#axis is often misunderstood

[lellarps]

which tarot card are you?

FOR AXIS — the fool !

there is an endless road ahead of you. long and winding, it is impossible to imagine every fork, every path you could take. like looking down from a high place, the sheer magnitude is dizzying. but it is freeing. god, it is freeing. you have all the time in the world to explore– endless choices to make; take time to appreciate it all. just be careful not to lose yourself to the recklessness that comes with such wondrous freedom.

NUMBER: 0

UPRIGHT: beginnings, innocence, spontaneity, a free spirit

REVERSED: holding back, recklessness, risk-taking

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tagging: @exsanguinatc @elysiumxii @mockingjaybroken @fluxofthemouth @utterxdesires & everyone that feels up to it!

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Healing yourself & Helping others

We often talked about the wounds of Chiron in Natal chart, the pains associated with Chiron placements, but I think exactly because of those wounds that the native can obtain a deep understanding of the matters related to those wounds, and can sympathise with other people who experience the same kind of pain, understanding creates kindness.

Where Chiron is in your chart will always be a sensitive spot. Exactly because it's such a sensitive spot that we pour so much effort into it, always be mindful of it, we might excel at it, become a master, but might never feel good enough.

Through healing the other person, we, in turn, would also be healed, it's a kind of projection. There's often an element of unfulfilled dreams, dreams were thwarted or the feeling that the reward isn't worth the effort. In extreme case, this can manifest as projecting our failed wishes and dreams on other people and burdening them with the responsibility to make them come true. On a lighter note, we would want to see the other person success in our stead, to see that someone finally made it. And here is where our Chiron can actually help people, making us a great counsellor, a teacher or a cheer leader in that matter. We help people in the matters related to the sign/the house Chiron is in, the aspects Chiron makes to other planets. In turn, we are known to people by our Chiron. Yes, Chiron can be a fame indicator, not by shining on its own, but by helping others shine.

What about ourselves? will we forever have to endure that pain of Chiron? We might actually find peace and healing through the positive manifestation of the sign/the house opposite of Chiron. The two opposite ends of an axis always provide answer to each other.

So don't associate Chiron with just wound and pain, associate it with the gift you can give to the world and in turn, the reward you can receive through the act of giving.

The way Chiron in each sign/ house and aspect finds healing and helping others:

Chiron in Aries/ in 1st house/ aspecting Mars

The wound: being judged as too direct and aggressive, having trouble in asserting yourself and putting yourself first, wound about your appearance & sexuality, self-confidence issue, fear of accidents, physical pain

How you heal yourself: be considerate of others when asserting yourself, be direct in a tactful way, be in the company of people that allows you to be yourself without judgement, find an aesthetic that matches you and makes you comfortable, allow yourself to explore your sexuality and desires without judgement, practice prudence

How you help others: help others stand up for themselves, give people courage to take the initiative, boost people's confidence, make others feel protected, be a role model, spread body positivity, normalise "defects" in appearance, stand against bullies

Chiron in Taurus/ in 2nd house/ aspecting Venus

The wound: finding security and stability, being objectified, feeling lack, self-loathing, placing values on external validation, finding independence, over indulgence

How you heal yourself: focus on your inner life to find true stability within, financial independence, let go of unhealthy attachments, listen to gut feeling and body's response to everything, take good care of your body and health

How you help others: generous with your resources, understand the pain of "lack", fundraiser, be the rock for other people, have a stabilising effect on people, help people beautifying themselves, , promote mindfulness in spending and healthy consumption

Chiron in Gemini/ in 3rd house/ aspecting Mercury

The wound: voicing your thoughts, being unheard, not feeling intelligent enough, being too talkative or too quiet, mental/ physical restriction, being neglected, favouritism, being misunderstood

How you heal yourself: be honest & objective, explore diverse subjects, learn constantly, share your knowledge with others, travel frequently, widen your perspective, see life in good humour

How you help others: help people find their voice, spread awareness about mental illness, create a safe space for others to express their ideas, understand different viewpoints in a conversation, be the voice of people, soothing voice, humour, a good listener and a story teller

Chiron in Cancer/ in 4th house/ aspecting Moon

The wound: birth trauma, abandonment, being neglected, lacking care and nurture, feeling unsafe in your own home, unstable family environment, repression, being ridiculed for your emotions, mother wound & complicated relationship with motherhood

How you heal yourself: build your own family, emotional stoicism, assume responsibility for your own emotional and physical well-being, give yourself the utmost respect, find peace and safety in structure & order, let the desire to have children come naturally along with your maturity, look for stability and resilience in a life partner

How you help others: provide shelter and protection, create/support programs for children, donate to causes, charity, raise awareness about vulnerabilities, make others feel safe to express their emotions, "sensitivity is not a weakness", be present for other people

Chiron in Leo/ in 5th house/ aspecting Sun

The wound: struggle with feeling creative enough, discouragement of expressing individuality, being yourself is painful, self- confidence issue, feeling not appreciated (especially in childhood), invisibility, having trouble acting carefree and playful, father wound & complicated relationship with fatherhood, feeling unlucky in love, physical pain

How you heal yourself: find your own community that will welcome you, surround yourself with children, being unapologetic in expressing yourself, revel in weirdness & uniqueness, being your own audience and your own judge, detach yourself from your own creations

How you help others: promote creative activities in everyday life, nurture other people's creativity, give space to people to express themselves without shame or guilt, acceptance of other people's individuality, humble, caretaker

Chiron in Virgo/ in 6th house/ aspecting Mercury

The wound: not feeling good enough, feeling like you have to constantly perform well, perfectionism, being nitpicked, judgmental, being denied consistency and stable routine, exploitation, mental & physical health issue, overworked, feeling hard to relax

How you heal yourself: take good care of your emotional and spiritual health, good sleep, incorporate quiet moments into your routine, be kind to yourself and tolerate your mistakes, treat yourself with compassion like how you treat a vulnerable person, have patience

How you help others: tolerance towards mistakes, encourage people to notice small beauty in life, good at giving detailed and practical advice, help others build a more efficient routine and work process, excellent organiser, spread awareness about the struggle of illnesses, advocate for green and healthy lifestyle

Chiron in Libra/ in 7th house/ aspecting Venus

The wound: being indecisive, having to choose between asserting yourself vs keeping the peace, feeling unlucky in love and partnership, being betrayed, witnessing bad examples of partnership, being judged as superficial, not feeling beautiful and lovable enough

How you heal yourself: be direct and honest with your desires, practice interdependence in relationships, take good care of yourself first before attempting to take care of others, be bold in your style, setting boundaries

How you help others: be a mediator, independent, fair to people, polite, know when to compromise, try to make people comfortable, change beauty standards, relationship counsellor, make a team work, help people work together, take commitment seriously, fight for equality

Chiron in Scorpio/ in 8th house/ aspecting Pluto

The wound: witnessing deaths early on, fear of mortality, boundaries violation, experiencing paranormal activities that left scars and fears on your psyche, having the wrong kind of people attracted to you, sexuality exploration is considered taboo and restricted, having things taken away from you, having your secrets exposed, lack of privacy, trust issue

How you heal yourself: setting boundaries, emotional stoicism, surround yourself with stable and orderly environment/ people, minimalism, ground yourself/ connect with nature, practise your own brand of spirituality, listen to your body's response , explore your sexuality in your own safe place and by your own pace

How you help others: fierce protector, keep people's secrets, counsellor, fight against and spread awareness about abuse, allow space for others to explore their own psyche and sexuality

Chiron in Sagittarius/ in 9th house/ aspecting Jupiter

The wound: having your freedom restricted, further education is denied, feeling like a stranger in your own family, being chastised for being too honest/ too blunt, constant moving, being taught distorted views about the world, having problems with spirituality and religions, having your faith challenged, constantly being shot down, lacking boundaries and guidance

How you heal yourself: listen to different viewpoints, strive for diversity in your pursuit of knowledge, know when to get up and get out of situations, question various schools of thought before committing to one, take a light-hearted approach in communication

How you help others: setting an example for being truthful, support and advocate for the right to education, hype people up, make people have faith again, humour, stay open-minded and help people see a different perspective, make people feel accepted, guiding and teaching

Chiron in Capricorn/ in 10th house/ aspecting Saturn

The wound: being demanded perfection constantly, having to perform, stifle yourself to keep an 'image', being attacked/ criticised/ scruntinised openly, feeling that you have to do more than others to be recognised, having your goals and plans thwarted, being restricted in any form, father wound, trouble with authority

How you heal yourself: allow yourself to express vulnerability and emotions in front of others, keep your goals and ambitions close to your heart/ avoid discussing them too openly, act quietly, be kind to yourself when you're disappointed, allow yourself alone time/ away from public's eyes, place importance on emotional fulfillment when considering a life partner

How you help others: a pillar of strength that people can lean on, be exemplary, help others find authority in themselves, support and help others achieving success, build people up, give structure, show the importance of mastery

Chiron in Aquarius/ in 11th house/ aspecting Uranus

The wound: being considered weird/different, struggle with a sense of belonging, loneliness, being misunderstood, feeling excluded, bully, trouble building a long lasting friendship, sudden upheavals, feeling like you never get what you wish for, feeling like you are living a wayward life

How you heal yourself: have fun with yourself, find your own niche and focus on it, spend time for hobbies, express your individuality more but in a warm and nonserious manner, bond with people who have the same interests and hobbies, play with children

How you help others: make others feel welcomed in a group, bring excitement, acceptance of people's many quirks and unique self, fight against bully, encourage others to follow their dreams, strive to do good, support humanitarian causes

Chiron in Pisces/ in 12th house/ aspecting Neptune

The wound: experiencing losses early in life, being lost, lacking boundaries, boundaries violation, nightmares, solitude, struggle in feeling real, addictions, disillusionment, being betrayed and back stabbed, lacking a firm structure and guidance

How you heal yourself: practise meditation daily, setting up routines to follow (especially sleep routine), consider swimming, take good care of your physical health, muse about small beauties in everyday life, practise discrimination when you're asked for help or to do something, avoid sharing about yourself too much

How you help others: counsellor, provide understanding ears, charity, support humanitarian causes, help people find peace, soothing, empathise with people's suffering, provide spiritual guidance, create art that can speak directly to people's souls

About me | Masterpost

[tirfpikachu]

when someone says that women weren't allowed to do xyz until a certain date mainstream tras might give a side look like hmm :/ this isn't inclusive of trans folks... but otherwise leave it alone.

but if you say that specifically cis/bio women and transmasc ppl weren't allowed to open their own bank account until 1974, suddenly you're making the transfems feel a bit too privileged and it causes a riot bc you're pointing out that amab/male folks used to have an INSANE amount of privilege on the basis of being born "amab" and even if they were super gnc, they still had that privilege from birth. to this day, cis/bio men and transfems do NOT go thru many specific struggles that cis/bio women and transmascs experience. but that's somehow controversial as FUCK to say in most tra spaces. why?

fr why is that? why?? why are transfems so fucking oversensitive to anyone pointing out that they're not oppressed on every single axis of oppression? meanwhile transmascs are bending over backwards being super fucking supportive of transfem rights and having so much nuance about things without much knee-jerk defensiveness at all. could it be that perhaps... hmm... "amab" upbringing does not teach amab/male folks what it's like to face misogyny, so they often do not enter feminist spaces, and now that they enter leftist spaces they don't know that we're all about intersectionality and nuance and acknowledging the ways one might be privileged in some ways and disprivileged in other ways? instead of showing allyship to cis/bio women and transmascs, transfems and their more extreme allies instead sit on their thrones and get offended whenever anyone implies that they might need to be good allies too. why is that?? why are cis/bio women and transmascs enabling that behavior so much?

hmmm it's almost like how afab/female folks are conditioned to excuse inappropriate behavior from amab/male people from a very young age... almost like the stereotypical One Of The Boys (in this case Males) trope, trying to be a Cool Girl (or Cool Trans Boy) to be validated by the ones in charge, the amabs, who are just poor sweet misunderstood cinnamon rolls uwu. i think mainstream tras really idolize transfems. which comes from a sweet place, and might feel good, but also means you're infantilizing them like precious perfect little princesses who can do no wrong. that might be validating for transfems ─ who doesn't like being coddled every now and then? ─ but also means not holding them accountable the way we're supposed to hold EVERYBODY accountable in leftist spaces. or at least that's what we generally pride ourselves in, right? isn't that supposed to be a leftist thing? intersectionality and all that?

and this is why so many cis/bio women and transmascs are joining radblr. this is why even some transfems are saying okay, this is too much now, and actually seek out female/afab voices and hear their povs and apologize for how they're treated by tras. the tables are starting to turn. people are too fed up with this shit. we are getting muzzled for talking about the most basic feminist stuff ever, things that back in the day oldschool trans folks were WAAYYYY more likely to see as common sense and feminism 101. systems of oppression are complex. you can talk about how hard transmisogyny is, and you'll get sympathy from most of us, but you gotta listen to how hard anti-female/afab misogyny is and how we're uniquely persecuted in specific ways you aren't. and you gotta work hard to learn how to be a good ally to us, you gotta research, you gotta learn. so many transfems have no fucking clue how to do that. so many cis/bio women and transmascs are acting like their loud guard dogs too, coddling them, speaking for them, enabling them. it's leading to really bad shit to happen. it's enabling transfems-on-female/afab abuse and bigotry... and you just sweep it all under the rug, say it was just a "terf" roleplaying, it must be a troll, it doesn't matter. it's just one or two victims, why should we even care about them? why make any changes to prevent further victims? that's such a classic male apologist mindset!!! this shit is not okay. we will never accept that bs.

you need to clean up all the misogyny and homophobia in your spaces or the only sane folks will come to radfems and find actual nuanced discussions about oppression, and you'll be left with crazies. if y'all are gonna act like oversensitive toddlers then radblr is gonna be where it's at for real leftist activism. enjoy your little tra circus ig 👋

[the-lovely-lady-luck]

okay i finally did it, i caved and i wrote 3k words about a character with less than 60 lines of dialog in a ~30 hour game. if you haven't played clair obscur: expedition 33 yet i lightly suggest that you do bc the game is absolutely an all-timer. also don't read this because it spoils just about every major plot point in the entire game. if you've played feel free to read on.

Fuck. Clea Dessendre. I don't even know where to start to be honest. What a wildly compelling character. Eldest daughter syndrome. Needs to be doing something productive-ass cunt. This is sort of just my insane ramblings about her (mostly off the cuff while at work or packing for my trip), so if there are any inconsistencies it’s likely due to that but I fully intend to do a deep dive looking into all the mentions of Clea sometime soon.

I guess the central thing that compels me is the thing that most people get wrong about her in the first place: her grief. admittedly we have very little to work on from her directly, but I would argue that it's intentional. We have a couple of core things about her introduced through our first and only real interaction with her.

- She's a painter (obviously)

- She is mean to Maelle, and it's highly insinuated to be related to blaming her for Verso's death. She “both loves and hates him for that”, hating that he sacrificed himself for a sibling she doesn’t love like she loves him and yet loving him for it because it's why she loved him in the first place — that he was the kind of person who would sacrifice himself like that.

- She is off waging war against the Writers. She is outwardly dismissive of the rest of the family and the way they are handling their grief, but at the same time says she will wage this war on her own if need be.

I’ve seen a lot of jokes about how she's the only one in the family not caught up in grief, how she's off fighting in the plot of an entirely different game where she is the protagonist, etc. And while that's funny (and I want to play the clea game please please please) I think putting her off in a corner where she gets to lore dump and then not matter is a missed opportunity to think about her place in all of this. 

The stages of grief tend to be overused and often misunderstood (people putting too much significance in, say, the order of them or the insistence on everyone existing in every stage in the process), but I like the framework of different manifestations of grief and the names are easy to understand so I am going to use them as points of reference here (though notably i am reaching different definitions and conclusions for these terms than the “stages of grief”). My original thoughts on the topic were long and rambly so I'm paraphrasing my thoughts.

Denial and Bargaining are predominantly shown through the parents of the family, Aline and Renoir. Denial is Aline’s territory, with many characters remarking about her desire to escape into the fantasy of the canvas to avoid the harsh reality. She builds upon Verso’s established world and creates a fake version of her family so that she can play out what “should” have been. Bargaining, in a less traditional sense, is Renoir’s domain. He insists on his method of grieving over all others. And while he has a perspective many see as more healthy than Aline’s, his desire to force his family all under one roof to heal together is violent and ends up dooming an entire world just to satisfy his belief. His bargain is that if we just all stopped what we were doing and stood together for a moment and process in the *right way* then it won’t hurt.

Depression and Acceptance are the axis on which Alicia and Painted Verso reside. We don’t see much of Alicia in-game (I am counting Alicia, Maelle, and Maell-icia as different people in this context, since they largely have different experiences and feelings) but during her flashback we see she isn’t doing much in the mansion, and she takes Clea’s insults and believes them to be true. She blames herself for Verso’s death, as well as the conflict her parents are locked into. We don’t know enough about the situation with the fire to make any kind of commentary on how true that is but it clearly weighs on her as she worries over her family and repeatedly seeks some way to help. She initially talks about her injuries and claims her desire to go into the canvas is more to help her family, but later on, as Maell-icia, she comments to Renoir of “how little of [her] life remains” outside the canvas, revealing a darker insight to her interiority. 

Painted Verso is one of the few characters to strongly reside in multiple modes as a character of both Depression and Acceptance. Painted Verso is someone I think I could go on another rant about but my abbreviated take is that Painted Verso is a character who is being denied the stage of acceptance by everyone around him. By the time we reach him he has known the truth and wanted out of his immortality for some time. His life has gone too long, he has watched his loved ones die or be killed off, only to learn to love again and then see them die and killed off again in a never ending cycle. While the family of his dead namesake fights over his memory in their attempt to reckon with grief, Painted Verso is forced to live through cycles of grief over and over and over again (while these people can’t even get through a single one). His acceptance goes beyond accepting grief and it has basically broken him. He wants an end to the pain for him and for everyone in the canvas that dies because of his family (on his behalf), even if that means wiping it all away. With Verso’s memories and feelings and characteristics he is the most in-tune to what Verso would want for his canvas (rivaled only by the sliver of Verso’s soul that still resides within the painting).

Which leaves one major stage remaining, something that this game as a whole, in fact, seems to lack: Anger. Sure there are flashes of it here and there (this is not a game without anger), but it is rare that we see anger ignited by grief in the main story. Gustave has flashes of it, and then after his death Maelle possesses a great anger towards Painted Renoir for his part in it. But otherwise we see the other stages spread far and wide across the game while anger is relegated to the background.

Clea is anger. And her absence haunts the narrative like the absence of anger haunts the game. Her simmering anger echoes throughout the background of the game, from abducting Painted Clea to killing an Axon to pushing Alicia into the painting, her choices compound. And while I'm fully prepared to admit I might be going wild with all the red strings on the pinboard it feels like its simmering just under the surface in anything directly related to her, like a motif. With Renoir, with Alicia, with Simon, with *herself* she is trying to inspire rage at one thing or another.

Now anyone who knows me likely knows I love themes of anger and mess so it's no surprise I love Clea so much. Clea is *angry* at the writers, and while the other family members likely share the sentiment, she is the only one seen to be stewing in that anger, who has stayed in it as long as everyone else has been mourning or bargaining or denying. As shown and stated by both herself and Renoir she is waging war alone and at the same time lashing out at anyone nearby. She blames Alicia  for Verso's death in his sacrifice for her and she shows outright disdain for Aline and her attempts to escape to a world where the tragedy didn't happen. Renoir, who is ostensibly on her side, is not immune as Clea repeatedly states he is wasting his time trying to force Aline out of the canvas. Even verso, whose death the family so greatly mourns, gets the word hate spoken towards him for his willing sacrifice for Alicia. But each of these are, in a fucked up way, some combination of care, grief, and love for each character.

Clea is not kind to Alicia, generally speaking. It is difficult to gauge what their relationship was like before Verso's death, but it was certainly worsened by the event. she belittles her and her abilities, and even a couple of instances flagrantly comments about her inability to speak from her scarring. I certainly wouldn't call it a warm dynamic but there's a repeating theme of treating Alicia like a child, *which she is* at her (likely) age of 16. In several instances Clea mentions that Alicia being in the painting would actually help (as she is unlikely to be helpful in fighting a war given her proficiency before going into the painting) and she says she won't have to worry about Alicia while she is spending time growing up in the painting as maelle. Clea even enters the painting again, something she has repeatedly said is a waste of time, to specifically ask Painted Verso to watch over her since it is safer for her in the Canvas. It's not a particularly kind love, but I think it is a love all the same. The Clea in the endless tower speaks to Maell-icia asking if she wants to have fun, get away from the stress of fighting for a moment. She is still antagonistic but her distance and Maell-icia’s safety in the canvas allow her to let down her walls enough to speak more kindly.

Clea and her mother have a rocky relationship, which we can see pretty clearly with her attitude towards her mother in the flashback and how Renoir's plan wouldn't even function without Clea's direct involvement in weakening her mother. There is an twinkle of admiration in her words, as Clea talks about how Aline used to be the head of the Painters Council, how Aline is far better at painting than Renoir is and how Clea had to help him to even have a chance, how Aline *would have* agreed with her before she became this different person in her mourning. She is also the only Dessendre child to consistently refer to her mother as “Aline” rather than “Maman”. She even paints over her mother's depiction of her, one of the most pointedly spiteful things in the game. While it is all antagonistic, I think it hides a resentment that Aline isn't with the rest of the family. The person Clea respected, who was head of the Painter’s Council, would not abandon her family — would not abandon *Clea* — like Aline has. And with her gone and unwilling to listen to anyone else on the subject, Clea has cut her out, abandoning her to the painting and only contributing to her expulsion because it will hasten Renoir to her cause.

Renoir and Clea are close, him being one of the only people she shows respect for. She doesn't speak very highly of his painting skill, and she is firm in her belief that his attempts to expel Aline are a waste of time, but he wants to live with his family in the real world, which is the closest that Clea has to someone to grieve with. And so she creates the nevrons to stop chroma from returning to Aline, and letter sends Alicia to go help him too. She really wants him out of the painting, thinking he will be of major assistance in the war she is fighting (despite her comment that he's not as strong as his wife). And the admiration is mutual. While there is some debate in the game if it is Clea or Alicia who is Renoir's favorite, we can see with Hauler, the Axon slain by Simon in Old Lumiere, that Renoir saw her as carrying a part of the world on her shoulders. Alone. Clea’s ostensible lack of care towards the events of the canvas is repeatedly betrayed by her actual actions that add up to Renoir’s eventual success. 

We don’t know much about the war going on, but we know that Clea is the only one in her family fighting in it, potentially the only person fighting in it *at all* if the throwaway lines about the state of the Painters is indicative of anything. Upon Verso’s death she starts fighting. And then Aline withdraws from the world leaving her family to grieve without her around, a betrayal from a woman and paintress Clea seems to respect. Renoir, the only one who seems to want everyone together, goes into the canvas to bring his wife out. Clea is left to sort things out on her own, using anger and fighting a war single handed to process her feelings. And all of this on top of having to care for her newly scarred younger sister (who Clea is already having a hard time not blaming for Verso's death) because her parents have abandoned them both. 

But Clea is a grown woman. She can handle this. And then time wears on. and on. So she creates Nevrons to speed the process up, to get her parents back. She goes in herself only to discover a painted version of her likeness, some kind woman helping this man she loves on an expedition to explore this newly shattered world. It's such an insult to Clea that she steals this fake version of her and *paints over her* — both a mark of skill as well as a pointed aggression towards Aline, painting over another artist's work. It’s easy to assume that she is simply offended by Aline painting a bad or unflattering depiction of her, but I think it’s actually the opposite. We know Aline is an amazing painter, Renoir remarks that Painted Verso is one of her finest creations and Maelle/Maell-icia both have an affinity towards Painted Alicia and seem to understand each other on an intrinsic level. Renoir and Painted Renoir interact very little but despite Maell-icia’s comment to the contrary, both are quite willing to commit mass murder to protect their respective families in the way they think is correct. I don’t think Aline got Clea wrong, I think she got Clea *deeply* and *uncomfortably* right. 

Clea, in her anger and her already growing disdain for her mother, sees this woman who loves and cares for her family, for her brother and for Simon, and loses it. It is too painful to see a version of herself happy and in love; and in anger and jealousy she steals her away and “forces” this Clea into someone endlessly producing Nevrons — alone and fighting her own war against the expeditions without her family. Clea disguises herself as her Painted counterpart and grants Simon the power to kill the Axon painted in her likeness — Hauler, She Who Carries the World (that’s not an official title but god I just *really* want to know what it was). In one fell swoop she has erased herself from the canvas and from both parents; leaving one corpse as a monument in the center of the world among crumbling ruins and one corpse an animated puppet painted over her likeness and trapped in a sky prison.

The final piece of the puzzle is verso, who we learn Clea was very very close to. The only canonical age we have is verso, who is 26, so it is difficult to draw hard lines around childhood, but given that Clea is the eldest and Alicia seems to be quite a bit younger than Verso, it makes sense that Clea would be closer to him than her. She would have spent 10ish years with him (which we get some small glimpses into throughout the game) before Alicia came along. We get a lot of stories about the two of them through fading souls and talking to Esquie and Francois. Verso is scared of the dark and Clea makes him the Lampmaster (scary as fuck nightlight), the two of them go on adventures with their respective imaginary friends/creations. In the extended scene where Esquie gets Urrie we learn that Francois enjoys dancing and singing, and that he used to do so with Clea all the time. While initially unclear if this is just Esquie's optimistic perspective on the situation, the ending in which Francois asks to keep the little stone (with him and clea carved together) shows us francois “crying dramatically” over the rock (and Verso commenting about how much he must miss her). If you go back to him later Francois actually *thanks* the player for giving him the rock, saying it is nice to have a carving of Clea. These memories and her parent’s depictions of her paint a very different image than the one we see in her few real appearances.

The personal nail in the coffin for me is Re-Painted Clea seeing Painted Verso in the flying manor. When you make your way up there Verso is surprised she is even alive, a testament to how well Clea pulled off her deception. After the fight the party determines that they can’t really kill her, but something causes one of Re-Painted Clea’s eyes to return to normal, accompanied by the sound of panting effort. Painted Clea regains control, if only briefly, and tries to reach out to Painted Verso, her brother. Her body cracks and strains at the movement, like she is fighting off Clea’s Re-painting just to hold his hand again. The effort isn't enough and Re-Painted Clea takes control again, backing away and shaking her head. She takes control of her Nevrons and bids them to attack her relentlessly until she dies in an explosion of paint and energy. Painted Verso only gets a moment to say goodbye to the energy left over before it dissipates. Painted Clea seeing the fight with Painted Verso is enough to give her the will to fight back against the weakened control, and Re-Painted Clea sees Painted Verso as enough of a threat to her control that she kills herself rather than risk it again (yet another cruel bit of programming from Clea in her Re-Painting process).

Honestly I could probably keep going and getting less and less coherent given that we have so little to work with but YOU SEE MY VISION. I KNOW YOU DO. Clea baby I love you and your anger. Your belief that anger will defeat the grief and that you can outrun it you just have to become meaner and more spiteful and don’t stop running and running and running or it will catch you in the dead of night. And then your grief will make you useless just like your family is. And what good are you if you don’t have use.

Fuck. Clea Dessendre.

[sunshinerainbowpuppy1224]

stardew valley fave animal HCs ^0^

i've wanted to post this for a bit!!!!!! i thought of em all >:3 !! PLEASE NOTE NONE OF THIS IS CANON -- ALL OF THESE ARE HEADCANONS I THOUGHT UP !! ALL FOR EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES TO LEARN AND KNOW MORE ANIMAL SPECIES THAT MIGHT BE GOING EXTINCT !!! GIANT NERD ALERT !! ` ------------------------------------------------------ Leah fox, specifically Red Fox (Cross Pelt; AKA Cross Fox) and Painted Dogs. Enjoys the Art side of their pelts and adores how they blend in. In her own words, "The art of Nature is within the Fur of the owner" (extra: hognose snake, chameleon) Abigail Mongolian wildcat, panther. Enjoys the cute side of cats as well as the hardcore style of them as well (hence the panther), totally has a panther tattoo somewhere (extra: Bombay cat, silver-pelted red-fox) Emily Aye-aye, monkeys. LOVES little baby monkeys, goes onto rants how she would make dresses for them like the ones on the internet. finds the Aye-aye to be misunderstood-- their cute yet creepy faces making her lil heart melt. no one understands why she likes them so much (extra: rainbow trout) Haley Tigers (White pelt). Firm believer of the "big cat bigger heart". Adores how gorgeous they are, how shiny the pelts look. Though a large lover of all tiger pelts, the black stripes against white fur struck her interest more (extra: leopard, painted dog) Maru Dolphin, Otters (River). really enjoys sea animals, but yet loves smart animals. She believes that they're misunderstood creatures, defending them with all her heart (extra: emperor penguin) Penny Giraffe, Bear (Kodiak breed). LOVES how beautiful they are, yet they keep to themselves. She isn't loud about her love of these animals but yet shares if mentioned (She's usually called a mama bear by the children of Pelican town) (extra: Harp seal) ------------------------------------------- Harvey Whale (Blue whale), Bernese mountain dog. When he was young he owned a Bernese Mountain dog-- Often talks about her when dogs are the topic. "She was the sweetest thing" he often states. Whales are his weird enjoyment, does A LOT of research on them & goes whale watching at the beach. Watched a film where they were flying overhead the main characters like airplanes!! loved them ever since (extra: Holland lop, African bush elephant, glass toad) Elliott (OTHER THEN LOBSTERS I SEE UR REPLIES FROM THE FUTURE) Amur Leopard, Vaquita . enjoys how gorgeous these animals are, the big doe eyes of these creatures giving him a little dopamine. Gets fairly upset once he learned the extinction of the Vaquita (extra: khaki Campbell duck ) Alex Ploughshare Tortoise, Golden retriever. Has had a little tortoise since he was young, he named him "Junior" but spelt it like "joonyer". Alex is very on that "Golden retriever boyfriend" trend and tries his best to be that

(extra: fried egg jellyfish, dik-dik) Shane (OTHER THEN CHICKENS) Hirola (Antelope) and Ant eater (southern tamandua). Finds them so weird, yet finds them so lonely. Finds himself looking into the eyes of Prey and relating so harshly. (extra: hereford cow, tamworth pig) Sebastian (OTHER THEN FROGS. GRRR) Ili Pika , deer ( Axis breed ). Adores cute little animals that own the biggest eyes, yet chose these little critters. Looks up pictures of them and cries (extra: slow loris , axolotl) Sam pangolin ( Philippine breed ) , Bush Dog . Found out about Pangolins through Pokemon, fell in love and looked into Pangolins more. Bush dogs are like little bear cubs to him-- yet has been attacked by one before. Does NOT care though finds them so cute

(extra: sugar glider, duck-billed platypus) ----------------------------------------------------------------- YAYYYYYAYAYAYYYY U GOT TO THE END YAYY

[lilithlounge]

Hii! Your blog is really interesting and I couldn't stop myself from being curious about my Lilith placement, since a lot of info online is vague af. I have Lilith in Virgo 4h at 8° (sextile moon, opposing Uranus and square both ASC/DSC).

What does it really mean? Also thank you a lot💞

Hiiiiiiii! First of all , bless you for calling out vague Lilith takes, because SAME. Let’s get into your placement and give it the tea it deserves. You’ve got Lilith in Virgo in the 4th house at 8° and babyyy, this is the energy of “I will reorganize your soul and make you face your emotional mess… but with love.” Think emotional dominatrix meets interior designer 😂.

8° Virgo Lilith is not here for sloppy vibes, she’s intuitive and precise, like the person who can spot one speck of dust on an otherwise spotless surface and feel deeply unsettled. But this isn’t just about cleaning this is about psychic cleanliness. In the 4th house, you carry ancestral power and possibly ancestral chaos, too. Your roots are complex, and your childhood was probably a season finale. You likely learned early on to protect your inner sanctuary (I feel you) which makes your presence feel mysteriously grounded yet slightly intimidating. People don’t know why they feel seen and judged when you say nothing.

Now, that sextile to the Moon. Let’s say that it softens the blow. You’re emotionally tuned in, possibly psychic, and people come to you for comfort but beware, they’ll stay for the comfort and then get hit by Lilith’s silent “do better” glare.

Opposing Uranus....girl, you’re a walking contradiction. One minute: “I crave stability.” Next minute: *throws self into a chaotic life shift for fun*. You shock people, especially family by being predictably unpredictable, and you’ve got a rebellious streak that shows up in your desire to live life your way. No one tells Lilith-in-the-4th how to build her home. Whether literal or metaphorical.

And ohhh, Square to ASC/DESC axis you make strong first impressions, often misunderstood, possibly labeled “intense” or “too much” by people who just can’t handle the depth and exacting energy you exude. Relationships are spicy. People project on you hard, and you’ve probably heard “you’re not what I expected” more than once. You challenge others to face themselves, and that can be… polarizing, but also hot.

My perspective in other words, is that you’re the cool cryptic witch with a perfectly organized altar, whose house feels like a sacred temple, but who also disappears randomly to start a revolution (or just rearrange furniture at 2AM). People don’t get you and that’s exactly how Lilith likes it. A hug from me to you 🫂.

[yrotic11]

A redditor asked:

VIRGO VENUS

Virgo Venus/6th house Venus too(as it’s also considered a place of detriment for Venus) , it’s an endearing placement to have in our real world in my opinion. When healthy, these people stand on their boundaries, they recognize more than most, the world is a dirty place when it comes to the love hemisphere but if they’re not careful can turn into them being picky and micromanaging , they do it out of love but they may not be able to see how suffocating it may feel to the receiving end of the party.

Because of their painful understanding of the world we live in they are not wooed by mere romantic sweet words of nothingness. These people want to see action be put in. Promises being valued, respected and held* up to. It’s an earth sign energy after all that also rules the day to day life.

They value CONSISTENCY. and they can get real groggy with you if they witness you not making an earnest effort because often this Venus takes on the role of giving and caring not just spiritually but physically. These type of virgoean Venus’ practice what they preach so the things they require in their relationship they so gladly will do for you no questions asked. Taking on the burdens of everyday life for you so your existence on earth for the days you are with them feels just a little sweeter. It’s on the axis of Pisces/12th house so there’s bound to be some self sacrificing element here.

The less mature ones might be stingy in their love sharing because of fear of being taken advantage of as this is often a reoccurring theme for this placement. Virgoean type of self sacrificing is far more unstabling tho, as it’s completely in the realms of the mundane.

Because of their style of sacrifice and then the harsh reality of the world around us, they’re forced to create boundaries for themselves which makes their standards high and often their rosters small because no one seems to quite live up to their wants and needs.

This can cause them to turn to superficiality because they’re human and still yearn for affection ,,and it hurts. they can see that others view them as too needy so to cope with this they may in-fact start doing the opposite instead of looking for internal character development in a partner , they focus entirely on physical appearance.

I see it more with men having their Venus in Virgo ,though. And they’re miserable yet, can seem to be honest enough with themselves to acknowledge what the real problem is😭some of the men might have strange obsessions with purity and might even perpetuate purity culture ideation unless Lilith is there or something which can either make it completely worse or pipe it down a good bit.

When/if they become completely tired of their back and forth with sacrifice they may just give up and just give the love they crave to themselves and allow it to overflow first from themselves, and let it overflow to you or whoever is receiving them.

OR they can be a miserable piece a pooh, making others miserable and traumatized in the process. However, eventually some may even completely reject the idea of dating or getting married to protect their peace this is often the more healed party, they don’t wanna participate/continue in perpetuations of manipulation that comes with the dating scene so they just remove themselves and watch from a distance. In the flesh they’re often a blessing gone sourly unrecognized. they want to work to accomplish your needs, they yearn for that in return; they don’t get it. Sad love story, very misunderstood set of people.

Also in relationships the people receiving the Virgo/6h Venus might not even be able to see their love language style/or even care to learn this Venus’s love style because the love they give does not include/ or care for the games and the dance of love interlock manipulation. Their love is a simple and a scornfully real type of love. So intertwined with the normalities of the mundane that..it goes unnoticed. That’s my own personal perspective what I’ve seen and witnessed.

[morrysonando]

My (real) first attempt at an AU (go easy on me lol), "Undertale Yellow: Inherited Justice"! This is an AU of Undertale yellow that assigns roles to certain characters to see how the world of Undertale yellow would operate under the characters leading different lives but still retaining most of their personalities and (most) their species. In this AU Mooch takes the role of Starlo, here's some details about her: - Having never met Starlo and never being kept in check by him, she was free to steal everything to her hearts content, becoming so rich and powerful from her escapades that she was able to take control of waterfall and turn it into a modern dystopian city called Neo Waterfall (replaces the Wild East) - Leader of a Yakuza style gang composed of 4 other members in Neo Waterfall called the Mooch Ministers (Feisty Five equivalent) - Got this idea from reading a manga she stole - Has control of most of the city and has lots of residents under her debt - Aided in Chujins firing and has now forced him to work for her - Doing this for her own enjoyment, no one else's. -  Despite this she still cares about people, especially her posse, and isn't completely heartless, just doesn't show it often - Thinks Axis is just misunderstood so she helps him - Loves money almost as much as she loves herself - The blunt she's smoking isn't even real, it's just crushed up powder she breathes out or burns up because she thinks smoking makes her look intimidating but doesn't have the courage to actually smoke - In a war for control over waterfall with Undyne - tries to get Salvia to join her group, depending on the route you get the option to say yes or no - Starlo and Undyne team up to try and take her down since they have a common enemy - Thinks Starlo is adorable rather than considering him a worthy adversary - Still finds him annoying more than anything - says "bada bing" on occasion despite being a Yakuza leader and not a mafia one, no one knows why.

[windforestsso]

Genuine question.

Why are people mad at SSOs goblins?

I have looked up multiple blogs and articles about goblins being offensive or not. In an attempt to figure out the answer myself. Most of them say that Goblins aren't naturally offensive and using the word isnt wrong.

And they really only offensive depending on how they are portayed. Aka, have a big hooked nose and are greedy.

The stuff I found was often bringing up: 1, Rowling did everything wrong and Tolkien is not as bad but still very not good.

Rowling seemed to have access to a "what not to do with Goblins" list and done that. (Saw someone mentioning that the hooked noses were added to the movies. Never read the books so can't say if its true that the movies did make them worse or not on that point.)

JRR Tolkien was affected by ww1 and goblins and orcs was most likely representing the germans and possible the axis power as LoTR were written during ww2 and the orcs and goblins were written to be evil with no redemption.

I saw people here just mentioning being mad that the creatures were called 'goblins' in SSO. Which doesnt make sense to me as I have seen people not minding the use of 'goblins'.

I guess its the part that the snow goblins want the winter magic in the snow piles that make them seem greedy to players. I personally saw it more them being mischievous as the winter magic exist in the wild that they picked up and then running away with it from us.

But is that the part thats offensive that I misunderstood as being fine?

If I’m not seeing something please feel free to tell me your thoughts so I can understand.

[philosophersystemguides]

This guide is provided for informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional mental health care. We are not licensed mental health professionals, therapists, or counselors. The content in this guide is based on knowledge, resources, and techniques that we have researched and applied in our own journeys. While we hope the guide is helpful and supportive, it should not be considered medical advice, and it is important to consult with a qualified mental health professional for diagnosis, treatment, or therapeutic guidance specific to your needs.

If you are experiencing a mental health crisis, please seek immediate assistance from a licensed professional or contact emergency services.

Understanding Triggers in PTSD and DID

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is a complex and often misunderstood mental health condition characterized by the presence of two or more distinct identities or personality states, often referred to as "alters." These alters may have their own unique memories, behaviors, and ways of interacting with the world. DID is typically the result of severe trauma, usually during early childhood, such as prolonged abuse or neglect. Understanding how to avoid triggering someone with DID involves recognizing different types of triggers, identifying signs of distress, and implementing supportive strategies.

Types of Triggers

Triggers for people with DID can vary widely and are often unique to each individual. They generally fall into several categories:

1. Stress and Emotional Intensity

Broad Impact of Stress: High levels of stress or emotional intensity can provoke a switch between alters. This stress can stem from everyday situations, like work pressure, or from more intense experiences, such as interpersonal conflict. Chronic or cumulative stressors can also contribute to triggering dissociation due to the underlying dysregulation of the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis in individuals with DID[^1][^2].

2. Memories and Reminders of Trauma

Internal and External Triggers: Specific memories or reminders of past trauma, whether external (e.g., smells, sounds) or internal (e.g., intrusive thoughts, emotional states), can trigger a switch. State-dependent memory is particularly relevant in DID; memories encoded in a dissociative state may only be accessible or triggered in a similar state, complicating the identification and management of those triggers[^1][^3].

3. Environmental Sensory Triggers

Diverse Sensory Inputs: Sights, sounds, smells, textures, or even specific colors linked to traumatic memories can cause a dissociative response. For example, the feel of certain fabrics or the sight of specific colors may remind someone of their trauma and trigger a switch[^3][^4].

4. Changes in Relationships or Social Dynamics

Broader Social Dynamics: Interactions with specific individuals or shifts in social roles (e.g., becoming a caregiver or joining a new social group) can act as triggers. This can include encountering someone who resembles an abuser or experiencing changes in group dynamics[^4].

5. Substance Use and Medications

Impact of Substances: Alcohol and drugs can lower the threshold for switching and may trigger dissociation. Certain medications, particularly those affecting the central nervous system (e.g., benzodiazepines, some antidepressants), can also exacerbate dissociative symptoms in some people[^5][^6].

Identifying Triggers

For the Person with DID

Self-awareness is crucial for individuals with DID to identify their triggers:

Monitoring Emotional, Physical, and Cognitive Responses: Beyond just emotional and physical responses like mood changes or physical symptoms, individuals should also pay attention to subtle cognitive shifts, such as difficulties with concentration or memory lapses, which can signal an approaching dissociative episode[^7][^8].

Journaling: Keeping a detailed journal of daily experiences, emotional states, and dissociative episodes can help identify patterns. Trauma-focused cognitive-behavioral therapy (TF-CBT) techniques within journaling can further enhance this process, helping individuals process traumatic memories more effectively[^7].

Internal Dialogue: Communication between alters can provide insights into triggers and it's also recommended that you internally communicate with the other alters of your system. [^9][^10].

For Friends and Caregivers

Friends, family, and caregivers can play a vital role in identifying triggers:

Recognizing Baseline Behavior: Understanding the baseline behavior of the individual is important, as different alters may exhibit unique behaviors. Familiarity with "co-consciousness," where multiple alters are aware of and can influence each other's actions, can help caregivers interpret whether behavioral changes are due to a switch or a co-conscious alter exerting influence[^11].

Recognizing Physical Symptoms and Motor Phenomena: Caregivers should be aware of dissociative motor phenomena, such as unexplained muscle weakness or paralysis, which can occur in some individuals with DID. Interdisciplinary collaboration between mental health professionals and neurologists is often necessary to avoid misdiagnosis[^12].

Listening for Distress Signals and Offering Grounding Support: Caregivers should be trained in grounding techniques, which can help reorient the individual to the present moment during a dissociative episode. Techniques like deep breathing, tactile objects, or sensory focus are particularly effective[^9].

Strategies to Avoid Triggering

1. Creating a Safe and Emotionally Secure Environment

Minimize Sensory and Emotional Overload: Avoid environments that are loud, chaotic, or emotionally charged. Ensuring that interactions are calm and free from potential emotional triggers is crucial. Additionally, providing a "safe space" or "safe object" can help anchor the individual in the present[^9][^13].

2. Predictability and Routine

Use of Shared Calendars and Anchoring Events: Maintaining a consistent routine is important. Providing access to a shared calendar or schedule can help the individual anticipate changes and reduce anxiety associated with the unknown. Incorporating "anchoring events," or predictable, regular activities, can further help maintain stability[^9][^13].

3. Respecting and Re-Evaluating Boundaries

Continuous Communication and Informed Consent: Boundaries may change over time as the individual’s alters interact and evolve. Regularly checking in and respecting these changing boundaries is key to maintaining trust and safety. Ensuring "informed consent" among all alters for certain activities or discussions is also crucial[^14].

4. Supportive Grounding Techniques

Personalized Techniques and Evidence-Based Methods: Different alters may respond to different grounding techniques. Having a range of strategies available, such as deep breathing, tactile objects, or visualization, ensures that support is tailored to the individual’s needs. The "5-4-3-2-1" grounding technique, which focuses on immediate sensory experiences, is particularly effective in reducing dissociative symptoms[^15].

5. Educating Yourself and the Support Network

Utilizing Reputable Resources: Educating yourself about DID is essential. Recommending specific books, reputable websites, and suggesting participation in support groups for caregivers can further enhance the support network’s effectiveness. The International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation (ISSTD) offers resources and guidelines for understanding and treating DID[^16].

Neurobiological Aspects of DID

Recent research indicates that DID is associated with structural and functional changes in the brain. For instance, studies have shown that individuals with DID often have alterations in the hippocampus, amygdala, and prefrontal cortex—areas of the brain involved in memory, emotional regulation, and executive functioning[^17]. These neurobiological findings help explain the memory disturbances and emotional dysregulation commonly seen in DID.

Integration as a Treatment Goal

Integration, the process of merging separate identities into a unified self, is a controversial and complex goal in DID treatment. While some individuals with DID may pursue integration, others may focus on improving cooperation and communication between alters. This decision should be made collaboratively between the patient and therapist, taking into account the individual's preferences and therapeutic progress[^18].

Cultural and Societal Influences

Cultural factors significantly influence how DID is perceived and diagnosed. In some cultures, dissociative symptoms may be interpreted through spiritual or religious lenses, which can affect both the individual’s experience of the disorder and the approach to treatment[^19]. Understanding these cultural influences is crucial for providing culturally sensitive care.

Comorbid Conditions

DID often coexists with other mental health conditions such as depression, anxiety, PTSD, and borderline personality disorder. These comorbidities can complicate the diagnosis and treatment of DID. Effective treatment plans must address these comorbid conditions, often requiring an integrated approach involving multiple therapeutic modalities[^20].

Conclusion

Supporting someone with DID involves a commitment to creating a safe, predictable, and emotionally secure environment. By identifying and avoiding triggers, utilizing grounding techniques, respecting boundaries, and ensuring that support is informed by current best practices, caregivers and friends can significantly reduce the frequency of dissociative episodes and promote stability and safety for individuals with DID. Ongoing therapy, both individual and possibly group-based, remains essential in helping the person manage their condition and work towards integration or more harmonious coexistence of their alters.

Recommended Books on DID

"The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization" by Onno van der Hart, Ellert R.S. Nijenhuis, and Kathy Steele

This book provides a comprehensive exploration of the theory of structural dissociation and offers detailed guidance on treating DID and related disorders.

"Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation: Skills Training for Patients and Therapists" by Suzette Boon, Kathy Steele, and Onno van der Hart

A practical guide that offers skills training to help individuals with DID manage dissociation and related symptoms.

"Dissociative Identity Disorder: Theoretical and Treatment Controversies" edited by John L. Spira and Elizabeth K. Bowman

This book provides a balanced view of the theoretical and treatment controversies surrounding DID, making it an excellent resource for both professionals and interested readers.

4."Amongst Ourselves: A Self-Help Guide to Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder" by Tracy Alderman and Karen Marshall

A self-help guide written by therapists with experience in DID, offering practical advice and exercises for individuals with DID and their support networks.

These books provide in-depth knowledge and practical tools for understanding and managing Dissociative Identity Disorder, making them valuable resources for anyone looking to support someone with DID or further their own understanding of the condition.

References

[^1]: Ross, C. A. (2018). Dissociative Identity Disorder: Diagnosis, Clinical Features, and Treatment of Multiple Personality. John Wiley & Sons. [^2]: Brand, B. L., & Loewenstein, R. J. (2010). Dissociative Identity Disorder as a Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder. The Psychiatric Clinics of North America, 33(3), 509-530. [^3]: van der Hart, O., Nijenhuis, E. R. S., & Steele, K. (2006). The Haunted Self: Structural Dissociation and the Treatment of Chronic Traumatization. Norton. [^4]: International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation (ISSTD). (2011). Guidelines for Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder in Adults, Third Revision. [^5]: DID Research. (n.d.). Substance Use and DID. Retrieved from https://did-research.org/treatment/issues/substance_use [^6]: Dell, P. F., & O'Neil, J. A. (Eds.). (2009). Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: DSM-V and Beyond. Routledge. [^7]: Boon, S., Steele, K., & van der Hart, O. (2011). Coping with Trauma-Related Dissociation: Skills Training for Patients and Therapists. W. W. Norton & Company. [^8]: DID Research. (n.d.). Identifying Triggers in DID. Retrieved from https://did-research.org/treatment/issues/triggers [^9]: Chu, J. A. (2011). Rebuilding Shattered Lives: Treating Complex PTSD and Dissociative Disorders. Wiley. [^10]: Kluft, R. P. (2003). Current Issues in Dissociative Identity Disorder. The Psychiatric Clinics of North America, 26(2), 257-292. [^11]: ISSTD. (2011). Guidelines for Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder in Adults, Third Revision. [^12]: Scaer, R. C. (2005). The Trauma Spectrum: Hidden Wounds and Human Resiliency. Norton. [^13]: DID Research. (n.d.). Supporting Someone with DID. Retrieved from https://did-research.org/caregivers/support [^14]: Herman, J. L. (2015). Trauma and Recovery: The Aftermath of Violence—From Domestic Abuse to Political Terror. Basic Books. [^15]: Levine, P. A. (2010). In an Unspoken Voice: How the Body Releases Trauma and Restores Goodness. North Atlantic Books. [^16]: ISSTD. (2011). Guidelines for Treating Dissociative Identity Disorder in Adults, Third Revision. [^17]: Reinders, A. A. T. S., Willemsen, A. T. M., den Boer, J. A., & Vos, H. P. J. (2014). Differences in the Brain Structure of Women with Dissociative Identity Disorder and Healthy Women. PLOS ONE, 9(6), e99888. [^18]: Steele, K., Boon, S., & van der Hart, O. (2017). Treating Trauma-Related Dissociation: A Practical, Integrative Approach. Norton. [^19]: Castillo, R. J. (1997). Culture and Dissociative Identity Disorder. The Psychiatric Clinics of North America, 20(3), 563-581. [^20]: Foote, B., Smolin, Y., Kaplan, M., Legatt, M. E., & Lipschitz, D. (2006). Dissociative Disorders and Suicidality in Psychiatric Outpatients. The Journal of Nervous and Mental Disease, 194(8), 599-601.

[margridarnauds]

🍓 🥐 🍬

  🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction? 

I mean, my very earliest "fanfiction" was like. My Barbie horses (Arwen and Elessar) going all over the realms, defeating threats like Preminger from Barbie: Princess and the Pauper, Sauron, and Imhotep. (The Axis of Evil, truly.)

It was just...always a part of me. It came naturally. I learned about fanfiction as a formal Thing when I was about 12, via ff.net, and I read fanfic about like. Balto and Harry Potter teaming up to defeat Voldemort, or the Warrior Cats going on game shows and having sleepovers where they got high on sugar.

I didn't write for a while after that, mainly because....well. Even though it was a time of uninhibited freedom in some ways, it was also a time when fics considered to be "bad" were often subjected to "sporkings" aka "being made fun of, openly, online." And I always bring this up because I think it's a part of online fandom culture that's been mostly forgotten over the years and seems like a really surreal things, but I remember very well how scary it was for me, as a teenager coming of age in fandom. I always thought my writing would never be good enough, so I hid it away -- on the few occasions where I DID write fic, I kept it stuffed away.

...then,I stayed up the night before my GRE and decided that I was FINALLY scared of something MORE than public humiliation, published my first fic on AO3, and the rest was history.

🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh 

Pull the Trigger, Piglet.

  🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

Honestly I'm so cut off from conventional "fandom" conversations, for the most part, that I don't even know what's popular or unpopular, and some of what I *know* to be unpopular opinions (wrt BG3 for example) are things I've already discussed on here so I don't want to beat a dead horse, especially since one look at the BG3 fandom bitching account is enough to make me shut up about my own fandom quibbles.

Mina isn't a "New Woman" character.

Dracula isn't Vlad the Impaler; Bela Lugosi was actually the most accurate Dracula, nationality-wise. (As a Hungarian, which Stoker seemed to imply that Dracula was meant to be.)

Adam from Hazbin Hotel isn't a misunderstood woobie who needs the power of true love to save him (as opposed to the Evil Bitch Lilith) -- he's. He's a dick. And if they GO for his redemption at the cost of Lilith's characterization next season, I will not be happy. (I want him to stay dead.) (I would also not be surprised though) (I would not say I'm a fan of Hazbin Hotel as opposed to a cautiously intrigued observer.)

People are mean to Judith in Duke Bluebeard's Castle :(

I prefer Princess Toadstool > Princess Peach -- and back in my day, she gave me power ups that allowed me to turn into a raccoon (okay, not really, but understood in English localizations to be a raccoon).

[esotericfaery]

Intimate Spiritual Diaries, 13: Tapping Into Ones Pure, Cosmic Alchemical Power

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TLDR; I’m a “snob”, scholars & addicts, criminal fixed stars & more, why I get tired of people in general, the 6th, 8th & 12th Houses, everyone relates sometimes, hope of avoiding misunderstandings, & this is the core of each life-forms connection with the Divine.

If only more people would live naturally & consciously to be more like the Ascendant sign, this would contribute to causing the resolution and future lessening of many Sun (ego) mirroring off the Moon (emotions) patterns, which further complicate themselves as illustrated throughout the chart.

This is how working with Astrology promotes free will, not strict prognostication.

The Ascendant is the purest spark of Who creates each being, as we incarnate.

Uncovering the mysteries of the Ascendant causes recognition of the Divinity spark of the self, and that which is or had been buried in others.

The Ascendant is the spirit. The body drives the ego part of the human. This is why it's so important to not only regularly meditate, but ground, centre, and shield our energies from the chaotic emotion forms and thought forms of the masses.

But no, we often can't have that, because we get stuck in laziness (“thanks” trines). So then we ignore the lessons of Mars which are wise strategic actions, and react harshly towards ourselves & others. We allow ourselves to be distracted by the overly-luxurious Venus. We could work with other things, including specifically Venus for creative solutions.

The 6th House (and by association the 12th) in Astrology, form the axis where the everyday meets the esoteric.

This means, when in unawareness, constant subconscious-only attempts to process the forms of energy people expel in unawareness.

This functions as an un-oiled machine; a toroid which slows its spinning. Poor health in some form is a result, through the etheric layers of the body & thrown around dangerously also, inside the physical part of the body.

Everyone experiences what I described above at times in life, through transits involving either one of those houses, and transits involving their associated signs (Virgo & Pisces’) ruling planets, Chiron & Neptune.

Those of us who have developed and continue to develop the innate human ability for psychic skills, know this very well through our experiences, and have tools to protect ourselves, and transmute.

It’s constantly fatiguing though, to people like me, who have stuff like Sun, Moon, Saturn, Jupiter, Mercury, Juno, plus more asteroids and fixed stars than I want to lengthen this post with, conjunct in the 6th. I also have my Ascendent at the anaretic degree (the 12th House), which indicates presentation of lesson completion energy. Each house has lessons for us all to learn in life.

In recent years, I’ve been congratulated by my Ancestors for having completed the lessons of the 1st house. We all have lessons in each house. I have others to learn, and am determined to. Gratitude to my Ancestors and to my earth angel (incarnated people) friends and family for all of your help.

Those of us with prominent emphasis on both of those houses are often misunderstood as snobby, when we're naturally either scholarly, or become addicts. Many of us, including me, are as friendly as anyone else, if people aren’t impatient & overly judgemental. Both houses, for various reasons, are partly to deal with, and heal, how very real it is that we have to both resolve our own shadow work, and the shadows of everyone else around us who is in unawareness.

We don’t get tired and isolate because we think we’re better than the rest of you. We do it because we require such healing retreats.

One final note on me being misunderstood, & how there’s hope: The fixed star Unukalhai. It is known as the star which compels those with already-criminally-configured natal charts, to act on their dark desires. As with everything else in Astrology, as it’s in the skies, we all have it somewhere in our charts. My birth chart has it in the 8th House (Scorpio), conjunct Uranus (shock, unusual innovation).

They’re also in a stellium with these fixed stars: Alphecca (“lord of death”, indicates gifted Astrology access), Zubenelgenubi (wrongful accusations, obstructions, lack of forgiveness), & Zubeneschamali (high ambition, good fortune, loss through enemies leading to influential friends).

The Arabic Lot of Courage is also in that stellium.

As that’s all in the heavily transformative-pushing 8th House, people instinctively think that when I’m casually giving good advice they seem to be asking for, because it’s something that’s worked for me, I’m trying to “lord of death”, them, and they think that I have hidden (criminal) intentions. Multiple times, people in unawareness have said to me, even after years of friendship, stuff like, “I just feel a darkness in you. I can’t continue this friendship.” I used to try and understand why, but they couldn’t or wouldn’t ever explain it further. This has happened through dating, as I’m always the one getting ghosted. This situations don’t involve anything even resembling what anyone could consider an altercation.

It’s mind control, and people give in to it.

Aside from shoplifting as a kid, to distract myself from being bullied by most of the kids at my school, I don’t have criminal behaviours. I felt guilty for the shoplifting because as my parents correctly lectured me about why it was wrong, I stopped.

I’m tired of lazy, sometimes even perverted people dumping their 6th / 12th / 8th trash on me, and avoiding their own karmic responsibilities for their own shadow work. Even those who have somewhat aware lifestyles do this.

May everyone learn personal responsibility, the tools to do their own shadow work, and thrive.

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Axis and allies with a puppeteer s/o who does shows for kids ♥️ please and thank you

Allies + Axis with a puppeteer S/O

(I think this was asked prior to one of my limited character rules, but please keep in mind to skim over the rules before asking uwu thank you)

Allies:

America:

He thinks it's wicked creepy.

Even if it's for kids

Swears the puppets are slowly stealing the life of the kids

S/O might as well have fun with it

That back fires a little. Once he was the tiny puppet version if himself becomes... involves.

His puppet now must be the hero in the show as well.

Congrats! Now puppets are only 56% creepy...

England

He actually thinks it's sweet.

He use to play puppets with America at one point.

That was until one of them mysteriously crawled in bed with America as a little kid. That snowballed into a lot of tears and screaming that night....

He's glad to see most of the kids enjoying the show.

His S/O can witness England giving his attention to the kids who did find the puppets scary.

Magic tricks and song a longs is his thing, so his S/O can be at rest at events from now on.

France

He's neither here or there.

Thinks the kids reaction is adorable though.

It also doesn't take long for him to sit in the middle of the children as a very involved audience member.

There will be one or two kids sitting in his lap, hiding their face in his cape at the 'Scary dragon' parts.

He may have 'lost' his cape at a couple events because he didn't have the heart to take it from the little sprouts when they thought it was a heros cape.

And yes he gasps dramatically and eggs on the children as well during the show. May have also pretended to cry at some parts.

China

He's no stranger to stage plays and puppets.

He introduces his S/O to shadow puppets, and is wicked impressive with them as well.

Offers to help with the shows, even if it's with string or hand puppets.

He starts to make shadow boxes and puppets for the more scared kids to play with, making Goofy voices for them.

Oddly enough any recording or photos of him doing so vanish completely...

Russia

Insert happy Russia noises.

Of COURSE he collects puppets, especially from his country.

Some of which seemed cursed but those are the ones he holds the dearest to his heart, seeming them as misunderstood like him.

He has zero problem helping out, but the stage maaay need to be made a little bigger.

Kind of loves being the villian in the stories.

His S/O has since then edited the stories so the villians have a happy ending as well.

The kids flock to him when he gives his stage bow.

Scarf has now become a swing, and Russia a jungle gym.

He will not want to leave so good luck.

Axis

Germany

Tis hand puppet time!

He has kept a puppet that a small girl gave him during his... less that joyful Era.

He let's his S/O hold it ONLY if they are wearing gloves and all lose hair and clothing is tucked away!

He doesn't mind watching the show. It makes him feel nostalgic and childish.

Don't tell anyone he mouths the words after learning the scripts

Doesn't know what to do with the kids who are creeper out by the puppets.

He guesses he's a guardian now?

Once tossed a piece of popcorn at one of the evil villians, and the kids went wild with laughter.

7/10 would like to join events more often.

Italy

Yall thought he'd be scared?

WRONG.

He is a child om the inside and enjoys it more then literally anyone his S/O met.

Loves to help make tiny clothes for the puppets and even makes cute props for the kids.

Has some cute story ideas.

Occasionally joins in or watches over the scared children, distracting them or letting them hide and cling to him.

Sweet baby boy, is sweet.

He will make a very successful attempt at making him and his S/O as puppets.

AND THEY HAVE MAGNETS IN THEIR HANDS!?

They hold hands now. And will never let go.

Japan

An immediate spewing fountain of puppet history. How their made, the diffeent cultures between countries

S/O has a whole library of ideas and inspiration at their hands

He LOVES watching it with the children, even letting them gasp and hide their faces into his arms.

His S/O has to refrain from breaking character due to the stern and focused look he has during the show.

Make him as a puppet, PLEASE

It will be the guardian of his anime figurines from then on out.

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Spotlight on IBS, GERD & Celiac Disease: How GastroenterologyUCG 2025 Is Addressing Major Digestive Challenges

Spotlight on IBS, GERD & Celiac Disease: How GastroenterologyUCG 2025 Is Addressing Major Digestive Challenges Digestive disorders such as Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Gastroesophageal Reflux Disease (GERD), and Celiac Disease affect millions globally and are among the most commonly diagnosed gastrointestinal conditions. Yet, despite their prevalence, these disorders remain complex, often misunderstood, and notoriously difficult to treat. At the upcoming 15th World Gastroenterology, IBD & Hepatology Conference (GastroenterologyUCG 2025), Track 16: Digestive Disorders will bring together global experts to explore emerging diagnostics, therapies, and research focused on improving outcomes for patients living with these chronic conditions.

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📍 Event Overview Conference Name: 15th World Gastroenterology, IBD & Hepatology Conference (GastroenterologyUCG 2025) Dates: December 17–19, 2025 Location: Dubai, UAE Track Focus: Digestive Disorders Abstract Submission Link: https://gastroenterology.utilitarianconferences.com/submit-abstract Contact on WhatsApp: https://wa.me/971551792927

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🌱 IBS: Navigating the Complexity of a Functional GI Disorder Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) is one of the most common functional gastrointestinal disorders, affecting an estimated 10–15% of the global population. Despite its prevalence, IBS often goes undiagnosed or misdiagnosed due to its broad symptom spectrum and overlap with other GI conditions. At GastroenterologyUCG 2025, sessions will cover:

The latest in IBS subtyping and diagnostic criteria

Advances in gut-brain axis research

The role of dietary interventions, including low-FODMAP strategies

Microbiome modulation as a therapeutic approach

Integration of psychological therapies like CBT and gut-directed hypnotherapy

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Non-invasive diagnostics and endoscopic advances

New pharmacologic treatments beyond PPIs

Lifestyle-based prevention strategies

Innovations in surgical and procedural interventions

Evaluating GERD in special populations (e.g., pediatrics, elderly)

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Improved serological and genetic testing methods

Non-dietary therapies currently under research

Understanding silent and atypical celiac presentations

Long-term management and monitoring in gluten-free patients

The importance of early detection in pediatric and high-risk populations

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🤝 Why This Track Matters Track 16: Digestive Disorders is more than a discussion of disease mechanisms. It’s a platform for:

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Rahu and Ketu’s Spiritual Lessons in Life

In Vedic astrology, Rahu and Ketu are two mysterious, shadowy planets that don’t have physical bodies but possess deep spiritual and karmic influence. Often feared or misunderstood, these celestial points are associated with karma, destiny, transformation, and soul evolution.

Unlike other planets that represent tangible areas of life, like Venus for love or Mars for action, Rahu and Ketu represent the unseen forces, past life experiences, and spiritual lessons the soul must learn in this lifetime. As explained by AstroVijay, the best astrologer in Madhya Pradesh, understanding these points in your birth chart can unlock profound insights into your spiritual journey.

Let’s explore what Rahu and Ketu really represent and what they teach us in this journey of life.

Who Are Rahu and Ketu?

In ancient Hindu mythology, Rahu and Ketu were once a single demon named Swarbhanu. During the divine churning of the cosmic ocean (Samudra Manthan), Swarbhanu tried to sneak into the nectar of immortality meant for the gods. Lord Vishnu caught him and cut him in half with his Sudarshan Chakra. The head became Rahu, and the body became Ketu.

Though they are not physical planets, Rahu and Ketu are mathematical points on the lunar path and hold immense astrological significance. According to AstroVijay, widely regarded as the best astrologer in India, these shadow planets guide us through both material desires and spiritual awakening.

Rahu: The Worldly Obsession and Illusion

Rahu represents material desires, ambition, fame, and foreign connections. It pulls the native towards the external world, often in an intense and obsessive way.

Spiritual Lessons from Rahu:

Desire Is Never-EndingRahu teaches that no matter how much we achieve in the outer world, the craving never stops. It’s like drinking salty water when thirsty—it creates more thirst. This eventually pushes us to ask deeper questions: “Is this all there is?” In this way, Rahu becomes the catalyst for inner awakening.

Illusion vs. RealityRahu often creates illusions. People under its strong influence may chase fame, wealth, or power, only to realize later that these are not the true sources of happiness. This disillusionment is painful but necessary—it helps us detach from ego-driven goals.

Breaking BoundariesRahu is linked to the unconventional, the foreign, and the new. It forces us out of our comfort zone. Spiritually, this teaches non-attachment to identity — race, religion, or societal labels — and moves us toward a more universal mindset.

Ketu: The Detached Mystic

Ketu, on the other hand, represents spiritual detachment, moksha (liberation), past life mastery, and inner wisdom. While Rahu is outward and hungry, Ketu is inward and content.

Spiritual Lessons from Ketu:

Letting GoKetu brings experiences where you have to release control. Whether it’s losing a job, a relationship, or status, Ketu’s job is to remove the illusion of ownership and remind you: nothing truly belongs to you. This detachment is painful but liberating.

Mastery from Past LivesKetu indicates skills and wisdom you’ve already carried from past incarnations. Spiritually, it reminds us of what the soul already knows, especially in areas like meditation, intuition, or esoteric knowledge. It nudges us to trust inner guidance over external noise.

True Peace Is WithinKetu teaches that peace doesn’t come from achieving more, but from being still and content with less. It leads you toward silence, simplicity, and inner joy — the real spiritual wealth.

Rahu-Ketu Axis: The Journey of the Soul

In your birth chart, Rahu and Ketu are always 180 degrees apart, forming an axis. This represents your karmic journey:

Ketu shows where you come from (past lives, previous soul experiences)

Rahu shows where you need to grow (present life challenges and desires)

For example: If Ketu is in the 4th house (home, inner peace) and Rahu is in the 10th house (career, status), the soul has mastered inner peace in past lives and now craves worldly achievement. The challenge is to balance both, not lose peace while gaining success.

This axis pushes us toward balance, evolution, and soul development, making it one of the most spiritually significant parts of the horoscope.

What Can You Do to Work with Rahu and Ketu’s Energy?

Here are some simple practices to align with their higher vibration:

Remedies:

Meditation & Breathwork – Especially helpful during Rahu-Ketu transit phases.

Chanting Mantras –

Rahu: “Om Raam Rahave Namah”

Ketu: “Om Ketave Namah”

Fasting on Saturdays – Helps calm karmic restlessness.

Worshipping Lord Shiva or Lord Ganesha – Both are associated with dissolving ego and illusion.

Astrological Consultation – A personalized chart reading can reveal the exact impact of Rahu and Ketu in your life.

Final Thoughts: Embrace the Journey

While Rahu and Ketu can bring sudden changes, confusion, and ups and downs, they are not your enemies. They are your spiritual teachers in disguise.

Rahu says: “Go out, experience, and chase what you want — so you learn it’s not the end.”

Ketu says: “Come back, reflect, and detach — so you remember what truly matters.”

Together, they take you on a journey from illusion to truth, from external chase to internal stillness. Understanding their message is not just astrology — it’s awakening.

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The Royal Art of Magic: 10 Forbidden Truths About Power

Title: The Magical Path: Power, Initiation, and the Regal Tradition

Tags: #Tradition #Magic #Initiation #Power #Evola

Magic as Superior Science – True magic transcends vulgar occultism, aligning with the ars regia—the royal art of spiritual dominion. It is not mere psychic manipulation but a path to primordial reintegration.

Spiritual Virility – The magus embodies spiritual masculinity: dominance, sovereignty, and detachment. Unlike passive mysticism, magic demands active mastery over forces, both inner and outer.

Power Attracts the Centered – Power seeks the initiate who has become an immovable axis—not the one who craves it. Desire for power scatters it; impassibility magnetizes it.

Dangers of the Powers – Powers are perilous. If the initiate’s inner resolve wavers, they consume him. Mastery requires unbroken tension—like a pillar unmoved by torrents.

Rejection of Powers is Absurd – Powers are intrinsic to the initiate’s metaphysical state, like nirvana. One does not "renounce" them—they are the chrism of his being.

The Misunderstood Magus – The profane imagines a magus as an ordinary man with added "powers." In truth, the magus is a different order of being—his desires and interests are transfigured.

Magic vs. Technology – Modern technology mimics low magic: automatic, externalized effects. True magic is causal evidence, an emanation of the initiate’s unified being.

The Heroic and Regal Path – Magic aligns with the warrior-initiate tradition, not priestly contemplation. The "hero" (Hesiod’s demi-god) reclaims the divine state through action.

The Trial of Active Identity – Some traditions (e.g., Islamic esotericism, the Bhagavad Gita) teach that mastery over action is the test—transcending ecstatic passivity for sovereign manifestation.

Beyond Good and Evil – The adept’s actions stem from the invariable middle—neither "good" nor "evil," but from the center, where opposites dissolve in the impersonal will.

"Power is feminine: she obeys only him who does not seek her."

On Magic and Its Powers

The term "magic" must be clarified beyond modern distortions—whether vulgar Anglo-Saxon pursuits of "personal magnetism" or the degraded forms of ancient ritualistic magic, which often amounted to mere manipulation of subtle forces for practical ends. However, limiting magic to these inferior expressions is shortsighted.

True magic aligns with higher initiatic traditions. The Persian Magi, for instance, were not mere sorcerers but bearers of a sacred science linked to power (mögen in Germanic roots). Even Christianity, while condemning "accursed" magic, retained the term magi for the three exalted figures at Christ’s birth—symbols of initiatic dignity. Renaissance Hermeticists like Cesare della Riviera spoke of magic as the art of restoring the primordial state, reopening the path to the "Tree of Life." This is high magic, distinct from ceremonial theurgy or lower psychic operations.

Magic, in its pure form, is the ars regia—the royal art of spiritual dominion. It is experimental, active, and virile, opposed to passive mysticism or priestly mediation. The magus embodies the regal tradition, which surpasses the priestly in its direct connection to the divine. Ancient kings—Egyptian pharaohs, Roman pontifices maximi, Persian and Japanese emperors—were not mere rulers but living symbols of transcendent authority. The usurpation of such titles by priestly castes (as in Catholicism) marks a decline.

The magus does not seek power; power seeks him, drawn to his centered being, his impassible dominance. Power is feminine, requiring a masculine principle to command it. But this mastery is perilous: failure of inner resolve means being consumed by the very forces one sought to wield.

Powers are not toys for profane desires. The true magus is fundamentally different from ordinary men—his being transformed, his interests elevated beyond petty ambitions. What the vulgar mind imagines as "magical power" (wands, spells, instant effects) is a caricature. Real magic operates from a state of absolute knowledge-causality, where act and will are one.

Yet magical operations can serve as initiatic training—a "sport" of the spirit, forging discipline and control. Beyond this, the adept who has realized his essence may act impersonally, beyond good and evil, as an instrument of the "Center." Such actions transcend human motives, reflecting the invariable middle where all oppositions dissolve.

Key Principles of Magical Power

Power Seeks the Worthy – Not pursued, but attracted by one who embodies centrality, hardness, and renunciation. Desire for power repels it; impassibility commands it.

The Danger of Powers – A lapse in resolve turns power against the wielder, reducing him below his former state.

Rejection of Powers is Absurd – Powers are intrinsic to initiatic dignity, like nirvana to the awakened. One may refrain from using them, but not "reject" their essence.

The Magus is Transformed – The possessor of true power is no longer an ordinary man; his desires align with his being, rendering vulgar ambitions meaningless.

Magic is Not Miraculous – True magic is causal, evident, and conscious—unlike the mechanical "wonders" of degenerate or technological pseudo-magic.

Magic as Initiatic Training – Lower operations can serve as discipline, but fixation on contingent effects is a deviation. The highest magic is action from the "Center," beyond duality.

The regal and magical path is one of virile spirituality, opposed to priestly passivity. It restores the primordial tradition—where the king was god, the magus was sovereign, and power was the natural attribute of the awakened Self.