someone to protect.
himejima gyomei x reader
wc: 9.4k
a/n: i'm not so sure how to feel about this :||
himejima came out of the room with the meeting he just had with the corps leader that ended swiftly. he bowed one last time to ubayashiki before closing the door.
as he walks down the corridor of the house, he thinks back to what he and ubayashiki talk about.
“ah…” he groaned as he rubbed his palms together. “another newly appointed hashira.”
he was visiting the master when the latter brought up this new information. he was told that this new hashira eliminated the lower rank three of the twelve demon moons.
tears started to fall down his cheeks as usual.
“ah… i wish they wouldn’t die as easily.” he cries, his sensitive heart breaking just by the thought of his fellow slayer dying, even if they haven’t met yet.
meanwhile, you just arrived at the headquarters with the help of a kakushi leading the way for you. you were told by the kakushi to wait in the backyard, while he went to announce your arrival to the people in the house.
you know why you were here.
recently, you managed to kill the lower rank two.
whether it was luck or not that the sun came out as your stamina was running low from trying to keep him the demon from running away, the only thing you know is that your loathing for those disgusting monsters have gone up to the maximum level.
just thinking about them makes your hands shake with anger.
that same day you got the recognition for slaughtering the lower rank three was the same day you lost your closest friend.
the friend who you grew up with. that friend who was with you and helped you when a demon killed your only family, your father. that friend who joined the corps with you.
the friend who you promised to protect.
just to fail.
…
your mouth was open but no words were coming out of it. you watched in horror as her body slowly lost its strength.
“don't cry…” she muttered, slowly. she knows you don’t realize how much tears are coming out of your eyes, that your sclera is already turning red, the same color as her red-stained clothes.
your friend was lying on your arms, blood flowed out of the large wound the demon gave her when she almost beheaded it.
“d-don’t talk! help is on their way! just wait for a bit— i promise i won't let you die—” your eyes, disoriented from panicking, looked around to see if anyone's coming your way.
‘is there anything there that can stop her bleeding?! pressure! i should put pressure on the wound—’
your distraught mind stopped when you felt her hands, covered with blood, touch your cheek.
you looked into her already half closed eyes.
“no… pressure… let me apply—” you uttered, trying to ignore the tightness of your throat.
she shook her head.
“(y/n), it's too late for me…” she answered.
“no, just shut your mouth! i know help is on the way!” you shouted as you took off your haori and tried to tie it around her waist, trying to stop the blood from flowing out more. not noticing how your breaths became shorter and faster.
“please… just promise me one thing—” she started.
you held her hand on your cheeks and looked down at her.
“no! i’m not promising you anything! you better survive this! you haven't taught me yet how to make those mochi you always make! i still haven't found the demon who killed my father! you told me you'll help me with it! so you better survive!”
she smiled weakly at you. tears filled her eyes as she listened to you one last time.
“you have to survive… please… you're the only one i have left…” you whispered, your own tears falling on her cheeks.
“s-sorry…” she said and stopped to take another deep breath. “please… i'm sorry for leaving you all alone. please be happy…”
you sobbed as you nodded.
seeing your answer, she smiled. and her hands slowly slipped down from their touch on your cheeks, while her eyes slowly closed.
…
you shook your head. you felt your eyes get teary again and it snapped you out of your thoughts.
that kakushi said i should go to the back, right?
as you were walking to the backyard, you heard a noise coming from the shrub on the fence’s side. you immediately went into alert, ready to attack it if ever it's something that needs to be taken down at once.
you took your stance and were ready to sheathe your sword.
“nyaa~”
eh?
“a cat?” you muttered as you relaxed your body.
what am i doing getting all tense to a cat?
now that i think about it, that was too much reaction. it’s not like there will be demons at the headquarters. what’s more, the sun is out…
“...pfft—” you immediately covered your mouth and tried to hold yourself back from letting out a laugh.
you crouched down and held your hand out to the creature. you moved your fingers and tried to call the cat.
“come here.” you talked to it.
it meowed again before making its way to you. you peeked on its genitals and noted that it’s a male. he rubbed his face on your palm and you could hear his purrs. a small smile appeared on your lips.
“where did you come from?” you asked him, knowing he wouldn’t answer back except for a meow.
“are you a cat of the master?” you queried again before lifting the cat up and holding it close to your chest.
you examined him and he seems fine with no evident injury. you felt relieved.
“thank goodness you're not hurt or anything.” you whispered as you pulled him closer to you.
“please live safely.” you added, booping his nose.
the cat suddenly jumped out of your hold and ran away, vanishing from your view into a corner.
“(y/n)-sama, this way please.” the kakushi with you earlier suddenly spoke.
you stood and tidied up your uniform.
“yes.” you answered before following them.
“nyaa~”
“oh?” himejima uttered when the cat meowed his way. he knelt down and offered his arms to the cat.
the cat immediately jumped onto him.
“were you finished talking to that person?” he asked the feline who became fascinated by the sound that his prayer beads are making with his every move.
she must be the new hashira. he thought to himself.
as he pets the cat, he smiles to himself.
at the very least, she seems to be kind from the way she treated this cat. i wish her all the best and hope she survives long.
when his kakushi guide arrived, he left the place carrying the cat that was a stray one when he was on his way to the headquarters.
…
it’s been seven months.
seven months ever since you’ve been posted in your jurisdiction. you did your best to protect the people from where you were assigned.
you got to admit, with protecting them and having to be always alert that a demon might appear suddenly at night during your patrol helped get some thoughts off of your mind.
but, it will make you never forget the hatred you feel for every demon.
every time you encounter one, at the back of your mind you're thinking that maybe not all demons are like that, only for that thought to be shattered once you hear how they explain with no remorse that eating human flesh is delicious and that they'll always choose to be demon even in their next life.
it makes your skin crawl with disgust that you even gave them a bit of compassion. you regret even thinking that they might be different from others.
you hate them.
you loathe them.
you won't forgive them for killing all your beloved ones.
you won't let even one of these revolting creatures escape your blade. you swore to kill the one who took your father's life with this blade.
it's dawn and you just woke up. you sleep during the day as demons are more active during the night, so you as a hashira should be too.
after getting ready, you immediately head out of your house that you bought after receiving your first pay as a hashira.
you also took in two tsuguko.
they helped you out maintaining the large place. one of them is just waiting for the final selection to take place and become an official part of the corps, while the other one has just started training.
watching them two puts a smile on your face.
they're such great students. it makes you feel proud just thinking about them becoming the best swordsman they can be.
also, worried and scared. scared that they might end up with the same fate as your best friend.
but, you trust them.
and you can't deny the fact that might happen to you too, today, tomorrow, next week, or soon.
“master, please be careful!” your younger tsuguko waved goodbye to you.
“please come back home to us in one piece!” the older one said.
they looked at each other and smiled widely.
“please bring some dangos too!” they said in unison.
you chuckled and waved back to them while walking out of the house.
“okay, okay. i won’t forget. i'll leave the house to you.” you told them and headed out.
it’s been just months but they’ve become attached to you already.
your older disciple, akiro, was a kid whose sole family left was killed by a demon. the massacre of his family happened around the time when you weren't a hashira yet and was stationed to a different place. you found him, four days after getting the highest rank, aimlessly walking around the town with nothing but his torn clothes from fighting and escaping the demon.
who knows how long he must've been walking around without thinking?
you took him to your rented house during that time. he asked you why you were helping him, and you answered him, it's just natural.
when you bought your current house, he suddenly walked up to you with teary eyes and thanked you for everything you did for him, thinking that you're done taking care of him and was about to leave him.
you laughed when you heard it, immediately replied saying that he's welcome but you never told him you're moving alone.
he was delighted to hear it, seeing how his face lit up brought a smile to your lips.
when he regained his strength and health back, he asked you to teach him about demons and how to kill them. asking him the reason for wanting to learn it, he replied that he wanted to take revenge for his family member.
it pained your heart a bit. of course, just like you, it’s not easy to forget something like that. but you gave him what he wanted and took him as your first tsuguko.
the younger one, kenji, was a feisty one when you first met him. finding him trying to survive alone in the mountain with nothing but his make-shift weapons and his own built house made of branches of trees and large leaves.
when you spotted his hideout, you thought it was a trap made by a demon in order to catch humans, but when you turned around, you saw him carrying a bundle of woods, to keep him warm for the night.
you asked him what he's doing there and he candidly answered that he lives there. he said that he ran away from his abusive mother after his beloved father died and started living on his own because no one else would take in another mouth to feed.
you know you couldn’t leave a 12-year-old boy alone in the woods. you’re surprised that he wasn’t targeted by the demons yet, but you wouldn’t wait for it to happen first before you act.
you told him that he shouldn’t live there because there could be demons lurking around and that you’ll guide him back to his house. suddenly, a sharp pointed staff almost shoots past your face, you manage to easily dodge it.
you looked at him and flinched at the mixed look of fear and hate in his eyes. you were wrong for that, you didn’t process what he said earlier and stepped on mine. you apologized to him and just as you were about to speak again, you heard the growling of a demon about to jump at the two of you.
it was just a low-grade demon, so you immediately dealt with it with ease. but, your every slash bore your deep hatred with them as they cut through its neck. when you looked back at him, you told him that this is the reason why he can’t stay there. he was hesitant to come with you, but you promised him that you won’t bring him back to his mother.
your older disciple welcomed him and he slowly warmed up to his new found older brother.
they are now getting along just fine. the older one became comfortable and is now a reliable one and the younger one’s now a cheerful and healthy kid.
watching them fills your heart with fuzziness and you vow to protect them with everything you could until they become full-fledged swordsmen.
…
you started your patrol around the area, once you didn't really get any order to eradicate a demon or investigate a suspicious case from your crow.
speaking of your crow, it went to the headquarters to get some new information and order from the master and still hasn't come back.
well, based on the time my crow arrives after sending her off is long, i can assume that the headquarters might be far from my place.
guess i'll just have to be alert and patrol around.
it was past midnight already and fortunately you’re not feeling anything suspicious or any presence of a demon.
*caw. caw.*
your eyebrows furrowed when you heard a crow, you turned your head and saw it coming your way. it was your crow finally arriving after a long trip from the headquarters to your jurisdiction.
you raise your arms to her to rest on and she immediately tells you what the leader has told you.
“the master would like to say that the monthly report for hashira’s will be happening next weekend. please be ready.” she started.
you nodded, reaching for her seed bag that you keep on you. you grabbed a fistful of seeds and thanked her for doing all of that.
“also, order! order! you are to collaborate with another hashira tomorrow in a forest that borders both of your assigned regions. lots of lower rank slayers have lost their lives! investigate and kill the demons!”
she added and ate her seeds as soon as she finished.
another hashira? who might it be?
i’m not familiar with the rest of hashira's. i’m only talking to kanae and then the rest’s name is all i know.
that aloof looking guy, giyuu. that loud sound hashira, uzui. that one guy who made a scene in the last meeting, i think his name was shigazunawa?
and that one big guy who always cries…
hi… himejima?
that guy’s always crying, but when i tried talking to him last time as he was the first one to arrive and i came after, he stood in front of me and put his large hands on top of my head and he suddenly prayed.
what was that?
i just stayed silent because i don’t want to be rude to someone older than me, but that was weird. thankfully, kanae arrived shortly after.
i hope he’s not the one i’m working with tomorrow.
…
great.
as you’re running on the entrance of the forest that your crow has led you to, you could already see himejima’s gigantic body from afar.
you sped up your run and stopped in front of him.
“good evening, himejima-san.” you greeted him, you bowed to him thanking him for waiting for you.
you’re here to slay numerous demons tonight. just thinking about the countless people that died in this place makes your eyes rage with anger and contempt for those atrocious monsters.
as you were raising your head, you felt his hands on the top of your head yet again.
you were about to ask what he’s doing when he started his chants. you wanted to groan in disbelief, but you can’t.
“let’s go.” he uttered as soon as he was finished and started walking towards the forest.
“yes…” you replied and fixed your hair.
seriously, what was that for?
as the two of you walk through the dark, eerie forest, himejima leads the way. the moon was supposed to be your only light, but just your luck, it’s really cloudy tonight.
you were astonished as to how he easily perceives the structure of his surroundings and the things in front of him.
you weren’t even thinking when you suddenly talked to him.
“himejima-san, it’s amazing. y— you can easily navigate through this forest.” you complimented, realizing in the middle of the sentence that your mouth was speaking your mind, but just decided to follow through.
“mhm. i have a hearing that i enhanced in order to live normally in this world.” he answered, without stopping his feet. “you seemed to have hesitated in continuing your sentence. i can hear that you didn’t mean to say those words out loud.” he added.
he has good hearing, he said? maybe he’s using it like echolocation? or is it really echolocation?
he suddenly stopped walking that alerted you.
you immediately went into a fighting stance, ready to cut up every single of those sickening creatures that might show up out of nowhere.
“a single thought of a demon makes your thoughts in disarray. your hatred for them is reflecting with your every move, yet it’s holding you back at the same time.” himejima blurted out, not moving an inch from where he was.
“what?” you asked him, with an annoyed face.
“(y/n),” he turned his body halfway and faced you. “your hatred for them is holding you back.”
his words strike a nerve in you. you knew he wouldn’t be able to see your offended face, so you had to use your words.
“i’m sorry, himejime-san, but what do you know about me and the things that i experienced? you’re being extremely rude for our first work together, don’t you think?” you refuted, releasing your hold on your katana grip.
she’s upset. himejima noted in his mind.
“i’m sorry for that. i didn’t mean to upset you.” he apologized.
you were still a bit offended by what he said, but knowing that you can’t move freely in this darkness and he can, you knew arguing with him is not the wisest thing to do.
“i see.” you replied and looked away.
he smiled. he knew it wasn’t a genuine reply from you, but he was at fault here, so didn’t pried more.
he continued walking to where he could feel the presence of the demons.
he also realized that should’ve chosen a friendlier topic to strike up the conversation. he didn’t want to make the first collaboration with the hashira that he’s most interested in awkward, so he tried continuing the talk.
and he did so lousily by mentioning that insight he had about you being hateful to the demons.
after the first time he ever heard her talking to the cat, he was always praying that his crow would not come to him and report that this fellow hashira died in the middle of completing a mission.
especially when you said those words to the cat, he felt like he needed to always keep a close look at you or else you could lose yourself.
it might’ve been just imagination and self-interpretation, but still. still, he was joyful when you attended the monthly meeting of hashiras for the sixth consecutive time.
he then remembered something kanae told him last meeting.
“how are your tsugukos doing?” he asked, hoping that this time it’s the right topic.
“my tsugukos?” you repeated.
he was right on the target. he could hear how your heart skips a beat with excitement when he mentions them. it was like you forgot that you were angry at him in the first place.
she must’ve cherished them so much.
“mhm. tell me about them.” he replied, smiling while walking straight.
huh? what kind of information does he want me to tell them? uhh…
“they said they want me to bring some dangos on my way home again. i bought them some yesterday and they really liked it.” you revealed.
“yeah. dangos are delicious.” he replied briefly.
“...”
is that what he wanted to hear or not? why isn’t he saying something?
walking in complete awkwardness, you decided to talk more about your disciples.
“well, you see. my youngest one is still training his swordsmanship, but i can definitely tell. he’ll be a much greater swordsman than i am. he told me he’ll wait until he’s 15 years old and then participate in the final selection. my oldest one is just waiting for the final selection to happen. he’s a great swordsman too, but his quick decision thinking and ability to apply them into action is his edge— ah.” you suddenly realized how much you were talking and got carried away. “sorry, i said too much.” you continued.
“no, i don’t mind.” he comforted you.
“oh, thank you.”
the walk was a bit quiet for a moment. himejima was contemplating whether it’s good to bring up something he noticed, or just let the conversation end there.
he risked it.
“but, when you mention the final selection. i can hear you’re a bit worried.” he said, hoping that you won’t get mad again.
instead, he heard your chuckles.
“your acute hearing sure is a bad match-up for those who want to keep their secrets, aren’t they?” you laughed.
“you’re right. i was the one who trained them and refined them to be the greatest swordsman that they could. but, deep in my heart… i’m always thinking twice whether to let them participate there or not. the exam is dangerous. unless you’re ready to give everything you got and throw everything away at the same time, you won’t survive there. i know it well because i experienced it too with my friend. she was the only reason i managed to endure those grueling seven days. if it wasn’t for her, i would’ve given up right on the first day.” you babbled.
his short hums and nods tell you that he was listening intently to all of it.
“i know my two students are different from me. they’re not the type to give up on the first day, but i still can’t help but to get worried. i’m scared that they won’t be back on the morning of the eighth day. but, i also don’t want to stop them from their ambitions. i also want them to achieve their dreams and reach their goals, so i won’t stop them. i’ll protect them until they reach it. i know they’ll make me proud, just like how i am proud of them.” you finished with a smile on your face, thinking about the moment when you welcomed them back once they passed the exam.
you look up at himejima and he was looking back at you with a smile, even though you can only see white in his eyes, you know his smile is pure and genuine.
“i’m sure they are also proud to have you as their teacher.” he replied.
your eyes widened as you felt your chest get excited.
“r-really?” you sheepishly said as you looked away.
you know he couldn’t see your face getting pink, but you just can’t help it.
why is he smiling so softly like that? i’ve never seen him even crack a smile before. it’s weird that i’ve seen this guy cry first and smile next.
preoccupied with your thoughts, you suddenly bumped on his muscular back when you didn’t notice that he suddenly stopped walking.
“there’s a demon coming.” he announced.
alerted, you immediately grabbed your sword. you took your fighting stance ready to face any demon that may come from any direction.
“behind.” himejima uttered, which you quickly responded to.
“got it.”
you quickly turned around and found a demon lurking up a tree. once he made eye contact with you, he immediately jumped at you.
“whoo! another female with that clothes! i’m so lucky these days! keep coming!” he shouted as he tried to slash you with his sharp claws.
you kept your stance.
once he entered your reach, you drew your blade and used your breathing.
the water breathing was originally your style, but as time passes you upgraded and turned it to ice breathing. you’re still rough around the edges as sometimes, your body subconsciously uses one of the techniques from the water breathing.
you managed to finish him off with one technique. his body plops on the ground, while his head tumbled next to a tree.
“huh?” he muttered, failing to realize that he had been beheaded.
he watched as his body slowly turned into ashes. his eyes enlarged, his teeth grinding against each other. he moved his focus to the two hashiras talking.
“your breathing is indeed fascinating. it’s promising.” himejima praised.
“thank you so much. i’m still getting used to it, but i’m working hard on it.” you replied, putting back your sword into its hilt.
“i look forward to it, (y/n). i hope i’ll be there when you finally master that intriguing breathing.” he said and was about to start walking deeper into the woods.
the two heard the demon who's in the middle of incineration, growling his words towards you.
“argh! damn! i can't believe i got beheaded by this mere woman! die!” he uttered, the veins in his eyes almost popping from anger.
you looked down on his head and stared at him with a disgusted face.
“this mere woman didn't even break a sweat in beheading you.” you said, “hurry up and die, demon.”
just conversing with this creature makes your skin crawl with revolt. you turned your head in front and was about to take a walk, when he said something that grabbed your attention.
“ugh! kokumo-sama’s waiting for my hunt tonight!” he intoned, looking desperate and scared. “he’s going to kill me if i don’t present him something! he’ll get mad and report me to that guy!” he added.
huh? ‘kokumo’? did i hear that right?
suddenly, himejima felt it again. the same sound coming from your heart that he heard when he saw you tonight.
he turned around to see you, frozen with a shocked look on your face.
you turned your heel to the demon, walking to him without wasting any time. you grabbed his rough hair and pulled it up until his eyes were on the same level as yours.
“now… what did you just say…? who’s waiting for your hunt…?” your words, chopped yet firm.
you never broke eye contact with him. your orbs are staring at him as if you could see even his past life as a human.
this demon was on the verge of mental breakdown, scared that he might be killed for not offering a human flesh but then realized that dying would mean he’ll be free from the fear from both kokumo and that guy, kibutsuji.
he thought that even with all the humans he killed and ate, he’s given the chance to have a peaceful passing on.
yet, here you are. glaring at him with such cold and hateful eyes.
he felt shivers down his spine, even though it’s decapitated already. even kokumo never looked at him with this much spite.
“i— i…” he stutters, “k… kokumo…” he finally answers.
“red haori.” you said, he nodded.
“vertical line marks from his eyes downwards...” he nodded.
“... lower rank 5.”
he shook his head sideways.
“no… lower rank… 2… now…” he corrected you.
you were right.
not only were he still alive, he even advanced in ranks. he moved up to the position of the demon that you killed with your best friend.
you stood up, still carrying his head in your hand. you raised your arms and asked him.
“where is he?” you questioned.
you completely ignored himejima’s presence. you didn’t have time to think about him while your reopened deep abomination towards that particular demon.
the incineration reached the demon’s jaw and mouth that he couldn’t answer your question. you looked at his body and saw that hands had turned into ashes already.
“damn! use your goddamn eyes and tell me where he is!” you shouted and grabbed his face with your other hand.
“where is he?!”
himejima was surprised, not only by the volume, but with the shakiness driven by hate in your voice. he walked to you and held you by your shoulder. only to be brushed off by you almost immediately.
“tell me where he is!” you shouted again to the demon with trembling eyes.
finally, he moved his eyes. he looked over your shoulder, 5 o’ clock from your position.
without wasting any moment, you threw his head away and started running to where he told that demon was.
with no choice left, himejima decided to follow you.
he knew you couldn’t see that much in this darkness and he was right. you stumbled, tripped and everything, but you never stopped running. you will not until you find that demon.
earlier, he noted how the sound your body emits was in disarray. just like how it is every time he meets you. he thought chanting a calming prayer for you would work, but he knows it’s only temporary.
every time a demon enters your mind, you immediately feel hate and repulsion. your hatred for them is so deep and it was engraved in every cell.
you were not the type to talk about your past, so kocho couldn’t tell much to him about what happened to you that made you hate demons this much.
sure, everyone in the corps despised them too. but, he wanted to know the reason for your feelings. that must’ve been the reason why he’s always watching over you and searching for your presence during the monthly meetings.
though, now’s not the time to ask for the reason.
right now, he can hear how disturbed your mind is. your breaths are short and fast. you're so focused on reaching the destination, that you couldn’t hear him calling for you.
“(y/n), slow—” before he could even finish what he was saying, you stopped running.
he tried to feel his surroundings. he’s sure that there is a demon close by, maybe the reason why you stopped.
meanwhile, your eyes narrowed in annoyance. in front of you is a demon who’s out to hunt, not the person you’re looking for.
you unsheathed your sword and immediately pounced on her.
“don’t get in my way!” you screamed while running towards her and slashing her neck.
not even sparing her decapitated body a glance, you continued running forward. himejima was calling for your name multiple times while still following your trails, yet it never reaches your ears.
i’m going to kill him!
i’m going to kill him!
that demon who took my father’s life!
these thoughts filled your mind while running past trees.
you’ve met with three more demons, but it only added to your exasperation seeing that they’re not the demon you wanted to see.
it’s actually not just three. himejima fought demons that were coming from different directions. you were so focused in front of you that you weren’t paying attention to your surroundings except for what's ahead of you.
during your interaction with the last demon, there were a lot of demons. himejima got so tangled up in defeating every last one of them, that he just saw you back still running straight in that direction.
he had no choice but to leave your side for a while, even if it put his heart in a nervous state.
he wanted to protect you, not because he thinks you're weak and does not have the ability to protect yourself, but because right now, you’re in a complete mess. he’s afraid you might not make a sound decision because of your emotion and then find you lifeless there.
with the amount of his co-slayers dying left and right, the thought of you dying is what he hates the most.
he doesn’t understand it too, but maybe the excitement and him looking forward to every monthly report meeting and, especially, the giddy feeling he felt when you arrived tonight and he realized that you two will work together is connected to it.
yet, here you are, you ran and ran, until you reached a spot where a huge boulder was in the middle of the trees.
there, a demon was sitting on top of the rock. sitting cozily there while around him was a pile of human flesh, probably from other demons that offered him their hunt in order to not be killed.
red haori…
vertical lines from his eyes downwards…
and…
lower rank 2…
ahh…
suddenly, it’s all coming back to me.
“(y/n), run! i’ll distract him!”
“what are you doing? i told you to run!”
“this is not the time to be stubborn, (y/n)! run!”
“huh? your legs?”
“please, just bear with it for a while and run!”
“okay, thank you for listening one last time…”
the demon notices your presence. he looked down and saw a demon slayer catching up to her breath and looking rather nastily towards him.
“now, now…” he muttered, changing his position and leaning forward. “it’s been a while since i’ve seen an alive human here that’s not an offering.”
i’m going to kill this disgusting trash. you thought as you went and jumped close to him without even thinking.
naturally, he managed to read your move and kicked you on your stomach. your body came flying back, earning you a few scratches and small open wounds.
you struggled to stand up as you held your sword firmly and looked at him.
he stood up too and effortlessly jumped down the boulder. he took his time walking close to where you were.
you stayed on your feet, glaring and pointing your blade at him.
“you did well managing to come here without serious injury—” he suddenly halted his movements and took a good look at your face. “well, well. i might be wrong, but we’ve met before, right?”
you narrowed your eyes.
he then laughed maniacally.
“a few years ago, a parent and his child were peacefully living in a small house.” he started to narrate.
“when one night, a demon arrived and ruined their lives!” his hands were moving in the air in a dramatic way, along with his facial expression.
“but! he was a devoted father! he doesn’t want to lose another one of his family, just like what happened with his wife…” he continued, yet this caught your attention.
how…?
“that’s why he had to distract the demon while his injured daughter ran away.” he glanced at you and smirked.
“he was left alone with the demon without knowing he was the demon’s real target! your father’s a marechi after all!” he revealed.
you widened your eyes, promptly you went and attacked him with one of your breathing forms.
but, he was able to deflect it.
of course, he’s not like those demons you killed on your way here. this guy is at the top of the chain here. what’s more is that he’s second rank in the lower moon.
“how did you know about my mother going missing?” you asked him.
he tilted his head in confusion and sighed.
“gosh… you’re not that good up here, are you?” he said, pointing to his temple. looking at you with a pitiful expression.
“what?!” you refuted, burrowing your brows together.
“how did i learn about it? who else would know but the victim themselves, witnesses and… the culprit.” he grinned widely.
“i mistook your mother as the one who had a marechi blood, but when i came back the next evening. it turned out that you moved somewhere else to look for your missing mother that was already in my stomach! hahaha! thankfully, i was able to find your father again. i didn’t care about you, so that was the only reason you’re still alive right now.”
your sight almost turned blurry.
she wasn’t missing nor did she run away because she got tired of living a poor life. it was this thing in front of you who took her away from you and your father.
my mother…
my father…
this demon took my family from me…
i’m going to kill him.
i’m going to kill him!
your body moved on its own. you closed your distance and tried to cut his neck, but to no avail. you failed to cut him down, because he hardened his neck.
your blade and his hard body exchanged blows. yet, it seems like you’re the only one taking the damage.
your attacks, though surely were supposed to be strong, were affected by your rapid and reckless spontaneous decision. it was erratic and weaker in force.
but, that didn’t mean he would hold back with his attack against you.
in such a short time, not even five minutes passed, you were covered with bruises and injuries. not that you had even the smallest amount of attention to look at it.
as you were blown away by his punch, you immediately got on your feet and tried to unleash another technique.
he must admit that even though it’s evident that you’re not thinking straight, your attacks are still affecting him.
until, he chanted the words ‘blood demon art’.
ah… that’s right, he still hasn’t used it. even though i’m beat up already. but, i can’t stop my body.
i don’t want to stop.
the only thing on my mind is wanting to see his head separated from his body.
i want to avenge my parents.
i don’t care if i wound up dead, as long as i manage to do it.
“blood demon art: countless projectiles.” he said and numerous long, black lines like the ones on his came appeared.
they moved towards you at an unbelievable speed.
nevertheless, your body was on auto-pilot. you still moved forward and still wanted to cut his head.
i don’t care anymore.
“(y/n)!”
suddenly, himejima appeared in front of you deflecting all the attacks coming at you. somehow, it irked you.
“heh… someone capable arrived.” kokumo muttered, smirking.
“please move aside, himejima-san. i’ll kill that demon myself. don’t get in my way.” you claimed and stepped forward.
himejima tried to analyze your condition.
you were breathing heavily and it seems like every inhale is hard to do. he could hear the faint gushing sound of your blood coming out of every wound you have.
“i’m sorry, there were a lot more demons here than i thought and they stalled me.” he explained, but you didn’t respond.
“(y/n), i’ll take it from here—”
“i said i’ll kill that demon myself!” you turned your head to him, glaring at his face. “i don’t care if i die as long as he dies too!”
before he could even reply to you, you took off and charged at kokumo one more time.
kokumo released another attack, with nothing but death on the demon in front of you in your mind, you failed to recognize his plan.
you were surrounded by almost infinite numbers of projectiles. there’s no way you could dodge all of them.
“die!” kokumo exclaimed proudly.
i’m done.
you closed your eyes to brace yourself on getting punctured by the projectiles, but it never came.
you decided to open your eyes and found kokumo turning around as he just realized where you were. you looked up and saw himejima and his side profile as he carried you in a bridal style. he set you down and leaned your back on the boulder’s surface.
he managed to cancel his attacks in such a short time. you thought as he wiped some of the blood on your face. you wondered how he knew there was blood on your face, but you can’t question him about something like that right now.
“why are you throwing your life away so easily like that?” he said under his breath, you almost didn’t hear him. he looked rather sad rather than upset.
“it’s my life. i’ll decide when i’m throwing my life away or not.” you replied and looked at kokumo who’s getting more irritated that he’s having a hard time already with you and now someone who’s a lot stronger came. “and right now, i’m willing to throw it away as long as i kill that bastard.” you added.
you were about to stand up once again when you saw kokumo pounce on where you two were, but himejima stopped you.
“stone breathing second form: upper smash.” he attacked.
he managed to hit kokumo when he threw his spiked flail upwards and pulled the chain rapidly to create a force once it hit its target. he also threw his axe and was able to cut deep through his left chest across his right chest. this caused kokumo to jump backwards as he heals himself from wounds that the spikes gave him.
“don’t get in my way, himejima-san! i’ll be the one killing him!” you shouted as you shakily stood up. using your hand by holding on to the boulder to balance your body, while your other hand is still firmly held on your sword.
himejima didn’t say anything, he didn’t look back at you. the sound of his chains getting dragged back to him was the prominent sound that you heard at that moment.
“do you not treasure your life?” he asked.
why does he keep getting in my way and asking me that? i already told him earlier that he doesn’t know anything about what i experienced and leave me alone!
fine!
“my family has been killed by that guy. my best friend was also killed by the former lower rank 2. i’ve been left alone because of these demons and you’re asking me if i treasure my life?!” you snapped at him, not noticing how your tears gathered around your eyes.
“everyone that i cherished has been killed and taken away from me already! i don’t care anymore! i don’t want—” your tears have started falling.
your emotions pouring out like an overfilled cup, but his next question left you speechless.
“aren’t your tsugukos waiting for the dangos?” he uttered, shifting his body to you.
“huh?”
it seems like your world has stopped spinning. you stood there silently with wide eyes.
my tsugukos…
akiro… kenji…
“master, this dango’s really delicious!”
“you should try some, master!”
“hey! kenji! that’s mine!”
“eh? master wanted to eat some too!”
“why would you get it from me then?”
“i already ate all of mine. i can give this to master, right, ‘akiro-niisan’?”
“tsk. go ahead. just know it’s not because you called me ‘nii-san’.”
“yeah, yeah.”
“master, please be careful on your mission today!”
“get back to us in one piece. i’ll take care of kenji here, so don’t worry.”
“and, please bring some dango again, hehe!”
your knees suddenly gave up, you sat on the ground, staring at the bracelet that they both made for you. they jokingly said that it will protect you because they made it, but still you wore it. because of the same reason.
they made it. for you.
kokumo finished healing himself and tried to use his projectiles again, but himejima, before kokumo finished his attack, flung his chain and chopped one of kokumo’s legs. he fell down and hid himself using a fort that he built with his blood demon art right there and then. at least, himejima knew that he wouldn't run away.
“you said…” himejima started. you raised your head and looked at him with blurry eyes caused by tears. “...that you’ll protect them until they achieve their goals and dreams.”
you shook your head in denial, wanting to refute what he was about to say but no words came out of your lips.
the picture of akiro and kenji seeing your crow arrive and thinking you’re back. but, then breaking down in tears once they’ve heard your passing kept replaying in your mind.
“are you going to throw away your life knowing your students are waiting patiently for your return and they welcome you back like always?” he asked, grabbing the chance that kokumo is hiding himself and walked to you.
he kneeled down on his one foot in front of you.
“no! no!” you finally spoke, bawling. you grabbed ahold of his green haori and looked up at him.
“i don’t want them to suffer! i don’t want them to feel hurt again! i don’t want them to be abandoned yet again! they’re finally happy and smiling! i don’t want to see them crying again! they’re my only salvation left here in this world! i don’t want them to be left again.” you sobbed as you snuggled your face on his chest.
his large hands landed on your hair and back, pushing you closer to him providing you comfort and ease.
but, the picture of them crying wasn't leaving your mind.
i’m sorry… i’m sorry… i’m not going to throw my life carelessly anymore…
i’ll be home later with the dangos that you two wanted, so wait for me.
you pulled away from him and wiped your face. you were still sniffing, but you were sure it wouldn’t be in the way of your breathing technique.
“i’m fine now.” you told him and he just nodded.
he stood up and stepped backwards. you looked at him when you saw him do that. you glanced at him with a confused look.
“i won’t get in your way anymore.” he said with a small smile.
“why?” you questioned, not understanding why now.
“i’m not hearing that your mind is in disarray anymore. you can do it.” he encouraged and clasped his hand together again.
you smiled.
i see. so that’s why…
you looked at kokumo, he just removed the fort he made. with an enraged face, he chanted his art technique yet again.
but, you didn’t care. not even when you’re injured and full of wounds. you closed your distance with him. when you calculated the right distance, you stopped walking.
originally, my ice breathing had only four forms. it’s a breathing that only i used, so it’s hard to make forms.
but, i have this attack in my mind. i never executed it, even in practice, but i’m getting a feeling that i can do it.
“ice breathing fifth form: complete stillness”
it was a technique that makes the surroundings around you, with a certain distance, frozen. this makes them immobilized for three seconds.
but those three seconds are just what you need.
i’m sorry, my dear best friend, mom, and dad.
i always thought that once i kill this guy, i’ll join you there. but, it seems like i won’t be able to now.
you see, i have two children looking forward to my return.
i’m sorry and thank you for being my will to live. i’ve found another reason to continue living too.
kokumo’s head rolled on the ground and his body soon fell over, but just as you. the exhaustion finally caught up to you.
the difference between your body and kokumo’s is that his body fell flat on the dirty soil, while yours was immediately caught by himejima, carrying your body in a bridal style yet again.
you tried to open your eyes, you barely managed to. when you saw himejima’s face, you smiled brightly.
“himejima-san…” you called with half-lidded orbs.
“hm?” he hummed, gazing down at you. after he checked that kokumo’s body had started turning into ashes, he started walking out of the forest.
“i killed him… without dying…” you said proudly.
“you’re right. i’m relieved we’re going out of this forest both alive. you did so well. i’m proud of you.” he complimented without skipping a beat.
something did skip a beat and it’s your heart. hearing his genuine compliment and relief, puts a blush on your cheeks even though your body is so tired.
what’s more is that you’re worried that his acute hearing caught that.
ugh, so embarrassing. i’ll just pretend to be asleep.
you rested your head on his shoulder and tried to make it seem like you’ve fallen asleep.
cute. himejima chuckled silently.
…
“master?” akiro uttered confusedly.
it was already dawn and they were both up. kenji heard what he said and excitedly went to the door to welcome you.
“eh?” he said, just as confused as the other boy.
himejima-san???
you still had your arms wrapped tightly around his neck, but this time out of embarrassment.
i didn’t think he would walk me back to my house while carrying me!
please put me down!
but, i can’t say it!
people are staring!
you peeked and tried to look if you were close to your house already. your crow did the work of guiding him to where your residence is, because you realized he’s going to carry you, so you hid your face.
you saw akiro and kenji on the front door with confused looks on their faces.
“h-himejima-san, we’re close to my house already, so you can put me down already. i’ll walk on my own now—”
“no. you hurt your feet in the fight, you’re not supposed to be walking.” he cut you off and continued walking.
he heard a conversation about their ‘master’, so he knew what direction he would be going.
he stopped right in front of them, looming over the two children with his enormous height. they were obviously frightened.
“p-please give us back our master.” akiro asked.
“what did you do to our master?!” kenji interrogated, while akira shielded him securely behind him.
akiro examined the man carrying you and noticed that he was wearing the same uniform as yours and his golden buttons.
you tapped on himejima’s back, signaling him to let you down. finally putting you down carefully, supporting your back as you get on your feet.
you looked over to akiro and kenji and smiled.
they were still confused, but slowly made their way to you.
you kneeled down. for their ages, they’re quite tall, making you gaze up at them. you opened your arms and pulled them into an embrace.
“i’m home…” you whispered, hugging them even tighter.
the two children were surprised, you’ve come home from missions, easy and perilous missions, but you never came home in this manner.
akiro was about to ask what happened when he heard you sniffle. he worriedly peeked at the younger one and was about to ask if he knew what’s happening, only to see him bawling already.
“wahhh! why are you crying, master?” he cried, snuggling his face on your clothes.
“mhm-mm.” you shook your head. you withdrew from the hug, but kenji didn’t want to let go, that’s why he continued hugging you.
“nothing. i’m just happy i was able to come back home.” you answered him, caressing his head.
you looked at akiro and put your hand over his cheeks lightly.
“akiro, where’s my ‘welcome back’?” you asked, chuckling softly.
he doesn’t understand it.
the reason why you came home crying, why you’re doing this, and why you’re being like this.
he doesn’t understand why it makes him feel relieved that you look like you’ve finally lifted off of the heavy weight on your back that you never talked about.
he doesn’t understand why you’re looking at them like your world is them.
he doesn’t understand why he feels so overwhelmed seeing you like this when he doesn’t even understand anything.
yet, he can’t stop his tears as you wait for him and stare at him tenderly.
“w… welcome back, master.” he welcomed finally as he nestled himself next to his brother.
you looked behind and met himejima, crying as usual, as he listened to the three of you.
“himejima-san. thank you for making me realize i have something to protect.” you thanked him, smiling and hoping he could hear your genuine grateful feelings.
he smiled, though tears continued flowing.
“no…” he replied smiling and suddenly remembered something.
“more importantly,” he lifted his hands and you laughed.
akiro and kenji looked up while wiping their tears and they suddenly lit up.
“shall we eat this now?” he raised the bag on his hands and inside are dangos that are waiting to be consumed.
“dango!” the two boys said in unison.
kenji ran to him and himejima gave him the bag. the boy happily cheered, completely forgetting how scared he was by the person in front of him earlier. himejima just ruffled his hair and kenji pulled him by his fingers to come inside the estate.
akiro helped you get up, you limped while walking and accidentally let out a hiss in pain. until, himejima once again carried you.
“himejima-san! i’m fine! oh gosh…” you said to him.
he raised his brow in confusion.
“you’re obviously not.” he muttered matter-of-factly.
“akiro—” you were about to say to akiro that you can just ask akiro to support you while walking, but the kid was not there anymore.
you looked at the front and he was there with kenji, who was delighted by the dango, and akira was giving you a teasing look.
that kid!
ugh… it’s so embarrassing!
it’s even more embarrassing knowing he can surely hear how fast my heart is thumping right now!
“me too…” he suddenly spoke.
you glanced up at him.
“thank you.” he thanked you.
“huh? why? i didn’t do anything though…” you were muddled by what he’s saying.
the corner of his lips moving upwards, it’s not visible but from your position, it’s easy to point out.
“i also realized that i have someone to protect outside of my responsibility as a demon slayer.” he said.
“huh?” i did that? “when did i—”
“for the next hashira meeting next week, i’m hoping for your presence there in a full condition.” he said while he set you down on the tatami floor.
akiro and kenji went to get silverwares to eat the dangos, leaving both of you alone in the living room.
“i’ll try my best to recover fast.” you promised, looking at all your wounds and injuries that were already aided by the kakushis, that you didn’t hear what he whispered.
“...say it to you.” were the only words you caught.
“what was that?” you asked him, but akiro and kenji came back from the kitchen.
“let’s eat this now before it gets chewy.” he redirected your attention.
he sat in front of you while akira occupied the left side of the table and kenji did for the right side.
the boys started eating and exclaimed how delicious it was. you decided to eat some too, picking up one stick and gently taking a bite.
himejima silently listened to all of you enjoying the taste of the sweet. he smiled as he focused on your voice.
“please eat up, himejima-san.” you offered him, reaching for another stick and gave it to him. “it’s really delicious.”
“i see. i’ll try some too, then.” he said and took a bite. “it really is delicious.”
“see!” you chuckled.
it made him smile and thought to himself.
‘during those seven days before the meeting, i’ll be sure that what i’m feeling is much more than wanting to reason for your hatred for demons. so, please be there when i finally get the courage to say it to you.’, that's what i said earlier, but now i’m certain.
it wasn’t a kind of worry you will have for your colleague.
i wasn’t familiar with this feeling, so i thought it was just normal.
i’ll just pray she’ll accept my feelings.
‘(y/n), i know you don’t need protection. you’re strong after all. i’ll still promise that i'll always protect you and those who are precious to you.’
i want to say that to you.
but, not now.
you’ve just realized that witnessing these two precious boys' growth are worth living for and you should only be focusing on that for now.
“i look forward to that day.” he muttered to himself and took another bite.
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1. Hiya, please help me find this fic! Lan Zhan is the king/emperor and has to choose a consort/empress. There is a bridal selection held and I know Mianmian was one of the candidates. They do a series of challenges and Lan Zhan basically tricks Wei Wuxian into completing them/qualifying. At one point, the candidates have to go through this maze, and Wei Wuxian gets 'kidnapped' and dumped in the maze and finds his way out really fast out into a hall where everyone is just like 'how the hell did he get in there and come out so fast?' and Lan Zhan uses that to show the council/elders that Wei Wuxian is a perfectly acceptable choice while WWX is just confused as always. Thank you! @iuocean
FOUND? The Imperial Jewel by Serinah (E, 39k, WangXian, Emperor and his concubine, Dubious Consent,bExtreme at first, gets better, A/B/O, omega wwx,bAlpha LWJ, Concubine WWX, Emperor LWJ, Oblivious Wwx, wwx's pov, Mutual Pining, Angst and Feels, Deviates From Canon, WWX has a golden core, but still practices dark arts, WWX exchanges his life for the Wens’, other differences, UST, S/D, undrenegotiated kink, Orgasm Denial, Multiple Orgasms,bOther kinks, WWX likes spanking, Smut and Feels, fucking while pining, noncon, for the beginning of the first scene, It Gets Better, starts smutty, gets plotty, ends lovely, Feels, Power Imbalance, Public Sex)
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2. Hi there! Im not sure if I have already asked this or if I dreamt it but I have been looking for one specific ff for almost three years now. It's on ao3 and the only plot points I remember were that it was a modern au, wangxian were friends, something happened to wwx and the decided to go on a little impulsive roadtrip (Iwj phoned his brother and said "I am eloping with wei ying" which was funny but he was so serious deep inside) and then they found out they have been in love all along and get together.
Another thing I remember is that the author put a lot of songs into the fic for the roadtrip and I have all the song names;
the brummies - lovers do
give my heart a little break - summer salt
I don't wanna be okay without you - charlie burg
honeymoon - the shadowboxers
You'd think with all the songs I could have found it by now but I can't seem to win. If you can find anything please please I will sell my firstborn :) that fic was comfort like you can't believe @mdzshemel
FOUND? 🔒 and i think it's going to be a long, long time by belovedmuerto (T, 39k, WangXian, Road Trips, Modern, There Was Only One Bed, Slow Burn, Getting Together, Pining, Weddings, sibling relationships)
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3. hi, fic finder request! i know that it was a royalty au where lxc was the king and jgy was married to him, but from there my memory is vague... i seem to recall a scene (that may or may not have involved a mirror?) where jgy is using dark magic and eventually lxc and the rest of the lan family and kingdom find out the jgy is evil. jgy was using the dark magic to poison someone, either lxc or himself (?) TYSM for helping!!
FOUND? the lotus in between by whiteskyland (Not Rated, 22k, LXC/JC, LXC/JGY, WangXian, WIP, Angst, Whump, JC Needs a Hug, A/B/O, Alpha LXC, Omega JC, Alpha LWJ, Omega WWX, Arranged Marriage, Royalty, Hurt/Comfort, Omega JGY, JC Has No Golden Core)
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4. Hello! I'm I'm desperate to find a Wangxian fic with a Modern AU where JC wants to adopt a dog, and they recommend WWX to see a therapist or work at a veterinarian (I don't remember well) and that's where LWJ comes in. But supposedly he has a dark secret that he can't tell WWX, the thing is that I don't remember if it's a werewolf AU or something else like that. I honestly don't know if it's still on ao3, but I'll keep looking for it and I thought it was worth it to ask here if anyone remembers or knows this fic.
Maybe you'll have better luck that me, anyway thanks for listening to my ramblings!!!
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5. Hi! I’m looking for a fic that takes place in the cloud recesses era. When WWX is supposed to be punished, instead of copying the rules in the library, both WWX and LWJ teach the younger Lan disciples sword forms and fighting. During this time they bond and start a relationship.
I just remember a scene where they are putting away the wooden swords and they lock themselves in the shed (?) and start making out? (I think??).
Thanks! @estathom
FOUND? 💖 Magical Marriage Ribbons Series by starandrea (Varies, 1m, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Accidental Marriage, Fluff, Happy Ending, Telepathic bond, Kink Negotiation, Family Drama, Magical Pregnancy, Dual Cultivation, Shapeshifters, Modern with Magic, Immortality, Yilling Wei Sect, podfic) one of the magical marriage ribbon series, closer to the beginning // the second work
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6. I am looking for a canon-era fic where Wuxian was the son of Lan Qiren and Cangse Sanren. Neither Wuxian or Lan Qiren know this, as they both presume Wei Changze was Wuxian’s father. They learn the truth during the Cloud Recesses study arc when the class learns a talisman that writes out family trees. Qiren demands to take Wuxian from Lotus Pier and continue raising and teaching him in the Lan.
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7. hello! i'm trying to find a modern au wangxian fic where wwx is living with the wens and lwj is a performance artist coming to the (local) yiling gallery, and they meet again while lwj is doing his exhibition (he's like. running a booth where he just stares into the other person's eyes for like 10 minutes). it's on the shorter side - i want to say it's 3 chapters? @grillanarchy
FOUND! when you say nothing at all by sysrae (T, 5k, WangXian, Modern, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, artist LWJ, tattoo artist WWX, past angst, Getting Together, emotionally significant art installations, Soulmates)
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8. Hello.
I'm sorry for asking at the you are off. But it's been bugging my mind. I've read these fic before but i forgot the title and where i read it.
Do you know a fic its m/m where lan zhan and wei ying married and wei ying had a miscarriage so both of them go to somewhere and ended in a village. They lived in there for a while until wei ying got pregnant again and decided to go back to gusu?
And one fic where wei ying is pregnant and had been followed by the lan juniors while lan zhan gone to somewhere?
Please help me. @rottenapple116
FOUND? Sky, Cloud and Lotus by Xantya24 (M, 219k, WangXian, JC/LXC, LJY/LSZ/JL, WIP, Mpreg, A/B/O, Everyone Lives, Certain characters are dead as canon, Family Fluff, Angst, Sad with a Happy Ending, Miscarriage, Bullying, Graphic Description, Isolation, Dreams and Nightmares, Things can get fucked up)
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9. Hello! I'm searching for a fic where wei ying is actually the son of wen ruohan and cangse sanren. I only remember the part where wen ruohan visited lotus pier and saw wei ying being whipped to death by yu ziyuan and him being absolutely livid. I think wen xu was also there, he was really nice and showed wei ying the wen's market(?). thank you!!
FOUND? Scars of Lightning by The_peregrine_falcon (T, 6k, YZY & WWX, WWX & WRH, WangXian, YZY's A+ Parenting, Canon Divergence, Not Canon Compliant, Wen WWX, zidian, YZY is a bitch, Canon-Typical Violence, Blood and Injury, Major Character Injury, Heavy Angst, Lotus Pier, Nightless City, Young WWX, Muteness, Hurt kind of comfort) Though he's not WRH blood son but adopted son in it. WRH does see him get attacked by YZY though, somewhere in the middle of the fic
FOUND? The Littlest Sun by Kuroishuuha (T, 23k, WWX is a Wen, Wen Wuxian, Fluff and Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Alternate Universe, Good Parent WRH, Not YZY Friendly, Medical Inaccuracies, Family Fluff, Good Brother WX) It has WWX as WRH child and a shopping scene with WX.
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10. Hello I was suggested to seek help here to find fics that I have been trying to find for a really really long time. I hope you could help me with them.
A. The fic was set post canon where Lan Wangji seemed to have lost his memory of WWX and Wei Wuxian tries to help him get his memory back. This seems to be a common premise but what resonated me about the fic was that there was a use of a song to cure the memory loss and the song required lots of energy and thus Wei Wuxian had decided to play the song in parts and Wangxian navigate around eachother as LWJ slowly gets his memory back in snippets.
B. This one is set in post canon as well but this focuses much more on the relationship of Wei Wuxian with Lan Sizhui and Jin Ling. In this fic it seems that Wei Wuxian tends to favour Lan Sizhui above anyone else and thus Jin Ling gets jealous at this prospect. I don't remember many finer details of the story besides these.
10B)
FOUND? Not Yet (There As Needed) by sunrise_and_death (T, 13k, LSZ & WWX, JL & WWX, JL & LSZ, WangXian, Post-Canon, Family Feels, Family Bonding, POV LSZ, This Fic Has Everything, even more yearning, WWX & LSZ figuring out wtf their relationship is, Dramatic Revelations, JL being the contrary lil bean he is, all the juniors thinking WWX is the greatest thing to ever happen to them, and in case you missed it yearning)
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11. Hiiiii. Im looking for a fic where wei ying is either a tiger or wolf and he gets stuck in that form for awhile. I just remember he goes missing for awhile and lwj is looking for him - i think they are engaged or married then. Lwj finds him with sl and xxc. I think he gets stuck in that form after fighting wc or wzl or wx and he goes around trying to get a glimpse of someone in white or hes looking for lwj's scent?
Sorry its so vague 🙈 but thats all i remember
FOUND? 🔒 Unstoppable by Netrixie (T, 150k, WangXian, LXC & WWX, Canon Divergence, Eventual Happy Ending, Unreliable Narrator, Slow Burn, Minor Original Character(s), Cloud Recesses, Unresolved Sexual Tension, Unresolved Romantic Tension, Canon-Typical Violence, Canon-Typical Angst, Wolf-shifter WWX, Resolved Sexual Tension, Resolved Romantic Tension, Fix-It, Werewolf, Shapeshifters, Sunshot Campaign, Translation Available, Russian, Canonical Lan arm strength)
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12. Hiii
Thank you so much for all your hard work 💜
Can you please find me a fic where Lan Zhan and Wei Ying meet in a game. I think Wei Ying's avatar and Wen Chao's avatar were married and then Wen Chao divorced Wei ying's character and lan zhan offers a marriage proposal.
Then they meet and gradually fall in love in real life too
I think Hualian comes up in the fic where Hua Cheng is the owner of the company which created the game .
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FOUND? Dreams of Cultivation by mortuus_lingua (M, 97k, WangXian, LXC/JC, SL/XXC, HC & XL, Gaming, Wuxia, Nonbinary Character, Queer Themes, LWJ Uses Actual Words, Nonbinary NHS, Nonbinary XXC, BAMF WQ, Modern, Date Rape Drug/Roofies, Oblivious WWX, Protective JC, Cinnamon Roll WN, Developing Relationship)
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13. Hii! Im currently looking for a fic on ao3, about wwx crossdressing and faking being lwj wife. I dont remember if it was post ressurection or not, and i think wen qing might have been involved in the lie? But i could be wrong. There were two moments that i remember, that when wwx tells the truth to Lan qiren he reveals he already knew and that wwx fakes fainting at some point to shame someone over a rude remark.
FOUND? My Leaves Reach Ever for the Sun by nonplussed (T, 26k, WangXian, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Fix-It, Crossdressing, Idiots in Love, Sharing a Bed, Canon Divergence, Happy Ending, Mutual Pining, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies) if he's just pretending to have married LWJ
FOUND? The Amazing Adventures Of Jiang Xiaolian And Family by bumbledees (T, 71k, WangXian, JYL/JZX, JC/WN, Mild to Moderate Pining, lotus pier siblings quietly also have a penchant for chaos, WWX will make LQR like him whether the old man likes it or not, WWX just wants to have fun and not be killed and also to go to his sister's wedding, Mutual Pining, WWX is more stubborn than a boulder and twice as dense, Everybody Lives, nobody who matters anyways, except for WN, you're an angel and we're delighted you're here, WangXian canon is sad bitch let's get you some fun, "WWX fools the entire cultivation world", "and kicks up drama in front of their salad", testimonial from reader Vapid_Girl and a good summary of this fic, warnings for sexual harassment due to JGS, and for the canonical behavior of the jin clan ie war crimes, forced labor, human trafficking, etc., hello naughty jin cultivators it's revenge time :), jiang "rolling gay crisis" wanyin, wen "deserved better" qionglin, yunmeng bros feelings, copious use of bad language grace à JC, my oddball collection of headcanons concerning fierce corpses, WN has a playful streak, anyone friends with WWX has to have one on some level, Homophobia, Internalized Homophobia, extremely brief mention of something approaching a conversion camp but it's just two sentences, Happy Ending, Let JC Experience Happiness, WN is technically undead in this so uhhh warning for that, he's far more like a vampire than a zombie honestly, so JC gets his own YA supernatural romance novel basically, at least WN doesn't sparkle????, Crack Taken Mostly Seriously, like many of WWX's best ideas it starts as a joke!, purposeful baby aquisition, WWX when will you learn that there are consequences to your actions) if the marriage actually happens. // 100% sure that 13 is The Amazing Adventures of Jiang Xiaolian, I just finished reading that and it fits perfectly. // WWX pretends to faint in chapter 6 and LQR reveals he figured it out (and threw a teapot against the wall when he did so) in chapter 19.
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14. Hi! I'm looking for a fic that was funny I think, LWJ goes into the past, don't remember if it'd on purpose or not, it's the first night they meet, and instead of repeating the rules, he flirts with WWX and WWX can't handle it and I remember specifically LWJ thinking now I see why WWX teases, this is fun. And he says something along the lines of I won't tell anyone if you give me a kiss, and apparently LXC was there because they next day he says he didn't realize his brother was so smooth.
I've searched and searched (and got lost in new fics), if you guys are able to find it, that would be amazing!
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15. Thank you all for this glorious blog. I have a fic finder request. For a solid 3 months I have been trying to find it but alas. It's wangxian, f/f, on ao3. I think it's arranged marriage. Wangxian are married in any case but lwj isn't interested in anything but sex while wwx is very much in love with lwj. At some point, just as wwx starts thinking lwj might be softening toward her, she finds out that lwj is to have a concubine, Mianmian who lwj is old friends with. So wwx starts pulling away to give lwj opportunity to be with MM and is just very miserable.
I don't know for sure if wwx goes for a visit to Lotus Pier and that's where it happens or if she's holing up somewhere in Cloud Recesses, but Lwj goes to her and apologizes and they talk it through and there is a happy ending.
I BELIEVE it's 3 chapters but it could be 5. Anyway it's SO GOOD and I'm aching to reread it. @trulywicked
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16. Hi, its my first time asking for a fic but i remember a jiang cheng centered fic which was about if jiang cheng found out bout the golden core transfer earlier. In that, wuxian doesnt die nor do the remanents and i was just wondering if you can find it because i cant remember what the name was. Thank you in advance^-^
FOUND? Rewrite the stars by Moonlit_dewdrops (T, 70k, JC & JYL & WWX, WangXian, JC/WQ, JYL & MM & WQ, Angst with a Happy Ending, Protective JC, yunmeng sibling love, Canon Divergence, Lives get saved, Yunmeng sibling bonding,bHurt/Comfort, Protective JYL, Golden Core Reveal, JYL & JZX Live, Fix-It, fuck JGS, JZN too, no one tolerating jin sect's bullshit, Found Family, JC GETS TO BE HAPPY AND IS MARRIED, JYL & WQ & MM GET TO BE SWORN SISTERS, WangXian Get a Happy Ending, Canon-Typical Violence, just a bit, WWX has PTSD due to Burial Mounds, Very protective younger bro vibes, soft JC, Family Feels, Healing, Not Everyone Dies, Twin Prides of Yunmeng Feels, WWX will get a New Golden Core, justice for the wen remnants)
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17. Hii, absolutely love your page. Have come across such great fics here. I am actually looking a for a Wangxian fanfic which I think was CQL post-canon. I remember just this part where LWJ & WWX were going to get married and like just one day before their marriage (by the way all the guests and sects are there at Cloud Recesses), someone releases a dog/wolf yao or something similar and WWX gets like critically injured trying to project Sizhui. I remember really loving the fic but I can’t seem to find it anywhere:( Would really appreciate it if you could perhaps find it <3<3
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18. Looking for a fic where WWX made these like talisman things that stored memories are smth like that and then he dies and when he comes back his memories/past were shown to the cultivation world through those talismen and everyone is like “he’s a good guy!” and JC and LWJ tag along with WWX
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19. I'm looking for a wangxian fic :D I believe it was a characters-watching-their-series or watching-a-character's memories kind of fic, but where it was shown in songs. I specifically remember the characters watching married wangxian to the song Dandelions by Ruth B, and I think WWX's parents may have been there as well, so potentially there was a little bit of time magicky stuff too? Thank you for your help! @shieldherostuffs
FOUND? Mo Dao Zu Shi: The Musical by Loveable_Psychopath (Not Rated, 117k, WIP, WangXian, Time Travel, Fix-it, Song Fic, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Underage Drinking, Underage Smoking) The song is in the last chapter
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20. Hi! Can you help me find a fic? It's a (sort of) time travel fix-it where the Lans (LWJ and LQR are the ones i remember the most) are nice to WWX and it confuses him a lot. I remember a scene where WWX was asking about the "energy is energy" thing, expecting to get kicked out of the class by LQR, but he gets his answer calmly(?) and confused on why some of the Lans look like they're nostalgic from what he just said
FOUND? Cluster of Clouds by Nika_Raven_Celeste (T, 20k, WangXian, LWJ & WWX, LQR & WWX, JC & WWX, WIP, Time Travel, The Lans from Post Canon Time Traveled to Cloud Recesses Study Era, ALL The Lans from Post Canon, The Lans ADORES WWX, Confused WWX, Soft LQR, Soft LWJ , LWJ CAN communicate, Not JC Friendly , not YZY Friendly, Genius WWX, Horny LWJ, but he still has some restraints, Oblivious WWX)
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