#angst too

[fuckingstrange]

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Get Better Soon

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WARNINGS: Sad Spencer Reid, Mention of Suicidal Thoughts, Spencer wants to khs, Supportive Reader, Non-sexual cuddling, Depression/Feeling low, (like really low), pet names (baby), non-beta read

WORDS: 510

PAIRING: Spencer Reid x gn!reader

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★ a/n - Wrote this in under fucking twenty mins let's goooo

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Spencer lays in bed, his body weighed down with the sudden wave of depression that's hit him. He's been stuck in bed for a few days, not even sleeping, just lying there. He hasn't got up to shower, or to eat, and you can't help but worry. You've tried your hardest to pull him out of this slump, get him out to do things, even just spend an hour or two at the bureau with you while you work.

But, you've come to realize, he just needs somebody to be there for him. Not push him to be productive.

You lie in bed beside Spencer, his head resting on your chest as your fingers card through his slightly greasy hair. His head turns up to look at you, his eyes reflectionless as they gaze up at you. You let out a quiet sigh and kiss his forehead before adjusting yourself to rest yours on his, whispering “You'll be alright, Spencer.”

You can hear him swallow thickly, his lips parting a bit as he lets out a quiet breath before responding “It.. It surely doesn't feel like that.” The corners of your lips fall into a frown, your hand tightening it's grip on his hair as it stops stroking for now. “I'm here for you, you know that, right?..” You start, pausing for a second before deciding to ask, “What's going on in that heavy mind of yours?” In the most gentle, non-judgemental tone you can muster.

Spencer hesitates, his hand moving to rest on your hip as tears well in his eyes, the sight of his deep, doe eyes wettening like that making your heart break. “I don't.. I-I don't feel so.. well.” He tries to explain, sniffling a bit and letting out a shaky breath. Opening up is always so hard for him, especially when it comes to anything emotional. You grow confused for a few seconds before it finally clicks.

“Oh.. Oh, spencer..” You breathe, cupping his jaw to pull his face up to meet yours, your eyes full of worry and his full of tears. “I don't wanna do this anymore.” He sobs, whimpering out a pitiful “I can't take it.”

You pull him close, unable to stop the bit of tears that spring into your own eyes at the realization of just how bad Spencer's been feeling, how he's gotten so low without you realizing it is heartbreaking. You could tell he was feeling down, but you surely couldn't tell he was thinking about killing himself. Spencer cries into your chest, his grip on your hip tightening to a bruising level.

“Shh.. shh, I'm here.. I'm here, baby. I'll make sure you start feeling better soon, I'll be there with you as long as it takes to get better, Spencer.” You promise him, nuzzling your face into the top of his head and holding him even tighter, wanting to show him you're truly there to help and take care of him. His grip on you holds a silent beg, an unspoken plea.

“Please, don't leave me.”

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★ a/n - this is implied m!reader + no beta read but like

[blackypanther9]

Uncle x Papa – Nephew!Kid!Lloyd x Adopted Son!Morro x Father!Uncle!Male!Reader (Ninjago)

Part 1

Ninjago Oneshot ! What if Garmadon and Wu had a Brother and while Wu stopped all contact with him, for unknown reasons, Garmadon kept up their contact and told him that he was an Uncle ? What if Morro never died in the Caves of Despair ? What if Lloyd was for a bit in the boarding school and then M/n with Morro collected him ? Well, let us find out ! By the was this is NOT canon !

WARNING!: Multiple Chapters, Angst, mention of abandonment, Morro has anger issues, we all know it, mention of fighting, mention of close to death encounter, blood x gore, injuries AND MORE ! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED !!!

Misako abandoned Garmadon and Lloyd and Garmadon never understood why. He couldn’t tell Wu about it, Wu was the LAST person he wanted to tell this. So he did, what he thought, he will never do. He searched his older Brother, M/n. As soon as M/n was old enough, he left the Monastery and lived on his own.

Wu refused to stay in contact with him, because he never helped them in anything. The war against the Serpentines he didn’t help, the war against the Time Twins...M/n NEVER helped. Wu hated him for that, partly.

Garmadon had no address to keep in touch with his older Brother, otherwise he would have written with him so much. He looked up to M/n a lot. He wanted to be just like him when he was older.

Who would have thought, that Garmadon would find M/n, on an Island, in the middle of nowhere ? He knocked on the door, Baby Lloyd tightly and thickly wrapped in a bundle and close to Garmadon’s chest. He was shivering himself, while Lloyd was asleep and very warm, hopefully...

The door opened and there M/n stood. He stared at Garmadon in utter surprise and shock.

“Garmadon ?”, M/n asked.

“Heh...Finally found you, Bubba.”, Garmadon greeted softly.

M/n looked at him and saw him shivering and holding a bundle in his arms.

“You must be freezing. Come inside and tell me, why you bothered to search for me.”

M/n made the way free and let Garmadon enter. He thanked M/n and entered, who closed the door behind him after. He led him to the Living room and Garmadon sat down.

“Do you want some hot chocolate ? Tea ? Anything ?”, M/n asked.

“Do...do you have hot chocolate and some milk, to warm up ?”, Garmadon asked.

“Milk...to warm up...?”

Garmadon gave him a sad smile and showed him the bundle he held. M/n’s eyes widened, in shock, as he stared at the face, of a sleeping Baby.

“Are they yours ?”, he asked.

“His name is Lloyd and yes, he is my Son. I married the Love of my Life, Misako. I think you remember how in love I was with her.”

M/n nodded and screwed his face up in distaste.

“I never understood what you saw in her. She seemed to act sweet and innocent, but I tell you, she seemed like she only pretended, to me.”, M/n said.

“I...I guess you were right...”

“Huh ? What do you mean ?”

“After a while, when we had Lloyd, she...she left. No note, no Goodbye...she just left us both.”, Garmadon said with tears in his eyes.

“So...Lloyd is Motherless ?”

“Yes.”

“How long was that ago ?”

“A week. She usually always tells me when she has to go for a while, but this time...there was nothing...”

M/n balled his hands into fists and scoffed angered.

“I knew it.”

Then he left the room and got to warming up some milk and making a hot chocolate.

“I don’t have a Baby bottle though.”, M/n called from his kitchen.

“I have one. The milk is just frozen...”, Garmadon replied.

M/n entered the Living room again and held his hand out.

“Bottle, little Brother.”

Garmadon set Lloyd down on the couch and pulled out the bottle from his backpack. M/n took it and left the room again. He let hot water inside the sink in the kitchen and put the baby bottle into it.

He watched the milk and after a few minutes, he had it on a very low flame, it was done. In the meantime the milk thawed inside the bottle and M/n cleaned it out. He filled the milk into the bottle and then shook it slightly, while he also balanced the Hot chocolate into the Living room.

“The milk is still a bit too warm, but I at least didn’t burn it.”, M/n said softly.

“Thank you.”, Garmadon replied.

M/n then looked at Lloyd again and saw that he was too warm, he started to fuss around.

“He is too hot.”, M/n informed Garmadon.

He looked at Lloyd and quickly took off some layers that kept him warm.

“So sorry, Baby. I forgot. Please forgive me.”, he said softly.

“You can also take off your clothes, Garmadon. I don’t think a thick jacket, shawl, hat and a pair of gloves, inside a well climated house, is comfortable.”

Garmadon blushed in embarrassment and took off his own clothes too.

“Sorry... I didn’t know if you would...you know...help me.”, he said softly.

M/n looked at Garmadon with softness in his eyes.

“Garmadon, you put so much effort into finding me, I would never throw you out after you finally found me. I’m sorry that I left and didn’t leave you any hints or addresses to my location, but honestly ? I didn’t think any of you two would come looking for me at all. I...wasn’t the best Brother the last few years.”

Garmadon looked at M/n with big eyes.

“You weren’t a bad Brother ! I know that Wu said you were, because of things you two never told me about, but he is lying ! He was angry and he regretted everything he said to you as you announced that you will move out.”

M/n shook his head.

“No. Don’t try to lie for Wu. I was a bad Brother. I let you train with Chen and Clouse. I knew they were a bad influence and I still didn’t take you away from them. I let Wu...never mind...”, M/n cut himself off.

“What did Wu do ?”, Garmadon asked.

M/n took a deep breath.

“Wu took in a homeless child. He trained him too. After we found out that Morro had the Elemental Powers of Wind, Wu was determined that he was the Green Ninja. Morro became obsessed with it. He got very easily angered, he wasn’t very kind and patient anymore either. Wu corrupted him, without meaning to. I told him to not tell the Kid about that, but he insisted and I tried to keep the boy stable. One day, he just left and never came back. Wu and him found out that he wasn’t the Chosen One and Wu refused to keep going with him, so he left and said he will prove that he is worth it. He blamed me for all of that since and we argued a lot.”

Garmadon stared at him with wide eyes.

“But WU did that mistake. Not you !”

“He still blamed me for what happened to his and Morro’s relationship. These two were like Father and Son, until he dropped the bomb of the Green Ninja. We also grew apart since that day and that was why I left. He kept blaming me each and every single day for that and I had enough.”

“I want to find Morro.”, Garmadon said.

“Who knows, if he is still alive, Garmadon.”

“Let us look for him ! At least WE care, right ?!”

M/n looked at Garmadon and then at Lloyd.

“You have a Son, Brother.”

“So what ? I will still have him ! We are just looking around for him.”

M/n sighed and nodded. He took Garmadon’s hand, grabbed the baby bottle and Garmadon had Lloyd in his arm. Then they teleported, to the Caves of Despair. Garmadon looked at M/n in confusion.

“Why are we here ?”

“It is one of the very few places, where I would bet my limbs, that Morro would be looking.”

With that they entered a cave and it seemed warm and sealed off.

“HELP ! HELP ME ! I’M STUCK ! HELLO ?!”, someone screamed.

Garmadon and M/n froze up.

“Morro...”, M/n whispered.

He ran to the blocked off ending and looked through a small gap.

“MORRO ?! IS THAT YOU ?!”, he yelled.

“M/N ?! HELP ! PLEASE HELP ME ! I DON’T WANNA DIE !”, Morro screamed scared.

M/n felt his heart skip a beat. He looked at Garmadon.

“Get out of here, I will break down the barrier ! Keep the Kid away !”

Garmadon nodded and ran out.

“MORRO STEP ASIDE FROM THE EXIT !”

He did so and yelled that he was out of the way. M/n took a few steps back and then ran at the wall. He did that three more times and then the stones fell and rolled out of the way. Morro was sweating terribly.

“MORRO ! JUMP AND GRAB MY HAND ! QUICK !”, M/n yelled.

He stretched his hand out and waited. Morro jumped and snatched M/n’s hand tightly, M/n pulled him out quickly and he carried him out of the Caves and to fresh air. Then he checked Morro for any injuries.

“Are you alright ?! What the hell were you thinking ?! If we wouldn’t have looked for you, you would have been nothing but bones ! No more hunting for impossible graves and treasures, for some stupid title, got it ?!”, M/n yelled at Morro, angered.

Morro nodded quickly. He hated M/n’s anger directed at him. It scared him.

“Good. You will live with me, Morro. You are NOT allowed to talk about the Green Ninja EVER again. I hear that coming out of your mouth, I will do more, than just put you into the Time Out corner.”

Morro nodded again.

With that, M/n teleported them back to his own house. He sat Morro down on the couch and then left to make some food in the kitchen. Morro then looked at Garmadon and his Son.

“Who are you two ?”, Morro asked softly.

“I am Garmadon, Wu’s Brother. This is my Son, Lloyd.”

Morro looked at them and nodded.

“I’m Morro. Nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you too, Morro.”

Then Lloyd woke up, fussed and started crying. Garmadon looked at his Son and instantly took the Baby bottle, M/n placed back on the table. He tested the temperature of the milk and deemed it okay. He started to feed Lloyd, who eagerly sucked from the bottle, looking at his Father with big green orbs.

Morro watched them and he felt jealous. His parents didn’t do that with him. His parents abandoned him... Then something clicked in his brain.

“Where is his Mom ?”, he asked.

Garmadon froze up.

“She...she left us.”, he answered softly.

“She...died ?”, Morro asked softly.

“No. She left one day and didn’t come back since. She abandoned us.”

Morro’s eyes widened and he stared at Lloyd. So, one of his parents also abandoned him. Now he could only feel sad for Lloyd.

M/n came back with microwaved food. He put it in front of Garmadon and Morro.

“I know it is only some baguettes with herb butter as a filling, but that is all I could make right now. Is Lloyd drinking ?”

“Thank you and yes, he is drinking.”

“Don’t forget to burp him after, Brother.”, M/n reminded.

“I won’t.”

“So you, Sensei Wu and M/n are Brothers ?”, Morro asked.

“We are, but I don’t like Wu all that much.”, M/n answered.

“Why ?”, he asked.

“He blamed me for his mistakes with you. He made you obsessed with something that you are NOT. I do not doubt you to be someone great, Morro, but the Green Ninja title, is more than just a name. It screams a lot of problems, possible death and worse danger. Even if you would have been the Green Ninja, you could have been easily corrupted. Be happy with the Element Wind that you have. It is very powerful and dangerous on its own.”, M/n said.

Morro stared at M/n in shock.

“He...blamed YOU for everything ?”

“He did. One of the few reasons I moved out.”

Morro seemed to get angry.

“What about Lloyd ? His Nephew ?”, Morro asked, with a bit of bite in his voice.

Garmadon looked away.

“Let us just say...he doesn’t have the time to see him.”

“So he abandons his own NEPHEW too ?!”, Morro yelled in anger.

That made Lloyd cry. Morro’s eyes widened in surprise and he looked at Lloyd with soft eyes. He didn’t mean to spook him.

“I-I’m sorry... I didn’t mean to scare him...”, Morro said with a stutter.

Garmadon looked at Morro, while he calmed down Lloyd.

“It’s fine. Just be careful around him. Babies get easily startled.”

Morro looked at Garmadon.

“I will be careful next time. M/n ?”

“Yes, Morro ?”

“Can you adopt me ? I wanna be Lloyd’s cousin. I wanna help taking care of him !”

M/n and Garmadon stared at Morro in surprise.

“What ?”, he asked in shock, his brain not catching up.

“I wanna help you with Lloyd ! I want to keep him save and be there for him when he needs someone.”

Garmadon looked at M/n and chuckled. His big Brother was nervous and excited to adopt Morro.

“Uhm...”, he said stunned.

“He will adopt you. His brain needs time to catch on.”, Garmadon told Morro.

Morro smiled at Garmadon.

“I know. He had those moments a few times near me. Honestly it is so funny when you catch him off guard. He needs a while to register what is going on after.”, Morro giggled out.

M/n shook his head and slapped his left cheek, to snap out of his stupor.

“Sure. I can adopt you, but then you have to listen to me and to me ONLY. Got it ?”

Morro looked at M/n and nodded eagerly.

“Okay. I will get adoption papers now, you take care of Lloyd and my stupid Brother.”

Garmadon looked at M/n offended.

“Hey !”, he protested.

Morro giggled.

“You can’t deny that you are stupid sometimes, Brother. Remember the prank.”

“From where was I supposed to know that YOU were that GIRL ?!”

“By being perceptive and observing.”

With that M/n left and later on in the day, Morro was officially adopted by M/n.

-Four years later-

M/n went up and down in his house. Garmadon didn’t show up for the last 3 months with Lloyd. Morro was a Teenager with 13 years of age by now and he was getting really uneasy, that both of them didn’t come visit by now.

“Where is Garmadon and where is Lloyd ?”, Morro asked.

“He said he will be with Wu. Wanna check it out ?”, M/n asked.

Morro nodded and they teleported, only to see them both fighting with the Golden Weapons.

“No...”, M/n whispered as he saw Garmadon’s eyes.

“What is going on ?”, Morro asked.

“The poison in Garmadon’s veins...it reached his heart. He is corrupted fully now. Morro...Lloyd won’t have a Dad anymore. The Poison took Lloyd’s Dad away from him. I hoped...I hoped he will have him longer...”

Morro stared at Garmadon in shock and sorrow. They informed him about Garmadon’s condition, but he hoped it would never happen so early, to Lloyd.

“Garmadon ! Don’t !”, Wu yelled.

“He is about to end Wu.”, Morro whispered.

Suddenly a bolt of lightning hit him and Garmadon went black, he stumbled and the Underworld opened. He fell and Wu tried to save him, but was too late.

“NOOOO !”

To be continued....

Masterlist HERE !

[bbbbbbbbatman]

Bruce keeping a tighter and tighter lid on his identity around the Justice League because with each new person to reveal their identity he realizes that he has fucked far too high a percentage of his co workers as Bruce Wayne and he has to take this secret to his grave

[rebisrot]

MY FAVORITE PART ABOUT GRAVITY FALLS IS THE HAPPY ENDING!! STAN REMEMBERS!! FIDDLEFORD FORGIVES!! PACIFICA HAS FRIENDS!! SOOS BECOMES MR. MYSTERY!! THE TWINS HAVE A BANGING BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!! DIPPER GETS A MEMENTO FROM WENDY!! MABEL GETS TO KEEP WADDLES!! STAN AND FORD MAKE UP AND SAIL AWAY ON THE STAN O' WAR II!! THE WORLD ALMOST ENDED!! BUT IT DIDN'T!! AND WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD IT IS!!!!

[mudtrash]

Took a few days but BEHOLD MORE NARI ANGST/WHUMP

Was thinking about trod Narinder being secretly in love with Lamb the whole time and the fact that Narinder most definitely has trust issue and fears of being mortal now

So with those two trains of thought combined, I wanted to explore… other hidden feelings he might have towards the lamb… 👀💧

Eat well, my flock, Cult of Nari Babygirls tm 🤲

[chloesimaginationthings]

The Afton kids deserved better in FNAF..

[frownyalfred]

a random socialite at a fundraiser: you know Bruce, that boy of yours is getting to be a little too pretty. heh.

Bruce Wayne, who was also "too pretty" at fourteen and is absolutely ready to castrate anyone who even looks at Dick directly: oh?

[antiwhores]

You accidentally had sex with Bakugou.

You two had fallen asleep in his room after a hang out. You were bestfriends but you had some underlining feelings for him. So when you woke up in the middle of the night to him cuddling you, you almost choked.

You needed to pee really bad so sadly you had to pry yourself out of his arms. When you came back his eyes were cracked open just barely. He mumbled something before opening his arms for you to join him again.

It was out of character, maybe tired Bakugou was just a touchy guy. It couldn’t be more than that.

So you joined him on the bed. You buried your face into his neck. You had to savor this cause most likely this’ll be the last time this happens. Also, you were too tired to freak out. You just wanted to fall asleep in his arms.

You can barely explain what happened after that. He hiked your leg onto him, still with his half open eyes, and thrusted right against your clothed pussy.

The next thing you know, he’s dry humping you. And then he’s fingering you. And finally he’s fucking you.

It felt good, too good.

But the morning after? You felt embarrassed. No way you just fucked him without even a first date. He’s gonna think you’re easy. He might even tell everyone that you are.

Of course, that would never happen but you were panicked. You couldn’t possibly comprehend that the great Dynamight chose you. You weren’t famous. Not a vogue model, a hero, or even wealthy. You had nothing to give him.

He had to be messing with you.

So you slipped out of his hold at 5am sharp and went home.

You fell back to sleep in tears and woke up to several texts and calls. Good thing you had your ringer off.

Bakugou - 6:34am

Where’d you go?

I was gonna make you breakfast dumbass

Bakugou - 6:52

Y/n?

Missed call - 7:00am

Bakugou - 7:30

Is this about last night?

I’ll wait for that call back so we can talk about it.

Missed call - 10:03am

Bakugou - 10:05

Call me and we can talk about it. This ignoring me isn’t gonna make it go away.

Missed call - 11:12

Missed call - 11:26

Missed call - 11-31

Bakugou - 11:40

Fucking call me back, this shit isn’t funny.

You’re so lucky I don’t know where you live yet. I’d be there in 15 minutes if I knew.

You debated calling him back. But your embarrassment and anger stopped you from letting him explain himself. How could he use your feelings against you like that! He probably knew that you liked him and wanted a quick fuck.

You started to cry all over again.

A week passed by with no contact. He sent you the occasional text telling you to talk to him but after the 6th day he seemed to give up. At least you thought that until he showed up at your door.

You opened the door wide without checking who it was since you were expecting a package. Your eyes widened when you noticed the blonde leaning against the doorframe, still in his hero costume. He must’ve just gotten off work, saving civilians and climbing the charts. It was another reminder of how he could never want you.

“You gonna let me in or am I-“

You tried to slam the door in his face but he shoved it back open easily. He let himself in, scanning the place.

“Nice place, ‘don’t see why you hadn’t invited me over.”

Maybe it’s because your small, cosy apartment didn’t compare to his high rise penthouse at the top floor.

You grabbed his arm and tried to pull him out. But he wasn’t having it and didn’t let you move him an inch.

“You need to leave, Bakugou.”

“Wow. Last name basis and I was inside you a week ago.”

“Yeah well that shouldn’t have happened.”

“Okay but it did so let’s fuckin’ talk about it.”

You just wanted him to leave before you bursted out in tears. You shook your head, trying to pull him harder but to no avail. Your lip quivered in frustration as tears welled up in your eyes.

Suddenly, he threw you over his shoulder and set you on the couch.

“Tell me what’s wrong.”

You broke down in tears.

You told him everything, every assumption you made and every insecurity. You told him how you liked him but you knew he didn’t like you back. He sat there patiently, not speaking a word until you were done.

He got up with a blank face. You thought he was gonna leave at first but he kneeled down to be eye to eye with you.

“Wanna go on a date?”

It surprised you. It was the last thing he expected you to say.

“I’ll take you on a date and prove to you how much I want you. And for the record, I’ve probably liked you longer than you have me. When we met in that coffee shop I immediately knew you were the one I wanted. ‘S rude of you of you to make assumptions but I’ll let it pass if you go on a date with me.”

You agreed as he wiped off your tears. Who were you to say no?

[taikova]

here's some drawings from a "mt washington" -song inspired video project i never finished.

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

[demigods-posts]

as far as everyone was concerned. percy had a year left to live in tbotl. and i know that we didn't see what that like for him because it didn't matter plot-wise. but i would have loved to read it. give me percy who is hardly speaking up at the dinner table. half-asleep and behind on last week's homework. give me percy who is clearly losing the will to live and trudging around the apartment like he doesn't care where his feet takes him. give me percy who is sneaking out of the house and visiting montauk. sitting along the beachside shore. wondering why his only purpose in life is that of a soldier and not of a kid.

[hg-aneh]

rip bozo

[jellymellydraws]

[allykatsart]

The Fall of Joy

Masterpost

An idea that I pray does not happen. I stg Emily better be safe and happy these next two episodes-

Hypothetical Fallen Angel Emily! Because this angst would not leave my brain. It hurts to leave heaven, but she won't be alone. If Emily was cast from heaven, I think the hotel would welcome her with open arms...

Commission me

[violynt-skies]

the parallels of rottmnt.

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the way rottmnt portrays the cycle of sacrifice and generational trauma through the concept of the hamato tradition is so beyond phenomenal it’s really hard to articulate with just words how hard it really hits. there’s so many parallels btwn splinter & his history/family than can be seen within raph & leo that can also almost be translated to f!leo & casey in some ways, not to mention the parallels btwn karai and leo as well.

the way splinter tried SO hard to break from that cycle, the way he saw how it effected his family and himself and didn’t want to put his family through it again yet it seemed to be inevitable regardless. he never wanted to have to choose btwn his family and the world and yet even when he made that choice in S1, in the end he still ended up losing a family member (karai) in exchange for time to save the world.

and even though he tried to break the chain so hard, the cycle of sacrifice was still adopted into raph and leo in different ways which was later passed down to donnie and mikey.

not to mention the future timeline where they ended up losing EVERYBODY and in the end of the movie casey is met with the same choice of the world over family just as many family members before him have.

the sacrificial bone and need to protect is just so ingrained into the entire family, to the point where the same events just seem to happen over and over no matter what is done.

the cycle of love and loss, protection and sacrifice, family vs the world. over and over.

[tennant-davids]

GOOD OMENS 1x02 - 2x06