to be like frank here, redemption is an ever going cycle. when youve been the problem, the toxic ex, the abuser, you have to know you will have to apologize for that for the rest of your life. you will always have to live with the guilt and conscience of knowing how you hurt that person, or mutliple people. and you have to constantly CHOOSE to not repeat that behavior, and its not easy.
when you meet a new friend the topic of who you used to be will come up eventually, and if you have changed youll be honest with who you were. you cant run from it. you cant try to round the corners and make it seem like the other persons fault, or like it wasnt as bad as it was. its really really scary. because everytime you open up about it, its not just the wound of guilt but its also the fear that theyre going to look inside and not like what theyll see.
but you have to keep moving on and you have to keep being honest. and you have to remember that everyone is applicaple for redemption, you just have to work for it and admitting you were wrong with no buts is the first step.
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Seeing someone we follow clown on analog horror is always so fucking weird. like motherfucker no horror media is scary why is it only joke worthy when its a freaky face on some old ass boobtube instead of in front of a handheld camera or some actor. its all fake as shit none of it can hurt you. jumpscares are as non scary as analog horror cliches as existential horror as slashers as zombie flicks as etc etc.
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I read your Mario Lore/Headcanons dump fic on AO3 and it was!!!! SO GOOD!!!!!! And so cool???? The Luma Luma life cycle the Stars being gods the inclusion of the Thunder and Fire dudes from Super star Saga, the Power up list, but mostly the Mushroom/Koopa kingdom backstories!!! Thousands of years of war ended because some guys were bad parents! Amazing!!
It was so well explained I couldn't for so long think of any questions for you because I understood it so well you wrote it all so clear and understandable I feel like I just pulled a History Book off a self in Peach's Library it's sooo coooooooool
Anyway tell me about the Borealis Kingdom!! What happened to it? Was Rosalina just a citizen or royalty? What were the people like? Any information you have on it I'm sooooo curious!
“I feel like I just pulled a History Book off a shelf in Peach’s Library” IS PROBABLY THE MOST AMAZING AND WONDERFUL COMPLIMENT I’VE EVER RECEIVED IN MY LIFE???? THANK YOU!!!! Like!!! That means so so soooo much to me!! This world is practically my home and all the stuff I make up about it is essentially me trying to have a deeper and cohesive understanding of it and that just makes me feel very *incoherent babbling and squealing while shaking my hands*
Okay anyway about the Borealis Kingdom!! Rosalina was the princess! Her parents were King Vega and Queen Rosetta (yes I stole that from Rosie’s Japanese name nxbcjscbs), and I don’t have a name for her brother yet rip x^x. I don’t have much info on the people themselves, just that they worshipped the Stars and made ritual wishes to them frequently. The kingdom fell shortly after Rosalina was called into space. Like, probably within a decade or so.
The relations between the Borealis and Koopa Kingdoms were neutral for the most part. They weren’t enemies, though they didn’t consider each other allies either. Tensions could’ve easily rose at any time, but it never happened. During this time, the Fire God was still active in the Koopa Kingdom, so the Koopas were perfectly content with life and showed no interest in relations with other kingdoms.
Goombas and Toads are both native to the Borealis Kingdom and its surrounding areas, but their populations only began to grow substantially following the kingdom’s fall.
…And that’s all I’ve got! I don’t have too much info on pre-modern era stuff, but I hope you enjoy this small amount of info nonetheless ^^”
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its so interesting having a therapist who is openly anti-work bc for the first time like. ever. i can go to my therapist and be like "look. idrk if I Want to work today" and she takes that as a valid reason to explore taking the day off & the anxiety underlying the whole thing and like... Isnt trying to convince me i Should Work bc i physically Can, but rather just trying to illuminate the whole situation and give me a safe environment to acknowledge my Wants as well as my Needs and like idk. i just really appreciate that
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oh don't worry, im one of the "chill" trans women. im one of the good ones. i guess im the only trans woman in this group of friends, so i have to set a good example. you think trans women are mean? sorry, ill be more of a pushover to try and fix that. am i being too pushy? im sorry. yeah, i just want to be a normal girl. ive never met those bad trans women you're talking about but. i guess i shouldn't be like them if i ever want to have friends. hmm? why am i single? oh, dating is scary for trans women... im sorry i didn't mean to imply trans women have it harder, i just meant... im sorry. am i being too loud? am i taking up too much space? im sorry. i was just excited, ill try not to laugh so loud next time. im sorry. im so glad i got to meet another trans woman for once, she was really nice. what? oh, you didn't like her? you thought she was creepy? im sorry, i didn't know... i won't talk to her again. desire? i have none. sense of self? whatever you find acceptable. what's my type? what you've deemed appropriate. why do i always look so sad? im sorry, ill try to smile more. ill be good.
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