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#and i dont believe this is just suicidality
verysanebsdfan · 2 days
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My favs x bday!reader
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Saiki Kusuo (the disastrous life of saiki k), Muichiro Tokito (demon slayer), Killua Zoldyck (hunter x hunter), Neuvillette(genshin impact), Dazai Osamu (bungo stray dogs), our!Ciel Phantomhive (black butler) (seperately) x bday!reader
Synopsis: them with s/o who has birthday, how they celebrate, what do they do etc.
Notes: IT'S MY BDAY GUYSSS!!! I honestly wanna go back to being a little child, but oh well, i still have a few years. probably contains grammatical errors but oh well. not proofread. Am I happy with it? no. Am I gonna publish this? absolutely. i also wanted to include Bram Stoker from bsd but my brain was blank and i had no ideasss :((
cw: none i think?
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Saiki Kusuo:
Would not make you a surprise party, but i feel like he would buy you your favourite cake, pastry, sweets, snack...just something that he know would make you happy. Nothing extravagant, just an average present, from an average guy. It's the thought that counts<3 Would like to spend some quality time with you, but if you wanna hang out with friends or spend time with family, he doesnt mind. He would make sure everything goes smoothly and you would be safe tho<3 Prolly wouldnt make a big deal out of this...It is just birthday after all, but he loves to see you happy soo<3
Happy birthday y/n...i hope you like the (favourite dessert) i got you
Muichiro Tokito:
It really depends, if you are a demon slayer, you would maybe have private training session, and a cute lunch on a break. Now if you aren't a demon slayer (condolences) he'd make time for you'd watch clouds together, eat lunch and spend some time together, but he is busy so... :( I bet he was smiling teh rest fo teh day though :3
Look...that clouds looks just like (favourite animal)...happy birthday y/n...i love you
Killua Zoldyck:
Thinks celebrating something like an anniversary of your birth is stupid :3 Would definitely ask Gon for gift ideas<3 Now, if you are helping Gon find his dad too, I feel like you two would end up having a play fight of a sort? Yk, to train your nen:3 But if you dont, or its already some time after the og plot line, he'd take you on a date, and give you choco robots! Tease you a little too!
look at yourself, in a few years, i wont even be able to call you a baby :3 is it just me or youre even more beatiful? must come witha age:3 Happy Birthday silly:3
Neuvillette:
Humans celebrate the anniversary of their birth? Why? He asks, why celebrate being even closer to death. It scared him...your death...It's so close, yet so far. When you explained him that it's to commemorate your past years, and celebrate what's to come. he understood, after all, humans have only finite amount of years to live, so he was going to make yours the best possible. He would clear up his schedule, or at least try. He would get you flowers and then he would take you to a romantic dinner to the finest restaurant in all of Fontaine, and then to a romantic walk by the shore, to watch otters (:3) He hopes many of these so called birthdays of yours would come.
Mon amour...we should do this more often, not only on special occasions...I love you so much...and these..."birthdays" only remind me of...future without you...
Dazai Osamu:
My man will ask you to commit double suicide i am not even joking. Honestly would either not gaf about your birthday or would be really attentive and romantic and i cannot decide.
Would you be willing to commit double suicide with me, on this important day? *smack*
our!Ciel Phantomhive:
It's not like i am lazy to write, but it's really hard to think of anything okay. I believe you would have tea party. A lot of Earl grey tea, a lot of sweets...and chess or other board games. You will just spend quality time with him...and technically Sebastian too, since he will be tending to your needs, and preparing all the food :3
Happy birthday dearest, i hope the cake is to your liking, i had Sebastian prepare it out of the finest ingredients
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Gideon at the end of Nona The Ninth strikes me as.. really odd. I know some people thought she's out of character because she's kinda mean - which I don't agree with - but honestly every time I get to that part I think: She's smarter than that.
I know fanon Gideon usually portrays her as a huge idiot and a goofball (fair enough for the most part) but she's also one hell of a skeptic and stubborn character that does NOT bend to authority easily. And let's remember The Unwanted Guest: We know that just by the nature of the Lyctor process Gideon must have picked up some stuff from Harrow as well, we even see it happen when she starts discussing basic necromancy at the end of Nona.
So, Gideon is now being sent to the ninth to kill Alecto, John's Cavalier, and take his place going forward, or at least this is what she says.
You see what I'm going at? She's smarter than that.
I am NOT saying she is acting out character by the way! But I think we don't give her motivations enough credit beyond being reckless because of grief. Gideon Nav who all her life has done nothing but hatch escape plans and NEARLY succeeded? Gideon Nav who is carrying part of Harrows soul? Gideon Nav WHO WATCHED THE EVENTS OF HARROW THE NINTH UNFOLD WITH HARROWS EYES?
I guess what I'm wondering is: What's her plan?
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arttitude130 · 8 months
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as expected, i will now be contributing to the disco skill meme economy
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sonknuxadow · 4 months
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i drew these while i was playing shth a few months ago and dont think i ever posted them . well theyre relevant now
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swordmaid · 1 year
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it’ll pass.
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mukuberry · 15 days
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james somerton pretending to have killed himself for months is extremely disgusting and you can definitely hate him for it, but bragging about how you 'always knew he was lying' doesn't actually make it seem like you're good at spotting manipulation, it just makes you seem like a heartless dick. stop it
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aroacettorney · 5 months
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Three years ago, I (now 27, M) was a humble mage with a side gig as a math professor. I had a pupil whom I was personally tutoring but one day the kiddo's sister suddenly disappeared. I had a friendly associate (named C, now mid-20s, F) who was a renowned detective in charge of a recent mass kidnapping case. Through my personal connections, I learnt that the police might not be trusted so I hesitated to mention my case to her and decided to investigate it on my own. I found out that the police were indeed corrupt and some of them were even responsible for the mass kidnapping. A group of them killed my pupil who had been sneaking off to find his sister so I naturally ended their insignificant lives. Unfortunately, C caught me red-handed. She didn't know about the corruption so she was shocked when arriving on scene. I thought about explaining everything to her since I knew she would trust me and help me no matter what, but this wasn't something that could be easily and legally solved given how deep the corruption was and I wanted every single one involved in this case dead dead. So instead, I provoked and fooled C into thinking that I was the BBEG and had her chase me around as I dealt with the real criminals. With her fame and reputation, not even the high-ups could bury this case. Unfortunately, everything must come to an end; I eventually had a final showdown with C. She seemed to want to catch me alive but I tried to goad her into killing me since I believed that it was a more fitting end for a villain. What I didn't expect was that as a last resort due to her exhaustion from our battle, she chose to die with me. We were falling from a deadly height and she lost consciousness first so I used my remaining strength to save us both. After that, I took her to a safe place then silently left the country and changed my identity. It seemed like she was able to deduce that I was still alive because she spent the next 3 years obsessively tracking me down. And find me she did. Yesterday, C went to confront me. She was very mad at me but tbh I don't think this was only about the crimes I allegedly committed. I would understand if she's hostile to me for professional reasons, but her beef felt more personal and for the life of me, I couldn't figure out why. Was it her pride? After all, everyone else thinks I'm dead and she is the hero who killed me, the villain, and saved a country. That's the only reason I could think of.
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13, trying to prevent yaz from spiralling when they get separated: i need you to do a deepdive into eschatology
#fghgjhjhggh#'yea i know this sucks babe but we'll figure it out the fate of the world is on your shoulders i believe in you kisses <3'#like thats where you'll end up right#'find out when the aliens come try and take over'#eschatology and death cults and conspiracy theories probably#forced to sift through like centuries of that stuff for years on end trying to find the Real in all of it#and you cant.......stop. bc the world will end#i dont think you come out of that.................normal#even with the best starting condition you dont come out of that normal but yaz is like#functional only by virtue of her circumstances i think#she looks fine bc shes standing next to 13#i dont think shes normal under the surface#i dont think 4 years of apocalypticism left her untouched#dan either i mean i dont think anyone comes out of that untouched but these two are like barely keeping it together beforehand#can you imagine how WEIRD theyve become#can you imagine how obliviously and kind of unsettlingly weird they'd be in support groups#the others would get it like sure none of us are really normal anymore but like#i think they'd be weird#4 years of having to depend on each other and not knowing if you'll get back home and having to take The End Times seriously nonstop as a#matter of urgency and duty#and then losing the third member of your party?#dan and yaz will be so weird and fucked up#iknow im repeating myself but im just trying to put myself in the frame of mind of#having to take intepretations of the end times seriously for 4 years#when youre already like a lowkey suicidal person to begin with#i think if yaz hangs out with 14 she'll say such weird and fucked up things entirely obliviously and he'd be like O.O#she probably still has 1900 habits that show up unexpectedly#or like just miscalibrated. has to take a trip to another country and takes a train bc she forgets planes exist#has to look up somethign and just goes SIGH. gets her coat to go to the library. and ryans like ??? ive googled it#and shes like oh fuck google
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poisonousquinzel · 1 month
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this man is such an insecure little loser like ?? stand up!
time and time again he gets jealous over something She's achieved and hurts her for it. Harley Quinn could bring Gotham to its knees if she really, Really wanted to, he knows that. maybe not at first but I think that's why his degrading comments and such get so fucking vile by the time they're officially over.
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She doesn't want to destroy Gotham she just wants to be happy with him but he wants to make it so she genuinely believes she couldn't achieve a fraction of that destruction. that she's nothing without him. that she's not capable of anything aside from being his. being whatever it is he wants or needs and that's it.
He hates the idea of her getting credit for ploys he wants the glory from. he doesn't like seeing her come up with something he wishes he'd thought of first.
I think that's why he also very quickly made sure there was a message for Harley in her cell at the end of Mad Love. She'd proved she could best Batman and he doesn't know what path she'll be taking upon release. sure there's a chance she'd just leave and be rehabilitated, but there's also a chance she stays. She stays and she steals his final grandiose action by killing Batman.
She almost did it and there's a possiblity she'll do it again. He doesn't want that.
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anervousmirrorball · 2 months
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why is it easier for some people to think they're good at what they do and harder for other people to believe they have something of value to offer? im struggling and i don't know why
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designernishiki · 1 year
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The Kiwami Millennium Tower showdown definitely ended with Kiryu being shaken awake by Haruka, who frantically pulls him over to Nishiki, half-buried in rubble and in a pool of his own blood, and Kiryu carrying a badly injured Nishiki out of the building to safety and still holding him close and not letting go when Nishiki regains consciousness in his arms and starts to weakly struggle against his grip, gives up, and breaks down sobbing, clutching Kiryu’s shirt and pleading to him–
“Please don’t do this– please don’t force me to live with this– just end it. I don’t deserve to live, I don’t want your mercy or your pity– it wasn’t supposed to go like this. I failed– I fail at everything– I even failed at ending my own life. I’ve hurt and betrayed everyone I’ve ever cared about and been a burden on everyone I’ve ever known. I’ll never be enough. Why the hell are you trying to save me? What the hell is there to save? Let me do one useful thing for once in my life and leave me to bleed out like I should. Please, Kazuma.”
And with teary eyes squeezed shut, his head down, Kiryu holds him so tightly to his chest it makes Nishiki’s burns sting and tells him,
“Everyone hurt you, and I left you to hurt alone. I broke our promise. I should’ve never left you to cross the line alone. I was supposed to be there for you, and I wasn’t– but I’m here now and I’m not letting you go. Never again. I need you here. I want you here. Just being here is enough, Akira. I promise.”
And Nishiki gives into his instinctive need to just cling to him and cry, as if making up for years of pent-up tears he’s forced himself not to shed out of an intense fear of vulnerability. He does what he should’ve done a long time ago, fakes his death, and leaves the yakuza life behind in favor of something more mundane, but something that’s actually him– something that allows him to accept himself as he is rather than being forced to live up to the impossible standards of others.
Trust me this is absolutely how it went. The End.
#didnt mean for this to be like. a miniature fic but. oops#also feel free to take this as platonic or romantic its really not important the point still stands#nishiki#kiryu#akira nishikiyama#kazuma kiryu#nishikiryu#yakuza kiwami#yakuza kiwami spoilers#cw suicidal ideation#i just. i want them to make up. and i want nishiki to break down crying. and i want him to be told hes enough. gaghghfgdhghh#long post#like legit tho. narratively speaking. i think just blowing up nishiki and having that be the end of it is... so much missed potential and#definitely not the most satisfying and emotionally engaging way of going about nishiki's overall story#something about suicidal characters being put up against horrible odds and struggling and in the end just being left to die without#anyone ever truly getting through to them that they are enough and deserve to exist and etc– at least enough to back away from the#ledge so to speak. idk. i just. dont like it#no one wants to see a character suffer like that for so long while being shown Clearly the causes of their self loathing and what Made them#fall as far as they have into self destruction- thus knowing they truly WANT to live. they just dont believe being happy or feeling content#is ever possible for them based on what they've been told and what they've gone through. and then watch them successfully kill themselves i#in an act of volatility and hostility essentially affirming that they'll forever be remembered for being malicious and as horrible as#they believe themselves to be and etc etc etc#sorry im rambling here#but#it just. i dont know man i just dont like it. and like i said its just. theres so much wasted potential for character growth and a more#well-rounded story overall....... sigh
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werebutch · 3 months
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dude my dad telling 13 yo me that getting my tube in (that ended up drastically improving my health and quality of life) would give me a huge nasty scar (true!), and that my partners would think im ugly and leave me. and that i would be unlovable for the rest of my life. like genuinely those exact words came out of his mouth. to his extremely sick, scared young child about the only thing that would help me get better. okay !
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sophiethewitch1 · 2 months
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in my hater era
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dishsaop · 2 months
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does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians
#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic#im just like. tired of gnawing#and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get#content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky#young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me#im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing &#digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances#m text#i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story#not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a#lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out#bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples#and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified#(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right)#and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here#(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh)#I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost.#anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein#out as lesbian#like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has#to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic)#meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just#and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so#yknow. personal viewer bias here#but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian#and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out#but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough.#im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes#I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY.#like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'
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bastionbibi · 4 months
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Detco killer: *gives a pretty understandable reason as to why they were forced to kill*
Detco protags: Hurr durr whatevaaa!! Like??? U still alive??? U bad person!!! Bad BAD! Kill no no!! Life not yours no no no!@!!
Decto killer: *depressed suicidal person who's obviously having a mental breakdown*
Detco protags: weak ass bitch u wanna take the Easy Way Out huh :/// selfish piece of shit get back here *audience claps*
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thirdmagic · 3 months
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not to be mean but i'm starting to think christianity on the whole is just a death cult
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