#but as a consequence of constantly faking it he has no idea where he actually stands in the pack

[sophiasharp]

I’m fascinated by the fact that I still see variations in the new quintessence ghoul’s name. Phantom is the obvious front runner, but I’ve also seen plenty of people use Aeon and a few people still use Midas as far as I’m aware, and even some people that still refuse to pick.

This is immensely funny to me and so I present to you an absolutely non-answer of a headcanon: What if he doesn’t actually HAVE a name?

What if things were so hectic when he was being summoned, needing a sudden replacement for Aether, like, yesterday, that Copia just. Forgot to ask the name of the new ghoul he summoned in favor of rushing him to the rest of the pack.

And as a result the ghouls just… kind of started giving him a bunch of nicknames that the others thought were his real name?

Aether’s the one that starts to call him “his little Phantom,” or just Phantom for short, since, at the time, the man was like a living ghost in their den. Barely made a sound the whole time he was there, barely noticeable as a person, blended into social situations so even if you knew he was there, you never really have track of where he is.

Not long after he was summoned, Dew finds him looking out the windows at the night sky, absolutely enamored with the stars and nebulas above them, and Dew takes it upon himself to drag the new ghoul outside and stargaze with him while he points out every constellation and star he can remember from all the times he’s sat out with Aether in the past. The next day, when ghouls start gathering at the breakfast table and Dew asks “Orion” if he wants some coffee, everyone there takes it in stride.

Mountain was likewise quick to come up with a name. “Aeon,” he called him with full confidence one day after spending the afternoon showing him around Primo’s old garden. When asked where it came from, Mountain claimed it was in reference to his quintessence. “It’s hard to describe. It’s something that feels simultaneously older than memory and younger than the present. It’s time and space stretched like taffy and bent in the shape of a ghoul.”

“Midas” comes from Swiss, who insisted on sitting in on a practice session between the new ghoul and Aether. Swiss was blown away by the progress he’s made in such a small amount of time! “It’s like the strings turn to gold under your fingers, man! Which archdemon did you make a deal with to play like that?”

Other nicknames followed. “Quint,” “Shadow,” “Bug,” “Puppy,” “New Guy,” it just kept going. It got to the point where if anyone just said a word in his general direction with enough authority, his head would turn, assuming they were talking to him.

And yet, not once this entire first leg of the tour did he ever correct the other ghouls. It seems he’s content to let them each have their own name for him, at least for now. After all, each name is like a gift: something personal that his new friends have given him, something that grounds him in this new and hopefully permanent pack. Then it would be rude to just choose one over the other, wouldn’t it? And he doesn’t want to disappoint his new pack. How could he possibly choose?

[fandomrouletteburrito]

You know what? Im going to vent about how annoyed I am abt bsd atm and put it in the tags bcuz I also want to debate it. I enjoy bsd but I am struggling to understand what exactly Asagiri is trying to do here esp when this arc is so long that the arc itself has mini arcs in it.

If anyone reads this I would love, LOVE to discuss this because I am yanking my hair in frusteration

I am putting it under a cut so that ppl who dont want to see criticism abt bsd dont have to see it

Am i being an asshole? Yes

Am i going to warn ppl before hand and remind them that they can curate their internet experience by simply not reading something that is going to criticize something they love? And the block button exists for a reason???????Also yes

That being said i dont often go off about things i dont like about media i enjoy because well i understand everything i like has pros and cons

Also i still read bsd bcuz there r other things i DO like about it

Anywayssss

The thing that is bothering me about bsd is that I dont think I can tell what any character is doing EVER. Perhaps thats just my taste and I like having some idea of whats going to happen.

The characters arcs are excellent, their actions make sense for the personalities that they have yes.

The problem i do have w bsd is that the characters are apparently constantly always somehow predicting whats going on

How in the goddamn world do you expect me to believe that Fyodor let Dazai see him kill someone through touch so that Dazai would come up w a plan like Mersault? Fyodor didn’t expect Dazai to catch him at the end of the whole virus thing so like how is that enough time for him to find a way to kill that guard by just touching his hand? Why do that unless you planned the Mersault fake death from the start?

I forget but didn’t the Hunting Dogs get Mushitaro to bring up Dazai’s crimes to get Dazai into Mersault? Was this all to get Dazai away from the agency? Extremely likely but that tells me Fyodor planned to fake his death from the star(again) WHICH IN TURN MEANS HE HAD TO HAVE FKING KNOWN SO MUCH AHEAD OF TIME which only makes sense if he had access to some type of future telling ability because some characters actions WERE random eg: below

If Gogol randomly decided to break Fyodor out of Mersault with his race against death game, how can Fyodor expect to be killed by a vampire to become Bram??? How does this make sense if he did not know that Gogol would plan this at all?

There is the panel of Fyodor fallin through the Mersault room correctly as he says its time to escape so maybe he knew Gogol would that? HOW if Gogol just came up with that plan without any of Fyodor’s input?? Alright then maybe he was acting so Dazai won’t catch on but even then how was he expecting to die so that he can become Bram?? What was his alternate plan?

Alright maybe he simply predicted Gogol to do that which I think is a bit sad for Gogol since I think his whole character arc is about how he doesn’t want to be shackled by anything and I would argue being manipulated by someone is a shackle

Criticism 2: the fact absolutely no one of importance has died in bsd manga except for in the light novels(i am including Odasaku in this) please PLEASE correct me if I missed a death

Im not counting Fukuchi as dead because jury’s still out on that given the whole thing w God!Fukuchi/Amenogozen

Esp as we have Dead Apple where whats his names ability outlived him and i think also in 55 minutes

Because well, how do you expect me to take any of the stakes in this manga seriously if no one of name dies ever, I would not have this issue if death wasnt faked out as many times as it has

Maybe Bram will actually stay dead but I doubt it

The fact Kunikida was killed this chapter just tells me that yet again, death is not a serious consequence in this manga. Esp as the book has not been used yet. Even fking HP Lovecraft is alive ffs.

If Kunikida stays dead I will HAPPILY eat my words and state that Asagiri is a master writer for fooling my reading of bsd that well.( i am obviously not saying only my interpretation of bsd is correct so pls dont come at me)

Criticism 3: why didn’t Dazai literally just kill off Fyodor w Chuuya once they got Sigma to get the info from Fyodor

I understand thats a much more author did that because thats what the writing needed and characters are only as intelligent as the story needs so … fineeeee thats on me

Criticism 4: the whole Amenogozen thing about how the war isn’t real

How can Fyodor fake the sign on the wall unless he knew what sign meant world ending to Fukuchi???

Not sure if this is a criticism but if Chuuya was sent by Mori…how did Fyodor expect him to show up? Unless Fyodor and Mori discussed that earlier together in which case Mori is doing an excellent job at pretending like he’s not inleague with Fyodor

This plan of Fyodor’s to become Bram is just so batshit insane and so reliant on people doing random things at the right time eg: Gogol and the death game, Chuuya not being used to kill Fyodor in any form, Sigma not waking up in time to warn the agency, Dazai not fking shooting Fyodor w a gun

Imagine if Gogol’s poison succeeded then well ig Fyodor would just stay in his body since he injected the poison in his own veins which hey doesn’t that mean there was no risk of Fyodor dying in that game? I am likely wrong but it is kinda funny

Unrelated but wow tumblr does NOT want to make writing this on mobile easy bruh

I think the reason I’m so frusterated with this is that bsd is so unpredictable that for me it feels like its going beyond the suspension of disbelief i have

Its breaking the intelligence scale that they set with Fyodor, Dazai and Ranpo that it feels too much to believe

My other issue is I dont know what the whole long term thing w BSD is, and I am a bit tired of that. That might be my personal taste where I like to know what kind of ending or long term things I hope to see in a series but this is a bit too absured for me which might be the point

If anyone reads this entire nonsensical essay you have my respect

[accirax]

initial thoughts on DCAS episode 9

woah, how strong is Tess/how weak is Aiden? i guess it's probably that Tess is jacked. non-digital art supplies are heavy.

he truly is the worst dad ever. no wonder Fiore constantly faceplanting never raised any alarm bells for him. it does make him being so worried about Fiore being attacked by the scorpion/alone in the dark in S1 all the sweeter, though :) (or all the more fucked up, from his son's perspective.)

WHERE THE FUCK DID YUL GET KAI'S SHIRT FROM SHKHSLKJASLDJASLD. i guess the last time we saw Kai he was shirtless so i guess his shirt must have wound up somewhere???

this makes sense, kind of. although, i maintain that Grett's actual gameplay in S1 was ATROCIOUS. anyways i love supportive Riya!!! just like Alec and Riya, this is a really fun pairing that i hope they expand upon more.

this was just by unabashedly being himself, i imagine? i can't picture Yul supporting Grett being herself, no matter what her true self is. he's too appearance-discriminatory for that.

thank god it's not another split personality plotline; i've had enough of those from other series.

top 10 photos taken seconds before disaster

WHEN WILL YOU LEARN? WHEN WILL YOU LEARN THAT YOUR ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES?!?!?! (/ref)

something about Aiden saying "sexy" really caught me off guard. anyways, woahhhhh whaaaaat oh my godddddd i can't believe Tom's boyfriend was fake!

yeah... because cops never lie 🤨

this really is therapy: the episode, huh? it's fine, i like the character work. also, Trevor's feelings reveal! this was pretty obvious, especially once they showed it in the trailer, so i'm not at all surprised. what i am surprised about is that we didn't see any of Derek and Kristal getting a drink or playing pool this episode. did it just happen off screen, or was it canceled/postponed? i'm sure Kristal's reaction will have some kind of effect on how Derek takes the news whenever Trevor decides to tell him.

Trevor is an honorary member of the Magenta team :) also, i would've thought slip-n-slide was a copyrighted brand name. then again, i have no idea what they'd call it otherwise.

we see later that other people do miss their shots fairly frequently. thus, this is proof that Grett is 100% baller.

mad at her (/j) for this one because my first thought when Tess and Ally wound up on top of each other was "this, too, is yuri."

*adds one tally to the "Yul lines that made me laugh out loud" counter*

maybe they are soulmates

HKSDLKJDLFJSDF GET HIS ASS

THE GIRLIES ARE WORKING TOGETHER AGAIN!!! and for real this time!

mildly disappointing-- with the episode playing out this way, i was kinda hoping that it would have been Aiden instead of Tess. however, for as much as you can argue that Aiden is just an obstacle in the Jake/Tom plot, Tess was pretty much only acting as a counselor in the Gabby/Ellie plot. and, while you could argue that Tess still had more potential to be explored in her relationship with Ally, Aiden still has more potential to be explored in his relationship with Riya. the biggest shame, in my opinion, is that they're favoring Aiden and Riya, who placed 3rd and 2nd, over Tess and Ally, who placed 9th and 6th. i should probably save more of these thoughts for my next power ranking instead, but, these ARE my initial thoughts on the elimination.

and she doesn't even get her gf to see her out? what is this cruel world?! (/j)

this is a really great expression. Tom and Aiden, watch your backs >:)

overall, a really fun episode! we got some nice character check-ins at the beginning, followed by some enthralling strategy at the end. watching Gabby fully and openly devolve into villainhood is a treat. super excited to see where we go next! if you count Gabby in with the villains, we've got 5 villains versus 5 non-villains... will a merge pit the two sides against each other, or will we wait until there are 9 players left to create an even half? until next time!

[autistichanseo]

What If Gaus Electronics was a daydream Jang Hanseo made up to deal with the abuse he was going through? Hear me out:

Okay to start off: I don’t actually think the show was made with the intention of well, being an escapism Jang Hanseo made to deal with everything so I won’t call it a theory or anything.

But head canon that maybe, maybe Hanseo made up a world where he was the main character just, living a normal office job. Living a boring, normal ordinary life far away from his current position as puppet CEO.

The structure of Gaus Electronics is similar to a cartoon. When Sangsik gets hurt (e.g. when he lost a tooth in the first episode) he magically regains it later on. It’s all silly and lighthearted and nothing truly devastating happens in the show, the only injuries that stay longer then a few scenes are needed to progress the plot (e.g Narae’s arms being in casts so Sangsik and Aziz have to look after her.)

Sangsik makes a potentially catastrophic mistake in the first episode for the company he works at, but this mistakes ends up helping the company. It means Marketing Team 3 gain a lot more respect than they had before.

He makes a mistake and it doesn’t hurt him or lead to awful consequences, which we know for a fact isn’t the case for Hanseo. Even the smallest mistake leads Hanseok to hurt Hanseo or could be fatal for the company. He has to deal with the weight of always having to please his brother (whose impulsive, erratic and mood can switch drastically at the drop of a pen) while also making sure he doesn’t mess up anything as the fake CEO of babel.

Thats a lot of pressure, constantly on his shoulders.

But in this universe he doesn’t have either of those things.

Why not make a world where he could imagine what it’s like to just make mistakes like every other human being and not get hurt for it? To be allowed to grow from them and learn rather than live in fear of what would happen to him for doing so?

Moreover, it wasn’t even Sangsik who uploaded the video in the first place publicly!! It was Mr. Cho the invisible dude (I think that’s his name) which is a great metaphor of how Hanseo has to take the fall for all of Hanseok’s mistakes publicly.

Things that weren’t even his fault he had to apologise for! To the public! He had to endure the hate and backlash for all of it!

Maybe Hanseo in his head makes up this entire universe. He’s the main character, he works for some random office in this world in the lowest Marketing Team. He was never allowed to suggest ideas to Hanseok, but now its his job! It’s his job to come up with ways to market the company he works at!

Hanseo has lived in riches his whole life and it’s all he knows (e.g. how he reacted to the Jipuragi office) so maybe what Matan thought living a normal life was like is what Hanseo thought it was like.

Maybe Hanseo projected onto Matan, and that’s why Sangsik wanted to become Matan’s older brother so badly.

He wanted to be the older brother to him he never got.

And maybe if he also plays the older brother, he could make sure he wouldn’t be hurt again.

Anyone who “hates” Sangsik in the show comes to love him (Narae) or secretly do love him even if they pretend they don’t (Mr. Baek). He has people who care for him and love him even if he’s “stupid” and messes up. Something Hanseo desperately wanted.

He wanted a family. And that’s exactly what Marketing Team 3 could be for him. Even if they were fake. Even if they were made up.

He could at least imagine what it felt like to be happy if he wasn’t allowed to be so.

(@seerya @dongyeonsimp since I’ve converted you guys to this hc 🫶🏼)

[movedtodykedvonte]

Spamvil Thoughts

Sometimes I think of pre canon Spamvil, like big shot era Spamvil but I like to add right person wrong time/scenerio.

Like I constantly see the interpretation that Jevil and Spamton knew each other because of the person who “enlightened” them and having this bond over being affected by the same entity even if they perceive themself to be on completely different axis of it’s instruction. But what if only like one of them knew and what if it was Jevil?

Jevil hides behind the mentality that life, reality, everything is a game without any real consequence. It wouldn’t really matter to Jevil what the entity can do to him nor do I every think he’d like work for it. I do think he’d take interesting in messing with other of the entities victims. I like to imagine the scenario of Jevil going to meet Spamton as a big shot planning to rib on him and his frivolous motives/ideals only to see that Spamton craves the same freedom Jevil already believes he has achieved and decides that is a much better game to play into. He presents himself as someone that had the ability to see the things the same way Spamton currently is and understands his struggle all without revealing his connection to the same person Spamton is getting calls from. Jevil finds people’s philosophies and idiosyncrasies fascinating and Spamton’s are so contradictory he can’t help but rope himself into this guys downward spiral. He insists he understand where Spam is coming from, that there is more to life and that freedom is something all can achieve if people such as Spamton stopped believing it is something that you earn/win rather than make for yourself. And he knows Spam’s way to scared of the phone to tell him anything if he knew.

In this iteration Spamton genuinely believes he has a confidant despite being initially off put by Jevil’s entire... everything.... at first. He doesn’t know how but Jevil seems to get exactly what he means and why he’s so strung up pun intended about everything. It’s nice and Jevil is someone he wants around, someone that he lets his walls down around and opens up to cause this clown around town does not think he’s insane or completely pathetic when he does. He’s still haughty and tries to be something he’s not but he tries to take breaks around Jevil. Of course this does not bode well for Jevil who was able to see this as nothing more than a game because he believed Spamton too shallow to ever be more than surface level or vain in his understanding/revealing of things and actually building a repour with the addison. He genuinely wants Spamton to be free the real way and with him at that, because as much as he can fake it, it is lonely being the only one to see the truth of your reality. I imagine Jevil would start dropping hints about the phone or that he knows exactly what is going on with BS.Spam but is a playful way. 

Of course all this does is unsettle the very fragile Spamton cause despite all he’s shared with Jevil the phone is usually off limits as it is a giant source of paranoia and fear. Of course when Spamton starts to crack towards the end, when the calls get more cryptic and less frequent, Jevil thinks it’s a wonderous idea to reveal everything which of course just makes Spamton crack more, now believing his closest companion at the time is just another component for the control his benefactor has over him. He pushes Jevil away and this is where Spamton’s sentiments that he needs to surpass Jevil, another pawn in his torment and a hatred for the clown cause it’s way easier to loath than be sad the one friend and maybe more he thought he had built their relationship off pretty white lies and what he thought was genuine understanding. 

The rest is the same with Jevil getting locked up and the whole puppetification, but the idea that Jevil was the misguided lovestruck dummy is never played with the same way it is with Spamton.

[carogdraws]

Idea 5: Vanessa visits the graves of her victims and sees ghosts

An idea that I've seen exceedingly few fics try and cover is Vanessa encountering the ghosts of the people whom she (as Vanny) murdered after the 3-star ending.

I am unsure as to how one would make this situation happen. Maybe it could be a dream.

A scenario that I like most has to do with the idea that Vanessa visits the graves of the children she (no vanny) killed. After she was freed, she reported the location of the bodies so that they could recieve a proper burial. Vanessa knows that it isn't enough, she doesn't think that she will ever be able to do enough to atone for what she did to all of those children (it wasn't you, it was Vanny.) At the very least she tries to go and visit their graves once a week, making sure to bring flowers for them everytime. Vanessa doesn't say anything during the visits, what is there to say? "I'm sorry?" Yeah right, as if SHE is deserving of forgiveness...

I really like it because there are a lot of things you could potentially cover, including:

How would the ghosts react to seeing the freed Vanessa? Would the children be enraged? If so, what would they do?

Or would they be able to see that the person in front of them is not really the same as the one who murdered them, not mentally, at least? Maybe (relating back to idea 2) the children who were taught by her would be able to convince the other children of this.

How about the therapists? They would likely be more willing to listen, being adults trained in understanding psychological conditions.

One could discuss how Vanessa has been dealing with having 2 sets of childhood memories, a fake abusive one (put there by Glitchtrap for reasons of trying to make her more obedient, which ended up failing) and her true, standard, evidently normal one. (in this universe patient 46 and their tapes didn't exist, save for that one line about lying about childhood, just pretend it was in one of Vanessa's tapes)

And, of course, we can't forget Vanessa. What would she do? It is most likely that she would curl up into a ball and await the punishment that she thinks she deserves (she doesn’t). After all, it is HER fault, right? (No, it’s Vanny's.)

If you include Gregory in this encounter, he, being the "no fear" gremlin that he is, would probably try and start to defend his… uh… paternal guardian of unspecified rank in some way, either by trying to explain that Vanny is no more, or try and actually fight the ghosts.

As you can see, there are many ways that I think someone can make a mini story out of this concept.

Indeed so 🤔

It's a great idea for an angst story, since Vanessa feels a lot of guilt for something she never really did (in a mental sense).

Now, this had me thinking a little. In Afton's Return, I never really planned that Vanessa would be haunted by angry ghosts (in all honesty, the ghosts in AR are actually the most chill version of them, not many other AUs have them constantly visiting and nagging Michael and, consequently, Charlie who stayed behind). But, I did plan a sequel where a whole bunch of ghosts the characters thought were gone make a comeback and are on the hunt. Maybe it could be a great time to add these children too, as I was trying to figure out what would be the main type of souls encountered by one of the three groups in the story. And yes, the main characters are separated into three groups, exploring three different Freddy's locations in this story... :)

[auxiliarydetective]

Kassandra Hargreeves' Scenes, S01E02: Run Boy Run (Part 1)

These scenes are actually entirely new. I placed them under this episode because, if Kassandra was actually part of the show, they'd air there, right before the second eyeball adventure.

Kassandra was startled by the knock on her door. She turned around to see Five standing in the doorframe, hands in his pockets.

“Five!” she said cheerily. “What can I do for you?”

“Can I talk to you?” he asked.

He still had that same tone to his voice, that same arrogance that made Kassandra feel at home. Maybe it was the only thing that had stayed the same here.

“Of course.”

Quickly, Five came inside and shut the door behind him. Then, he sat down on the bed next to her. It was just like all those years ago.

“You might want to take your gloves off”, Five suggested. “This will be a lot to take in and hard to understand.”

“Okay”, Kassandra said slowly and did as she was told.

Now, this was different. They had rarely ever had conversations like this. In fact, she wondered if they had ever had one. Five had always been distant, even more than Diego had been. He had never let her tap into his mind this deeply, unless they were on a mission. Whatever topic he wanted to talk about, it had to be very important to him. So, now they sat there, hands intertwined, and Kassandra dove into his mind like a trip down memory lane, only that memory lane had had many new houses built on it. Terrible houses, marked by destruction and death.

“This has to stay between us”, Five said. “Do you understand?”

“I couldn’t tell anyone even if I wanted to”, Kassandra reminded him.

“Do you want to?”

“No.”

“Good. Alright: When I jumped into the future and got stuck there, the whole world was destroyed. Mankind had been killed and I couldn’t figure out by what. But I did find out the date: The world ends in seven days and I have no idea how to stop it.”

Kassandra noticed she had been holding her breath. Everyone else would put this off as madness, especially since time-travel could mess with the mind, but… this was true. This was not madness. She could tell Five was in his right mind and the consequences of that were honestly terrifying. The world ended in seven days? That really was something to take in.

“Are you with me so far?” Five asked.

Kassandra nodded slowly, then quickly. “Yes. It’s… a lot… but yes. I believe you, if that’s what you’re worried about, and I don’t think you’re insane.”

“Good. You’re two steps ahead of Vanya. Now, I have one hint that’s gonna help me figure this all out: A fake eye. I need to know who it belongs to. And that’s where you come in. I need you to pretend to be my mom so I can have some more authority at Meritech, the place where they made the eye.”

Kassandra nodded once again and sighed deeply. “Okay… Alright…” she said slowly. “But if we’re looking for authority, I don’t think I’m the right person to ask.”

“But you can read minds. I need you specifically to come with me.”

“Yes, but… What do we say we get you a father? It would make me feel safer about the whole thing.”

“I’m not telling anyone else about the apocalypse”, Five said dryly. “If you’re not going to help me-”

“I am!” Kassandra quickly cut in. “You know what, I’ll ask Klaus.”

“Klaus?!” Five echoed, shocked and appalled. “He’s constantly high as a kite!”

“Exactly, he won’t want to know why we’re doing this.”

“Kassandra, this is important. We can’t have him mess this up.”

“Klaus can be a very valuable asset. I’m bringing him along, so I’ll be making sure he only engages in his antics when we need them, okay?”

“Are you sure you can do that?”

“Trust me, Five. Klaus and I have always been a good team and if I know anything about minds, it’s that he’s in his right-enough mind for a scheme like this even when high. I just want him there as a backup plan… and as emotional support. I can’t imagine raising a child like you as a single mother, and I say that with all the love I can give.”

Five breathed in sharply, then let out a long, annoyed, heavy sigh. “Fine”, he finally said. “Klaus is your responsibility. But we’re doing things my way, understand?”

“Yes, sir.”

“Alright, then hurry up and get Klaus. And make him presentable. You need to look like a couple. Either you dress like a junkie too or he walks around like the rich heir of a billionaire.”

“He is the rich heir of a billionaire, he just tends to forget that unless he needs money.”

“Raid the old man’s closet, but get going.”

“Alright, alright.”

So, Kassandra put her gloves back on and walked over to Klaus’s room. She knocked on the door.

“Come in!”

When she pushed the door open, she was greeted by a cloud of smoke. Klaus was sitting on his bed in nothing but his underwear, smoking and throwing a ball up and down.

“Kass!” he called out gleefully. A bit wobbly on his feet, he got up from his bed and approached her with open arms. “You here for some quality brother-sister bonding time?”

“Yes, actually”, Kassandra replied. “... Can we open a window?”

“Oh”, Klaus said a little disappointedly. But then he smiled again. “Yeah, of course! I keep forgetting, your lungs… Yeah, you never liked the smoke.” He yanked the window open and leaned out for a moment before returning to her. “So what did you have in mind? Board games? Or do you wanna have a little tea party like when we were kids?”

Kassandra smiled fondly. “A tea party sounds really lovely. You need to remind me of that, we should do that some other day. Are you going to wear a dress again?”

“Of course! What kind of princess do you think I am? You’re always dressed for the occasion, but I’ll have to catch up. Where are we having the party, your room?”

“We- we’re not having it today”, Kassandra said quickly.

“Aw…”

“But let’s say tomorrow? I’ll bake some scones too!”

“Oooooh, scones!” Klaus gasped. “Great idea, I love scones!”

“I know you do. There’s something else I wanted to do with you today.”

“Then tell me already, you’ve got me excited now.”

“Five gave me a little task and I need your help to get through it.”

“Oh, really? What’s that little lunatic cooked up?”

“He wants to find out who a prosthetic eye belongs to. To give the whole situation a bit more authority than a kid waltzing in and asking questions, he asked me to pretend to be his mom. Now I’m asking you to pretend to be his dad with me.”

Klaus stared for a moment, eyes widened. Then he laughed.

“Me? Five’s dad? Authority?! Kass, that’s funny! You do know who you’re talking to, right?”

“I know, I know, but I need the emotional support. Also, I need help getting into the act. You were always good at coming up with things like that. Besides, does Five really look like a single mother could raise him? And me of all single mothers?”

“You would make a good mother”, Klaus said. “Really, I mean it.”

“... Thank you. … Would you please do this with me? Brother-sister bonding time?”

“But that sounds like I have to be serious.”

“You just have to sit there, be quiet, Five will probably be doing most of the talking and I’ll do a little. But if I do ask you to say something, feel free to go wild. Your drug-induced ideas are my backup plan for getting Five his way.”

“So now I’m just part of a plan?”

“You’re my emotional support of choice! You’re the person I feel most comfortable doing this with.”

Klaus sighed. “Fine. But only because it’s you, Kass. In return, that tea party better be the best we’ve ever had.”

Kass smiled with glowing eyes. “Thank you, Klaus!” she grinned and jumped into his arms.

He spun her around a little drowsily, causing both of them to giggle.

“Now, let’s get you something presentable to wear.”

Only a little while later, Kassandra was driving Klaus and Five to Meritech Prosthetics. They had found Klaus some nice-looking clothes, not far beyond his own personal style even.

“Hey, Kass”, Klaus called from the backseat, “what’s our cover story?”

“Our cover story?”

“Yeah! We need a cover story. You didn’t think of that?”

“I honestly didn’t think much further than ‘you’re my boyfriend and he’s our son’”, Kassandra confessed. “You’re the one who’s great at making up stories.”

“So were we really young when we got him?”

“Must have been. I’d pretty confidently say we don’t look older than 35 at most.”

“You especially, you look like a British school girl.”

“Why, thank you.”

“We were young”, Klaus sighed, “and terribly misguided.”

“Terribly”, Kassandra echoed.

Meanwhile, Five crossed his arms on the passenger’s seat. He looked kind of adorable, sitting there as the grumpy thirteen-year-old he appeared to be. Mentally, he still largely was, too.

“Your parents kicked you out because they weren’t happy with the pregnancy.”

“Mhm.”

“We met at… the disco. Remember that.”

“What would I do at the disco?”

“Your friends dragged you there.”

“Okay, yeah, that sounds reasonable.”

“Oh, my god, the sex was amaaaazing.”

Kassandra shook her head with a smile, but Five just scoffed. “What a disturbing glimpse into that thing you call a brain”, he said. “Kassandra, if this goes wrong-”

“It won’t go wrong. We even have a cover story now. What could go wrong?”

“Yeah, have some respect for your mother, kiddo”, Klaus said. “Don’t make me put you in time-out.”

[frogfishwastaken]

Buckle up for the worst-written/structured/grammared character-and-lore dump you’ve ever seen

These are my blorbos from my story where I try to figure out what my feelings towards violence and morality in the context of extreme government oppression are

but with superheroes!

TW for mentions of death, murder, sedatives, assassination etc

This guy is Chad I named him that as a placeholder and damn my entire life it actually stuck

But he’s a hero in training in a world where the heroes kind of act like cops

And his view on morality is based on Kant, the government propaganda and superhero comics (aka more government propaganda)

He’s very anti violence in general because he has super strength but is so scared of messing up and causing more harm than good or being stuck in a situation where he has to choose between loved ones or the general public and he knows deep down he’d be selfish so he figures if he just studies ethics hard enough he will Never Encounter A Single Dilemma Ever

And then a chance encounter with a vigilante totally wrecks his very carefully planned life

And this is Jay

The 100% illegal vigilante with mind reading powers

No unfortunately they can’t turn it off yes it’s very annoying for him

He hates the government with a burning passion but their solution is to burn it all down and start again which has rarely ever worked in history

No they do not have a plan for after everything is destroyed either

No ethical code they kind of just kill or otherwise incapacitate people they deem as dangerous or damaging to society damn the consequences

He has a set of nebulous rules regarding this

They don’t know it yet but their mom (a reporter turned secret vigilante) was killed by the government and boy you can imagine what conclusion they came to with that information (assassinate the president)

And poor sweet quotes-Kant-constantly Chad has a big moment of dread when he realizes he’s sold his life to a corrupt government and has a big identity crisis as he struggles to find a foothold again which leads to him latching on to Jay’s philosophy and joining their quest of presidential harm and self destruction which is not exactly the right path either

This is Ana she’s 15 and just along for the ride (and also running from the government bc she has atom manipulation abilities)

She doesn’t know what an ethic is

She vaporized a guy for being creepy towards her little sister a couple months ago and would do it again if she had any idea where her sister is now

These two are Cathy and Petra.

Where do I even start. Literal mountains of lore

Petra was a medic during the second civil war (has the ability to pull individual people back in time thus reversing injuries and damage)

Her moral code is so good and correct that I do not know what it is yet and I honestly doubt I ever will

Meanwhile I think Cathy is literally a war criminal as defined by the Geneva Convention

There was a time war (long story) (before you ask how a time war can be past tense it’s because Cathy ripped the woman who started it apart with a reality rift and basically erased her from the book of life) (she had the power to create rifts into other realities it’s a whole thing)

And that event severely disrupted her sense of morality and caused her (she was 14 when she did That btw) to internalize the idea that killing is necessary

She will do it well and efficiently

But her structured mindset dissolves into pure murderous rage when people close to her (honestly just Petra at this point) are in danger

And they’re in love but when they were 14 they were killing a god and when they were 24 they were fighting on opposite sides of a civil war and then Petra faked her own death and Cathy tried to kill the president (same president as the one Jay dislikes) and ended up being sedated for the next 20 years and being paraded around as the figurehead of the police state heros association) and now they’re 44 and Petra has just been swept up in Jay’s terrible plan to assassinate the president and doesn’t yet know that this path will lead her back to a badly traumatized glorified-attack-dog-of-the-president Cathy

More to come perhaps

[accio-victuuri]

so more details on the game that wyb enjoyed playing. again, this bit is from a fan repo. we will know for sure if it is a fact once the episode airs on SDC. i don’t even know if it will be aired on the show itself or just part of a behind the scenes. so just chill. HAHAHAHAHA! take this as a cute story or fake rumor. 🤍

game plot:

Cody and May, a married couple, are planning on getting a divorce. After telling their daughter Rose the news, she takes her hand-made dolls, which look like her parents, into the family shed and tries to repair their relationship by play-acting. The parents find themselves trapped inside the dolls' bodies as a consequence of Rose's tears landing on the dolls. Dr. Hakim, who has assumed the anthropomorphic form of his relationship therapy book, tells May and Cody that he has been given the job of trying to fix their relationship as they try to reach Rose.

It nothing new for them to be playing together or even being a couple in-game allegedly ( read this for an example ) but this is just another level. Lol. A married couple working on their relationship? and them having to go through different games / tasks to get their happy ending.

This is like a 9 hour game play of it lol but what I gathered is the two people playing this have different strength and weaknesses and need to work together and complete the tasks. You have a split screen so you can see what the other person is doing but there are levels that the characters are together.

BXGs are pulling the “tacit understanding” card and I have to agree. This kind of game will really test that, like how partners do. I’m not saying only couples will be able to succeed in this but if we’re talking about zz/wyb. LOL. you know what I mean. They can finish each other’s sentences and communicate just by looking at each other. They laugh at things no one gets but the two of them. They may seem different — sports student and art student right? but that actually makes them stronger because they complement e/o.

This is a perfect game for them. They can play other games similar to this but they really had to pick one that’s about a couple lol 😂 granted, it is a pretty popular one so maybe they saw it and decided to play.

Add to that Yibo’s recent Q&A with Vogue Plus, where he was asked what game he wants to do in VR and he said skiing. There is a level that both them are skiing. Maybe that’s where he got the idea. We also know their plans to ski together, so this is just 🥺.

Two reviews I found that me go 👀

That's why the mini-games in "It Takes Two" have different meanings. Not only because of the collection of how many mini-games it has made, but also because the love motto contained in it is so suitable for the game master. Question: Cooperation is the main line of love, and healthy competition is the tune of love. Flavor can not only increase the relationship between husband and wife, but also promote mutual growth——If you are stronger than me, I will learn from you and try to catch up with you Even more than you; I am better than you, I will teach you skills and methods so we can grow together.

The process of reshaping marriage in "It Takes Two" is actually reshaping respect and understanding between two people, let each other see, let each other fill. Give full play to your strengths and work together to break through the barriers.

I have always loved fake rumors/cpns about them talking on the phone constantly. sending voice messages. sending gifts to e/o’s crew when filming and to each other. The thought of them making an effort to bridge the gap when they are apart makes me so soft. It is a common argument of people who don’t believe szd is how can they have time for their relationship if they are so busy? Well. You make time. Love is work after all. As simple as playing an online game together to have fun and make sure you are doing an activity. Them watching a movie at the same time. The simple things matter. It doesn’t always have to be a grand vacation or a date outside ( tho I hope they get to do that too ).

I guess a big factor here is they were good friends first. They enjoyed doing things together and have that connection.

I wish this lovely couple happiness and more time to be together in the future 🤍🤍🤍

-END.

[wanderingwriter87]

12 for the asks?

12. What WIPs do you have going now? Are you excited about them?

oh dear god

Okay I'm going to skip over the ones that are currently being posted because you can go look at those if you want. Here's what's in my google docs:

Julian just being a general menace to creepy old man Tain in prison and in the process, realizing that he and Garak actually do have feelings for each other.

What if "Extreme Measures" but Garak was the sidekick and instead of going into his brain, they fuck in front of him? We report, you decide. This is going to be Sloan POV and a bit crack but hopefully also hot, creepy, and disgusting.

Various Defiant first-time scenarios. oh my god they were bunkmates!!!!

The one where they DON'T get blasted with sex pollen, but have to spend two hours in a quarantine cell together so they end up fucking anyway

The one where they crash on an alien planet that expects them to reenact an ancient fertility ritual, and they are EXTREMELY normal about it

Followup to "Don't Rain On My Parade" where they fuck and confess their feelings. I'll get there eventually.

Post-canon where Garak comes to DS9 for diplomatic meetings. I don't wanna say anything else about this one but it's got a very funny premise and I can't wait to inflict it on everyone.

Risa fic. They're fake dating. Garak's trying to stop a terrorist attack, or so he claims. This one has everything!!!

PWP one-shot on the assumption that Julian only avoided sleeping with Garak because he knew he might be outed as an augment that way. As soon as the DBIP situation is sorted, he comes over and drags him to bed. Fun concept, bit angsty, definitely want to finish this one soon.

Something post-canon that plays with this idea that Garak and Julian are, in fact, both deeply infatuated and deeply anxious about their relationship working out and consequently are just so, so insane about each other and constantly playing mind games on themselves. I came up with an ENTIRE concept for why Julian's there, etc etc and then I just ran out of steam, but I'm going to get back to this one for sure.

A few Parmakshir and/or Garmakshir cut scenes from longer postcanon works that I intend to publish separately for people who don't like Parmak being Involved (TM) with them, but simply could not contain in my head.

The one where they play "Mystery of the Druids" in the holosuite. Why? Because I said so.

The one where they bring in a Vulcan healer to mind-meld and try to bring Julian out of his coma after the Lethean attack in "Distant Voices," and she's unable to get through his subconscious defenses, so they start sending his friends in as middlemen and that fails too, until finally the only volunteer who hasn't tried yet is Garak.

The one where Julian sees a vision of himself in the future and tries to figure out why he looks so happy.

The one where Vic insists on singing "Baby, It's Cold Outside" and Garak and Julian's conversation about it turns out to be surprisingly revealing. This one's going to be a Christmas fic, but I've got bits of it written.

I am excited about all of them to varying degrees, I think. Welcome to my twisted mind.

[raeloganthesonic06fangirl]

How often do you think Quackerjack goes to the dentist?

Judging by how pleasantly well kept and gleaming those teeth are, I'd have to assume either quite often, or he practices oral hygiene very well and probably flosses more than anyone else does. Also, he brushes his little chattering teeth, so I assume he'd at least take care of his own as well.

I actually, interestingly enough, had this elaborate headcanon for DT17!QuackerJack that stems entirely on the possibility that the in-universe actor for the in-universe version of DWD was the one who might have been injured on set during one of the stunts (perhaps a spiral fractured femur or a lower back injury), retired from acting because of said injury, and later studied and became a pediatric dentist, where he can still make children smile, and has a basket of toys to give out the the patients as well as the pay for this sort of job would help cover the expenses of the consequences of the injury he had, and also it would be a job he could sit down at and not constantly agitated the old injury as much. Also, swivel chair, that's important.

His name would be "Mike Bill", to emulate the naming convection of Jim Starling.

Mostly based around this segment in "Beware the B.U.D.D.Y. System" episode:

In which QuackerJack eats the pavement and doesn't move for the rest of the scene. So I thought maybe he was who Jim was referring to with the quip "one little boo boo, and they fall right to pieces" in the later episode. Co-star gets hurt, leaves the show, others follow suit, budget drops, no one will answer casting call because word gets out that Jim injured another actor during a stunt on accident, and that leads to Jim having to do all the acting and shoddy editing for the final episode that he was screening at the furniture store?

... Obviously, I didn't want to get my hopes up with such an elaborate thought, so I never really did much with the idea beyond writing it down to get it out of my head after the "The Duck Knight Returns" episode aired, since that all came about on one continuous train of thought. It's a curse. 👀

Anyway, dentists. I think QuackerJack probably either takes good enough care of his own teeth, or at the very least, someone in his family could be in the orthodontics profession.

... Then again, there is that one moment where his teeth straight up ran out of his face and while it might be a gag, it might also be hinting that he's got dentures from poor self care habits, and probably why his beak is way too soft here too, since that CAN'T be healthy.

Or it could just be a gag for the sake of being a gag. Because ha ha screaming teeth funny.

Who knows? This show never had any solid continuity, Darkwing's got like three origin stories that are likely fake.

[puppypeter]

✨ All fics are complete! ✨

He Loves Me Cause I’m Cute, He Thinks I’m Pretty Funny | 2588 words 📱

He watches it back one more time after it posts, checking for typos in his subtitles and captions, and has to laugh again.

Steve fucking Rogers? His brain thought he could pull Captain America, literal superhero and America’s favorite sweetheart?

“Hello I’m a 35 year old amputee living in New York and I think that I could get Steve Rogers.”

OR

the one where bucky posts a tiktok and steve is utterly smitten.

Summer Slipped Us Underneath Her Tongue | 10712 words 🧳

Bucky is a tour guide who enjoys sharing the rich history and culture of each city they pass through with a bunch of early-20's college students who just want to know the cheapest place to get drunk.

Except for Steve, who asks Bucky for a personal tour around his hometown.

The rest is, as they say, history.

You Make My Heart Skip A Beet | 3853 words 🧑🏼‍🍳

“I made soda bread.” Steve lets out the 6’2” supersoldier equivalent of a squeak. “Oh, I love soda bread,” he says eagerly, rolling forward on the balls of his feet like he does when he gets excited. “My mom used to make it all the time when I was growing up.” The tips of Barnes’s ears turn red, and he mutters something that sounds suspiciously like, “I know.”

Ollie Meets Bagel | 5517 words 🥯

He was a skater boy, Steve said let's get bagels, boy.

Steve wants to start doing this twenty-first century thing properly. He gets help in the form of skateboarding, skateboarders, bagels, and Sam Wilson.

Taxi | 5113 words 🚕

Bucky Barnes was, he hoped, a good taxi driver.

He's so good, he actually tries to return lost property that ends up left in his car and... well. It has some unexpected consequences involving a National Icon.

Enough said.

Leg Day | 12157 words 🏋️‍♂️

“So talk to him,” Sam says.

“I can’t,” Bucky groans. “I can’t, Sam, I. He just.” He fluffs his hair up and stares at Sam, distraught. “I want him to bench press me.”

“Okay, so it’s serious,” Sam interprets. “Got it."

(Or: The one where Sam is Bucky's long-suffering roommate, Bucky is a hot mess of a millennial, and Hot Steve spends far too much time on the Lat Pull-Down machine.)

Love In Aisle Four | 2127 words 🛍️

When Bucky needs to swing by the supermarket after a long, hard day of work, the last thing he expects is to meet a cute grocery clerk named Steve…

Coming Up Easy | 45515 words ✍🏻

“Listen, I was just thinking,” Steve says, his face open, eyebrows raised in a tentatively hopeful expression. “Why don’t you come stay at my place for a while? I’ve got an office that I barely use, and a change of scenery might do you good, right? Help you beat that writer’s block?” With a crooked smile, he adds, “I promise I’m not a serial killer.”

While Bucky would normally crack a joke about how that’s exactly what a serial killer would say, right now, all he can do is blink at Steve in surprise, heart tripping over itself in his chest. Steve wants him to come and stay at his place. In Massachusetts. Just the two of them.

"Oh," Bucky croaks. "I- Wow."

“I mean, no pressure,” Steve says hastily. “Totally fine if you don’t wanna. I just thought I’d offer, in case it might help, y’know?”

“Yeah.” Bucky ignores the little voice in his head that sounds an awful lot Nat and Becca, telling him he’s setting himself up for heartbreak. “I mean, if you’re sure, that would be amazing.”

Anywhere The Wind Blows | 8845 words 👨‍🚒🎖️

After a catastrophic fire that shakes him to his core, Steve Rogers quits his job as a Brooklyn firefighter and relocates to a cabin in the remote Canadian wilderness, wanting quiet and solitude and to maybe never have to speak to another human being ever again. He gets his wish, more or less, until a recently injured Bucky Barnes is discharged from the Army and rents the cabin next door.

The Safer Course | 7918 words | Part 1 of Won’t You Be My Neighbor 🏡

When Steve moves to the suburbs in 2033, he intends to retire from superhero life.

He does not intend to fall in love with his pain-in-the-ass neighbor.

Every Year I Have You | 7064 words | Part 2 of Won’t You Be My Neighbor 🏡

Steve set the bar pretty high, as birthday presents go.

Bucky is determined to outdo him when July 4th comes around.

Beneath The Mistletoe | 21203 words 🎄

Bucky had a bet with his sister that if he didn’t have a boyfriend to bring home for Christmas by the time he was 25, he had to give her $200 and go blonde for a year. But now he's 25, it’s nearing December, and not only is Bucky as single as ever, but he’s also running low on cash. He doesn’t exactly want to bleach his hair, either.

At least Steve is willing to upgrade their relationship from best friends to fake boyfriends.

The Settler | 52203 words 🍞

“What do you want to do?”

Steve pauses and looks at them.

What he wants is to stay with them. He doesn't have any family left, they all died before he even joined the war and became... this. Captain America turned whatever he is now. But Natasha and Sam have become his family over the years. Not just because they're on the run together, fugitives and vigilantes, but way before that too.

He doesn't want to leave that.

But he knows that, realistically, he can't stay with them and they can't stay with him.

So he looks at them with a smile and lies. “I don't know.”

OR; In which Steve retires and finally finds a place to call home.

You Can’t Put Your Arms Around A Memory | 1148 words 🐈

"Alright, Bucky," Steve slows his steps, watches his neighbour stop at the bottom of the next flight of stairs. There's a canvas bag in his hand that Steve didn't notice earlier, cream coloured with the figure of a sleeping, black cat painted on it. "Have a good day."

He thinks Bucky's cheeks pink up a bit right then and there, but Steve can't tell. He's too distracted by his pounding, foolish heart, by the way Bucky smiles bashfully, and ducks his head. The way he seems like he wants to stay.

To Believe In Tomorrow | 3959 words 👨🏻‍🌾

Bucky's mornings at the community garden get a little more interesting when the new guy shows up.

Maybe This Christmas | 24873 words | Part 1 of Maybe ❄️

Bucky’s not going home for Christmas. But it’s fine. He’s spending Christmas alone in his apartment, but it’s cool. He’s not feeling up to seeing his family after his accident anyway, plus he has to work. He’s totally fine with it. But then he runs into Steve, literally, and suddenly his Christmas isn’t looking so empty after all.

-----

Hurrying was a bad idea. Bucky’s foot hits a patch of ice and slides out from under him in what would have been a comical cartoon banana-peel-like trip, if it wasn’t happening to him, and he braces himself to hit the ground. This is going to hurt.

“Fuck,” Bucky screeches, but as he lands on his back, it’s not the cold hard concrete he expected, but a solid mass beneath him. Oh god, Bucky thinks as he realises he smacked into the person behind him and took them down with him.

Maybe This Year (Will Be Better Than Last) | 133868 words | Part 2 of Maybe ❄️

Last year, Bucky Barnes met Steve Rogers. Well actually, he slipped and fell on him. What followed was the best Christmas either of them had ever had. But what happens when Christmas is over and life returns to normal? What happens after the Christmas miracle?

-----

Bucky should have known. He did know. When things seem too good to be true, they usually are. And Steve is the best thing that has happened to him in a long time, possibly ever, so of course it couldn’t last.

Maybe This Time (I Hope I Get The Chance To Say Goodbye) | 34561 words | Part 3 of Maybe ❄️

Steve and Bucky Barnes are happily married. They've made it through some hard times and come out stronger and happier, together. Then Steve gets called on to come out of retirement for the most important mission of his life and everything changes. Everything.

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“Have yourself a merry little Christmas…” Steve starts singing along softly, and Bucky chuckles, before leaning his head onto Steve’s shoulder, always happy when he’s in Steve’s arms.

“From now on, our troubles will be miles away…” Bucky joins in.

Dancing round their living room, just as in love as ever, their troubles seem light-years away, if not non-existent.

Sadly, they’re closer than they think.

The Unexpected Gift | 9504 words | Part 1 of When Winter Comes 🐕

Steve Rogers is fine.

After ending a long-term relationship with Sam Wilson, Steve moves back to New York. He's tired and lonely but depressed? No. At least, that's what he thinks.

From the window of his apartment, he watches a dark-haired man and his service dog sitting in the park, wondering what his story is.

The Winter Storm | 2218 words | Part 2 of When Winter Comes 🐕

"If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability you see yourself through my eyes, only then would you realize how special you are to me."

After Bucky and Steve confessed their feelings for each other, life has its own twisted way to challenge the most profound love.

One January Night | 4213 words | Part 3 of When Winter Comes 🐕

Before going back to work, Steve Rogers still has things to learn: 1- Depression is a bitch and the battle against it isn't an easy one. 2- Dating a person with disabilities comes with its share of challenges.

Bucky Barnes Has His Shit Together (And Other Lies He Tells Himself) | 14159 words 🔒

You’d think a guy who owns one of the most successful bakeries in Brooklyn, has a million-dollar smile and that antiquated good ol’ boy charm, blond hair and blue eyes and biceps for days, would know what’s what.

But don’t let that fool you: Steve Rogers is a mess.

Obvious | 917 words ☕

"Oh, I have a prompt! So, it makes me laugh how painfully obvious Steve and Bucky's feelings are to everyone when they're in that pining, slowburn, does-he-doesn't-he phase. But imagine Steve and Bucky working in a coffee shop together and constantly bickering, nudging and playfully flirting with each other. And all the employees and patrons are so invested in their relationship and just want them to kiss already but no one realizes that Steve and Bucky have been married since they got out of HS."

[nothing-more-than-hot-leaf-juice]

I couldn't really get into Azula, tbh. I mean, she is a Whole Look and I appreciate her lack of chill, but she felt like she needed more dimension.

AIGHT! LOOKS LIKE IT’S TIME TO WRITE SOME MORE AZULA META. Because I’m not about to have one of the most complex antagonists in television history slandered like this.

If you want to talk dimensions, let’s start there. From the basis of her actions, we can characterize Azula as many things: manipulative, ruthless, ambitious, and lacking in empathy. We see her as a military strategist: commanding the drill to go through the wall, conquering Ba Sing Se by staging the coup, and planning the destruction of the Earth Kingdom with Sozin’s Comet. We see her as a master manipulator: convincing Mai and Ty Lee to join her hunt in season 2, convincing Zuko to betray Iroh, lying to Ozai about Zuko killing Aang, and stalling Sokka at the invasion by taunting him about Suki. We see her trying to kill her brother and uncle all throughout season 2 just on her father’s orders, shooting Aang with lightning in the season 2 finale, almost killing Zuko multiple times in season 3, and nearly killing Katara in Sozin’s Comet. 

So from her actions, we can characterize her simply as power-hungry and lacking in empathy, sure, but it’s in her motivations that her dimensions lie. And everything, everything Azula does in this show is to prove to her father that she’s worthy of his favoritism.

We’re introduced to Azula in season 1 indirectly via Zuko and we know some things about their father already. The two main things being the whole ‘burned half of Zuko’s face off and banished him for speaking out of turn and refusing to fight him’ and the whole “[their] father said [Azula] was born lucky” and “[Zuko] was lucky to be born.” At the end of season 1, Ozai calls Zuko “a miserable failure” and we see him about to send this mysterious sister figure to do something about that. We know that Ozai had absolutely no sympathy whatsoever for his son and horrifically, publically abused him over what exactly? Showing weakness. 

That’s what we know from season 1. With Azula’s introduction in season 2, it’s clear that their upbringing was way more messed up than just this one instance. We start to see that there are these cracks in the royal family and the manipulation and callousness goes way beyond Zuko’s banishment. 

From the Zuko and Iroh plot of The Avatar State, there are a couple key moments where themes of favoritism, perfectionism, and jealousy enter. It starts with the three-year anniversary of Zuko’s banishment where he’s sitting in self-loathing just wanting his “father not to think [he’s] worthless,” holding onto Ozai’s approval as the achievable thing that will mean he’s worth something. We see Azula practicing lightning bending (something we have never seen a firebender do on the show before, it is clear that she is incredibly talented) but still berates herself for being ‘one hair out of place’. We see Zuko lash out at Iroh for implying that Ozai might not really want him to come home despite what Azula says, and we know that Iroh genuinely cares about Zuko and wants him to be safe, but Ozai doesn’t. Iroh introduces the concept that “things in [their] family are not always as they seem, but Zuko reduces this to sibling rivalry, and there’s a reason why. Zuko and Azula have been raised under a competition for their entire lives, and for that entire time, Azula was winning. And by this point she’s still winning. She’s ecstatic that she’s the favorite child while Ozai wants to “lock [Zuko] away where he can no longer embarrass him”. By the end of this episode, one thing is clear: Azula and Zuko are competing with each other. Only one of them can be good enough for their father. But while Zuko takes his first step to cut himself off, Azula doesn’t want to stray from this competition that she’s winning.

In Zuko Alone, this favoritism goes deeper. Just like with Ozai, Ursa’s approval and love is conditional, but these are conditions Azula isn’t meeting. She’s not as empathetic or sweet as Zuko and their mother isn’t shown treating her with the same affection as she does with Zuko. It’s not just Ozai favoring Azula over Zuko with that one scene of Ozai smiling when Azula performs her firebending and frowning when Zuko performs his, it’s Ursa favoring Zuko over Azula. It’s Ursa treating Zuko with gentleness and care and only reprimanding Azula for the way that she is.

Despite the fact that she’s obviously getting all her ideas from her father. This mentality of ‘I must do anything for the throne, even throw my own sibling under the bus,’ is all from Ozai. And when Ursa leaves, there’s no one to keep her in check. There’s only one parent to win the affection of and she’s already succeeding because all she has to do is be a better firebender. All she has to do is follow Ozai’s example of callousness and ruthlessness in order to be the favored child. And keep in mind, being ‘the favored child’ under this roof isn’t something petty, it means ‘one of you gets to be the heir and the other might not be allowed to live.’ This episode reveals what’s been going on in Zuko and Azula’s head this whole time. It reveals that they’re both constantly thinking that only one of them is going to be seen as worthy in their father’s eyes, as they were taught to believe that Ozai was more ‘worthy’ than Iroh since Iroh retreated from Ba Sing Se after Lu Ten died. And the other one, the one that wasn’t seen as worthy, that one was ‘disposable.’ And for most of their lives, the ‘disposable’ one was Zuko. 

But while Zuko spends most of the series slowly learning, with Iroh’s help, that the situation shouldn’t have been like this, that parental love and protection shouldn’t have to be conditional, Azula is still stuck in this mentality. And season 2 is full of examples of Azula doing everything in her power to prove herself to Ozai. Her task was to just bring Zuko and Iroh home for imprisonment, but along the way she added ‘capturing the Avatar’ and ‘conquering Ba Sing Se’ as additional tasks for herself. Why? Because those were the things Iroh and Zuko failed at doing. And she needs to prove that she’s better than them, otherwise what’s going to stop Ozai from deciding that she’s the person who he’s going to be disappointed in next? But if she does these things, if she conquers Ba Sing Se, if she finds the Avatar, that means she’ll still be considered useful to him, right? That means she’s the one who “has father’s love,” right? 

Because that’s what Azula strives to be over anything else: useful. She wants to be the person he relies on. The child he believes in. There’s a really good example of this early in season 2 when Azula goes to Omashu to get Mai: 

Azula takes control of the situation. She doesn’t really have anything to do with this city or the fake plague or the hostage trade. This is entirely the governor's responsibility and she’s just there to pick up her friend, but since she’s there, she has to make sure things are in order for her father. So she strips the governor of his power, takes control of the hostage situation to ensure that Bumi doesn’t slip through her fingers, and renames the city ‘New Ozai’ just for good measure. We see Azula as the actual proactive villain for all of season 2 and she would be well within her rights to name the city after herself. But she doesn’t. Because that’s not why she’s doing anything she’s doing. 

The flashback showing where she suggests burning down the Earth Kingdom reveals a lot with her body language. She suggests this by interrupting Zuko, who’s more resistant to the idea to ‘destroy their hope.’ He doesn't agree with Ozai’s idea, but she needs to show that she’s on her father’s side. She’s the one who can be as ruthless and destructive as he is. So she suggests this and looks to Ozai for approval, and once he gives it, that’s when she looks pleased. The actual plan to destroy the Earth Kingdom isn’t what brings her joy at this moment, it’s Ozai’s approval of her suggestion. We didn’t see her clap once his back was turned. This isn’t about the plan itself, it’s about Azula’s ability to be the heir she thinks Ozai wants her to be. 

And it’s in this moment in Sozin’s Comet shows exactly where Azula’s been coming from this whole time: 

This whole time, it hasn’t been about the destruction. It hasn’t been about what she wants. It’s been about being the favored child. It’s about being better than Zuko. In Azula’s eyes, she’s done everything right. She’s master lightning. She wasn’t the traitor like her brother or uncle. She conquered Ba Sing Se. She showed her father that she was on board with the destruction of the Earth Kingdom and proved her loyalty. She did everything right. But there’s a part of her that was waiting for this shoe to drop for years, ever since she watched her brother get his face burned off for not meeting Ozai’s standards. And she sure as hell remembers that all throughout the series and it shows: she can’t afford to be imperfect because she knows the consequences if she’s not. 

But in this moment, her fear shows. Her fear of not being good enough. The fear of being imperfect, disposable. She’s been terrified of this moment her whole life and has done everything to delay it. This moment: where Ozai casts her aside, where she isn’t good enough to come with him in her eyes. There’s no one left but her: no Iroh, no Zuko, no Ursa. Everyone else left and there’s no one else to compete with. And she’s left alone with this meaningless position of Firelord now that Ozai’s about to declare himself ‘Phoenix King’ and she clings onto that position because it’s her last chance to prove herself after this rejection. 

She goes off the deep end because she’s all alone. She’s snipped out anyone who was imperfect. She cut off her friends once they betrayed her. Azula isolated herself on the throne and demanded perfection because that’s what she saw her father do. Family wasn’t important to him. Loyalty and perfection were. So that’s the example she follows but it’s lonely and terrifying, so she loses herself. All her fears about not being good enough come back up after Ozai leaves her behind. That’s why she mentions Mai and Ty Lee. That’s why she sees Ursa. These are the people who didn’t choose her, and now that her father has left her behind and she hasn’t met his standards for the first time in her life, all those vulnerabilities and insecurities come to the surface. The thing Azula fears most over anything else is rejection, which is why she’s obsessed with perfection. Because she’s been taught that if she’s good enough: if she perfects her firebending technique, if people fear and respect her, and if people choose her, then that means she’s not disposable.

And at the end, she’s the one who challenges Zuko to an Agni Kai. To prove one last time that she is worthy. That she was worthy all along and that her father was right to choose her to be Firelord. 

And there’s an interesting parallel to consider here. The first time we ever see Azula is at Zuko’s Agni Kai with Ozai in the season 1 flashback, and at that one she’s smiling at her brother getting punished because it signifies to her that she won. Ozai picked her. Zuko was the disposable one. And in the end she wants that to still be true and finds that it’s not. In the end she loses and she doesn’t know what to do with herself now that she’s the one cast aside. 

And that’s the tragedy of Azula, really. This entire time she was conditioned to think that her value and the value of the people around her rested in perfection and she spent the entire series trying to prove herself. She was convinced that love was something that needed to be earned and that if she didn’t get results, if she didn’t win, then she didn’t deserve it. 

And that’s just a small piece of her character if we’re being honest. This doesn’t get into the details of how Ursa’s treatment shaped her, how her relationship with Zuko was ruined by their parents, how her bending is a reflection of her mental state, or how he relationship with Mai and Ty Lee reflects her view of herself and others. Azula is one of the most complex villains in television history not only because she has a rich backstory, interesting motivations, or unique persona, but because underneath everything, she’s just a teenage girl who doesn’t wants her dad’s approval and is so deeply terrified of being cast aside. She may be ruthless and she may lack empathy, but those traits stem from deeply rooted damage and vulnerability. 

(For some more Azula meta I did a deep dive into how The Beach foreshadows her breakdown and reveals her vulnerabilities and here where I talked about how she and Zuko were pitted against each other and had their relationship damaged by parental favoritism.)

[ravenvsfox]

I simply have to write down my thoughts for anything to have meaning, so here are my awtwb opinions in no particular order (spoilers ahead!!!):

- the break up absolutely needed to happen, and also frankly it was very tasty

- "you're crying from simon/baz?" "the 'we’re not made of pieces that come apart' got to me"

- the last ditch effort sentimentality on baz’s part and ill-conceived sacrifice on simon’s........ such a lovely lil piece of angst. hurt stokes honesty and vice versa

- why did they get back together literally the next day though. it was like watching someone tear down an old condemned building and then OVERNIGHT an identical building has been rebuilt in its place. the dust hadn’t even settled yet. can we sit in it for like a minute.

- it definitely IS in character for simon to look at the emotional mess he just made and be like wait. I hate this actually. I’m immediately going to fix it despite the fact that I haven’t thought it through and have no plan :)

- this sure is a horny book huh

- actually very tonally appropriate that simon sees intimacy as too much to possibly grapple with. sex is easy when it's prescribed, and he's not really invested in it, but when he wants things very very badly he knows he can never truly have them. he can only host power or love or acceptance for a while before it's taken away.

- (something something orphan something something instability/insatiability)

- he always used to have one clear path, and now he can’t tease apart all his options. he wants everything or nothing. no embarrassing in-betweens, no gentle half-touches, no one foot in and one foot out of the magickal world

- also he wants to be manhandled and told what to do and bitten and consumed. sub behaviour

- every minor character in this book rules. ent bartender, butch legend niamh, cake-maker ruth, tracksuit fox. demon bear lady please wife me.

- sapphics kissing over the birthing juices of a fresh goat? come ON

- I think it’s fitting that goatherder agatha found her own productive, unconventional niche just outside of the place where she felt so constricted and misunderstood. like she wandered out of her ivory tower and found all of these sprawling open pastures

- shepard is so supremely & unbelievably likeable. so delighted and delightful. a mover and a shaker and a monsterfucker. spin-off when

- penny & shepard were also such pleasing complementary colours, and I like that they were both highly self-assured (in contrast w baz/simon's insecurity) and highly impressed with one another

- there’s a lot of awkward pacing in this book, which does feel (possibly by accident) like a testament to the non-linear, unexpected way that people deal with trauma. like it’s realistic that emotional pitfalls and relationship turmoil will always clumsily insert themselves into your “narrative,” you know?

- the demon bride storyline felt like a (super fun) short story nested within the book rather than an important element of the overarching plot itself

- some of the interpersonal groundwork laid in wayward son definitely paid off, but there were also a lot of superfluous plot points, and not a lot of fall-out/consequences? no real stakes (pun intended)

- so much good relationship stuff though! the communication is bantery and productive and tender and sometimes uncomfortable. it all feels like growing pains

- it’s so clear that simon’s innate sense of self is completely hollow; he’s petrified of self-identifying (and thus committing to a label which might turn out to be false again), and he’s afraid of smothering people with how much he wants and relies on them so he ghosts them instead

- the way he self-sabotages just for the rush of fixing things afterwards…. baby let me study you

- he constantly kind of has to reassure himself that he’s normal and also that he’s a Normal (this is what regular people do. this is what healthy affection looks like. And also—I have to remember that I don’t have or deserve magic. I’m not the person I thought I was.)

- he was the chosen one, and it turned out to be fake. and now he’s another kind of chosen one—chosen by Baz, by his friends, and later by the Salisburys, but he doesn’t really trust the sensation of being important to people anymore. he thinks that everything good he has or will ever have has been stolen or coerced somehow, and too much feeling is always inevitably going to be followed by total devastation. doesn’t that make you insane

- the excalibur thing was such a neat little piece of world-building (ancestral magic swords? yes ma’am) although I definitely expected agatha to have a hand in that reveal

- wings y/n?????

- no real resolution for the magic immunity. okie dokie

- I wanted to linger with that mage paternity reveal a bit longer. the upgrade simon’s daddy issues just received…… astronomical

- I liked that penny and simon had a little bit of independence from one another actually, because simon had to think through his problems like a Normal, and penny had to fact check herself when no one was nodding benignly along with all of her ideas. growth!

- a society of chosen ones? cult-leader villain obsessed with empty symbolism? mages seduced not by the promise of power but of acceptance and healing? delicioso

- the climax of this book lasted about twelve seconds, but I enjoyed the continued chapel motif, and the fact that every villain ends up being a shade of simon snow

- the conclusion for daphne, prof. bunce, etc, wasn’t super fulfilling, I was half-expecting a reveal that they were all under some kind of thrall, but since they were just like.. insecure and ostracized by their community, I wanted a denouement where their respective spouses meet them where they’re at, and the world of mages pledges some kind of fundamental change in attitudes/policies towards differing magickal proficiency. maybe! idk!

- so much pop culture in this book. (the yeets…… the vibe checks…..) this one’s going to age like milk, ladies

- it’s cute though! I like a book that is a little parcel of the time that it was made, and I like how un-embarrassed it is of itself

- I love the way all three couples had a really clear, “oh this is what it’s supposed to feel like” moment—the transformative potential of being loved the way you want and deserve to be loved

- so many fab individual moments that I'll think about for the rest of my life, and overall so indulgent and fun to read, but a little messy and out of balance for the final book of a trilogy. the end ✌️

[yn-x-animeboy]

Jungkook x y/n (as a famous artist) Pt.6

pairing: reader x Jungkook

genre: fluff, romance, for entertainment purposes

BTS x Fem Reader

synopsis: You are a popular artist in America, pretty famous, loved and well-known by the general public (actually you were one of the top 10 artists in the world but you are pretty humble and naïve to realize your popularity), one day during one of your fan meets you talk about how much you love BTS, and not only how you wish to meet them and work with them but how Jungkook is one of your celebrity crushes. During the meet you fangirled with other ARMYs in the crowd; video clips of you fangirling and talking about BTS at your meet were posted and reposted all over social media. This obviously broke the internet because you were not only a famous singer but you also were always accepted and loved by ARMY and this made a lot of people happy. Suddenly it felt like everyone wanted you to meet the seven handsome and talented idols and collaborate, but you could only wish, you believed they didn't even know who you were...or so you thought

part 5 here ------------

PART 6- Is bunny mad?

Since that night Jungkook has been secretly sneaking away from his shared apartment with the other members to your apartment every night. After long days of working at the  new studio with Sugar and RM, rehearsals and dance practices, meetings, and other business stuff, your favorite thing to do while being here so far has been coming home and anticipating the cute boy’s nightly visit. 

He is a very shy boy even if he doesn’t seem it. His original plan always was to only put you to bed and then slip away and to his apartment to avoid any “morning inconveniences” for you, but he always ended up falling asleep after you on the couch. 

YES on the couch that too he was to shy to suggest cuddling in your bed because he didn't want you to feel uncomfortable, and you were also too shy to suggest the same thing because you didn't want to give him the wrong idea, but after the both of you suffered the consequences of sleeping tightly in a small couch you awkwardly suggested your bed as the new cuddling location after a month of constant back pain, free falls from the couch to the floor and neck discomfort. 

You have officially been working in Korea for two months now and you couldn't be happier. Hybe has taken such good care of you and your team; they have not even slightly neglected you, not once, they constantly worked hard to make you and your label grow. Hybe has new projects in sight for you in the near future; you also have been loving to work on your music and production in your new studio. 

You have also been working with Suga and RM, (mostly Yoongi because both your specialties were producing music, and both of you liked bouncing off eachother’s ideas and styles. But RM’s writing style also inspired you a lot and worked with him often as well). 

When Hybe announced that you would be merging into the company ARMYs and your fans were ecstatic, it overwhelmed you how amazing and supportive they were, it was as if they knew this was your next step and how this would benefit you. 

And well let's be honest that is not the only thing your fans where yapping about; even though you haven't announced the fact that you have been living in Korea for a while now the fans still shipped you and Kookie HARD, and I mean it, they had fan theories, fan fictions, edits and even fake news of you and Jungkook constantly trending on social media; your shippers said things like: 

“OMG finally we can have a BTS x y/n collaboration for sure, but hear me out, how about a LYNx Jungkook collaboration…. I MEAN- a love ballad with their beautiful voices ughhh please”, 

“Does this mean they have become closer by working under the same company?” 

“OMG this means Y/n has to travel to Korea at some point right? OMG can we get the reunion”, etc. 

You also sometimes get negative comments from haters and Jungkook’s sasaeng fans though, but the good comments were always better.

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Working in Korea was amazing but at the same time exhausting; you had to travel back and forth from time to time making you super Jet lagged. Plus you had to say goodbye to the boys every time; saying goodbye to the boys became easy after the second time you had to leave, but saying goodbye to Jungkook was always hard, even if you were leaving for only  two days or even one, it always gave you two flashbacks to when you said goodbye the first time after meeting, and how horrible it felt to want to hug or kiss the other but couldn’t do that through the phone, or how disappointing it was to want to text/call the other at random times but couldn’t because of the time difference before you started working for Hybe.

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You have been working with the guys for a collaboration since you arrived in Korea, literally since your first week here. You wanted this collaboration to be special and meaningful so instead of just working alongside Suga and RM you took it into your own hands to find ways to involve each and every member so that you could feel everyone’s participation on the track; you took time to listen and take notes on the guy’s suggestions, lyric ideas, and modifications they voiced for the track. 

You finished recording  the main thing a week ago, and you were currently sitting in Suga’s studio editing the track song and adding vocals to the song’s background, modifying the instrumental, adding or removing certain things etc. Normally when you produced you only worked with Suga during ‘work hours’ but today you both have been in the studio for hours and it’s getting late, but you two didn't want to leave, you seemed to be in the zone, you were working together as if you had a same brain today, so you decided to stay a little longer. 

“Oi y/n I think if you harmonized with Jimin in this part and added some ad libs for this it would make it better” Suga said as he played Jimin’s part. “Okay let me play a little with the recording in the booth to see what I can come up with” You said as you got up and headed to the booth. You stepped in front of the mic and placed the thick headphones around your head; you signaled Yoongi to press play, when you heard Jimin’s beautiful voice singing part of the song’s hook through your headphone set you immediately started harmonizing with his voice, improvising and letting go. 

Suga was always impressed at your natural talent and often found himself speechless at your work. In the first try, without previous practice you had sung exactly what he had envisioned for the part. “Y/n that was beautiful, good job, I LIKE IT!” You slightly blushed and continued recording background harmonies and ad libs for the track.

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Jungkook normally texted you at around 8:30 after dinner to let you know he was on his way to your apartment so you would be ready to receive him but when he texted today he received no reply. He texted again at 9:00, then at 9:15 and 9:30. After no response he tried calling a couple times but to no avail, his calls kept going to voicemail. 

He started getting nervous and paranoid, replaying the day to figure out what he did wrong to make you ignore him. “Jungkook I have to clean the floor, can you stop pacing back and forth until I am done please?” Hobi asked nicely, he was on clean up duty tonight and trying to mop the floor. 

“Is everything okay Gukki? You have been calling and texting anxiously on your phone, walking in circles for almost 2 hours now” Jimin said from the couch. 

“uuuuu is it your secret girlfriend JK?” Taehyung teased and looked at Jungkook with a playful look. Jungkook was surprised that three of his hyungs were even awake, they were normally in bed by now. 

He tried to cover this blush by flipping Tae off and walking towards the door. “Yeah everything is fine Jimishi, I will go for a walk, I need to let my energy out.” His hyungs nodded and waved him off, they didn’t further question him because it was normal for him to be very energetic and need to get his hyperactivity out, they don't even question the time.

Technically he didn’t lie, he did go out for a walk, but he walked to your apartment; he had no plan in mind, but he was determined to make sure you were okay and fix whatever happened in case you were ignoring him. When he arrived at your apartment he rang the doorbell and waited for you, but you didn't answer, he rang again a couple of times without success. 

He called your phone and pressed his ear to the door in hopes to hear your phone ring in the background but again to no avail.

He started panicking, where could you be, you didn't really know Korea too well to be walking by yourself or knowing where to go. And you also didn't really know anyone else that would invite you for a night-out in the city. “She would've told me if she was going out tho, she tells me every single detail in her life, even shares her weekly schedule with me..wtf, where are you y/n?” He tried to recall if you had told him something about leaving as he reread your texts from today; the last thing you had texted him was that you were there in the studio. “Her texts are normal, meaning she was not mad, she said she was in the studio but she would definitely be back by now, it’s almost 10...” 

Jungkook slid down your apartment's door and sat on the floor. He called your phone again and finally it was answered. 

“Hello? Y/n’s phone…” Jungook heard a male voice through the speaker, his heart dropped, but before he could react, the person on the other side spoke again “Jungkook y/n is busy right now, can you stop calling? she will call you back” Jungkkook recognized the voice to be his hyung’s, Suga.

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Back in the studio you had been in the booth for a while now going back and forth though the track still adding layers of vocals and harmonies. You were unaware of the time or the fact that you had over 50 missed calls and messages from Jungkook because you left your phone on the desk next to Yoongi to avoid any disruptions or interferences while recording. So after your phone kept vibrating for the 50th time and Suga being the patient being he is he decided to pick up without telling you because: 

a. he didn't want to distract your from your recording session and 

b. he saw it was Jungkook through the caller ID, so he freely picked up and told his younger bro to stop and wait for you to call him back.

“Suga oppa, I think I am done for today, how about we continue tomorrow” You said getting out of the recording booth after yawning for the third time in a row now. 

You also remembered you had to go back to your apartment for Jungkook’s nightly visits. “Yes, it’s actually getting really late, oh by the way you got a few missed calls while you were recording” Suga said as he stood up and picked up his bag. 

You checked your phone and saw that it was almost 10:15 pm, and also noticed the 50 missed calls from jungkook. You wanted to call him back, but Suga was next to you and you didn't want him to hear you so you texted JK instead that you would be back in a bit.

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You rode back to the private apartment complex with Suga in the same car, talking about nonsense. Once you arrived he only walked you to the front of your building and then took his separate way. 

You watched him walk to his building and once he was out of hearing range you called Jungkook. 

You tapped your foot as the phone rang, and when the call was picked up you immediately spoke, “Hi kookie, I’m sorry, I-” you were interrupted by the voice on the other line, 

“Where are you?” Jungkook spoke in a cold and annoyed tone. 

“oh, um, I’m in my apartment” you answered.

“Why are you lying y/n? I’m outside your apartment” he said.

Shit you didn’t even know why you had lied, you could've said you were walking into the building, but no…

You ran to the stairs as fast as you could to save some time and get there faster than if you had taken the elevator.

When you arrived at your door there he was. Jungkook was sitting on the floor looking at you. He looked pissed, “Hi, how long have you been waiting for?” Jungkook didn’t respond, he just got up from the floor and walked past you towards the elevators, 

“Hey, kookie? What’s wrong…” you pulled on the back of his shirt, 

“I only waited here to make sure you were okay, and you seem like it, so I’m leaving now”, he said without even turning to look at you. Your heart dropped, he had never been this cold before, TWO YEARS and you had never been in an argument with him, panicking you stepped in front of him “Are you not staying tonight?”

Jungkook didn’t even look at you, he just shook his head from side to side and gently took your shoulders to put you to the side and left.

This was the first time since you arrived in Korea you would spend a night without him. 

You stood outside your door waiting to see if he miraculously came back, but he didn’t, you texted him asking him what happened, you didn’t understand why he was acting like that, did you make him angry? Was it because of the missed calls? he didn’t answer.

 It was now 10:30 at night and walking in your apartment made you uncomfortable, you wanted to be okay with JK so you decided to send one last text:

I want to talk, meet me outside your building.

As you stood outside his building, you feared he would ignore you and leave you alone outside. The private, high security apartment complex was silent, until, “Is everything okay ma’ am?” A sudden voice to your left asked, when you turned you recognized the young man as one of the patrolling security guards.

“Yes, I am just waiting for someone, I am meeting them out here” you replied sweetly, trying to hide the fact that you were anxious and on the verge of tears waiting for JK.

“Oh are you y/n? I am a big fan, I have been really enjoying your latest album” he said. “Really? Thank you so much for the support, what's your name?” you asked, you always try to make time for fans and ask their names. 

“Jun-young is my name ma’ am, I’m sorry for asking but can I have a picture?” he asked shyly.

You nodded and posed for the selfie, the young guard took his phone in his left hand and stretching his arm almost at a 90º angle in front of him and he took his right hand and placed it on your back, you lifted a peace sign and smiled for the pic, listening for the click sound; right as he was about to take a second picture you felt yourself being pulled off him and away. 

You looked over at the person pulling you away. They were wearing a big bucket hat that hid their face and an oversized hoodie, recognizing immediately. 

Feeling safer after realizing it was Jungkook you looked back at the security guard and excused yourself, “I’m sorry Jun-young, it’s my cue to leave, see you around! fighting!”

The guard looked confused at first but quickly smiled and waved you off at your sweetness. Jungkook fist pulled you away frimley yet not aggressively, but once you said those words towards the fan his hold on you shifted to a more aggressive one. 

You tried to pull away, “Ow! ow! Jungkook stop”, he immediately dropped your arm in fear he actually hurt you badly but still looked at you coldy. 

“Why did you do that, what is wrong with you?” Jungkook was relieved he didn’t hurt you, after a few seconds of silence he spoke. “You asked me to come outside, you should do the talking.” His cold tone made you irritated, you missed his soft bunny voice.

“Why are you mad at me, talk to me! Why are you being so cold, what did I do?” You said as you tried to meet his eyes under the bucket hat.

Jungkook didn’t reply, he just stood there.

“If you don’t tell me what's wrong we can't solve anything Jeon Jungkook, I was working, I come back and you are mad at me”

He liked how the sound of his full name sounded when you said it, but at the same time he became irritated because you didn’t know why he was mad… “Y/n I called hundreds of times but you never picked up, and then when the line is finally picked up, instead of being you on the other line it is my hyung answering for you, telling me to stop calling… So you lied about working and then you lied about being in your apartment saying you were there when I had been waiting for you for hours! And then come out here to give you a chance to explain everything, and find you hugging another man? Calling him by his name and acting all friendly? since when do you have many male friends huh y/n? What were you doing with Suga so late anyway? Why dind’t you fucking answer your phone, and lie about where you where? So of course I’m mad y/n”

You were surprised at his sudden burst, you listened to everything he said, he wanted to keep talking but you interrupted him before he kept making false accusations.

“Okay Jungkook listen to me and listen to me well, No I did not lie to you when I said I was working, I was in the studio, WITH SUGA, because if you have forgotten I am still producing the collaboration song with him, and yes I normally don’t work till this ate but we were having a really good strike and we lost track of time WORKING ON THE SONG; the reason why I didn’t answer was because I was unaware my phone was ringing, I was in the recording booth when you rang my phone, so I didn’t see the missed calls until AFTER I finished recording, Suga told me I had a couple missed calls, he didn’t tell me he answered, I guess he answered my phone once he saw it was you in the caller ID because I left it next to him while I went inside the booth and probably after a while he got irritated and picked it up. I couldn’t call you as I left the studio because I WAS WITH SUGA, or did you want me to be all ‘oh yeah kookie see you tonight at my apartment’ in front of him huh?”

Jungkook looked at you with a blank expression on his face, he eventually spoke back “Okay thank you for explaining but still, you didn't answer your phone. How was I supposed to know where you were, how was I supposed to know you were working with sugar and not out with him? how was I supposed to know you lost track of time? huh? and what about the other guy and your lies”

What he said made sense but it still made you a little mad he was making an argument about a fan boy and the supposed lie, “Jungkook, Jesus, I didn't lie, I was waiting outside my building when I called you, I didn't know you where at my apartment that's why when you asked where I was I said AT MY FU*KING APARTMENT. Why would I lie to you about where I was, you are acting all jealous and possessive like a boyfriend and you haven’t even told me how you feel about me. Oh and btw that “other man” was a fanboy, he works here as a security guard, he asked me if I was okay and recognized me, I was not fondling a random man, I was taking a picture with him! Jesus, who do you think I am?

Jungkook’s once hardened expression softened a tiny bit but he continued, “HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT TOO-”

“EXACTLY JUNGKOOK, there was no way you could have known all this, but if you had only listened to me first, if you had TRUSTED ME, we wouldn't be here right now”

Jungkook knew you were right and he had overreacted, but still defended himself, “Well you say I act alll jelous and like a boyfriend, and that I have never told you how I feel, LOOK WHO IS TALKING, you haven’t told me how you feel either, of course I am going to act all jelous and protective y/n,  I see the way people look at you, everytime you walk in the building staff members look at you up and down; my hyungs adore you and think you are the coolest most sweetest girl ever but also constantly coment on your beauty; when you walk around people look at you with desire and admiration and I can’t fucking control that; you constantly go viral on socialmedia because of your beauty, I see the comments of men calling you hot and making inaporoprate comments, I-”

Before he could continue you took your hand and put it on his cheek and spoke, interrupting him, “Jungkook I understand how you feel, I feel that sometimes when other artists talk about you, when other people ship you with another female idol, etc. But you do understand that you cannot blame me for that just like I can't blame you or be mad at you for my own jealousy… I wish you could trust me, like I do” you slipped your hand off as you said the last part.

Jungkook realized you were 100% right, “I trust you, but I just- I- …. How can I be 100% sure if you aren’t mine?” he blurted out with a little rose tint spreading on his cheeks.

You were surprised at first but quickly exhaled and lowered your head to see his eyes again under the bucket hat, “Jungkook, I like you... no, I love you kay? I have been unofficially and unconditionally by your side for two years now, and you don’t see that? hahaha, ohh bunny what am I going to do with you…” you said confidently.

“You love me?” Jungkook spoke surprised, his cute bunny voice made you grin.

“Yes dummy…You were my celebrity crush, I met you and immediately knew you were my person that I wanted you to be in my life and; I answered your calls and texts long distance for two years without missing a single one because i didn’t want to lose you, and yes of course Namjoon, Yoongi, Jin, Taehyung, Hobi and Jimin mean a lot to me too, I love them so much and love spending time with them, but I made you MY priority. I love your cute bunny smile, it never fails to make my stomach flutter; I love the way your eyes light up when you do something you love; I love the way you always make an effort to spend some alone time with me even if it is for a minute; I love the way you take care of me; I love how you wait for me to fall asleep before you fall asleep in case I have a nightmare and need your comforting; I love-” your were going to continue but were stopped by Jungkook taking your face in his hands squishing your cheeks a little.

“I- I love you too” you smiled as he leaned closer and gave you a sweet peck on your lips, he then looked back into your eyes ``Y/n I know it’s taken me some time, but, do you officially want to be my girlfriend?” He asked.

You couldn't have been happier, your knees went weak, your stomach fluttered, your heart felt like it was about to explode and Jungkook’s hand on your face tingled your skin. You smiled widely at him, Finally he had been honest with his feelings, but you understood he took his time because he was shy. 

“Jungkook….” you dropped your smile, yes you were blushing and the happiest you have been in a while but still you never missed an opportunity to tease Jungkook. 

“I…. I um-” Jungkooks face dropped and his once blushing cheeks went pale.

“Jungkook, I thought I was already your girl…. How do you explain our daily cuddles?” you teased smiling again. Jungkook’s once worried expression quickly changed as he let out a sigh of relief. “For f*ck’s sake y/n you scared me, do not do that ever again” he said dropping his hand from your face.

You jumped and wrapped your arms around his neck to avoid him leaving. “Aw is my wittle bunny mad?” you said with pouty lips. Jungkook couldn’t help but smile at you, he looked into your twinkling eyes and only thought about how he was truly in love with you. 

“Just answer my question already stupid” he said as he stood with you wrapped around him and a small smirk on his face.

“Hahahaha of course I do, took you long enough bunny” you said with the widest most honest smile on  your face. He immediately wrapped his hands around your torso and held you as tight as he could.

You both walked back to your apartment for your nightly cuddle session.

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I’m so sorry again, I have been having some shitty couple weeks, I am mentally getting better.

I am okay now and ready to keep writing :), thank you for your patience, I won’t let you down. FIGHTING!!!

Hope you liked it, ilysm Xx

[fraidy-farfelle]

This is my attempt at the Fluff ABCs for Frankie the Undead. Please be gentle with criticism because I cry easily. I’ve taken some ideas from @lovestruck-lasagna.

Taglist: @writingfromthetomb @beebubb

A = Admiration (what do they absolutely adore about you?)

Your dry sense of humor. It perfectly matches his insults and he doesn’t have to go out of his way to make you laugh. He just says what he’s thinking and you laugh and agree.

B = Body (what is their favorite part of your body?)

Frankie appreciates a good smile, and for many reasons. He learned to read smiles (fake vs real) early on and uses it to gauge people, so he pays particular attention by default. He’s a sucker for cute dimples, and loves the way your nose scrunches and your eyes close.

C = Cuddling (how do they like to cuddle?)

He loves late at night when you share the couch and he can read a good book, sip on some whiskey, or puff on a cigar. He really doesn’t care what you’re doing, he can tune out the TV or you prattling on about your day and make comments to show he’s listening. Put your feet in his lap, lay on top of him, make yourselves mummies in blankets, so long as he can reach his glass he doesn’t care. He just wants to be with you.

D = Dates (what does their ideal date with you look like?)

Stay in date nights are his favorite. He doesn’t really like to “share” your attention. He likes to either cook a meal together or order takeout and watch a movie. Particularly black and white gangster ones, or older horror films. Likes to tease you if you get scared and grab onto him. He’ll pat your head and say something like “oh there there, don’t be scared! I won’t let the big, bad monster getcha!” (Like your neighbor isn’t a 7 ft tall children murdering clown demon) If you go out, he prefers less crowded places outdoors.

E = Emotions (how do they express emotion around you?)

He’s a spitfire and he knows it. He tends to explode and then after a few minutes apologizes gruffly and explains himself. “WHY WERE YA OUT UNTIL MIDNIGHT, THATS SUCH A STUPID THING TO DO!” “Sorry, Frankie.” “…… ugh just, please get home earlier from now on. It’s dangerous and I worry about you.” Definitely doesn’t hug you close so you don’t see the relief and worry on his face. Nope!

F = Family (do they want one? If they do, when?)

He misses Amy desperately. He wants a little girl in his life again, although he’ll never ever admit it. He’s hesitant to make relationships because he doesn’t want to be hurt again. But, if you go out with him to the living world, you’ll catch him staring longingly at parents and daughters when he thinks you’re not looking. If you ask him what he’s looking at, he’ll shake his head and spit out a line about children being obnoxious but you can tell he’s blowing smoke.

G = Gifts (how do they feel about gift giving? What are their habits when it comes to this?)

If the underworld wasn’t so dangerous, he’d love to drape you in the finest silks with diamonds and rubies dripping off of you. However he doesn’t want you to draw any unnecessary attention to yourself. So, he settles for things you don’t really see in public. He also doesn’t like to be found out about it. Your gas tank is filled, the bill you were worried about has mysteriously been paid, your favorite ice cream is in your freezer when you know you ate the last of it yesterday, and hey, didn’t you spend this $20? Why is it in your wallet? If you ever bring it up he’ll just shrug and say “How strange!”

H = Holding Hands (when/how do they like to hold hands?)

He’s torn about PDA because he doesn’t want you to become a target because you’re associated with him, and people stare at him enough because of his appearance. But on the other hand, he wants to show the world that someone as worthless as him (don’t say that we love you Frankie) has such an amazing person that loves him. Will absolutely grab you and passionately make out with you with one hand on your ass and the other flipping the bird to the cheeky bastard that told the broad beside him to watch out for the zombie.

I = Injury (how would they act if you got hurt?)

Panic. Sheer panic. He’s so afraid to lose you, any injury is serious and cause for alarm.

Frankie:*bursting into a hospital lobby, screaming to be taken to f/n l/n immediately**running in the opposite direction the nurse pointed in panic**bursts into exam room 30 seconds later* “Y/N!!!!! I came as soon as I got the message, WHATS WRONG!!!”

You: *sitting on the table, reading phone* “Oh, I have a sprained ankle and they don’t want me to drive so can you give me a ride?”

Frankie:*slowly blinking* “Uh, yeah no problem…”

You: “lemme guess, you heard my name and hospital in the same sentence and ignored everything else.”

Frankie:*hanging his head* “go wait in the car, I’ll go apologize….”

J = Jokes (do they like to joke around with or prank you? how?)

Not actual jokes, but he loves to sit with you and insult people. He’s an incredibly sweet person to you, but no one else. (Except service people, like nurses and waitresses. Just the general public) he doesn’t think pranks are funny or practical, which is one of the many reasons he and LJ butt heads. If LJ or Will prank you or him, he’s raising hell.

K = Kisses (how do they like to kiss you?)

Love kissing your lips. He’s actually really self conscious about his mouth stitches and constantly frets they feel weird to you. Neck kisses are another favorite and are extremely private to him. He also likes to hold the back of your hand against his lips and tell you what he’s thinking, no matter how mundane. Kiss his stitches. Please. Just do it.

L = Love (how do they show you they love you?)

He has trouble saying it to your face. He’ll whisper it to you when he thinks you’re sleeping, and he’s been known to leave little notes around for you to find. He thinks protecting you is the best way to show he cares.

M = Memory (favorite memory together?)

The day you finally broke down and told him you loved him. He knew as soon as he looked into your eyes and saw your smile his goose was cooked. He was very abrasive and hoping against hope that you’d leave him be. He knew you deserved better. He was so afraid to build a relationship and love again, he wanted to distance himself and if he was an asshole to you, it would be justified and you’d do it on your own. What he didn’t expect is for you to be so kind to him. Upon your initial meeting, he had been a little harsh, but helped you (if there’s enough interest I’ll do a fic about it) and so when he subsequently was a jerk to you, you were curious and determined to find out what he was hiding. He finally had been mean enough to make you cry. He had never regretted something he did before. He immediately wanted to cradle you to him and beg your forgiveness. Normally when he insulted you, you’d have a snarky retort in reply. But not this time. You fell to your knees and clung to his legs and demanded to know why he treated you so poorly and proclaimed your love for him. It was probably by accident and you were so distraught you didn’t even know it flew from your mouth, but hearing it, he couldn’t take it anymore. He didn’t care about the consequences, he just wanted you. Hearing that you loved someone like him made him so happy, he knew he’d treasure the memory forever

N = Nightmare (what is their worst fear?)

Losing you. Period.

O = Oddity (what is one quirk they have?)

What ISNT odd about this man?! A cute one is he always winks with his green eye.

P = Pet Names (what do they like to call you?)

I HC that he was born in the 30’s, so he calls you “doll” a lot but only in private. He uses your name otherwise so it’s not as obvious to people watching you’re together. He will absolutely refer to you as “the dame” to others. The equivalent of “the boss” or “old lady.” “William! The Dame is trying to take a nap, so shut up or I’ll shoot you!” You call him stitches to tease him in private and are the only person allowed to do so.

Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time with you?) Either taking naps or couch potato time. Also, low key likes to cook with you. He can’t cook for shit, but likes to “help” by handing you things or chopping things for you. Is a super good taste tester, self appointed.

R = Rhythm (what song reminds you of them?)

Stitches by Shawn Mendez (PLEASE DONT HURT ME!!)

We don’t have to Dance by Andy Black (referring to how he can’t really show you affection in public but he loves you)

S = Secrets (how open are they with you?)

He’s open about himself and what he’s thinking, and will always take what you say into consideration. He doesn’t like to keep things from you, but he does omit some detail about his jobs if you ask about them. He just feels like you don’t need to be stressed about it.

T = Time (how long did it take you to get together?)

LJ picked up on Frankie’s fondness of you almost instantly. He and Will decided to do what they could to get you together in the interest of making Frankie less of a grouch. If it hadn’t been for them insisting that he was good guy to you, you probably WOULD have let Frankie’s prickly nature drive you away. It took a year or so for you to break down.

U = Upset (how do they act when you’re upset?) A powder keg of insults, foul language, and bullets. Has actually never called you a name outright, and would absolutely never physically hurt you. When he was deliberately being rude to you, he’d insult your actions rather than you. “Stop acting like a dumb broad!” Vs calling you a bitch to your face. He usually calms down quickly, and is hardly ever angry at you, only when you put yourself in danger.

V = Vaunt (what are they proud of? Do they like to show you off?)

He likes that he’s scary and tough looking so that when you’re with him, other men scatter pretty fast. Has had many occasions where he stepped away and someone came to flirt with you and he came back and had the pleasure of scaring them.

W = Warrior (how do they feel about you fighting? Would they fight for you, beside you, etc?)

You are not allowed to do anything dangerous, ever! Will teach you how to use a gun and how to counter things like chokeholds, so you’re less vulnerable. Will absolutely lose his mind if he learns you’ve put yourself at risk. He will shoot someone so fast for you. Takes every person as a threat to you and will pick fights with somebody that accidentally bumped into you. Do NOT test this man.

X = X-Ray (how well are they able to read you?)

You are an open book to him. He’s learned to read people well, and he takes his time studying you. Can tell if you’re getting sick before you can. More than once he’s handed you a bottle of Tylenol, leaving you bewildered, and shrugged and said to take them because you’ll have a headache in a few minutes. He can pick up on your emotions easily and has learned what to do to handle them.

Y = Yes (how would they propose to you?)

Honestly, marriage isn’t that important to him. He’s not opposed to the idea at all, but like you’ve been together for this long, you love each other, is it really necessary? You’d have to tell him you want to be officially married. He’ll buy you a ring, to show that you’re taken, if nothing else, but he’ll wear his around his neck under his tie so it’s not obvious he’s attached to anyone to discourage his rivals using you to get to him.

Z = Zen (what makes them feel calm?)

The smell of your perfume. Holding you in his arms and taking deep breaths makes all of his troubles go away.