#buna is love

[onmywaytofanfic]

Reina's birth (Part 2 - Comic)

So, here is the second part of the comic. Again, thank you very much @succikko-nebulae for letting me use your boy Suko in here!

In these brief scene, the birth has already happen (I am not going to draw that) and we have a little view of Hana's critical state after it. As you will see, Suko uses ASL to comminicate with Buna. Friendly reminder, Buna can't hear. He has tought him that word, to be precise "Perfect" and "Problem" to know inmidiatly if there is something wrong with baby Reina. He communicates mostly using a notebook, so Suko writes and Buna writes back.

[First panel :*Suko checking Reina's reflexes after birth. The baby holds his finger* She still has palmar reflexes. Second Panel: *Suko signaling "Perfect" in ASL* Third Panel: *IV with blood, connected to Hana. Hana is not seen in the panel* Fourth Panel: *Overhead view of Takeo sitting in a sofa* Fifth Panel : *Takeo side view, it is visible that he has been crying* Suko: How is Takeo doing? Buna: He just sits there looking at Hana...Sixth Panel: *Buna sights* Seventh Panel: * Buna visible worried* Buna: He needs to remember that he also has... Eighth Panel: *Reina's fist, you can see a small bracelet with her name and the date off her birth 01/08* Buna: He has she to care too [Needs to be edited in the picture]]

[First panel: *Suko is holding the notebook where Buna has written "She also needs him". Second panel: *Buna holds happily the baby* Third Panel: *Front view of Takeo, visible devastated and with puffy eyes after crying* Buna: He is just lost in thought. Fourth and fifth Panel: *Heart monitor* Sixth Panel: *Suko is not very sure about Buna's positivism. Buna holds the baby while showing the last thing he wrote to Suko* Suko whispering very low: Not so sure ... Buna: Hana will wake up soon]

Hope you like it and thank you if you read it up to here :333

[w-stachu]

We need to think up Luna x Barty jr ship name (PLATONIC)

[555bunnies]

Good things always come

[comfied-chriterature]

FIREFLY/STELLEFLYERS PLEASE ADD "DAWN AND FIREFLIES" N-BUNA TO YOUR PLAYLISTS I AM ON MY KNEES

[tommyssupercoolblog]

Thought the Yorushika side of Tumblr might enjoy this

[odakuram]

Theatre Love Song Music/Lyrics: n-buna Illustration: Awashima Singer: miki

It's your fault.

(also the song was never officially uploaded onto youtube so the link here is to a repost with chinese subs)

知ってない　聞いてない　待ってない きっと持ってっちゃったんだ　言い訳の塊を そっとさ　辛くもないようにしゃがんだら もう自分に嘘を吐いて　知らん顔の僕がいた

I don’t know, I’m not listening, I’m not waiting I surely had it all this time, this pile of excuses Gently, now, if I bend down like it doesn’t hurt, I was already feigning ignorance, lying to myself.

言いたいけど　見返し���いけど ずっと待って何も成してないような僕じゃ呼吸さえ出来てない 泣きたいような　くだらない文句ばっかり覚えてる まだ　消えそうにないくらいのさ あの感じは切り取って笑っていたいのに

Even if I want to say it, even if I want to get back at you, Feeling like I’m waiting here forever and achieving nothing, I can’t breathe even one bit. All I’m remembering are useless complaints, said like I’m about to cry It doesn’t look like it’s going to disappear yet. Even so, I want to cut that feeling away and laugh.

「君のせいだ」　僕のせいなんだって もう考えたくもないよそんなのは 足して引いて出すだけの感傷を振りかざして あの日描いたそれが乾く前に 消せない願望さえ色を失っていく あぁ　変わっちゃったって　馬鹿みたいに笑ってさ

‘It’s your fault!’ The fact that it was my fault is something that I don’t want to think about Over my head, I hold the sentiment of just adding, subtracting and coming up with something Before what I drew on that day dries up The colours in my indelible wish fade as well Ah, even if you’ve completely changed, laugh like an idiot!

違う　信じたい　待っていたい 僕をもっと伝えたくて　そのくせに臆病で 知ってない　何がしたいかもわかってない もう期待さえ置いてって逃げ出せば楽だろうな That’s wrong. I want to believe, I want to wait I want to tell you so much more, despite how timid I am I don’t know, I don’t think I know what I want to do If I could leave behind all the expectations and run away already, it would be easier, I think.

言いたいとか　見返したいとか そんな声を「ちょっと幼稚だ」って笑って流してしまえたら どうしようもない　聞こえないなんてもうわかりきってる あぁ　消えそうにないくらいのさ　あの感じで 夢だって妥協しちゃう癖に

If in wanting to say it, or wanting to get back at you I can laugh off your comments saying, ‘That’s immature,’ it can’t be helped, I know for absolute certain I can’t even hear you anymore Ah, it doesn’t seem like that feeling is going to make it disappear, Even though I’m bound to give in to my dreams

嘘みたいに　僕をわかんないで ってほら残念そうな目で値踏んじゃって 媚び笑ったあの時の僕も死んじゃえばいいよ 馬鹿みたいだ　君もそうなんだ 冷たい観衆なんかもう見ないでいたい ほら　ピンスポットも外れた　シートに座ってさ

I wish the person I was back then who smiled flatteringly while appraising you with pitiful eyes and said, ‘you don’t get me at all’ would just die. It seems so stupid, just like you I don’t really want to look at such a cold audience anymore See there, go sit in the seat that even the pin spot light rejects!

あぁ　今思い出してみたって 僕らはすぐそれを淘汰していく どうにも眩しすぎた舞台照明も全部 きっと君のせいだ

Ah, even if I remember now, We’d immediately weed the memory out The overly, terribly dazzling stage lights, and everything else, is certainly your fault.

嘘をついた　逃げたかったんだ 止まない心臓音が嫌で笑ったって 誰か信じたいだけの僕らの劇場愛歌 惨めなんだ　ずっとそうなんだ 消えない願望なんかもう見ないでいたい あぁ

I lied, I wanted to run away. Even if I laugh out of hatred for the unceasing sound of my heart, This is our theatre love song that someone just wants to believe in It’s miserable, it’ll always be that way, I don’t really want to see a wish that won’t disappear Ah…

違う

That’s wrong.

「僕のせいだ」　全部そうなんだ ってもう考えないでいたいよそんなのは 足して引いて出すだけの感傷も君のせいだ 馬鹿みたいだ　忘れないなんて　またねなんて ねぇ　今ならもういいかい？ あぁ　まだ　まだ　まだ

‘It’s my fault!’ The fact that everything is is something I don’t want to keep thinking about The sentiment of just adding, subtracting and coming up with something is your fault too! ‘I won’t forget’, ‘See you soon’, it all seems so stupid Hey, is what we have now enough? Ah, not yet, not yet, not yet

[sweetesthiwot]

The nile flows upstream from Ethiopia to Egypt

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

when in doubt, stream yorushika 🙏

[bunastudio]

Before we get ready to embrace the new year, let us take a moment to slow down and rejoice in all the big and small moments of the year gone by, filled with the glow of joy and love 🤍 https://www.bunastudio.com/products/juliet-peach-dress

[pinkcomputer]

Vocaloid songs that turn 10 in 2024

ELECT - niki ft. Lily (02.01.2014)

Schwarzer Regen - regulus ft. Hatsune Miku (05.01.2014)

Kokoronashi - ChouchouP ft. GUMI (05.01.2014)

Close to you - niki ft. Lily (26.01.2014)

Love! Snow! Really Magic - Mitchie M ft. Hatsune Miku (31.01.2014)

Mono Poisoner - DECO*27 ft. Hatsune Miku (31.01.2014)

Sincerity: Drastic Treatment for Pretended Innocence - Suzumu ft. Kagamine Rin, Kagamine Len (01.02.2014)

At God's Mercy - rerulili ft. Hatsune Miku, Kagamine Rin, GUMI (07.02.2014)

Therefore You and Me - 4o ft. Hatsune Miku (13.02.2014)

Stickybug - DECO*27 ft. Hatsune Miku (14.02.2014)

DECORATOR - kz ft. Hatsune Miku (20.02.2014)

Sea Lily Deep Sea Tale - n-buna ft. Hatsune Miku (24.02.2014)

Glass Wall - GuitarHeroPianoZero ft. Hatsune Miku (01.03.2014)

+♂ - Giga ft. Kagamine Len (20.03.2014)

Streaming Heart ft. Hatsune Miku (21.03.2014)

Blessing - halyosy ft. various (11.04.2014)

PartyxParty - HitoshizukuP, Yamasankakkei ft. various (15.04.2014)

Detained Teacher - HoneyWorks ft. flower (17.04.2014)

Heart Chrome - Hachioji-P ft. anon & kanon (25.04.2014)

Anti Beat - DECO*27 ft. Hatsune Miku (28.04.2014)

Miss Wanna-Die - Switch ft. IA (26.05.2014)

SLoWMoTIoN - PinocchioP ft. Hatsune Miku (27.05.2014)

Love Doll - DECO*27 ft. GUMI (30.05.2014)

Patchwork Staccato - Toa ft. Hatsune Miku (12.06.2014)

Undead Enemy - Giga ft. Kagamine Rin (20.06.2014)

NEXT NEST - TENKOMORI ft. Hatsune Miku (27.06.2014)

Nice to Meet You, Mr. Earthling - PinocchioP ft. Hatsune Miku (02.07.2014)

on the rocks - OSTER project ft. MEIKO, KAITO (08.07.2014)

Imperfect Animals - Utsu-P ft. Kagamine Rin, GUMI (25.07.2014)

Ballerina Girl - Mikito-P ft. GUMI (28.07.2014)

The Butterfly, Flower and Spider - HitoshizukuP, Yamasankakkei ft. Kagamine Rin, Kagamine Len, VY2 (04.08.2014)

No title - Giga, Reol ft. Hatsune Miku (17.08.2014)

Night Sky Patrol of Tomorrow - Orangestar ft. IA (19.08.2014)

Sharing The World - BIGHEAD ft. Hatsune Miku (24.08.2014)

Burenai ai de - Mitchie M ft. Hatsune Miku (28.08.2014)

EveR ∞ LastinG ∞ NighT - HitoshizukuP, Yamasankakkei ft. various (03.09.2014)

Hibikase - Giga ft. Hatsune Miku (23.09.2014)

Heart a la Mode - DECO*27 ft. Hatsune Miku (03.10.2014)

Happy Halloween - Junky ft. Kagamine Rin (10.10.2014)

The Straight-Faced Science Girl - Ningen Dokku ft. Kagamine Rin, Kagamine Len (10.10.2014)

Don't Put My Name in the Endroll - MikitoP ft. Hatsune Miku (12.10.2014)

Goodbye - CircusP ft. Hatsune Miku (14.10.2014)

Dawn and Fireflies - n-buna ft. Hatsune Miku (11.11.2014)

Most Certainly... Undoubtedly... A Goddess!! - UtataP ft. Hatsune Miku (26.11.2014)

Connecting - halyosy ft. various (05.12.2014)

Portrait of the Pirate F - HitoshizukuP, Yamasankakkei ft. various (30.12.2014)

[onmywaytofanfic]

Buna Aburame: Headcannons

Well, better late than never. Here you can enjoy a little bit of the best grandpa, Buna Aburame, a charming face and kind soul.

Buna Aburame

Age Part 1 –  58 Part 2 – 61

Height -  2,15 cm

Weight – 120, 4 kg

Physical appearance: He has a rather tanned skin, it looks as if he has been his whole life under the sun, something that is partially truth but also, he was already born with that lovely soft tanned skin. He is incredible tall reaching and impressive 2meters and 15 centimetres of height. He also has a lovely round belly and softer features that let subtle hints of his past body. Although now he is rather fluffy in can be perceived that he used to be very muscular, but time has making his Akimichi side to pop up and round his features. However, he never had the sharpest out of the Aburame, although his son and grandson really looked more Aburame than him.

He is very proud of his silver mane and loves to take good care of it, loving to braid his hair in special occasions and always making sure that it looks on place. He also cares a lot about his beard which he always has it in a very decent condition and perfectly trim. It makes his chin look sharper. He has a few piercings; in each ear he has three earrings and a piercing in his right eyebrow. He also has always wanted to have a few tattoos, now that he is getting older, he is starting to ponder the idea to take that ink in. However, he is rather perfectionist and really wants to find the perfect tattoo artist and the perfect design for it.

He is also deaf since birth. Something that a lot of people are surprised by because “he doesn’t look like one”, every time that he must read the lips of someone saying something along those lines, or his family translates it to him you can Definity see his eyes flicker, but not with anger but with disdain. Talking about eyes, his are in a softer blueish-greyish colour. He usually hides them with his shades but when he is with his family or in a very comfortable environment is usual to not see him wearing them, the older he gets the more he forgets to wear them. Consequently, when he is outside in broad sunlight, you can see him squinting his eyes to try to see. It is not until either his son or one of his grandchildren appear and gives him some shades to protect his eyesight.

Psychological features: Now that he is older, he looks ever wiser than when he was a young adult or teenager. He has a very calming attitude and reassuring shoulder. He is a very loving guy with those that show that they care about him. He learnt at a young age to differentiate those that wanted to take advantage or mocking him and those that really like him. Specially when the one that he thought was the love of his live trick him and almost tried to erase from existence his real love, his child.

He is always kind to help others and has a very altruistic nature, yet the stones that he had found in his life as making him been cautious about to whom share his heart and thoughts and to whom lend a helping hand. Some people want a hand, and they ended up devouring your arm. As he would sign “I am kind, not stupid”.

Because of his hearing impairment many people judged him when he was a kid and automatically assumed that he was “below average”, quite the opposite; he is brilliant and if the clan would have let him a helping hand, he would be one of the best tacticians, but the clan thought that he would be useful in the fields taking care of crops and insects. He wasn’t suitable for a shinobi job. “It is something that they miss, although I would never like to punch a fellow” He seems to have a very pacifist nature, but do not be mistaken, do not anger him nor touch his family. He would not doubt throwing up some punches back at you.

He is a very charming guy, knowing how to please people with his words when he writes them in his small notebook, a very useful instrument for him. Not to mention, that he is a master when it comes to words. He usually writes letters to his child and grandchildren, just to cheer them up. Maybe one day Reina after crying and feeling under the weather she finds a small letter written by his grandpa, impersonating some strange mythological creature or a forest spirit that is asking for help or telling a torrid confession about how their lover has left him. Maybe a funny mouse story or a short tale about ogres and werewolves. He has a very creative mind and it shown in his little collection of letters, especially the ones that he always writes to Takeo, Tatsuma and Reina when their birthdays approach impersonating Hana.

A creative and kind mind that has learn how to stop being a people-pleaser and how to differentiate those that deserve his caring and those that do not. A gentle soul that has been forced to be rather reclusive due to people not being able to understand him or even taking the effort to do so. But he doesn’t care, since at the end of the day that means that he is truly surrounded by those that really love him, not like the rest of the people who are around people who would not even remember their names.

Background: Born from Ai Aburame and Haruka Akimichi (Granduncle of Chouza Akimichi) famous for being a Casanova. Ai Aburame fell in love with him and thought that been expecting his child would make him marry her and start forming a family. She always felt strange to her own clan, mostly because she was grossed out by her own hive and the insects surrounding the compound, forced to be a host and a shinobi like almost everyone back at those days, thought that a humble housewife life would safe her. Great mistake, Haruka kept laying around with other people to later come to her bed and lay with her too, what led to her having a herpes infection that would eventually cause his earing loss. However, back at those time it was not implied nor thought that the father’s behaviour was the cause of the child’s issue instead, the blame fell upon her.

She became a pariah for the clan, being not just useless as a kunoichi but also tainted the family with such a child. She thought many times to get rid of Buna, but somehow, she was unable to do it, instead he turned his life hell on Earth. Treating him as the clan members treated her and the world, Buna grew in this environment, where he never felt loved by anyone around him, but thanks to the books he found love there. He started to create those magical worlds, since when he read them, he was in the same conditions as anyone who dive into their pages; you can’t hear the characters talking. He found refuge in there, reading lovely parents that took care of their adventurous child he decided that he wanted to be one of them. He wanted to live the biggest of adventure with a child of his own and someone near him that loved him tenderly as he always wanted to.

The truth is that he soon was sent to the fields to work on the land, what allowed him to gain independence from his mother when he was only 16 years. Consequently, he started to prepare everything to get out of Konoha and live that adventure. However, when he was 20, he fell hard for two good friends Mei and Kentaro, he couldn’t understand what was happening. He really thought that he had found loved in both…the truth is that they have heard about the “Aburame charm” a myth that was extended among the villagers about the size and girth of Aburame’s attributes. Since the” normal” Aburames were rather reclusive and not that extroverted, yet this Aburame seemed different from the rest either eager or wanting to interact with others…So it was their chance. Buna thought that they loved him as he loved them, the truth both wanted just to taste him. As a result of their multiple encounters, she got pregnant.

She tried to get rid of the baby but time was not on her side, she had an early birth and Takeo, Buna’s son, was born premature. As a result of his mother’s action he was born without one of his arms, but…. people did not blame her; it was easier and more “logical” for them to blame Buna. After all, he was also born broken, unfinished. Takeo was left with Buna and he never knew about his mother, not he wanted to. Buna then became a rather reclusive when it came to love. He started to perceive it differently, and thought that sexual love only brought misery to those that taste it, he became someone who hated everything related with love in general… Until his teenage boy brought home a redheaded girl who looked at his son with true blessing and warmth.

Buna smiled when she tried to communicate with him using the sign that his son had thought her. She tried to interact with him, to get to know him and his son. She truly loved him. It was at that moment that Buna believed that he had been a stupid bastard for truly letting those two heartless people ruined something so pure and beautiful as love his.  He found in Hana a daughter to take care of too.

Thus, he started to read once more his beloved romance novels that he had hidden away, fearing that reading those sweet lines would bring him bad memories of what aa heartbroken heart feels like. However, he found that he had never had a broken heart, his son had fixed it. There is more than one kind of love, and some of them can be more powerful and healing that the finding that person that you want to expend your life with. Buna had found that person ages ago, himself. When raising Takeo he had found that there was no one as reliable as himself, he learnt to love every imperfection and every wonderful thing about his body, his mind and soul, and her discovered that he was more than enough. He thought that to his son and tried his hardest to make him see that he wasn’t missing anything. He pushed him into pursuing his dream of becoming a shinobi and celebrate with him every achievement that others found impossible for someone with his condition to achieve. He became a jounin, regardless of what people claimed that he really was…he was the best at his job.

However, when Hana became pregnant, panic and fear possessed both, she was about to give birth to another disappointment for the clan. A broken toy like themselves, Buna would never know, but Takeo suggested her to get rid of the child, she slapped his face. She knew that it was fear talking, not his heart. When the day came a beautiful child named Tatsuma was in his arms. His grandchild…he was a grandfather. He never thought that he would never be one after everything that life had throw at him, but here he was, a miracle. He was born “perfect”. He couldn’t help it but cry and whine, after all it was broken…the filth line that he started by being born was broken.  Just for being taken away by Danzo when he was five… He couldn’t stop his child, nobody could. Takeo faced the council, the elders, and the head of the clan his peer Shibi Aburame. Just to came back hurt, bleeding and hurrying his family to live Konoha.

They became pariahs once more… not deserted of their motherland, yet not welcomed there.

He always dreamt of going out of Konoha and discover new horizon, he never expected that he had to do it to escape the possibility that his land would take away from him another child: Hana was expecting another blessing, Reina.

She was born on a summer storm and as such were her screams and movements, what none expected was that her mother would only have time to breathe her name and kissed her forehead. She died that night; the doctors of the village couldn’t do anything. Takeo felt into misery and disgrace, hating the child, and even attempting to murder her, it was Buna who stopped such crazy actions, the one who took care of the early stages of Reina. Until Takeo could look at her tiny face and his rage was gone, instead sorrow and shame was brought upon his child. They never talk about those times, Takeo is ashamed of his acts and actions, Buna his hurt that he couldn’t help his son better. However, that is in the past and together they raised Reina, hoping to see once more Tatsuma and being able to sleep under Konoha’s sky, their motherland…Hoping to stop being treated as a freak.

Likes:

His family, butterflies and silkworms, fashion, smut and romance novels, poetry, mystery and horror movies, novels, and myths. Writing under the tender light of a candle. Tea, prepare tea, cultivate tea leaves, packaging his tea leaves, tea lover!!! Crochet, designing clothes and mending his family clothing. The smell of wet soil, and the feeling of the petals in his hand. Reina’s smile, Takeo chuckles and Tatsuma’s pranks. Tarot cards, making them. Stones, he loves stones and minerals. Gifting anything that he has handmade: a scarf, a teddy bear…  Teach other people with hearing impairment or voice problems sign language and learn the sign language that every small community in other villages has developed. Teach sign language to those that he loves, people who make and effort to either sign or let him write what he wants to say and they do to instead of have to lip-reading everything.

Vanilla and mango flavoured stuff and his son’s cooking, he is an expert chef.

The man himself, hoping to hear your questions about this buggy-gentleperson. He is love and he is kindness!!! Thanks for reading all of this and stick around to hear more about this wonderful human.

BUG GRANDPA!!!

[luceafarul-de-dimineata]

Random hc I have about whb characters

Dantalian is Asmodeus' kid (with the same woman that made the Unholycs. Genetics are weird like that)

Gamigin called Lucifer dad once during a meeting at it was that Office sketch

Morax sends those "Buna dimineata, spor la cafeluta" on the Paradise Lost group chat

Bimet has one of those mop dogs that he loves with all his heart (her name is Goldie and she's a pure breed)

Beelzebub watched one episode of The Big Bang theory and he now just randomly says Bazinga to annoy Bael

Eligos pretended to be a cat in kindergarden

Foras is into Homestuck

His favourite character is Jade

All demons are partly blind, that's why they first think that you're Solomon even though you don't look alike

Gamigin and Amon are online friends and they gush about their king for hours on end

There is no uniform in Paradise Lost, Marbas just hates Buer in particular

Buer is a vegan

Ronové does Asmodeus' nails and they gossip a lot while doing it

Sitri has a shrine of objects Solomon gave him or touched that he prays to every night before bed

Gamigin has autism

He once got so excited about something that he fainted

Lucifer wakes up before the sun rises

Barbatos is blind in one eye because he stared at the sun too much

Satan and Mammon tried to fight with their horns more than once

[endergelisenataklar]

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı. önce saniye teyze öldü sonra dedem sonra babaannem sonra yengem sonra eniştem. sonra eniştemin ölüm haberini bana veren bakkalı bıçakladılar eniştemin yedisinin okunduğu akşam. sonra sedat amca öldü sonra babam sonra öbür dedem bir de büyük deprem. otuzuma basmadan otuz tabut kaldırdım musalladan. babamdan öncekileri babamla beraber kaldırdık. ama ilk ölen hep babammış gibi geldi bana yıllarca. sanki oydu bu ahret furyasını başlatan. öyle değilmiş yeni anladım.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

zaten kim tam anlamıyla sağ kaldığını iddia edebilir ki bu kadar mevtanın ardından kim biraz zombileşmek istemez. daha kırılgan daha dikenli ve daha fukuyamacı olmaz. dedem ziraat mühendisiydi ama pek çok doktordan daha ilginç tıbbi hatıraları oldu.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

yalnızlıktan kudurmuş bir çocuğun arabaların kaportasını anahtarla çizmesi gibi ruhumun kemirilişi de hep sinsiceydi. buna rağmen ansızın berraklaştığı oluyor bulanık günlerin hâlâ soğuk biralar oluyor güzel kızlar oluyor. yağmurdan sonra saçlarını havluyla kurulaman gibi olmuyor tabii o kalibrede sevda görmedim. öptüm ama içime çekmedim.

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şimdi dilediğim sayfadan başlayabileceğim bir kitap öner bana. başsız sonsuz ve ortasız bir hikâye öner. bir üstat öner dergi kurmuş olmasın. ne çok utandık mazideki yaralardan her adımda ele geçirilme korkusundan. ismet özel mi metin altıok mu yoksa hiç mi ortak arkadaşımız kalmadı.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

elinden bir şey gelmemenin acısını iniş takımları olmayan melekler bilir. bir arabanın farlarına kilitlenip kalmış sincaplar bilir. suyun dibine ağır ağır çöken taşlar bilir. matkapla göğsünün ortasına açılmış bir pencere düşün. perdeyi aralayıp kendi yarandan bakıyorsun dünyaya. eskisi gibi acımıyor ve de asıl bu acıtıyor.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

love story tadında başlayan bir filmi potemkin zırhlısına çevirmeye ne hakkın var. çok şükür yaşıyoruz çok şükür yazıyoruz diyorum ama niye anlatıyorum bunları. belleğin unutuşa karşı mücadelesi mi sadece. ne münasebet bu benim senkronize yalnızlığım.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

birleşince kısa devre yapan parmak uçlarımız öldü önce. sonra yeşil öldü benim için sonra kahverengi. sonra ilk öpüştüğümüz yeri kalbinden bıçakladılar. on iki yıl geçti susmak ne kısaymış. sen böyle ne güzel sonsuza kadar susalım diyorsun. sonsuzluk bir gün herkesle konuşur sevgilim bunu da biliyorsun.

sen gittin ve herkes ölmeye başladı.

[japonyamesken]

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ODTÜ çim amfide Deniz Göktaş gösterisi, kelime müzesi ziyareti, kitapçı gezmeleri, özhisar ayranlı sevdiğimiz burgerci, loving vincent’dan seneler sonra ilk sinema inside out 2, kahkahalı ve esintili yaz akşamları, balkon oturmaları, eurocup 2024 izlemeler, ailecek iki günlük tatil kaçamağı, yüzme yarışları, uzun uzun kahvaltılar, birkaç ziyaret, akşam yürüyüşleri, taşınma işleri için mutfak tasarımı seçimleri, birlikte hazırlanmış gün tabağı etkinlikleri…

Planlar böyleydi.

Bir haftadır yaşadığımız ise benimle başlayan korkunç bir hastalık…

Covid belki. Almanya’nın iğrenç trenlerinden kapıp getirdiğim bir virüs muhtemelen…

Herkesi sırayla evin bir odasında nakavt eden bir şey.. Korkunç…

“Ben gelemiyorum ama sen bi arkadaşınla git bari Deniz Göktaş’a” demiştim kardeşime. O akşam o da hastalandı.

Öyle hastalandı ki Almanya’ya dönmesi gereken tarihte dönemedi, uçakta olması gereken saatte hastaneydi.

İlaçlar, pastiller, bitki çayları, evde açılamayan damar yolları, mosmor kollar, evde açılabilen damar yolları, iğneler ve uykusuz geceler…

Asıl hastalığıma hastalık molası.. Neler yaşıyorum yarabbi? Bunca uzun süredir ilk kez ailecek toplanabilmişken bütün planlarımızın mahvoluşu..

Yılın ikinci yarısı ilk yarısından daha sağlıklı geçsin diye dua da etmiştim halbuki…

Bize kalan ise sonunda herkes biraz daha iyi hissettiğinde yapılmış iki saatlik bir kahvaltı ve sonrası vedalar..

Şimdi ise asıl gelme amacına yönelik tetkikler, hastane ziyaretleri zamanı.

Çok şaşkınım, nasıl böyle üst üste gelebiliyor her şey? Yine de buna şükür elbette. Böyle dedikçe de iyiye gitmiyor işler. Napıcağımı bilemiyorum artık.

Yoruldum. Çok yoruldum. Ama yine de aileyle olmak, farklı odalarda bile kalsak evde olmak çok güzel.

Temmuz 2024

[gerryrigged]

Any good possessive Dark Manipulating DickTim recs?

I'm craving again but currently not finding the ones I liked

Hmmm, not as many as I would like, tbh! But here are some that I was able to find digging through my bookmarks - as always, please heed the warnings in the tags!

Reality, by Miss Anne Thropy (Rahndom) - 5.2k. With the caveat that dark manipulating Dick is stealing Tim away from Damian in this, so it's not pure Dick/Tim.

Summary: Tim thinks he is going crazy, with the imaginary city, imaginary superhero and imaginary lover inside of his head. His brother will comfort him and keep him safe forever.

grounded, by Buna - 2k.

Summary: There are many ways to keep an omega grounded and bound to the pack. And with Tim's heat coming at such a convenient time, keeping Tim close might not be much of a problem.

Red in Tooth and Claw, by vellaphoria - 5.7k WIP. Vampire King Dick being a perfect bastard, which we all love 🥰

Summary: Dick stands in the doorway, silhouetted in sharp edges by the dying light. Sharper still is his smile, fanged and gleaming. There's nowhere left for Tim to run.

Talon's Wings, by Miss Anne Thropy (Rahndom) - 15.8k WIP technically but it ends in a place that wraps things fairly well imo.

Summary: Dick Grayson is abducted after his parents' tragic demise. He is forced into this void with nothing to see, nothing to feel. They want to break him, they want to train him, the want to destroy him. They would have succeeded if his savior, his little angel, wasn't there to protect him from the void.

Obscura, by lacemonster - 20.1k.

>>> Okay this one I really strongly caveat and emphasize that it is dark, and not in a tantalizing or titillating way like a lot of dark fics can be. This is very skillfully written to be deeply disturbing, and I was! in fact! deeply disturbed coming out of it and to be perfectly honest I never want to read it again, lmao! >_>;; but it is really well written for what it is, and it is definitely squarely in the dark, manipulating DickTim genre, so. Here it is.

Please take the rape/non-con, stalking, dead dove, and bad ending warnings seriously in considering whether to read.

Summary: Tim can't shake off the feeling that he's being followed. Too afraid and ashamed to tell anyone, Tim tries to capture the stalker himself. But the closer Tim gets to the truth, the more he doubts his own resolve as a vigilante.

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Vocaloid Tourney Submissions Results and Preliminaries Info

56 out of 64 spots in the bracket have been filled. List of advancing songs is below the cut.

For the preliminaries, there are 86* songs competing for 8 open spots in the bracket. (again, full list below)

The prelims will be structured as follows:

Part A: *2 songs - a mini pre-preliminary round of sorts between two versions of "Play" by shr - the original Kagamine Rin version vs an UTAU cover featuring Matusdappoiyo, since both versions were submitted. The Winner of this round will participate in part B. (One day long)

Part B: 85 songs - 17 matches of 5 songs, with 1 winner each. I will be releasing 3 or 4 matches every other day to stagger them. Winners of part B will move on to part C. (16 days long)

Part C: 17 songs - 2 matches of 8/9 songs, each with the top 4 songs advancing. Both matches will be released the same day (One week long)

if anyone has any objections to this, or any better ideas, lemme know now, bc that was the best I could come up with. I didnt want the first round of matches to be between too many songs at once, as I felt that would probably be less accurate, and more intimidating so less people would listen to all the songs....... idk

Part A will be up TOMORROW, SUNDAY FEBRUARY 4TH, and will only last one day, bc I want to get to the actual prelims. More information on the rest of the prelims will be up during the week.

List of songs advancing to the bracket or preliminaries below the cut:

ADVANCING TO THE FINAL BRACKET:

"Abnormality Dancin' Girl" by Guchiry; feat. flower

"Alice of Human Sacrifice" by Yugami-P; feat. MEIKO, KAITO, Hatsune Miku, Kagamine Rin & Len

"Alien Alien" by NayutalieN; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Alluring Secret ~Black Vow~" by teamOS; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len (with Hatsune Miku)

"An Alien's "I Love You"" by Utsu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Bacterial Contamination" by Kanimiso-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Corpse Attack!!" by Utsu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Daughter of Evil" by MOTHY; feat. Kagamine Rin

"DAYBREAK FRONTLINE" by Orangestar; feat. IA

"Deep-Sea Girl" by Yuuyu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Donut Hole" by Hachi; feat. GUMI

"drop pop candy" by Giga-P and Reol; feat. Kagamine Rin and Megurine Luka

"ECHO" by Crusher and CircusP; feat. GUMI

"Electrical Forecast" by inabakumori; feat. Hatsune Miku

"First Train and Kafka" by n-buna; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Ghost Girl" by Mikito-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Ghost Rule" by DECO*27; feat. Hatsune Miku

"GOATLIKE" by Somari; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Hana Ichi Monme" by Team Kamiuta; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Hated by Life Itself." by Kanzaki Iori; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Hole-dwelling" by Kikuo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"I thought I was an angel" by Utsu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"I'm glad you're evil too" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Pinnocchio-P)

"Ironina" by Niru Kajitsu; feat. flower

"Kokoro" by Toraboruta-P; feat. Kagamine Rin

"kyakkya" by Yuyoyuppe; feat. Natsuki Karin

"Kyuukurarin" by iyowa; feat. KAFU

"Lag Train" by inabakumori; feat. Kaai Yuki

"Law-evading Rock" by Neru; feat. Kagamine Len (with Ishifuro, Shirakami Mashiro, Jin, MoffuP, Yamaji, Yuumao, Ramune

"Lost One's Weeping" by Neru and tomoboP; feat. Kagamine Rin

"Matroyshka" by Hachi; feat. GUMI and Hatsune Miku

"Melt" by ryo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Meltdown" by iroha(sasaki); feat. Kagamine Rin

"Moth" by Utsu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"My R" by Wada Takeaki; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Non-Breath Oblige" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"ODDS&ENDS" by ryo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Ohedo Julia-Night" by Mitchie M; feat. Hatsune Miku and KAITO

"Outer Science" by Jin; feat. IA

"phony" by Tsumiki; feat. KAFU

"Regret Message" by MOTHY; feat. Kagamine Rin

"Rolling Girl" by wowaka; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Rotten Heresy and Chocolate" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Samsa" by Teniwoha; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Servant of Evil" by MOTHY; feat. Kagamine Len (with Kagamine Rin)

"sick" by Yuyoyuppe; feat. Natsuki Karin

"SLoWMoTIoN" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Yukkuri)

"Synchronicity Second Chapter ~Paradise of Light and Shadow~" by teamOS; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len

"The Fox's Wedding" by masa; feat. Hatsune Miku and GUMI

"The Tailor of Enbizaka" by MOTHY; feat. Megurine Luka

"Tokyo Teddy Bear" by Neru; feat. Kagamine Rin

"Unhappy Refrain" by wowaka; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Villain" by Teniwoha; feat. flower

"WILDFIRE!!" by CIRCRUSH; feat. GUMI

"Yowamushi Mont Blanc" by DECO*27; feat. GUMI

"Zanelli" by Teniwoha; feat. flower

ADVANCING TO PRELIMINARIES:

"*Hello, Planet." by sasakure.UK; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Abstract Nonsense" by Neru; feat. Kagamine Rin

"All I Need are Things I Like" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Alter Ego" by Misumi; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Arifureta Sekai Seifuku" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Blessed Messiah and the Tower of AI" by teamOS; feat. Hatsune Miku, Kagamine Len, Kagamine Rin, Megurine Luka, Camui Gackpo, GUMI, IA, MAYU, MEIKO, and KAITO

"BRING IT ON" by Giga-P; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len (with MEIKO)

"Can't I Even Dream" by Fumii; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Children Record" by Jin; feat. IA

"Crazy ∞ nighT" by teamOS; feat. Hatsune Miku, Kagamine Len, Kagamine Rin, GUMI, Camui Gackpo, Megurine Luka, KAITO, and MEIKO

"Datte" by Yuyoyuppe; feat. Natsuki Karin

"DEAD HAND" by Ferry; feat. Yuzuki Yukari

"Doctor=Funk Beat" by nyanyannya; feat. KAITO (with maimie, Shindou Gaku, Amaoto Junca, and Dashio)

"Dreaming Chuchu" by emon(Tes.); feat. Megurine Luka (with Hatsune Miku and Kagamine Rin)

"Drowning in a Wave of Sadness" by Neru; feat. Kagamine Len

"Electric Angel (Giga-P Arrangement)" by Yasuo-P and Giga-P; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len

"Fake Fake Psychotropic" by Kairiki Bear; feat. GUMI

"Gehenna" by wotaku; feat. Hatsune Miku

"hand" by Avogado6; feat. Asane Ema

"Hate it Hate it! Huge Ego!" by Wada Takeaki; feat. Otomachi Una

"Hatsune Miku No Gekishou" by CosMo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Heart Democracy" by Mikito-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Heavenly You" by LonePi; feat. REML

"HITO mania" by Haraguchi Sasuke; feat. Kasane Teto

"Honey I'm Home" by GHOST; feat. DEX

"Hungry Nicole" by Niru Kajitsu; feat. flower

"Hyperventilation Dance" by Nashimoto We; feat. Hatsune Miku

"I’m Gonna Buy! Buy! Buy! " by Signal-E; feat. Luo Tianyi

"iNSaNiTY" by CircusP and Azuralunar; feat. KAITO and SF-A2

"Jailbreak" by Neru; feat. Kagamine Rin

"Jitterbug" by Kuriyama Yuri; feat. Hatsune Miku and MEIKO

"Kaisei" by Orangestar; feat. IA

"Kakome, Kakome" by Zawazawa-P; feat. Hatsune Miku and Megurine Luka

"Karakuri Pierrot " by 40mP; feat. Hatsune Miku (with GUMI)

"Kimagure Mercy" by Hachioji-P and q*Left; feat. Hatsune Miku

"LIAR DANCE" by DECO*27; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Love Me, Love Me, Love Me" by Kikuo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Love! Snow! Really Magic" by Mitchie M; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Machine Gun" by KIRA; feat. GUMI

"Magic Mirror" by teamOS; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len

"makka" by Yuyoyuppe; feat. Natsuki Karin

"Marshall Maximizer" by Hiiragi Magnetite; feat. KAFU

"Mermaid" by Somari; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Meteor" by Jonsann; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Mind Brand" by MARETU; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Mirage" by Harumaki Gohan; feat. Hatsune Miku

"MONSTER" by KIRA; feat. GUMI

"Mozaik Role" by DECO*27; feat. GUMI

"Neo-Neon" by DECO*27 and TeddyLoid; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Shiho)

"Nobody Makes Sense" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"oyasumination" by ippo.tsk; feat. Eleanor Forte

"Parade of Mediocre People" by Wada Takeaki; feat. Otomachi Una

"Play" by shr; feat. Kagamine Rin

"Play" by Itsuki (cover); feat. Matusdappoiyo

"Propose" by HoneyWorks; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Proto Disco" by nulut; feat. flower (with KurageP, Bis, MatuMotoMoti, *Shimi, nulut)

"Reckless Battery Burns" by GHOST and Vane; feat. Kevin

"Reincarnation Apple" by Pinocchio-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Remote Control" by WONDERFUL☆OPPORTUNITY; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len

"ROKI" by Mikito-P; feat. Kagamine Rin and Mikito-P

"RRRRafflesia" by Utsu-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Sand Planet" by Hachi; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Hachi)

"Schadenfreude" by Guchiry; feat. Otomachi Una

"Seraphim on the Ring" by Mitchie M; feat. Hatsune Miku, Kagamine Rin, KAITO (with Kagamine Len)

"Shunran" by john; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Spinning Sky Rabbit" by Orangestar; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Spinning Song" by DATEKEN; feat. Kagamine Rin & Len

"Super Nuko World" by Mafumafu; feat. IA (with Kagamine Rin)

"SUSHI-GO-ROUND" by Utsu-P; feat. ROSE

"Tell Your World" by kz; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Teo" by Omoi; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Kagamine Rin, GUMI, IA)

"Testament" by Hiiragi Magnetite; feat. Hatsune Miku

"The Last Revolver" by MOTHY; feat. GUMI

"The Liar Witch and Gray Rainbow" by Soraru; feat. Hatsune Miku

"The Madness of Duke Venomania" by MOTHY; feat. Camui Gackpo (with KAITO, GUMI, MEIKO, Megurine Luka, and Hatsune Miku)

"Town of Jade" by Mel; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Triple Baka" by LamazeP; feat. Hatsune Miku (with Kasane Teto)

"Unfriendly Hater" by Meddmia; feat. Hatsune Miku and KAFU

"Unicorn" by Teniwoha; feat. flower

"Vampire" by DECO*27; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Vita" by Hiiragi Kirai; feat. flower

"Waltz of Anomalies" by Hoehoe-P; feat. Hatsune Miku

"Weenywalker" by youman; feat. GUMI

"Witch" by Suzuki-P and Ryotai; feat. Megurine Luka (with Camui Gackpo, Kagamine Len, Kagamine Rin, Hatsune Miku)

"World is Mine" by ryo; feat. Hatsune Miku

"You’re Telling Me A SHRIMP Fried This Rice?!" by Jamie Paige; feat. Hatsune Miku

I'll release a list of honorable mentions (songs that i really like but didnt advance u_u) after the prelims with the final bracket.