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#but I dont know how much longer i can deal with this before I actually go berserk
myriadsystem · 4 months
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Any lovely witchy friends out there have advice for reaching out to a deity?
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killjoy-prince · 1 month
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Vendors at my job love me so much there's fighting amongst them in one company over who gets to deliver to my store that week
#prince's talk tag#my secret is i dont wanna deal with people any longer than i have to so i get them in and out as quickly as i can#and the vendors and drivers love that bc they got other places to be#the vendor that told me this said the other receivers will take their time and dilly dally too much leaving a line of trucks outside#but im usually on top of that#there are days where i cant help it but i go as fast as i can bc i really dont want to deal with people#and i can avoid that by taking them in check in their product sign the receipts and get them outta there#vendor also said at least with his company the dispatcher will be like 'here this store needs a delivery done'#and the vendors will go 'no im not doing that store' which will make the dispatcher go to one & say 'well its your route so you gotta do it'#and it was like that for my store before I took over#now the dispatcher will be like 'hey Prince's store needs a delivery' and the vendors are actually fighting like#'ill do it' 'no imma do it!' 'no me!'#ngl it made me happy. i didnt think i was that well liked#like some drivers have showed their appreciation to me about my speed and ability to handle the job but to have people fight over me? wow#and this was like an hour after a manager complimented how i run shit around here bc i know what im doing#and when im not here it all falls apart#which does suck bc i wish the mess wasnt left to me to clean up if im not here#but i am training someone rn who will cover for me when im not around so hopefully that helps a little
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skylightdistraction · 1 month
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the-stray-pup · 2 years
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#the stray rants#tw for the ranty ranty type thingies that I will max this out for to get the see more read more thingy for so boop beep bop chop lip tip nip#okay anyway softer things first incase it hasn’t popped up yet but I’m like legit so fucking stressed and on the thinnest thread and like#at this point I’m not even gonna be able to stay clean. and it’s like I just finished healing for the last time I relapsed that it’ll look#weird if it just pops up agajn you know what I mean? so it’s like I mean yeah I could let myself sh but at the same time it would be harder#to be like oh yeah I scratched myself in the same spot again 🤪 and I’m just so fucking over everything like lemme just slit my throat becaus#this all just needs to stop. like this anxiety fucking kills me and it’s so unsettling and I Fucking hate it and myself and I literally can#not handle it my dudes like ughhhh#idk I guess I wish I actually had some good coping mechanisms and that my stupid brain wouldn’t make me feel untrue things because it’s just#real fucking annoying at this point and I just don’t know how much longer I can handle this shit because I’ve been on this short tiny thin#thread for such a long time and I’ve literally never been this Fucking bad before in my entire life like it’s truly just terrible and I dont#wanna deal with this anymore ahhh idk just 🧍🏻‍♂️#i want to cry honestly even though I already did today#but idk 🥲 someone come kill me please#joking unfortunately 🥺💔
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pure-oddity · 9 months
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Fast foodies know the deal
Ghost x reader
(not proof read, this is just fluff straight from the source
Warnings: none, ovulation mention maybe? Its brought up a single time.)
The craving hits around 3 in the morning, it's ovulation week so the idea of not getting chicken nuggets from the drive through makes you want to cry.
You turn towards the sleeping lug beside you. He's on his back, breaths deep and even. Still as a grave but at your movement he takes the arm you had been using as a pillow to drag you further into his side.
Your Simon, took you forever just to get the man to admit he did more than tolerate you. even longer to admit he cared for you. It took you almost using his toothbrush to realize that the man might actually (gasp) like you. That one you didn't push, figured he'd come to terms with it on his own.
As you look at how peaceful he seems you try to fight the urge, you really do, but as you prop yourself up on your elbows and move closer to Simon's ear you resign to begging his forgiveness later.
"Simon, my baby? You sleeping?"
You wouldn't have known he was a awake had it not been for the lone eye opening to check on you
"Was, love. I was. Whats wrong, bad dream? Y' Can turn on the telly to that duck cartoon or the robots - won't bother me none." He rubs a comforting hand up and down your back, he's being so sweet you really do start to feel bad.
"I want chicken nuggets."
Silence.
Both eyes are open now.
The silence continues.
You smile sheepishly.
Wordlessly simon extracts his arm and turns so his back is to you.
"Nnooooooo! Simon pleeeaase. Pretty please? I want chicken nuggets so bad!"
"Go ahead. keys are on the rack, tanks full."
"Nooo you have to take me! come on baby please, for me?"
"My love. Sunshine. Light of my life. If you're hungry i made a perfecly good roast last night. Heat that up and let a man rest."
"I dont want a perfectly good roast! I want chicken nuggets. And a burger. And fries - oh maybe a shake?" You lean over him, hair purposely hung over into his face. He turns quickly and you're nose to nose
"So youre gonna have me get up at 3 fucking a.m. to get you a greasey, artey clogging, cholesterol raising gastrointestinal disaster of a meal - when we have a perfectly good home made dinner in the fridge."
"....please?"
Silence.
A deep suffering sigh.
An ecstatic squee
"Just get your fuckin shoes on"
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You lean back over into the passenger seat, simon grumpy faced as you insisted that you should be the one to order.
You pat your thighs in glee as he pulls up to the window, gives you a dirty look , and hands the cashier his card.
The second window delivers your meal and drink quickly, you dig in like a starved animal. You're mid chew when he gives a grunt. A snooty sounding eh hem.
You grin and giggle, slowly airplaning him a nugget.
"Give me the chicken or i'll take the whole box"
You squeak and shove it to his lips quickly. His jaws snap around the nugget and it's gone within a single bite - you retract your fingers, still intact but wet with spit.
You give an 'eeeech' and look for somewhere to wipe your hand.
"Any of this ends up in or on my interior and it'll be your arse."
You roll your eyes and reach in the bag for a napkin, knocking the fries over in the process.
Silence.
The car drifts slowly to the left and is parked along the side of the road.
Not a word spoken.
You try to shove as many back into the carton as possible.
He stares at you.
You smile sweetly at him before leaning over the center console and kissing him. You meet his lips, they're stretched into a dangerous grin.
"Love" kiss "did you" kiss "spill salt" kiss "in my truck?"
You might not know a lot, but you know that voice means you're in trouble, which means it's distraction time.
You continue your sweet onslaught of kisses.
"Thank you for taking me baby, I love you so much. ", another smooch
is delivered.
"Youre my person, my favorite guy, love of my life."
He bites at your lip and you barely manage to slip it from his teeth
"Wanna spend the rest of my life with you, grow old with you"
He grips the back of your head and maneuvers your ear to his mouth, in a deep rumble he asks
"Are there fries on my floor, love?"
The dangerous smile still present.
"No of course not baby! i cleaned those up."
"So my truck is fry free?"
"Well - no didn't say that. there's a, a few under the seat"
He's grappling you into his lap now, the man looks a hint deranged.
"And why, my love, are you telling me about them instead getting them?"
he presses.
"'Cause I - hehe - I can't reach!" You giggle out as his hands slink towards your sides.
He pokes and prods at you, growling not unlike a bear while you squeal and squeak out little laughs.
"Gets a man up at ass o'clock-"
"Oh please, you get up early anyway!"
"makes him drive to get congealed grease-"
"you had a nugget too!"
"Then trashes his truck."
"Oh please it's like a handful of fries, I'll get them, i'll get them!"
He frees you with a huff and you dive back over to your side of the car. You pop open your door and hop outside to get a better angle at the underside of the seat. He gets impatient as you fish around for the last few fries, giving a little hurrah as the last one is snatched.
Clambering back into the truck you grin at him, happy as can be. He hums a short laugh, and you're off to home again.
He makes a beeline for the bedroom and you trot over to the counter to finish your meal, most of it having been shared and eaten in the truck. You sit back a moment to enjoy the feeling of fullness when you see Simon emerge again.
"Bed. Now. Kept me up long enough" he's already on you before you can think of a reply, slung over his shoulder. He makes quick work of getting you both situated in your proper spots.
You're snuggled into his side for the night, full and content. He breathes in deep and exhales slowly. you draw nonsensical patterns on his bare chest, playing with the hair there. As sleep overtakes you, your palm flattens over the spot where his heart resides; and you feel him relax just a smidgen more.
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grox · 18 days
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I dont even know how to say this but I think I love my job. Like I am under the belief that I landed an actual good job. Coworkers are fun and nice and responsible, management is chill but stern where it counts, the work itsself isnt that bad, the pay is fine, same as I made at subway but I'm guaranteed a dollar raise every three months, 9 hour shifts, no pesky required 30 minute break to take 6 bucks a day out of my pocket, the work leaves me hurting but in an athletic and refreshing way never before seen, they dont micromanage inventory so I can swipe a peperoni if I want, I can bring a pizza home every day and they dont even write that shit down, the smell of the place is exciting and fun, there is a good mix of wise coworkers to advise me and unwise coworkers to play with, when I get snapped at its more of like, learn this real quick, no one harbors any genuine anger and the coworkers I dont get along with we still help eachother out, you can be on your phone sometimes, its a real restraunt not a subway so you don't even gotta deal with customers you just play papas pizzeria all day. It's awesome. Like the only bad part is the commute and that damn 5 am bedtime/1 pm mornings. But I feel like a winner. Like I thought I was a lost cause and a bumbling oaf all throughout training but these pasg few shifts I locked the fuck in and I'm like waiiiit I'm fucking good at this. Like I'm genuinely alright. Like its gonna be fine maybe unless I get fired but honestly I am keeping up with all my coworkers I no longer feel like I'm lagging behind that much
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the-s1lly-corner · 6 months
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Hey , how would Jeff the Killer, Slenderman, Ticci Toby and Eyeless Jack react to a Albino reader ?
Jeff the killer, Slenderman, Ticci Toby, and Eyeless jack w/ an albino!reader !
jeff and toby are the only two characters strictly written as platonic as per admins personal boundaries, but the others can be seen as either way YAHOO playing TLTs new fnaf song on loop while writing this its so mf good got my bones getting in a twist YIPEE did some research on albinism since i didnt want this to be the characters simply reacting to the surface level stuff so thats why it took a little longer to get to this ! hope thats okay!
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SLENDERMAN:
sticking true to my personal headcanon that outside of feeding and running people out of his forest, he doesnt actually interact much with humans... asides from the additional torment he puts potential proxies through but hush hush thats a whole different can of worms. point is, i think its unlikely that he would meet someone with albinism. sure, hes probably seen albino animals now and then, but a person? new experience for him, but i dont think he would be treating you like a spectacle. puts two and two together not long after meeting you... though even if hes accepting of it, he doesnt know of the extra precautions you need to take (to protect your eyes and skin from the sun, for example) but hes pretty receptive i think... notices youre having a hard time on days where its sunnier out so he either keeps you inside or keeps you in the shade. doesnt like giving you things from victims, so hes going to find other means to get you what you need (sunscreen, hats, sunglasses, ect). generally very accommodating, has a soft spot for you. i mean of course he does, you managed to win over this ancient forest demon thing
EYELESS JACK:
already knows what it is, down to common traits and the different types since i personally hc that before he became this silly man eating demon he was studying in medicine + generally had an interest in this sort of thing. doesnt bat an eye to the way your eyes sometimes twitch or drift off, helps you to the best of his ability when the strain gives you headaches. very good at reminding you to reapply your sunscreen and to remember to wear a sunhat when you go outside. if he has to, hes going to give you his jacket just so you can protect your upper body long enough to get back to your place/// just please give it back when you see him again..
JEFF THE KILLER:
"has heard of it but like slenderman knows next to nothing about it asides from "oh it means you dont have pigment/have low pigmentation" has heard of it but like slenderman knows next to nothing about it asides from "oh it means you dont have pigment/have low pigmentation", but unlike slenderman hes kind of... an ass about it... like hes generally an arrogant asshole, so it may take a while for him to pick up on things to make things a little easier for you. seems like hes annoyed with helping you remember to pack your sunglasses and other necessities, or when giving you something to help with any headaches caused by any strain... but let it be known that if he truly didnt care he wouldnt even bother to pipe up and drag you out into the shade when the sun starts beating down on you two.. he simply shows his care for you differently, you know?
TICCI TOBY:
he gets it, he does. maybe this is because he relates to having to just. deal with stuff that makes you different from others. or because admin is on the fence of headcannoning toby with poliosis... which while not albinism, visually he can relate and also relate to some of the other symptoms of it (namely the eye issues). flip flops between reminding you to pack stuff you need and forgetting.. but when he does remember hes very pushy about it, so much so that you might need to tell him to tone it down. you guys tend to vent to one another about things since theres some relatability between the two of you. as mentioned in my previous post hes prooooooobalby going to steal things for you to help you feel better; from things that will physically help you to things that will emotionally help you
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anashins · 1 year
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saw this tt and now all of a sudden i NEED fwb mark but he ends up falling in love... please 😕🙏
Pairing: Mark x Reader
Genre: angst, smut
Word Count: 1.3k
Summary: You confess to Mark that you've finally found a boyfriend which brings your little "arrangement" to an end. But he makes sure that you remember him in a very special way.
A/N: My first Mark request! Thank you, I hope you like it 💖 
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“I’ve found someone.”
Mark froze on the spot. “Really?”
He tried to sound cool, almost unbothered which he also wanted to convey through his body language, but he couldn’t shake off the fact that your confession had pulled the rug from under him. 
You shrugged, but he wasn’t in a clear position to read your expression, whether it was indifference or empathy that was currently being reflected in your eyes. “That was the deal, right? This between us was only going to last until we both found someone new.”
Well, in the beginning, it had been. But somewhere along the way, between many nights entangled in the sheets and deep talk that lasted for hours, Mark had stopped searching for someone who would be an even better match for him other than you, because he assumed there wasn’t. 
Foolishly, he had thought you had too.
“Who is he?” His question came out hoarsely, but he hoped you didn’t notice.
“His name is Jaehyun, I met him at work,” you explained, biting down a smile that eventually broke through nonetheless. “We went on a few dates together and he asked me to be his girlfriend last night. I will accept tomorrow when I see him.”
The way your look changed when you talked about this other guy broke Mark’s heart. You had never looked at him in the same way.
“Is he treating you well?”
“He’s kind, compassionate, funny and takes me out on great dates. A real gentleman.”
Mark wanted to object, convince you that he could be all of that too. That he already was all of that, including the dating part, even though having never gotten the chance to prove it because of your stupid rules. 
But you had had him and still decided to look around for someone else. It hurt very much that you couldn’t see him in the same way.
“I’m happy for you,” he eventually pressed through gritted teeth.
It didn't pass by him that you didn’t buy even one syllable. “We can still be friends. You will surely find someone else yourself, Mark.”
But what if he didn’t want to search for someone else? To even find someone else? What if he only wanted the one thing in the world that didn’t see him as more than a friend that did her a favor every now and then?
“Thank you for telling me.”
He wanted to turn around and leave your apartment immediately before you could look through his facade of which he didn’t know for how much longer he could still keep it up, but stopped in surprise when he felt you withholding him by his arm. 
“One last time.”
“Dont-”
“One last time,” you repeated slowly. “Officially, I’m still single, so… please. One last time.”
Mark knew he shouldn’t do that. He should walk out right there, right then, and never contact you again. That would be if it were an ordinary friends with benefits situation for him. But it wasn’t. 
At that moment, he knew he was already so in love and every moment close with you would break his heart only further. But he just couldn’t resist.
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Mark loved the way you were shaking under him. When he looked up, he saw that you had one arm draped over your face, cursing with each breath that slowly faded when you came down from your height for the… he had lost count of how many times he had brought you to your climax already.
Actually, your sexual encounters didn’t last for so long, but since this would be the last time, Mark wanted to make it memorable for you. Licking all your juices from his lips, he crawled on top of you, giving you a proud look before bending down and kissing your dry mouth.
“You good?” he asked as he pulled your arm from your head and you faced him with heated cheeks and a havocked expression. “Because I’m not done yet.”
Your front teeth sank into your bottom lip as you gave him a nod. “All good,” you croaked. “But you haven’t cum one time yet, let me just-”
You made intentions to crawl out from under him, but Mark had you locked in the spot, spread out on your bed. “Today’s on me only.”
The change in your demeanor gave away what he had been trying to hide all along, but even though you suspected the truth, you didn’t let him know or broke it off. Instead, you encouraged him, “I want to do it in your favorite position. I want you to be inside of me when you cum.”
Mark couldn’t say whether it would be something like a goodbye gift for him or whether you really wanted to savor your last joining, but in the end, it didn’t even matter. He only had one intention.
You rolled over to your stomach, then got on your hands and knees, facing the headboard. Mark was behind you within moments, grabbing onto your thighs to spread them even wider before he slid the head of his dick between your cheeks. When he pressed his entire length into you with force, but care, he simultaneously lured a loud moan out of you that you only seldomly let slip.
“If you’re going to do it with this Jaehyun guy in the future, keep in mind that he’s never going to make you feel the way I do.”
“Mark, I-” But you didn’t come to speak further as another scream interrupted your sentence when Mark thrusted into you, starting out slow, but strong and always filling you all the way up.
Your breasts were bouncing rhythmically, his hands on your hips to move you and meet you whenever he withdrew. He loved the way you made him feel, how you sucked him right back in, physically and emotionally. Throwing his head back, Mark pushed every thought aside that this time would be the last time. He didn’t believe it. He couldn’t yet.
When he picked up his pace, ramming into you forcefully so that you eventually fell forward onto your chest, there were no other sounds leaving your lips anymore other than little gasps that never got to show their full potential as he quickly knocked into you again. 
Usually, Mark was a quiet lovemaker, but this time, he couldn’t hold back his anger, especially not vocally. You were lying limply under him, exhausted, but so, so fulfilled and satisfied as you held onto the pillow in front of you like a lifeline, listening to the sound of his moans that only turned you on even more.
Not much later, you felt your back getting covered in warmth when Mark placed himself on top of you, his hips still working hard, his stroking game relentless as he thrusted into you, the bed creaking under your sweaty bodies. 
You turned your head aside, meeting his lips to share the first kiss for today. Somehow, it tasted of sadness for him, but that could have also been in his imagination, nothing but his wishful thinking that you could still somehow change your mind when he proved to you that he was much better than Jaehyun.
But you didn’t.
The force of his thrusts pushed you over the edge and you shook uncontrollably under him, crying out his name so loudly, he was finally sure he would be remembered for quite a long time whenever you came in the arms of any other man.
“MARKMARKMARKMARK!”
When you laid side by side shortly after, he hoped that you would lie yourself on his chest.
But you didn’t.
When you got yourself dressed, he hoped that you would invite him to stay overnight.
But you didn’t.
And when he walked out of the door, he hoped that you would hold him back again.
But…
you didn’t.
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tempting-andromeda · 8 months
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First of, thank u so much for feeding us eagle flies girlies cause we are STARVING and... can we get hcs about eagle flies having a crush on a girl who's shy and doesn't talk a lot? Like she's the exact opposite of his chatty sassy personality. I think that sounds really cute like sun/moon type of couple or something <3
Tbh I don’t think he’s real chatty I just think he’s blunt
I do enjoy him with a sun and moon dynamic though
Eagle flies with a shy s/o
CONVINCED you hate him at first
You won’t talk so he just automatically assumes you hate him so he hates you
Will kinda snappily tell you to do things but after a while he just realizes…you’re shy.
He feels horrible.
Paytah was like “why are you so mean to them? They’re just shy?”
And he feels so embarrassed he just kinda leans on something
Apologizes to you the best way he can
Which is him confronting you and refusing to make eye contact
He kinda likes that you’re silent because he had absolutely no idea what’s going through your mind. Is it intelligent thoughts? Is it birds chirping? He doesn’t know.
Eases into a friendship with you by just sitting near you and saying small things.
“You eat yet?” And just handing you a small handful of something that’s like a mushroom
Tries to watch you to understand you (not in a creepy way!) and he accidentally starts realizing you’re actually pretty and sometimes when you laugh it makes him feel like he has to leave the area
Refuses to admit he has a crush tho
Once you two start becoming friends he’s real patient with you
He waits for you to talk and when you don’t sometimes he fills in the silence and it ends with him saying something awkward and he’s like “welp that was embarrassing wanna watch me try to do something cool”
Because thats what he does with Paytah and he certainly doesn’t have a crush on you (he does)
After a while he just kinda…strives to hear you talk to him. Like he just wants it to be the two of you and he wants to hear you talk about your thoughts while he stares at you and admired how pretty your lips look or how lovely you sound
He tries to make moves on you but he doesn’t want to overbear you so he just acts more gentlemanly
Oh no! A puddle! Eagle flies to the rescue! and he’ll hold your hand for a little bit longer after he helps you get off your horse or something
After a month of him just being hopeless and if you do or dont show him any sign that you like him he just whispers that he likes you
It’s awkward and his hands are clammy and he doesn’t look at you the whole time because he’s trying to distract himself that he could be possibly humiliating himself
He whispers a soft “I think I like you.”’or maybe he’s a bit more confident and he just says he likes you straight up
Once you two are all cozy he just openly admires you
When he sees you will press a kiss to the back of your head and whisper an I love you
He loves dates we’re you’re away from everyone!! Absolutely loves it!!
He’s taking you on a date to watch him catch fish with his bare hands
He’s never done it before but just to see you laugh at him he’s suddenly a master at it
He acts a bit more goofy just to get a giggle out of you
Will embarrass himself just to see you smile
Get a weird nickname for a few months or hear your angelic giggle? He can deal with the nickname
Sometimes just to hear your voice he tries to smoothly ask you to read to him
“Do you like to read? I just…see you reading a bit and I’ve never been one to read so…maybe you can convince me.”
Looks at you like you hung the moon if you read to him
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hella1975 · 8 months
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hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x
#seriously another shout out to my mutuals#id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being#and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting#bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!'#hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over#and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic#sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭#okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals#like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful#so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up#than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess#they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds#so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW#okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE#SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES#if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends'#then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context#but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic#and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF#okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this#ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day
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goomyloid · 8 days
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PLEASE explain your thoughts on kriselle in full detail
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS 100% UNPROMPTED ASK! I SHALL EXPLAIN
i hate toby fox. why did he do this to us. he really put it better than anyone else. not really romantic not really platonic but…. something else… some secret more sinister more heartfelt more absurd third thing
i wonder at what point should i clarify that i dont even really seek out kriselle in a romantic context… DONT GET ME WRONG i have zero issues with the ship whatsoever and all of the krisellers out there are living their best (most painful) lives and i SEE THE APPEAL. BUT when i rotate them in my brain i dont need them to kiss or anything like that i just need them to sit down and sadly hold hands and stay like that forever and ever. in case you couldnt gauge that from my art so far
tldr i dont think i ship them in the traditional sense at least …. the things that i usually fixate on for any romantic ship are not there with these two. there are no romantic feelings there In my mind. and all at the same time i start screaming and throwing up and killing myself (all positive) whenever i see them even in the same image together. hngh
ive tried explaining this to people before and they usually suggest something along the lines of a QPR and even that doesnt feel right to me. truly the best way i can put it is… that red string of fate man… which i almost hesitate on saying too because i dont actually know if noelle is Quite an important enough character to the story to warrant a connection like that. WHICH IS A CRAZY THING TO SAY. I KNOW. DO NOT EVEN THINK ABOUT GETTING ME WRONG i think dess and her connections to gaster and her usage as a stepping stone into the weird route are all VERY important… but in my brain its just not kris/knight/asriel/every other mysterious main focus of the story Important. i didnt mean to get into deltarune theorizing here i hope nobody’s blood is boiling rn
so yeah in the end. toby fox once again put it best. they are friends, but they are also something else.
back to the actual pairing though… sometimes i think im going overboard and overestimating how close kris and noelle were as children because noelle will go and say things like “i wonder if we were ever really friends at all.” which is kind of a fair statement considering the circumstances. sure they played together and all and tagged along with their siblings to do stuff together but when dess went missing… it all kind of stopped. kris is just a kid, they dont know what to do or even how to process it, much like noelle. asriel is probably dealing with his own feelings, he just lost his friend and likely old enough to understand the weight of what happened. while noelle and kris cant say much to each other at all.
im always back and forth on speaking headcanons for kris but the one that i always seem to come back to is selective mutism… to me kris had a lot of trouble communicating well as a child and could only grow comfortable around certain people, asriel and noelle being clear examples because they’re both so patient with them. maybe because of this noelle felt like they could understand each other without really needing words, and just physical interaction was enough to achieve some form of closeness… or maybe that was all just on her end, she thinks when kris goes to play the piano. but if that’s the case, why does it feel like a concert just for her…?
jesus dont even get me start on them as teenagers either. noelle has lost her sister, and now kris has lost their brother… but not in the same way. they look at each other and wonder if they’re the same now. or, maybe thats too cruel. maybe its not the same thing at all. asriel’s coming back soon, after all. it will all be over soon, kris won’t have to feel this way for much longer, right? so then, why does kris look so miserable, sitting in the corner over there? all noelle feels like she can do is sit next to them quietly. to be there, and to somehow, vaguely, messily help each other. the misfit kids that dont really know how to talk to each other and yet understand each other regardless
thats why the dark world feels like such a dream to her. these crazy city lights, fantastical creatures, susie’s there, and she actually might have the means to defend herself and stand her ground, whether it be verbally or… otherwise
and most of all, much like with kris offering an adventurous haven to susie in ch1, the same is extended to noelle. by kris’s side, no less. it feels like theyre doing things together again, and its fun, and nostalgic… she wants to bring dess. and i think its okay to assume kris wants to bring asriel, too. recreating the make-believe world they lost so long ago… is it really possible?
no… how can it really be possible, when this isnt kris? something is wrong. its almost perfect, except kris… it’s them, but it’s not. she sees their face, their expressions, their laughs, their worries. and yet the voice that comes from them… isnt them. and it scares her! even if nothing particularly bad happened as a result. and if something bad DID happen, well…
she just wants what they had before back. is it really so impossible? can they reconcile after all these years? does kris want to? is kris capable of doing so? maybe they just need to hug again. will it feel like a real hug? the person she thought she understood is acting in ways she doesnt understand. they’re telling her to do weird things. they cycle through actions as if they just want to know what happens. and they cant even play piano anymore.
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gayfanservice · 10 months
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Hello! I have a request for you but please take your time there is no rush!
Can you please to Ushiwaka (Tendou’s nickname for him) with a male reader who loves physical touch but in public places get super overwhelmed? Like something i find really cute and something that i find special is when im overwhelmed ill lock pinkies with my partner. Nothing more nothing less just our pinkies. It feels extra special to me because its like you just are pinky promising to stay together forever but you guys are also giving each other physical touch.
Sorry if this is really long! Thank have a good day! :)
It’s not long at all! Perfect length, if I do say so myself. There’s only a couple of requests that are too long for my liking (like the twins + older brother, please don’t make requests this length. Please.)
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Chatter and sounds of utensils filled the cafeteria air as Wakatoshi and (Y/N) comfortably sat beside each other. The quiet pair barely chatted, merely basking in each others presence as they occasionally glanced at each other. The comfortable silence broken by none other than Tendō, Wakatoshi’s school best friend, dropping his poor tray onto the table as he quickly sat down, Semi following suit.
“Ushiwaka, (L/N)! Good morning!” The brightly haired fellow basically yelled, a smile on his face as Semi looked semi-dead. Poor man must’ve not gotten enough sleep to deal with Tendō’s shit this early in the morning.
Wakatoshi acknowledged them with a simple ‘Morning,’ while (Y/N) let out an inaudible hum. He loved hanging with friends, but the cafeteria was always his least favorite place. The loud people, buzzing lights, and all around noises were too much for his brain to handle. The only reason he actually shows up is because he needs food, and Wakatoshi, who also needs food. He’d only been in there for close to twenty minutes and his brain was already feeling foggy. It was beginning to be too much.
(Y/N) listened to three different conversations; some girl talking about a bad break up, a group of friends talking about what to do for the upcoming weekend, something about murder, which is probably about a video game. Probably. The clashing sounds of lights and chatter were getting to his head, no longer able to listen to Tendō’s hyper-fixation ramble on his newest manga series. His breathing quickened, chest feeling cold as his head slightly twitched every which way.
Wakatoshi glanced over at (Y/N), noticing the spaced out look on his face and his subtle twitching. He linked their pinkies with a squeeze, a subtle question wondering if (Y/N) was fine. He quickly settled his gaze back onto his tray. He felt (Y/N) squeeze a couple times; a special thing they did together instead of saying words was tapping or squeezing whatever they held of the other. One for no, two for yes, and three for ‘I love you’. It was perfect communication between two non-sociable human beings.
(Y/N) felt better, knowing someone he trusts is with him. His chest felt warm as he thought about how much Wakatoshi cares about him. (Y/N) could make it to the end with him.
Wakatoshi finished his tray as well as (Y/N), deciding it was time to head back to their dorms and away from people. The two stood, waving goodbye at Tendō and Semi, and placed their trays in the respective area before they made their way back to whoever’s dorm popped up first, pinkies intertwined once again.
The walk was quiet, neither really speaking as they walked through the long hallway filled with different doors. Wakatoshi’s door eventually came up. The two settled inside, the morning sun dimly lighting up the room through Wakatoshi’s curtains. As soon as the door closed (Y/N) wrapped his arms around Wakatoshi, chest to back. His cheek coddled into Wakatoshi, instantly feeling better as Wakatoshi held his hands. The two didn’t talk as they embraced, gentle smiles on both of their faces as they relaxed into each others, and only each others, presence.
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Bet you dont even remember making this request lmao
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corvidcircus · 1 year
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If you're still taking requests maybe how vergil and dante's s/os react to them coming back from hell eventually after the end of 5? :) I don't know how long they spend there but I know I'd go crazy if it was more than a few months... Love your writing! ❤
The Return
(post-DMC5, by roughly ten months)
Vergil's S/O-
you've been outwardly calm, and internally screaming
you were actually V's S/O
V told you about the whole situation just after he told Trish
the qliphoth was the first time you met Vergil, but he looked at you adoringly, just like V did
he softly assured you they'd be back, and leapt into the underworld within seconds of ending his bout with nero, leaving you scrambling to understand what was happening
you've been working to distract yourself from the fact that he's gone, and the fear he may not come back
you never really got to meet him, and he might be gone for good
it hurts
you hate it
the crew have noticed
you dont sleep well, you wont eat much, you're irritable and distracted
10 months later you are very close to giving up hope
youre on a job and suddenly both twins are just... there?
it throws you off balance and if it weren't for them covering you, things would've gone very poorly
you finish destroying the portal and the stragglers
you stop and actually see him for the first time
you don't remember moving, but you blink and you're across the room, crying, face shoved into his chest, clinging to him for dear life
he stiffens and then slowly returns the embrace
it takes a minute for you to get your breath back
you recognize pieces of the poet you knew, enough to gently tease him
"You're late, and in a lot of trouble," he winces apologetically
"but goddamn did I miss you."
that earns a small smile
("And I, you, my dove.")
Dante's S/O-
you're pissed, at first. mainly because before the Vergil fight you told him not to do anything ridiculously stupid.
mans had 1 job: he failed
after about 5 weeks, you start getting a little worried
the tree is mostly gone, so they must have succeeded in taking out the roots
the longer that goes by the more you think about something Nero said when he told the crew what happened
that they never said they had a plan to get back, in fact he seemed to think they may not be able to get back out of the underworld
the whole arcane research thing is not typically your go to for dealing with demons
why bother when hitting them with a sword is more effective
but without yamato, portals are hard to create, and even harder to control
you spend months running down any option you can think of to at least get to or from the demon world
it takes another 8 1/2 months to finally find something that you think might work
it doesn't
then after passing out, upset and exhausted, you startle awake at the sounds of the doors flying open
you must still be dreaming, because that looks like your devil
who's trapped in hell
right?
cue a dante patented stupid joke to diffuse tension
you quite literally vault over the desk into his arms and just feel that hes back
*hug*"I'm so happy you're back!"
and exactly 4 seconds later
*hitting him repeatedly* "Never fucking do that again!"
Bonus Nero's Reaction-
he's super fucking pissed off
ah yes lets leave the kid (with severe familial abandonment issues) suddenly without his family
remains fairly angry when the topic of either twin is brought up
but the longer that goes by, the more anger becomes distress, and eventually resignation
concerned, but unsure how to help Vergil's S/O
very bothered by the 'empty look' when he does jobs with VS/O
confused, exasperated, but not surprised at Dante's S/O's actions
a little tiny bit scared of the non-stop manic energy DS/O is embodying
first time seeing the twins back, he has way to many emotions to deal with so defaults to anger
likely throws down with either/both
the rage burns hot and fast this time, so the fight is messy and short
basically ends in him storming off and giving them the cold shoulder until someone makes the first move
(probably nero or dante lets be honest here)
*this is the headcannon version, there may end up being fully written one shots later
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the-s1lly-corner · 8 months
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Could you do A, C, I, G, K, L, and P for EJ in the fluff alphabet? It would make me reallyyyy happy :3
Fluff Alphabet w/ EJ!!
ive been waiting for someone to do EJ you dont understand!!! i saw this earlier but the power went out when i finally had time to sit down and get to writing </3 my apologies as for other stuff/for everyone else, requests are still open, and the fluff alphabet will be open indefinitely!!
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ATTRACTION- Honestly I think you gotta be a real catch to end up as Jacks partner, considering his entire hermit thing... I personally think that he separates himself from society after he becomes Eyeless Jack via a funky cult sacrifice thing... which he was kinda pretty much unwillingly roped into. I think he would want someone who's capable of taking care of themselves, and perhaps someone whos smart. maybe even lower maintenance. its not that he doesnt want to treat you as you deserve, its that sometimes he cant given he sometimes legitimately goes feral (though this is only really due to him pushing off his needs, blood frenzy type deal for when he pushes off eating people, can get real ugly). understanding as well, he needs someone whos willing to be understanding of his position and current predicament and know that eventually jack is going to fully not. be there anymore one day (possible angst idea? ooo?) but also even before the whole, demon thing, jack wasnt the most cheery or social and things definitely havent changed
CUDDLING- hes really cold so thats good for hot nights! not good for cold ones though </3 but hey maybe you guys are somewhere where its perpetually hot. as for the actual act of cuddling, he prefers to be the big spoon. likes sleeping closer to the door, kinda makes a barrier of himself for you in case someone were to come in. which is unlikely since if this were his place, its literally a cabin in the woods in bumfuck nowhere, but the point still stands. only engages if youre asleep or ask for it. if youre the one holding him, he kinda. freezes still and doesnt dare move. poor dude, hes so scared hes going to bite you or something
GIFT GIVING- since he lives in the woods and doesnt have a job he cant exactly go out and give you gifts. he also isnt fond of taking belongings from victims, since he already takes pieces of their bodies. coughs. anyways, i think hes more of an act of service person (will talk more about that in L)
INJURY- youre in luck, he had plans to be a doctor, thats what he was going to college for! plus i think he had a little fixation on medical stuff in general growing up. little hc that his other choice was to be a microbilogist. idk, i can see it. but i dont think it needs to be said that neither became reality. but he does know how to treat some injuries and illnesses! so youre both in luck! but how does he react, emotionally? honestly, as long as youre not bleeding while hes in his frenzied state hes more than willing to help you... although its more so because he doesnt want the scent to trigger anything in him... he cares about you, i promise! its just that ultimately its better he doesnt go feral on you- now if he was the one injured hes already patching himself up... oh but imagine convincing him to let you clean up a wound he got while trying to do his thing.... ouuuugh... let the man be vulnerable, let him be taken care of... ueueue... anyways- yeah
KISSES- he doesnt wear his mask when hes at your place or his cabin- in fact he only really wears it when hes 'hunting' or 'prowling', so!! loves kissing your cheek. will absolutely refuse to kiss you if hes just ate, though, let him wash his face and brush his teeth first. and change his clothes. he likes being kissed anywhere; forehead, mouth, cheeks, hands, ect ect ect. now in terms of frequency i dont think he likes it too often, but that may be some internalized thing about no longer being worthy of love or something but hey who am i to say (loudly winks)
LOVE LANGUAGE- as previously mentioned, acts of service is how jack shows his appreciation and love for you. need something done? hes on it! need to do some chores but dont feel like it? you dont even need to ask! stuff like that, hell, even if something doesnt need to be done he will probably tinker at it and try to make it better if its an appliance or something that can be upgraded to be more efficient and effective. when it comes to receiving he likes words of affirmation, this man has been through hell and hes still going through it, so reassuring him that you still love him even though hes changing makes things a little less scary
PET NAMES- he likes calling you babe and baby. he likes being called hon! doesnt really do petnames, he finds saying someones name intimate enough... which honestly i kinda agree with, i kinda hate how utilized it is in romantic media. just two characters loving each other, sharing a moment, and one softly utters the others name in a sweet tone. GUH!!!! anyway
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crushedsweets · 10 months
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Can you talk more about Eyeless Jack? I really love him😔❤️
holds him in my hands... yes i can.. yes. i . can..
ive already gone on about his sacrifice and whatnot.. ok . ok. what to talk about. im gonna repeat hella stuff prob.
jack nyras .. mid-late 20s... human sacrificed to a demonic deity. . cute guy overall.
as i mentioned, similar to the proxies, he has a rando cabin in the woods. slenderman actually sees him as a good utility, so while he's not a proxy, he's kept around and allowed freely in the forest without any uhh... chaperone, i guess.
his cabin is even smaller, 1 bedroom 1 bathroom, small kitchenette, small living room, etc. there's a bit of an underground bunker, sort of like a tornado bunker. he keeps 2 freezers down there. u can imagine whats in them.
the main sort of ummm... like, driving issue and character 'arc' for jack is his guilt and battles w his own humanity. he was technically possessed by a demon/deity for a year straight, and while the demon is now 'resting', he still committed the atrocities he did, and he still relies on humans. for a while after he regains consciousness, he's really skinny bc its really hard on him emotionally to eat. eventually he just gets sort of numb to it (with the help of the other creeps.. not intentional help moreso 'dont be a pussy do what u gotta do man') . jeff is especially the one telling him to 'man up and do it' so he lives. toby and ben are more understanding of why its so hard for jack.
again jacks the eldest of many siblings. i'm thinking perhaps it goes.. jack>daughter>daughter>son>son>daughter. 3 sisters, 2 brothers. he was driving and working by time he was 16, his parents had too much pride to let him help with bills but he was getting groceries and cooking a lot of food for the house.
family meals were kind of a thing in the nyras household. jack was a good cook, lots of traditional meals, etc. he's been cooking dinner for his siblings since he was like 11. his dad always thought it was odd that jack took that on, esp since he had a sister a few years younger than him, but he legit just liked it.
there was a good bit of parental pressure to be a doctor, but if that weren't the case, he'd love to go into culinary. you know. before he had to cook human meat.
he can digest raw meat, and he has a theory that he goes longer between meals if he eats raw meat, BUT he often still cooks it and tries to make it just. more normal for him.
also he can and does still eat normal food, but it lost a ton of its taste for him. he relies still on human meat, but he can go like a 1-2 weeks between meals before he starts getting violent and dealing with severe pain. sort of like tokyo ghoul style ?
mmm.. he still has a missing persons case file open. his mother still tries to get the police to keep looking, and his brothers have even tried doing crazy shit like going into creepy parts of the city alone to figure shit out, but his sisters and dad eventually gave up and assumed he was dead. his mom still believes he's alive fully. none of them know what really happened to him
he works as human remains disposal for some rando guys that ben helped him find off the dark web. thats how he pays for the cabin, but the cabin is under brian's name since...... well. um. lol. jacks missing and presumed dead and he sure as hell isnt human enough to have a house.
cute guy !!!
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gh0--st · 7 months
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Lilith and Amity bonding after Belos is dead?
Hehe silly Amity and Lilith bonding
I had to like scroll through my entire page to make sure I didn't already use this title. Even though im like 90% positive, I did already, but whatever!
Lesson
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Summary: When Lilith scolds Amity for being reckless, she decides to teach her a lesson.
Lee: Amity
Ler: Lilith
This is a tickle fic. If you're not into that kind of stuff, dont read this.
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Amity leaned back on a desk while Lilith bandaged her arm. "I still don't get how this happened. Weren't you being careful?" Lilith glanced up at Amity in concern.
Amity simply just shrugged. "I was looking around, and I cut myself on a rock. It isn't that big of a deal." Lilith rolled her eyes, "You could've been hurt worse. You're lucky this is all that happened."
Amity scoffed, "Im an adult, I can take care of myself." Her tone had a bit of sass in it. "You're only 19, Amity. While you may be an adult, you're still young. And with the way you act, you may as well be a teenager again!"
Amity just rolled her eyes, muttering something under her breath, "You dont have to be so overdramatic over a cut."
Lilith sighed, repeating her point, "This could've been worse than a cut. What if you had actually fallen? I know I'm the one sending you on these searches, but you still need to be careful."
Amity just rolled her eyes, "I am careful!" Lilith gave Amity a blank look. "Then why am I bandaging you?" Amity was silent for a second before huffing again and looking away.
"From now on, I want you to be extra careful. I can't have you getting hurt again." Lilith spoke firmly, but Amity scoffed. "You're not my mom.." Her tone was sassy, but Lilith smirked.
She didn't look at Amity, instead speaking calmly with a rather smug look on her face, "All those times you've called me mom says otherwise."
She felt Amity tense, and she could picture the girls red face. Amity pulled her arm away from Lilith, "T-Those were accidents!"
Lilith leaned on her desk, raising an eyebrow, "Were they now?" Amity glared at Lilith, her face still red before rolling her eyes, "Whatever. I don't have to listen to you." She looked down.
Lilith sighed, "Fine then, I guess I'll have to make you listen." Amity blinked, confused, but when she turned to question Lilith, her heart dropped when she saw that smirk on the older womans face.
She gave a nervous chuckle, "O-Oh? Is that.. so?" She backed away a little, only for Lilith to follow.
Lilith followed her until Amity was practically cornered in the office, "Why so nervous? Where's all that bad girl sass from earlier?" Lilith smirked as she spoke teasingly, chuckling as Amitys face went red.
"O-Oh! I- um.." Amity squeaked a bit as Lilith wiggled her fingers, hovering them over Amitys side. Even though she wasn't touching Amity yet, the young adult was already breaking into a giggle fit from anticipation.
"Why so giggly? I haven't even touched you yet! But I will now." Lilith hovered her fingers a little longer before finally squeezing Amitys sides, scribbling up and down and smiling as Amity burst into loud giggles.
Amity squirmed a little but didnt make any real attempt to escape. Lilith dug her fingers into Amitys ribs while using her other hand to squeeze Amitys belly, earning tiny snorts out of her.
Eventually, Lilith reached up to poke and scribble around Amitys ears, earning more snorts out of her. "I forgot how much you enjoy this stuff."
Amitys face was red from embarrassment, and because of how much she was giggling, "IhI doHont ehenjoy it!" Amity squirmed but still didn't try to escape.
"Well you arent trying to get away." Lilith chuckled as Amitys face grew slightly redder, but she didnt respond.
Lilith spoke calmly yet teasingly, stopping her tickly attack for a second, "You probably think I'm going to stop at your ears. But you were my former student, so I know where your real most ticklish spot is."
A smirk fell on Liliths face as Amitys eyes widened a bit. But the girl huffed, "Yeah, right. M-My ears are my most ticklish spot."
Lilith shrugged, "Ah, so, that must mean you dont mind if I do this?" Before Amity could react, she broke into a squeal as Lilith shot her hands into Amitys armpits, scribbling her fingers around and getting loud giggles and snorts out of Amity.
"BAHAHA- LIHIHILITH!" Amity squirmed more, giggling and kicking her legs happily. "Are you going to listen to me?" Lilith smiled as she raised an eyebrow.
Amity nodded quickly, still a giggly mess, "YEHEHES-! I WIHILL!" And with that, Lilith stop her attack, gently rubbing Amitys sides.
"Good. Im glad you'll be more careful." Lilith pulled away, letting Amity catch her breath. After Amity calmed down, she smiled and hugged Lilith tightly.
"Thanks, mom." Lilith blinked, figuring it was another accident. But the look on Amitys face was genuine, and it made Lilith smile.
She hugged Amitys back, patting her head.
"No problem, sweetie."
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I never actually realized how much I crave tickles before. It always happens at night, too.
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