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You talk a lot about Donnie's triggers when it comes to Raph and Leo, but what about Mikey? Is there anything specifically related to him that would freak Donnie out?
mikey gets brought up the least because he's the least physically imposing, and he very rarely got violent. his abuse was almost solely psychological, at least in the beginning, whereas raph was mostly verbal and leo was a mix of,, uh. everything lol (note that even before he smacked him, even before the closet, he was mentioned to be throwing things at him). most of mikey's abuse was caused by leo except for that one incident in the kitchen, so donnie tends to see leo as more of a threat than he does mikey when he's in a bad headspace. when mikey's alone, he doesn't think he's going to be hurt UNLESS he seriously seems to upset or anger him. (i think if donnie ever hurts mikey during an episode, he's going to take it a lot worse than if it were raph and leo. partially because he's smaller and younger, but also because of. right after the closet. yeah)
i actually think most of the things specifically about mikey were addressed in cw, though, because they were more emotional things-- the fear of being talked about when he wasn't around, for example. all of the food insecurity stems from him, too. leo was a nasty evil gaslighter but mikey was the one that just outright lied constantly, mostly in an effort to "protect donnie's feelings" (or at least to look like he was) and that's a big reason he finds that so uncomfortable. of course he's going to correlate hiding things to actually protect his feelings with talking behind his back.
#ask#canary continuity#cw abuse#mikey is actually so awful about the lying in cl im surprised it isnt brought up much here#i think the faux-empathy is nastier than if he'd just been outright cruel#he'd laugh along when leo bullied him and acted awful and then turn around and hide the depths of how involved he actually was#constantly told donnie it was okay. even hugged him pretty soon before the closet. lead him along and then crushed him#and i do think its fascinating because you gotta wonder about how much of that was like .... actually him#mikey was kind of at war with himself. with raph he fell so easily into it because it twisted a pre-existing mindset#he'd fight against it but only when it veered into territory that was too cruel for him to justify to himself#but with mikey i think he knew better than anyone else that something was WRONG#hell. after donnie pushed him and lashed out i do think he WAS actually upset. four days and he still didnt expect him to be mad#''it was just three hours'' was a lie because he was trying to save his own skin. because there WAS a small part of him that hated the idea#-of donnie being upset with him#it's unseen but i think them going on and on about donnie ''hitting'' mikey was a big reason he shifted from then on#every moment of clarity he had was just smothered by leo and raph feeding into the curse and telling him he had the right to be mad#idk inevitably mikey's greatest downfall is that he was careless and unfocused and a little selfish#he cared about what was *fun.* and when reality hit him that he might be acting bad he wanted nothing more than to be reassured#that he wasnt. he might have come to that conclusion on his own but raph and leo definitely made it worse#god damn donnie trying to be reassuring and considerate actually fucked him up so bad with mikey that's messed up :(#mikey didnt think donnie was capable of fighting back and that's why he turned so quickly when he actually did. Yikes#because like if he wasn't fighting back then surely it wasnt THAT bad... it was just play....
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It's amazing that Bridgerton, the show, and the fandom, want me to believe that Cressida is just this stereotypical mean girl and Penelope is the innocent girl who can do no wrong because, let's be honest, both of them are mean girls. At least Cressida's retorts aren't published in a gossip site for the whole society to read. A lot of people use Penelope's life, with her mother and such, as justification for all the harm that she's done and it's kind of gross because what do you mean her outing a young pregnant black woman is justified? What do you mean being ableist is justified just because others were mean to you? It's not, and I wish people would stop painting it that way (especially as someone who has been bullied while understanding wanting to have a catharsis, it would be primarily directed at those who've harmed me and not other random people!). If you can use Penelope's background as a way to justify her actions, then don't be mad when people do the same for Cressida especially since the show also tells verbatim what she's dealing with. I would be a little snappy (not to her extent though) too if I were in her shoes.
Is Cressida wrong for bullying Penelope? Yes, very wrong. However, if you're going to say that her background doesn't justify her treatment toward Penelope, then keep that same smoke for her [Penelope] as well.
#bridgerton#anti penelope featherington#cressida cowper#pls dni if you can't have a collected conversation on this topic#like no u don't get to try and justify this yte woman outing this pregnant black woman as some ârevenge for being bulliedâ#bc not only is it wrong as hell people painting marina as one of her bullies reads very anti black bc she never was that#she was always nice to her even when it's bee assumed that pen hasn't even visited her since#some of yall just want to live vicariously through pen and are trying to rewrite history lets not
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#palpitoad#this is SLIGHTLY more respectable than tympole? significantly. more respectable. but i still do not respect him very much#only a little#everyone's asking me why i'm being so mean on the tympole tags but all you have to do is LOOK AT IT#AND THAT'LL TELL YOU WHY LOOK AT ITS FACE. ITS EYES. ITS EYEBROWS???? THE MOUTH. GROSS#and the âstop this shit at ONCE!!!!!â is a jerma reference. ok#i don't remember why i was THAT mean considering i wrote those tags on the sixteenth and i'm updating these now today but#i mean i still think it's JUSTIFIED LOOK AT IT!!!! IT'S SO UGLY#SEE TUMBLR USER MEOWSTIX AGREES WITH ME. GREAT URL BY THE WAY YOU ALL ARE JUST HATERS OF ME BEING A HATER#âyou guys are bullying a literal tadpoleâ ok but do you know what tadpoles do? they turn people into mindflayers. case closed#tympole would absolutely be the type to try to turn me into a mindflayer are you kidding me? he wants to go inside my brain#and turn me into a palpitoad. this is tympole's dream. do we want to let them take over the world like this? instate the Grand Design? no
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yeah sure that's how i'll [re]come out

#zymart#zymtalk#rant in the tags ->#okay listen to me this is really important and also i have a witness. this was not intentionally supposed to be posted on june 1st#the stars just aligned for this to be at its funniest. which means its also easier for me to dismiss LOL#i drew this like a week ago after trying to draw a whole like. 5 page comic about it and then stopping it mid-board#bc it was horrifying imagining being perceived that much. so i needed to make it into a joke instead and this was the funniest route#and then i was like 'UGH. UGH!!!! i can not be 20 and deal with this like im 13. if i dont post it by the end of the week#then [the witness to all my rants on this topic. shoutout to twig bc they got the most of it] can joke abt it as if i did anyway'#and now its the end of the week and i looked at the date and went 'oh my god didnt may just start what happened'#'WAIT ITS JUNE FIRST. GOD. THATS TOO FUNNY TO NOT SAY SOMETHING' and who am i if i dont prioritize the bit honestly#in all honesty. kinda hate it! not bc of internalized homophobia but actually bc of internalized arophobia that has somehow been emphasized#after having my brain shift from '1000% aromantic without a doubt no exceptions' to 'just arospec ig lol??'#but tragically as it turns out. you can not just try and self analyze yourself into speedrunning closure.#horrible news for the oscar zymstarz community frankly#SO i needed a way 2 justify shoving this off my plate and into the trash as fast as possible.#im impatient and cant acknowledge my own emotions. its a flaw im working on it#oh and for all the ppl who know the running gag abt 'my allegations' [i do not have any real allegations for anyone not in jems server]:#that was in fact just a running gag for like well over a year and a half. like that was just a long running bit COMPLETELY unrelated to thi#i only started having this weird sexuality shift or whatever not too long ago lol. like long enough to go through 4 of the 5 stages of grie#[evidently bc like. im posting this. i got close enough to 5 to throw in the towel ykwim]#but on 'oscar zymstarz emotional acknowledgement' time that is....... not long.#but yeah ig tldr like. still ace [thank god] just arospec [probably demiro? i hate trying to figure out my own labels] instead of Aro now#idk none of this is that deep but also like it kinda is unfortunately bc i have to actually talk abt it to be able to ignore it ykwim#but i did! we're done talking abt it now! and now i can act like i dont care and try to make jokes about it to speedrun the rest of it#anyway. Happy Pride everyone. Fukign kitty.#side message to jem. by no means does this mean im not still gonna bully you. its a sign of love but also it is you specific bullying đ«¶#you are not safe#edit: this is karma for saying 'thank god'. might be demiace too. this is the worst month of my life /j
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Being at work is a lot of trying desperately to beat back my rejection sensitive dysphoria with a stick
#I'm just mentally shouting at myself#''THAT WAS A NEUTRAL INTERACTION''#''IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY THINK YOU'RE STILL GETTING WORK DONE TO SATISFACTION''#''THEY AREN'T ANALYZING YOUR CONVERSATIONS THIS DEEPLY''#look. there's more than one way for executive dysfunction to manifest in ADHD#I don't experience it as getting ''stuck'' even tho that's alllllll I ever see online when people talk about it#my biggest executive dysfunction is and always has been emotional dysregulation#which combined with my history of being bullied and mistreated by people#means my rejective sensitive dysphoria is through. the. roof.#it's. it's very difficult to navigate some days.#today isn't TOO bad but I am certainly stuck on an interaction and trying to mentally justify why I'm not in trouble.#anyways I think we should talk more about the other forms of executive dysfunction#bc everyone is different and has different manifestations of symptoms!#speecher speaks
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ig my problem with the whole bullying thing is that so many of the leftists who do it self identify as communists of some type or really emphasizes community.... but clearly doesn't care about actually cultivating an environment where everyone in the community feels safe and welcome..........
#i kinda dont think you care about community at all and your only issue with america is that *you're* not in charge#i kind of think you're trying to heal your social trauma of being bullied yourself by wanting to gain control of everything and be#the queen bee clique leader this time instead. so YOU can be the one to socially shame and punish people finally#which is just... such a loser ass thing to do lmao. i promise whatever you've gone through doesnt justify inflicting it on others.#i get how you might think it will fix things- sometimes when im really angry and emotional i feel that way too- but be realistic here#you're literally doing nothing but continuing the cycle of abuse. dont you want to be the one who breaks it?#if you care about community so much why dont you know basic conflict resolution skills or how to communicate without making fun#of someone or try to be fair and unbiased or understand that punitive justice is bad or stop fucking bullying people like a fucking child#or how to be democratic or literally ANYTHING that ACTUALLY requires caring about the well being of people that would#also require you to retire being a bully and change for the better#on the note of communication- do you even *know* how to effectively communicate things? and are you sure you do?#bc i assumed i did until i went to therapy and was taught. you have to make the other person feel seen and heard#and i dont mean just *feel* it i mean you do have to actually see and hear them out if you want to come to a compromise or solution#i just really dont think a lot of yall care about community as much as you say and just want a social safety net#which is fine to want just dont then go and pretend you also care so so much about community when you're clearly fine with#dividing it all up
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ah they just had the fiancee cheat with arguably the slimiest character in the show to try and balance out the leads finally kissing, all of a sudden spells aren't real and the curse is entirely forgotten they're solving everything with lazy ass writing okay
#don't get me wrong - shinyu trying to leave hongjo alone while desperately yearning being protective and playfully possessive/jealous#only to kiss her when he's so overcome with accepting his (and realizing her) truth SHOULD be delicious#and yet... once my bi heart looks past the chemistry/visuals... đ#destined with you#also implicating hongjo as stealing 2nd fl's man twice for so long and having her slapped - make it make sense pls#like yes she's lonely immature and being wooed made her feel good inside but she never encouraged shinyu's behavior#hasn't even figured out she doesn't like jae kyung or whatever anymore for herself#technically shinyu's feelings aren't her responsibility esp w/o magic but the show's premise rn makes her the 'other woman' to blame#we're in the middle of things unravelling but i s2g if she doesn't have agency or a modicum or self respect/honesty in the next eps.. đ€ŠđŸââïž#but going back to the post - the show could have justified shinyu's breakup with the fact that he wasn't invested from the beginning#or that 2nd fl is a two faced bully and show that forcing relationships bc of status/attraction/history/family pressure ends poorly#but instead it's taking a female character who would be justifiably upset and vilifying her so that her pain seems deserved#she's already unlikable and pitiful (there's like only two women in this entire show portrayed positively) but no#let's make her as 2d & evil as possible to uplift hongjo instead of putting in work to develop the lead/story & appeal to the audience#writers prove me wrong challenge
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thank you for being an izch hater in these trying times đ
these are trying times indeed, but I'll gladly remind dudebros that they have as much confirmation as us, and I put us on the same level exclusively because this is a shonen -and still, they have even less than what's usual.
Shame.
#grrr talking#grrr being a hater#its just wild to me the way they have even LESS than what's normal#they act like usually rare pairs or queer shippers act -happy and seeing romance when they talk to each other#and theres nothing wrong with that I do the same#HOWEVER that attitude of being better than any other ship? that they are real and dont have to even try to justify how it makes sense?#i HATE that#the bullying? the harassment? wtf???#and the gaslighting??? they got me rethinking if togachako have a deeper relationship than izuku and shigaraki#bitch I MADE ANALYSIS ABOUT THEM they are not the same at all WHY DO THEY HAVE ME SECOND GUESSING???#their reading comprehension is so strange -they saw their het ship when ochako was crying and sad over something that has nothing to do wit#him yet they saw romance and happy confessions?? what???
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Do you think jacob could handle it if evie met immortal!ezio or do you think he'd just immediately start trying to fistfight ezio out of jealousy
NO NO IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS and here's the thing here's the thing. the thing is. it's all well and good to have a crush on ezio when he's this famous assassin of the past who reformed the brotherhood and did all this stuff and was notably hot. and then it's a whole other thing for evie to have to actually meet him and realize Oh God He Acts Like Jacob. which, like, granted, okay, ezio does act less like that as he gets older because with age comes wisdom and all, but he and jacob are very much still two himbos of a kind, and i think evie would be having the worst-best day of her life about it.
which makes it even funnier to me if jacob gets jealous of him. because suddenly not only is ezio some dead brotherhood mentor evie has a crush on, he's alive and he's a little like jacob but calmer, and wiser, and smoother, and evie likes him, maybe even more than she did as a fantasy she had in her head, which means there must be alarm bells going off in jacob's head about evie replacing him with The Better Version Of Him. (she would not. but jacob has issues. and evie is mean <3 she would not help him out if she thought he was just being petty and jealous rather than actually insecure.)
#......sorry spaced out like halfway through this because my brain went 'revelations!ezio & jacob and evie' and. well. you understand.#there's a lot of parallels between jacob and ezio actually. not just that they're both <3 bless <3 a little thick#but you know. the younger brother. the expectations of a dead father that they'll never really know what he wanted of them since#he died before that could really be resolved. reckless with youth and determined to change things. easily bullied by hot women.#..........which i think is a long-winded way of me just reiterating that. revelations!ezio. and jacob. they should. you know. you know.#someone needs to top that man and ezio has the experience to do it#im always bouncing back and forth on ezio's age in immortal au stuff. physical age i mean.#since i like to give it some sort of canon adjacent reason for him to be immortal. and there's many options.#but there is something about like. revelations ezio being the version of him that he stops at.#like he tells himself he's done. he hangs up the work. and then slowly he starts to realize he's not getting older.#idk. sticks with me. also because i have like. there's this solid idea in my brain that in any immortal au altair and ezio have A Thing#going on. not a romance not an affair but like. A Thing. and there's something to the visual of revelations!ezio & altair who will always b#like 300 years older than him. but will always look like he does in ac1. like 30-ish years younger.#immortal physical age versus their actual age shenanigans is fun for me.#and definitely *not* just me trying to justify revelations!ezio being his appearance because he's hot. shut up. its not. its thematic.#assassin's creed#ask#...............HOWEVER. much to be said for an ezio who does *not* look that much physically older than jacob or evie but *is*.#i think that specific version of ezio would be even worse for jacob actually because at least with revelations!ezio he can tell himself#'well >:( he's too old for evie anyway. she won't like him' (<- incorrect let her fuck the dilf) but like. ac2 ezio. jacob is going to have#so many problems. and these problems will inevitably morph from jealousy about evie's attention into angry barely repressed gay thoughts <3#obviously <3
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if you are a trans boy, especially a teenage trans boy, i wanted to say that as a trans man in their 30's, you have my deepest respects and condolences for what you may be going through right now.
it has become socially acceptable and basically online custom to bully teenage trans boys & mascs, call them cringy, or excuse misgendering them for whatever reason. people put trans boys on this pedestal of "must perform masculinity and manhood to cartoonish degrees" even though they're still children.
people make trans boys fight for their manhood before they can even be boys. i am sorry people can be so judgmental and harsh on you. you are not wrong for wanting to be a boy. you are experiencing something wonderful. it's okay if you still want to be a boy even if people have treated you poorly, or tried to make you feel bad for being a boy. there is nothing wrong with being a boy.
it's okay if you never socially transition. it's okay if you're afraid to come out because it's not safe. it's okay if you never change your outward appearance. it's okay if you try very hard to pass but struggle to. it's okay if you wear "women's" clothing and shoes, bras, makeup, etc., it's okay if you're gay and love other men. it's okay if you're scared of hrt. it's okay if you don't want surgery. it's okay if you mainly occupy girl's spaces still. people will find every reason to pick these things apart and ridicule trans boys for, but they are all perfectly fine experiences that do not make you any less of a boy. you are the one who is in control of your transition, presentation, and state of being- you should be able to prioritize your safety over the comfort of random strangers who have no impact over how you live your life.
i've been put through this too, but later in life as i came out when i was an adult. people still try to make me feel bad for identifying as a trans man, for whatever reason they have in their head to justify hatred of a trans person. i've had enough. there will never be an excuse for how people try to excuse the infantilization and abuse that trans men and trans boys face.
take care of yourselves, no matter what age you are, if you are a trans boy, man, or masc you deserve to know that other trans men care about you, especially when people are scrambling to find ways to punch down on you. there are people who suck, but there are also a lot of people who care about you. keep your chin up. you know who you are
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anybody who says that "bullying is good" to try to justify being assholes to children and teenagers and neurodivergent people have never been bullied. being bullied is a genuinely traumatizing thing. nobody "deserves" to be bullied, bullying is never "good" for people, and it is certainly never "necessary." people trying to justify it by claiming that bullying teaches kids not to be cringy and weird are just assholes.
#i was bullied severely as a kid. to the point of being physically assaulted.#but even if i wasn't physically assaulted. bullying still is awful.#people try to justify bulling furries or whatever because it's necessary to teach them to not be cringe??#that's fucking stupid and insane and insensitive#sorry i heard somebody i know say this and it pissed me off so much you can't understand
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idk what person needs to hear this but if you have any impulse at all to be phobic or whatever in any capacity about a minority- you better fucking ignore that impulse bc that's your one way ticket into becoming a rwinger.
Iâm was watching a video about a Jewish custom, and the entire comment section was like this

Itâs about anti Zionism my ass.
This is the case whenever a post has Hebrew/ Jewish symbols/ etc. itâs obviously not about Israel.
#that's kind of where the line is bud.#if you make excuses to call people theyfab... if you make excuses to be antisemitic... you're not a progressive anymore.#you dont get to perpetuate oppression and then turn around and try to justify it w progressive shit like no dude i see right through you.#again. yall are just bullies who hunger for popularity so you just do whatever's most popular w/o even actually deeply thinking abt#it. being progressive was popular. now being antisemitic is popular.#some ppl aren't progressives at all. its literally a trend for them. pieces of shit.#if theres any part of you that looks at a minority and goes 'man you make it so hard to not want to oppress you' thats some shit you#need to internally work on bc i promise the problem is not them.#being progressive didn't suddenly cure you of being a bully. you still gotta work on that ya tool.#'wow this minority is acting in a way i dislike surely thats a justification to oppress them more no?' ok you cop lmao
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worst thing is when someone who bullied you "becomes a leftist"
#like.... idk how much i trust you to hold the values actually#i mean hey. people can change but. are you still looking for excuses to make fun of people and now have the convenient excuse#of progressive lingo to justify it or are you being normal about it?#like is this just a way for you to do socially acceptable bullying or do you actually give af about things finally#could i be emotionally vulnerable with you without you going and telling everyone else what I said or trying to hold back laughter about it#orr..... have you not changed at all and are just following trends to remain popular as was your goal back then#and dont care about who you shit on to get up there and are now just a bully with a progressive vocabulary?
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Yandere Batfam x Neglected!Elle Woods!Reader (Part 1)
- You're another one of Bruce's illegitimate children, and he took you in after your mother's death
- In the family you stuck out like a sore thumb. While everyone was an edgelord to some degree, you were bubbly and ditzy, liking pink and all types of feminine things, you also loved shopping and fashion, which led to everyone believing you were a spoiled brat
- As such, no one in your family took you seriously
- Bruce prioritised everyone else over you, since you were the only child of his that wasn't a vigilante and thought you could handle yourself since the others have the added burden of being vigilantes
- This led him to unintentionally missing important events in your life, like birthdays and competitions, and dismissed any issues you might have had, since he saw you as the 'normal' child
- You never saw Dick much since he was off in Bludhaven, but when he was around he was nice but distant. He'd ruffle your hair but his attention would quickly go to other things
- "Hey [Name]! Sorry, but I need to go look for Damian."
- Tim and you never really spoke much despite being closer in age, you were both just too different, and when you did try to engage with him and his hobbies he'd get annoyed and wave you away
- "Can you leave me alone? I'm busy." he said in annoyance as you tried asking him the details of his research on a current case
- Jason is jealous of you because in his eyes, you were a spoiled brat who had everything handed to them on a silver platter, what gives you the right to complain? He's always aggressive when he's around you, so you took to avoiding him whenever you could
- Damian was arguably the worst to you. When you first met, he attempted to kill you since he thought he had to kill the other biological child to get a place in the family, leaving a scar on your neck
- The worst part was having to listen to Dick and Bruce justify his actions
- "He's just a child, [Name]. He's been raised by assassins his whole life. Tim forgave him, why can't you?"
- It wasn't just that he tried to kill you, it was mainly that he never apologised and actively took time out of his day to belittle you for being the 'weak link' of the family
- You were largely okay with Cassandra and Barbara, but Stephanie was kind of a bully, she belittled you for your interests, calling you a 'pansy' and a 'wuss'
- Duke and Alfred were the only ones who showed you a shred of human decency, but they were busy, and you could tell that even they somewhat underestimated your intelligence
- Despite your pink-loving bimbo get-up, you knew damn well what everyone thought of you. It hurt, but it wasn't going to stop you. You used your brains to get into college while you were still a minor, studying to get your degree in Cosmetology
- It all came crashing down when your boyfriend, Warner, broke up with you
- "W-What do you mean you're breaking up with me?!" you stammered, feeling tears prick your eyes. "I'm sorry, [Name]. You're just too...pink." Warner said with faux apologetics.
- As you were left there crying, you swore to yourself that you'd win your boyfriend back. That you weren't just some bubbly girly pink airhead. You got into college while you were still underage. It's time to go to Harvard.
- And maybe your family will finally notice you, but that's more of a secondary objective.
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She Likes Them Mean - Namgyu x reader x Minsu [SMUT]



Warnings: SMUT 18+ (between you & Namgyu), dub-con, dark themes, cuck Minsu, exhibitionism, voyeurism, degradation, choking, slapping, you & Namgyu are exes
Basically sweet innocent Minsu has a crush on you & is forced to watch you get fucked by Namgyu. Iâm shocked I havenât seen a fic of this yet & couldnât get this idea out of my head, itâs way too hot frrrr enjoy <3

Minsu is always so nice to you. That pretty much sums up how you feel about him â heâs nice. You can tell the shy boy feels more for you though. The way he stares at you when he thinks you wonât notice, looking down quickly when you turn to meet his soft eyes. Choosing to be by your side in every game and sitting close to you at lunch time. The weak smiles he sent your way and how his face would turn red when you accidentally brushed up against him.
The feelings would never be reciprocated, but you enjoyed being friends with him, his quiet presence was somewhat soothing in this godforsaken hellhole. You felt pity for him, especially when he was bullied by Thanos and your ex-boyfriend.
The bullying seemed to increase dramatically once you joined their team.
Any quiet comment or slight touch between you and Minsu was immediately followed by a brutal shoulder-check or insult from Namgyu. âFucking pussy.â Namgyu spat as his shoulder bump nearly threw Minsu to the ground.
The two of you had dated for over a year before things got messy and fell apart. And when shit hit the fan, it got ugly. The departure was far from civil, you leaving his apartment in a rush of back-and-forth yelling with suitcases full of your stuff after another fight â not uncommon with you two.
It seemed like Namgyu thought he still had some sort of weird ownership over you. This time you had enough â itâs not like he had any say in what men you spoke to or interacted with.
âLeave him alone, dickhead...â Youâd say under your breath, glaring at the back of Namgyuâs head as he stopped in his tracks. You hear him curse under his breath, recognizing the korean word for âbitch.â
He didnât hesitate to turn back around, his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, and walk directly up to you. His black eyes narrowing as he searches your face. âHuh?â His eyebrows raised, âWhy are you standing up for this dork? You like him or somethin?â
A short breath leaves your nose in a humorless laugh. You didnât justify his questions with an answer. The close proximity of Namgyuâs body to yours almost had you dizzy, reeling from the memories the faint smell of his cologne brought back.
Namgyuâs eyes flicked to Minsu sizing him up, who was cowering and making himself as small as possible next to you.
âIf you think being nice and sweet is gonna get her to spread her legs, it wonât.â Your mouth dropped open at his lewd words, he said it low enough so that only you two could hear.
âShe doesnât like weak pussies like you. And donât think I didnât see you take the bed next to hers.â He nodded in the direction of your bunks. He looked back down at you and leaned forward with his lip curled in a sneer, enjoying how uncomfortable Minsu was getting and the incredulous look on your face. âBet this bastard jerks off to your sleeping face every night.â
The vulgar words made Minsu visibly flinch and he couldnât look anywhere but his own shoes. Hearing Namgyu make these crude accusations so openly made his face burn. He had never thought about you in such a filthy way, truly! He was petrified in embarrassment.
You were fuming, astounded at the audacity of this man. Namgyu has always been a sleazy asshole so you shouldâve seen this coming. Of course he would try to put poor Minsu in his place while claiming his stake on you. Minsu would probably be too terrified to even glance in your direction now.
Namgyu went further than that, of course. He had a point to prove to this pathetic loser who had no chance in hell of getting with you.
That same night Namgyu had you face down and ass up in your bunk, his favorite position to take you in. Your sweatpants were pulled messily to your ankles along with your panties, your shirt bunched above your tits as they bounce with each rock of Namgyuâs hips against your ass. âYeahhhâŠthatâs how you like it huh? Bet youâve missed it.â
His veiny ringed hand was threaded through your long hair, pushing your face into the thin mattress below. Your eyes fluttered and rolled back into your head, your cunt squeezing the life out of your exâs cock you missed so much.
The two of you werenât the only ones awake. There was a third â Minsu, the next bunk over, frozen. His blanket was pulled up to his chin, his eyes wide at the debauched scene happening in front of him. The girl he had a crush on getting absolutely railed by the guy who constantly bullies him. The darkness did little to hide the two of your activities, your bunk squeaking and bodies rocking together in a lewd slapping sound disrupting the silence.
Namgyu suddenly wrenched your head up by your hair, making you cry out. He was forcing you to look at Minsu a few feet away, the two of you making eye contact as you moaned and panted. Guilt mixed with pleasure surged through you in waves.
You thought you saw tears well up in the quiet boyâs eyes. He was such a sensitive soul, you didnât want to hurt him⊠Namgyuâs next words were venomous as he uttered them.
âYeah, look at âerâŠâ He directed at Minsu. âSheâll. Never. Want. You.â Each word was punctuated by him jackhammering roughly into your abused cunt.
His hand comes up to grip your throat tightly, cutting off your moans and pulling you tight to his chest against your back. âYeahhh fuck. Yâ always come crawling back, need your cunt fucked nice nâ hard nâ Iâm the only one who can do it right, huh?â
You couldnât breathe and you swear youâve never felt so good, you couldnât tell what planet you were on or what nonsense was babbling out of your mouth. Namgyu always had a way of making your head empty and your pussy full, so fucking full.
He released the hold on your throat, a huge gasp of air rushing into your lungs and heâs at the nape of your ear, breathing you in deeply like he was trying to savor the scent of you after being away from it for so long. His hand came up to your cheek in a sharp slap. âFucking freak canât get off unless I slap her around.â You moaned loudly at that. Your brain could barely comprehend what he was saying to Minsu. You couldnât deny the way the extra pair of eyes sent more slick seeping out of you.
You think Minsu really might be crying now, confirmed by what Namgyu said next. You feel his sadistic snicker against your ear, his breath hot. âWhat? Sad your crush turned out to be a nasty shameless whore?â Namgyu couldnât stop running his mouth when you were under him.
With blurry half-lidded eyes you glance at Minsu. His gaze was locked onto your bouncing tits squished against the bed. âHe canât look away. Fucking pervert.â Cold fingers clamp down on your clit, pinching it in rapid vicious pulses. A choked scream left your parted lips, quickly muffled by two ringed fingers. Namgyu wanted to make sure you came hard while the shy boy was watching.
âTell him I own your pussy.â Namgyuâs words were gospel when he was fucking you, and you couldnât do anything but follow.
You hadnât been fucked â no, you hadnât been fucked like this in so long. None of the guys you slept with after the breakup compared, none of the orgasms even came close to how easy Namgyu had you shaking and creaming. At least thatâs what you told yourself, to justify why you were about to cum so hard and easily around him.
âNamgyu owns my pussy! Namgyu owns my pussy!!!â The chant left your mouth in a desperate mewl over and over.
Clear liquid gushed out of you, spraying Namgyuâs thighs and dripping down his balls that were still slapping against your ass.
Namgyu cursed when he realized what was happening, rutting his cock into you a few last times before he stilled as deep as he could and came. God, it felt like he was trying to push into your womb. You felt shameful that Minsu had to see you like this, in this debauched state.
He couldnât bring himself to talk to you or look you in the eyes for the rest of the games. Especially because he came twice in his sweatpants watching you get fucked that night.
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so high school | l.hc
âno oneâs ever had me. not like youâŠâ
đnow playing: so high school by taylor swift



⯠summary: Hyuck doesnât care that high school was years ago; after learning his girlfriendâs experience was shitty, heâs determined to rewrite it for you. After all, heâs nothing if not smitten.
⯠pairings: haechan x fem!reader
⯠genre: established relationship, fluff, eventual smut
⯠words: 6.4k
⯠tags: 18+ minors dni, swearing, fingering, dirty talk, oral sex (male receiving), face fucking, exhibitionism, reader uses she/her pronouns, lots of gendered female terms, slight begging, brief possessiveness and jealousy bc itâs me, a brief cheating accusation but itâs stupid, hyuck being a cute boyfriend for 6k words.
an: did someone say haechan lover boy smut for valentineâs day? (they didnât, lol. i wrote this for me, i love men in love)

âI fucking loved high school,â Hyuck says, placing down his yearbook on the coffee table.
It had to be a few years old by now, stuffed at the back of one of your bookshelves. Youâd found it while doing an annual declutter and handed it to him on a whim. Knowing your boyfriend, you figured heâd find it nostalgic, or funny, or both.
You glance at him from your spot on the couch, eyebrow arched. âThat doesnât surprise me.â
âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â He shifts, sitting up straighter.
âYou were on the football team, babe. Voted prom king, had good grades, and probably never had to eat lunch alone,â you list off, counting on your fingers for dramatic effect. âIâd be shocked if you did hate high school.â
He laughs with a shake of his head, sinking back further into the sofa. âOkay, fine, maybe I was a little... popular.â
You roll your eyes, but a laugh slips out before you can help it. âA little? I bet you walked through the hallways like you were the lead in a drama or something stupid like that.â
He nods. âDamn right. I was the shit.â
You scoff, tossing a pillow in his direction. Heâs such a cocky bastardâbut you love that about him.
âJealous?â he shoots back, smirking.
You try to playfully roll your eyes, but instead, a small frown pulls at your lips. You know heâs just teasing, messing around, but memories of junior and senior year creep into your mind uninvited. Youâd never been outright bullied, but high school wasnât exactly a highlight reel for you.Â
It was a blur of sitting in the back row, trying to make yourself small enough to avoid attention. Lunches alone in the library. No group of friends. No teenage dream. Dances you skipped, pretending you didnât care when your chest ached from watching your classmates gush over photos the Monday after.
So yeah, you were a little jealous.
âYes, actually,â you say finally, voice quieter. âHigh school sucked for me.â
His grin falters, posture straightening. âWhat?â
âI mean, it wasnât all bad,â you rush to explain, suddenly self-conscious. âI got through it, you know? I just wasnât... you.â
Hyuck leans back, studying you with a look you donât see often on himâconcern, worry. âWhat do you mean you werenât me?â
âI wasnât popular or cool or good at sports. I didnât have a big friend group, and I definitely didnât win prom queenâŠnot that I even went.â
Hyuck doesnât respond right away, and when you finally glance up, you find him staring at you with an expression you canât quite place. Thereâs no teasing glint in his eyes, no cocky smile playing at his lips. He just looks... sad.
âWait,â he says, his voice softer now. âYou didnât go to prom?â
You shrug. âDidnât really have anyone to go with.â
He blinks at you like you just told him you spent your teenage years stranded on a deserted island, which for the likes of Hyuck, not attending prom was the justified equivalent.Â
âAre you serious?â
âHyuck, itâs not a big deal,â you say quickly, waving him off. âHigh school just wasnât my thing.â
âNot a big deal?â he repeats. âBabe, prom is like... the peak of high school. Itâs the one night everyone remembers forever. How did no one ask you? I canât wrap my head around that.â
You canât help but laugh, despite the tightness in your chest. âNot everyone peaked in high school, Hyuck. Some of us just... took it for what it was: school.â
His expression softens even more, guilt creeping into his features as he scoots closer, his thigh brushing yours. âYou know you deserved better than that, right?â
âHyuckââ
âI mean it,â he says firmly, cupping your face in his hands. âIf Iâd been there, you wouldâve been my prom queen. Hell, Iâd have skipped the whole damn thing just to hang out with you if you didnât wanna go.â
The honeyed warmth in his voice makes your throat tighten, and you hate how easily he can do thisâtake the ache of old memories and replace it with something softer, lighter. Something you almost want to believe.
âToo bad we didnât meet until after high school,â you say, forcing a smile.
Hyuck faltersâbut only for a moment. His gaze lingers on you as if a thought is forming behind his dark eyes.
âYeah,â he murmurs, brushing a kiss against your forehead. âToo bad.â
You donât think anything of it when he pulls you into his chest, resting his chin on your head as the conversation drifts elsewhere. But later, when heâs holding you close and youâre half-asleep, Hyuck is still thinking. Planning.
Because Lee Donghyuck might not be able to rewrite your past, but heâs damn sure going to be the best part of your futureâtrust.Â

Hyuck just couldnât stop thinking about it.
The coolest person heâd ever metâhis girlfriend, his soulmateâhadnât gotten to live the high school teenage dream. No prom, no stupid corsages, no dancing barefoot at the end of the night because the heels were too much. Nothing.
It didnât make sense. You were too fucking beautiful to be treated as background noise by those losers. Hyuck remembers the day he met youâa fully grown manâand you made him a stuttering mess. Heâs never asked Mark for flirting advice ever in his life, but fuck, he wasnât about to miss his chance with you.Â
How could they just disregard you?
He raked a hand through his hair, frustrated. How did no one ask you out? Were they blind? Or just stupid? What kind of idiot couldnât see what he saw every day?
The thought of you sitting at home on prom night, like it didnât matter, made his chest ache. He couldnât picture itâbecause you were you, the type of person every cheesy teen movie was written about: beautiful, funny, and so damn perfect. And yet... those assholes in high school had somehow missed it.
And even though the sick, selfish, possessive side of him is so fucking grateful that heâs the only one thatâs ever had you, and those assholes missed out, he still canât help but obsess over it. He couldnât change the past, no matter how much he wanted to, and that realization burned.Â
Hyuck groans, tipping his head back. âIâm losing it,â he mutters, mostly to himself.
But he couldnât let it go. And because he was Lee fucking Donghyuck, when something got under his skin, he acted on it. Which is why, two days later, he finds himself standing in the middle of a small-town gymnasium, arms crossed over his chest as he surveys the scene in front of him.
âIs this the best you can do?â he asks, unimpressed.
Mark, balancing precariously on a ladder while stringing up fairy lights, glares down at him. âDude, shut the fuck up,â he snaps. âYou gave us two days to put this together. Do you even know how hard it was to convince the principal? I had to name-drop you!âÂ
Hyuck ignores him, his eyes sweeping over the room again. Mark wasnât wrongâhe had given his friends next to no time to work with. But that didnât stop him from wanting it to be perfect. You deserved perfect.
A cheap speaker sits on the ground, currently blasting some old prom playlist Mark had found online. The string lights slowly started taking shape, casting a soft glow across the gym. There is a table in the corner with a bowl of something pink and suspicious-looking, and a few chairs scattered around. It wasnât bad, but it wasnât great either.
Mark climbs down from the ladder, dusting his hands on his jeans. âI think it looks fine.â
âFine?â Hyuck repeats, scoffing. âMark, this is a high school prom. Itâs supposed to be magical or whatever. This just looks like... a school event.â
âBecause it is a school event,â Mark shoots back, rolling his eyes. âLook, man, if you wanted a five-star gala, maybe you shouldnât have sprung this on me last minute.â
Hyuck sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. He wasnât trying to be an ass, but he wanted, needed, to do this for you. Youâd brushed off your high school experience like it was no big deal, but he could tell it meant something to you. Maybe not in a way you wanted to admit, but it was there.
And now it was his jobâno, his missionâto fix it.
âJust... add more lights,â Hyuck says finally. âAnd maybe some balloons? Chenle, do we have balloons?â
Chenle, who was sweeping the floors, looked back with a shake of his head, scurrying off before he got caught in the crossfire.Â
Mark groans. âHyuck, if we add any more lights, the entire gymâs gonna blow a fuse. And no, we donât have balloons. Youâre lucky I even managed to get lights.â
Hyuck sighs again, running a hand through his hair. He had money, sureâthat was the only reason heâd managed to rent out the gym on such short noticeâbut even he couldnât buy time.
Still, as he looked around the gym, he felt a flicker of pride. It wasnât perfect, but it was something. Heâd move mountains for you if he had to. And if this half-assed prom was the closest he could get, then so be it.
Mark claps a hand on his shoulder, jolting him out of his thoughts. âHey,â he says, softer now. âSheâs gonna love it, dude. Stop stressing out.â
Hyuck nods, swallowing hard. âYeah.â

Your boyfriendâs acting weird. Well, weirder than usual.
Hyuckâs always been a little oddâbut thatâs one of the things you love about him. The endless hobbies he picks up and abandons in a week like juggling, the random facts he collects from late-night YouTube rabbit holes, and his never-ending need to one-up his friends in bets and challenges. But this? This feels different. Like itâs more than some dumb dare or fleeting obsession.
For the past two days, heâs been unusually secretive. Youâve caught him whispering with Mark on the phone more than once, his voice dropping to a conspiratorial hush whenever youâd walk into the room. And then there was yesterdayâwhen you brought coffee to his rehearsal. You barely stepped inside before the entire group went awkwardly silent, and Hyuck practically herded you back out the door. Hyuck, who usually couldnât keep his hands off you in public and loved showing you off, suddenly turning shyâŠsuspicious doesnât even begin to cover it.
And letâs not forget the disappearing act last night. He came home late, shrugging off your questions with a grin and the vague excuse of âguy stuff.â Guy stuff. That was the moment you knew something was up.
And so, youâve been sitting on the couch, stewing, waiting for him to get home from rehearsal. The seconds drag, and with each passing minute, your frustration builds. By the time you hear the jingle of his keys in the door, youâre ready to burst.
Hyuck stumbles in, his hair slightly mussed, a garment bag slung over his shoulder. He looks exhausted but excited, strange. He barely gets a foot inside before youâre on him.
âAre you cheating on me?â
His jaw drops, the grin on his face disappearing instantly, eyes blinking at you like youâve just accused him of arson. Youâd honestly prefer it if he had. âWhat?! No! Why would you evenâwhat the fuck?â
âYouâve been acting so weird!â you snap, crossing your arms. âThe sneaky phone calls, the late nights, the whispering, the weird excusesâguy stuff? Do you think I was born yesterday?â
That makes him laugh and you swear you see red. He thinks this is funny? Youâll show him funny.Â
âIf you wanted to break up with me, Hyuck, donât insult me by sneaking around! Justâjust tell me to my face!â Your voice wavers, hurt bubbling in your throat as you glare at him.
Hyuckâs expression softens instantly, his eyebrows furrowing. âHey, hey, waitâbabe, no. Thatâs not whatâs happening here, I swear.â
You narrow your eyes, pointing at the garment bag. âOh yeah? Whatâs that, then? Some outfit for your other girlfriend?â
His mouth drops open, and then he barks out a laugh, though he quickly smothers it when he sees your glare. âNo! Oh my God, no. Look, just⊠this isnât how I wanted to do this,â he pinches his temples âCould you just go upstairs and put this on, okay?â He holds the bag out to you, practically shoving it into your hands.
âExcuse me?â you quirk an eyebrow.
âJustâtrust me, babe. Please. Go upstairs, put this on, and come back down when youâre ready.â
You stand there, staring at him like heâs lost his mind. Because he must have. âHyuck, I am notââ
âPlease,â he interrupts, his voice softer now. âJust this once. Do this for me. Itâll all make sense.â
His eyes meet yours, and for all the frustration boiling under your skin, you canât ignore the quiet sincerity in his voice. Because even though his recent actions have been enough to make your paranoia spike, heâs still your Hyuckâand you trust your Hyuck.
With a sharp huff, you snatch the garment bag from his hands and stomp upstairs, slamming the bedroom door behind you before he can say another word. Your pulse is racing, irritation curling hot in your chest as you yank the zipper down and pull the dress out with more force than necessary.
Itâs beautiful. And that pisses you off even more.
Who does he think he is? Sneaking around all week, ignoring you for days, then showing up with a pretty dress and expecting you to put it on without question?
Annoying. Heâs so annoying.
Still scowling, you step into the dress, the silky fabric gliding over your skin like it was made for you, and knowing Hyuck heâd probably ask someone to do that for him. It fits perfectly, hugging every curve, and when you catch your reflection in the mirror, your anger stuttersâjust for a second. Itâs beautiful. You look beautiful.
Damn it.
You swipe at your eyes before anything ridiculous like tears can form and square your shoulders. Fine. Youâll wear the dress. But youâre not going to let him off the hook so easily. Throwing the door open, you march downstairs, irritation simmering beneath the surface of your foundation. âLee Donghyuck, you betterââ
But you freeze.
Because heâs standing at the bottom of the steps in an equally beautiful suit, rocking on his heels, with a small, nervous smile playing on his lips. Heâs holding a corsage in his handsâdelicate flowers wrapped in silk, matching your dress perfectly.
And then, all at once, it clicks.
That fucking yearbook you found. The conversation that came after it. The sneaking around. The secrecy.Â
Your breath catches in your throat, warmth creeping up your neck as a blush dusts his skin. He chews his lip, eyes flickering up to meet yours, and if you didnât know him any better, youâd swear he was nervous.
Hyuck never gets nervous.
âDo you wanna rewrite prom with me?â
And just like that, you break.
Tears slip down your cheeks before you can stop them, and Hyuckâs smile falters just slightly as he steps forward, hand reaching out to you, as if heâs ready to catch you, to hold you close, if you were to fall. But you donât fall. You just nod, because it feels impossible to do anything else.
How could you say no to him? How could you possibly deny the one person in the world who would do something like this for youânot because he had to, but because he wanted to, because he loves you to a point you never thought possible because he needs you to be happy.
âI love you,â you choke out through your happy tears, the words tumbling from your lips before you can stop them.
Hyuckâs worry shifts into something warmer, something softer. He steps closer, brushing his thumb gently against your cheek to wipe away the tear.
âDoes that mean weâre not breaking up, then?â His voice is teasing, but thereâs a tenderness underneath, a soft hope in his eyes that mirrors the love you just confessed.
Your heart skips a beat, and you nod through blurry eyes, a small smile breaking through. âNot even close.â
His face splits into the brightest grin youâve ever seen, and before you can say anything else, heâs pulling you into his arms, rocking you side to side like heâs never going to let go. Itâs overwhelmingâthe warmth of him, the scent of his cologne, the steady beat of his heart against your ear. And for once, you let yourself lean into it, let yourself feel just how much he loves you, because God, does he know how to show it.
âI love you too, you know,â he murmurs, voice quieter now, meant just for you. âLike, stupidly. Like, Iâm gonna remind you every day until youâre sick of me, because I never want you to think Iâm cheating on you ever again.â
You huff a laugh, sniffling. âI donât think I could ever be sick of you.â
âMm, weâll see about that.â He pulls back just enough to look at you, taking in the glassiness in your eyes, the heat in your cheeks. Then, with a smirk, he presses the corsage into your hands. âYour favourite colour.â
âNow,â he says, stepping back and offering his arm, âif we donât leave soon, Mark might actually rip my balls off.â
It takes you a second to register what he means, and when you glance past him, you see Mark leaning against his car, arms crossed, exuding pure suffering. He looks like heâd rather be anywhere but here, but you know your Hyuck can be very convincing.Â
âAre you two done?â Mark calls, exasperated. âBecause I have better things to do than play chauffeur for your little rom-com tonight.â
âLiar!â Hyuck yells, dragging you toward the car. âIf you werenât here, youâd be playing video games with Chenle or something. Your life is boring and bitchless!â
Mark groans but doesnât deny it.
âWait! One more thing,â Hyuck gasps, stopping you just as youâre about to step into the car. Before you can question it, heâs already sprinting back inside. A few seconds later, he bursts through the door, holding up a letterman jacket that doesnât match your old schoolâs colours, but his.Â
And when he drapes it over your shoulders, his fingers lingering just a little longer than necessary, his gaze catches on his surname stitched across your back. His cheeks flush that familiar shade of pink, and for once, heâs the one left speechless.
You clutch your hands to the jacket, making sure it doesnât fall off and you canât stop smiling. Because even though he was just being a fouled-mouthed menace to his friend. Heâs clearly only ever sweet and soft with you. Hyuck opens the car door for you and he slides in beside you, lacing his fingers through yours like itâs second nature, like they belong. You look down at your joined hands, his thumb stroking slow circles against your skin, and warmth blooms in your chest.
The corsage, the letterman, the chauffeur to prom. Itâs silly. Itâs cheesy. Itâs the kind of thing you used to roll your eyes at in movies as a teenager. But right now, with him, you wouldnât trade it for the world. Because heâs rewriting how you feel about the cheesy stuff, giving you the giddy, reckless kind of love you never got to have.Â
Letting his hand rest on your thigh, making you stifle your sighs as it slowly crept up your flesh. His touch is heedless and uncaring as if Mark wasnât inches away in the front seat. Itâs compulsive, carless, and so ridiculously juvenileâitâs so high school.
Which feels very on-brand as you pull up to an old brick building. Mark cuts the engine, allowing Hyuck to round the car and open your car door before holding your hand tight and walking you towards the football field.
So many memories flooded back to you as soon as he opened the gate that led to the field. Heels on the grass, on the sacred sanctuary you never had the chance to belong on. Suddenly youâre sixteen again and Hyuck leds you over to the bleachers, climbing up several rows before taking a seat and pulling you down next to him.Â
"Are we trespassing right now?" you ask, slipping your arms into his letterman to ward off the winter chill. "I know you love me, but you donât have to commit a crime for me."
Hyuck scoffs, a playful smirk on his lips. "Please, you know I wouldnât think twice about committing a crime for you if you asked me to." He pauses, then adds, "But no, weâre not trespassing. This is my old high school, and since I'm such an outstanding alumni, I had some strings pulled. They left me the key for tonight."
You roll your eyes, trying to hide your smile. "So they did all this just for you, huh?"
âDonât look at me like that, this is for us.â
"Uh-huh," you tease. "I must say, knowing how to ball in high school seems to have its perks. I was in the wrong clubs clearly. Youâre basically the only person I know who managed to continue peaking after high school."
Hyuckâs smile falters, a flicker of something sad crossing his face. His eyes drift downward, and you catch that same troubled look he had when you found his yearbookâwhen he learned how different your high school experiences were. You donât want him to feel like that, not when heâs trying so hard to fix it. But you donât want him to fix it either, because as messed up as your teenage years were, they led you to him. No oneâs ever had you. Not like him anyway.Â
You slide your hand over his, squeezing gently as you move closer. âYou didnât have to do all this for me, you know?â
Hyuck chuckles, that flicker of sadness vanishing as quickly as it came. âDonât say that. You havenât even seen what Iâve got planned inside yet. I had all the boys stressed over fairy lights and balloons all week.â
Knowing how much effort heâs put in makes you smile, your fingers drifting up to trace the curve of his cheek. Heâs so beautiful. So in love. So undeniably yours.
âIâm excited to see it,â you say. âBut right now, I just want to be here. Is that okay? I never really got to hang out on the bleachers.â
âWill you yell at me if I say that a sick part of me loves that you never cheered for other guys playing football?â
You shake your head with a smile. âYouâre ridiculous.â
âIâm just saying,â he continues, undeterred. âYeah, I wanna kill those assholes for never inviting you to a game, for not taking you to prom. But I also love that I get to be the one to do it with you. Even if weâre adults.â
You bite your lip, feigning hesitation. âWell, I have some information I think you might like.â
Hyuck raises a brow. âOh?â
âI always wanted to make out under the bleachers,â you admit, heat creeping up your neck. âCall me clichĂ©, but when I was a freshman, I imagined having my first kiss with Lee Felix under there.â
His nose crinkles instantly. âI donât know who that is, but I hate him.â Hyuck scoffs, but his hands are already sliding around your waist, pulling you closer. âStill⊠this night is about me making your fantasies come true. So fuck that guy and let me kiss you, baby.â
And you doâlet his lips capture yours, kissing you until theyâre swollen and puffy, until they mould perfectly to his, like they were always meant to. Until thereâs no doubt that they, and you, belong to him.
Hyuck wastes no time, scooping you into his arms with ease, carrying you into the shadows beneath the rickety metal frame. And then his lips are on yours againâhungry, unrelenting. Itâs everything you ever imagined. Noâbetter. Because itâs him and you.Â
His hand trails up your body as he presses you against one of the cold metal pillars, calloused fingers graze your thigh, leaving goosebumps in their wake. Years of football have roughened his touch, but itâs the way he holds youâlike he canât get enough, like he never willâthat really makes your breath hitch. And you almost want to laugh, because youâre pretty sure most people fuck after prom, not before it. But this is you and Hyuck. Youâve never played by the rules, never followed the scripted path. You never wanted to.
And thatâs exactly why a soft, desperate âPlease,â slips from your lips as his fingers venture higher, until theyâre brushing against the hem of your panties.
âCute,â he smiles and murmurs against your lips, grinning as his fingers slip beneath the fabric, his cool touch grazing your clit. You shiver, and it only makes him that more pleasedâmore proud. His other hand glides up your stomach, sneaking beneath your dress until heâs palming your breast, his thumb teasing over your nipple.
âYou knowâŠâ he muses, voice dripping with amusement, âI paid good money for this dress. Itâd be a shame to ruin it.â
âPlease. Youâd never buy me a dress you didnât plan on ruining.â
Hyuck giggles, shaking his head, but before you can run that smart mouth of yours again, his finger slips so easily into your pussy, and you gasp, clinging to his shoulders.
âFuck,â he breathes against your ear, voice thick with need. âI love that you know me so well.â
His fingers keep working you, desperate and wildâbecause if you know Hyuck so well, he knows you even better. Knows your body like itâs his to worship. And when he adds a second finger, stretching you open, pleasure floods through you so intensely your eyes flutter shut, your head tipping back as a moan catches in your throat.
But that wonât do.
Hyuck likes to watch you. Likes to see the way your lips part, the way your brows knit together, the way your pupils blow wide with nothing but him. He wants you to knowâno, needs you to knowâthat heâs the one making you feel this good. That itâs his touch unravelling you, his name you should be thinking about, whimpering, crying out.
So the second your lashes flicker, his fingers slow, teasing, withholding. You whimper, forced to open your eyes again, hazy and weakâjust the way he likes themâjust the way he needs them to be before he picks up his pace.
Heâs meticulous, carefulâdetermined to make you cum right here, right now. If your fantasy was just to make out under the bleachers, Hyuck is going to take it further, push it past anything you ever imagined. Heâs going to make you cum here, again and again, until this moment is burned into your memory. Until you can never think about high school, about this field, about these bleachers, without thinking about him. About the way he touched you. About the way he made it perfect. He always makes everything perfect.Â
âNeed you to cum all over my fingers, pretty girl. Come on,â he murmurs, pinching your clit as he tries to coax an orgasm out of you. And it doesnât take long. The honeyed rasp of his voice, the relentless rhythm of his fingers, the way his eyes stay locked on yoursâitâs all too much. You shatter around him with a high-pitched moan.
âAtta girl,â he breathes, watching you with nothing but admiration. âSo fucking pretty when you cum for me.â
Your mind is fuzzy, his words melting into white noise as you come down from your high on shaky legs. If it werenât for the pillar at your back, youâre certain youâd be a puddle on the floor. Hyuck holds you close, his hand stroking your hair as he murmurs soft praises against your earâsomething about being so pretty, so good, so his. But all you can focus on is the growing bulge in his pants, the evidence of just how much he wants you. A bulge you put there. One youâre aching to take care of.
You start to drop to your knees, and he sucks in a breath, his eyes locked on yours.
âStop,â he commands harshly, stepping back as if somethingâs shifted. It forces you to stand up straight again, confusion crossing your face.
âDonât you want me toââ
âOh, I fucking want you to, and youâre going to,â he growls. Then, he peels off his suit jacket and drapes it on the concrete floor between you two. âNow, you can get on your knees for me, Y/N,â he orders, his voice rough and commanding, but then it cracks, desperately. âPlease.â
You lower yourself onto his suit jacket, kneeling before him, palms pressing firmly against his thighs. His erection is hard, straining through his suit pants, but heâs waitedâwaited until he knew youâd be most comfortable because thatâs just who he is.Â
âLook at you,â he says, running his thumb over your mouth. âPuffy lips parted and ready for me. Big fucking eyes, so innocent, so needy.â
âOnly for you, Hyuck,â you breathe softly as you start undoing his belt and his jaw visibly ticks.
Youâve sucked his cock beforeâof course you have, and you love it. And still, he looks at you like itâs the first time, nostrils flaring, pupils dilated, as he drinks in every detail of your eagerness. Heâs so hungry to feel you, to get lost in youâso feral.
Using his forefinger, he lifts your chin, forcing your chin and attention on him. âI know, baby. Only me. Always me.â
You run your tongue over your lower lip, and he tracks the entire thing, looking like some kind of predator.
âTake it out.â
You comply, dropping his pants to his ankles and tugging his boxer briefs down with them. His cock springs free, angry veins visible and the tip glistening. The sight of his straining cock right in front of you pulls this desperate sound from deep in his throat. He traces every inch of your face as if he plans to paint it soon, and youâd let him.
His palm glides over your head again, fingers weaving through your hair, cupping the back of your skull to keep you anchored in place. Rough and dominantâjust how he likes it, and just how you crave it.
âI need to fuck your mouth, baby. Seeing you cum in my letterman has got me so damn hard. I need this pretty mouth,â he whimpers as his palm rests on your scalp. âYouâre gonna let me do that arenât you? Because youâre such a good fucking girl.â
You nod and squirm in anticipation, using the tip of your tongue to lick a path over his slit, savouring the salty taste from the bead of precum. His eyes instantly roll back and you grip his shaft with one hand and lick a path from root to tip.
âMmm,â he hums. âJust like that,â he hisses between his teeth as his entire body vibrates.
You look up at him, fluttering your lashes over heavy eyes. Because the only thing Hyuck craves more than his own pleasure is the sight of yours. You round your lips, sucking him in slowly. Your head bobs as you work your tongue in sync with your lips, but heâs so big, a fact youâll never get used to. He hits the back of your throat and you hold him there, swallowing around his tip, tears welling at the corners of your eyes as your throat tightens with a gentle choke.
"Fuckâ" He lurches forward, one hand gripping the pillar for support while the other tugs at your hair, pulling you off him just long enough to catch your breathâbecause he's nothing if not considerate.
Hyuck runs his thumb by the corner of your eye, gathering the moisture that pooled there.
âIâm ruining your makeup,â he muses, lips curling into a smirk. âI had prom pictures planned.â
A blush creeps on your cheeks, âWe donât have to take them.â
âWeâre taking them.â Thereâs no question in his tone. Itâs simply a statement. A demand. âThen Iâm keeping a copy in my wallet, so next time Iâm on tour, fisting my cock, I can think about you. About this."
You nod, breath hitching. "O-okay."
"Okay." His thumb drags over your lip again, teasing until you part for him, wrapping around it. He presses down, tugging lightly. "So agreeable. So obedient. Arenât you?"
"Yes," you breathe.
His smirk deepens. "Good. So you'll keep sucking my cock, won't you?"
You donât even bother with wordsâtoo eager to please, too determined to finish what you started. Your fingers wrap around him, stroking once before you take him back into your mouth, sucking deep before pulling off with a lewd pop. Then you do it again, following his cues, giving him exactly what you know he loves. A slow flick of your tongue along the underside of his head, a firm squeeze as you cup his balls, and then youâre taking him to the back of your throat. His entire abdomen tenses. His breathing turns ragged.
"Fuck." His curse is sharp as he pulls back, just enough to look at you. "Iâm gonna cum. You gonna let me cum in your mouth, baby?"
You nod eagerly, mascara streaking your cheeks, spit glistening at the corner of your lips. "Please, Hyuck."
His smirk is wicked. "Are you gonna be a good little girlfriend and swallow it all for me?"
You nodâfar too enthusiastically.
"Good. Now, take a deep breath, babyâ'cause itâs the last one youâre getting for a while."
He runs a gentle thumb over your cheekbone before guiding your head forward. Your lips part instinctively, wrapping around him as he sets the pace, fucking your mouth with a steady rhythm. His palms cover your ears, his hips roll with precisionânothing but pure pleasure as he chases his high. And you let him. You take it, let him use you because heâs done all of this for you tonight. Because he deserves his reward.
Truthfully, watching Hyuck unravel beneath youâknowing youâre the one making him this needy, this desperate to cumâis your own reward. Because seeing him lost in pure bliss is the hottest thing youâve ever witnessed.
Your fingernails dig into his skin, leaving faint crescents as he keeps his paceâsteady, deliberateâbut always mindful, always making sure you can breathe. He checks in with his eyes, just like you saidâconsiderate.
You moan around his length, hips shifting instinctively, searching for friction. And of course, Hyuck notices. He always notices.
"Are you getting turned on from sucking me off, Y/N?" he taunts, through a tight restraint breath. "So wet, even after I already made you cum." He pulls out of your mouth, gaze dark. "Show me. Show me how wet sucking my cock has made you.â
Heat prickles your skin as you reach under your dress, the one he bought, and gather your arousal on two fingers. You bring them up, letting him see the proof, the evidence of just how much you want him.
âFuck,â he growls, as deep brown eyes turn black as they lock on your fingers. âSo fucking obedient.âÂ
Hyuck leans in, grasping your wrist before guiding your fingers into his mouth. His tongue flicks over the tips, slow and careful, savouring the tasteâthe proof of how badly heâs wrecked you. Of how much you like him, love him.Â
He nods toward his cock, covered in your saliva, hard and twitching, ready to cum. "Make me cum, baby. Please."
You hold his eye contact, grip his cock, and bring your mouth back to cover him. He moans, head falling back, and you work his length with your mouth and hand, doing your best to take what you canât handle. It doesnât take long until his hips jerk in short, sloppy movements. His breath comes out in ragged gasps, moans soft but pitched, the sound of him unravelling.
âY/N,â he cries out your name in a whimper of desperation. One hand finds yours, holding it tenderly, while the other braces on the pillar behind you. Then, he cumsâhard.
He tries to keep his eyes locked on yours, because thatâs his favourite part, but the sensation overwhelms him, and he has to shut them. Every muscle in his body tightens as hot, forceful pulses hit the back of your throat.
âSo pretty like this,â he pants breathlessly. âMouth full of my cum.â The pad of his thumb traces down the line of your throat. âYouâre gonna swallow it, arenât you?â
Itâs not a question, and you donât hesitate. You swallow all of him, but itâs not enough. You need moreâneed him inside of you.
âFuck me, please, Hyuck.â
He shakes his head, a teasing smile tugging at his lips and then he laughs. He uses the hand heâs had entangled with yours to pull you up to your feet, steadying you gently. âI canât. Not here.â
You pout, disappointed, your body aching for him. âWhy not?â
His smile widens as he adjusts your dress, pulling the fabric down to cover you properly, the moment feeling suddenly too sweet considering he was just fucking your throat.
âBecause,â he draws out playfully, âI planned a prom, and like all cheesy teenagers, I donât plan to fuck you here.â
You quirk a brow, crossing your arms across your body. But before you can say anything, Hyuck fumbles with his suit jacket, dropping to the floor to search the pockets. His hands hover for a second before he pulls out a room key, holding it up like some kind of trophy.
You scoff with a mix of amusement and disbelief. âVery clichĂ©.â
He grins at you. âI think we have pictures to take.â
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