#anyway y’all can ignore this I’m just venting

[zootopiathingz]

First pic with my dog Bella (seven years ago) vs the last (today)

Had to say goodbye to my sweet angel earlier. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. She got me through some really rough times and I’ll always be grateful that I had her in my life❤️

[giggleesblog]

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[water-fan-art]

I’ve had covid for the last week and I’ve gotta go back to work tomorrow. At the start I joked that I would get so much drawing done, and all I’ve done is this Jasper doing an incorrectly drawn navy salute

[artemisiatridentata]

u know I thought I’d hit rock bottom three years ago when the world shut down and I lost my dream job and my dream life… then last year I regained those things, at least as much as I could wrt covid… and now I feel like I’m losing it all again. I’m drifting apart from everyone I know here bc literally everybody has “moved on” from covid. even the people I consider friends, the ones who know I’m high risk and see me frequently post things basically begging the people around me to wear a mask and take literally any precautions. even my roommates — one of whom was the friend that urged and encouraged me to move back down here in the first place, and who until recently was taking more precautions than anyone I knew (aside from myself) — even they have decided to stop masking and avoiding packed indoor events. my roommates now constantly hang out without me; it’s like they’ve decided I’m not worth being friends with if it means they have to put a piece of fabric on their face when they go to the store or the gym or whatever. it really hurts and I should be used to the feeling by now, given that people have been disregarding my disabilities and deliberately putting me in danger my whole life, but. for some reason the pain has not lessened with the frequency of the blow. anyways the grief is unending fr

[admirableadmiranda]

Hi! While not new to tumblr it’s been quite a while and oh boy, I wasn’t expecting some of the drama that’s been happening all because of people moving from twitter to tumblr. Though I am a jc/xicheng main myself, I’m sorry y’all are having to deal with this.

Personally, I understand not feeling how fanon can change a character. I’ve felt this way about lwj sometimes (some ppl make him care too much about jc that it feels ooc) so I often avoid certain things and that even includes some themes of xicheng that makes wangxian completely different). Ah, I’m saying that gibberish to mean that I can relate to the frustration even if it’s not the same—

You should be allowed to vent and talk about it. You guys created a tag specific to that too and you guys don’t bother other tags either. I don’t see what the issue is personally with that.

Also, just bc I’ve seen this accusation a bit, I don’t think it’s the JC Stans who’ve been on tumblr for quite a while causing the drama so much as it’s those moving from twitter. Even some tumblr Jc fans have said themselves [paraphrased] “they created that tag quite a while ago. Best to just mute the tag and let them be.” Honestly, I didn’t even know that tag existed until people started pointing it out. If you’re in the general Jc tag, you don’t see the canon Jc tag stuff anyway.

I say the best thing is to just ignore them and keep posting meta/analysis there as you guys have been. I’ve seen fandom discourse get bad enough (*cough* FE3H fandom *cough*) that you just learn to ignore, block, and keep doing the norm. They’ll leave you alone when they see they can’t move you. And if they’ve blocked you, they’re only doing it to themselves.

Hi Anon. Thank you for stopping by, it really is lovely to see you.

Thank you very much for your kind words. I think we can definitely agree on just not vibing with certain types of fanon even if we aren’t bothered by it existing as long as we can still play our own way. I have no beef with Xicheng fans at all, it’s just not my thing (and I totally get you on the LWJ bit of it too).

I really don’t know why it’s suddenly such an issue now too! We had like eight months of total peace about the tag! It made sense for those of us here and allowed us to stop feuding and I was happy with that. It’s nice to just have an easy shorthand where both sides can filter out the one they don’t want and go from there.

Yeah I agree that it’s the Twitter fans. I’ve had a couple of people say that the tag has been overrun by antis and that’s what gets me there, cause I was one of the first to start using it at all, so can a tag really be overrun if that’s how it was always used? It wasn’t like we stole it or anything, I don’t think it existed outside of a few quieter blogs before my friends and I got in on the whole thing. I’m glad to hear that tumblr JC fans are also being reasonable about the whole thing.

<3 thank you Anon for the suggestion. I shall do my best to not start up new fights, but honestly I do tend to bite back when people bring the fight to my posts and inbox. But I shall continue to tag accordingly and hopefully all shall die down soon and we can return to our relative harmony.

I hope you continue to have good times here and enjoy your purple lotus as you love him best! Thanks for taking the time to drop by. It really meant a lot to me this morning.

[kitashousewife]

i just love you guys!!! i don’t say thank you enough but man i’m so grateful to have everyone on here hahaha small little vent i guess?? under the cut

so i’ve just become a rather lonely person the last couple years due to moving a lot and the place i currently live is so…..not friendly??? i’m the type of person to introduce myself to neighbors and share with them and enjoy things with them and from the DAY we moved here it’s just blank stares or getting straight up ignored!!! which wtf!! same with making friends it is so incredibly difficult to connect with people here and i feel so incredibly broken, almost like i’m the problem and it’s me!! but omfg no matter what’s going on i can come on here and say hello and interact with all of you and you guys just don’t understand how much it means to me when you even just say hi or i see y’all on the dash! makes me feel happy. and i know this sounds cheesy but i do miss y’all when you’re away! you’re always in my thoughts anyway i’m totally sober just embracing my emotional side

[goldstars-to-all]

Ignore this, i’m just ranting about my life.

i’m so frustrated because i’m starting to gain weight again and I don’t want it, but my appetite has increased since I haven’t been able to get my meds and it’s pissing me off. I don’t want to be overweight again, like, i was just starting to get a little bit more confident in my body and shit and now this. I already have so much shit to deal with and I don’t want this making me feel worse about myself. I don’t need more reasons to hate myself right now. At least it’s getting warmer put so I can go on bike rides, cause i can’t take fucking walks or jog because i have crooked knee caps that grate on my tendons. Anyways, i’m annoyed and upset and hate myself sometimes. Just wanted to vent. Y’all can ignore this.

[yourmomsjewel]

BROOOOOO

These bitches are pissing me off.

So my main “friends” weren’t here last week so I sat alone and without their friends because I don’t really know them like that and I legit thought that they didn’t like me.

So today when I walked in and my main “friends” are finally back I had to wave for them to acknowledge me, AND ONLY ONE DID, LITERALLY ONLY ONE FRIEND ACKNOWLEDGED ME AND THE OTHER ONE JUST IGNORED ME, the friends that I didn’t sit with just don’t like me in general now.

One thing about me is I’m not gonna just sit there while you guys are talking and didn’t even say hi or something, I legit moved to my favorite spot in the bleachers because I’m not gonna miss out on that for you guys that are blatantly ignoring me. Seeing this post u must think I’m overreacting, and I know it sounds like I am, but I swear to you I’m not.

It’s like whenever their with their other friends I’m just like a second fiddle. And we used to be close Idek what happened. The mood or vibe just switched over so quick and I’m legit sick of it.

I don’t wanna bring it up because their just gonna say that they don’t get to see them as much as me but still, if I know that you favor them over me…there’s a problem, you shouldn’t be all dim and quiet with me (claiming ur sick), when just a sec ago you were over here screaming and cackling with them.

I fr fucking tried, I legit tried my best to endure this, I GAVE THEM SO MANY BENEFIT OF DOUBTS, but there is no excusing anymore, I miss being the lonely quiet kid.

I don’t wanna be their friends anymore.

Y’all please give me advice about this, I’m legit puzzled, I do need a group for group projects, but I can find that anywhere else, so I don’t really NEED them. I’m not gonna officially break it off I’m just gonna become distant and hopefully they’ll catch the hint.

P.S.- I think they made a separate gc without me and left me in the old one to make it seem like that’s the only gc😒.

Anyways sry for the vent gems 💎

If you have school have a good day, and don’t tolerate fake friends❤️

U deserve better✨💕

[dreamingofaizawa]

Y’all it’s depression hours so ignore this cuz it’s just stress venting

My sister’s trying to get me on a dating app. And while she fires respect my boundaries and it’s mostly a joke, it just stresses me out. Like, it’s tempting to try, but all the horror stories I’ve heard about weirdos and creeps and just plain disgusting people and catfishing. It makes me so nervous.

And then there’s the fact that I genuinely, wholeheartedly believe nobody could really actually find me attractive. Like this isn’t just a “oh I don’t really feel pretty today” it’s something that I believe and have believed for as long as I can remember. I never once, even when I had my high school boyfriend, thought I was ever attractive in any way. And logically I know it’s probably not true, I’m probably pretty to someone. But it’s just… idk. So when something like a dating app is throw in the mix, all I can think about is “I’m not pretty enough for them, they’ll just reject me so why try”.

Anyways. Hope y’all are having a better night than I am right now ❤️ excuse me while I go read a few comfort fics

[curiosity-killed]

Sorry it is now Late Night* Thoughts with Curio

(It is 10:30 PM)

But I think one of the frustrating things for me with my joints is in some ways that I can do most things. Like I ran seven miles tonight! On Saturday, I danced for 2 hr on pointe! I am by most measures a very fit and active person

But those things a) sometimes have consequences and b) aren’t always correlated with pain. Like I ran today and was biting back tears as I got home because of how badly my knee hurt for the last half mile, and I danced on Saturday and I was up most of Thursday night because my leg hurt so much I couldn’t find a comfortable position to sleep.

And if I were to say that to most anyone, I’d get told that a) then I shouldn’t do those things, b) I should go to the doctor, or c) that if I can do those things I shouldn’t really complain about pain bc clearly it’s not that bad

And like! I’m genuinely grateful I can do the things I love! At seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, I was legitimately fully resigned to the fact that I was going to be in constant pain forever and would inevitably have to give up those things I love by the time I was 30-40 and pictured my future as being devoid of pretty giant sources of joy and love and identity for myself. The joy I felt when I first took a dance class and didn’t need to ice immediately after had me feeling drunk on euphoria

But…it still hurts. And it still impacts the rest of my well-being and life: if I get 4 hr of sleep because of pain, I’m not going to feel good the next day. If my joints are flared up throughout the day, it takes away energy and focus and happiness and makes it harder to do everything else.

And in some ways—the big things aren’t the problem. My back hurts and my hip gets fucked up from sitting at my desk to work. My knee flares up if it’s hanging without a footrest. If I am sitting on even a slightly slanted surface my hip gets out of whack. Sometimes it just all hurts because I slept on my side and it was the third Wednesday of the seventh month or wtf knows. But if you say “yeah literally everything can make it worse” ppl sort of tune out like “well then you should just know how to live with it.”

Anyway!! This isn’t going anywhere I’m just in pain and grouchy about it <_<

[romansleftshoulderpad]

Hi don’t mind me

(Please Don’t reblog)

[sunset-on-jupiter]

don’t you just love it when you live with ableist, queerphobic, christian parents and not only do you think you might have adhd, you also are genderfluid, bisexual, and ex-christian🥲

/s

/hj

[elysianslove]

Hewwooo! This ask just came into my mind and I wanted to share. So Yuuji has a girlfriend that is a civilian and at first Sukuna is annoyed by her but as time passed he starts to take a like on her since she's always so nice to him despite him being a curse. And he's just so confused about his feelings because him being the king of curses falling for a weakling? Ridiculous. I want to read your interpretation of this idc if its hcs or scenario. Do whatever you like❤

hi my love!! i really hope you like this!! i made it into headcanons so i can go over a larger span of time more smoothly, so i hope that’s okay!

i’m getting so many sukuna requests hell yes 🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️🏃🏻‍♀️

okay so let’s make it that you’re yuuji’s gf from before he ate sukuna’s finger ( yeah btw wtf is up with your bf ??? )

he called you as soon as they’d announced the death of his grandpa, because it had felt like you were the last family he had left. seriously you’re his whole world

you’re there when megumi starts explaining stuff about how this finger’s super dangerous and people will die you and yuuji are like 😃✋🏼 wha 

but also so unbothered bc he can’t be serious

turns out he is serious laugh out loud

yuuji makes you go home as you’re at the school gate and you’re like mf what??? no???? i’m not leaving you?? 

he ends up making you wait and then he just never comes back

megumi explains everything to you 

but again you’re like 😃✋🏼 pause wtf 

you keep texting him and calling him and he’s not responding you’d be angry at him if you weren’t so fucking worried 

and so eventually he finds you again 

after eating sukuna’s second finger (again, what the fuck sir) 

now megumi had told you he was now like ? possessed ? by a curse? it sounded like gibberish to you tbh and it was the last thing you were thinking about when you finally saw him again

all that mattered was that he was okay and alive and in your arms 

you’ve never hugged him tighter tbh 

so anyways ! yuuji does not want you to meet sukuna 

like ever 

but when he meets you one day really frustrated from a mission, you ask him about it, and he just vents out everything to you. he tells you how the responsibility can be so overwhelming sometimes, and how sukuna can be so infuriating and you can’t imagine what it must be like having this guy in your head 

and then you just go 

“can i meet him?” 

at first he’s like absolutely not ma’am are u insane 

but then you convince him, telling him you trust him and reminding him he has control 

so he shifts 

you really were expecting something horrendous like seriously you were anticipating fainting from fear 

he’s just your bf 

with a rougher edge 

you like instantly relax 

even if this guy’s expressions are nothing like yuuji’s, you remind yourself that it’s still yuuji inside, no matter what 

“i like your — tats?” 

what do you even say to a curse??? 

he’s scowling at you so much you might piss yourself but you just repeat constantly that he can’t hurt you 

“you disgust me,” he spits out

yuuji shifts back so quick, and just groups you on his arms 

“that wasn’t me, i swear,” he says to you and you have to calm him down and tell him it’s okay !!  it’s not his fault the guy’s an ass 

now! yuuji’s pretty comfortable with your level of physical affection 

in fact, he loves it so much. it’s one of his favorite things about you. 

so he’s always welcoming an embrace from his favorite person in the world, but it’s so hard to ignore sukuna’s words in his mind repeatedly saying how this is so revolting 

he tries his best to pay him no attention 

sometimes y’all will be cuddling and a mouth appear somewhere on yuuji’s body and it’ll say “get ur hands off my vessel human!” and ngl

it always makes you laugh

like how comical is that

eventually, over time, the hugs are 

kinda nice, sukuna realizes 

like he’s a thousand year old cursed spirit

he’s not really gotten any affection yk 

like ever 

and it’s not that he ever wanted it

but being with you

or well, him possessing yuuji and yuuji being with you and you being with him through transitive property (thank you grade 7 math)  

it really like softens him

kinda 

a little bit 

like the tiniest bit 

some part of him, he probably thinks it’s yuuji and not even him and that he’s just confused but really some part of him grows to anticipate the hugs 

and when you kiss yuuji 

god

your mouth feels so good he wants to feel it for himself 

it’s like angering him how you’re growing onto him, so he asks yuuji to shift them 

and they do shift

you’re a little surprised bc yuuji gave u like a 3 sec warning before those familiar markings appeared on his skin

“i never thought i’d see you again,” you admit. 

and he just kisses you 

like full on the mouth 

no warning

you pull him back in shock, and rest a hand on his shoulder to keep a distance between you two

“i don’t know where this is coming from but it doesn’t feel right, sukuna.” 

and you’re just

you’re just so nice

why are you so nice???

“i love yuuji, so much, and even though you’re sharing a body you’re still a whole other person. it feels wrong.” 

god why are you so good? it’s infuriating???? 

yuuji shifts back, starts apologizing again like the first time

“you have to stop apologizing for something someone else did, babe.” 

when he’s alone with sukuna that night he’s like dude, dude, bro, my man — we gotta talk boundaries bc wtf

sukuna just goes “not fair u get to kiss her” 

like yeah??? she’s my girlfriend tf ???? 

so sukuna resorts to watching (or feeling) from the sidelines again

as he grows more and more affectionate towards you 

until he’s just as protective over you as yuuji is

until he realizes that 

what yhe fuck

maybe he has feelings for you because, one of the main things about you is that the two times you’ve encountered him, you’ve never treated him like a curse. even if being treated human was once considered belittling to him, having you dote on him like that, speak to him as softly

it made his brain go brrrr 

so he asks yuuji one day, “can i kiss your gf” 

like that’s something you just casually ask

took a lotta convincing but eventually yuuji says “if she says yes then okay” 

it takes like 

90 minutes for both you and yuuji to decide that you’re okay with it. sukuna’s like fuck it ion wanna anymore lmfao

but anyways 

yuuji shifts into him 

and 

he doesn’t even wait the impatient mf 

he just kisses you so suddenly, cupping your neck and tugging at your hair like damn how long has he been wanting to do this

clearly way longer than even he thought 

after that yuuji doesn’t exactly share you, but yeah he’ll let sukuna kiss you every now and then

sukuna’s still not fully accepting of his feelings towards you, but he learns to appreciate you

especially your kindness towards him and yuuji, and the tenderness of your touch 

he never would’ve seen it coming when he awoke in this teenage boy’s body, but he can admit that you’re definitely an added benefit

[cyncerity]

Letting ya know I'd love an update on what Dream did to Tommy in dad's troubles au cuz I've certainly not been around long enough to know TWT

-Nox

I JUST SCROLLED THROUGH MY OWN AU TAG AND REALIZED I NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT DREAM DID OH MY FUCKING GOD IM SO DUMB-

ok, so, a while ago I just typed up a whole essay about Dream’s role in this au and I guess I just…never elaborated?? I swear I did but my memory is dog caca so idfk anymore.

Anyways hi Nox it’s very nice to meet you!! Welcome to the blog 💖

I’m just gonna take a few snippets from that essay (you think I’d give you all of my secrets at the same time? ha) and post them so that Dreams inclusion in this au actually makes sense-

tw vore

Tubbo makes a plan to meet Puffy, or at the very least see her from the vents, but doesn’t know if she’s ok with borrowers yet since this is before Schlatt ever mentioned Tubbo to her and he hasn’t introduced the two of them. However, he makes the mistake of bringing Ranboo and Tommy along to find out.

Tommy ends up getting caught by Puffy’s brother, Dream, and swallowed, since ooo plot twist, Dream had been the person to originally suggest the idea of eating borrowers to Sapnap. He just forgot to mention to him that they were digestion-proof. Dream ignores all of Tommy’s thrashing since he’s used to it from doing the same thing to other borrowers and goes to sleep. When he wakes up Tommy is quick to tell him that about all the “borrowers can’t be digested” stuff but, to his surprise, Dream cuts him off to tell him he knows all of that.

Dream then spits Tommy out and explains that he just needs a bit of a snack while he’s out here seeing his estranged “brother” (Schlatt) and best friend (Sapnap) and his fiancés, and if Tommy is good while he’s in there, he’ll consider letting Tommy stay at this apartment once he has to go home. So Tommy is stuck in this motherfucker without any way to contact anyone and let them know where he is. No one can help him. So, basically, this au’s equivalent to the exile arc.

And how long does Tommy stay there?…idk I haven’t decided yet.

There’s a lot I cut out of this essay so I may post the entire thing later but idk just how much I want y’all to know yet >:)

[fbfh]

peter quill dating hcs

Listen this isn't the smut headcanons

But it's peter quill

There's gonna be some 18+ jokes and content

I will keep this as sfw as possible bc you'd better fucking believe that Peter Quill relationship and intimacy hcs are on their fucking way

So yeah just a prelude

Anyway

Yuh let's get inTO it

Okay two things first

1: I'm so mad there's like no fics for him?????????? Why is he not yet a tumblr sexyman??????? I get the first movie came out in like 2014 so I probably just missed the hype window but for gods sake

2: a lot of ppl think he'd be easily flustered and blushy and that's totally and completely valid

However

Why are we overlooking the whole "I've slept with half the galaxy" thing????????

Like

Okay Peter is a goofball

We know this

And on top of that

He can get it

I'm going to stop myself there so more on that later

He's like 6'2, hilarious, charismatic, so loving and compassionate, fan fucking tastic music taste i could go on for days

I feel like more likely than not you'd probably go from fwb to lovers

Since this is the sfw half we're gonna focus more on the second half

I feel like he falls so hard and fast he doesn't really have time to be like

Oh no I'm falling in love dammit

He's so easily distracted by everything about you that he can't hear that voice going "snap out of it Peter"

Cause he does not want to

Oh my god sit on his lap when he's in the pilot's seat in the Milano

When he's not driving obviously

It's one of his favorite things you do

If you're Terran you bond over earth stuff really quickly

#growingupterran

He's really affectionate

Like really really affectionate

Rocket makes gagging noises whenever you're in the same room cause there's usually some kinda cuddling or kissing going on

Even just loving gazes across the room

Rocket is the voice Peter ignores telling him to snap out of it

Rocket: come on! This is gross! It's gross, right Groot?

Groot, handing Peter a flower to give to you: I am Groot :)

Peter, handing you the flower: thank you Groot, you're my new wingman

Rocket: >:(

Don't worry though, you call Rocket the weapons expert and he likes you suddenly

"What should we bring to the attack?"

"We should ask Rocket, he is the weapons expert"

Rocket, dropping down from an air vent, "DAMN RIGHT I AM"

Rocket gives me Rigby meets Dan from Dan vs energy

When Peter sees you getting along with the rest of the crew it makes his heart so happy

I’d say out of all marvel subunits the guardians have the most genuine found family dynamic

The support between him and his friends is so important to him, so when you integrate pretty easily as part of the group, it means a lot to him

If you’re terran

Which presumably you are

When he first shared his awesome mixes with you you loved it

You checked your phone and realized, very distraught, that you don’t have wifi in space

Luckily you had some music downloaded, so you have like 3 playlists you can listen to

Once you get to a planet with actual reception, you make copies of his mixes on spotify so y’all can shuffle them

He kind of prefers to listen straight through but the variety is nice

And the fact that you did that for him???? His heart goes boom boom

And his peepee goes hELLO

He’ll dance with you a lot

Albeit very shittily

But you both have fun

If you’re insecure about dancing you won’t be for long

Sometimes when you’re dancing he’ll have his hands on your waist

Just staring at you

He’s been from one corner of the galaxy to the next

He’s seen everything

And you still top the charts as the prettiest sight he’s ever laid eyes on

His eyes get all big and sparkly

His brow gets a little furrowed and he has this smirky smile

He lets out a breathy laugh, baffled at how after all the pain and loss and bullshit he’s endured

How someone as

Wonderful

As you came into his life

Man

He just likes spending time with you

And as much of a front as he puts up he will come damn near death to protect you and make sure you’re safe

The only reason he wouldn’t actually die for you is because then he wouldn’t be able to protect you more

But he will 100% sacrifice himself for your safety and wellbeing

Afterwards he’ll cover it up with self aggrandizing humor

“So we’re in agreement… that was so heroic, right?”

Through tears, you’ll clutch him and laugh

“Oh, yeah. Very brave, your medal of valor will be arriving soon,”

He does this to soften the blow of what he did

Both for you and him

Let’s be real, he’s not best with up front emotional vulnerability

He’ll deflect with humor or seduction

But it’s very thinly veiled

When he falls for you you know exactly how much he likes you

Which is a lot

Later during a quiet moment

Maybe you’re falling asleep with his cassettes playing softly

You can tell him not to do that again

How worried you are, how stupid it was, and that you don’t know what you’d do without him

Keep it brief though, he already knows good and well how much it scared you

Most importantly let him know how much how love him

How much you care about him, how much everything he does means to you

And that you’d do the same for him

“Uh, no- no way. The whole point was to keep you away from bodily harm.” He’ll chuckle, half joking, fingers tracing your neck and jawline

“Okay,” you’ll reply into the crook of his neck, “next time, we come up with a plan b where both of us avoid bodily harm. Deal?”

“Yeah,” he’ll say softly, pressing a kiss to your forehead, “deal.”

Oh god his feelings for you are so overwhelming in that moment

They're swirling around him like a typhoon

He’s so focused on your touch, your breaths, the warmth coming off of you that it just washes over him

All he can do is hold you close

He knows he has no idea what the coming days will bring

But he’ll be damned if you don’t face it side by side

[daydream-believin]

MERLIN’S APPRENTICE & MERLIN’S CHAMPION || trollhunters

warnings: swearing

a/n: if rott gave me anything it gave me this idea

I KNOW I SAID “JUICY” BUT REALLY THAT WAS JUST THE ANGST POTENTIAL,, THAT IM NOT INDULGING IN THIS POST IM SORRY LMAO

OKAY WHAT IM REALLY TALKING BOUT HERE IS A GOOD MERLIN/ARTHUR BUT IT ACTUALLY WORKS

no sorry i haven’t seen bbc merlin don’t come for me i’m ignorant

OKAY SO

we know douxie kept an eye on the human trollhunter and co

but douxie’s really having a hard time convincing himself he’s just doing his job

he’s actually enjoying this a little too much despite how boring staying in the shadows is

and he’s kinda worried?

so he’s got this bright idea: you know what would better help him keeps tabs? if he befriends this person

and so he does

fuck merlin’s shadows

sod the rules

ofc he’s very up front about knowing they’re the trollhunter and that he’s merlin’s apprentice

we wouldn’t want that to become a huge festering secret that eats douxie from the inside out until the inevitable reveal when merlin calls them both to help with the arcane order and they realize they’ve both been lying to each other’s faces for months/years and neither of them know if they could ever trust the other again, right? — phew *catches breath*

but before you know it, mr. casperan and mx. trollhunter are best friends

he’s basically the toby to your jim

and you’re very happy to have a best friend like douxie

he understands that monster hunting hustle

he’s the only person you can vent to and actually talk about what’s going on without sounding like a loon

and douxie likes being able to tell someone all his frustrations with merlin, since you’re also in that boat with him

you spar sometimes. it’s fun, but you’re very careful not to accidentally hurt your friend (he’s extremely careful not to hurt you or wound your ego by effortlessly wiping you out)

ofc, there’s the occasional, brushing of hands, faces a little too close together, accidentally winding up on top of one another, purposefully winding up on top of one another 👀 you know how sparring be

you and douxie are a duo. a duo who have become trollmarket’s resident troublemakers, to vendel’s exasperation

you guys tease each other a lot

you do a lot of stupid shit, cause hey, now you have magic armor and a magic sword and a magic best friend, did you think you wouldn’t get up to some shenanigans?

douxie is your impulse control and he’s not a very good one, as he’s just as bad

truthfully archie has the brain cell

and pranks? gods the pranks. you two are always either pranking each other or you’re teaming up to prank some other troll who said smth mean to you in the pub. vendel had to personally put a stop to it (read: chew you out)

doux thinks the world of you tho, you’re such a noble knight, and likes to tell people about how you’re a cinnamon roll, so innocent, so pure

and then they meet you and you directly contradict those statements

trollhunter: i’ve never done anything wrong in my life, ever

douxie: i know this and i love you

(spoiler: you’ve done lots and lots of wrong)

doux spends an awful lot of time slinking around trollmarket now, and he’s in the know for everything that’s happening

(no more being kept in the dark for this wizard apprentice)

and doux knows merlin won’t completely approve of this, but hey, it’s not like he’s helping and thus directly disobeying

really, he’s not helping you at all, it’s really fucking annoying

okay so mayyybe the occasional healing spell. you’ve got those puppy dog eyes he can’t say no to

but you understand his sense of duty, or whatever it is that drives a follower, technically being a follower of merlin yourself

you respect the old geezer (as you have not been turned into a half-troll yet) as a wise mythical figure, and as your best friend’s father

and what a perfect match you are for each other, champion and apprentice, mutually being screwed over by a guy you both think has all the answers

you and douxie help each other grow in your self-worths, that you two are more than the chances merlin has given to you

unfortunately, mortifyingly, you have caught feelings.

douxie has also caught feelings, and is saying nothing yep you have enough on your plate without him putting this on you so he’ll just quietly pine and suffer don’t mind him choking to death in the corner when you take off your helmet and throw back your hair

y’all’s problem really starts manifesting itself as protectiveness. you are really protective of your wizard and he is really protective of his knight

lots of things said that are Not What Friends Say but neither of you really want to be the one to point that out

lots and lots of i love yous that slowly get more and more serious until it’s not exactly platonic anymore

and it’s just really nice to have someone to get coffee (or your favored hot drink) with at four in the morning after a tussle with a troll

and that’s basically how you and douxie spend the bulk of trollhunters, just vibing

as much as you can vibe, with all the changelings and shit trying to murder you all the time

then merlin wakes up and shakes up your world

you are aware of your impending doom

you’re aware of it

merlin keeps looking you up and down like he’s mentally making up the measurements of your coffin

and tbh the idea of fighting gunmar freaks you tf out

and you’re supposed to win that fight?

gods

you’re preparing for your nightmares coming true soon

truthfully you knew your fucking job had a 100% mortality rate

you don’t want to die with regrets

so

you spill

you spill all the things you’d wanted to tell him and how much he means to you and that you couldn’t bear it if you were a goner before he knew

miraculously, douxie feels the same and tells you all the things he’d been holding back and and what you mean to him and how much he wants to protect you, that you’re gonna make it, if he had anything to say about it

and everything is perfect for one night

now you have a real reason to win

not that saving humanity isn’t a big responsibility on your shoulders and definitely A Reason

but knowing douxie’s waiting for you, for the life you’ll build together after this, the peace you’ll both have, it’s absolutely a big motivation to give your all and come out victorious and survive

hahaha loser you don’t know about the arcane order

and then merlin uses your microwave to cook a weird potion

you and merlin are alone in the house, but there’s no real mind games necessary. you may have grown past thinking he was a god, but in the end, you’re still a follower of merlin, and if merlin thinks this could give you an edge, well, who are you to question his methods

doesn’t mean you aren’t nervous as your master hands you the bottle

yet you don’t even hesitate to drown yourself in the black abyss of the tub

whatever it takes amirite?

and now you’re a half-troll

a sexy half-troll, if you do say so yourself

yeah, no ‘i’m a monster’ angst here, you’re loving the power-up

you’ve got to treat it like a cool new power-up or you will cry actually tbh i lied about the no-angst thing a new body is disorienting

your only real concern is douxie

not concerned for long tho, he sees you and the first thing out of his mouth is “nuclear!”

and he senses your concern, so he does go out of his way to assure you that boy, girl, enby, or half-troll, he loves you for your soul, darling

also again half-troll! you is hot as hell so he’s not really losing anything here 👀

he makes sure you know that too, not to let any insecurities fester

him raking his eyes up and down you gives the opposite effect of the dread merlin sent down your spine doing it

anyways,,,

doux helps out a lot more in the eternal night

like helps merlin re-defeat and re-seal morgana

he’ll do it again in few weeks but with a bigger role you know, this is practice

thank merlin for that edge YOU ARE THE LAST TROLLHUNTER YOU ARE VICTORIOUS YOUVE GOT GUNMARS HEAD IN YOUR HANDS HAHAHA

but now you’ve got to go to new jersey

douxie’s been instructed to stay in arcadia tho 🥺

it’s okay, you’ll see each other again soon

sooner than you realize

and until then you talk each other to sleep every night over the phone <3

merlins glad, actually. he’s glad hisirdoux found some solace. even if it is with the lamb he was raising for the slaughter. maybe things will go okay for them. the time map suggests it might be so

hisirdoux may have done things in a way he didn’t quite approve of, but that’s because he’s becoming his own wizard, and merlin is proud