The problem is they both make sense.
John lacks any agency, and as his abilities start "failing" he loses more of what little he has. The only things he can do is perceive the world through Arthur's eyes and talk to him in his head. That's it. He has no material effect on the world around them. He is solely 100% reliant on Arthur for his continued existence and influence on the world. He can't ignore Arthur whatsoever (unlike Arthur who can ignore John easy peasy) he can't Do anything but talk and observe (and also experience the deaths of people Arthur touches but ultimately that does nothing). Of course he is going to be distrustful of other people and possessive over Arthur.
Arthur feels like suddenly he can't rely on this very reliable thing that has been keeping him alive this whole time. It would shake anyone up. Especially with the shit they have to deal with? If he can't rely on directions he will be sliced to ribbons or shot without a chance of fighting back. They may as well be dead already. And for all of John's lack of agency, it's Arthur who has to actually deal with the consequences. He's the one who's getting wounded and torn to bits and has to fight all that. Plus it's HIS body. If someone's existence relies on your body, you have the right to refuse, bodily autonomy is a human right.
The problem is they've gone through this cycle before (cycle of learning and forgetting and learning that they are One Unit and need to work Together vs The Problems and forgetting) but never has it shaken Arthur so much. Even when they've argued before he would still listen to John's directions. But now? Everything is in question (as is probably the intent behind John's "failing" abilities.) They DO need other people to help and they DO need to be careful and include John. They cannot truly trust someone else while keeping John a secret or without his input. Arthur has the most control over the situation and the onus is on him to make the compromises. Yeah it's his body but 1) countless times he promised to John that they were in this together and 2) at this point separating them would be so traumatic that they may as well be One.
All of this is to say, curious that Arthur is so willing to tell Oscar about literally everything EXCEPT John. What happens if he does? What if there's someone else to assert for John in a way Arthur can't ignore so easily? Would that legitimize the shared ownership of Arthur's body? What does it mean for John to gain agency by the loss of Arthur's autonomy?
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You know I love these different Waffle Cookies that the creators made that one time, and how they each interpreted the waffle differently
The first one makes the waffle more like a shield or something? This one isn’t entirely clear, but it led to summoner/cleric
The second one seems to interpret the waffle as like a straw hat, and thus a bug catcher
The third one I’m told they made the connection between the waffle and chainmail, which led to them being some sort of monster tamer? I don’t know
And then this fourth one, the waffle got interpreted like a knit pattern, and so the Cookie’s a knitter
I love how each of these make a connection between the ingredient and something else, and then from there they can make a whole character from it
God I wish that were me. And also that I didn’t overthink things so much
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Beauty and the Beast for the WIP game?
My only real attempt at writing poetry before this year happened during a stretch when I tried to write a Beauty and the Beast retelling in verse. I got about two-thirds of the way through before it fizzled out and languished forever unfinished.
When it comes to my recent novel-in-verse obsession, the simplest option would be to take another look at this work and try to finish it. There's a lot of terrible poetry in there, but there are some that are somewhat better than I remember. I can't claim to be a judge of what's good poetry, but some of these are readable, so I'll share some of them here.
The first set of semi-readable poems covers the first meetings between Beauty and the Beast. (These are all numbered, and I'm leaving the numbers in place to better differentiate between separate poems. I think the speaker in most of these is fairly clear from context, but just in case, I'll put the speaker's name in the title, too.)
VI. beauty and beast
he is every nightmare i’ve ever forgotten
he is thunder and darkness and death
he is fear with fangs
he is beastly
she is every dream i’ve never dared for
she is roses and sunlight and life
she is hope with jewels
she is beauty
*
VIII. beauty
the chair
creaks
when he sits
my knees
quake
when he speaks
the master
laughs
when i ask
when i will die
my ears
doubt
when i hear
my mind
reels
when i realize
the master
wonders
when i began
to think he’d kill me
IX. beast
the rules are these
you are mistress of this castle
the servants will obey your every whim
the rooms and all within are yours
including me
you will dine with me at dusk
we will not speak if you want silence
you will look at me and try not
to scream
i will not harm a hair of your head
i will not cause a moment’s worry
you will do whatever you wish
except leave
X. beauty
his mercy shatters my world
makes it bigger and
at the same time
smaller
how can i live in a monster’s cage
my life will be long and lonely
with him my friend and
at the same time
jailer
how can i look at a monster’s face
the castle teems with wonders
that all belong to him and
at the same time
me
what do i do with a monster’s love
*
The next set of poems I feel like sharing starts with Beauty finding a portrait in the castle, and then leads into her sharing a dance with Beast that makes her kind of freak out over the fact that she might be falling in love.
XXII. beast
today you found a painting
in a long-forgotten room
covered in cobwebs
and shrouded in dust
there was a reason it was lost
the portrait showed a man
with a face like the dawn
and eyes like the sea
you thought he looked kind
he was young and a fool
you may keep it if you wish
or lock it back in darkness
it matters not to me
i used to see him daily
i doubt i’ll see his face again
*
XXIV. beauty (and beast)
if rooms have souls
the ballroom is wise
a radiant beauty
long past her prime
she treasures the days
when she lived and was loved
she keeps them and counts them
like pearls on a string
(she is not the only one,
my dear)
long past midnight
in moonlight and hush
this sleepwalking girl
can glimpse former days
a flash of a gown
and a whisper of waltz
what glorious balls
must this room have beheld
(they were marvelous indeed,
my friend)
it seems a shame
she grows old alone
with nothing but darkness
and dust held within
i would dance for her
return the spark of life
if only we had music
and i had a partner
(i will gladly dance with you,
my love)
XXV. beast
my dear beauty
don’t you know
i learned dancing
long ago
one step closer
take my hand
with a waltz you’ll
understand
let the music
guide your feet
in a dance that’s
slow and sweet
hand in hand and
heart to heart
it’s not love but
it’s a start
XXVI. beauty
he is
hulking
beastly
i am
small
delicate
i should be
stumbling
crushed
but
we
marvelously
miraculously
dance
and it feels like flying
XXVII. beauty (to the portrait)
man on the wall
i may be mad
but i must
give voice
to the
storm
in my heart
and you are the only one near
the master puzzles me
i know his home as well as my own
but i know so little about him
(is he
beast
or
man
or
nightmare
or
dream
or
captor
or
friend)
i saw his face
and thought him a beast
(but he grows roses
and reads poems
and has never
killed
or even
raised his voice)
i heard his voice
and thought him a monster
(but he spared my life
gave me his home
and all he owned
offered
his
heart
and never once has been
anything but gentle)
i watched him dance
and thought him a man
(with grace like an angel
or a prince
and i think that
maybe
he was not always
so
lonely
and that his heart
aches
for things lost)
what am i to
think
do
say
be
feel
about him now
and why do these questions
always come at midnight
*
The final poem is one that I had completely forgotten about, so I was shocked to find it lurking in the latter sections of the document and showing signs of using some decent imagery. By polishing up the last couple of lines, I've got something that's not half bad as a standalone poem.
This one occurs during an extended period when Beauty is still trying to process her feelings toward Beast and figure out if this is really love or if her feelings are being warped by isolation and close proximity.
XXX. beauty
if this is love
it is a dark and grasping love
a child stumbling in the night
crying for a candle flame
and cherishing the smallest spark of light
if this is love
it is a bleak and desolate love
a skeleton tree in a barren desert
windbeaten and scrubbed to bone
and bursting into bloom at the first drop of rain
if this is love
it is a smoke and mirrors love
a sleight of hand or trick of light
that takes my broken heart
and fools me into thinking he can make it whole
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