go and stay by his side. As I approached Levi and his friends, I saw the girl’s eyes light up as she whispered something to the blonde guy who looked at me and smiled.

Moments after I approached them, the girl introduced herself enthusiastically, “Hi!! My name is Isabel Magnolia, you can just call me Isabel and this is Farlan”, she said as she pointed towards the sandy blonde guy.

“H-Hi. I’m Verity, you can just call me V.” I replied nervously.

“It’s nice to meet you. Would you like to sit with us during dinner?” Farlan asked with a slight smile. My anxiety must have been obvious earlier, I thought to myself.

“Sure...I’ll take you up on the offer” I said, feeling relieved that I wouldn’t need to socialize for the day.

Levi stared at me throughout dinner, so I felt super uncomfortable sitting with them. He seemed to be trying to figure me out so I didn't say anything and just ate dinner alongside him and his friends.

I went out for a walk with Isabel after dinner.

"I'm sorry about Levi, he's been through a lot so he acts strangely around strangers. Once you get to know him, he's quite nice, so just give him some time and he'll come around.” Isabel muttered looking up at the stars in the bright sky.

“It’s alright… I'm not that good with strangers either so I can't really blame him” I chuckled.

"If I'm crossing a boundary, please let me know; however, I can't help but wonder if you're actually related to Captain Erwin because you both look so different in terms of appearance. It’s not just that….but i had heard earlier that he was a single child" She questioned hesitantly looking at my nervous figure.

“I- Um…. He’s…..” I took a deep breath before replying “He adopted me into his family a few years ago...but I consider him as my own brother after everything he’s done for me” I answered not meeting her eyes anymore.

“I understand that it’s a sensitive topic for you and I’m sorry for bringing it up and making you uncomfortable. I was just curious. It’s okay….none of us had a proper family or parental figure, so we just relied on each other. So we know what it’s like...but I’m glad you were able to find a family that loves you. You’re always welcome to join us...we’ll be happy to be your friend.”

I felt so happy at that moment and felt like I could conquer anything at that time. She was the first friend I had ever made and she had a super kind heart in spite of the things she had faced in the underground.

Over time, I learned more about Farlan and Levi's background or rather, their life story in general. I became very close to Farlan as well, and he always treated me as if I had grown up with them. I tried a number of ways and methods to get close to Levi, but he never let me inside the walls he had built up. The most I ever got out of him was an order that the Captain asked him to pass on to me. It frustrated me to no end, but I calmed down after remembering that he had endured so much at such a young age. I went through something similar but the problem was that he didn’t know that….I had only told Isabel and she kept it a secret for me. Sometimes I wondered if he would have let me in, if he knew about my past.

It didn’t help that I developed a massive crush on him. I know I know…. you might be thinking that it’s the usual ‘falling in love with a cold guy that doesn’t show emotions’ story. Probably….but i’m pretty sure that the reason I developed a crush on him was because I admired him. I admired him because he went through a hell of a past, stood strong and became independent mostly without help unlike me who couldn’t even stand up for myself and needed someone to come save me. Even though I am stronger, independent, and more confident than I was a few years ago...I could not help but reflect on my pathetic past self.

There was just a few more weeks left before we would emerge as soldiers...and it was around this time that I first met Hange Zoe. I had noticed her earlier several times but never really got the chance to actually talk to her. My introvert ass also played a big role here, but let’s just ignore that. The moment I met her, I could see an unrealistic glint...or was it love in her eyes? She was very much interested in learning about the titans rather than the training itself. I found that very odd, since the rest of us always barely stayed awake in such classes. But this doesn’t mean that she was bad in training….she was pretty good at it, however she would easily get distracted. She even got Levi to talk with her in a conversation for about three minutes. I was pretty jealous, but also upset because he must really hate me if he can talk to everyone else for longer than 5 seconds, but not with me.

I was with Isabel and the guys eating our dinner one night when….

“Hey….are you gonna eat that?” I turned to find Hange pointing at the mashed potatoes that I had pushed aside on my plate.

“Uh…..no..? You can take it if you want it.” I said awkwardly.

“Thanks….by the way do you don’t mind if I join you guys? I would eat alone but I was feeling rather tired and you guys seem interesting. Can you guys believe that the titans are right outside a few kilometers?!! What kind of titans do you think we’ll see there?? Huhh?? It would be great if we saw at least a few abnormals!!! God I can’t wait for the day we go on an expedition!!!” She kept mumbling on and on about Titans. We were all dumbfounded but soon went back to eating while nodding occasionally to whatever she was saying.

I looked up to see Levi looking at her with irritation clearly written on his face which made me giggle. Everyone suddenly turned to me questioningly while I tried to do damage control by coughing and lowering my face so I wouldn't make eye contact with them. I could feel Levi’s scrutinizing gaze burning holes into my body. They soon returned to their meals and continued eating again but I started feeling extremely uncomfortable with Levi’s stare. I could tell that he didn’t want me there since this was not the first time he had done that….so I hesitantly turned to Isabel and whispered in her ear, “Hey...uh..i’m not feeling so good, I think I will just return to our dorm a little early and try to get some rest. See you there…” She nodded with a small smile as I walked back to the girls’ dorm.

I was rooming with a girl named Ayume and she was a quiet one and never really bothered me so I liked her. She was not in the room so I assumed she was with her boyfriend who was also a trainee here, though I never really met him personally. The moment I laid down in my bed, I heard a knock.

“Who is it?” I yelled.

“Hange….Hange Zoe” A voice replied.

I immediately sat up wondering what she wanted with me, my anxiety kicking in. I had only talked to her once...and that was today so I can’t really say that I trust her but I hesitantly walked up to the door and peeked out looking at Hange standing with a calm look on her face which is very unusual considering her attitude. But then again I don’t really know her so I weakly smiled at her and asked

“Hey...How can I help ya?”

“I just wanted to talk to you about something...can I come in?”

“Yeah...sure…..”

I opened the door wide enough for her to enter and then I sat on my study table while she sat at my bed. She looked up slightly tilting her head and asked in a sheepish voice, “I heard a lot of rumour going on about you that you are one of the squad captain’s sister. I believe it was Captain Smith but that would make sense considering your name is Smith.”

I was quiet for a moment, shocked at how she jumped straight to the matter but also kind of impressed that she had the confidence to come ask me instead of talking behind my back like the others.

“Yep...that’s me”

“Oooh cool...that must mean your brother must have access to all secret information on the outside world and titans right??!!” She asked, jumping around enthusiastically.

I chuckled and replied, “Probably….but that doesn’t mean I have access to it...so no I won’t be able to get it for you” knowing that she must have wanted them considering her reaction.

She pouted and slumped back into the bed “Aw….man, I really thought you would be able to get them. Well, anyway….”

She suddenly stood up before continuing, “You have a crush on that shorty don’t you?”

My head snapped up to meet her eyes, and my mouth fell open as I tried to speak, but nothing came out.

She giggled as she went on, “I knew it….I have seen you from the first day you came here and watched you follow him around like a lost puppy while he kept ignoring you. To be honest, I wanted to befriend you from the first day I saw you but you looked like you were going to pass out if anyone even so much as approached you. So I figured you must be having social anxiety and let you settle in before I opened my loud mouth. I know that I can be overbearing which is one of the reasons why nobody wants to be my friend but I just couldn’t resist you. You are very pretty so don’t worry, one day the shorty will come around and realise your worth.”

I blushed at her compliment, feeling more comfortable in her presence as she continued, “Till then, how'd you like to be my friend?? We can go to the town tomorrow considering it’s a free day for us. What do you say??”

She was pretty loud, but I couldn't help myself and gave her a genuine smile, “You know what? Sure...let’s go out tomorrow. I actually do like you and I don’t find you overbearing. Yeah I don’t do well around people, but people not wanting to be your friend just because of your loud personality is really stupid. They just lost a gem”

She gave me a calm smile as I went ahead and hugged her.

“Welp...anyway it’s about time for curfew...got to run. See ya tomorrow Verity” She waved as she walked out the door towards the stairs.

I felt excited for tomorrow’s outing with my new friend and feeling more comfortable than before, I went back to sleep.

All rights and credits of the Attack on Titan character(s) mentioned, image(s) and gif(s) used belong to their respective owner(s) except for the oc which belongs to me.

[the-wales-5]

"Spooky beginnings"

2003. St. Andrews University.

"Catherine, we are going out soon. Will you join us? " one of Miss Middleton's roommates asked in the early evening

"No, I am not in a mood for that tonight" she replied without even looking at Olivia. 

She was focused on reading a book with horror stories she got from her sister as a birthday gift earlier in the year but had no chance to read it earlier.

"Okay, as you wish" Olivia said and left Catherine's room

"Have fun" Kate said after a few minutes, so she hadn't noticed that Olivia and some others had left the house already.

*

At 1:30 AM, Catherine finished reading the book.  More than 40 scariest stories were now written down in her mind as she was recalling them over and over. Blood, screams, ghosts, old haunted houses.. Girl got up from her bed, and as soon as she could, she put the book on the farest shelf away from her bed to not even see the cover of it. She decided to keep the light turned on and then covered herself with a duvet. Only her eyes were visible. Soon, she heard the sound of the wind outside, and it frightened her.

"O my gosh, I am so stupid!" she thought and got courage to get up off bed again and turn off the light. "I should not be thinking about it. At last those stories were fictional. Yes, totally fictional.." She sighed and closed her eyes but also quickly remembered what was written on the back of the book ("Some of the stories inspired by the reality events"). She rushed to sit on the bed again, nearly twisting her ankle in the process. "Shit, I have to calm myself down finally" she thought as pulling out her phone and started typing a text message to Pippa:

"40 horror stories read in the evening and now I'm sitting on the bed, feeling scared instead of enjoying time with my friends at a party. 'Thanks'. Oh, I forgot; I also nearly twisted my ankle but never mind. NEXT TIME GIVE ME A COOKBOOK INSTEAD, OKAY?. I will make sure to lend you that book with scary stories when I will be back at home over Christmas *evil laugh*. Bye ;) . Kate". 

She sighed in relief as thinking that sending a text would make her feel better but her heart was racing again as she thought about one of the stories from the book again and right then heard a weird sound (caused by the old floor in the room but her imagination runs wild so everything was frightening in that moment)..

Running towards the door of her room was never faster in Catherine's life. Alright, maybe during school days and competition but that doesn't count.

As she reached the corridor at the house she was hoping to see someone coming back from the party that would make her feel safer but it hadn't happened though.

"They all had to leave home tonight, and I had to plan to read that book tonight. Well, we are all stupid.. " she said quietly as preparing tea for herself, not aware that someone was staring at her.

Suddenly, she heard William's voice asking her: "Who's stupid?"

She screamed and shattered a cup.

-Kate, it's just me.. " William said, feeling surprised by her reaction 

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" She asked by still shouting and getting breathing difficulties because of shock

"Catherine.. What happened?" William asked as touching her arm

"I asked first" she replied in a cold voice

"I stayed at home, I was not in the mood to go out, just like you.. You could join me and watch some movie or something.."

She stared at him and then sat on the kitchen chair, giggling sarcastically.

"Yes, but instead, I have read a book with scary stories, and it frightened me totally.. And now I'm afraid to even come back to my room.."

"Well, you know, we can now fix the mistake you made. You can still go to my room and we will watch a movie

Catherine smiled a little and then said: "Good idea, but I hope it won't be a horror movie. I have enough of it already".

William nodded while smiling and then said: "But are you sure you're not sleepy? It's nearly 2 AM now"

"Sleepy? After more than 40 stories about murderers, ghosts, burying people alive, gunshots--"

"Okay, I get it, you are not sleepy. Try to stop thinking about it and go to my room and choose a movie, avoid horrors."

Catherine sighed but smiled a little once more, then asked "And you?"

"I will clean the mess you made here" William said as pointing at the shattered glass on the floor "and then I will made tea for both of us"

Kate nodded and then quickly went to William's room.

Soon, they were watching a movie and sipping on their tea as they sat close to one another.

Catherine sighed in relief and then said William's name quietly.

"What?" He asked as looking at her

"Thanks"

“But what for? For saving you from fear caused by a book?" William giggled

"Now you're joking?" Catherine wanted to get up from the sofa.

"I am not. No". He said and smiled a little bit “I am not joking, but I must admit I don't understand people who are frightened by books, even books with scary stories"

"I planned to lend that book to my sister because she's the one who gifted it to me, but now I realise I'll lend it to you first. Maybe then you will understand why I was frightened.."

"So you are not frightened anymore?" William looked into her eyes

"No.." Catherine blushed and then continued to watch a movie to avoid William's eyes.

She couldn't watch the movie till the end. She fell asleep at 3:15 AM while William was looking at her as still wondering what made her feel scared and so he felt intrigued by her book itself. He covered Catherine tightly with a duvet and nearly kissed on her forehead but stopped himself. They were only friends, nothing more had been said yet. Despite that, both of them could feel that a change of their relationship might be coming.

[hkshirayuki]

THE MYTHICAL CREATURE 2

Marco x Reader

Genre:Fluff

"that's right, I'm a pineapple human... Who the heck you calling, Pineapple human yoi! "

Y/n were to shock that she faint. Marco finally realized that he turn back to his human form. He was only happy that he is finally back. But he couldn't leave you be. So he just carry you back to the boat and sail to where is his ship.

"Oh your finally back, Marco" his crewmate greet.

"yeah, I am back, Where is Oyaji? " Marco asked.

"Oh if your looking for oyaji his having a feast in the deck, By the way whose the chick?"

Marco just stop out of his trance as he glance back at your unconscious body.

He just sigh as he carry you with him.

Thatch just send a sexy whistle at Marco.

" Oyaji! Marco bring his girl with him" thatch announced as for his pesky siblings. Just gather around and  give you and him a curious look.

Thatch just nudge him as he asked.

"so how's your days with her? Did you have fun?" Marco were only irritated. But he wouldn't admit that he was in his phoenix form and couldn't return back so he was treated as a bird pet. By you which is humiliating.

"Yeah, very fun" Marco said while gritting his teeth under his words.

"come on, share some details" thatch said and he just glare at him to quiet down. Marco is still carrying you in his arms.

Whitebeard just embrace him as a welcome back. Which woke you up. Finding yourself between the chest of Two unknown people.

Y/n were shook to the bone as she jump out of his arms.

"Where am I!?"

"Well you sure, did find a lively lady, Marco, Gurarara" Whitebeard said.

"yeah, But why are you drinking alcohol again! OYAJI! Your not supposed to drink sake! yoi" Marco said as he scold them for letting there Dad drink when he isn't allowed to drink due to his condition.

Y/n just find herself. Out of place as she doesn't understand what is going on? When she remembered that Marco is Ao. The phoenix...so she just point at Marco which is currently scolding the whole crew.

"Your really a Human, Ao!? I mean Marco, right?"

Marco stop his nagging, and his Pops and the rest of the family just give her a curious look. Marco soon were found beside you as he put a hand in your mouth to prevent you blurting the stuffs he didn't want for them to know.

" He sure grown up now, Man, I'm so jealous!" Thatch said.

"I told you, Marco wouldn't be please to know that Oyaji drink" Izo said.

"Come on, We all know he will still do it, even Marco his personal doctor banned him, after all were talking about Oyaji here" Vista said.

"I agree" Jozu said while nodding his head. Izo just sigh to himself as he is also worried to Oyaji's well being.

They all do, its just they inherit there stubbornness from there Oyaji.

Marco just bring you to his room.

"Where are you planning to take me!? Ao? I mean Marco?!"

"To my room"

"what! No! Explain it to me here!"

"Fine, I am a devil fruit user and eat the rarest zoan type, Model phoenix yoi"

"then your really a human?"

"yeah, I am, yoi"

"so... When I was talking to you, you understand it?"

Marco just nod as a response and y/n sudden gasp and remember something that make her flustered and ashamed to herself. She only covered her chest.

"Does it mean... Even when the time I change my clothes in front of you..." Marco just recall and Blush as he apologies for unintentionally crossing the line.

"no, its fine, it was my fault for being careless, So...umm, I'm sorry for treating you like a bird that time"

"Yeah, can't blame you for that as I was making bird noise only, yoi"

"By the way, why did you bring me here with you?"

Marco just rub the back of his neck.

"I just want to asked a favor, if its okay that yoi"

"Hmm?"

"Just don't talked about the whole bird story, yoi"

"Ah, I see, sure"

Marco just sigh in relief as the two walk out of his room.

The whole crew just give them a sly grin.

Marco just glare at them while y/n just smile in returned, she wave at them awkwardly.

"Is this seriously a pirate ship, your not gonna sell me, Right? Or do something bad?"

Marco just sigh at what you asked.

"we don't do those stuff, yoi" Marco said and hope it reassure you.

"I see" y/n replied as she grin at him.

Marco just look away as he isn't never used to you smiling at his direction. It make him feel mushy inside. The moment he look away, The whitebeard pirates just gather around as they warm welcome y/n to there ship.

As soon she had interact with them, she can sense there different from the pirates she had encountered in the sea.

"I'm quite overwhelmed, To think I'm currently on the same boat with the famous Whitebeard,It's an honour to be in your presence" y/n politely said as they laugh and tell her that she didn't have to be polite nor formal with them.

Whitebeard only laugh at how formal you are. Y/n just felt embarrassed but smile at them and replied "Okay"

Thatch just put an arm around your shoulder as he offer you, A Food he had cook. He will sometimes joke about something that you laugh as you find it funny. Marco only join the fun after he had released his anger.

Whitebeard just asked Marco about how was the week with you. Marco, Of course, just give him a pretty lie.

"Gurara so your the little girl that Marco spend his whole week with, Tell me Little girl, how was My son?" Whitebeard asked.

"He was smart and a Gentleman even he is in his bird form" y/n blurted out and Like that they stop in there trance as they were curious.

"Interesting, Tell us more details,

y/n-chan about the bird form" Thatch said with a very sly grin in his face.

Y/n were going to tell them everything as she is already drunk. When Marco overheard about it, He just covered your mouth with his hand to prevent you from telling the lame truth he want to hide as his secret.

"She is clearly drunk, yoi" Marco thought still covering your mouth with his hand, when his Pops speak

"Bird? Did The two of you make love, Your too young to do stuff like that, Marco" Whitebeard unamused said before chugging his sake.

Marco just blush as he clarify himself.

"What no!We didn't do that pops!" Marco hastily replied and putting his hands up like a gesture of surrender.

"Then what,did you two do then?" Whitebeard narrowed his eyes at his son.

"We were just getting to know each other, like that yoi" Marco said. As it was the truth, y/n observed him, she research about what kind of a bird species he is, It's more like you getting to know him more.

"Your currently blushing, Marco" Izo said.

"I am not, My face is only flushed because of the alcohol in my system, yoi" Marco replied.

"Really, Doctor?" Thatch said.

"Ao and I are Friends, pretty blue bird" y/n said in her sleep as she nuzzled to Marco's chest.

They only raise there eyebrows at him.

"Getting to know, each other huh?!" they all said. Marco only face-palm at himself as the last thing he wanted is to be the tease subject of the Whole Whitebeard pirates.

"I told you, yoi, its not like that" He said.

"Hold on? Who is Ao?" Thatch asked and they look at him.

"Stop giving me the look yoi! Let me bring her to the guest room"

They only pout but comply to what Marco said as they all call it a day.

Marco just bring y/n to one of there spare rooms in the ship.

"Geez, I almost got caught, yoi" Marco said to y/n that is completely asleep.

While he tuck her in bed and go to his own room.

The next day

Marco only woke up by the lively noise, Coming from outside his room.

"Morning" Marco said in a sleepy voice.

"Morning Marco" Izo said as he greet him back. Marco only sit beside him.

"Marco! Your awake, its very rare for you to oversleep" Thatch said as he was giving Marco a gesture.

"Seriously, Thatch" Marco and Izo said. As they both understand what it means and Thatch just laugh.

"I was just messing with you, so how's your sleep?" Thatch asked at the same time he give Marco his breakfast.

"Not that bad" Marco replied before eating.

"About y/n, Marco, Oyaji just asked if she would like to be part of the family" Izo said.

"I see" Marco said before he eat a spoonful of his breakfast again. He was still sleepy so he didn't quite understand.

"We got ourselves a sister now" Thatch happily said in front of Marco.

Marco is currently chewing the food inside his mouth. At the same time he is processing what Izo and thatch said. After processing it he spit his food and choke.

"wh-What!? Oyaji did?" Marco surprised asked.

"Why me" Thatch said as he wipe the food and spit in his face.

"I should have know, you were half asleep to understand it" Izo said offering Thatch a clean cloth to wipe the spit food in his face.

"Where is Oyaji?" Marco asked.

"His in the deck with the rest" Jozu said.

"Thanks" Marco said before leaving them.

Marco just walk towards the deck, only to see how his family enjoy your accompany. It looks like you were asked about your adventures in the sea. After telling them one of the embarrassing and funny moments that happen to you.

"Gurarara, You sure have a One of a kind adventure there, Little girl"

Y/n just bashfully scratch her cheek. While Vista, Rakuyo, Fossa just laughed along with there oyaji.

Vista just notice Marco and walk towards him, And put an arm around his shoulder.

"Marco, good timing, you just arrived at the right time, Oyaji was looking for you" Vista said and Marco just nod his head, and the two just walk towards Whitebeard who is still laughing about y/n's story.

"Marco, where did you find this lively girl, I like her" Whitebeard said with a laugh.

Y/n just blush and thanked Whitebeard for the compliment.

Marco doesn't know what will he react to his Dad statement. You get easily blend in to the whole crew for only a day.

And they are already in favor of you.

Marco just respond with a nervous laugh. "In the ocean, pops just drifting around yoi"

"Oh so it's love at first sight~" Haruta said. The others just smile in a very scheming way towards Marco.

Y/n just tilt her head, as she is oblivious about how Marco's siblings are to him.

Whitebeard just enjoyed seeing how his family tease each other.

" Damn it, Shut up, There is no Romance between me and her, yoi!"

"Yet" Whitey bay added and they all agree.

Marco just look like his going to produce steam of heat from his head.

"You sure guys, get along" y/n said unaware that she is involved.

"We got ourselves a cinnamon roll sister, That's so cute" they all thought and marco just neglect all of there accusation.

"you sure, Charm them all, huh... Young lady" Whitebeard said.

"I don't know... Did I? Really? I have no idea" y/n replied.

Whitebeard just chuckled at you, As he asked you again to join the family.

The whole crew just quiet down, When there dad asked you.

Y/n just thought that even in her first time to interact with them. they welcomed her like she was also part of the family. She just smile at Whitebeard and nod her head as a yes.

The whole family were delighted, As they announced "This call for a welcome feast for our new family member!" They all said in unison.

Whitebeard just laugh as he tell y/n to sit with him.

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Part Three

Part one

[taesthetes]

helloooo:-) so I have an upcoming exam that's rly important and constitutes like 70% of my grade for the whole yr, and this yr is rly important bc it determines my class next yr and subsequently my career.. I did really badly for the first exam, which is 30% and I'm Super stressed right now bc I can feel the pressure to do really well in this upcoming exam, as to get into the class that I want to I technically have to be in the top 3 of my class.. I was top 6 last time (continued in another ask)

and I recently dropped a subject in order to pull up my grade…. but i’m still super stressed and I’ve been rly moody and emotional nowadays… the exam’s in 3 days and I think I am pushing myself too hard now but I really really need to do well in this exam.. idk there’s loads of emotional stuff going on in me and i just wanted to let it all out😓 i hope u don’t mind but do u hav any advice on how to stay sane and calm and not so emotional? i think im overreacting a bit too😶😶

hi, sweetpea!! i’m sorry for the late reply; i check tumblr less and less frequently now that uni started up again and i’ve been busy. but omg 70% of your grade?? what kind of academic hell is this??? i’m sorry you didn’t do as well as you wanted to on your exam ): trying to be in the top 3 sounds so competitive and stressful wow… but you’re in the top 6!! you only need to move up three places, so that isn’t too bad! and you have three more days to study and prepare!

it’s good that you know your limit and that you dropped a subject so that you won’t overwork/overstress yourself out. i completely understand you since i felt the same way basically my entire academic career and even right now because i overload on classes a lot and there were/are so many important exams going on at the same time. and you’re always welcome to come talk to me and rant and let out all your frustrations!! :)

hmm, as for advice, i’d have to say:

make a schedule. break up your studying in moderate intervals. designate certain times for each lesson, chapter, subject, etc. for instance, if you break it up by chapter, maybe spend an hour on it, then take a ten minute break before going back to studying it another hour, depending on how long it takes for you to understand the material. you won’t get too overwhelmed with studying this way.

don’t spend too much time stressing over one concept or chapter. i personally spend two hours on one chapter max because there’s so many other chapters to get through, and if you spend all your time on understanding one chapter, you won’t have time for the rest, and it’s better to know all the other chapters and not understand one chapter than completely understand one chapter, but forget about all the rest.

don’t cram. i do this all the time, but i get a lot more stressed out when i do this because there’s this panicky feeling that i can’t finish studying everything in time.

take breaks. i cannot emphasize the importance of this enough. your brain needs to rest; you cannot overuse it and overload it with so much information. you’re not going to remember it all that way. go get a snack or go outside for fifteen minutes.

exercise. i take out a lot of my anger and frustration by going to the gym and working out really hard. i feel much more calm and relaxed, albeit a bit tired, after a good work out. it also keeps your blood flowing and pumping throughout your body, and you feel more energized and ready to sit down and study.

do some breathing exercises. when i get too emotional and moody, i like to do some breathing exercises, which helps to calm me down. inhale, count to five, exhale, count to five, and repeat the entire process for a minute or until you feel a bit more relaxed and calm.

scream into a pillow. honestly, sometimes all you need is to let out your emotions, and screaming is a good way to do it. but muffle your screaming with the pillow so you don’t scare other people or anything lmao

talk to someone. voice your concerns and worries with someone, and you’ll usually feel at least a little bit better afterwards. i’m always here to talk if you’d like! but i feel like face to face conversations is better with this method.

do something fun. go out and get lunch with your friends, draw a picture, read a book, watch an episode of your favorite tv show. just do something that takes your mind off of studying for a bit, so you don’t get overwhelmed and stressed from constantly studying.

get a good night’s rest. do not forgo sleep in favor of studying. that’s a terrible idea. your body and your brain needs that time to rest, so you can be awake and ready to go the next day. you’re not going to get much studying done when you feel sleepy and sluggish either.

that’s all i can think of for now, but i hope my advice is helpful to you!! you’re always welcome to send me another ask if you’d like! and best of luck with your exam, sweetpea!!! i know you’ll do great 💕